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sex

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OPTIMISTIC 🫵 THIS MF IS AN OPTIMISTIC PERSON, 🫵 THEY THINK THAT THE WORLD WILL GET BETTER AND THAT YOU WILL ACHIEVE YOUR DREAM!!!!!!!

THEY STILL HAVE HOPE IN THEIR EYES AND FACES THE WORLD WITH A SMILE!!!

GET THEMM!!!!

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i play games to distract myself from all the thoughts and pain

how long will i distract myself how long man. there should be a point right when you become better you just get over things you just stop thinking about it yes? there should come a point you don't have time distract anymore where you are just happy to be here with people you have?? can i be happy? can i just do what i want? what do i want??????? i dont wanna think i know that i wannna be thought less i wanna just be... i dont wanna feel bad for existing.. can i help myself? is it possible

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soon there is going to appear a story writing ai that can turn any guys 5yr old ass rambling excused as a story and turn it in to high level plot and then another ai will come in and make art and cover fir the book anf then another ai come in that will publish the book for you and then another ai comes in and reads the fucking book for you and then another motherfucking ai comes in that posts review of the book that was published by ai designed by ai written by ai created by some nose picking George RR Martin wanna be TWAT WHO DOESN'T KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOUR AND YOU'RE !!!!

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https://www.tumblr.com/mousegirlheart/785635180923715584/bonjour?source=share

bonjour

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phew almost downloaded Valorant again

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happiest birthday 💕✨🧿

thank you so much ❤🌻✨

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Happy birthday :)

hahaa Thankyouu 😭😭🌻✨✨

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Happy birthday<333

Thankyou so much🌷✨✨

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It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

yayy 😭✌

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it's my birthday today guys

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millionaire slumdog

BHAI TU JANTA HAI MAI KAUN HU???!

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from riches to rags

BHAI TU JANTA HAI MAI KAUN HU???!

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tara ram pam tara ram pam guys ✌

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WHY AM I GETTING MOTIVATIONAL REELS ALL OF A SUDDEN??? 😭😭😭

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30 chapters in

completed 16 chapters of Six of crows btw

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i think my "wanting" to be alone is just a mechanism to dull out the fear of being hurt by someone trusted...

i can stay and keep thinking about it or i can accept the fact that this fear will never go away and i need to live with it...

i can choose to just be alone forever, never keeping someone close enough to hurt me, never allowing someone to have the ability to hurt me...

but that won't fix anything.. i can't do anything about the "wanting" i can suppress it and I'll become a cold unemotional asshole who doesn't let anyone be close or trust...

i can choose to be open and trust everyone and then suffer when they hurt me, add with the fact that i have extreme emotional jumps, like when I'm joyful I'm all good and trusting and caring but when I'm not, im uncaring, bitter and cold...

I'll hate myself for opening up and choose any chance to belittle myself about the choices i make... im afraid I'm making wrong choices I'm afraid I'll be hurt.. i just want to be alone... but i dont want to either...