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i keep forgetting to post this but yea i am doing artfight this year as well. am on team fossils

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What book is your limbus OC based on? They look super cool!

thank you!! he's based on Mio, min Mio by Astrid Lindgren (also known as Mio, my son in english)

it was one of my absolute favorite books as a kid and is probably my fav out of all of Astrid Lindgren's works :]

if i were to try to briefly describe it, i'd say it's a fairytale that is also the barely disguised escapist fantasy of an abused child. but that's barely even scratching the surface tbh. it's chock full of symbolism and themes and it's all brought to you in the most heartwrenchingly beautiful lyrical writing you will ever read and i am not exaggerating when i say that.

it's not one of Lindgren's most famous books, but imo it's extremely underrated and i HIGHLY recommend it.

(though fair warning the english translation kinda sucks and REALLY doesn't do the writing of the original justice)

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PLEASE SURVIVE

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rq before canto VIII drops please consider: barber ryoshu. thanks

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actually have some more Mios

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det var en gång en konungason, som var ute och red i månskenet

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Goretober prompt list 2024!

Feel free to use and repost without need for credit :)

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my part of an art trade with @killhimthroughme !!

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THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS HE LOOKS GREATTTT

art trade with @livisart

i 🖤 emo boys

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am doing artfight this year btw

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4/26

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bnuuy that kicks your ass

bday gift for @bleedstatus

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the bride and her ugly ass groom

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Can I ask what happened with Datakits, I'm in the species and I'm concerned.

this ask is like half a year old at this point so idk if ur still interested. but basically:

(tw suicide)

my ex (who is a datakits moderator) conducted a smear campaign against me. this included completely made up and ridiculous stalking accusations (which were based on me doing things like "talking about a video game with someone" and "following someone on artfight") accusations of "harassment" (because i "vagueposted" by referencing my trauma in the tags of ONE tumblr post. why my ex has such in depth knowledge of everything i post on tumblr when he claimed to want nothing to do with me, i dont know. lmao) etc. he even went so far as to take my attempts at recovery and improving myself after a traumatic event and twist that to be me trying to get back on his good side or whatever. he also outright told ppl to just block me and not talk to me, i'm guessing because his narrative required no one getting my side of things.

some of the people he spread this to were the datakit owners, because me being "too active" in that server was apparently malicious according to him (the actual reason i was very active in the datakits server was because datakits were and still are a special interest of mine and a HUGE comfort to me, and this was abt 2 weeks after i attempted suicide, hence me trying to cope using things i take comfort in???? also i was not given a warning abt being too active, if i was being too active and causing discomfort i should have just been told so)

the datakit owners took his inane bs as 100% fact, did not talk to me abt it, banned and blocked me, and sent my ex to tell me about it. which is horrible species management, but i digress.

once again, this all took place abt 2 weeks after i tried to jump in front of a god damn train. and my ex springing all this on me and spreading shit abt me made me suicidal again. which my ex used to spread that i was "using suicide to guilt him", which is a fucking vile thing to say abt someone who literally just attempted suicide.

i eventually got one of the owners to talk to me and explained the situation.

here's the kicker. even though the owners are now aware of, and fully believe and acknowledge that the shit spread abt me was false, i remain banned, because apparently the shit my ex spread abt me made one of the owners too ~uncomfortable~ with me due to ~associations~/banning me is "irreversible" for some unexplained reason. meanwhile my ex remains a mod and did not face any disciplinary action because "hE gEnUiNelY tHouGht yOu wErE sTaLkiNg hIm" and "he has paranoia and experiences delusions so you being mad at him is ableist actually uwu" (i'm BARELY paraphrasing here)

as someone who ALSO has paranoia and experiences delusions, i honestly find the notion of "mentally ill ppl cant help but spread lies abt ppl uwu" really insulting. but whatever. especially since his actions ACTUALLY ALMOST CAUSED SOMEONE'S DEATH because his little smear campaign caused me enough distress that i attempted suicide again :))))

the owner did keep in contact with me while i was in the psych ward, which was nice i guess except our conversations almost entirely consisted of him defending his and the other owners actions because "ummm in our defense the allegations were ~serious~" and insisting that i shouldnt hold any of this against him or the other owner.

ive been very afraid to talk abt this because my ex also made a point to tell me that he "could do a lot worse to ruin my life if he wanted to", and i believe him. but honestly i dont fucking care anymore

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this piece of poetry is meant to do harm