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I love to read

Reading transports me to a place

Only I can imagine

A place where I fit in

And need not follow a status quo

A place where I am loved

By those around

A place where I am me.

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My body aches

My skin shakes

I would rather be dead

Than hold my dread

For tomorrow to come

-Swayrae

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I am tired

I am sad

I am uninspired

I am everything society claims as ‘bad’

I am somebody, although

I am still seen as a nobody

-Swayrae

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I do not deserve what I have

I do not deserve what I

I do not deserve what

I do not deserve

I do not

I do

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The mind is complex

Never will we truly understand

Why we exist

I feel a warmth of comfort

Knowing that I just exist to be me

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Being in the moment grounds us

We don’t want to fly too high into the future

And we don’t want to sink too deep into the past

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I believe that one cannot say they are living

Until they have something to live for

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I cannot think clearly

For my mind is cluttered

Resembling an overgrown garden

That I must weed

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I tend to be lone

But never lonely

Tired but never weary

Hungry but never hunger

Smile but never happy

What am I?

I cannot answer.

For I do not know myself.

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I want to die

But not in a way you think

Thinking about death just tickles me pink

So why do you long for death? you sigh

For I will tell you

The time draws nigh

I yearn for death to see what lie

So close, yet so far on the other side

To see if religion tells the truth

Or If death is the true fountain of youth

Hearing all this might make you quiver

But it fills me with incessancy

Overflowing with ecstasy

All this excitement now makes me shiver

For I will prepare with anticipation

Maybe the end could be reincarnation

I am now beaming with glee

For now you can truly see

Why I am prepared

As well as not scared of death

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I cup your hands in mine, but you start to pull away

I look up with you, eyes filled with tears of dismay

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I like to look up, at the stars shining bright

While I stand under the pale moonlight

I think to myself, I am glad I am here

To share the world with those I hold so dear

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Our love is feeble

Never will you read it within a fable

from any folklore

or tale

Where the hero and the princess fall in love

No, we are the Juliet who awakes to a dead Romeo

We are the Cain to Abel

A relationship built to fail

Did our love truly come from the heart?

Or were we doomed right from the start?

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I aspire to be great

Not one of the greats

I do not plan to be on billboards

Or written down in history

I plan on making people laugh

I plan on making people smile

I plan on improving myself

Continually learning ‘till my inevitable death

But until then, I aspire to be great

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Confessions of a moon watcher

The moon speaks to me, unequivocally

Reminding me that we are humans

And nothing more.

We are a spec on a giant chart,

And yet I feel a simple bliss knowing that.

One day I’d like to swim in the sea of stars

And see what earth is like.

Not a picture from the tele,

but from a scope on top of the moon.

-Swayrae

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The number of times I’ve thought about death

Far outweighs the number of breaths I have taken

Am I truly living then?

Or longing for death?

-Swayrae

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You never wanted any love, not a bit.

You wanted a toy, that’s right, ain’t it?