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about to spend these next two weeks concerned by not only brixton’s glowing prophecy face but also about the horrifying concept of all those noble families (like adelia’s family until recently apparently) holed up in their homes for years.

like haha all love and peace but that sounds scary af. no thank you. tell father to stay far far away. i have concerns.

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ADELIA. BABY. YOUR WHO???

do i need to like… call someone?

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me; unhelpfully after a massive lore drop: YURI?

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matt mercer: age of umbra will be the darkest yet! death will abound!

me, holding adelia ever so gently as tears roll down my face: take it back???

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two totally normal additions to the group 🙂‍↕️

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I am loving the setting for Age of Umbra so much, give me all the creepy gothic characters

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you’re telling me riff raff from rocky horror and the girl from the ring have joel and ellie’d their way through the wastelands.

YOU’RE TELLING ME RIFF RAFF FROM ROCKY HORROR AND THE GIRL FROM THE RING HAVE JOEL AND ELLIE’D THEIR WAY THROUGH THE WASTELANDS?

i need to know everything about them i’m being so serious.

LIKE HE GETS HER TOYS?? LIKE THIS MAN MAKES BACK ALLEY DEALS FOR HER TOYS (and drugs) BUT ALSO TOYS??

HE GIVES HER PIGGY BACK RIDES?? SHE DOESN’T LIKE TO BE TOO FAR FROM HIM??

SHE’S A MAGICAL, DISSOCIATING, NINE YEAR OLD AND HE’S THE FREAK OF ALL TIME??

they were made SPECIFICALLY for me i have been BEGGING for someone to play a joel and ellie style found family duo. skreev and adelia i love you.

AND NOW A WIZARD SPIDER GUY AND AN EIGHT FOOT TALL ANGEL STATUE ARE GONNA ADOPT HER TOO?

anyways this is for me in such a big way.

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amiri was by far the most accurate representation of how it feels to talk to a girl. like yes the stars and the moon! and… uh… there’s boars now goodnight 😔

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it's her!!

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struggling to find time to finish this 😩 its almost done i promise

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i read what doesn’t break again and OH MY GOD?

i’m sorry laudna and imogen are SO INSANE THE WAY THEY FALL IN LOVE IMMEDIATELY LIKE THAT???

laudna really looked at imogen Once and decided that she was the most perfect thing on the planet. her saying that even if she had NOTHING else in a hundred years, she’d remember every freckle on imogen’s face after knowing her for like AN HOUR MAX?

there’s something about the way laudna cherishes imogen SO SO gently but SO SO intensely that is soooooo important to me. their traumas so deeply paint how they love and it’s not always a bad thing. laudna spends a lot of what doesn’t break losing things. her sense of autonomy and humanity, her things, her connections and relationships. so when she finds imogen? it’s like she eventually says! imogen is her anchor. she won’t lose imogen and her hope and desire is that imogen won’t lose her or let her go.

it’s why she memorizes the sound of her voice, the color of her hair, all the freckles on her face. she’ll remember imogen in every way she can. and when she gets to stay with imogen? she’ll cherish her in any way she can.

she describes filing imogen’s name away gently like it’s precious and fragile and doesn’t it often feel like that? the feeling of your mouth around a name, a perceptible marker of the person in front of you. an exchange of information that you can carry with you forever.

she’s laudna’s rescuer, she’s beautiful, she’s powerful and she’s real.

she’s imogen. and laudna loves imogen.

they are truly the wives of all time, i’m immediately rewatching bells hells bc WHAT DO YOU MEANNNN.

anyways that’s all.

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me? screaming about devotion?

yeah no one moved makes sense

but vox machina - stories untold spoilers lie ahead so be warned!

ANYWAYS

i finally finished the tides by sam maggs and i need to yap somewhere about it so i’m choosing the tumblr ether because this short story just encompassed one of my FAVORITE character traits to explore and illustrated the reason i will never think paladin is a boring class to play. that thing? devotion.

devotion is such a gut wrenching concept to explore especially in the way it interacts with love. devotion implies a sort of action. a movement. devotion is selfless. devotion also implies love. and this makes sense! love and devotion seem to go hand in hand, after all, isn’t love also selfless?

and this is what i loved SO much about ‘the tides,’ because while it highlights the absolute magnitude and beauty of devotion especially in romantic contexts (i’m a sucker for devotion like YES be devoted and like, specifically call it devotion! make parallels to worship!) it also makes the point to say that love also needs to be “selfish.” you have to be able to care for yourself.

i think making this point, in the context of kima and her oath to her god does something SO beautiful and like, so healing because this is not something that is easy to understand when raised with a concept of religious devotion. when you grow up to understand yourself as a selfish thing that needs to cast aside all wants and desires to lay over hot coals to be redeemed or to serve your purpose, that devotion becomes a map for love.

like, hearing the platinum dragon speak to kima, in the moment she realizes she’s in love with allura, and tell her that she has value inherently and can fight for herself outside of the context of the people she loves and is devoted to? literally SO beautiful and SO poignant. because devotion does not have to mean living only because how you serve brings value to your life. it means living because you have an inherent value. you have the ability to love and to laugh, to cry and grieve and bring joy and be a bummer sometimes and that isn’t valuable just because it is for anyone else. it’s valuable on the principle that you are capable of it.

like, to love someone is the most selfless and most selfish thing you can do and isn’t it a joy to do it?

anyways kimallura thoughts… no one touch me…

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this will perpetually sit at the top of my sapphic reads list

VOX MACHINA: STORIES UNTOLD is out TODAY!!

Sweet Critters, you can read my gay as fuck Kimallura story and other incredible works by powerhouses like Kendra Wells, Aabria Iyengar, Izzy Wasserstein, and so many more. Foreword by Liam O’Brien himself!!

I hope you enjoy sapphic angst because THAT’S WHAT I BRING FOR YOU MY FRIENDS

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CRITICAL ROLE: CAMPAIGN 3 Episode 121: A New Age Begins

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“i’m just imogen”

and isn’t that just the perfect summation of it? i made a point last episode that imogen has spent her life as a vessel. to her father, her face was her mother’s. to her town, she was an embodiment of every unknown they could fear. she’s been the exaltant hope, a child of the god-eater, the end of the pantheon, the storm.

she’s been a vessel.

but she doesn’t have to be a vessel forever.

dorian asks the gods if they want to live for themselves for once. he’s speaking to them, he’s speaking to himself and he’s also speaking quite well to imogen’s position. for once she can not only live for herself but she can live as herself. she doesn’t have to be predator or prey, goddess or vessel, she can just be imogen. and imogen is strong and good and powerful, not because she’s a vessel. but because she’s imogen.