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hey guys im back ☹️

thought about recovery but look how that turned out

instead of straight starvation (bc let’s be fr was I even doing that) im a health nut now

veggies and exercise and cal counting are the current method of weight loss

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maybe tmi but I haven’t p00ped since Tuesday…

I drank some laxative tea earlier and I bought some prunes so I’m hoping it’ll work

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guys I don’t want my hair to get thinner and I don’t want my b00bs to shrink and I don’t want bad breath and I don’t want to be constantly tired

but I want to be thin and I want to be lightheaded and I want to always be cold and I want to be comfortable showing off my body and I want people to hug me and feel how small i am

God forbid a girl want two things to exist at once

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i want appetite suppressants and laxatives do yall know where i can get some

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home alone you know what that meanssssss

not eating!!!

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all i want rn is a monster, a really cute cat, and my dream body

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I tried alligator! It was super tender and didn’t taste too bad but I didn’t eat much. I think I’m going to bring it home and give it to my boyfriend or my dad

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“can mutuals dm you?” my mutuals can fire me from a cannon through a brick wall, looney tunes style. as long as we’re all having fun

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so I hung out with a friend yesterday that I hadn't seen since June and she'd gotten soooo much thinner. she'd developed an ed and lost a ton of weight and part of me feels sooo bad for her bc no one should have to deal with this tbh. but another small part of me is jealous. her collarbones and her shoulders were prominent, her thighs didn't touch, when I wrapped my arms around her waist I could feel her ribs. her face was so slim and her spine was nearly sticking out. I feel bad but part of me wants to be like her

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hey divas I've missed you guys !!!

ive been eating so much recently and i'm really disappointed in myself. I got a new phone and I haven't installed my cal counting app yet. summer is coming so I really need to work hard these next few weeks

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off topic but i have a 90 in a class rn and it's pissing me off

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what if i draw an X on my hand so that anytime i reach for food i'll see it

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thinspo?

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two of my friends had a drama not talking stage and they both lost 20 pounds...

LORD PLEASE HELP ME

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y'all help what do i get my mom and sister for Christmas??? i'm getting my dad a new coach laptop bag but idk about my mom and sister ahhhh

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very hungry

very demure

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i genuinely just want to be thin but at the same time i don't want to work out and i lowk always find a way to eat wtf is wrong with me 💀