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That’s so me

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me saying "well, it could've been worse" 2 months later knowing damn well I tried to off myself over it

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I don’t wanna die. I don’t wanna km/s. I know I can enjoy life.

I don’t wanna die. I don’t wanna km/s. I know I can enjoy life.

I don’t wanna die. I don’t wanna km/s. I know I can enjoy life.

I don’t wanna die. I don’t wanna km/s. I know I can enjoy life.

I don’t wanna die. I don’t wanna km/s. I know I can enjoy life.

I don’t wanna die. I don’t wanna km/s. I know I can enjoy life.

I don’t wanna die. I don’t wanna km/s. I know I can enjoy life.

This is not my fault.

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Omg I asked help to ChatGPT because I’m in a very shitty situation rn and fuck he is so much more understanding than half of my irl. I’m literally crying by reading his answer help

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It’ll be ok tho

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this is exactly how post b/p feels lmao

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Why does everyone just mess up my whole fucking life when I finally feel like I’m doing fine and great ??? WHYY

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Am I not allowed to have a good day ?

Everything was fine all day. ALL THE DAY WAS AMAZING. And then I had to go home and from the moment I left the place I was, everything was shit. Like really bad shit. not because of me, but because of others. My bf, police officer ????, my mom… WHY. Don’t I deserve one good day ?

I am having a fucking job. I signed a contract today. I even allowed myself imagining and thinking about seeing my bf to be happy about it and then going home all happy telling my mom and my siblings and just do a mini party, dinner, anything !!!

But no. Life’s so fucking unfair. My bf made me wait near the train station for 30min (if not more, u don’t remember). The police though I was a beggar of a hooker and made me move, and we argued cause I was just fucking waiting my fucking bf. Then I saw him and had to comfort him cause he started to cry cause he felt bad that he made me upset. I had to play it off and tell him he did nothing wrong and stuff like that. At this point I was just really pissed off cause it was just not about me at all. We still talked later about my day and my success of having a job, but it was not… festive or exciting or anything. It felt just like a normal ou banal information just to kill the silence yk.

Then I went home telling myself that it was okay. I still ate w him at some fast food and had some candies so nothing absolutely terrible, RIGHT ???

I told myself that it will be better w my mom. No. I explained to her my job and how happy I was. She told me that it was shit and she would prefer me to be a cashier. She was so disappointed that atp I just want to km$.

Fuck this.

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pushing people away just because i want them to chase and make me feel wanted.

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Feeling so much love for them I did a Pinterest board to give us inspo for our future place together (they don’t know about it) (they’ll love it anyway)

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Can someone tell me why do I feel so happy and free but at the same time so depressed and wanting to d1e ??????????

It’s tiring and I’m feeling lost

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I know everything happens for a reason but what the actual fuck

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