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Vulnerability is a privilege subjected to dynamic factors on a variant spectrum. It’s surprising to witness something that seems impossible in theory but evident in practice. How is it possible that a primary “care” giver puts you in a position of vulnerability but won’t permit you to be in that situation.

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I believed I was a person. But I lived around tragedy so often and so frequent. Until the day I had a eureka moment when I realized I absorbed bits and pieces from each tragedy I experienced. So who exactly am I? A living tragedy. Experiencing my own self. Monotonously.

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Happy international men's day to all the amazing men out there. ♡

On this day it's important to talk about Men's mental health too.

Men ARE ALWAYS ALLOWED TO:

Cry

Feel

Express

Heal and grow

Talk about what bothers them

Seek help

Do and be what they aspire to

But most importantly, be themselves.

It's okay to talk about your feelings, it's okay to cry, it's okay to be sad, it's okay to not like everything you're expected to, it's okay to not be okay, but it isn't okay to think less of yourself. Ever. You all matter, you all are heard and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.

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Hard to express when you're at war with yourself but okay.

I guess there are bad days. Then there are bad weeks. Bad months. Bad years. But is there a bad life or something like that. Because someone people feel that there is. And then there's everything, the downfall, the sadness, crying, helplessness, sometimes even suicide and almost everything. But I would just want to know, what makes a person come to a point where they feel helpless. What makes that person think that there's no one around them even though there are thousands. What makes it so hard for them to come out of their heads. What makes the voices in their heads louder than the outside world. What makes them feel void. What makes them take their own lives I mean what goes SO wrong? Honestly? So. much.

Fact: 8 out of 10 people who take their lives by suicide give a warning sign beforehand. There's not one person on this earth who doesn't show signs that something isn't right. Not one person who doesn't try. Not one person who doesn't ask for help. There are few who show signs before taking their lives. These signs, the final signs, why do they show it at this point? Probably because they want others to see what's happening? Notice? Take action? Honestly I guess at some point there's nothing the person can do to be better. It isn't wrong though. What's wrong is when you sense something is wrong, when you see something is wrong, when you know something is wrong and you still don't do anything. When the person himself tells you something is wrong and you still don't do anything. The simple mistake of taking things lightly. Ignorance (knowingly or unknowingly). That's wrong. Nobody deserves to live like he doesn't matter. Everybody matters. Everybody is important. And that's why it is important to help. There's literally nothing worse than avoiding a situation where you can make a difference. It's horrible, it's pathetic and it's the worst thing that can happen when someone takes their own life. Some people find the concept of suicide "bad" because it's "weak" and "cowardly" to commit suicide. But that's just their personal opinion I guess I don't want to say anything about that but what's left for someone who doesn't want to do anything with life. Who feels like he doesn't belong. How does this even happen? Sometimes a person becomes too weak to push himself because he's been doing that for so long. Perhaps he needs some support. This is where you come in. This is where you make a difference. It's not demanding. You don't have to push him forward. You just have to BE THERE for him so that HE can push HIMSELF forward. It's simple. When you fall down you expect someone to help you. That's how when someone else falls down mentally, they expect you to help them. Not everyone says it verbally but it's the signs that actually say. Signs. Moves. Acts. Expressions. Lifestyle. Words. Everything. You just have to look carefully. You'll never know what's happening inside someone's mind. You'll never know what's happening. Sometimes they don't know either. The least you can do is be there. This is why the concept of empathy is SO IMPORTANT. It is used so commonly yet nobody understands the true meaning I guess. You can literally make a difference in someone's life. You can save someone from falling all the way down. I mean it gives me chills to know that I can make a difference in someone's life. Remember it can be you one day and similarly someone will help you from falling and in case you fall, you'll have someone to help you get up. You matter, he matters, she matters, they matter, everyone matters. I guess that's all.

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with the hope of existing together again, the moon stays for a while and sustains me;

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It's my 4 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳 wow.

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I do romanticize it all

I fantasize it too

questioning the sole inception

of what has become and what will

the despair and it’s augmented reality

prospers and does not halt

time and tide wait for none

but grants you a split perception

even though melancholy exists

i know it’s only momentary

hence its a constant reminder

it shall pass undoubtedly

but for once in a while, wouldn’t it be nice?

to be reminded of it occasionally

by not me but maybe you

or even your transient shadow

at least once if not twice

let it not be my own existence

let it be you and your persistence

and my implicit commitment

so you express and I absorb;

when my self will be set free

of the dread of being wise

will be the day I thrive

but for now let me be

stupor

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Mark Bryan - Burden

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“Let’s raise children who won’t have to recover from their childhoods.”

— Pam Leo

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comfort and warmth

the thought of non existence

the saline ocean has flooded

exclusively for me

am i making sense to you?

to me its muffled

but my self exists outside

outside of your vicinity

outside of my aura

outside of this melancholy

but it does fit

it exists to exist

my burden

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I’ve spent my entire life defending you. I’ve spent all my energy in cleansing your name, protecting it from all these pseudo false allegations. I learnt what importance emotions hold and I felt each and every one of those to direct toward you. I learned what importance prayers hold and I religiously involved you in them. Yet, in the end, I absorbed your directed hate and filled my heart with misery. I invested my life in you and you wished I spent my life trying to put it to an end. I accept your non-present absence but why can’t I accept your pseudo presence?

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… but we still carry the innocence of our childhood in us. even if it’s masked, it does exist somewhere;

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you don’t need to know psychology to understand how to help people who are struggling. Struggle does not demand attention, it desires support, comfort, warmth, and maybe reassurance. Like the moon, all of us go through phases and we’re not always full, sometimes we’re half or even crescent. But that doesn’t disregard the essence of our existence. We still wake up, breathe, and carry on with our lives because that is what the purpose of our life lies in; to know we are alive and breathing.

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- on absent fathers - 1. @crimsonsclovers | 2. The End Of The F**king World | 3. ‘Leave Like That’ by SYML | 4. “How Do We Forgive Our Fathers?,” by Dick Lourie and Sherman Alexie | 5. Haddon Sundblom | 6. ‘Practicing Vigilance’ by Bianca Stone | 7. @futngina | 8. Desireé Dallagiacomo, from “Origin Story,” Sink 

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Horrible fathers?

the autobiography of my mother by jamaica kincaid // square by mitski // the end of the f***ing world // @heavensghost // cut by catherine lacey // green self portrait by håkon gullvåg // poison (thanks for nothing) by jayn // ? // haddon sundblom

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People exist differently, especially when it comes to existing within themselves. Beck's cognitive theory, which is the basis for Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, evidently explains how people shape their belief systems right from childhood. He laid great emphasis on the "faulty belief systems" that one develops due to a variety of factors ranging from personal to social. A child's mind is known to wander places where it experiences vividness at a beautiful level. If nurtured positively, they can do wonders in life. But, when this child's mind is altered negatively, it only teaches the child to behave in a certain way which in turn makes them develop certain faulty belief systems that may possibly remain unchanged. Constantly nagging and yelling at a child will only make their world gray. As a grown up, what will this child turn out to be? All the nagging and yelling has only contributed to creating a grown-up who is constantly experiencing feelings of worthlessness, guilt and shame. Every failure, every mistake, every uncomfortable situation, will only lead to "I'm never good enough, I should never try and just give up". But what’s significant here is that this tendency to give up is not a recent phenomenon. Unknown to knowledge, it is rooted deep inside this grown up who once did well in life, but received negative feedback from the environment and has now decided to make this a part of his faulty belief system. Therefore, when you get into a mindset where you think you can't do something, it probably does not belong to your thought process. It may be a part of your deep-rooted belief system that was once formed under unfortunate circumstances which now needs some altering. We become victims of our faulty belief systems without even noticing, and that's why positive self-talk plays an extremely important role for us. It's a human tendency to think negatively because that's what's convenient for us. But to overcome it, you have to be good to yourself and be kinder to yourself because you spend your entire life living inside your head. So, you can only imagine how necessary it is to be your own motivator and push yourself forward with positive self-talk and show yourself some extra love and care, because no one else will do it for you the way you do it for yourself

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monotony in the head is very hard to romanticize