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Just Us Continuation

The night embraced them, wrapping them in the cocoon of shared vulnerability. He held her gently, letting her tears flow, understanding that healing took time. The moon, a silent witness, continued its journey across the night sky, casting a soft glow on their intertwined figures. In the stillness of that moment, the weight of past wounds started to lift. She could feel the warmth of his embrace, a sanctuary that promised safety and love. His words, like a soothing melody, echoed in her heart, challenging the scars that had been etched into her soul by those who failed to see her worth. As her sobs subsided, she looked up into his jade-green eyes, finding solace in the sincerity reflected there. "I've never felt seen like this before," she whispered, her voice a delicate mixture of gratitude and vulnerability. He smiled, a tender expression that spoke volumes. "You're not alone anymore. We'll navigate through the broken pieces together, rebuilding something stronger and more beautiful." They stayed in that quiet embrace, savoring the newfound connection that went beyond words. It wasn't a promise to fix everything instantly, but a commitment to face the challenges together. The love they discovered was an anchor, grounding them in the storm of life. As the night unfolded, they found themselves talking about dreams, fears, and everything in between. Each shared secret strengthened the bond between them. It was a dance of two souls, finding harmony in the midst of chaos. 

In the days that followed, they faced the world hand in hand. She began to see herself through his eyes, a process that involved shedding the layers of self-doubt that clung to her. He became her pillar of strength, unwavering in his support. It wasn’t just herself that clung to this newfound sense of changing life, but he noticed the differences as well but in doing so realized the equal bad habits that plagued him as well. The mistrust, the shattered doubts of what-ifs and even questioning if the feelings shared were true or not. This did not deter their love but rather strengthened the bond that was growing between them because as he was her pillar of strength/support she was someone who blanketed him in the continuous blanket of love, comfort reassurance and support.  

Their love story became a testament to resilience, proof that even the deepest wounds could be healed with time, patience, and the right person by your side. As they faced the challenges of life together, the moon and stars continued to bear witness to a love that bloomed in the quiet moments of vulnerability, a love that conquered the shadows of the past and embraced the promise of a brighter future. 

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3:35am unable to sleep but you plague my mind

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Thoughts of You

I always think of you, in my sleep in my dreams, I think of you and only you.

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Pain

The love I have for you is becoming a raging sea. A cyclone of whirlwind emotions. Cotton bursting from the seams. Deep and powerful that will forever be. through storm, wind, heavy winds, and rain. It will withstand the pain and become better

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Sleepless nights

I only sleep to dream of a forever with you

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Cravings

Your eyes, your smile, your presence as a whole is something my soul craves

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Of All

Of all the hearts I've loved His heart was the only one that makes my heart smile brightly

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Their friendship deepened over shared sunsets, whispered secrets, and stolen glances. Hassiba's paintings began to reflect the kaleidoscope of emotions she felt, yet she hesitated to reveal the true subject of her art to Astyrian. She feared that confessing her love might shatter the delicate equilibrium they had built. 

As fate would have it, a sudden call of duty pulled Astyrian away from their hometown. He embarked on a lengthy journey across the seas, leaving Hassiba behind with unspoken words and a heart heavy with longing. Days turned into weeks, and weeks into months, as Hassiba clung to the hope that time and distance would reveal her feelings to Astyrian. 

With every passing day, Hassiba's art became a silent expression of her unrequited love. The canvas bore witness to her longing, pain, and the bittersweet beauty of a love that existed only in her heart. Her studio, once filled with the vibrant colors of inspiration, became a sanctuary of melancholy musings. 

Upon Astyrian's return, the town rejoiced in his homecoming. However, the light that once brightened Hassiba's eyes had dimmed. Astyrian, unaware of the emotional tempest within his friend, spoke animatedly about his adventures and the wonders he had witnessed at sea. 

Unable to contain her emotions any longer, Hassiba decided to unveil her heart through her art. She created a poignant masterpiece, a reflection of the love that lingered within her like the echo of a distant melody. The painting, titled "Ephemeral Echoes," depicted a solitary figure gazing at the horizon, yearning for a love that sailed away. 

Astyrian, moved by the beauty and depth of Hassiba's creation, embraced her warmly, grateful for the unwavering friendship she had offered during his absence. Hassiba, with a bittersweet smile, concealed her true emotions behind the façade of friendship, choosing to cherish the moments they shared rather than burden their connection with unspoken truths. 

And so, in the quiet town, Hassiba continued to paint the echoes of her unrequited love, immortalizing a tale of silent longing and the artistry that bloomed from the depths of her unspoken heart. 

Hassiba name means: reserved, mysterious 

Astyrian meas: Withdrawn 

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Worth it

Fate has a funny way of bringing people together espeially considering the circumstances leading to the moment of now revealed unspoken words and feelings. A night of whirl winded passion, vulnerability and peaceful bliss turned into aftermath of doubts and being considered not safe for an established dynamic. When you look back on it; it's hilarious because the words spoken were of mutual feelings and wants but is it worth it to pursue them with the intention of complete devotion regardless of environmental circumstances? That is if there really are any circumstances keeping it from developing or is it the fear of it becoming damaged before it has a chance to become something that would thrive? Fear is a horrible emotion, but it is something that must be felt and eventually overcome. When you continue to ponder on something that has grown naturally it’s impossible to ignore it once the feelings are out.  

Your mine... 

I’m yours... 

No one else but us... 

Me and You... 

Give us a chance... 

You're worth it... 

At the end of the day both parties must be willing. Even if one is not ready yet the other shall wait. When it is something real you allow it to continue and just wait for the moment of fruition to come and for the missing piece to connect and make it whole.  

Choosing to wait is a choice that is worth it. In the end, there are 2 options it’ll because something more or it will stay the same with locked away feelings once again...Either way, as long as you're by my side it’ll be worth it.  

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Lost and Found

Izuku and Katsuki had been inseparable for most of their lives. From the time they met as children, their friendship had grown into something deeper, a connection that transcended mere companionship. They shared dreams, secrets, and countless adventures. There was an unspoken understanding between them that made their bond unique. 

But life has a way of throwing unexpected challenges our way. One fateful day, a series of misunderstandings and miscommunications tore their relationship asunder. Hurtful words were spoken, and they both walked away feeling betrayed and wounded. The connection that had once been their greatest source of strength was severed. 

In the days that followed, Izuku and Katsuki both felt an insufferable pain in their hearts. The absence of one another in their lives was like a gaping hole, a reminder of what they had lost. They tried to move on, to fill that void with new friendships and experiences, but nothing could truly replace what they had once shared. 

As time passed, the pain and doubt in their hearts didn't fade, but the connection remained. Even though they were apart, their thoughts still wandered to each other, like two ships lost at sea, yearning for that familiar lighthouse that once guided them home. The love that had once been there was not lost, just misplaced, waiting to be rediscovered. 

Izuku and Katsuki were like two stars separated by the vastness of the night sky, still sharing the same cosmic tapestry even when they couldn't be together. The connection between them was a lingering presence that refused to fade. 

The idea of rebuilding their friendship was daunting, for the wounds of the past were deep, and the fear of experiencing more pain was ever-present. It was a cat and mouse game, a dance of hesitation and yearning. But the glimmer of hope never truly vanished, and they both knew that, deep down, they wanted to find a way back to each other. 

One day, when they were both ready to let go of the past and forgive the hurts of yesterday, they decided to take a chance. They reached out to one another, carefully navigating the waters of their once-precious connection. Their conversations were hesitant at first, filled with a mixture of emotions, but slowly they found their way back to the comfort and familiarity they had always shared. 

The embers of their love began to glow again, warming their hearts and illuminating the path forward. They realized that the connection they had shared had never truly been extinguished, only temporarily dimmed by the stormy clouds of their past. They knew that life had thrown them apart for a reason, perhaps to teach them the value of their bond and the importance of forgiveness. 

As they rebuilt their friendship, they carried the lessons of their past with them. They knew that life would always bring challenges, but their connection had weathered storms before, and it had emerged stronger each time. They would never forget the pain of their separation, but they would always remember the love that had brought them back together, stronger and wiser than ever before. 

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Pain to Resilence

Things happen for a reason, right? That there is a bigger picture than what we are shown that must take time for us to fully recognize and understand regardless of the impact it has on us. There must be a reason for the pain, the suffering, the loneliness, and the abandonment even if the answer isn’t there at some point it will reveal itself, won’t it? This secret mantra you say to yourself in hopes will fill some sense of anguish when it is just a temporary dressing on a gaping wound that continues to slowly bleed out in a never-ending cycle of doubts and what ifs. This cycle of self-loathing and destroying yourself for the hope of something that is now long gone, just as those who have come and gone you will be but a memory, a steppingstone for them become who they want to be without you to only reap the benefits of your presence. This is your punishment for giving yourself so easily, punishment for being careless and selfless. The world is unkind and unforgiving, it is based on survival and for one’s own gain.  

Finally, in the mist of our darkening thoughts we must remind ourselves that though life is merciless there is a silver lining of hope that is a constant motivation that refuses to extinguish. This is something found in all of us, deep within that resilience which gives us the capabilities to grow, adapt and persevere. The punishment that is given to us should not be taken forsaken us but rather trials to overcome and learn our greatest lessons from. You are strong and resilient, there is a light that will never leave if that determination is there. The will to live and survive.   

The path to finding oneself is long and treacherous, but it is a journey that we all must take to find ourselves and what purpose we have in this lifetime even if it doesn’t make sense now. We must come to realize that the pain and suffering we face is not in vain; they should be considering mentors, teachers, and guides pushing us towards a better understanding of not only ourselves but the world around us.  

As time passes, we begin to mend the wounds that plague us, becoming more self-aware of our own needs, and becoming better at discerning who deserves our trust and care. There is a beauty in resilience, power in loving oneself, and placing healthy boundaries to protect what is sacred to you. The idea of giving yourself to someone is not a flaw but rather a gift because in a already unkind world kindness is a strength, not a weakness.  

Yes, while the world can be unkind and unforgiving, it can also be a place where areas of kindness can be found, we are able to build genuine and lasting relationships. The scars of the past will remain and so will the memories but that should not diminish the potential for a better tomorrow. We may not know the reasons behind the pain and suffering, but we must persist on because your strong and nothing will diminish that because on this journey the reason will slowly reveal itself and provide wisdom for us to heal ourselves and become a better version of yourself.   

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Just Us

“The envy I feel towards the moon and sun is undescribed.” Lilac colored eyes shifted with a questioning glaze briefly to the man standing beside her. The pair was watching the moon peaking from behind the clouds in the dead silence of night with only the minimum noise of insects and nearly forgotten company party in the background. The questioning glaze returned to the scene before her not expecting an answer from her silent companion, but it was what she appreciated in him and his usual behavior of calmness and unbothered personality. Compared to the demanding friends and associates they interacted with daily it was refreshing and recharged their social battery for their sanity but, it was preferably done within one another. Nothing had been spoken between them before, only the subtleness of their secret eye contact that for them meant recharge was more requisite and with the simple signal the plan of slipping away from conversations unnoticed by people around them went into effect.  

Now here they were soaking up the peaceful silence within one another and staring at the moonlight sky peeking from the clouds and dancing with the star that littered the sky. “The envy of not being the one to greet you when you awaken and not being the last thing, you see is just a fathom pain I feel daily.” The moment he spoke there was a compelling need for her to listen but the moment she looked at him she was faced with the most emotion she had seen from him. Jade green eyes showed more emotion than his stoic appearance but when lilac met that gaze then the seriousness of the statement was apparent. No one spoke only the piercing star of jade green with the anticipation of a positive outcome was focused on.  

“I’m broken...you can't possibly love me. I’m a mess listen to everyone, and steer clear of the idea of love with me.” The response was softer than a whisper and no one else would have caught it but the meaning to him was clear. He planned for this. Her resistance to him because of the vile men before him. The ones who betrayed her trust. Mistreated her body and didn’t see the beauty she had, from her bubbly personality down to the stubbornness of always helping those in need. He saw it the moment they met. That moment. That moment when watery eyes met his after he intervened when I fan was becoming increasingly demanding with lack of boundaries. She promised to thank him properly but that promise started something more. It became the foundation of this codependency they had on another to not only save them from drowning in themselves but the world around them.  

“Someone like you is never damaged. You put your trust in the wrong people and in return you suffered. IT was never your fault but those who were bold enough to misuse and misguide you. Thinking you’re broken doesn’t mean you are not fixable. I’ll build you back up and be by your side to protect, love and be supportive of the woman I know you are...If you will allow me to be -” The sentence was cut short with the short stature woman colliding into his chest silent but shaking. “You can cry, you can push me away...my feelings will never change.” The atmosphere was shifting as small shakes turned into sniffles then quiet sobs as she spoke in the unwavering broken voice, “It’s always been you...” Nothing else was said there was no need. They understood one another. From small words, silent spaces, and even down to body language there was no need for more explanation. It wasn’t going to be easy to unlearn all the bad habits of self-doubt and feeling worthless but if it was them together...they would be fine...Just them in this cruel deceiving world...They found peace within one another and that’s all that mattered in that moment... 

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Declaration

A Queen that is known for having a complex personality. The type to be in a wonderland of your own dreams where no one can disturb you, your inner sanctuary. Your life is known to be a bundle of emotions and getting caught in the motions of life. You have moments of suffrage from being overly emotional, closed off, and even deep sadness. Inner struggles of emotions and extreme temperament you overcome to experience loving relationships and the expressions of intense joy when you are your natural self. Sometimes when things overwhelm you, you will try to escape or avoid a situation instead of confronting it. However, you have a deep desire to help those in need. You’re tougher than you look, and you trust your gut feelings more than anything. Don’t let the world dim your light and always set your heart ablaze.

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🎶🎶You broke that bond, now when it come to you, my feelings weak

You let your selfish ways come in between our chemistry

Why you play with my heart and not show love consistently? 🎶🎶

How can you hate me for how I feel when you broke us? Shit crazy…

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4:23am - the fact I have to be up in less than 6 hrs for work and I haven’t slept not once…I just have so many thoughts in my head…

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It’s been a while since I posted. Life been a mess but this night is one of the times where I’m relaxed with tea and music while doing an exam. At this moment I felt some kind of relaxation and peace.