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I gave you all that my heart could give but you still want some more How the fuck Is that even fair baby It don’t make no sense

[nidamidaleo]

i fucking hate my mother. why did i have to be born. why couldn’t i have had a mother i could love?

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i got into an argument with my mother and she just told me to starve myself- now she's playing innocent and asking me why i'm upset.

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religious households are so weird. they all somehow come to the conclusion that mental illness is a result of a lack of religiousness.

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praying the rosary calms my anxiety so well

[nidamidaleo]

i'm really a mess. i wish i could just sit in church and cry my heart out. but that'll have to wait till sunday. i'll bear with praying the rosary listening to hymns for now.

يا رب ارحم، يا رب ارحم، يا رب ارحم

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[nidamidaleo]

only man i trust rn is the one i worship.

[nidamidaleo]

i started 🌟ving to lose weight but ended up gaining. now i'm at a higher weight than when i started. *sigh*

[nidamidaleo]

Genuinely thought i'd be at my gw by now. what happened?

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been chewing gum since yesterday. my jaw hurts lmao

[nidamidaleo]

6:14pm. mother and stepfather are not back home yet. my little sisters have been watching mlp all day 😭 aaand my man's still here cuz my lil brother loves him too much lol. but he's gotta go in an hour or so. i'm gonna run to the store and buy some snacks real quick.

[nidamidaleo]

i miss you baba.

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he (my situationship) is coming over in a couple minutes for no reason bc why not.. he's prolly gonna stay a while and babysit my siblings again. he's the sweetest. i couldn't do it on my own. i'm not doing well. mentally.

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haven't gotten any shut eye. i woke up at like 8pm yesterday bc i went to bed at 11am [had to study] and now i can't sleep and i still got a whole ton of work to do. my mother and stepfather just left for work and my siblings are still asleep. my sleep schedule is a fucking mess.

Lord, help me.

الجامعة ٧:١٤ في يوم الخير افْرَح، وفي يوم الشر تَأمَّل. إنَّ الله صنع هذا وذاك، لكيلا يَعلَم الإنسان ما يأتي بعده.

[nidamidaleo]

I wanna unmeet so many people

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i love my brother so much ugh ☹️☹️ he's so smol and cuteee

[nidamidaleo]

bro my little brother is so adorable 😭 how could i ever have gotten mad at him :(( i would die for him