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I disagree completely, it's nice that a brand has rules, and it sticks by them despite however many people complain that it's unfair. They can afford to be picky, they can afford the most beautiful staff. I work as a waiter, and if there are any (pretty) girls on the floor with us, then we'll all get more tips at the end of the night. Society wants to see (and be 'served' by) beautiful people, people need to learn that it's a pretty unchangeable thing.  You don't like the shop, don't shop there. If your friend is telling you that she got a job offer and you didn't, then get a new friend. She's trying to make herself feel good, and you ugly. The world sucks, boohoo. 

I feel like even though they’ve been sued numerous times for discrimination, Abercrombie and Fitch still continues their unfair hiring practices…

Every time (seriously, every. time.) my very pretty friend I walk into an A&F store or A&F subdivision store, she is prompted with a...

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I've had one of those lovely days where despite the overcast weather warning, and the grey clouds looming overhead, the sunshine finds a way to triumph.

Both figuratively, and literally. Happy.

:) 

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I have no energy left at all...I just want to have an espresso, but I know I'll end up back in my old routine of late nights..and I'm trying so hard to wake up early these days. Bah. My energy is gonnnne. I tried to open my French book to study..but nothing. My mind is off. Dreaming of caffeine-filled-tiny-cups-of-joy.

sigh. 

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Day two of Insanity done.

....he said squats. A lot. Those globe jumps?! Sheeeesh. I really hope that everyone had these problems at the start, because I'm performing..well.....not awfully, but it's really taking it  out of me, all of these 'leg moves'.

I've always been more of an 'upper body strength' kind of guy. Not that I'm the 'king of pull-ups' or anything, and it's not like I spent years in the gym 'pumping iron'. It's just that as a kid, I loved climbing trees...I loved the feeling of hanging, and swinging on branches. I dug weightlessness, I guess. (much to the horror of my parents) Funnily enough the only injury I ever had was a bee-sting when I squished one as I reached around a tree-trunk. Poor bee.

..I ramble a lot. Whole post boils down to me worrying whether I have weak-as-fuck legs because I never did anything other than sprint to the next tree with them. (Insanity hurts, but to sorta-quote Mr-p.90x-Tony: "It's shaking! Shaking is good, it means something good's happening!")

My poor thighs...

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Time for Insanity again...my legs are killing me already. It's all bloody cardio!

My legs are going to fall off if he says 'squats' one more time. 

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There's so much I miss about this show. I don't even know why I like it so much, I'm a guy. ..boy am I strange. 

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Obvious statement is obvious

I'm sure everyone says this, but the 'Insanity' workout is..well.....insane. I just completed my first 'real workout' (yesterday was fit-test) of the calender, and I'm really very impressed. I've never felt physically sick after any sort of exercise, but this came damn close. I didn't know whether I was going to throw up or faint....or both. Thankfully after a shower and a few glasses of water my body seems to have sorted itself out.

My excuses are as follows:

Either I didn't eat enough this morning (I made blueberry protein pancakes - which were absolutely delicious), or I'm just not used to this 'max-intensity' style workout..which is possible, considering this is my first time pushing so hard for so long.

Nevertheless, looking forward to tomorrow.

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House-hunting blues

House-searching sucks when you're a man. I really hope these places all have specific things for women...like..I d'know, period-proof-flooring and dildo's stashed away in bedside cabinets, and and...lots of pretty things and a kitchen with adorable teacups and whatnot.

Really, it's annoying as hell. Just because of my sex I have to live in apartments that are sometimes double the price of others that are 'suitable only for female occupants'..sexism if I've ever seen it, godamn it.

Where am I meant to get double the money from?! Oh wait, I'm a man...let me just use that job that pays me much more than female employees. .....oh wait, I'm a waiter. We're all paid minimum wage. Fuck. 

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See, I don't get this.....how could a Christian be gay?! I'm not 'hating'...I just don't get it. If their argument is that they can abide by all the other rules in the bible except the one that dictates their sexuality, then surely that discredits the very basis of those 'rules'?! ...if you get to pick and choose what you will listen to, then it's not a religion anymore, it's an....opinion? A 'lifestyle'? You can't call yourself a Christian and be gay, surely... (or can you?) 

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I realise it's a long shot asking over Tumblr, but does anyone have any experience with travelling from 'Paris Gare Du Nord' to 'Paris Montparnasse'? I'll have to make my way between the two with a rather tight time schedule...any advice?

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I hate money........

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This will be an...er...unpopular opinion, I'm sure. Posting this on Tumblr of all places will probably just cause a frenzy (if anyone sees it), but I think these thoughts all the time while I scroll through a lot of my dash.

Why, oh why do people try to...insist(? - for lack of a better word) that we should consider any shape or sized woman as 'typically beautiful', because she is not! She could be, really...anybody can make themselves into something amazing, but you've got to work for it! I saw some photos on my dash a few days ago of..well, what was basically an extremely overweight woman, posing in black and white. The photo was magnificently adjusted and 'photoshopped' (either that, or a great deal of makeup went into that shoot). The basic point that I'm trying to make is that by promoting "the doctor says you're overweight, but screw him girl, you're beautiful anyway!" is not a healthy idea to be giving to girls (or guys for that matter, though I find men in this matter are less delusional). People will get complacent, and expect everyone else to like them..then grow into depression because nobody does, because people liked the heavily photoshopped pictures posing in your 'plus-size-dress', but everyone can see how *unhealthy* you look in real life. A quick point about 'plus-size-dresses', the only reason (in my honest opinion) that anybody says "oh-wow, you/she/they look amazing!" is because these dresses have a higher waist that hides the (pardon the 'brutality' but-) fat rolls. These women take their 'natural curves', hide as many layers of *unhealthy fat* as they can under tight, 'strategic' material...and then appear in photoshoots promoting the idea of "it doesn't matter what you weigh, even you can look this good!" Stop looking at what these 'beautiful women' are wearing in these revolutionary shoots, stop gazing in awe at the posing-plus-sized-Venus figure on your dash, and stop and consider what she'd look like without professional lighting, the tons of makeup, and the 'strategically concealed fat flaps'. Just..imagine, entertain the thought of seeing one of these women naked, in your bed, or....I don't know, in front of you in the women's changing room. I don't think you would think "wow, she looks stunning", I'm sure you'd either start to feel a lot better about your own weight, or you'd get out of the changing room and run straight back into the gym. Inspiration is a wonderful thing. I ought to add a few, less harsh final thoughts, I think. Really, I encourage a 'positive body attitude' for women, one of the most beautiful things that I've ever experienced in bed with a woman is her confidence. I don't mean with her technique, or whatever...but with herself. If she's confident with herself, then she's relaxed, and fun to be with. I've also known girls that any guy would kill to dance, kiss, and take home....but because of her insecurities she's been....reserved, distant, concerned about herself. I realise it might seem like I'm making two contrasting points, but all I'm saying here is I can't stand how  these 'extreme body-weights' are put forth in a positive light. just as the media has been massacred for creating this 'ideal-size-0-yadayadayada', it should be condemned for promoting unhealthily high bodyweights and 'marketing' them as 'plus-sized-models'. Another point I must stress is that I'm using the term 'plus-sized' rather loosely...many women might have a stricter set of rules for using it. Throughout this rant I've used it to refer to what is basically obese, or extreeeeeemely big girls. To be a plus sized model is a girl with curves, maybe bigger breasts, generally a fuller body-shape. Not someone who is very obviously unhealthy in their diet/lifestyle. I just wish women would stop deluding themselves; and I don't mean...looking at pictures that they'll never be, but....stop looking at something that is quite obviously *not beautiful*, but has been squeezed into beautiful packaging just for all those vulnerable women out there. Every woman can be beautiful (and PLEASE don't read that as 'every woman can be a size x or y', that is not what I mean), but I don't think women should just accept that 'any size' is beautiful...because quite frankly, it's not. Finally, allow me to chip in with a guy's point of view: I'm no muscle-man..I occasionally enjoy the gym, and I've done some running. Mostly I get along with charisma...but I know that if I suddenly gained a lot of weight (for example, if I doubled in weight), I would desperately struggle to find any women interested in me at all. Please don't put a media-esque spin on what I've just typed either and insist that this is just 'what society tells me beautiful is', it's not. This is simply a case of being a(n even vaguely) healthy human being, rather than promoting an unhealthy image of bodyweight in people already struggling to balance their own weight and lifestyles. The pendulum swings both ways, girls...everything in moderation. Beauty is achievable, but it is earned not given. - Rant over, thank you for reading. 

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I've (unfortunately) never read the books, I've only gone to see the film (I was dragged there by a friend), and both of us left the cinema...well.....disappointed. Basically what I'm saying is: I don't get why people love 'The Hunger Games' so much. I thought it was an average film at best, and I was disappointed with the lack of blood, considering the amount of violence that was happening on the screen. Don't get me wrong, I love reading...I just never got around to these ones. Is it perhaps like Harry Potter? Where...you had to 'be there', and be involved with the characters development? Because it really seems like the fan-base is more committed and fleshed out than most of the characters in the HG's 'universe'. 

Explain to me why people love the hunger games?

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Notre-Dame de Paris

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About to go and do some yoga, it's the first glimmer of exercise I've done in months, and despite the fact that my body doesn't physically seem to have 'suffered' much, I can feel it. You know when everything your organs do seems kinda laboured? Not...horribly so, but just a *little*, yeah...that's what I'm feeling now.

But! I'm trying to force happy thoughts. I passed my second year of university, and now I'm back with (part of) my family, so I should be thankful. I miss certain people (don't we all), though I'm trying desperately to shove aside the 'unhappiness' that seems to linger on some people in my life at the moment. Happiness happiness happiness. There's no way to it, it is the way....that's what they say, no?  Here's hoping.

And hey! I'm back to the blog, it's been forever. Nice to meetcha again. 

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And so..on to chapter two? ..no doubt about it, nervous.

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She's ever so beautiful...