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Chuck: surely shurley it can't have to do with these three dolts AGAIN...🙄

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we’re putting you in a featureless empty room, no windows, no doors, and never taking you out again. actually, this is your second time in there, you got to leave for a few minutes, but you’re back and you don’t get to leave again. for certain, this time. there’s nothing in this room. there is only you and this mouse. the mouse has done nothing wrong to you, except maybe bite you because you scared it one time. but it’s the only other thing in the room. how long do you think you would last.

and you know, maybe you think you’re a good person. and maybe you don’t like mice specifically, but this mouse, you like this one, it bit you but you like it.

it’s the only other thing in the room. you don’t get to leave.

so let’s say five minutes. five months. five years. fifty. five hundred. five thousand. how long do you think you can last. maybe you talk to the mouse. maybe you pet the mouse. maybe you try to be kind to the mouse.

it’s the only other thing in the room. you don’t get to leave.

it’s the mouse’s fault you’re in here, by the way. if it hadn’t bit you, maybe you’d still be free. you don’t blame it. it’s a mouse, and it was scared, and it didn’t understand, not really, you wanted it to but it didn’t. it hurt you, but you forgave it.

it’s the only other thing in the room. you don’t get to leave.

maybe you don’t think of yourself as a good person. maybe you know you are something broken and that’s why you’re in this room. and the mouse is the reason you’re in this room. it knows what you are. it knows better than anyone. it knows, and it put you in this room. you wanted to be kind to the mouse.

how long do you think you could last. you don’t actually get to know how much time has passed. you could count, but that’s not how it works. for you, or for the mouse.

it’s the only other thing in the room. you don’t get to leave.

how long until you hurt the mouse. you apologize. you didn’t mean to. but it squeaks and screams. that’s new. it has been so long since you had anything new. because there’s nothing but you and the mouse and you have been kind to the mouse but it has run out of things to tell you and games to play and ways to react to you.

you hurt the mouse again.

it’s the only other thing in the room. you don’t get to leave.

you are not a good person. you know this. and you don’t like mice, anyway. you don’t like this one. you never have. you never have. you need to hurt it. it put you in this room. everything wrong with you is the mouse’s fault. it has to be. because it can’t be your fault. if it’s your fault, there’s nothing you can do, there’s nothing you can change, but if the mouse is the problem? you can hurt the mouse.

you feel like you have been in this room your entire life. the mouse only just got here. it has no idea how good it has it.

you torture the mouse. you break its bones. and you tear its tail off. and you skin it. and you eat it. and it comes back, good as new.

because it’s the only other thing in the room. and it doesn’t get to leave you.

and you’re going to run out of things to do again. you will. you don’t get to leave and there’s only so much pain that can be novelly inflicted. but right now, you can hurt the mouse.

you never liked the mouse. you were only kind to it to trick it into trusting you, so that you could hurt it. you can tell yourself this forever. you and the mouse. because it’s the only other thing in the room. and neither of you get to leave. so one day, you’ll both believe it.

you were kind to the mouse, though. you loved it.

you keep killing the mouse.

and then someone takes the mouse away from you.

you are alone in the room. and you don’t get to leave.

you think this is your punishment for hurting the mouse. you accept it.

time passes. time passes. time passes. you don’t get to leave. there’s nothing in the room but you.

the mouse deserved it. the mouse put you here, and it abandoned you, and you can’t accept a punishment that won’t end. not that you can do anything about it. you don’t get to leave.

you were supposed to be trapped here together, and instead, it’s free and you aren’t and it’s a mouse. all you ever did was what was expected of you. it’s a mouse, and it bit you, and broke the rules, and it doesn’t have to be punished anymore. but you do. there’s something wrong with you. you’re worse than the mouse ever could be, no matter what you do, and you always will be, and you always have, and that’s why all you feel like you’ve ever known is this fucking room.

you hate the mouse. and when you get your hands on it again, you’re going to make it pay for every second you had to be alone.

but you won’t. you know that. because you don’t get to leave.

(until you do)

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“Where to, Cas?”

Take me anywhere with you, Dean. Take me back to the rundown motel you’re staying at in this middle of nowhere town. Take me there and we can finally have each other in all the ways I’ve wanted to have you for so long. Take me even though I’m broken, ruined, and human now, take me because I’m still yours.

I just wish he wanted me the way I want him, i just wish he wanted to be with me tonight

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forgive me, father

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I bet this is what it was like back in heaven. God in front of all those obedient, brainless, run-off-the-mill angels, and then there’s Michael and Lucifer in the background xD

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A trueform Luci (plus Nick!) 

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Thought I'd post this one separetly as well!

For anyone who'd like relaxing or getting into the "on the road with the boys" mood while sleeping in the backseats of Baby. 💗

(The music will start to play later, around 8mins... little... interactive surprise there for ya...👀) Ambient sound and artwork is done entirely by me 😊 (sold my soul to Crowley for this one so you better listen to the end and make the deal worth it)

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Still not over the way Alt!Michael looks at Alt!Kevin!

Lucifer is having war flashbacks from staying in the cage with midam. 😂😂😂

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a flickering halo

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lol its so easy to see on the rewatch how Lucifer just see's Sam as some stray pet, like a cat or a dog. Like beyond the vessel stuff, Sam is just some angry feral cat who can't comprehend what Lucifer is doing or why. So yea his whole speech in 5x10 is just him being like yea one way or another you are coming home with me, you can hiss and bite and scratch all you want. And i like that because it does show how (ironically) inhuman Lucifer is.

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Imagine, you're just coming to terms with the fact that your four year old son is now thirty seven, he grew up as a hunter, a life you actively rejected for yourself and for him, he takes you to his home (the bunker of a society you thought was a myth) and your other son has left his blood all over the place. And then some random guy in a trenchcoat accosts you and instead of shooting him, your four year old thirty seven year old son calls him a friend and they embrace with a tenderness and devotion you likely didn't even share with your husband because (oh yeah) your entire relationship was set up by cupids in order to breed the vessels of the apocalypse.

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And Lucifer was on earth for about AN ENTIRE FUCKING YEAR! Imagine the absolute HAVOC he could’ve wreaked during that time!

Second most powerful Archangel in existence? He could’ve BLOWN UP entire states WITHIN DAYS! Get every human in the US possessed by a demon. Ripped to pieces from within. Blood and death and blood EVERYWHERE! Every Hellhound on the loose. The Shedin freed( though even Lucifer was afraid of them). EVERY dead body risen from its grave. Every devil’s gate open. Every evil fucker who ever went to hell roaming free. The knights of hell. The princes of hell.

He had DEATH ON A LEASH! He could’ve flooded the entire planet. Fire raining from the sky. Death could’ve probably snapped his fingers and every human would’ve dropped dead to the ground. The entire human population, these murderous, flawed abortions, wiped out in a single second.

TFW would’ve been ABSOLUTELY powerless to stop it, they would’ve been steamrolled.

But no, four horsemen who just cost the lives of a single town each, some dream walking, some zombies, one pagan gods meltdown, a fratricide, and that was basically it. All to basically tell Michael at the end that he was already fucking DONE before it had even started!

The apocalypse could’ve been SO.MUCH.WORSE!

But it was like Raphael said it. They were all tired. They just wanted it to be over.

if i was still in this business i would take up a new stance that lucifer wouldn't have done all that in later seasons because lucifer is a character who cannot be fucked to get on with effortful tasks such as complicated tortures

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if i was still in this business i would take up a new stance that lucifer wouldn't have done all that in later seasons because lucifer is a character who cannot be fucked to get on with effortful tasks such as complicated tortures

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Have you ever thought about that, despite as an Archangel being absolutely capable of doing so, Lucifer maybe couldn’t have brought Sam back?

Here’s what I’m thinking:

So, we have the Enochian Sigils Castiel etched into Sam’s and Deans ribs. That hide the carrier from all angels in existence.

And yes, Lucifer probably could’ve gotten into heaven to get a hold of Sam’s soul. But he needs the location of the body to put it back inside(?). And depending on the way Sam died, if his ribs aren’t broken, Lucifer can’t find the body. He said it to Sam himself that Sam’s hard to find (because of the sigils).

How were the other angels capable of bringing Sam and Dean back all those many times in S5? Maybe because the angels that did so were still part of heaven (not fallen like Lucifer), and they could track the soul back to the body. Following the route it took to heaven in reverse.

Because despite Sam and Dean dying many times in Season 5, they were always brought back by other angels, never once by Lucifer, who could’ve done so easily. And he would’ve. But maybe since he’s fallen/cast out, he doesn’t know when Sam’s soul shows up in heaven. He can’t feel/see/know it because he has no access to heaven, maybe he can’t get past the gates(?).

And another point is that maybe Lucifer wouldn’t have dared to show up in heaven, because of Michael(?). Or maybe, since he’s fallen, Lucifer no longer has access to certain Archangel powers, resurrection being one of them (I’m talking exclusively about s5), but Sam doesn’t know, wouldn’t know, so Lucifer can tell him he’ll bring him back and Sam would never know the difference.

Because trust me, if Sam had died by killing himself or in an accident and Lucifer had been the one to bring him back, Sam would know. Lucifer would tell him. Would definitely let him keep the memory. Let Sam remember who brought him back. Not like the other angels who erased Sam and Dean’s memories of dying/being resurrected.

Lucifer wanted Sam to accept him willingly, wanted Sam on his side, and he would’ve used the chance to resurrect Sam, and even Dean, as something to say “See, I’m not the bad guy here.” Same as telling Sam in the mirror, when he was possessing him, that he would bring his parents back. That Dean would live.

Lucifer would’ve resurrected Sam, but he never did in S5, and that makes me wonder. Maybe he did and we don’t know (though that’s unlikely), maybe he couldn’t.

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When an angel leaves a vessel, it leaves a bit of grace behind…

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Making this post in the year 2025: it will never not be funny to me how the Supernatural season 5 dynamic will be like Sam and Dean hit some impasse in their stupid quest-of-the-week and they go "shit we're stuck. Maybe Cas can help. Cas!"

And Cas will fall down from the rafters hitting every support beam on the way down and slam into the floor bleeding from all his eyes and missing most of his feathers like "Sorry for the delay. I'm being brutally and violently hunted for sport by every single angel of the Lord due to I betrayed all of them (my own family) in order to side with you two."

And Sam and Dean will be like "That's great or sorry that happened. Can you use your powers to transport us to the fuck-shit dimension? We need to go there for some reason." And Cas will say "Technically I can try but it will likely kill me." and Sam and Dean will be like "Sweet awesome you're the best Cas great."

And then Cas does it and it turns him into the angel version of roadkill and Sam and Dean are like "Yikes. Anyway" and shove his unconscious body into a motel room and forget about him because they've got stuff to do in the fuck-shit dimension.

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one more time

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply Fandom: Supernatural Ship: Michifer (with background/implied Amara/Chuck) Additional Tags: Parallels, Writer God | Chuck Shurley, Angst, Soulmates, Ambiguous Relationships Wordcount: 316 Summary:

He just has to prove that He was right. No matter what it costs them.

Michael and Lucifer are the template in many ways, the first story—the first that God gets to control every part of. He has to get it right.

The betrayal comes later; that part is easy. Michael is unerringly loyal to Him first. He can’t be any other way. God won’t let him be. He’ll serve His purpose well. Lucifer is perfect: curious and creative and clever.

He makes them two part of one greater whole, but Michael existed before Lucifer. He knows how to exist without him, where Lucifer will always feel broken without him.

God gets to say how it was now. He suffered more, didn’t He? He’s the one with a gaping wound where His sister was, while she never felt any of that. Never loved so deeply, never needed Him, so He made a sacrifice.

Lucifer will make one, too.

And Michael-

Michael won’t feel the pain of it as sharply as-

(Michael begs to not have to do this, and He’s not expecting that, not sure how to respond but to tie the narrative’s threads tight around Michael’s throat until he obeys.)

The point is to tear them apart.

He suffered worse. Lucifer will suffer. It’s a gift. He’s always wanted to understand why God does what He does.

The point is that He was right.

The point is that He’s in control now.

Lucifer is a beautiful, bright angel who loves Him. Who will do anything for Him.

Michael will do anything for Him.

He destroys them.

It isn’t enough. He starts another story. If He can only prove it- That She would have killed Him first if- He drags Lucifer and Michael across the board again, adds new pieces. One more time.

The betrayal is easy to write.

It’s everything before that he struggles with. They love each other. He has to make sure they love each other first.

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