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am I hideous and unlovable or do I just need a haircut?

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Love this. Trying to be strong.

daily affirmations:

i am kind

i am in control of my emotions

it does not bother me when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

everyone in the house has the right to be in the kitchen

i am kind and in control of my emotions even when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

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✨selected inner thoughts™ while reading The Secret History, arranged in a chronological fashion✨

"ahh the beauty, the culture, the intellectual discussions, super pretty dark academia"

"they all seem a bit gay. Yes the teacher too"

"when will they EAT something"

"when will they SLEEP"

"sooo a bacchanalia and then a murder...got it. It happens. It's okay. It's Henry you knowww"

"—well IF bunny is SOOO annoying then okay, understandable"

"they really killed their friend"

"WHENN EATTT OR SLEEP"

"mayybbeee Henry is not the king, the saviour—"

"aren't they supposed to be in a class and like study"

"what's with all these PILLS all the time"

"WHENNN EATT OR SLEEPP!!!?"

"Richard's a freak"

"everybody's a freak"

"so there WERE exams huh-"

"what a beautiful-brilliant fucking book which made me sway my moralities because of how annoying that lil guy was, and how lovely that big guy was aaahshshshskegdkfbdudjd"

"right. what's all this then"

Don't live for the aesthetics kids. It sometimes kills.

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Not me scrolling through the Conclave tag only to see no one talk about the deliberate positioning and framing of the women in this movie.

Pulling up this movie I completely expected to only encounter Sister Agnes as the one woman we see in the trailer, the conclave a space that has been kept from the female members of the church. Now, color me surprised when I started the movie and most of the establishing shots we got were focused on all the women working in the Vatican.

And it is such a deliberate choice, it does the film a disservice not to talk about it.

Because while Cardinal Lawrence is having his fifteenth breakdown during sequestering and Bellini finds the ambitious asshole within himself, Ray does all the leg work, and Bel---- we see the women work.

We see the kitchens, we see them cook, we see them stand aside. Most of the time when the Cardinals are conspiring it is the women who interrupt because they are busy working, walking, running errands.

And there is power in that.

I think it is very deliberate how often (and with such lingering gaze) the camera shows us the lives of the other half - partially to connect to the wider themes of the movie, on how Bellini asks for women to get more power but never thanks them, and how Benitez stumps them all by thanking the women preparing their meals when asked to say the prayer (considering his own probably tumultuous relationship to gender within the church).

But it also stands in direct opposition to a long tradition in story telling: servants don't exist. How often the heroes of a regency romance are "alone" because the two hand maidens and three maids don't really count.

Conclave doesn't do that.

It doesn't let us look away.

Between all the petty drama, the politics, and the real life consequences of the conclave, we never stop looking at the people doing all the work.

Yes, we follow the ups and downs of Lawrence and Co, but in doing so the movie reminds us again and again of the women working the kitchen.

And that was just such a powerful artistic choice in a movie about a famously misogynistic church... I loved it. And I had to talk about it.

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YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THE MOVIE STARTS WITH THE CAT LOOKING AT ITS REFLECTION ALONE AND ENDS WITH IT LOOKING AT ITS REFLECTION WITH ITS FAMILY 😭😭😭

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What killed me about this film, and this very particular scene was that the Cat was definitely not one for affection, neither for expressing it, nor accepting it fully UNTIL it sees the whale struggling and just that tiny soft purr, that little nudge... knowing that's the best a tiny cat can do for a mighty whale... Just trying to comfort the whale and make it feel loved SOMEHOW

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when the cat comforts the whale at the end of Flow (2024) with purring and face rubs because it, too, understands the feeling of desperation and despair when your environment suddenly shifts from friendly to fatal after the whale initially saved it from drowning at the beginning of the flood

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Haayee :')

Farogh Jafri's words from Supermen of Malegaon (2008); dir. Faiza Ahmad Khan

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J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye

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When Taylor said "life is emotionally abusive" cause same

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Just saw on LinkedIn that people are now making COMIC STRIPS through ChatGPT. The only good thing about it was that the person had turned themself into a cartoon, cause you gotta be one to do such a thing. I hate this world.

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:C

I’m so fucking sick of AI

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I'm soooo mad I didn't think of this.

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There's things I wanna say to you, but I'll just let you live (a threat)

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GILMORE GIRLS (2000 - 2007) [insp]