superangeliclz

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[superangeliclz]

[superangeliclz]

Guys I'm alive! and lost like 15lbs lol. Had to go half way across the state to live with a family member but that's better than the streets ofc.

Pros!: I now live in a super busy city with alot of fun things to do, once I finish learning how to drive,

Cons: alot more college age guys (I'm supposed to be in college, but dropped out and wont start until 2026, possibly the end of this year tho.)

I'm super insecure when it comes to dating...Like almost femcel levels, except not the kind to hate other women more like the kind to hate men. Tho I don't hate men for not dating me.

I want to be as beautiful as every woman I see. So pretty.

PS: ill start trying to make my blog a bit more aesthetic, maybe add a banner or something.

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So important y'all!

TOP TIP!!!

ok everyone knows (i hope) do not trust ‘ana coaches’ they are usually pedophiles and never have your best interests at heart BUT if you do then send them a fake bodycheck and see what they do with it- its entertaining seeing them try to blackmail you when they have absolutely nothing to use against you

and of course use the screenshots to expose them and we can all report them :D

lets get creeps off tumblr!!

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Things to do instead of eating:

Go for a walk

Watch a tv show

Listen to music

Study

Call a friend

Sleep

Make my bed

To a fake grwm

Re organise my wardrobe

Have a long bath

Have a long shower

Make and eat fluffy ice

Play with a pet

Play a card game

Play a video game

Let me know your ideas to add to this list

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Another easy 24 hour fast, I'm still fasting btw

Also I'm now homeless lol

I'll be okay. I shouldn't give up, even in the worst events so I'm staying strong.

when I post on here I feel like I'm venting which makes me happy.

TRIGGER WARNING:

If your curious I'm homeless because my mom unfortunately has bipolar disorder and believes that I'm trying to kill her. Bipolar is such a tragic mental illness, I hope she gets help one day :)

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Dream d!3t

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This post is a combination of yesterday and today, it talks about the same issue though so i combined them

April 17, 2025 - I would starve myself to the very end if it wasn't for damn cake. but the cake isn't jumping to my mouth. I am the problem here.

I wish I wasn't obese, but only I can control that. by September I want to be at 200, its a double but It requires effort on my end.

April 18, 2025 - The cake from yesterday made me feel sick today, so I didn't eat much, not counting it as my fast though. the cake was like 5,000 calories.

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How I’m gonna be this summer

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I did a 24hr fast monday-tuesday, I was so dizzy I could barely think. It was A M A Z I N G, I feel soooooo stupid for stopping, I wish I wouldn't get so cocky and believe I can just stop. I'm 20 now and need to grow the hell up anyways.

Will try to fast for longer.

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I'm back!!! <3 I never really left though lol.

I notice that I should never feel very comfortable with my weight loss, cause then I get too confident and eventually binge.

also sort of unrelated but I completed a one week fast about 3 months ago :)

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I can't help but feel like the guy I like doesn't like me back because of my weight, and it hurts a bit.

But I can change that, of course.

Some people have told me that I should never go for a guy that's focused on only looks, and while they are right, I feel like there's a difference between that and not wanting to be with someone because they're morbidly obese (like I am)

This might be because of my loneliness, but do you ever wish your eating disorder was a real person, or at the very least, an imaginary friend? It feels like it would be better than just sitting here with my thoughts all day.

Tbh, pretending my ed was a real person helped me lose 50lbs (22.7kgs) last time, but there was so much maladaptive daydreaming going on that my life felt strange and my journal entries would always be weird like "me and my friend haven't eaten in 3 days." When it was just me and I just wanted my daydreams and reality to be expressed at the same time.

^^^there was a completely unrelated reason I gained that weight plus extra back.

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Why has fasting been so hard for me lately? It's sucks because I used to love it so much.

I can't help but hate the way I look.

I'm so convinced that being skinny will solve my problems.

To be completely honest, I feel like everything that has ever gone wrong in my life can be brought back to my weight. It's almost terrifying, but it makes me strangely happy. It almost feels like all my problems will be solved if I lose weight.

Though I know I'm not the only one who feels that way.

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I feel like I'm angry most days. I used to never be like this, and then I gained weight.

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Life sort of sucks but I'm still trying. I'm trying to work harder now, but I feel like I'm only doing it out of spite rather than anything else.