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wedding planning in progress

hello! is tumblr still alive? lol ok we are in the progress of wedding planning , it will of coz include solemnization ( coz i lazy) anw most probably in jurong lake garden with catering , plan to have 120 pax. need to look for solemniser. confirm with nparks of the date (6/6/2020?), confirm food catering, bbt live station, photographer&/ videographer, buy dress (simple or real wedding dress) or get the wedding vile (tou sha), (or i just wear hse alrd have de red lace chinese dress and mama de white lace dress), makeup artist. (buy big blue tooth speaker, projector?) guo da li (the items and date) and idk still got what? have to see the web 

https://singaporebrides.com/articles/2012/10/wedding-traditions-the-traditional-bride/

and

https://labellecouture.com.sg/7-common-singaporean-traditions-in-every-wedding-that-you-shouldnt-miss/?fbclid=IwAR3mWJGrKZfHedUk3iqlEFTN4yqiOg_mj87fB2wi8p_AGo3MF6aqSLzoUAI

and 

https://singaporebrides.com/articles/2018/10/guide-to-registering-your-marriage-rom-singapore/?fbclid=IwAR15V_ecNu9Gq3LTEfOVGjbsq6eDiHt5pq8u4ebXDSKkSSmBb9dV6myuZe8

and

https://www.herworld.com/weddings/ideas-advice/significant-chinese-wedding-traditions-singapore-couples-know?fbclid=IwAR2l83y9BzVE_GUrlWF9iG_68VcTFPY0eVMWoKf2EOJfxa3c3YTO6r5v3Rc

hmm alright thats for now!~ 

p.s. if u are reading this (other than myself) , pls pretend u nv see lol.

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Project X

kiv dates: 9/9 , 10/10 , 25/10 (see which date he got class/ aft final proposal/ more feasible).

tools: jumbo diamond ring, fairy lights, word board, luggage, textbook

f&b: mr bean soya milk, self cooked/ buy (kiv) appetizer, main, dessert.

man power: me, 1 or 2 friend, main chracter.

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Project X Plan

lol its been like ages since my last post. ok not sure who will read this post but definitely he wouldnt. i hope my friends that in a 0.0000001% chance that might see this will keep it a secret too.  lol briefly read through my past posts and find it funny. ok shall start with me post.

i thought of writting it but then will need to start on a book but i lazy to write. ok so here it goes,.

on 7/7/2018, he proposed to me. it was epic coz was it rained heavily during the event. he got all my friends and his to help out, with tent in ecp, hand made roses, slides etc. it was all good, A for effort. i would have said “yes” if not for the rain lol. anw i said “okay”. but i told him to pass the “touching” part then i may say yes. anw we do went to resize the ring to a smaller size coz it was overly big, 57? when i am 47 -.- dunno why so much difference when i alrd given him a sample of my cheapo ring. seriously?!? anw managed to get 2nd free laser engraving lol if not ill be :(. ok so idk when he will do the (final) proposal again, but i think i will most probably say yes lol coz i dont have a choice? well of coz i do but then... lol it will be yes la. anw then i have this thinking, i can do better. eh! dont get me wrong wor lol it sounds bad. actually i mean if i were the one doing the proposal, i can do it better, then i tot, why must be the guy that propose, why girl have engagement ring while guys dont? why girl have to wear it and show that she is “taken” while guys can continue not wearing or can be seen as “single”? anw my point is gender equality yo! but i know it wouldnt be as we are biologically different, still i hope to make things slightly equal. and so... i tot of doing a counter proposal, aka i propose to him once he pass the touching part. maybe kiv the night before his bd or near the bd on a day which he has class. aft class maybe? ok or aft his bd also can (for anni also can) haha but well i may get lazy and not do anything, so i hope if u read this, pls keep it to yourself as i maybe 3 mins hot. so i googled abt men egagement ring coz i tot of getting it, but then damn ex lol at least 1k? ok cant be compared to the one he bought for me, but then sry i stingy. i will do a low budget but max effort for u too. and anw i saw blogs saying that men woldnt wear so much rings de, so no point getting it, which i agree upon too. if he were to wear a ring, then i rather it to be the wedding band. and anw menengagement ring is just slightly fancier than a wedding band. ok so i have recently ( yst night) set up a carousell acct with weird name coz i may be using it to trick and organise the whole plan. the rough plan is as such; get to know his class timetable, day time venue course. the event will be aft his class near his bd, hopefully will have a class a day before his bd, then nx day his bd can get leave. use carousell acct to meet up with him as a buyer in nus. ( i may want to get 1 helper to stalk him from afar, take photos of him and also make sure he follows the plan.. someone not suspicious and he doesnt know well...someone damn free and willing to help. hmmm (oh shit just “realised” that his bd is on mon)hmm or maybe can ask his friends to help aft his gym? or gym is fake de. hmm abit trouble his friends leh. i paiseh. ok we see how it goes, hope on his bd he got class lol. if not chage plan to sun ask his friends to help. oh yah, to be interest to buy a small item, so he woulndt bring a whole heavy item lol. although i tot buy book makes more “sense” coz i student.

plan X: say meet at outside (1st place)( the block) of the class venue (or nus conveient place) ( lets say 6.15pm if he no class). i can go over coz i study there stay at hall. then suddenly message him say meet at another nearby venue (less ppl) . ask him for a favor, say sth like do u see a book on that table?( and pencil box? lol so ppl will tot somone sit there study and will not clear it?) i think i left it there, was studying there then now left that place coz my friends looking for me, then i realised i lost the book (and pencil box). if its there can help me take and bring over to the new meet up place. (which is very near by, may be just around the corner). then at 2nd place, put a soya milk or sth, then message him say sorry got sth last min urgent issue, can meet 5 mins later, ask him help himself with the unopen drink coz i dont want it alrd but dont want waste it. sorry abt it , take it as i treat him a drink ask him wait for me for awhile. 5 mins later message again ask if got finish the drink coz once finish, he will see the hidden message (which i have think of. happy bd? happy anni? or 3rd place? or ask him open the book pg (a sig date/#) to see next hidden massage of 3rd place? idk yet) think by the time he will find the whole thing damn weird alrd, so at the 3rd and final place, it the real event. (hopefully a not so many ppl, quite dark place. (hmmm ok this is damn hard. or it can be on a no class day. coz if got class, very hard to prevent him from eating before lesson. or say i got a learning session at nuh (since last time also have) then ask to meet around 730 late dinner aft the talk at nuh. so he will wait and meet me for dinner. ok this sounds better. then the student buyer will still be same plan. ) so at final place there will be lights on the floor (<3?) maybe nearby can have table for me to put selfcooked dinner. then when he saw the lights, i walk out from hidden place (behind wall?) holding flowers or sth liddat and open a ring like box, inside not ring though, maybe muffin or sth practical as a gift to sub as a ring. ok. my plan sounds damn good lol.  but then i hope can do so in ntu coz i more familiar with ntu la. but ntu not practical unless he got sth there and i can make an excuse say to meet there. and ntu more meaningful for us. hmm.... or how to trick him go ntu like how he trick me go ecp? hmmmm. ok that will be for now. jaja

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18Feb2015 cny eve

hello! today was tiring!

Tdy (18/2) Morning-afternoon: field to collect traps and etc, reached back office~12 + then do unpacking etc, left at ~1pm. haha by right we meeting at 830am, end up we girls late ( esp me coz i dilly dally and missed 154) and started at around 9am. but it ended quite early, so i decided to go back home first to shower and etc instead of heading directly to uncle hse for reunion "dinner". reached his hse at ~ 3++pm, prepared food etc, started eating at around 5pm...so much food! not bad eat too! and drank abit...left and headed home around 8+-9pm coz needa pack and wash clothes coz tmr gg msia! anw, at first tdy may have tuition at crystal hse but she changed then i nv go wx hse too lol coz bro said chu xi, should be with family. but anw! i met wx otw home from botanic tdy! We met at Bouna vista, then he accompany me back to lakeside. teehee! oh tdy got leaf fish too! at CP.

yst (17/2) : was a tiring day! coz field, plus late go back due to hand sampling. rush back home shower dinner and rush out tuition. i wasnt late for tuition! yeaaaa despite me having to take bus myself.

16/2 ( mon): got night survey! although we didnt rly do work, just went there to see see, it was not bad! (although i having M ._.) coz it was my first time gg forest at night!

ok actually i rly wanted to post this , i mean write this on the real book itself, but i have no idea where it is. I tried to find it, i remember i put it somewhere when i was tidying my desk-.- well oh well~

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First Valentines Day

Hello! Just wanna do some updates of my recent life and about relationship. wanted to write on book, but was lazy. hope tumblr wouldnt close down ya! ok i shall start with sch.

I have taken up FYP in the end. partly coz i cant get a IIP that i want and coz this fyp is very different with those in sch and lab work. It is a very hands on project where we get to study biodiversity! ok i cant say too much on it coz its supposed to be confidential. It is very physically tiring, coz got to climb trek and carry lots of things, plus will get quite dirty and wet. It is not for a clean freak or someone with low physical endurance. well, this is good coz i dont have to go exercise! lol! work is my exercise alrd. oh and u dont get to eat proper meals and no toilet. i mean everywhere is your toilet. Well, we are still in the process of getting enough datas. sia la, left 2 more months!!! still have to tabulate the results and do up report! not forgetting poster and presentation! OMG. ok >.<

The last time i written on my diary was aug 2014! omg lol. This is how lazy i get-.- wanted to do up a reflection on hk exchange. oh! i forgot to do 2014 reflection! lol! ok nvm. Everything starts on CNY! Chinese New Year! still a new year yo! so not too late eh i guess? ok I will start real writing on diary aft CNY!~

ok so...2014 with wx was a ok one. lol. although we didnt celebrate vday tgt coz i was in hk, although i was disappointed in our anni celebration ( coz we went vivo watch a war movie "fury" and he gave one 1 stalk of rose and dinner was at chophouse, while i gave him an album which took me days to make. and he was quite late.) and his bdae was abit -.- (coz of the cake collection trouble, but trick eye not bad) and although Xmas with him and his fam was abit ...not my type, I am still very glad that we made it through 2014.

My 23 Bdae: Bro said that wx kelian coz my bdae and vday quite close tgt. but hey! his bdae and our anni even closer leh! lol ok anw, so for my bdae, he brought me to legoland at JB! lol. he kept bluffing me that its some adventure park -.- and smoked alot. lol. but ok~ I had fun! lol although i said idw go legoland lol. and, he rly spent alot on me-.- and those troubles he went through for getting me a phone that i want (iphone6 gold) . although i kept saying idw, coz its rly too expensive as a bdae gift. i mean...who am i to receive such a gift ...plus he took leave to buy it and his friend also need to come down due to his contract issue...he gave his recontract phone to me and he still use his old iphone4, which is even in a more bad state than mine, im very touched. not for the materialistic way, but the effort it took :) and the chocolate he bought just in case he couldnt get me the phone. anw, that day went well coz it didnt rain ( it rained abit when we were abt to leave) and there wasnt much crowd, basically we didnt queue much for any rides. we had breakfast before gg in, and that was funny coz we said "having here" but the person put our food in take away-.- so end up we ate outside legoland lol, then went in when he said "lets take a look at legoland". lunch was late, outside legoland, at the mall just ouside, we had burgerking. then went to wait for bus back to sg. it was a long wait! for almost 2 hours? i forgot. reached home, bathe... and it was raining heavily. the plan for dinner with fam was go Holland V, but end up we went TJ market lol-.- but bro made a big cake for me! wah i think the cake ingredient quite ex one lor. yup, so that was my bdae. oh and plus wishes from friends. had field the next day, then waited for 2 wks? for the permit-.- thats why started so late and we are in a rush to complete now. oh and i am tutoring bio/chem now! and junwei came to sg for her interview for uni , i went to fetch her and brought her to orchard for late lunch and shopped. we went out for cousins dinner on sat at bugis too. oh and...we got wx's friend, jian hong, and sharon out for a fri dinner tgt! lol.

Vday: It started on 10 Feb (tue) when i was back from trip and tuition and then i kept saying how busy and tired i was. he asked if the next day , tmr, (which in 11 feb wed) that i got anything on, will i be at home at night. I got suspicious, and kept asking him why, why he suddenly so concern, coz normally he wouldnt ask de lol. but anw, i forgot abt it the next day coz i went out to jp with yh to try to drop bro's oversized zalora shoe for exchange ( end up cannot lol , cant dig out mine that i dropped the day before after tuition). well anw, me and yh had lunch tgt, we bought birdnest lol and i went to update my bank book, me helped dad to buy 4d? and she bought sweep, we bought bubble tea (share tea) then went home soon aft. oh anw, we had ayam penyet for lunch, damn spicy! went home and did my usual stuff ( i forgot what). then wx (finally)message me! I asked him why he so late end work wor..etc. I was done with dinner etc and at my desk alrd. then suddenly he called me and asked me to go down meet him. I was "?? eh?" , but i did in the end although i was "eh?". coz he said he got mandrian oranges for my mum lol? ( gosh im so long winded, which is good, i doubt got ppl will wanna read lol) when i got out of lift and saw him, he was spamming me with whatsapp messages-.- i rejected his oranges and said that he is supposed to hand it personally when he come for house visit. ok can. so he put it away. then he asked me to dont see, to look away. ok can. i did.then when i turned back, he passed me royce chocolates!!! still cold in the packing! <33 i was very delighted alrd! lol.then he kept ask me to go off and take the lift. but idw. (ok i dont rly remember details ). then i notice he is doing sth suspicious agn! he asked me dont see! but i too curious, so i walked over abit and saw... FLOWERS!!! oh so pretty! sry i lazy to attach the photo of it. pls refer to my phone or instagram. TEEHEE! I was a happy girl! took  lots of photo of it and the chocolate. and unwrap them, put choco in fridge and flowers in a glass container with water. :)

thu (12 feb) & fri (13 feb) trip. 12 need to remember routes taken and 13 we went our own to collect. we met directly at btnr. ended quite early as the place we expected to have more catches didnt have much. well it was bad in a way coz how to write report wor! but good in a way coz i wanna go home early to attend qi jun bdae celebration in childcare centre, his 5th bd. well yes, i managed to make it and even have time to collect the big cake and buy bread for lunch. took lots of photo for his bdae. 

cont. 14Feb2015: the vday. He came earlier than expected at my hse. around 2.30pm? coz he went sentosa in the morning to get the tix then went back home to bath and lunch before coming. I was still keying in data. we went buy ingredients tgt at ntuc ( wholemeal bread, ham and cheese) ( i bought tomato and cucumber during lunch at market.)  we made sandwhich tgt, packed, washed ( i went to shower while he cleaned up lol) and went out soon aft~ ( not very soon actually lol. went out at around 5 + pm. meet up with S3 phone cover buyer below block then went to take bus and off to labrador park!~ we walked quite abit to the park and finally set up our picnic~ ( pls see insta for more details and photos in phone) (oh anw, heard a car accident when we got out or mrt >.<) Picnic was well! enjoy the stay there! we spent 1.5hr? there, ate and lay around~then headed off  at 7.45pm? to sentosa for wings of time show at 8.40pm. we walked quite abit to the mrt station. ( i think we took quite some time coz.. ahem. we kept kissing while walking lol. the walkway was quite dark and not much ppl). was quite a rush to the show! coz we walked in thru the broadwalk. but we made it just in time! haha although i think we missed a few mins of it. The show lasted for ~20 mins. It was not bad IMO, the light effects and fireworks was good, but the storyline wasnt well develop. we then walk back out aft the show, but this time we didnt run of coz lol. slowly walk and took some photos! sentosa was having quite a cny feel with all the decorations and cny songs! walked to vivo and sat down near the waters. talked and (ok hugged and kissed). went off near 11pm, took bus 30 home! and glad that he still got bus&mrt back due to the extended hours! 

15feb sun: normal day at home for me, did hse work, cleaned kitchen walls and etc, had late lunch (which is shun kuay that parents dabaoed. bro not happy, so he went to cook noodles.) watched attack on titans till epi 25, the latest epi. cont key in data. etc. wx went out with friends for teacher hse visit and went gathering at night. lol i think he had a good day despite having to wait for so long for his friend and wasted few hours of his time. then we went uncle's hse for dinner, we dabao subway to his hse. bought along some cny goodies for them. oh i come M too-.- which was 1 week late-.- so means my cny will be having it too in msia-.- sian.

16feb mon (tdy): have night survey ltr! haha nv go before. hope all will be well! despite my 2nd day-.- . went out lunch with mum aft her work. we took alot buses and managed to catch all the transfer fees! lol. bought stuff ( forever products, insect repellent, fruits, umbrellas) at various places!

oh and on a side note. i managed to convince wx that we wait longer lol. ( i dont rly want bukit batok due to personal reason. and the month may at clementi will be a very good location! lol. although its much expensive, i think it is good!)

hmmm yup i think im done. ok!~ till then!~ jaaaa~

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Things to remind myself

Do NOT: Buy things (or rather stop thinking to buy things) for him. Coz he will nv use. As what bro said, if it's a thoughtful gift, the person will keep using. Be so nice to him. I might end up hurting myself. Or rather, have higher expectation of returns and as such, leads to greater disappointment. Keep thinking of him. Making him your centre of life. Your life revolves around him. U will screw up your mind and disrupt your life. Rely on him. It's brings disappointment and leads to great lost when he is not there. Do: Give without expecting returns. Love even without reciprocate. Trust without losing independence. No one owes you a life except yourself. 22 dec 2014.

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Sometimes, what u see may not be the truth; yet what you don't see felt so real. Trying your best to recall that feeling at that moment that may not even existed. Getting confused of whether it did or did not happen. It happened, but it seems doubtful that it did. Embedded in your memory, it can't be erased. What was done is done. Get hold of it, control it, know your principle and do not ever cross the line. Your mind is fucked up and so is his.

Yu Xuan- post batam thoughts (you will remember why).

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My (臭)男人 ☺(my smelly man)

Yes, I love Roller-coaster. It brings the excitement and adrenaline rush that all lovers love. But then again, this doesn't last. It only gives you that trill for a short period and makes you yearning and craving for another round. Or it can make you sick from dizziness and in Chinese it is call 冲昏了头。 In life, what I think is more suitable is that we all need an enjoyable lasting journey; a slow moving train, bringing you to your destination. A ride with pretty scenery, small discoveries along the way that keeps you entertained, a little bit of warmth when you are feeling cold, some water and food to keep you well and comfortable is what makes the journey all worthwhile. Well of cause destination is important, but with a lovely ride, I guess you wouldn't mind taking it for even longer or maybe... Just maybe... That the journey never end. Well if you were wondering what makes me said so, let me tell u. I am (currently) contented with my bf. Although he is a wood(block), a pie, a cat, he is my property!!! (Opps I don't mean that.) He is such a Mr Blur, forgetful, silly man, but I like him all the same. I like the way he let me bully him ( at least for now, who knows what will happen next time or after marriage) , the way he let me scold , let me beat, let me laugh at and also the way he hug me, kiss me, bully me and make me vomit blood. Yes, I am also constantly mad, disappointed and -.- ( I don't know how to describe that expression) with him as well, but I still want him in my life, to carry on this journey together. Oh anyway, we will be going for SCMS 2014 together and so we have been training for months for it. Recently, I gave him some honey delivery as surprise early Christmas present. One of the reason is that I really wanted to surprise him! And also is that I knew he bought a Christmas gift for me, so I should give something in return too. I like the gift he gave, it is a cookie mold pump! Just the thing I wanted to buy. He is improving, I can see. He bought glucosamine for my poor knees too. And yesterday, he went to buy a running cap just cause I said that the sun is too unfriendly for run in the day. He came over for a night when my family went Msia. He took care of me, bought food for me, took water for me, massage, helped me with laundry and it makes me feel very blissful. By the way, I'm sorry if this post makes you feel disgusted/hairstand/nausea/diabetic/unhappy or that it's my language triggering the OCD/grammar nazi in you. Hope everyone will treasure what they have and feel peace in life. Thanks for reading.

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2014 Nov - exam period for final finals.

Left cancer & genetics. Woah! How long have I not blogged? Lol! Ok just for a quick(?) update. Parents & bro went kl for cousin's wedding. Me of coz stuck in sg due to exam. But I'm abit glad too. Wx came to stay over for a night:) accompanied for 2 days. Teehee! Ok before any readers (that happened to read this although I don't think will have any) starts to imagine, I say it out that we did not do anything that we souldnt. Anw I'm quite touched by him. Updates more on next post.

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2013 resolution checking list.

2013 resolution:

*OVERSEAS!!! Apply for the exchange program. Asian countries coz eng countries are more ex.

DONE!!! Im at hkust now lolol!

*FIRST CLASS HONOURS!!!* gpa 4.5!

undone-.- impossible ah~ i want second upper! next sem come back sg must study like siao.

*FRIENDLY!!! Be more socialble and open! smile more!

hmmm~ okok! i will DO my best!!! jyjy!

*INDEPENDENT! Be more responsible for myself! Care & love myself more:)

too over-.- like a zibi-.-

*HEALTH!!! Take good care of my own body. Sleep well, exercise well, eat well!

okok! ._.

*GUITAR! Learn guitar @cc.

checked! but nv cont & fail la~

*21km!!!

done! jyjy! next round 42 .195km!

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Reminder

零食固然能充饥，但它始终不是长期饭票。

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Time to get serious! Mugging mode ON!

Ok, I rly kena scared dao by Viro tdy, rly too much blanks and I went mind blank during paper-.-! GG.com. Have to rly put effort in the assignment and reports to pull up & make up the loss! Neuro also horrible. Dev too much content. Jap sure cui, so is energy. Only bio soc can? Lol. Jin jialat leh u yx! U rly got to on mug mode liao! Like the previous sem!!! And since u gg hk, just give all you can ok! ( although this sem alot other commitments. Wsc: by name only, nv go liao. Unless they rly need help? Haha. Ntubs: -.- abit regret gg biz subcom. Too much things plus rotaract also doing same things-.- which defeats my aim to learn and experience new things-.- Okok help out lor~ haha send emails only, I also nv rly go attend their events one. So still ok? Haha. Rotaract: ohhh quite alot things! Need source sponsors, canvassing... Meetings camps eh quite alot. But I think is good, meet new ppl, enlarge social circle... And hopefully... Hahaha! U know what I mean!~ VIPs ( stocks challenge): ok this seems fun & can get cert! So at least must show act abit, and try out! So Actl hor, I seems bz, but Aclt not? Actl yes, but that's not an excuse! No matter how busy, there's always time as long as u are willing to & put effort in it! YES!!! Stay healthy! Eat good, exercise! Sleep well!!! Taeyang needs a girl~ I need a man! Hahhaha! Ok conclusion is... Jiayou!!! I can do it!!!! 4.5!!! Nights!!

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It takes a great deal of courage to set off on one’s own into unknown territory, but there is growth and empowerment in doing so. Renee Lo Iacono shares a few things traveling solo can teach you about yourself and the world.

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Aimless Soul

I feel like an aimless soul, just wondering ard on earth and living for the sake of living. I have no goals no look forwards no plans no idea of where I'm heading towards and for what I am living for.. Ok tbc! Haha! Tired. Zzz.

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I treat myself like I would my daughter. I brush her hair, wash her laundry, tuck her in goodnight. Most importantly, I feed her. I do not punish her. I do not berate her, leave tears staining her face. I do not leave her alone. I know she deserves more. I know I deserve more.

Michelle K., I Know I Deserve More. (via the-tall-girl-fit)

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Emotionless.

Idk how to feel anymore. It seems like when u really wanted something, wished, hoped and even imagining it to happen, and it finally happened, u got what u have always wanted, it just...doesn't feel the way that you expected it will be. No happiness no excitement no delight. Instead, worries scared lonely afraid all came together to congratulate you. Well yes, I admit that this is what I wanted. But then agn, I have many worries abt it. Will it rly happen as what I think I would be? Or things will turn bad? This is just the beginning or a series of unfortunate events. Okay, guess I read too much books. Well back to the point, actually I'm just afraid that I'll be a loner. But hey! Aren't I am one now too? Not rly, but sometimes I do feel that way. Okay, maybe I'm a pessimist by default. Despite all that, as long as there's an opportunity, I wouldn't want to give it a miss! #YOLO!!! Just try it! Who knows it may bring surprises and good experiences that will last for a lifetime! Get out of comfort zone and just go for it!!! No regrets!!! Good luck!

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Mr Nice.

Yes, u are very nice. Yes, thanks for sending me links, making big effort to help me in academics and also sending me all the resources that u have. Thanks for all the textbooks that u auto send me when I didn't ask for (I nv read._.) . Thanks for asking to study tgt. Thanks rly thanks. But I'm sorry to say this , you are rly making me stress. I know your good intention, but srly, is your whole life about studies? And I'm sorry for making u feel sorry that u made me stress. But srly , everything is kidda weird. Sorry for telling u that u are making me stress! Didn't know that u will take it seriously and feel bad about it. Sorry for making u feel sorry. And although I don't rly know your story, I hope that you will find peace and happiness soon. Life is all about being happy!