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Anyone play warzone ? I’m 17 I like weed I’m okay at it but I love it a lot and my bf is mean to me when I play and leaves me out a lot

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I don’t want to leave my boyfriend but I deserve better

I feel manipulated

He’s toxic

So am I ..

But we want to change and become better people what should I do

Stay with him and we go through all the bad times but helo eachther grow and become better people and then at the end we’ll love eachother more

Or leave

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Got a new scale btw it’s better and more accurate then the other ;)

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Third day fasting

Ate peache and some chips on second day

Oops sorry

Third day today tho almost complete

One hour left

Then in my fourth day

I’m going to keep going until I can’t then I’ll restrict

I don’t deserve to eat

Stressful week :/

I’ll update soon on weight etc and maybe bodycheck

Last time I weighed tho (today)

52.2kg

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Day 2 on fasting I’m not eating today fuck that I’m not doing okay things are so bad rn I’m stressed I’m exhausted idk if my bed is cheating on me I really love him and feel he’s the one for me but yesterday I saw him following an account that had sexual girls etc on it he said he didn’t follow it, i think someone just changed what was on the account Idm I feel like he’s telling the truth but then I keep overthinking everything and it makes me sick I hate cheaters liars and men that can’t control themselves I want a man to be all about me be attracted to me and only love me I’m not settling for less I already did that and got heartbroken I can’t handle more pain I feel weak I feel like I’m dying I can’t trust anyone I’m not myself anymore I don’t know where she went she was okay 3 days ago and she’s just disappeared why? I’m not hungry I don’t have an apetite I’m not eating for long I hate my body I’m an ugly fat bitch I hate comparing myself to others I’m just so fucking disgusting

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Staying at my uncles house with his wife I like it here but it gets awkward they argue a lot and I’ve been eating wayyyy too much I realised I don’t actually eat that much or they just eat a lot but still I wish I could have a good excuse they know about my eating disorder and I can’t purge because they will hear it any tips?????

But when I’m going back home in a few more days I am restricting hard afffffff no eating or low cal foods fasting fasting green tea black coffee soup tips tips tips tips tips also period is coming if I work out while on it do I lose more weight heard something like that lmk lmk help ❤️

Stay safe please💘🌸

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@ "anti pro ana"

Most thinspo/Ana blogs on tumblr are not pro Ana. No one is interested in encouraging others to develop a seriously fucked up and dangerous eating disorder. Blogs that post thinspo pics are usually run by teenagers/young adults who are going through hell and would be starving themselves anyway. By reporting and shutting down those blogs, you take away people’s safe spaces, their outlets, and their community. You are helping no one. No one gets an eating disorder because they saw someone on tumblr post a picture of someone thin. You’re not being noble, you’re not saving anyone, you’re being rude and taking something away from someone who already has nothing. If someone gets their thinspo blog deleted, they’re not going to be like “oh well, gonna eat normally now and be totally healthy, cool”. They make a new one and hate you. My blog is for no one else. It is for me. If I couldn’t have it, I would be sad because I wouldn’t have a community and a way to find people going through the same thing, but I would still have an eating disorder and I would just make a new blog. The last thing anyone wants is to help someone else develop a mental illness. Tumblr doesn’t have an option to make your blog private. Stop shutting people down for having an outlet. Most of us have 3 followers anyway.

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What is the point

TRIGGER WARNING

SELF HARM!!!

I need help but I don’t want it I think

I hate my dad I always say I hate him but know deep down I love him but I don’t he’s a horrible person I fucking hate him he’s the devil he acts as if he cares for me he doesn’t !!!!

He cares about what others think of him

If I dress a certain way he gets angry because people will judge him for not being a good father or something like stfu let me do what I want

I’m 17 I’ve never had proper friends I’ve never got to make memories or have fun AT ALL I swear AT ALL my whole life I’m stuck in my house in my room HE never let me out and when I tried to he would argue and I wouldn’t have fun or want to go anymore so I don’t want to go out anymore so I stay stuck in my home in my room in the dark for years I was home schooled started college for a few months to at least see people I was still struggling and now being on lockdown with him I wanna die more and morem

My uncle wants me to move in with him and I want to but I have a boyfriend that I talk to every night and i wouldn’t be able to talk to him because the walls aren’t sound Proof or whatever my boyfriend thinks I should tell my uncle but I’m scared he doesn’t want me to have a boyfriend and shouts at me (strict family) but my uncle is worried for me and my health last time my dad smashed my room my uncle was there and he was helping me clean up and he told me to come live with him and that he loves me so much like a daughter I’m just saying random things please if anyone can give me advice what I should do

I would love to live with my uncle and him being fine with my boyfriend but I’m scared and also I’m scared to leave my siblings I’ve always been a mum to them because my mums an alcoholic so she can’t take care of them idk what to do I feel responsible I feel stuck here I’m scared I’m lost I don’t know what to do I just want to die I cut myself and it hurts

I don’t deserve getting better

I’m not worth it

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Dad smashed my scale broke my mirror

Thank you very much

Thank you very very fucking much

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If you’re not amazed by the stars on a clear night then we won’t work.

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source

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good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

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“Tomorrow, you promise yourself, things will be different, yet, tomorrow is too often a repetition of today. And you disappoint yourself again and again.”

— James T. McCay (via meineluft)

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Starving for skinny