sunflw3r

[sunflw3r]

hi guys.

im assuming you can guess this because i barely upload on here, but frankly, im not really enjoying writing for idols anymore. im still a kpop fan, i just dont really enjoy it that much compared to anime or game characters.

is thwre a chance ill come back? maybe. do i see it happening? no.

thank you for years of love and support on my kpop writing. i hope ive made pieces you enjoy and will continue to read

sun

[sunflw3r]

first post on anime account :p

another time

in another time, you and me could be together forever, and have a perfect, carefree romance.

toji x male reader spoilers for the jjk manga and anime :p

notes: semi-jjk canon compliant (toji's mentioned to be alive? idk how to explain and tsumiki doesn't exist), ooc toji, angst tw: angst, abandonment, cursing, depression, mentions of arguments, mentions of blood (implied assassin career). i might of missed smth, lmk if i need to add anything

…sun✰: writing this bc im depressed and i love my toji<3

in another time, i could come home to you.

the house was dark, no lights that burned electricity working. there were only candles that slowly reached the end of their wick, giving the room a soft glow. it created a creepy haunted atmosphere if there was no one present. y/n hated coming home to the empty house. it depressed him more than he usually was in this lifestyle. 

he called out for anyone, dropping his coat on the rack at the door. y/n kicked off his shoes, peering his head to look towards the kitchen. “toji, i’m home.” there was no immediate response, meaning the man was most likely asleep or was out of the house buying alcohol.

y/n didn’t expect a response. he learned to not expect one. toji was, for how much he loved him, never around enough. the house was just him, megumi, and the scent of cigarettes and dried blood. 

sometimes the opposite of expectations occur.

“will you be quiet? i just got megumi to sleep.” toji’s head poked from megumi’s bedroom, holding the sleeping 3 year old in his arms. his heart rested for a second before clenching again in a stressed anger. y/n held back a retort, something along the lines about how he just made a paycheck for their family and how he shouldn’t be chastised for trying to talk, but he held his tongue and allowed the bubbling emotions to burn in his gut. getting angry at toji right now wouldn’t do anything. it rarely did anything, due to toji’s hard head, and only made things between them worse. besides, the anger in his stomach allowed him to feel anything other than pain that lingered in every curve of his brain.

“i’m sorry.” y/n said with a lack of the smiley tone he had before. toji’s face faltered only for a moment, not one second longer. apologies weren’t common among them, the pride they both carried was both strong and loud. toji coughed slowly to clear his throat, megumi turning sleepily in his arms.

“it’s fine, just- say good night to him? he was whining all night for you.” toji’s voice is rough, the softest bit of emotion slipping through his voice as megumi turned once more in his grasp. the anger burning a pit in y/n’s stomach quelled as toji handed him the boy, his thin body much too light for his age. megumi’s eyes slowly opened, a glimmer appearing in his irises as he saw y/n.

“you’re home!” he happily said, reaching his small hands up to grab y/n’s hair. y/n smiled at the touch, leaning down to press a kiss to megumi’s forehead.

“i am. have you been giving daddy a hard time while i’ve been gone?” megumi shook his head at y/n’s statement in denial, the flush caking his face revealing his lie. toji cracked a small smile, pinching his son’s cheek. megumi squealed, dropping his hands from y/n’s hair to cover his face.

“don’t believe anything this rascal says. he was complaining and whining all night wanting you to come home.” toji’s voice had a ribbon of playfulness going through it as megumi tucked his head into y/n’s chest, embarrassed he was being exposed. y/n shook his head, toji rolling his eyes, whispering about how y/n babied the boy too much. when would toji understand that megumi was the cutest thing in the universe? toji leaned up against the door, pushing it open.

laughter escaped from y/n’s throat as the bedroom door opened, toji ushering y/n and megumi inside. looking down at the boy, y/n’s smile changed into a smirk as he sped up while going into the room. “megumi, i got you! let’s run away from daddy, he’s gonna get us!” megumi squealed as y/n entered the room, toji running up behind the two, his arms locking around y/n’s waist with little effort.

“caught you.” toji’s voice was low as he pressed a gentle kiss to the right side of y/n’s jaw. y/n opened his mouth, megumi squealing in response again as toji’s hand sneaked up to tickle his foot.

in between megumi’s giggles, he looked up to meet y/n’s eyes. “you’re terrible at running, dad. we got caught by daddy!” he exclaimed with a pout, kicking his feet against, y/n’s heart stopping. 

dad…?

megumi continued to stare up at him, expectantly. a frown started to replace the glimmer in his eyes as y/n didn’t respond to him. y/n was silent for a second more, toji’s cough signaling a ‘pull it together’, snapping him out of his trance. “i’m sorry megumi. it’s all my fault, now i guess you have to go to sleep.” y/n frowned, caressing the boy’s hair gently. toji nodded his head in agreement, megumi pouting as his eyes began to droop.

megumi hid a yawn behind his lips as y/n laid him down on his bed, eyes practically closed as y/n tucked him into bed. y/n sat down on the edge of the mattress, toji following the action and sitting next to him, avoiding the small boy’s curled up body. “sleep megumi, you need to sleep to grow big and strong!” y/n’s voice was cheerful as he pet the top of megumi’s head. the cheerfulness an act he only put on for the kid, one that he let die the second him and toji were alone.

“like daddy.” he groggily whispered, y/n breaking his gaze from megumi to look over to see toji’s smile. there was an affectionate aura that clung to every section of his skin. the look was so different for him, something that y/n had only seen the day toji had asked him out all those years ago. the exclusivity of it made y/n’s stomach burn with a rush of adrenaline, fiery like a burning star. maybe there was more to toji and the gruffness inside him. maybe there was happiness and accepting in there. maybe there was joy in there for the people who he loved. y/n wanted to dig in to find more of it, to see him like this more.

y/n looked back to megumi, his hand now brushing megumi’s hair out of his face, smiling softly at the boy’s half-asleep figure. “just like daddy.” y/n repeated gently, toji’s arm snaking around his waist as y/n quietly cupped megumi’s cheek. “sleep well dear.” that was y/n’s final words to the boy for the night, toji repeating the message quietly. the two adults exited megumi’s room quickly before their movement could cause megumi to stir and wake up again and catch a case of the zoomies.

as the couple entered their room, toji’s hands went to y/n’s waist. his fingers brushed against the waistband of y/n’s pants, his skin barely touching the edges of y/n’s back. the room was dark, as whatever candles toji had lit earlier in the day had definitely burned through their entire wicks by now. 

“you’re so good to him. it’s sickening.” toji’s voice was monotone, like usual, but there were sections of happiness peaking through his lips. y/n smiled in return, pressing a kiss to the scar on toji’s lips, so quickly it could barely be counted as a kiss.

“megumi just brings out the affectionate side of me.” y/n spoke, gently straightening out toji’s baggy shirt, his hands stopping on the muscles of his biceps. he slipped away, going to the dresser before he got too comfortable.

toji froze at the touch. he froze so intensely that he couldn’t react to y/n quickly stripping out of his clothes and putting on pajamas before flopping into the bed. “come here, toji. i’ve waited all day to be in your arms.” y/n’s words were soft. inviting. something that broke toji out of his trance and made him walk over to y/n. the emotions made his heart clench, toji now wishing for the connection of the man he… loved. 

against a portion of his mind, toji flopped onto his boyfriend, arms tightening around y/n the second he touched his waist.. toji pressed a kiss to the side of y/n’s face, rolling to the other side of the bed, one arm under y/n’s back, the other hanging off the bed.

“god i love you. i think you’re poisoning me, you know? fucking asshole who took my heart and made me fall in love with how beautiful and kind you are.” toji whispered, eyes looking towards the window. his words were most likely meant to be thoughts. even y/n could tell that. a bright smile graced y/n’s face as he slipped his hand into toji’s, staring up at the ceiling.

“you were a bitch too. bringing me into your home and trapping me with your good looks and adorable son…” y/n teased, toji’s exterior falling as he began to complain.

“hey- you came to my house AFTER we started dating- don’t make it sound like i’m a crook.” toji’s words were a grumble as he turned over, clinging to y/n’s side. he pressed a gentle kiss to y/n’s jaw, eliciting a soft giggle from the man. “besides, you love megumi and me. you didn’t get trapped.”

y/n rolled his eyes at the (accurate) statement, moving his body so he rested on toji’s chest, arms loosely wrapped around toji’s waist. his breath came out as soft, warm sighs against toji’s neck, eyes closing due to how relaxed toji made him feel. “you’re warm. i really love you, ji.” toji’s eyes lit up, grip on y/n’s back tightening the slightest bit. it was almost unnoticeable, but the action made y/n smile.

“i love you too, y/n. sleep well.” toji spoke softly, pressing a kiss to the top of his boyfriend’s head. y/n’s eyes fluttered open and then shut, catching one more glimpse of toji, the darkness seeping through the windows as he fell asleep.

y/n felt disgusting. dried blood caked under his fingertips, on the line of his scalp, and soaked his shirt with a deep red color. his heart was beating so fast it was like a high only comparable to cocaine. the back door of the house closed with a loud shutter as he reentered, something toji was supposed to fix ages ago. it was something he probably forgot about and somehow escaped y/n’s wrath, and yet even in his wave of anger, he had no energy to fight.

“you’re home.” toji said plainly as y/n entered into the house, sitting next to megumi at the head of the table while the 3 year old his dinner of frozen vegetables and whatever y/n cheap crap that was semi healthy could find at the grocery store. 

megumi began to turn his head, toji covering his son’s eyes before they could see y/n in his bloody tank top and pants. “i wanna see dad!” megumi whined, toji shushing him. he tried to push of toji’s hands, toji not budging.

“dad’s not ready to see you yet, eat your dinner before i eat it instead.” toji’s voice was harsh, harsh enough to make y/n wince at the thought that the person on the receiving end of this was his son. 

he - begrudgingly - used this distraction to run up the stairs to the bathroom to shower. opening the door, y/n moved to turn the water on, the shower head turning on. cold water trickled down his arm when he checked it after a few minutes, his neutral expression turning annoyed.

“damn you toji for not fixing the heater.” he muttered, shaking off his wet arm before stripping down the bloody clothes that weighed on his body. he entered the shower, shivering as icey water covered his torso.y/n’s world always got so much darker when he’s in the cold water of the shower. the shock allows his brain to fully awaken and think long strands of thoughts that don’t normally process in the drunken, depressed haze y/n is in during the day.

y/n had a pit growing in his stomach. things had been going too well recently. toji was happy, smiling once a day at the least, whether it was y/n or megumi didn’t matter. he actively tried to please y/n: making sure dinner was made, taking care of megumi, or trying not to curse up a storm right after y/n returned home.

most of these things would make anyone in a normal “relationship” happy, as their partner finally accepted them into their life and allowed them to coexist together. but these things, actions that were so ‘untoji’, made y/n fear for the coming days. was toji hiding something? or did he find out something was wrong?

y/n shook his head, water getting on the old shower curtains and drippin to the ground. he reached for the almost empty shampoo bottle, squeezing out the smallest amount of the watery substance onto his hand. he worked it into the roots of his hair, the blood flaking from his scalp and falling to the shower floor.

the bottle of body wash was comparably newer, y/n taking a large amount after turning the water off to rub on his skin. he basked in the scent, the familiar waves of sandalwood and honey calming down his anxious heart. 

everything would be fine.

maybe toji was really getting better. maybe, now, his lover wasn’t someone who he just attempted to make ends meet with, but someone who he could depend on in his personal life. toji was turning into a life partner, and not someone who was there to make the pain go away.

y/n turned the water on one final time, the remaining blood and negative emotions leaving him in the streams of droplets. it would all be fine. he turned off the water, exiting the shower with a happiness that was fresh and clean, like a daisy after the rain. there was a towel laid on the counter, most likely something toji had put there before y/n had made it home. 

it was strange being so cared for by a man who didn’t care often. everytime he rubbed the towel over his body to dry his wet skin, his heart fluttered with a golden light that surely radiated off of it, like it was toji’s own hands drying him off. once his body was rid of the dampness, he dropped the now dirty towel onto the floor and made his way to the bedroom lit by small rays of sunshine coming through the windows.

he found a pair of clean boxers in the laundry basket - whether they were his or toji’s both was unknown and didn’t matter. he slid them on to his mostly dry lower body, the domesticity of it all bringing a soft smile to his face. was his life turning for the better finally.

y/n picked a shirt and a pair of pants from the dresser, hoping it looked cohesive enough that toji wouldn’t immediately point it out, which he had done before. the soft fabric made y/n smile, already imagining toji and megumi waiting downstairs for him. he quickly returned to the stairwell, a smile crawling onto his lips as he saw megumi and toji dancing in the living room on the lower floor.

it was a mixture of hilarious and the most precious thing he had ever seen. megumi, bless him, was standing on toji’s feet, reaching his hands up to the sky towards his father. toji leaned over, connecting their hands, swaying from left to right slowly. the music was some soft ballad from a children’s show megumi watched, a bright smile on the toddler’s face as his dad made harmless critiques of his skill. megumi giggled softly, toji watching with a bright smile.

there was a soft breath that escaped y/n’s lungs, wishing he had his old camera to take a picture of his family. this is when they would start anew. megumi’s laughter soared through the house like balloons, toji occasionally letting out his own chuckle every once in a while. there was a new emotion seeping into y/n’s heart. was it one he could name?

as the song slowed to a stop and megumi jumped up and down in happiness, as toji looked up towards the stairs and his smile grew tenfold as he saw y/n standing there, he understood. it was completeness. he was complete, finally, after many years of searching.

“are my two favorite boys dancing without me?” y/n asked, a shocked gasp escaping his mouth as he ran down the stairs. megumi hopped off his father’s feet, meeting y/n at the edge of the living room.

megumi giggled as y/n pat his head, pointing to toji with his small index finger. “it was daddy’s idea.” y/n gasped again, looking at toji with a fake-betrayed look on his face. 

“what! it was daddy’s idea!” y/n’s gaze met toji, a fake pout appearing on his lips. the only goal of it was to make toji bend to his wants.

toji rolled his eyes, his hands crossing over his chest. “sorry, my dear y/n, that i was so cruel to dance with my son who begged me to dance with him.” megumi giggled, pushing y/n’s leg gently to get the man’s attention.

“meg, what’s up?” y/n asked, the 3 year waving his hand towards himself, signifying he had something to say. going down to the ground, y/n leaned in, listening to megumi’s words.

“go dance with daddy!” he exclaimed, giggling softly as y/n gasped. does the child enjoy embarrassing him? a warmth erupted on y/n’s face at the thought of dancing with toji, once dormant butterflies growing in his stomach again. y/n stood up to see toji putting a cd in the cd player, before turning around and extending his arm towards his boyfriend.

“may i have this dance?”

there was a pause as y/n took in a deep breath. and then he returned to the reality they both lived in. y/n took toji’s hand, a smile returning to his lips as they stepped closer together and toji’s hand went to y/n’s waist. y/n’s arms wrapped around his neck, a bright smile creeping onto his face.

the world spinned slowly with the cd playing, frank sinatra flowing through the living room as y/n and toji swayed under the moonlight. it was perfect in every sense of the word, slow dancing under the stars. y/n wasn’t used to that perfect from toji, but his heart slowly acclimated to the feeling.

megumi was curled on the couch, beginning to fall asleep as y/n and toji danced the night away. every place their bodies connected had an electrical spark, warmth flowing through y/n’s nerves. toji was the only thing on y/n’s mind, a constant that made his heart flutter in every instant. and then, he understood himself in that moment.

this is the man he would spend his life with.

he could see them growing old together, toji’s warm hands holding him just as they did now. he could see them with eternal happiness, because they both deserved it. they both deserved it so much.

“you’re spacing out.” toji said, his eyes sparkling as he looked at y/n. “what’s up?” y/n snaps out of his daze, making eye contact with toji, admiring the glow. toji’s eyes sparkled so beautifully as they admired him like he was the only thing in the world.

“i just love you.” y/n whispered, pursing his lips together to view toji’s face. he could see all the wrinkles on his face, the lines under his eyes that made him look tired. and yet he saw his gorgeous smile, the scar bending on his lips to accommodate the motion. y/n reached his hand out, thumb rubbing the skin, the warmth connecting him to the earth he stood on and the life he was living. toji chuckled softly at the touch m, brushing y/n’s hair out of his face. y/n leaned into the touch, head tilting to the side like a dog. 

“i love you too.” he responded, y/n nodding. he could tell toji meant it. he could feel that in the pit of his stomach. toji really loved him.

“good. that’s good.” y/n whispered, his fingers messing with toji’s overgrown black hair. the man’s smile grew brighter, eyes locked onto y/n’s.

“come here,” he whispered softly, y/n leaning into toji’s chest with a sigh. they swayed back and forth, the music flowing through their ears with a calm aura. it wad a movie. y/n leaned his head up, his eyes like stars saying hello to the moon. his eyes then moved their focus down to his pink lips.

toji’s gaze mimicked y/n’s as he turned his head to look down at his boyfriend, their lips inching closer with each breath that escaped their lungs. at the final second, their lips touched, and y/n could breathe again.

their lips pushed and pulled against each other, soft like cotton and sweet like candy. toji must have been taking care of himself more. the usual rough skin of his lips was gone, the only texture on them being the scar that still laid there, that would forever be present on his figure. toji’s hands laid tightly against y/n’s waist, rubbing soft circles on the skin present as y/n made finger curls with the hair that was right above the nape of toji’s neck.

the night rolled on, the two dancing until their feet hurt and they couldn’t feel left from right without stumbling. it was their own movie, where time was still and the only thing that would ever happen would be love.

the music had slowed to a stop, and the family found themself all cuddled in y/n and toji’s small bed. megumi was fast asleep, he probably had been for what was becoming an hour. the small boy was curled into toji’s chest, taking slow deep breaths as y/n curled the strands of his hair around his finger. it was happy.

they were… happy.

toji and y/n quietly made conversations with smiles on their faces. it was far from the usual topics they discussed, like what jobs needed to be done around the house, when one person or the other was working, what food megumi should be eating, etc etc. it was happy things, like where they should take megumi to play, what flavor his birthday cake should be, and where they should go on a date when they had the freetime.

it was happiness. 

and it should’ve been a sign.

it should have been a glaring red sign, instead it was something y/n accepted happily. maybe it was something he would grow to accept in the future.

y/n’s eyes began to close slowly as toji rambled on, a small smile appearing on the man’s face at the action. the moon was well into the sky by now, the two having danced much later than they expected to. he moved his hand to rest in y/n’s hair, gently playing with the strands.

“go to sleep. you’re starting to look like little megumi, falling asleep so randomly.” y/n tried to fight back, contradicting toji’s statement with words about how he ‘was so awake’ and how ‘toji was trying to get rid of him’.

“stop whining, dear. sleep.” y/n lost the energy to fight back due to toji’s hands running through his hair, eyes beginning to close again.

“fine, fine. love you, sleep well.” y/n groggily answered, leaning forward, kissing toji’s lips gently before pulling away, head resting on the pillow next to toji’s. their faces were so close together, close enough that every breath that escaped their lips caused vibrations that caused toji’s bangs to move the slightest amount.

“i love you too. i’ll love you forever, never forget that dear.” the words of toji’s reply were solemn, a stark difference from the happy tone he previously occupied. y/n looked at him concerned for a second, but he smiled once again once toji pressed a kiss to his lips. “yeah yeah, okay loverboy. i’ll love you forever as well.” y/n closed his eyes to the touch of toji’s hand on his hip, falling into a deep slumber, one that he wished he didn’t have to wake up from.

the sunshine was cold.

the sunshine was cold, and yesterday the sunshine was warm. it was so warm that everything was bathed in a golden light. it was so warm that the glittering moonlight heated y/n’s skin as he rested with his family the night prior.

and yet the sunshine was cold today.

y/n’s eyes shot open, expecting to be glancing right at toji face.

and yet he wasn’t there.

toji wasn’t there.

that was out of character for the new toji. the new toji didn’t just leave without saying goodbye. the new toji didn’t just disappear after filling y/n’s heart with happiness he had forgotten over the last years of his life. the new toji didn’t just leave his boyfriend - leave his son - and never looked back. the new toji would never break his heart like this.

unless he was the old toji all along, never changing into the new version of himself that y/n so idolized.

megumi was now against his chest, which wasn’t the same position they fell asleep in last night. now sure, the 3 year old tossed and turned, but whenever toji fell asleep next to the boy, megumi gripped so hard and never let go.

y/n closed his eyes, pressing them shut until there were sparkles appearing in the darkness and his head almost hurt, and then he reopened them, relieving the pressure. and yet toji was still gone.

in his daze of reopening his eyes, y/n saw a note resting on the sheets in front of him where toji used to be sleeping. y/n carefully moved his arm to grab the note, readjusting megumi so the boy was more comfortably resting against his chest. he unfurled the sheet of paper slowly, and he was almost certain the world could hear his heart slowly crack.

dear y/n,

i’ve decided to leave this morning and never look back. i got a job that i will complete. i’m leaving megumi to you, as the little man loves you. 

this isn’t because i don’t want to spend my life with you. i wish i could be with you forever but this is how the world is. we must keep moving on. 

i hope this doesn’t hurt that much. i really want you to be happy.

i love you my dear,

toji

tears slipped out of y/n’s eyes and onto the top of megumi’s head as he finished reading the letter, loud sobs creeping up his throat, only to be choked down. megumi stirred slowly, his small, childlike eyes opening brightly to look up at y/n.

“dad,” he sleepily spoke, y/n nodding his head to show that y/n was listening, rubbing megumi’s hair to take his mind off of the note that felt like fire in his hand.

“yes, my dear?” y/n shakily replied, tears falling down his cheeks quickly. megumi looked up, about to ask his question, then he looked to his right. 

“oh… where’s daddy?” megumi asked, now seeming more awake than he did a few seconds ago. he shifted again, holding y/n a little tighter. was he nervous? upset? scared? did he noticed that y/n was in despair?

“daddy? he’s just gone to work, dear.” y/n voice shakes harder with each word, tears dropping into megumi’s hair as he forced himself to break the contact of their eyes. megumi was a spitting image of his father, the man that y/n loved with his entire life and body, the man who just abandoned their family.

“when will he be home? i wanna go to the park with him, and i wanna have dinner with all three of us!” megumi exclaims, y/n holding back a sob as he tightened his grip on megumi’s grey sweatshirt. he was so happy, the emotion and his tight grasp on him making it harder to breathe.

“soon, dear. this will be a long mission though, i’m not sure when he’ll get home.” y/n almost hushed the boy, megumi’s constant questions twisting his heart into a small ball that couldn’t pump any blood. tears began to fall again, faster as he began to become unable to control the tsunami of emotions in his stomach.

megumi took a breath, hand reaching up to hold y/n’s jaw. “dad, why are you crying?” his voice was filled with a wonder that only a child could hold, crushing his heart into his digestive system. his small fingers brushed the tears off his cheeks before bringing them back down to gaze at them.

“i’m not- i’m not crying, megumi. go back to bed. it’s really early and you were up past your bedtime.” y/n calmed down slightly and pressed a kiss to the child’s forehead, rubbing his hair until he heard the boy begin to take slow, deep breaths. the action made y/n slightly more relaxed, but the silence made him realize the gravity of the situation.

he could finally break down.

and with one tear came two, which came 4 more, which became him crying and holding back sobs as he rubbed megumi’s back. why was he alone? why did he get left again?

there was a sound at the door, y/n looking towards it. but he had just imagined it, no man there looking for him. no man there that was ready to kiss his face and take him into his arms. maybe there was another universe they lived happily in together.

in another time we could be together, and you wouldn’t leave me all alone.

first oneshot completed! love you toji<3 5085 words

[sunflw3r]

AGGHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR INCLUDING ME IN HERE<333 everyone go check out the other recs :0

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★ The perfect match By @gyoobies Ten x reader x Kun, polyamory, established relationship between Ten & Kun, café au, mutual interest in one another, smut, fluff, flirting, teasing

★ Irreplaceable By @justwritedreams 1.5k, soldier au, pilot Kun, mentions of military training exercises, fluff, action, Kun gets angry at another pilot, going on dates together, reader watches him train

★ Peacefully paired By @cigsaftersuh SMAU, non-idol au, reader lives in a small village, Kun moves to town, friends WayV & Mark Lee, posting online, misconceptions, Kun thinks reader & Mark are dating at first, fluff, feelings

★ Paint the lot red By @alreadyblondenow 6.8k, vampire au, Kun is a vampire, human writer reader, reader has lost their family in a car crash, strangers to friends to lovers, major character death, depression, smut, angst, blood

★ Whenever the sun is hiding By @alreadyblondenow 3.7k, kind of Mulan au, general Kun, warrior reader, fantasying about one another, smut, angst, mentions of a promised one back home, the ending killed me

★ Give By @hazyhae 1.1k, established relationship, getting high together, weed use, stressed Kun, ranting to reader about things, pet names, smut, fluff

★ Day 20: Thigh riding By @lovetaroandtaemin 1.4k, a kinktober fic, established relationship, going on their anniversary date, public teasing, smut, slight crying

★ Day 21: Aphrodisiac By @all-about-kyu 1.7k, magic au, wizard Kun, apprentice reader, making a romance potion together, accidentally messing up the potion, aphrodisiacs, smut, aftercare, mentions of actual feelings

★ Love of my life By @all-about-kyu 3.5k, established relationship, going through their relationship lifetime, insecurities, anxiety over their relationship, pregnancy, parenting, Ten & Xiaojun as their kids

★ Kun trying to convince you to join his many side quests !! By @viasdreams SMAU, established relationship, Kuns many side quests he's done, mentions of Kun jumping out of planes/piloting/doing magic, fluff, crack

★ Be alright By @ethereal-engene 1.7k, Older brother Kun & younger sibling reader, reader's first day back at school, self deprecating thoughts, self doubt, living with WayV, seeking comfort from your sibling, fluff, comfort

★ Promise By @iridesuhnce 4k, friends to lovers, childhood friends, slowly falling apart, reconnecting years later, promises, angst, fluff, they had a childhood fort together

★ Fireworks (I love you) By @sunflw3r 931, non-idol au, established relationship, new years setting, celebrating Kun's birthday, watching the fireworks, implied younger reader, fluff, flirting

★ Finding gilbert By @jaeminlore 1.2k, soulmate au, neighbours au, countdown timers to when you meet, Kun has a new kitten, reader finds the cat, fluff

★ July 26th By @00127am 2k, roommates au, complaining about the summer heat together, sharing a bed, non-sexual intimacy, "just friends" dynamic, cuddling

★ Ace of hearts By @injvns SMAU, Kun practices magic, card tricks, reader finds one of Kun's cards in her book, fluff, first meeting, attraction, cute

★ Biting By @imagesbywayv Drabble, established relationship, slice of life, typically soft Kun, smut, biting, leaving bruises on reader

★ I'll give it to you, wonder you By @imagesbywayv 591, established relationship, soft dom Kun, smut, praise, pet names, kind of fluffy smut, slice of life

★ Bet you like it, you love it By @imagesbywayv 1.2k, established relationship, slice of life, playing around with power dynamics, reader wears lipstick, leaving marks on each other, lipstick stains, soft, smut, fluffy

★ 望むままに, easy come By @imagesbywayv 3.8k, established relationship, slice of life, smut, soft dom Kun, pet names, use of Gege, praise, kind of bratty reader, a slight hint of mean Kun, talk of rewards

★ 鮮やかな姿, show me everything By @imagesbywayv 1.18k, established relationship, dom!Kun, pet names, teasing one another, smut, Kun spoils reader constantly, unspoken dynamic

★ I'm losing sleep, is it just me? By @imagesbywayv 1.9k, sugar daddy!Kun, sugar baby!reader, established arrangement / dynamic, catching actual feelings, the arrangement is meant to be ending soon, smut

★ Yikes, date gone wrong, hoodie thieves, exam week pickup, and we should get a cat By @suhnshinehaos SMAU, university au, NCT96z & reader as roommates [Doyoung, Ten & Kun], one-shots, reader has a shitty ex, being stood up, slight implied Ten x reader, teasing, sharing clothes, fluff, slight angst

[sunflw3r]

he's back, you can all cheer now

(✦) summer loving , sand in your shoes (4)

"my sock!"

y/n's laughter rang through his hotel room as jungmo held up the second of the pair of the socks y/n was putting on. jungmo examined the piece of clothing carefully, almost like he was verifying that it was his own piece of clothing. he had a puzzled expression on his face, the thoughts behind his eyes moving so quickly that y/n swore he could see lines of texts behind jungmo's pupils. "why... why do you have my sock?" his voice was shaky, the hints of a smile running below his words.

"you left it the last time you were here." y/n stated in a matter-of-fact tone of voice, pulling the black fabric until it was fully extended up to the middle of his shin bone. "now stop gawking at it and let me put it on." there was a pout on jungmo's face as he handed the sock over to y/n, his lips a soft baby pink. jungmo sulked like a child, plopping onto the bed with a loud flop. his body curled up, inchworming up the mattress until his head laid in y/n's lap.

"you're such a bully, you know that right? you bully me. you absolutely hate my guts." his words were barely malicious, flowing more like softly spoken song lyrics than evil knives meant to do harm. y/n tilted his head, staring directly into the eyes of the boy on his lap.

"i don't think i bully you, i think you're being a little silly right now mogu." y/n poked the tip of jungmo's nose, a baby pink flush the same color of his lips spreading across his cheeks. what if this moment could last forever? what if he never returned home and he and jungmo lived in peace together?

what if every moment with jungmo could be forever?

"you're staring again. you have a real staring problem." jungmo stated, his pout retreating as he made himself comfortable on y/n's lap. y/n's trance evaporated into a thin vapor at the sentence with the sharpness of a plastic knife. his lips parted slightly as he stared into jungmo's sparkly eyes, the angel on his shoulder yelling at him to kiss the boy.

'kiss him!' they yelled at him, burning his ears until the only thought in his mind was to kiss jungmo's gorgeous pink lips. y/n's head got closer and closer to jungmo's, the angel choir in his ears growing louder in chorus until they reached a peak when their lips connected.

jungmo's soft smile fell off his face as their lips connected, his hands instinctively reaching for y/n's hair, fingers curling around the strands like it was second nature. he had to be perfect. that was the only explanation for jungmo - a perfect creation from whatever watched them from above, gift to whoever was lucky enough to have him in their life.

y/n was the luckiest of them all.

for the few days they had been whatever they were, y/n and jungmo's lips had learned to work in sync as two, not one. they second they were within inches of each other, they magnetized to each other and created sparks of metal hotter than the sun that brightened jungmo's skin.

a firey brew of emotions grew in y/n's stomach as he kissed jungmo: love, happiness, giddiness, and the smallest drop of what he could only describe as sadness. even with the negatives, the feeling allowed him to ignore how his neck and back ached due to the angle and how jungmo pulled on his hair only a touch too tight. jungmo made him forget everything.

"let's go to the car now, you're getting a little too kiss happy right now." jungmo said with a pant as he pushed y/n's head away. soft whines escaped y/n's mouth in complaint, and yet he didn't mean a single thing after jungmo pressed a soft peck to his lips. "you're like a cat with the zoomies. it's pretty cute, but also annoying."

he stood up from the bed, extending his hand out to y/n with smile. "come on, we're not going to get to the other side of the island in time if we waste any more of the day." y/n mustered all of the strength from inside his gut to grab jungmo's hand and stand up from the comforter.

they made their way to the front of the hotel room, sliding their shoes on. the process was mostly quiet, until y/n began to giggle. jungmo glanced at him, the expression on his face showing that he was relatively sure that y/n was going insane. "are you going to tell us why you're giggling?" jungmo asked as they exited the room, bags thrown over their shoulders.

"you like me sooooooo bad oh my gosh." the words were broken up by small giggles as y/n tried to get the sentences out. jungmo rolled his eyes, pressing the button for the elevator down.

"you're pretty lucky i do like you." if there was meant to be any malice in those words, it failed pretty bad. y/n smiled, pecking jungmo's cheek as the doors to the elevator closed with them in it.

sand padded under their feet as they walked hand in hand to the parking lot, and yet the two couldn't have more different reactions. y/n walked with a bright smile, his stride not allowing any sand into his sneakers, jungmo's black socks peaking over the top. jungmo, on the other hand, was currently struggling to keep himself balanced with a bag on his back, a y/n on his right, and the massive amounts of sand getting into his sneakers.

"why did you make us walk on the beach? there's a perfectly good sidewalk to the parking lot!" it was the fifth time jungmo had expressed some version of this sentiment, his pout intensifying as y/n sprayed his sneakers with the compressed air stations at the entrance to the parking lot.

"i like walking on the beach. it's relaxing." he said blankly, jungmo putting on his now sand free shoes and going to his car.

"maybe for you." he pouted as he got into the drivers side, y/n following him to sit in the passengers seat. the two threw their bags into the bag, a bright smile on y/n's face as he rolled down the window to look at the world outside. with a click of his keys and the turn of the car's engine, jungmo and y/n were off on an adventure.

the hotel the two both called home for their vacation slowly faded from view as city turned to country, the scent of salt floating through the air. y/n kept his hand outside the window, catching the stray wind off of the water as they drove down the winding waves.

jungmo glanced over at y/n once, then twice, then three times, simply studying him in his position. the golden sunlight hit his skin in all the right angles, his bright smile a constant feature on his face as they continued down the road.

y/n took a break from the scenery to turn and watch jungmo with his hands on the wheel, intently focusing on the road ahead once, then twice, then three times, watching how he made sure the car slowly went over any bumps. his eyes were focused, brows furrowed slightly as he adjusted his mirror.

the two watched each other in secret, the words resting on both of theirs lips going unsaid.

i wish this would last forever.

03 (think about you all night) , masterlist , 05 (pinkies intertwined)

✦taglist @luvkyu, @seungsmiles, @gnusihcom, @academiq, @dalliesque

[sunflw3r]

(✦) summer loving , sand in your shoes (4)

"my sock!"

y/n's laughter rang through his hotel room as jungmo held up the second of the pair of the socks y/n was putting on. jungmo examined the piece of clothing carefully, almost like he was verifying that it was his own piece of clothing. he had a puzzled expression on his face, the thoughts behind his eyes moving so quickly that y/n swore he could see lines of texts behind jungmo's pupils. "why... why do you have my sock?" his voice was shaky, the hints of a smile running below his words.

"you left it the last time you were here." y/n stated in a matter-of-fact tone of voice, pulling the black fabric until it was fully extended up to the middle of his shin bone. "now stop gawking at it and let me put it on." there was a pout on jungmo's face as he handed the sock over to y/n, his lips a soft baby pink. jungmo sulked like a child, plopping onto the bed with a loud flop. his body curled up, inchworming up the mattress until his head laid in y/n's lap.

"you're such a bully, you know that right? you bully me. you absolutely hate my guts." his words were barely malicious, flowing more like softly spoken song lyrics than evil knives meant to do harm. y/n tilted his head, staring directly into the eyes of the boy on his lap.

"i don't think i bully you, i think you're being a little silly right now mogu." y/n poked the tip of jungmo's nose, a baby pink flush the same color of his lips spreading across his cheeks. what if this moment could last forever? what if he never returned home and he and jungmo lived in peace together?

what if every moment with jungmo could be forever?

"you're staring again. you have a real staring problem." jungmo stated, his pout retreating as he made himself comfortable on y/n's lap. y/n's trance evaporated into a thin vapor at the sentence with the sharpness of a plastic knife. his lips parted slightly as he stared into jungmo's sparkly eyes, the angel on his shoulder yelling at him to kiss the boy.

'kiss him!' they yelled at him, burning his ears until the only thought in his mind was to kiss jungmo's gorgeous pink lips. y/n's head got closer and closer to jungmo's, the angel choir in his ears growing louder in chorus until they reached a peak when their lips connected.

jungmo's soft smile fell off his face as their lips connected, his hands instinctively reaching for y/n's hair, fingers curling around the strands like it was second nature. he had to be perfect. that was the only explanation for jungmo - a perfect creation from whatever watched them from above, gift to whoever was lucky enough to have him in their life.

y/n was the luckiest of them all.

for the few days they had been whatever they were, y/n and jungmo's lips had learned to work in sync as two, not one. they second they were within inches of each other, they magnetized to each other and created sparks of metal hotter than the sun that brightened jungmo's skin.

a firey brew of emotions grew in y/n's stomach as he kissed jungmo: love, happiness, giddiness, and the smallest drop of what he could only describe as sadness. even with the negatives, the feeling allowed him to ignore how his neck and back ached due to the angle and how jungmo pulled on his hair only a touch too tight. jungmo made him forget everything.

"let's go to the car now, you're getting a little too kiss happy right now." jungmo said with a pant as he pushed y/n's head away. soft whines escaped y/n's mouth in complaint, and yet he didn't mean a single thing after jungmo pressed a soft peck to his lips. "you're like a cat with the zoomies. it's pretty cute, but also annoying."

he stood up from the bed, extending his hand out to y/n with smile. "come on, we're not going to get to the other side of the island in time if we waste any more of the day." y/n mustered all of the strength from inside his gut to grab jungmo's hand and stand up from the comforter.

they made their way to the front of the hotel room, sliding their shoes on. the process was mostly quiet, until y/n began to giggle. jungmo glanced at him, the expression on his face showing that he was relatively sure that y/n was going insane. "are you going to tell us why you're giggling?" jungmo asked as they exited the room, bags thrown over their shoulders.

"you like me sooooooo bad oh my gosh." the words were broken up by small giggles as y/n tried to get the sentences out. jungmo rolled his eyes, pressing the button for the elevator down.

"you're pretty lucky i do like you." if there was meant to be any malice in those words, it failed pretty bad. y/n smiled, pecking jungmo's cheek as the doors to the elevator closed with them in it.

sand padded under their feet as they walked hand in hand to the parking lot, and yet the two couldn't have more different reactions. y/n walked with a bright smile, his stride not allowing any sand into his sneakers, jungmo's black socks peaking over the top. jungmo, on the other hand, was currently struggling to keep himself balanced with a bag on his back, a y/n on his right, and the massive amounts of sand getting into his sneakers.

"why did you make us walk on the beach? there's a perfectly good sidewalk to the parking lot!" it was the fifth time jungmo had expressed some version of this sentiment, his pout intensifying as y/n sprayed his sneakers with the compressed air stations at the entrance to the parking lot.

"i like walking on the beach. it's relaxing." he said blankly, jungmo putting on his now sand free shoes and going to his car.

"maybe for you." he pouted as he got into the drivers side, y/n following him to sit in the passengers seat. the two threw their bags into the bag, a bright smile on y/n's face as he rolled down the window to look at the world outside. with a click of his keys and the turn of the car's engine, jungmo and y/n were off on an adventure.

the hotel the two both called home for their vacation slowly faded from view as city turned to country, the scent of salt floating through the air. y/n kept his hand outside the window, catching the stray wind off of the water as they drove down the winding waves.

jungmo glanced over at y/n once, then twice, then three times, simply studying him in his position. the golden sunlight hit his skin in all the right angles, his bright smile a constant feature on his face as they continued down the road.

y/n took a break from the scenery to turn and watch jungmo with his hands on the wheel, intently focusing on the road ahead once, then twice, then three times, watching how he made sure the car slowly went over any bumps. his eyes were focused, brows furrowed slightly as he adjusted his mirror.

the two watched each other in secret, the words resting on both of theirs lips going unsaid.

i wish this would last forever.

03 (think about you all night) , masterlist , 05 (pinkies intertwined)

✦taglist @luvkyu, @seungsmiles, @gnusihcom, @academiq, @dalliesque

[sunflw3r]

Would you rather go back in time or go to the future

definitely back in time because we learn from the past and i don't wanna spoil the future :p !

[sunflw3r]

guys i have so many fire ideas rn you don't even know

i am literally COOKING in my drafts rn

[sunflw3r]

happy jungmo day!!

sneak peak to tmrws chapter bc i couldn't finish it today :(

"my sock!"

y/n's laughter rang through his hotel room as jungmo held up the second of the pair of the socks y/n was putting on. jungmo examined the piece of clothing carefully, almost like he was verifying that it was his own piece of clothing. he had a puzzled expression on his face, the thoughts behind his eyes moving so quickly that y/n swore he could see lines of texts behind jungmo's pupils. "why... why do you have my sock?" his voice was shaky, the hints of a smile running below his words.

"you left it the last time you were here." y/n stated in a matter-of-fact tone of voice, pulling the black fabric until it was fully extended up to the middle of his shin bone. "now stop gawking at it and let me put it on." there was a pout on jungmo's face as he handed the sock over to y/n, his lips a soft baby pink. jungmo sulked like a child, plopping onto the bed with a loud flop. his body curled up, inchworming up the mattress until his head laid in y/n's lap.

(almost) boyfies!

[sunflw3r]

i wont lie, i havent been in a good headspace, so its been hard to write. hopefully ill write soon

[sunflw3r]

[is this thing on?]

sun, he/him, minor toji's

@sunflw3r 's anime + gaming side blog

[you can hear me, right?] [welcome to sunflw3r radio]

[sunflw3r]

the results are out!!

it's a tie :p

but since theyre tied, im gonna combine votes with what i wanna do with the category

which means...

NEW ACCOUNT!!

go follow @sunflw3rbouquet ill be posting soon<3

[sunflw3r]

question!!

hi yallsies!

im working on the juyeon oneshot and possibly bringing back summer loving?? but i have a question:

how do you feel about me posting anime stuff on here? i have bigger oneshots in mind that fit for my side blog, so it's either i make a side blog or here

[sunflw3r]

happy juyeon day!!!

juyeon oneshot out this weekend hopefully!! yipee

[sunflw3r]

fireworks (i love you)

non!idol kun x non!idol male reader reader prns: he/him word count: 931 non!idol au fluff

for everyone but y/n, the fireworks were for new years, but he always knew they were really for his love

content warnings: none!

content overview: silly bfs! semi-implied younger/less mature reader

unedited</3

(masterlist)

a/n: first day back! had to write for my lovely kun! happy new year to everyone, 2025 will be great! (so this was supposed to be up on 1/1 but ig the world hates me so it didnt upload!)

to 2025: treat us all well

night’s dark veil covered the beach.

the couple’s blanket laid on the white sand, just like the other groups of people waiting for the fireworks. y/n’s body was right next to kun’s, their hands laced as they watched the stars before they were covered by the gunpowder from new years fireworks.

different from the others on the beach, y/n and kun’s blanket contained a birthday cake with multiple candles. it was chocolate and matcha, a flavor kun had been enjoying recently since y/n had it for his own birthday a few months ago. the candles were a 2 and a 9, with a small star and heart being the other two.

“i think it’s funny how you always make new years celebrations about my birthday… it’s not even january yet.” kun spoke, turning his head to look at y/n on his right. y/n laughed, leaving a gentle kiss on kun’s cheek.

“you deserve it. besides, new years had no meaning before i met you. now i need to give you two days just so you can glow in the spotlight.” the words escaped his lips and embraced kun in a golden warmth, the smile on his face turning into a laugh.

kun’s eyes flickered back to the sky, letting out a soft sigh before smiling again as he spoke. “you’re always such a flirt. how did i get so lucky with someone like you?” y/n sighed, putting his elbows on kun’s chest.

“i don’t know, i’m pretty great!” kun scoffed, hitting his boyfriend’s head gently. y/n pouted momentarily, before smiling again. “buttttt you’re amazing!”

kun leaned in to kiss y/n, but his phone ringing interrupted the two’s inching closer. a soft groan escaped y/n’s mouth as he complained about how “their kisses always get ruined” and “the world was against them”, kun shushing him. y/n gave him a side eye, kun showing his lockscreen to the man.

11:58

his alarm for 11:58 was ringing, covering his lockscreen with an orange notification. y/n’s eyes widened, grabbing the cake from the edge of the blanket.

the two shifted on the blanket, y/n moving so he was facing the ocean, while kun had his back to the water. kun’s brown hair fluttered in the wind, a smile on his face as y/n shakily pulled the plastic tray cover off the cake. the wax candles were slowly inserted into the soft sponge cake, y/n squinting as they adjusted them.

the people around them started counting down as y/n shakily struct the match, biting down on his lip. he hastily lit the candles before the wind returned and blew his hard work away. y/n let out a soft ‘ah’ as he lit the last heart, shaking the match to extinguish the flame.

the world slowed as the numbers got closer to zero, y/n’s eyes meeting kuns.

5

“i love you.” kun mouthed.

4

y/n smiled softly, fixing kun’s windswept hair.

3

“i know.” he replied.pointing

2

“i love you too, you know?”

1

kun nods, smiling softly

happy new year!

kun’s eyes close as fireworks shoot up behind him from the barge out in the ocean. with a quick breath in, kun’s shoulders rise before they fall again as he exhales, candle flames flickering out. y/n’s eyes meet kun’s, a small smile on his face.

the air was filled with love as y/n leaned forward, kissing kun gently. their lips locked against each other, the scent of the ocean wrapping them in a soft and comforting perfume.

the loud crack of another round of fireworks pulls them out the kiss, kun’s laughter joining the noise as he turns to see a red, heart-shaped firework light up in the sky.

“happy birthday my love.”

kun turns back to see y/n smiling at the now 29 year old happily, his heart melting at his boyfriend’s affectionate gaze. he moved the cake back to its original spot before wrapping y/n in an embrace.

“thank you y/n. you always make my birthday so amazing.” y/n doesn’t respond, looking deep in thought. kun frowns, holding onto y/n’s face. “what’s up?”

“you know why i always bring you to see the fireworks?” y/n asks, his eyes glowing with gold as the fireworks continued to shoot off. kun shakes his head. y/n laughs, tilting his head. “it’s because you always look so happy as the fireworks go off. the gold highlights your beauty so well. you’re such a beautiful man to look at when you’re happy.”

“not always?” kun chimes in, a smirk growing on his face as y/n huffs.

“i guessssssss.” a scoff escapes kun’s mouth, y/n quelling him with a gentle kiss. “i’m kidding baby, you’re always beautiful.”

kun rolls his eyes, looking at the cake. “let’s eat now!” the two laugh as y/n picks the cake up, cutting a slice for the two to share. they exchange a bite, before giving each other a peck on the lips. y/n swallows, covering his mouth with his hand.

“oh, happy new year by the way.”

kun bursted into a laugh at the sudden statement, rubbing y/n’s head with his knuckles gently. “oh you’re so cute. happy new year.”

“i’m excited to spend another year with 29 year old you. but you’re birthday’s cooler than this new year thing.”

“stop flattering me!”

“i’m not flattering you!”

kun was always better than anything else, and new years was no exception.

[sunflw3r]

hi!

i'm back from the dead guys!!

i'm sorry i've been away, school's been punching me in the face sadly...

BUT I HOPE ILL BE BACK SOONNNN im working on smth for yall rn...

i do upload more on @7amsunflw3r so... (theres more fandoms too!)

ANYWAYSSSS BYEBEY

[sunflw3r]

are there any other losers who like prince of tennis🤕

december 3rd.

“here.”

the words brushed against the wind as y/n stuck his arm out towards the boy -no, man- in front of him. he looked away, the trees that covered yu qing’s tennis courts giving him a protection for his embarrassed self.

maybe the slight blush on his cheeks grew a little brighter because the sun beamed down on them, and maybe his heart beat a little faster since he finished his match with sweat dripping down his face. even with those factors, he knew that wasn’t the reason why.

it was the same reason it always was. zhuo zhi. it was always zhuo zhi.

zhuo zhi was the reason the sun burned in the middle of the day, the reason he served every ball to the other side of the court. he - and zhuo zhi alone - was the reason the world kept spinning.

“are you going to take it?”

y/n’s voice was a little louder, his arm becoming sore as he extended the object in his arm out a little further. it was a light blue sweater with navy blue flowers embroidered into the cuffs.

it wad pretty, different from the things y/n wore on a daily basis. instead of keeping it for himself on the cold winter day, he held it out to zhuo zhi.

zhuo zhi finally looked up from his spot on the court, eyes squeezing softly as they gazed upon their chosen god. “i don’t see why i need a sweater, i’m hot still.”

clenching his jaw shut, y/n’s eyes met with zhuo zhi’s. his heart refused to slow down, only beating faster with every second their eyes were together as one.

“please, just take it.”

the silence that hung over the courts as it slowly turned to evening was deafening, making y/n go insane. zhuo zhi broke the silence with a sigh as he stood up and readjusted his main player uniform.

“fine.” his fingers clasped around the cotton, hand skillfully and gracefully placing it over his shoulders. zhuo zhi looked even more handsome with it on, head held high as he continued to meet y/n’s gaze. “does this mean something special? or are you nice to me after all these years.”

“it means i love you zhuo zhi.”

the world returned to a silence that somehow increased the humidity of the air, each breath painful and thick as he waited for zhuo zhi to reply, to change in anyway.

zhuo zhi’s face broke into a soft smile, a small chuckle escaped his mouth as the wind cleared the tension. he hopped the net, his beloved racket clattering to the floor as he instead used that hand to grasp y/n’s.

that hand, full of callouses and rough skin, never felt so perfect in his palm.

“oh? so you’ve given me a sweater to say you love me. i take it now i’m supposed to repay you with a date?”

y/n smiled, punching zhuo zhi’s arm gently to get a reaction from the man. the birds chirped as zhuo zhi and y/n packed up, the blue sweater that covered zhuo zhi brushing against the bare skin of y/n’s arm.

“i expect this date to be amazing, zhuo zhi.” y/n almost grumbles, reluctant to admit his affections.

zhuo zhi refuses to answer, instead choosing to wrap his arm around y/n as they walked through the streets, each other the only thing the world could offer.

y/n proceeded to give zhuo zhi a sweater every december third to signify his undying love. because he loved him, and he always gave him cotton.

[sunflw3r]

heeyy id like to request a minghao (svt) x ftm reader story if possible

yes of course it’s possible!!