outernetwarrior

[outernetwarrior]

Respect isn't real.

Only love and fear exist.

So which will you choose?

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Descend.

Let your mind descend.

Let your hopes plumet to through the cest pool that is your mind so that your fear may subside.

Descend and remember that this place is home.

You know how deep the pit is.

You know how long you have until the light is gone.

Disccend and let it end.

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Will my heart become stone, or will I find the strength to move forward yet again.

I'm starting to worry that the problem with me won't change.

I'm starting to worry that Ill never understand my issues.

Do I ignore them or try and change?

I don't honestly believe that change is possible.

I'm honestly not sure that I need to change.

Is my arrogance so divine that it has indeed become hubris?

What will I do next time? Is it insanity to hope for a different outcome?

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Let's hold a competition for all the world's leaders.

They will all compete against each other in various events related to leadership.

Ethics, knowing what constitutes a war crime, literacy, numeracy, science, history, geography, fist fighting, art, ability to clean up a mess, teaching young people, ect.

Then when we have a clear winner we should just listen to what ever the heck that person says.

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50 posts!

Actually feels like an achievement

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I not saying I prescribe to the idea of karma but, just sometimes, life's a bitch.

And I love her. With all my hearth and mind. And I just hope, that no matter what, she loves me too.

[outernetwarrior]

Because one day you'll be dying, and you'll wish you could still fight. #thedailygrind

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Original thoughts.

For a new way of living.

So much desire.

While I enjoy her company, she distracts me.

And her distractions cause me to lose sight of the unimportant goals I have laid out.

What were my goals before her? Did they have meaning? Or purpose? Did they excite me, as she does? Does she excite me?

The fear, in apropose to rejection, of finding the answer to this question; brings me pain.

The desire for disheartened retreat as I come to realize that my heart has not grown and remains yet young.

What will I become?

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My brain is dead.

My hope is dying.

But my resolve to finish is as strong as ever.

To put myself out there and try is hard. Especially when all out seems I do it's lose.

I think I can do better than others. This thought would make me uneasy. But now I've come to accept it as one of my thoughts. I might be wrong, but there is no point running from my thoughts and feelings.

I might as well follow them to their end.

Life is already filled with so much sadness that there is no need for doubt. And while the thought of being earnest still scares the shit out of me, the idea that these thoughts could bring me power adds fuel to the embers that are my dying dreams.

When did I become so compliant. When did the fear invade my heart. Did the fear serve purpose? Or was it all because of the drugs?

Do I truly seek to better myself? Or is it all a ploy to get me through my day? When did it all become so hard? When did I stop caring for the challenge?

To be a mighty hero, that will always be a dream. But to train for the day you die is beginning to seem pointless and silly. I used to wish of a good death. Now the idea of a good death escape me. The desire for blood has made me weak. Should I cast away this shell? Or am I too old to reforge myself?

[outernetwarrior]

Moments are fleeting. Strive for eternal beauty.

[outernetwarrior]

What do you do when your heart screams that it doesn't want to be healthy; that it only wants her...

[outernetwarrior]

Strength.

The search for good and evil is pointless. These concepts are most likely ideas born of the society you serve.

Instead search for strength.

In strength you will find the power to exercise your will apon the universe.

Find your strength, use it for what you see fit, and when you are ready to reflect on your actions you will have forged your own moral compass.

And that is the importance of strength. To provide a means to find a place your heart truly belongs.

So I pray to lady luck you do not lose yourself on your journey, and wish you well in your search for good training.

[outernetwarrior]

Life can be hard, even when things don't go wrong. That is why we train.

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What am I such a kunt sometimes? Like I'll catch myself having these thoughts and I'll be like wtf. I'll get scared and angry and how depraved I can be. I'll be let down and disheartened by how sad I can be.

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Short stories on the train 1.

It was a solemn night. The thought that these types of nights where increasing in frequency was starting to leave a bad taste in the back of the throat. Its repetitive nature begun to chip away at the very soul I had tried so hard to forge into an imbrakable chalice.

I promised myself I would not go back to the toxic ways. Promised I would remain sober. But under 4s karate night really tests your limits as a good person.

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I wanted to write something.

But I forgot.

And these things cause me pain.

It's a memory of a time I couldn't share a thought.

The feeling of disgust and cowardice at my inability to simply express.

I want to write more poetically to sound fancy, but my thoughts are still consumed by you.

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Why education matters.

If given the same upbringing and opportunities would people be different? Would they feel different? Would they be more content? Would they have more empathy? Could they all respond to there emotions in a healthy way? What does displaying emotions in a healthy manner mean?

This question is a good one.

If I were to break civilisation health down into it's key aspects it would be this:

If civilisation is built of individuals, then the 3 states of mind for the individual are as follows.

Me that I am as thoughts throughout the day.

The me I try to be.

The me everyone sees.

The me everyone talks about.

My place in society.

Societies expectations.

The are related but I wanted to keep them separate.

Your own personal mental state is reliant on a few things, all relating to success.

People need to have "wins that they value" to bolster their mental health.

To have a lawful civilisation means to common values.

Values can be intrinsic or extrinsic.

If the lawful values are good we have achieved the concept of classic Utopia.

The final question then; what does a system of education that does this look like?

It's an educational system that has a purpose linked to the development of it's society.