makemeyourvillain

[makemeyourvillain]

"You don't seem like the type"

I know! I put all my efforts to not fit in into the most common basic stereotypes, thank you!

[makemeyourvillain]

being anti ai is making me feel like in going insane. "you asked for thoughts about your characters backstory and i put it into chat gpt for ideas". studies have proven its making people dumber. "i asked ai to generate this meal plan". its causing water shortages where its data centers are built. "ill generate some pictures for the dnd campaign". its spreading misinformation. "meta, generate an image of this guy doing something stupid". its trained off stolen images, writing, video, audio. "i was talking with my snapchat ai-" theres no way to verify what its doing with the information it collects. "youtube is impletmenting ai based age verification". my work has an entire graphics media department and has still put ai generated motivational posters up everywhere. ai playlists. ai facial verification. google ai microsoft ai meta ai snapchat ai. everyone treats it as a novelty. every treats it as a mandatory part of life. am i the only one who sees it? am i paranoid? am i going insane? jesus fucking christ. if i have to hear one more "well at least-" "but it does-" "but you can-" im about to lose it. i shouldnt have to jump through hoops to avoid the evil machine. have you no principles? no goddamn spine? am i the weird one here?

[makemeyourvillain]

Having to maintain hygiene everyday is TERRIBLE I hate it I would not recommend

[makemeyourvillain]

I know that something is up but I don't know what

[makemeyourvillain]

i think I just did the worst thing ever

Everytime whenever I'm sad I choose between the most weirdest scariest inadequatest coping mechanisms and something what's healthier for me

[makemeyourvillain]

Everytime whenever I'm sad I choose between the most weird scary and inadequate coping mechanisms and something what's healthier for me

[makemeyourvillain]

Should've known something was up when I tried viral tiktok filter "you as a Tim Burton character" and actually liked what I saw

[makemeyourvillain]

And suddenly, the bread is tasty again.

[makemeyourvillain]

If you ignore me, I won't be kind. I'll wait till you finally text me back and repeat the cycle, though this time in a different roles.

[makemeyourvillain]

"Because I said so" straight up isn't as good an answer as you think it is.

[makemeyourvillain]

Fake it 'till you make it but please please let me make it I'm begging on my knees

[makemeyourvillain]

To be honest I don't even know why people are subscribed to me but hey thanks for coming to my TED talk

[makemeyourvillain]

To be honest I'm scared that I never won't be able to fit in. I'm scared to talk to new people, terrified actually and don't see the necessity in that BUT I'm scared that I will never make any friends beside those I have. And my family, we're moving somewhere and moving, and we haven't find somewhere to stay yet. And we can't go back to my country either.

I'm just really tired and no matter how strong my "i-don't-give-a-fuck" my game and the tough act is, I think I still need people more than they need me.

[makemeyourvillain]

This random urge to block the two of my friends (the only two persons I'm talking to) just because they don't respond to me... Someone please hit me

[makemeyourvillain]

Time will pass and people will never stay by your side forever

[makemeyourvillain]

"but you seem so different..."

No shit! Maybe it's because I literally crawl out of my skin in order to be percieved like that? Maybe it's because I still want to fit in and be accepted? And I'm scared that being completely honest will ruin it?

[makemeyourvillain]

"are you upset because of me?"

Oh, clearly not! I don't want to admit it and upset you and make you feel guilty!

I've gotten completely silent and have written a dozens of posts in my private blog for a completely different reason.