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that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own, populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness with elaborate passageways to thousands of other lives that you’ll never know existed in which you might appear only once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background.

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I wish to find a person who would love me for who I truly am, for me being ME, not because I am pretty, smart, or attractive. Someone who would get excited just because I exist and someone who would enjoy the silence with me.

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I love the feeling of being excited, but then I get scared because, in the past, whenever I got excited about anything, it did not turn out as expected. Now, I sabotage my own feelings because I am afraid of being disappointed and sad. But why should I be scared? Aren't all these feelings what makes us human after all and keeps life going?

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for the first time in so long i am excited for something, for the first time in so long i finally have something to look forward to, i am so excited to go to uni, to step into this new chapter of my life, to experience this new life, even though it also comes with its own ups and down but for the first time in so long i am excited

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why at night when a breeze of wind touches my skin it makes me fall in love with life all over again, it makes me thank Allah for letting me experience this, if you think about it its the little things like this which makes you fall in love with life and which makes life worth living

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being poor is a tragedy in itself if you get you get it if you don’t consider yourself lucky and thank “god” for not being one of us

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Money can buy me.

Set me free of this curse, of this poverty. I want to be rich so rich that we never have to worry about what are we going to have for dinner how are we going to afford groceries how are we gonna pay the bills, rent, fees for kids school and transportation money i really want to be free of this curse (poverty is a curse my friend) I hate seeing how my mom is constantly worried about how is she going to manage all that, I hate how my father is trying so hard but is still unable to earn a penny, I wanna be free of this stress where I constantly have to worry about how am I gonna study further how am I going to pay my uni fee so yes money can buy me and free me of this torment (which is impossible) thank you.

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what if everything you have is enough for you? what if “enough is enough for you” but you are not able to understand it because you want things you want everything. but when you get what you want then you want another thing when you get that you want another thing again and this cycle keeps on going for the rest of your life. and I think it's fine it's okay to want things it's okay to want everything it's just a part of our nature it's just us being “humans” and I think it's okay.

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and it makes me sad and also makes me scared that what if the person I am going to love the most is someone with whom I’ll be hesitant to talk about something or anything what if he is not the person I have dreamed of all these years what if he is not someone who will love me unconditionally for the rest of our lives and not just for a brief moment of our lives.

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But I think I might have that person and that person is my mom I can talk about anything and everything without the “fear” of anything and I am really glad that I have her in my life as my Mom. Alhumdullilah MashaAllah x10000

you can never talk about “everything” with anyone because of the fear of judgment, fear of making them sad, fear of them not keeping your secrets, fear of being made fun of, fear of not being listened to, fear of boring them with your talk. I hope we’ll all find that one person with whom we can talk about anything without the “fear” of anything.

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you can never talk about “everything” with anyone because of the fear of judgment, fear of making them sad, fear of them not keeping your secrets, fear of being made fun of, fear of not being listened to, fear of boring them with your talk. I hope we’ll all find that one person with whom we can talk about anything without the “fear” of anything.

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you know how much i love studying but at the same time i hate it, i enjoy the suffering that comes with it and still have mental breakdowns and cry about it, how when i am not studying i miss studying and how i just wanna stay a student forever, how i wanna stay in this little bubble for the rest of my life and do not wanna get out of my bubble and face the real world out there.