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Just wnated to say your videos make me wanna pause each frame to see if I can analyze the story. I love the aesthetics your style captures and the story it’s trying to tell!

Those kinds of words are the best antidepressant. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! <3 (´｡• ω •｡`)

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I love these animations so much! They reminded me of early 2010s experimental animation (down to the sound design)!! Very comforting to me <3

Thank you so much! I feel so appreciated (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄) <3 <3 <3

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Concept arts, part 1

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I just realized my last two videos were basically made for my therapist. Now I look at them and go, ‘ugh, I’m more of a jazz person anyway.’

Do you know that feeling of constantly starting over? Well, that's okay. I'll start as many times as it takes to understand what my soul truly needs.

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Momo. Weird - therapy animation video

Sorry.

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I kinda hate my slow pace, but I’ve started working on concept art for the game I want to make. So here are some meaningless scribbles.

A message to everyone (or a love letter, if you will)↓↓↓

Hi everyone! I'm truly sorry for being so quiet lately. I’ve had very little free time because of college homework (I'm currently getting a second degree — at a lower level — after my bachelor's in animation, since I haven’t been able to find a stable job here yet).

I want to thank everyone who followed me and reacted to my works. I was really surprised to see that even 14 new people have joined me here — especially since I haven’t advertised my blogs. It means a lot, and I can’t tell you how much it warms my heart! ♡

P.S.

The weird video I mentioned has actually been ready for a couple of months now, but my sound designer is still finishing his work…

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"My love language is being weird and saying nothing"

Fun fact: this art turned out crooked because I drew it all twisted up on a psych ward bed.

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"Wake me up when blackness fades"

I'm slowly starting to make art using only English, because I want the world to see it. This one was made a few months ago, when I was still going through a very dark time. I'm not sure if 'blackness' can be used to describe that kind of deep, crushing pain in the chest. Or can I say that when I close my eyes and think about the world, all I see are 'black' windows with mocking reflections in them?"

(This text kind of popped up unexpectedly. Just a silly thought about translation that wouldn't leave me alone.) <3

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F*ck ai art

I wanted to order some music for my animation. They sent me sample snippets and asked what needed to be changed. But when I sent my feedback, they suddenly replied with this:

For the first time in months on antidepressants, I just broke down and cried.

This is the last time I show my art to boomers.

Rus:

Хотела заказать музыку. Прислали примеры-отрывки, спросили че поправить. А на мои правки ответили:

Впервые за несколько месяцев антидепрессантов прорвало, разревелась.

Короче, буду миксить лоялти-фри музыку с ютуба и пофиг, что она в вонючем роблоксе использовалась уже.

В последний раз показываю свои работы бумерам.

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I mixed up my antipsychotics with antidepressants and took the latter at night.

That's a win.

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Some cursed clips from a weird video (work in progress).

I took down my portfolio, changing my website domain, and trying to get my life together.

I got accepted as a junior developer, finally crawled out of depression, and now I'm working on a video as a stylistic example of a game I really want to make.

Today I'm going to a game jam for the first time, hoping to meet someone — to stop being a lonely, socially anxious mess.

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