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When my husband jokes about our country being bombed, I don't find it funny, though I understand that it's his own way of coping with that very real possibility. When I think about it, I'm more distraught about him dying than myself. I think about how the government hasn't officially lifted the draft and that about 2-3 years ago police were picking up young able-bodied men off the streets, causing many men in this country to be fearful of going into work and some of them even re-entered Uni just to get out of being sent to war. During that time I was lucky enough that my now husband was working from home and didn't need to go into an office, but my friend's husband was told by his boss not to come into work because it wasn't safe. Soon after, the police came to his place of work to take who they could.

I think about this a lot. About how I've had to come to terms with this reality and how it has merely been put on pause. My heart feels heavier each time I do.

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I wanted to redesign my Oc because it's been a while now

first design of the character in february 2021, so 4 years ago

and my last painting of her was this :

september 2023

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My therapist... Has seen better days.

(as have I)

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I have an obsession special interest and it consumed me more than a year ago.

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back to where you belong

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Who are you people?…

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Ok I need to stop fucking drawing before I wreck my arms again

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風邪っぴきシーザー🐏🤒

Sorry,I'm not confident in my English ability.

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Nasty.

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Self shipping isn't enough i need him to rip a hole between dimensions to get to me

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Hatte keine Ahnung, dass du Deutsche bist 👀

Unglaublich, aber wahr: @vividly-vermillion verdient heute einen guten Tag.

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If you see a dog doing the macarena on its hind legs at 3 in the morning on your ring doorbell camera, that is not a dog.

If you hear a fart in the middle of the woods...run.

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If you hear a fart in the middle of the woods...run.

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