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Doing better, thank you...

Hello everyone, We’re so sorry about us not posting anything for the past 7 months if not longer ;-; We’re doing so much better however, in a way we couldn’t have possibly imagined! We managed to get our lives back on track, found someone special and have been with them for the past 6 months~

Due to us doing so much better and having someone else to focus on we stopped posting all these months ago. For that we’re sorry, as it lead to some slightly worried messages during these past few months.

Recently we discussed what we should do with this blog and most of us agreed that it was for the best to leave it at what it was and to stop posting all together. We no longer can find the time and no longer feel the need to continue this blog.

We do want to thank everyone for their support and kind messages over this past year or so. We’re doing better and better each day, but we’ll never forget the kind souls we met on this now slightly less chaotic platform :’)

Much love from us, The system of love and despair.

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Are you faking DID?

Last year, I was officially diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, and let me tell you that I was shocked.

After getting misdiagnosed with almost everything out there, I was diagnosed with something that I never thought I could have, ever.

A couple of months later, I started going into the self doubt spiral.

This is my advice for systems doubting themselves:

Doubting yourself is completely normal. DID is meant to be covert and hidden, it’s a defense mechanism after all, almost every system out there doubted their experience at some point, it’s okay.

NOT EVERY SYSTEM IS LIKE SYSTEMS ON TUMBLR. Oh my god, I WISH someone would have told me this last year. You don’t have to have a bed in your room for each alter. You don’t have to have perfect communication with your alters. You don’t have to talk with them on a daily basis and switch 1000 times a day, just no. My communication with my alters is terrible. I sometimes go months without fully switching, days and even weeks without alters talking in my head. My alters mostly work through passive influence and that’s okay. You really don’t have to have a system like the ones you see on here to be valid, please remember that.

Not everything’s “you’re valid uwu”, no. Sometimes you make mistakes, sometimes doctors make mistakes and it’s okay. There are a lot of disorders that might have a similar presentation to DID like BPD, schizophrenia or bipolar disorder. You need to be completely honest with yourself about your experiences. You really don’t want to get misdiagnosed and get treated for something that you don’t have “terrible idea, believe me”. If you’re honest with yourself about your experience, then there’s nothing to worry about.

Please don’t obsess over labels. There was this time when I was almost always co conscious with my protector and I kept wondering if I actually have OSDD, and it made me really depressed. It does not matter whether you have DID or OSDD, they’re almost the same thing and the point is, you have gone through trauma that fractured your identity so it really doesn’t matter what you have. Doctors treat symptoms, not labels. It’s okay to be confused for a while ❤️.

Yes, alters can go dormant for a lot of time and that’s completely normal. No, that doesn’t mean that you’re faking.

Sometimes you can switch without knowing or noticing the switch, so don’t obsess over why you aren’t switching too often.

It takes A LOT of time to have a good communication with your alters. It really isn’t as easy as tumblr makes it seems to be.

You don’t have to have obvious and overt symptoms of DID to be valid. I haven’t had so many proofs of my amnesia, only 4 times or something. I have also never experienced dissociative fugue, and that’s okay.

Amnesia for your own amnesia. Sometimes you don’t even notice that you lost time or that you said something that you have no memory of until someone points it out. So again don’t obsess over not switching too often.

DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT focus too much on your alters or your disorder. Do not go googling symptoms of DID and reading tons of articles for hours. This is just gonna make your self doubt much worse. It’s okay to learn about your disorder, just don’t do it too much because everyone experiences DID differently and that might increase your doubt.

Always keep in mind that DID is different for everyone. My best friend has DID and our systems are completely different. He switches much more often and he has no idea how many alters does he have, doesn’t know their names or anything about them, however my amnesia is much worse than his. Seeing systems acting differently doesn’t mean that you’re fake.

Since I brought this up, it’s okay not to know anything about your alters. I have around 16 alters and maybe more, I only know and have communicated with 6 of them. Again, it’s not as easy as tumblr makes it seems.

It’s okay not to feel like you’re a multiple. It’s okay not to refer to yourself as “we”. I personally never refer to myself as we unless I’m talking specifically about me and my alters.

It’s okay to have more overt symptoms after getting your diagnosis, and it’s also okay for your symptoms to be less after diagnosis. It’s really common that alters start being much more visible after diagnosis, that doesn’t mean you’re faking. Despite being less common but it’s okay to have less symptoms after getting diagnosed. Your alters might be just scared, I have experienced this and it made me feel like I was faking it all, but it doesn’t. Sometimes, your alters are as scared as you, maybe even more.

I wish someone would have told me this last year, so here I am, telling you why you shouldn’t worry, this too shall pass, trust me.

Also, feel free to add your own advice.

If you need anything, don’t hesitate to message us, we’d be more than glad to help!

Stay safe ❤️

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Stress

It's that time of the semester again. Deadlines, presentations and tests. Please end our suffering.

~ Kenshi

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Not sure this will get any notes but. For ppl who r searching…

please like/reblog this if you are a system! I’m looking for other system blogs to follow :)

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Happy Birthday, Edward!

Thank you for your birthday wishes! We shall relay them to Edward as soon as possible ^-^

~ Dominic

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Hurray!

Late happy birthday to this smoking engine! You're 22 now so start acting like it xD

Let's make sure we make this one count Eddy!

~ Dominic

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Looking back at these posts I really start to notice how far we've come as a system! It's pretty incredible if you start thinking about it :')

Not trying to blow my own horn here but I'm proud of us ♡

~ Dominic

Do I have to?

Dominic: Why were we home sick today...?

Kenshi: Because you're overworking and don't listen to your body despite of what happened like 4 or 5 weeks ago....

Dominic:.....

Dominic: Why were we home sick today...?

Kenshi: OMG I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU IF YOU GO OUT TO WORK THURSDAY!!

Dominic: Woah wait... THURSDAY????

Kenshi: Yes, Thursday, because I called them earlier today to let them know we're not working tomorrow either.

Stephany: I'm starting to like you more and more Keshi!!

Kenshi: He just needs some proper rest and recover... The fucking doofus.

Lynn: I agree nya~!

Dominic: That's just because you could sleep in today Lynn......

Lynn: M-maybe.... =w='

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I guess it's normal for this body to suddenly start shaking at the most random times? We're not even cold and suddenly start shaking and tensing up uncontrollably... It's really weird and I can't figure out what's happening.

~ Greizza

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Happy Birthday to Greizza!! :D

Thank you for the wishes, the party was marvelous :)

~ Greizza

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Huzzah~

It's our dear Greizza's birthday today! Since we don't know her age we don't know what she's turned this year but we'll celebrate it nonetheless! ^-^

~ Kenshi

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How other people spend their evening: Spending time with friends, going out, reading, relaxing, watching TV or a movie, sleeping early.

How we spend our evening: Dissociating every 5 minutes because everyone wants to watch their favourite videos on YouTube.

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Anyone else experiencing some serious brain lag? I think we've disconnected from the central server. There's drool on our chin? Why is nobody responding? We should probably go to bed.

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Sorry

There has been a lot of stress flowing around in the system lately and we’re not keeping up with any posts. Like... not even close to it. We can’t guarantee that it will from now on, but we can guarantee that it’ll be at least a bit more than it has been!

~ Kenshi

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DID/OSDD Systems that don’t have a professional DX are valid.

Not everyone is lucky enough to have the ability to see someone who can professionally diagnose them.

We were so lucky to come from a middle class family and have to ability to see a specialist who could give us a diagnosis. For so many people though this isn’t an option at all.

Yes if someone has the ability to see someone who can diagnose them it’s good to get a diagnosis but that is a privilege many people don’t get.

Often people who are not professionally diagnosed are the ones who need the community most because this is their source to figure out what they need to do to start healing and such.

Expecting people to put their healing on hold until when/if they can get a professional diagnosis is classist and ableist.

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Instructions: Serve rice on the side.

Me:

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Edward, what about your girlfriend? I read that you two were in a "pretty stable and very deep" relationship... Does she know about the fact that you think that relationships "aren't really your thing"?

Edward answering;

Let's just keep it that I have no idea on what I want regarding relationships. I guess she would know since she reads the blog, so I don't really have anything to hide. I think it'll end on a very short talk and many tears shed.. So basically I'm not looking forward to it and almost started avoiding it, but I have to talk this through with her and come to a resolution.

About the fronting part itself by the way... Most of us only fronted rarely during these past few weeks, but Dominic stressing out over these next couple of weeks could change that for all of us. I guess we'll see how things go. Maybe Stephany, Zane and Jude can even finally open their presents?

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No. Just no.

Just had a very relaxing weekend after a stressful first week but right after this relaxing weekend we'll be entering another stressful week... We have to arrange a single-night-2-day-long camp for the first year students of our study and make sure everything goes as planned. All this in one word would be "Stress". So hurray, hurray for the endless loop of school.

~ Dominic