sadchonk

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Holidays and religion are:

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Angry

The depression is gone today. Today, I’m just filled with anger and rage. I do not celebrate holidays. I think they’re all bullshit celebrating bullshit. I hate my job, but today is worse than normal days because we are having a forced Christmas party at work today from 3-5pm followed by a forced Christmas gathering on Saturday for work as well. It’s not mandatory because they can’t force you to go, but if you don’t go you can bet there will be major consequences. So yeah, it’s very forced. There will not be any bonding with coworkers. I have nothing at all in common with any of my coworkers. I’m not anyone’s friend outside of work. I don’t want to be around work people outside of work. I strongly dislike most humans. There are very few humans that I like to be around. 

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Everything sucks

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Rise n Grind

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Art

I use to love art ... painting and photography. For a few years, I was selling my paintings online and I was actually making a decent side hustle on it. Now, that my job sucks out all of my life the only thing I want to do when I get home from work is eat and sleep. I’ve had to force myself to work on my coding classes. In a perfect world, I would be able to make a living from my paintings instead of working in a greedy corporate office that is sucking out my life force. I think if I were able to make a living from something that I love rather than something that is soul-sucking I would probably be a much happier and less depressed person. 

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Work

I hate my job. I have to do this job because it pays well, and I have nobody to support or rely on other than myself. 

I am taking classes again so that I can hopefully switch careers and move into a job that doesn’t make me want to kill myself. Sometimes, I feel like I don’t even care if I lose my job and become homeless it will just be all the more reason to die.

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Veganism and vegans

Veganism is a way of living which excludes all forms of exploitation of, and cruelty to, animals for food, clothing or any other purpose.

When I first went vegan my parents thought it was a phase. “Oh just humor her, she’ll grow out of it”. 20 years later, I’m still vegan. It’s not a trend, a phase or a diet. I actually give a fuck about animals and think we should stop abusing them, oppressing them, murdering them, and eating them. They can’t speak up for themselves. They need ethical humans to help them. I have ethics and morals and I will not waiver or compromise for anyone. 

I am unapologetically vegan. My partner is vegan (of course - I would not lower my standards and ethics for anything less). We also have a handful of RL vegan friends. They are all real vegans. 

This brings me to my pet peeve. The number of fake vegans out there is simply ridiculous. I see it every day and it’s infuriating. I don’t understand why people who are not vegan insist on calling themselves vegan. There is a huge difference between vegetarians, plant-based and vegan. Anything less than vegan is cruelty. 

fake vegan: “I’m vegan, but I eat eggs” - no you’re just an omnivore

fake vegan: “I’m vegan, but I eat Impossible foods”. - no you’re just plant-based. Impossible foods does animal testing THEY FUCKING MURDER ANIMALS. It’s not vegan.

fake vegan: “I’m vegan, but I wear leather.” - no, you’re vegetarian or plant-based but vegans would NEVER wear dead animals skins - EVER!

fake vegan: “I’m vegan, but I eat honey” - no you’re an omnivore or vegetarian bees are part of the animal kingdom and you’re exploiting and murdering them for honey. 

fake vegan: “I’m vegan but I love horseback riding”. Fuck off you’re not vegan.... vegans do not exploit and torture horses. 

fake vegan: “I’m vegan but I have “cheat days” where I eat meat”. no - you’re an omnivore and are not vegan. 

fake vegan: “I was vegan, but I quit veganism”. no, you were never vegan.

I could go on and on. I’ve heard it all over the years. Veganism is super easy and simple. Be vegan or don’t be vegan, but please stop calling yourself vegan if you’re not vegan. It’s beyond annoying. Stop lying to yourself and others. 

I still get angry when I see/hear of fake vegans, but I don’t engage or interact with them anymore. I used to but have learned that they’re just super stupid people who really don’t give a fuck about animals or animal welfare. There is no use trying to talk sense into them. Now when I come across said fake vegans, I just don’t engage and block them both online and in real life.

Thank you, for coming to my Ted Talk. 

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Hello World!

I perma deleted my facebook, Twitter, and Instagram. I’m really sick and tired of social media, but I need some type of output for my rage and sadness. I thought hey sad chonk, why not give Tumblr a chance? So, here I am screaming into the void.

About me... cis/she/her/vegan/progressive I’m a straight-up mess of a human. I have severe anxiety in social situations. I would never leave my house if I didn’t have to but, I do have to work to survive and not be homeless, so there is that. Like most people, I hate my job. I’m taking classes to make a career change, but I’m so depressed I’m just not really into it. My life lately has consisted of working, eating and sleeping. I can’t seem to get myself out of this depression. It’s so hard to drag myself out of bed and to work every single day.