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I dont care anymore, i love my au, i want to share, i have to

Missa

Missa was worried about Philza's recent behavior, but Philza says that he is just tired for the help he brings to Forever with the investigation of the eggs... Missa doesnt know what to do, so he just play along for the moment.

"I hope doesnt bother you that he is staying in the basement" says Philza, always smiling

"What do you mean?" Missa got concerned about this.

"I made him a room so he can take some rest, he is not feeling good with all disappearing of the eggs" Philza says with a smile, then Missa asks to see the room.

They go to the basement of the basement where Philza made a secret room. The room had a bed, some decorations and all the wall were cover with Richarlyson's drawings of Forever.

He shows the room to Missa and how they are investigating.

"But Forever should be here, i dont know where he went now" Philza says losing the big smile in his face, Missa tries to ask more but Philza doesnt listen and starts to look for Forever in the room and the basement "did you watch him go outside? Where did he go now?! He never stays in the same place for 5 minutes" Philza laughs a little, Missa just get more worried "Philza, i haven't seen anyone else being in the house, coming in or out... is just the two of us"

But Philza doesnt listen, he keeps looking for Forever until he tooks another bottle of pills

"Wait, what was that?" Missa get close to see the bottle.

"Oh well Forever will be back soon" Philza laughs "maybe he went to look for Richas, I should prepare more food when he gets back, surely he would be tired" and Philza left the room, leaving a Missa full of concern, confusion...

and guilt

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Its been so long, since I last have seen my au lost to this monster... i miss my au and writting about, Non-existe Forever (now canon?!?!?) So here i am, bc i wanted to show how the risus arc was for delusional Philza 👍

Cucurucho had called Philza to talk privately, this wasn't the first time, they had spoken before, Cucurucho was very interested in asking about Forever. It seemed strange to Philza, but he could also get information from the federation.

This time it was different, the eggs were gone, he looked for them everywhere and nothing, Chayanne and Tallulah were not here. He wanted to go with Forever, surely he could find them, talk to the federation in case they knew something... but he wasn't there, Forever wasn't anywhere to be found either.

With no other option, Philza went directly to Cucurucho to ask him what he had done with Forever, surely he did something, thats why Cucurucho was asking him so many questions about Forever? (They were actually checking Philza's mental state)

Philza was very insistent on knowing where Forever was, going to Cucurucho every day to ask him. On one occasion Cucurucho offered a solution, he said that they knew how to make Philza see him and hear his voice again. For a moment Philza measured Cucurucho's words, but knowing that Forever would return was enough for him to agree to anything.

Cucurucho offered him a white bottle that had the same smiling face, at first he hesitated, he stared at it. He asked about "what its this?" and the only answer he got was that if he took it they would let him see Forever...

He felt a little dizzy... he felt pressure in his head... he felt sick... but all that disappeared when he heard

Hey Philza

It was him, Forever... he is back. Smiling, Philza went to give him a hug... Forever was here, now everything is going to be fine.

Cucurucho was quietly seeing Philza smiling, sitting on the floor pressing the bottle of pills in his face... he let out little laughs sometimes.

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Anyway I'll never move on from philever, these gave me absolute brain damage for 7 months I'm too far gone, no other ship or duo will ever compare or reach the level of development and insanity they had in my eyes

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Nooo i would never 👀 (i deleted the question by accident and Tumblr doesnt help)

The eggs were gone, Philza looked everywhere for Tallulah and Chayanne, he asked everyone on the island about what happened, but no one knew... Philza was alone again.

No Missa

No Wilbur

No Chayanne

No Tallulah

And no Forever

He couldn't find him anywhere, he promised to be by his side forever, where was he now? Looking for eggs? It's possible, yes, he knows that Forever cares about them a lot. Maybe he is talking to the federation.

But what if the federation did something to him? Maybe that's why he doesn't find it, if the federation captured the eggs, they may have also captured Forever

Philza will see him again at any cost

😁

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Who?

This are my scuff edits

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I forgot to share this (edit made it by random guy on discord)

Etoiles POV:

I wanted to continue uploading the au chronologically in terms of the important lore moments, but I got stuck with the presidency. Philza shouldn't run because he's an anarchist, so I don't know how to use the Forever President here, I could make Etoiles win... or Felps (he deserves it)

So i'm going to the important, the wedding :)

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Since the day they arrived on this island, Etoiles had not noticed anything out of the ordinary in the other islanders, they were all quite friendly and of course they had their debates during the presidential postulations, but there was always a good coexistence between everyone.  Although he noticed that Philza kept his distance on some occasions, like during the Festa Junina when he saw him move away from the group or stay with Chayanne and Tallulah

And at Cellbit and Roier's wedding (Pac and Mike were the bestmen, making sure everything went well for the event). As a security guard, he kept an eye on Slime and Quackity, and looking everywhere if someone is not happy or is talking about politics, even at the after party

Etoiles leave for a moment and he didn't see when Philza get closer to the event of throwing the bouquet, he didn't see how the bouquet fell into Philza's hands, Fit making jokes about next one getting married and Quackity was complaining

When he returned, he walked through the place, there was when he saw Philza away from the rest, near to the explosion. He saw him alone with the bouquet of roses in his hands, smelling each one of them and smiling... laughing

He get closer to speak with him, but Philza didn't respond. Then he saw Philza started to break every flower, walk to the hole that the explosion made and throw the destroyed bouquet there

Forever

Philza said before going into the woods, walking away from the party, he walked fast and screaming

Forever! Wait, get back here!

Etoiles took an invisibility potion before follow him, Philza kept screaming that name, who was he calling?

Then Philza stopped in a clearing, looking at the sunset... and he just sat there. Etoiles put some signs next to him, but Philza didn't care, he was just looking at the sky, at the night that was aproaching

There were many questions in Etoiles' mind, but one overrode the others.  Who is Forever? He didn't see him when they arrived or in all this time, he will have to ask... maybe he is one of those who haven't appeared since the first days on the island...

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for your non existent forever au, do u want forever to not exist always or will he literally manifest into being through Phil believing in him more than anything? Like starts as ghost-like images at first, then just one day, exists.

Forever will never exist. He is just a delusion from Philza, it can only get worse

Philza thinks, he is convinced, that Forever is real to the point that he fill some memories with Forever there. Ofc he couldn't fill all his memories, so his mind chose the closest date, the arrival of the Brazilians

Now is when I have to start working on the Happy Pills arc, that's where everything gets worse with this delusion... and the coma

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I wanted to continue uploading the au chronologically in terms of the important lore moments, but I got stuck with the presidency. Philza shouldn't run because he's an anarchist, so I don't know how to use the Forever President here, I could make Etoiles win... or Felps (he deserves it)

So i'm going to the important, the wedding :)

☆

Since the day they arrived on this island, Etoiles had not noticed anything out of the ordinary in the other islanders, they were all quite friendly and of course they had their debates during the presidential postulations, but there was always a good coexistence between everyone.  Although he noticed that Philza kept his distance on some occasions, like during the Festa Junina when he saw him move away from the group or stay with Chayanne and Tallulah

And at Cellbit and Roier's wedding (Pac and Mike were the bestmen, making sure everything went well for the event). As a security guard, he kept an eye on Slime and Quackity, and looking everywhere if someone is not happy or is talking about politics, even at the after party

Etoiles leave for a moment and he didn't see when Philza get closer to the event of throwing the bouquet, he didn't see how the bouquet fell into Philza's hands, Fit making jokes about next one getting married and Quackity was complaining

When he returned, he walked through the place, there was when he saw Philza away from the rest, near to the explosion. He saw him alone with the bouquet of roses in his hands, smelling each one of them and smiling... laughing

He get closer to speak with him, but Philza didn't respond. Then he saw Philza started to break every flower, walk to the hole that the explosion made and throw the destroyed bouquet there

Forever

Philza said before going into the woods, walking away from the party, he walked fast and screaming

Forever! Wait, get back here!

Etoiles took an invisibility potion before follow him, Philza kept screaming that name, who was he calling?

Then Philza stopped in a clearing, looking at the sunset... and he just sat there. Etoiles put some signs next to him, but Philza didn't care, he was just looking at the sky, at the night that was aproaching

There were many questions in Etoiles' mind, but one overrode the others.  Who is Forever? He didn't see him when they arrived or in all this time, he will have to ask... maybe he is one of those who haven't appeared since the first days on the island...

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Chayanne's concern for his dad only grows day by day, it doesn't help that Tallulah doesn't show any signs of alarm. One day he can't keep pretending that this is normal, listening to Philza talk about a guy he's never seen, adults have imaginary friends? But Philza just smile Dont worry Chayanne, Forever is not going to interfer in this family, don't worry about him. Philza thinks that's why Chayanne is upset, that Forever is a replacement for Missa

For Tallulah, Forever is like a little hope Since that day, Forever want to protect you and all the eggs. A strength that her abuelito used to work harder to care of them and to keep going in this island, to keep smiling everyday. She doesn't see how bad can be for Philza keep depending on this delusion

Richarlyson is happy to have another dad, although he has not seen him, Philza has spoken so well of Forever that he does not mind not seeing him if he does so much for him. Plus, Richas has Philza taking care of him too, so that also making him happy

At the moment this what i have about the eggs, im still working on how they act about this delusion

And working in Chayanne speaking about this with Missa and trying to confront his dad (spoiler: it make it worst)

And other ppl pov

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- oh yeah, the Brunim thing doesn't happen bc Philza doesn't know Brunim

Some details about the au

- In Philza's mind, all the other islanders know about Forever, sometimes it seems strange that they ask about him

- All of Forever's flirting is imagined by Philza out of the need for someone to keep an eye on him

- On one occasion they tried to ask Wilbur if he knew something about Forever, but he didn't and in fact he told them that something similar had happened before (when he and Tommy tried to convince Philza that Kristin wasn't real (i'm adding this bc is funny and it gives more creepy? vibes to the thing))

- Yes, Richarlyson knows about Forever because Philza always take the opportunity to tells him about it and how he cares a lot about Richas being well protected and safe. Richas put on your armor please, Forever gets distressed when you're without armor

- Idk how the f* add the "sister Baghera" thing, i guess i can ignore that

- Tallulah asked about who is Forever, she called it "abuelito's imaginary friend"

- Chayanne is worried about this everytime Philza bring it up, he doesn't know what to do... his dad looks happy?

This song is for the au

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For the au

People seeing Phil make Ninho but him insisting Forever made it

Exactly

He was day and night working on the Ninho project (when he didn't have to take care of the eggs) he explained to the others how it works and said that it was Forever's idea and that he built it

Proud of what Forever did

I'm not sure about the Mega Base tho, maybe he built that too or is just 4 wall and a tree idk

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Some details about the au

- In Philza's mind, all the other islanders know about Forever, sometimes it seems strange that they ask about him

- All of Forever's flirting is imagined by Philza out of the need for someone to keep an eye on him

- On one occasion they tried to ask Wilbur if he knew something about Forever, but he didn't and in fact he told them that something similar had happened before (when he and Tommy tried to convince Philza that Kristin wasn't real (i'm adding this bc is funny and it gives more creepy? vibes to the thing))

- Yes, Richarlyson knows about Forever because Philza always take the opportunity to tells him about it and how he cares a lot about Richas being well protected and safe. Richas put on your armor please, Forever gets distressed when you're without armor

- Idk how the f* add the "sister Baghera" thing, i guess i can ignore that

- Tallulah asked about who is Forever, she called it "abuelito's imaginary friend"

- Chayanne is worried about this everytime Philza bring it up, he doesn't know what to do... his dad looks happy?

This song is for the au

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if you couldn’t catch it, phil hit his subgoal and showed some youngza pics. im losing it

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No clue, nothing, Cellbit found no trace of anyone with the name Forever and, as always, the federation was not helping at all. There was no use asking Philza about this individual either.

He is Richarlyson's other dad who arrived with you guys, you should know him better than me, mate

Always the same answer, with the same confidence, it seemed that he said it automatically. Cellbit wasn't sure how worried he should be about this, while this was all very strange, it doesn't seem like it was something the federation did... the only option was that Philza had finally lost his mind after being on this island for so long, but Philza doesn't look like someone who was going to go crazy from one day to another... right?

And then one day he found something, a drawing by Richarlyson. It was of a guy with blonde hair and brown eyes, he was smiling with Richarlyson next to him. When Cellbit went to ask about, Richas described the guy as someone who cared a lot about the eggs and had something strange with uncle Philza. Cellbit continued asking about every detail that Richas knew about his "dad" Forever.

Maybe he should ask to Chayanne and Tallulah too.

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It already seemed strange to him that Philza wanted to take care of Richarlyson just the day after Tallulah's death, it is already dangerous to take care of two eggs, now he wants to take care of three?  He heard that Philza had been very overwhelmed after that event, but now he was smiling carefree and calm, as if nothing bad had happened.

Cellbit wasn't sure, he felt something was wrong, that's why he didn't allow him to take care of Richas, that Pac and Mike would take care of him today.

His doubts only increased when he heard Philza mention someone named Forever as he left. Cellbit didn't know who he was talking about, he hear wrong?

What a shame, Forever wanted to spend more time with Richas

Ppl like it more than i thought, i have to do more

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Where Forever is just a manifestation of Philza's sadness after Tallulah's first death.

Philza felt so alone, taking care of two eggs, he couldn't handle everything alone. Then a figure appeared, someone who was so obsessed with him that he would never leave him alone, someone who cared a lot about taking care of all the eggs.

Someone who would be there whenever he needed him and would always brighten his day.

Someone who will be by his side... Forever

Welcome to Non-existent Forever AU :D

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there is 3 options, kid (Cell), cone (Ro) or an enemy (Slime)

Cell drew that spider in Ro