#[don't teach the operator bad words on day 1]

[pretty-little-mind33]

fluff ✿ angst ✮ hurt & comfort ✷ smut (nsfm) ♥︎

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~ REQUESTS OPEN ~

most popular - DON'T BLAME ME ♥︎ - You've been the Twins' handler for years now, and when Tangerine blows up at you one evening after a mission, he apologizes in an unconventional way.

author's favorite - YOU BELONG WITH ME ✮✿ - Tangerine has always chosen her over you, until he doesn't anymore.

latest work - HOLY GROUND ✿ - Tangerine and your daughter go grocery shopping. (dad!Tan)

~ BLURB MASTERLIST ~

~ KINKTOBER 2024 ~

~ SKY'S 3K CELEBRATION ~

~ HEADCANONS ~

fem!reader with an abusive ex

fem!reader in a relationship with him

fem!reader who likes to party

fem!reader pulling on his tie

gn!reader who is afraid of the dark

~ MINI-SERIES ~

BAD FOR BUSINESS - When Tangerine opened an underground strip-club to cover for his murder-for-hire business operation, he wasn't expecting to become so easily distracted by one girl in particular (darker themes and ♥︎) (COMPLETED)

~ FICS ~

Seeing Tangerine gradually lose clothing items on the train.

Not saying I love you back prank.

Tangerine and Lemon setting up your Christmas tree.

You, Tangerine, and Lemon play monopoly.

Tangerine x theatre student!fem!reader

MASTERMIND ✿ - Since the mission in Tokyo, you wanted Tangerine out of your life as soon as possible. Instead, he stormed back in to save you from yourself.

DRESS ✿✮ - Your best friends promised never to tell you about their dangerous job. However, all goes to shit when you find out another way.

NO BODY, NO CRIME ✿✷ - You meet a sexy, dangerous, stranger on a train. And he somehow ends up kidnapping you?

HITS DIFFERENT ♥︎ - You and Tangerine discover you love sucking on his fingers.

CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT ✿✷ - After accidentally killing your kidnappers, the Twins—especially Tangerine—seem determined to keep you away from harm.

LABYRINTH ✿ - When you go to steal a silver case from the Twins, they quickly realize you're under duress.

VIGILANTE SHIT ✿ - Tangerine wants to teach you some important self-defense skills.

DELICATE ✷ - Tangerine and Lemon care for the kidnapped girl they were paid a lot of money to save.

BUT DADDY I LOVE HIM ✿✷ - Tangerine protects you at a fundraiser and then Lemon learns about the two of you - Epilogue to Don't Blame Me

TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE ♥︎ - Your fiancé wants to fuck you raw.

ALL TOO WELL ✮ - You never told Tangerine he has a daughter in the hopes of never seeing him again. (dad!Tan)

GUILTY AS SIN? ♥︎ - Tangerine is infatuated with you and when you happen to be at the same hotel he's in, his need for you grows.

LONG STORY SHORT ✿✷ - When your sister's new mystery fiancé is someone you know from university, your husband isn't very happy.

NEW YEAR'S DAY ✷ - After losing your job and being falsely imprisoned, you turn to the Twins for help—which eventually stirs up unspoken feelings.

OURS ✿ - You've always loved your boyfriend's tattoos but panic when he offers to have you choose his next one.

THE ARCHER ✷ - Tangerine and Lemon learn more about the young woman they'd been hired to save and things become complicated. pt. 2 to Delicate

STYLE ♥︎ - No matter how hard Tangerine tries, he can't resist your sweetness.

MIDNIGHT RAIN ♥︎ - Your boyfriend punishes you.

TOO SWEET ✿ - Tangerine falls in love with his pretty neighbor.

YOU BELONG WITH ME ✮✿ - Tangerine has always chosen her over you, until he doesn't anymore.

I SAW MOMMY KISSING SANTA CLAUS ✿ - Christmas special (dad!Tan)

THE 1 ✿ - You want to trim your boyfriend's mustache.

YOURE ON YOUR OWN KID ✮✿ - Tangerine swoops in and saves you. (bodyguard!Tan)

ABOUT YOU ✮✿ - You and your baby talk to Tangerine when he's away at work.

KALEIDOSCOPE ✮✷ - When your best friend has said, "—in ten years if we're both single, I'll gladly marry you." You didn't think his words had any weight. Turns out, they did.

LAST KISS ✮ - On a mission, your worst nightmare happens.

HOLY GROUND ✿ - Tangerine and your daughter go grocery shopping. (dad!Tan)

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MIS* YOU SO BAD

pairing . Yelena Belova x fem! oc synopsis . 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗮 𝗸𝘂𝘇𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀𝗼𝘃 and 𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗲𝗻𝗮 𝗯𝗲𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗮, are both alone. despite all they've faced and all they've done, they are alone. but maybe, a certain team can teach them that they don't have to be, and when two women who have never had agency over their life before, both make the choice to reach out for each other, something begins to grow between them.

warnings . valentina (i hate her so much, im sorry..), thunderbolts* spoilers, a lot of descriptive fighting, this is oc x canon, pretty long but most chapters will be relatively long, (let me know if i have to add more.)

notes . both writers are on this story! we're going to try to update this story regularly, so every 7-9 days. (hopefully). we haven't got super far, but we've had a lot of fun writing this au so far! also, chapter one is a lot of descriptive fighting and a lot of the canon events of the first part of thunderbolts, and it will be a lot of the canon events most likely up until chapter 3-4 or so. [THUNDERBOLTS* AU] divider credits: @bernardsbendystraws chapters: 1, 2, to be continued

　

. CHAPTER ⌗01 ！ ⋆ 　　　　　

❝ BROKEN BEGINNINGS : ANIMOSITY ❞ 3rd person!

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ANYA POV:

ANYA kneeled behind a supply crate, pressing her hand to her communication device, one she had proudly invented herself, which was purposely reminiscent of a star hair clip. When the comms switched on, she heard Valentina’s voice coming through the comms, as she read off her instructions in that aloof tone, with a hint of satiric, arrogant humor, Anya had come to recognize instantly

. "This facility-- or, vault, rather, holds all of O.X.E. Group's most important, sensitive assets. We've been informed that a man known as John Walker, has intended to break in, and… rob me."

Anya silently nodded, knowing she could not see her but processing the information, her head snapping in the direction of the door as she heard it open and saw John walking in. Target spotted. Task 1, completed. "I need you to go in, find him, and kill him. No interrogation necessary. In and out."

Anya silently pulled the hood on the back of her suit over her head, getting up and walking up to the door. She placed her hand on the security pad, a USB hidden inside her long leather fingerless gloves, plugged itself into the security pad, promptly overriding the systems, causing the door to slam open. Anya heard an sigh on the other side of the comms as Valentina added, "Had you give me a moment, I would have explained that your biometrics are already in the system, so you have access to everything here. You and your grand entrances…" causing Anya to scoff playfully. 　　　　　 　　　　　 　　　　　

YELENAS POV:

YELENA hid behind a rock, listening to Valentina's instructions, as she watched the figure of a woman, wearing some kind of suit, walking up to the door. "Intel's come in that a rogue operative with attributes perfectly tailored to rob me, is intending to… well, rob me."

Yelena tilted her head, watching the operative phase through the door. She assessed her surroundings for only a moment before cocking her gun and standing up, beginning to walk towards the entrance without a word. "I need you to find out, what she intends to steal. I'll add your biometrics to the system, you'll have full access." Valentina states in her usual austere tone, as Yelena walks through the door, her gun in her hands and readied at her side. "Once you assess what's being stolen, you have the go ahead to terminate on sight."

Yelena carefully enters the vault as the door closes behind her, her gun pointing infront of her as she stalks about carefully, before finding and entering an elevator. "And then no problem. You know, we can find you some good guy material."

"Its simple really. Its just one little target. And then you're done." Valentina states, her voice almost unnaturally impassive. As the elevator opens, Yelena readies her gun again, walking slowly towards the inside of the vault, which was seemingly full of crates, tables scattered with intel, cabinets full of files, boxes upon boxes, and other things she couldn't quite place before she walked in. The place felt uneasy to her, but then again in her like of work, uneasy was not an unfamiliar feeling.

As she walks in she looks around carefully, her eyes wandering to a very specific set of papers. She slowly walks forward, her hand hovering over the papers.

'Project Sentry.'

She noticed some small pictures and picked them up, one of them being a photo of what seemed to be a shadow, against a wall. But it looked strange. Unsettling to her, almost.

And then there was a picture, of what seemed to be multiple bodies, all in a row, covered in a white cloth. She hesitantly picked them up, along with the papers, and folded them before stuffing them in her pocket.

She continued to assess the room but before she could even, reach towards the table to pick her gun back up she heard a footstep, turning around to see a man in what seemed to be a uniform, black with red and white stripes, with only one, barely visible, star symbol on his chest. Walker. He pulled out his gun and Yelena swiftly grabbed a bulletproof briefcase, shielding her face with it, causing her to stumble back.

John tossed aside his gun, and Yelena threw the case at him, but he just hit it away with his shield, continuing to move closer. This gave Yelena a second to pull out her gun, and she quickly fired off multiple rounds, aiming for his face, but he used his shield to deflect them, before kicking her gun out of her hands, then turning and trying to kick her. What the fuck was even happening right now?

She swiftly dodged, attempting to throw a punch, but he grabbed her arm, pulling her closer to him. She elbows him in the head twice, before slamming him to the ground, and knocking his shield out of his hands but he lands a kick that sends her flying across the room, knocking her into a pile of boxes, which topples over behind her. She quickly tries to sit up, looking up at him in confusion. "What is happening--"

He quickly jumps up onto his feet, as she stumbles to hers, approaching her with a dagger in hand. She tries to throw a punch first which he intercepts with his shield, before hitting her in the gut with it and using it to throw her over his shoulder, causing her to let out a groan as she had the wind knocked out of her once again. She quickly bounces back, wrapping her arm around his shoulder and wrapping her legs around his midriff, getting on his back.

She grabbed his hand which held the dagger, forcing it towards him. "You're not even my target!" She said, her voice strained as she struggled against his wrist. "Well, you're mine!"

Oh.

She knocks the dagger out of his hands, getting off his back and grabbing it before turning on her knees, and swinging, just barely missing him. She tries to stab him underhand this time but he grabs her arm, and she kicks his ankle getting him to let go of her, which causes her to stumble forward and she quickly turns around and swings again, but his shield is in the way, and he manages to grab onto her forearm, before once again flinging her across the room, causing her to stumble into another pile of boxes.

How many times was he gonna fucking swing her around? She just needed to get her target, and get out. She tried to get up as she heard him walking closer but she was having a temporary phrenospasm.

She slowly managed to get up into a kneeling position, as John walked closer, but just before he got close enough to attack her, some rushed out of the shadows, seemingly some tech in her boots, causing her to move faster than Yelena had seen anyone move before, what sounded almost like some type of tech powering up sounded in the room, ringing out before the woman delivered a kick to Johns chin that sent him flying instead of her for once, knocking over a table with some papers, and tumbling right over top of it.

She looked up at the woman, unsure of what to think. She had never seen her before.

She was wearing some kind of white suit, with blue light streaks down her arms and legs, some type of utility belt, with guns and daggers, and a star clip in her hair? It was barely visible because the hood on the back of her suit up, covering it.

Her hair was covering her eyes but she seemed to have some type of scar all down her neck, where her suit didn't cover. She had long white gloves that also had blue light streaks down them, like her boots. Maybe it was some type of tech enhancement? But what got her was the symbol on her belt. A blue, widow symbol. Eventually she turned to Yelena who was unable to see her eyes. Yelena quickly stumbled to get into an upright position, grabbing her baton, but the girl just murmured, "I'm not here for you." In a tone that seemed all too familiar, with a thick Russian accent she swore she knew. John got onto his feet and started to approach the woman, his shield in hand. She rushed forward, pressing something on her wrist which seemed to be attached to her gloves, a grappling hook shooting out of the mechanism on her wrist, and wrapping around walkers arm, which she quickly used to pull him closer, closing the distance between them, before delivering another kick to his face, that sent him to the ground.

She quickly pulled her gun from her holster on her hip, firing off multiple rounds, but he quickly picked up his shield holding it infront of his chest to shield himself. Eventually, John managed to get to his feet, throwing his shield in her direction but she just caught it and threw it back at him, the sound of it hitting the wall resounding in the room. John quickly tried to stumble towards it as the woman grabbed her gun, but right as her finger began to push down the trigger, another woman came up behind her, smacking her in the back of the neck, perfectly hitting a nerve that caused her to fall to her knees. The person who hit her, Yelena knew her. Antonia. Taskmaster. What the fuck was happening. The woman got up to her feet, but before she could turn around Antonia, smashed her shield into the back of her neck sending her back to the ground. John tried to rush forward and the woman got up, grabbing him first, and wrapping her legs around his midriff, before rolling forward throwing him to the ground, swiftly pulling her gun out, but before she could press the trigger Antonia kicked the gun out of her hands. What the fuck had she gotten herself into. She continued to watch them until finally, her target phased into the room, her white mask over her face, everyone standing up and stumbling to their feet, ready to fight the woman who had come in. Ghost. "There you are." "Now what." Walker flippantly, his voice holding a particular arrogance that seemed to piss everyone in the room off. "Oh, get over yourself" Ava said, and even though nobody could see her face, the eyeroll was evident in her face. She ran towards Walker, who readied his shield, going to strike her across the head but she phased right through him, reappearing in front of Antonia, and punching her directly in the ribs, sending her flying backwards. Yelena turned towards her, shooting one of her Widow Bites, but Ava disappeared allowing it to pass right through her, wrapping around Johns shoulder blade, causing him to double over, clutching at it and trying to rip the device off him, only worsening the effects of the electrocution.

This gave Ava time to rush forward again, right hooking Antonia, who hit her fist away with her shield. Ava went to throw another punch, but the unknown woman, kicked her feet out from under her causing her to fall to the floor, before the woman grabbed the shield from Antonia's hands, and smashed it across her head.

Ava got to her feet, but Yelena quickly ran towards, her pushing her to the ground, and grabbing her baton, raising it but before she could bring it down on Ava's face, she phased out from beneath her, before kicking her in the head, causing Yelena to fall on her knees once again, dropping the baton in her hand. "Stay out of my way."

Walker, finally getting the device off of him, stood up.

Antonia quickly drew her bow, firing off an arrow, which exploded upon contact with Johns shield. He quickly pulled out his gun, firing multiple shots at Antonia. Eventually, being fed up he threw his shield at her which she dodged, sliding under a table, but she was quickly grabbed by Ava who shoved her against a wall, punching her multiple times.

John turned his attention back to Yelena, and she hid behind a table, but he just threw his shield which knocked it out of the way, and it flew backwards, but what nobody noticed, was it hitting a containment module, which began to open. Yelena quickly hid behind a crate, as John fired off shots, slowly walking closer to her before the woman Yelena couldn't place, shot him in the back with a... Widow Bite? Causing Walker to stumble to the ground once again. Eventually Ava stumbled into Yelena's line of vision, and she pulled out a dagger, throwing it directly at Ava, who disappeared just in time, catching it before throwing it to Antonia, who deflected it, and John then caught it, rushing forward and knocking the crate out of the way with his shield, trying to stab her with it but she quickly put her wrists together, using her Widow Bites to send shocks through his body.

Antonia and Ava continued to fight, before Antonia used her shield to knock her away, sending her across the room, before pulling her blade off her back, and walking towards that unfamiliar woman, before Ava appeared in front of her, shooting her in the head, causing Antonia to crumple to the ground. Yelena and the woman turned their heads, Yelena's eyes blown wide as she saw Antonia on the ground.

Ava pressed two fingers to the side of her head, putting down her helmet, looking down at Antonia, she opened her mouth to speak but before she could, a sound came from the left corner of the room. Almost like a wretch. Everyone's eyes darted towards it as they swiftly, got to their feet and pulled out their guns, aiming towards each other.

Suddenly something slammed open, and they looked back to the corner, pointing there guns to where the sound came from earlier, only to see a... man? He crawled out of some sort of capsule, and had what looked to be some sort of pajamas on. When he looked in their direction his eyes locked on the dead body. He stared wide eyed, just barely managing to stammer out a few words. "Is she... Is she really dead-- That's--"

"Oh. Oh no--" As he seemingly realized the severity of the situation he was in, he stumbled to his feet, rushing for the door, which promptly shut in his face. All of the other doors around the room slamming shut as well. The man, eventually hesitantly stepped forward, causing everyone to point his guns at him, and he quickly put his hands up in surrender. "Hey, oh woah-- No-- Hi. Hi." He managed to choke out nervously, everyone staring at him in confusion. "I-- I'm Bob."

What. The. Fu--

A/N: we will eventually be cross-posting this story on ao3, and possibly wattpad! (I dont use wattpad really, but I'll try. </3) this was almost sort of the prologue to the fic but this felt too long to be a prologue. - Writer 1 [ WRITERS ON THIS CHAPTER: WRITER 1 ]

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On This Day in Schitt's Creek: April 16

2019

hang on every word... [david/patrick, T, 761] by @startswithhope

Part 3 of my missing kisses series. This one we have the benefit of knowing was filmed, even if we never saw it. ;) Set at the end of “Open Mic”.

Mission: Craft Fair [david/patrick, E, 12,342, CW: violence] by falconeggs

When the Secret Organization of Investigative Espionage fell, the last thing it did was hide its top Operative unit, codename Family, in a little town in the middle of nowhere. Four years in the town of Schitt’s Creek, and no violent memories of their past have caught up to them, and their cover hasn’t been blown once. Or, the au where everything is the same, but the Roses are secretly the best spies in the world.

Pre-Open Mic Performance [david/patrick, G, 717] by liquidgaze

Patrick is about to perform in front of everyone, and most importantly, David. He needs to tell him how he feels and this is the perfect opportunity to do so. Here are some of Patrick's thoughts right before he sings his heart out.

What a Feeling in My Soul [david/patrick, G, 740] by orphan_account

I just needed to know how Patrick asked David to dance because that's the only way I see that happening.

2020

Cleanser [david/patrick, T, 5,136] by cypress_tree

David teaches Patrick about skincare (David teaches Patrick about a lot of things).

Diamonds They Don't Turn to Dust or Fade Away [david/patrick, G, 1,478, CW: MCD] by loveisallyouneed21

“Can you imagine an alternate universe in which I’ve actually died.”–Moira Rose Season 4 Episode 5, RIP Moira Rose

Just as you Are [david/patrick, G, 7,628] by @agoodpersonrose

“I’ll do it properly.” Patrick said decisively, “I’ll propose to you properly.” “Um, excuse you, who said you’d be the one to propose?” David asked, looking mortally offended when Patrick raised an eyebrow unbelievably at him, “What? I could propose to you for all you know!”

Today and All the Days that Follow [david/patrick, E, 8,880] by @unfolded73

An exploration of relationships, both on the wedding day and in the future.

Wrong Number [david/patrick, M, 52,431] by @deenerann

Slight AU- What if Patrick and David meet via text the first night David winds up in Schitt's Creek? David spent so much time on his phone in season 1, and WHO WAS HE TEXTING? This is my take on that.

2021

Business man [david/patrick, G, 324] by @pine67

“There was a point to this tangent, I’m sure of it,” Patrick huffs out a charming laugh-smirk combination to the audience to give the appearance that his mind isn't spiralling.

Got You [patrick & alexis, T, 3,231] by @colourcodedbinders

“Not gonna get much sleeping done,” he says, shoe laces fastened, reaching for the door, “I think I’d rather get you home safe so I don’t have to worry about some creep following you, okay?” A second goes by that she’s quiet, and Patrick almost calls her name again, patience wearing thin, before she speaks again. “You don’t have to worry about me,” she says, finally. “Well I do, Alexis. Tell me where you are.” OR Alexis needs her brother, and Patrick lives to serve.

Laos [johnny/moira, G, 300] by Rosey_Peach

our beautiful rhythms [david/patrick, E, 5,708] by orphan_account

What if David's heat and Patrick's rut happened at the same time? This follows You're my end and my beginning .

Suddenly, You're Mine [david/patrick, G, 980] by @fictasticvoyage

David gives Patrick a present. Sentimental conversations ensue.

Take Me, Excite Me, Erase Me, Rewrite Me: A Schitt's Creek Smut Collection [alexis/twyla, M, 6,064] by @turningtimeinthetardis

Decided to put a handful of smut prompt requests I got in one place. Mostly Twylexis with a smattering of Ted/Twyla/Alexis. Hope you enjoy!

The Art of Customer Service [david/patrick, T, 10,750] by Woodsarelovely

"Because standing at craft services, eating a cookie in almost a single bite and still somehow looking perfect, was David Rose.This was bad. This was very bad. This was not at all good. In any way.Except it was. Obviously. Patrick couldn’t pretend that he hadn’t daydreamed a moment like this; just once or twice as his mind wandered during Miss Henderson’s drier physics classes. But, in the comfort of his own brain, he had imagined a meeting of eyes across a music store, perhaps a chance encounter on a scenic hike. He would be suave and charming and he would know what to do with his hands.Patrick did not currently know what to do with his hands." When Rose Video head office puts out a request for employees to act in its customer service training videos, Patrick Brewer jumps at the chance. What he wasn't prepared for, was his scene partner...

Word Play [david/patrick, M, 664] by @dazedwriter1

A Sunday morning trolling by one Patrick Brewer involving one thesaurus, one annoyed David Rose and one assist by Stevie Budd.

2022

Burning Through the Hours Talking [david/patrick, G, 1,070] by @fictasticvoyage

Early in their relationship, David and Patrick spend a lot of time getting to know each other in the car.

getting by [david/patrick, T, 20,261] by alldaydream

And Patrick likes to think he’s seen it all by now, not much really phases him anymore. But the sight of his ex-husband sitting in the middle booth of a run down cafe in the middle of nowhere with maple syrup in his hair is definitely something he did not see coming. or David and Patrick have a whirlwind romance that ends in divorce. Or perhaps begins in growth.

How David's Fragrance Launch Party Was Absolutely Ruined [david/patrick, E, 5,103, CW: rape/noncon]

A group of totally wasted college bros crash David's fragrance launch party. But hey, one of them is kinda cute

2023

I'll Let You Set The Pace ('Cause I'm Not Thinking Straight) [david/patrick, E, 2,693] by @fictasticvoyage

Five firsts that Patrick wants to make sure he and David take slowly, and one time they have no choice but to barrel ahead.

In Every Sense [david/patrick, E, 2,752] by @beaiola

In which Patrick considers the things he loves about David and the impact he's had on his life through each of the five senses.

2024

Well I Did. [alexis & david, G, 100] by mallpretzles

A coda to the ride back from Heather Warner’s farm.

Stats:

No fanworks for 2017 or 2018 2019: 4 fics/14,560 words 2020: 5 fics/75,553 words 2021: 8 fics/28,021 words 2022: 3 fics/26,434 words 2023: 2 fics/5,445 words 2024: 1 fic/100 words Total: 23 fics/150,113 words

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36 lessons, Summarised

So if anyone was ever curious about what all went on in the 36 lessons of Vivec, in a haze of caffeine, boredom and and insomnia, 4 pages of writing IRL later. I summarized them to the best of my abilities.

Are they 100% accurate, probably not, but what do you want from a tired burn-out with nothing else to do?

Anyhoo, The 36 Lessons of Vivec, summarized.

Quick thing before we start, I know the subject of Vivec's identity and stuff is a bit of a contentious subject in certain circles of the community, we're going with he/him pronouns on this as it was written in the original source material.

Please do not jump down my throat if you have a problem with it. It's not meant in bad faith.

Also, passages marked with ***, believe me, I tried. I tried my damned best to make sense of it but much like Seal's song Kiss From a Rose, it's either a whole lot of words not saying much, or it'll take a smarter person than me to figure it out.

And finally, I'm gonna be using abbreviations.(ALM, SI, VI, N.) This is a long enough undertaking, and I'm not typing out the same names 100 times to make it longer.

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Sermon 1: Almalexia (Ayem/ALM) finds a netch rancher's(netchiman) wife, prophesizes at her, and throws her in the ocean. As you do. Dreughs find her, take her home, slap gills on her, turn her into a hermaphrodite and she chills for 7-8 months. Sotha Sil (Seht/SI) shows up, tells the netchiman's wife(NW) she's pregnant with his brother, then sends her back to land where she chills for another 7-8 months teaching the unborn Vivec (Vehk/VI) the Codes of Mephala, Prophecies of Veloth, and the forbidden teachings of Trinimac.

7 Daedra, The Barons Who Move Like This(like from ESO's Maelstrom Arena) teach unborn VI how to move. The demiprince Fa-Nuit-Hen (Also of Maelstrom infamy) shows up, tells NW to go to Indoril lands in 3 month's time. They join the Barons, teach VI some more moves and peace out.

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Sermon 2: NW searches for Indoril lands, meets some spirits. The spirits teach unborn VI some stuff. Spirit 1 hugs NW, VI does a few flips and says thanks. Spirit 2 couldn't be bothered to act so left with a headache. There's a 3rd spirit, At-Hatoor, he wears whack clothes, VI calls him out on it, At-Hatoor agrees and dips out. Spirits 4 and 5 are cousins, this is important for some reason, they prophesize at VI and also dip out. The 6th spirit is actually Mephala, who cesareans VI out of NW after blinding her. VI merges with Mephala for a second, steals some secrets, Mephala doesn't like it, and puts him back in NW but leaves her blind.

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Sermon 3: NW wanders into a cave because remember, she's blind and is captured by Dwemer. They know the Velothi people are looking for NW so build a fake version of her and stick it back on the surface. The Dwemer try to re-cesarean VI out and fail, go to fetch an automaton to try. VI tells his mom to be calm because she isn't right now(and can you blame her?) NW falls asleep, the Dwemer retry the operation, succeed, NW dies. VI is put in a jar to be studied, tries to teach the Dwemer about love. They don't get it so they stick him in the fake NW(FNW) on the surface a-la a weird trojan horse.

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Sermon 4: FNW resumes the search for Indoril lands, meets more spirits who teach VI. VI gets in an arguement with one and denounces the concept of coincidence in the Velothi lands forevermore. An Old Bone of the Earth(whatever that is) posits a riddle to VI, folds in on itself and VI drinks it when he solves it, making him a ruling king of the world(whatever that means). Another spirit shows up some stuff happens and it pulls out the Astrolabe of the Universe, breaks it in half and gives it to VI. VI realizes from this he's in for some shit.

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Sermon 5: FNW starts to break down because remember, she's basically a machine. 80 days later is discovered by a merchant caravan. The warrior among them, Nerevar(N.) wants to bring her to ALM in Veloth to be studied because she's a Dwemer construct and they're about to go to war with the Dwemer and need every advantage they can get. The caravan captain disagrees and wants to sell her off in Noormoc to get paid and laid. N. offers to buy her instead, kills him when VI speaks to him and N. takes over the caravan and they head to Veloth.

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***Sermon 6: Lessons from VI to N. Mephala and Azura are a thing, Boethiah is a side piece? Lions don't exist in Veloth yet, but they're gonna eat the sun one day(possible allusion to ESO'S Daggerfall Covenant? Unlikely, but possible?) Go with what you understand, if it confuses you it's bad. there's 3,333 days until the end of days and there were other Nerevars.

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Sermon 7: There's a duke of Scamps named Kh-Utta who was summoned by Mehrunes Dagon. Offers 7 legions, is told by a domo(whatever that is) that they can't defeat Nerevar. Kh-Utta and the domo curse N., and he had words of power GHARTOK PADHOME written on his palms by VI. Twice.

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Sermon 8: N. and VI(via FNW) arrive in Veloth, meet with ALM and advisors. N. gives FNW over to ALM, VI hatches, merges with FNW. ALM, SI and VI make N. their champion.

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Sermon 9: There's a war with Nords. 5 warlords are slain or defeated.

Hoaga(aka Fenja) ate dirt. Literally. Used it in a type of necromancy. Frontline's getting killed, Hoaga's horfing down dirt in the backline, spitting it into corpses to make them rise again. Somehow.

Chemua ate a guy, Khizumet-e and could create acid rain. Destroyed 6 villages before being slain by VI and N.

Bhag had a lot of men at his disposal, was argued or debated to death by VI.

Barfok might have been a harpy, she could sing victories into existence, VI stuck his dick in her mouth to make her shut up. I wish I was kidding. Thus started VI's pattern of sexually assaulting people, be it actually or heavily implied. (See later, Muatra IYKYN, and if not, you'll learn.)

Ysmir. Strong silent type but when he spoke, mountains shattered. Possible use of the Thu'um. Some anime-ass BS goes down between him and N. Battle concludes with essentially ringing an ebony bell but with Ymir's head as the clapper.

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*** Sermon 10: More lessons of VI to N. Gives us the hard-ass line "The sword is an impatient signature. Write no contracts on the dead". Introduces concept of SITHISIT as a strife allegory?

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*** Sermon 11: More advice from VI to N. Alludes to the Sharmat (Dagoth Ur?). ALM has the stars, SI the sea and VI has the middle air. this sermon gives us the line "Embrace the art of the people and marry it and by that I mean secretly have it murdered" Possible foreshadowing of Nerevar's later death?

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Sermon 12: N. thinks about VI's teachings. ALM and SI get freaky, VI watches for a bit and loses interest, wanders to an ashland, gets really big(giant form) and meets Molag Bal(MB). MB has VI's feet cut off and VI essentially hits him with "damn, at least buy me a drink first". They get married, VI loses his head(literally). MB asks for proof of VI's love, VI recites a poem.(Actually 2 but only 1 is known). They proceed to have thousands of children, the mightiest named GULGA MOR JIL HYAET AE HOOM.

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***Sermon 13: Introduces the Four Corners of The House Of Troubles.

(Molag)BAL, (Mehrunes)DAGON, MALAC(ath), and SHEOG(orath)

The Triune House: ALMSIVI, VI will outlive ALM and SI and judge future Nerevars?

At the center of it all is Veloth, the Sharmat and Nerevar himself. Maybe. I couldn't make heads or tails of this one.

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Sermon 14: Headless VI and MB go at it for over 80 days(ouch), MB gave VI his feet back at some point but filled them with daedra blood.

Kh-Utta from sermon 7 rolls up to the dual wedding and horrid honeymoon with his 7 legions, VI and MB's children fight them off. Now scamps suck because of this war.

VI's head rolls up to find his body in good condition despite being used by MB for 80+ days(or not? It's unclear) bites new words onto MB's "spear" and creates a race of monsters called Biters(likely Vampires. Possibly kicks off MB's role as father of Vampires)

Vi then bites off MB's dick, makes a spear of it, names it Muatra, casts MB and the biters into the earth.(Somehow this isn't even the messiest divorce I've ever read about)

Uses his new spear to kill everyone at the wedding including his and his now-ex's thousands of children save for 9. (technically 8 as VI is somehow one of his own children)

Surviving children are called Moon Axle, Treasure Wood Sword, Horde Mountain, The Pocket Cabal, The Ruddy Man, City-Face, Lie Rock and the mightiest, GULGA MOR JIL HYAET AE HOOM. (with names like that maybe we should be grateful the worst we have are ones like Tragedeigh-Lynn-McWhateverthehell)

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*** Sermon 15: More advice from VI to N.

VI acknowledges that N. will kill him one day. Warns him of the Sharmat. VI will Permit N. to kill the Sharmat but only when the time is right to do so.

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Sermon 16: VI gets a haircut to make room for the fire. N. has trouble focusing and remembering all of VI's advice, VI tells him to reach heaven through violence, so N. grabs an axe and goes to one of the moons and kills a bunch of people.

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Sermon 17: Magnus kicks N. out of the Library of the Sun for his whole reach heaven through violence thing, Vi finds him in a field and they walk east across the sea to Akavir to learn more martial styles. They go north, nothing happens so they go west and train with Redguard sword-saints(in Yokuda?) VI wifes up a king, they birth monsters that destroy the west. VI and N. don't go south. They return to Red Mountain. The Sharmat is there, but VI says it's not the time to deal with him. VI and N. fight eachother.

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Sermon 18: Is straight up said to be untrue at the end.

Pre Battle of Red Mountain, VI tells ALM he's gonna hunt down the last of his and Molag Bal's children before going after Kagrenac.

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*** Sermon 19: VI dips into the void to prepare for his hunt. Finds ancestor moths in there?

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Sermon 20: The fight against Moon Axle, who is immune to spears(or straight lines, really).

Vivec weakens Moon Axle with a curved sword, finishes the job by I kid you not: turning into a giant, picking up a canyon, eating a handful of nix-hounds, spitting their souls into the canyon and having them kind of splatter onto Moon Axle before stabbing him with Muatra. As you do, I guess?!

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*** Sermon 21: Yeah, I have no idea. Wheels and towers.

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Sermon 22: VI looks for Treasure Wood Sword. ALM tells VI of an enchantress of House Mora that she's fond of, VI begrudgingly goes. Talks with a skeleton with a blinged-out lower jaw, marries a bunch of Morag Tong heads, they have 100 sons (speculation: with WAY too many arms and hands) and they go on a killing spree and I guess they killed Treasure Wood Sword?

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*** Sermon 23: Swords are important. That's all I got.

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Sermon 24: Horde Mountain. Three lower houses trap Horde Mountain in a net, Vivec rolls up, makes the house heads marry and makes them the first Buoyant Armigers. Stabs Horde Mountain with Muatra, creates a new city from it's bones. Vivec. (Yeah, he named the city after himself) ALM and SI bless the city.

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*** Sermon 25: Vivec is his city and his city is him. I guess.

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Sermon 26: The Pocket Cabal. VI disguises himself as a traveler, Muatra as a dwarf. The Pocket Cabal makes Muatra sick, he explodes, driving nearby slaves mad. A wizard gets pissed about this, mocks VI, VI kills him, drives The Pocket Cabal out of hiding, traps it under a dome and leaves SI in charge of it.

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*** Sermon 27: Words are important. Yeah.

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Sermon 28: The Ruddy Man. Possibly a cursed shell, a whole-ass dreugh in ESO. Any who wear him go mad killing. VI kills the Ruddy Man, gives his shell to the dreugh who got ahold of the netchiman's wife back in Sermon 1 (remember her?) The dreugh say they'll keep the shell safe and away from the surface world. That was a lie. VI reclaims the shell after the next wearer destroys 3 villages, entrusts it to trusted sages.

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*** Sermon 29: A whole lotta numbers, divined from stuff done to the Ruddy Man's shell.

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Sermon 30: City-Face. VI can't find him because he doesn't really exist until he does? VI kills a guy for asking too many questions, N. calls him out on it, Vi say nobody knows me and fuckall is done about the fact VI just murdered a guy. Things called Grabbers get ahold of City-Face, try to use him to build a replacement Vivec City, VI kills City-Face.

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Sermon 31: Nerevar is married to ALM, VI takes a break from hunting his kids to hunt nuisance monsters in the wilds, disappears for a minute to do so. N. misses VI, ALM tells him what's up.

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*** Sermon 32: Allusions to the Chimer becoming the Dunmer?

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Sermon 33: Lie Rock. Lives among the stars. VI sends N. to kill it, Lie Rock decides to crash into his dad and his city to destroy them, is caught in midair by VI, stabbed with Muatra.

Lie Rock's still there. It's known as the moonlet/ Baar dau and Vivec keeps it hanging in the air so if his people quit loving and worshipping him, he'll kill them all by dropping it.

------- Sermon 34: The mighty mouthful, GULGA MOR JIL HYAET AE HOOM. VI summons N. to help him fight and GULGA ect ect goes down without a fight after a talk with VI. Rather disappointing. Bones become the City of The Dead anon Narsis (Necrom?)

VI and N. talk and N. realizes *He's* now the mightiest of VI's children. (Given his sibling's fates, he's -totally safe-/sarcasm)

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*** Sermon 35: Love. If it's what he tried to tell the Dwemer back in Sermon 3, no wonder they threw him out.

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Sermon 36: Battle of Red Mountain is in full swing. Key Dwemer are King Dumac and Kagrenac and they've got an ally! Ysmir from sermon 9!

Nerevar trades in his old axe for the Ethos Knife, kills King Dumac with it.

Dwemer attack Mournhold, are met by Almalexia and defeated. Sotha Sil sets loose an army of machanical dreugh he's been working on under the sea and they drag a bunch of Dwemer stuff into the sea.

Red Mountain erupts, Nerevar seeks the Sharmat, Kagrenac unleashes the Numidium, and it's defeated by Almalexia, Sotha Sil and Vivec, and ALMSIVI reel in the ash and eruption from Red Mountain and eat it, thus creating the Dunmeri people*.

*or so that's how it allegedly happened.

[abubblingcandle]

Tagged by the wonderful @nativestarwrites

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

278

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

736,445

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently Ted Lasso and Strike Back. In the past ... so much shit but mostly Les Miserables, Avengers, Daredevil, Star Wars

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

All from my Avengers/Harry Potter crossover days apart from 5 which is The Sandman

Not One For Moonlit Skies (3162)

Hiding in the Closet (2315)

Don't They Teach You Interrogation Skills Here (2184)

Still the Wealthiest Man in the Room (2046)

Our Little Life Is Rounded With A Sleep (1466)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes! Always. I just appreciate every comment so much and want the commenters to know it has been read and it has been appreciated.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Like a Black Hole for sure! I usually write Hurt/Comfort and thrive on a happy ending but this one would have been ruined with one. It's angst from start to finish.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably Accidental Father Figure Acquisition. It ends with Jamie and Henry just having a nice time and having fun with each other!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I've only had a couple of shitty comments in my time but just a quick delete and then moved on with my life.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No. I'm ace and it is not the most fun for me but I am trying to branch out and have been working with some people on some more kinky potentially smutty stuff to try and challenge myself but it is incredibly slow going because guess what, I keep on getting derailed with whump.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I used to but less so now. It's probably Recruitment which was my short and silly Assassins Creed Black Flag / Black Sails crossover fic

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes! An Atlantis BBC fic of mine was taken and sold on amazon and places during that run when a bot was doing that!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! I can't remember which one off the top of my head but it happened and it was a beautiful moment

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No but it sounds fun!

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

So I love Roy and Jamie but like in whatever way. Like their relationship is so important to me but mostly not really for it's romantic bits. I just want them both to be with each other and happy. I'm just as happy with a platonic relationship as I am a romantic one.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I do want to finish all the Ted Lasso stuff I've started but I do think anything for any earlier fandoms I probably won't

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think character voice. Like I like to think I'm good at the characters being true to what they should be and being able to get them to operate and emote how people are expecting

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I am really bad at writing a satisfying ending. I just never know what to do to stick the landing

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I am incredibly bad at languages so am skeptical of doing it right and doing it justice but I may try at some point

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Eragon. It was a super bad fic about Murtagh during the series. It was so bad.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

Oooo this is like asking me to pick between my children but it has to be Where the Hell is the Karma?

It swelled into something I never thought it would be and I'm so proud to have got it finished and to have a final product I am proud of

I don't know who has already been tagged so just going to guess at some people I don't think have. No pressure and also if you want to do it then just go for it!! @oldfashionedmorphine @sighonaraa @asteria-argo

[starlightbooklove]

Part 2 of My really insane college life 🙃🙃🙃

Ok The classes

To give you a little context, most (if not all) of the professors at the university are doctors, doctors in practice, who are helping the university because there is no professor. Therefore, many of them do not have the pedagogical preparation to teach the subjects they are assigned to, or despite having it, they explain as if ee were a human video recorder that perfectly captures the information they say at 100 words per second lmao.

This does not mean that they are all bad, I am lucky to have several who clearly love the career and teaching and they make me understand very well with their classes. But, as I mentioned, they are practicing doctors, they have been practicing their career for years and continue to practice it while teaching, So there is a lot of planning and time problems, sometimes they have to leave super quickly because something comes up at the hospital, or they don't teach classes that day because they have to operate or have a Medical appointment

And since we are short of teachers (to the point that we are one of the few sections that has all its teachers) it is not like we can change them So this results in sometimes going to the university (which for some is an hour away) to watch almost 1 hour of classes alone 🫠

The classrooms

As I was telling you, the section representative asked us for money at the beginning of classes to do Maintenance to the air conditioning of the classroom they had assigned to us, But then they changed our classroom to one without air conditioning and asked us all for $5 to pay for the Air conditioning, anatomical models (at least two per section) and curtains.

5 dollars is not much but considering that inflation in my country is very strong, And the national currency is 'the Bolivar' It's still money, but before that we had already paid for the projector (which was something that the teachers highlighted as essential because they show their slides there) And that was (if I'm not mistaken) around the same amount as what they were asking us this time, that's almost 10 dollars and it's only the first month. And that's not even all.

The first week of school was an ordeal, mentally and physically, we had no chairs, we entered our assigned classroom and there were more tables than chairs (and this is something I've always found funny because in high school, we were always scolded if we even leaned back from our desks, and the first time I sat at a table for lack of Chairs I thought they were going to scold me 😅, but I soon realized that the university student takes care of himself as best he can and everyone ends up sitting at the table without any scolding in the end) So we had to go ourselves to another room to look for chairs to complete the ones we were missing, it doesn't sound like much but the heat is horrible here and let's remember that it's not like we were going To rest in a cold room

Now the problem of the chairs is solved, it also happened to us once when they did the opposite, many chairs few tables

Anyway, we don't have windows, that is, we have the threshold and the frame but there is no glass 🫠 lmfao, and this continues like this. What's more, due to the lack of glass, they placed two blackboards (one in each window) as a substitute, I wish it were a joke, and there is only a portion left on the sides even without anything because it obviously does not cover everything

And we still don't have air conditioning or anatomical models

This, for several reasons, first, not everyone has paid those 5 dollars, both because they don't want to and because they don't have it (there are people who have to pay for tickets, rent and food).

Second, because there are more expenses, teachers ask for money to make copies of the exams, that is not a lot of money (depending on the teacher) but it is when several evaluations are added together (my current situation) That becomes up to a dollar added to what is already spent in the week Then there is the payment for the 'sports' shirts, only God knows why the hell we see that stuff, that was 5 dollars too (I didn't pay for them because the truth is that I was lethargic 😂)Then there are the copies that one has to make of the printed works that have to be delivered, which again, on their own are not much, but together they amount to dollars in that

And then (yes people, this continues) there is the money that they are now asking us to pay for the computer because the one we have been using until now belongs to a student and to take it from there to here (being for her personal use) it's not very practical And, for that it is 3 dollars per student, now they are also asking us for 2 dollars because the art and culture subject teacher, another that I don't know why the hell we see it, wants us to plant plants at the university, no, it's not a game, it's not a joke, it's not an exaggeration, it's just what I'm telling you.

And well, attached to that is a payment that had to be made by taking two dollars from the models' 5 dollars, to pay for an air Conditioned at a medical center where two professors give us classes And another dollar to rent a damn room to watch a midterm exam.

To give You some context and perspective One dollar is 36 bs, copies (prints) are charged from 10 bs to 20 bs, the bus fare is 5 bs for students, but, for example I must pay for bus and cart (a term for taxi basically) and that cart costs 15 bs, those who have to take the bus and car pay almost 30 bs per day, especially when they have to go to the Medical Center, because they have to pay more. Do the math for yourselves

And now comes the good part, the really screwed up part, in the next part because I should be asleep by now and because in the other part there is A LOT to say

Part 1

[mitigatingacademics]

{9.29.23}

Full moon. High Water. NS System-Wide Signal Failure.

(Retiring in Portugal doesn't sound half bad...)

Folks were super understanding, all things considered.

Even the one that attempted to teach my co-worker how to spell the numbers 1-10 in French for no reason at all (I took 7+ years of French in school and have a 1,000+ day streak on Duolingo - I had to walk away) then completely overshared about her personal domestic situation to myself and my not unproblematic but saintly patient bus driver, could have been, by any estimation, worse.

Co-worker said the word 'canceled' in the context of 'might be canceled' to several unassuming passengers, causing me, tethered to the accounting office desk by the phone, on hold with operations, trying to find out what the actual game plan was going to be, to yell 'DON'T SAY THAT WORD!' 🙄

Because you can't say that word. Folks don't hear the context. They just don't.

This apparently pissed off co-worker because he came back with a sassy "Never mind, everything is fine." 🙄🙄

Sir, just don't give more information than you have.

The people want updates, but they don't want extreme possibilities that may or may not materialize. That's not in any way helpful.

...nothing was canceled.

I was almost through my second hour of mandatory overtime (co-worker had left an hour and 45 minutes earlier) when an absolute angel of a passenger bestowed the unexpected and completely undeserved above gift upon me.

I still almost don't even know what to say about it.

What an an absolute sweetheart.

She knew I'd had a time overnight and just her ability to make me laugh lifted my spirits well before she went so far above and beyond.

I needed her this morning.

What a wonderful blessing.

Productivity:

LSAT Trainer: Lesson 20

Despite everything I managed to finish this lesson which was at least 3/4 of what I had planned for the night before I knew...how it was going to be.

It was a review of approaches to Logical Reasoning question types.

I actually completed it feeling rather solid.

That's not nothing.

[nonokoko13]

Child!reader being adopted by spy x family characters Pt. 2

As I said in the previous part, these adoption headcanons are really specific, including your hypothetical pronouns and name; these two are extra so you can imagine yourself with your name and desired gender. You can ask for less specific headcanons if you want too. Part 1 here

Enjoy!

Sylvia Sherwood

How you met

She carries the responsibility of WISE, she needs to be committed to it. More than ever now that the peace was threatened every day by those who wanted war to arise again

She missed her family, but she overcame it. Just like the HQ she had to be impenetrable

At least, that's what she thought

Because right in front of her there was the question which answers she wanted to hear. A kid.

It would be normal to see one if she wasn't at the HQ

It didn't help no one knew there was a kid there until you spoke up

The camera system didn't record you and there wasn't any entrance to the agency that had been forced. You weren't any employee's kid either

After scolding them and order to search your parents she met you again

"Hello little one. May I ask you how did you get in here?"

You smiled, seeming to have been waiting her to ask

"Because I like to play and explore! And I'm really good at hide and seek"

Sylvia raised an eyebrow. No matter how well someone was good at hiding there was no way you could break into the HQ; it sounded surrealistic

"But how did you find this place?"

"Because it was easy to find"

"Don't you think you could end bad breaking into unknown places?"

"If I don't know what isthis place how I'd know that?"

Fair enough

That conversation wasn't going anywhere, yet she was angrier with the security staff than you. You didn't look worried though

You gave her an idea

"Do you want to play with me?"

Both entered in the nearest police station, she talked with the officers before telling you to count until 1000 while she was going to hide. You started the count facing a wall

She felt bad, but there were some traffickers she had to catch before they made the exchange

She was following their car; everything fine until she believed to see a small hand greeting her from the car's trunk

She returned to the police station to find out that moments later of her departure you disappeared without anyone realizing. She went to the point where the delivery would be made

Outside the abandoned warehouse there was no signal that you were there until she saw you getting out from under the car on the other side

Something caused a shooting that would make the police come and caught her at any moment. The bands kept shooting at each other while you were behind a transport container

"What were you thinking?! I told you to stay with the police!"

"I'm sorry, I counted until I know, then I saw you following the car, so I followed too. But before they caught me I hid in there...I'm sorry..." You pulled out a walkie-talkie

"I got two from the police station. I left one in there so the others thought the guys of that car were betraying them, it should have worked to scape with no bad guys seeing us"

She was impressed. However, there was no time to ask where you learn that from

Analyzing the situation the principal scape was blocked, fortunately they hadn't noticed you yet so–

You pulled her shirt, pointing somewhere else

"Let's get out"

General headcanons

Sylvia was still surprised that your plan of exiting through a rear window she hadn't seen and walk away without hurry could work

She stopped walking to watch you smash the walkie-talkie and take out some matches to burn it

"Now they can't find footprints!"

The police may not get answers about it but she had many questions for you

She lied to you about the HQ, after the shooting her lie was on the floor. Thenceforth Sylvia's not able to tell if you were playing along and keeping her secret or you have no idea what's all about

You thought her name was Handler. When you knew she was called Sylvia Sherwood you pointed your hoody logo and say "S of Super, you're superman–Superwoman!"

That's how she begun to be mistaken with an endearing mother and her son. She was superwoman and you "kid", because you said that's how you were called, along with child, shrimp, demon...

"That's unacceptable". She handed you lists of names to choose, unfortunately no one convinced you

It wasn't until you two went to a jewelry store that you found the name

The casual way you break in HQ when you want still frustrates her, how do you do it?? You don't see big deal though

Fullmetal lady didn't remember how tough was motherhood

Anyone would freak out if they found out about spies. Yet there you are, admiring flying guys in underpants

Sylvia asked you about your family, but you always tell the same: you lived with dad until he left you with a woman that he said was your mom

The Handler found out your father is a repeat offender, currently on a maximum security prison in another country. Both him and the woman without offspring legally

"Please, don't tell me one of his criminal records is jailbreaking"

The informant doubted "Actually, that's the main one"

"..."

The Forgers

Scenario where it's up to both of them to adopt you. To keep Loid's mental sanity safe it will be independent of the timeline where Yor has a kid on her own, feel free to imagine both kids being Anya's siblings at the same time. You can ask me to include that idea if I write more about this

How you met

As I said before Twilight wouldn't adopt anyone due his job, only one kid for Operation Strix and that was Anya. For now Yor didn't want more kids, she loves Anya and that's enough for them

Not for Anya. She wanted a little sibling

All started talking with Becky when Damian mentioned his brother. Back at home she brought the topic and neither Pa or Ma were giving her an answer of where babies come from

That's when she begun to feel like being a sister. Any plan helped her to convince her parents though

Anya remembered something Mr Henderson told them. "If you want something, take it into your own hands"

And she took it too seriously

Next day Anya and Bond disappeared, she was in the dogs park with Yor

While Mrs Forger panicked Anya had returned to the place she met Twilight

As the time passed the Forgers worried more. When they found Anya and Bond at their building's door they felt relieved

Your presence didn't make things better

They asked Anya where she had been and where did you come from. She said she adopted you

Of course Anya wasn't going to say she broke into an orphanage and took you

Loid's scolding made you cry

"Anya, we aren't adopting–"

"If she's not my sister I won't go to school ever again!!"

"Just for a trial period" that's what Loid hoped

General headcanons

Loid thought babies were easy because it's unnecessary (more impossible) communication with a living being that can't talk; after all babies only have basic needs. He was wrong

It would be easier if you could talk. Why are you crying? You have eaten! Are you sad? Cold? You dislike him?

Yor is not better either. Because her parents died when Yuri was a kid Yor didn't have experience with changing diapers, or anything related with babies

She was more scared than Loid to the point she didn't want to hold you. She broke Yuri's ribs with a hug when he was a toddler, what if she kills you with few contact?

In less than 24 hours you already had a crib and all kinds of things a baby would need. However, having three bedrooms and parents sleeping in separate rooms meant all your things ended in Anya's room

You cried at night until they discovered you calmed down when Anya let you a plushie to hug

She can't wait for the day pa and ma share bed to take back her bedroom

The second night Anya had an idea

Ma is scared of being your mom, solution? Leave you in her bed while Yor is asleep imagining that would work

Thanks God Yor doesn't move much when sleeping. On the other hand Yor is a light sleeper due not being used to sleep with someone so she woke up minutes later

She almost jump out of the bed, realizing that would make you cry made her contain. You groaned, did she wake you up? Yor wasn't sure of holding you, instead she laid down again and approached you to her chest

Seeing you so peaceful by her side melted her, thinking about it you looked a bit like her and Loid.. She blushed at the embarrassing thought

Bold of them to not imagine that's why Anya chose you

In the morning Loid discovered what happened and had a little words with Anya during breakfast before she went to school

Yor went to work and he decided to take a day off from his work to spend the morning with you. The Handler said the first days you should see them to recognize faces

Walks with Bond, buying toys, trying to teach you sign language...Normal stuff

Loid is glad you don't do anything but sleep and eat, except your obsession with munching. When you first kissed Yor he found it normal until you munched her cheek and now you do that to everyone; probably you're teething

Yor found it really cute, but you shouldn't go kissing and chewing cheeks. Anya thinks is funny just don't try to chew her hair again please

Another problem came with names. Loid was going through a list of 850 names in alphabetical order, meanings included; Yor didn't take it to the extreme

"Hum, what about Rose? I think it's a cute name, I mean it's both decision and I'm not good with names Loid–"

Welcome to the family Rose

A spy, an assassin, a telepath and... Well, a baby. Seems like a good mix

Yor Briar

As we know Twilight only would adopt for Operation Strix's sake. Yor became mother by marrying Loid, but what if she had already a kid before being Mrs Forger?

Inspired by this post of @say-seira

How you met

Long ago before Twilight adopted the identity of Loid Forger, the Briars moved to a flat in Berlint

While the eldest sibling had recently become an adult Yuri was only a kid, Yor decided to move to the city so he had nearer his school. It was possible due her proper salary as Thorn Princess

This change would make her job easier too. She had a new client which death could pay Yuri's entrance to a good university

There was a politician who negotiated with terrorists, helping them to get into Ostania and providing them with weapons in exchange to gain good propaganda abroad and getting rid of competition

Knowing this was enough to make Yor's blood boil. He deserved to die, she was sure of it

Struggling with the security around him, Yor finally killed the target without leaving trace

The only inconvenience was a bad injury made by a bullet that she received. After removing the bullet the wound got worse

She went to the hospital to avoid an infection. In the waiting room she met a kind lady, Yor swore that she had seen her before

The woman was scared, but Yor reassured her she will wait her

While Yor was attended the girl was taken to another room. As she promised, Yor waited in the hall after her wound was treated; with a buttoned medical gown on because she didn't want to attract more attention due the bandaged wound in sight

Time passed and many people enter and exit from the room, but she didn't. A nurse carrying something mistook her for one of the staff and scolded her for standing there

"Here, take the baby to the nursery"

"Me? But— wait! What about the woman? Is she okay?"

From afar she heard the answer, but before Yor could explain the error the woman had left. She was shocked, how? She seemed fine

Against her will the dark-haired looked at the lump she was holding: rosy cheeks babbling in dreams, you were in peace

Her shock grew when she saw you shared the username that the man she killed had. That's why the woman was familiar: she was the politician's daughter

Yor searched someone who hand the baby when she recognized the doctor that guided the woman to the room, he was talking with a masked nurse

The fact they went to a private place and maintained their voices low made her suspect

"Did you take care of the mother?" the nurse asked

"Yes, they got ahead of us with her father but I think they will pay us anyway. When they found it was a medical negligence we'll be far from here"

Yor understood they were assassins as well, probably paid by a rival. Luckily they hadn't seen her yet

"Heh, do you they will pay more if we got rid of the baby?"

Yor left the hospital with you, unsure of what to do. Did you have more relatives? The widowed politician didn't have more kids, and your mother came alone. What if they wanted to kill the rest of the family?

A small hand grabbed hers, and every fear disappeared. Looking at each other, she knew you were safer with her. Perhaps it was only guilt or sympathy, but she would try

General headcanons

The moment Yuri saw Yor holding you was in disbelief. Yor said she found you in the streets and he believed it

At first he tried to convince her sister to leave you in a orphanage but once scolding was enough to cease

Still disliking you for the first months. It took some time until he saw you like one of his family

Yuri helped, although they had a rough time because you refused to eat Yor's purees. Your endurance might grew up to make you the only person who can eat her food without bleeding but it doesn't mean you like its flavor

She viewed you as a sibling until you were two, being called mom made Yor too happy to correct you. Yuri was just Yuri, you never feel like using formalities with him or addressing "Uncle" everytime you talked

Yor decided to let your belongings, it was better that way. When you were older, and only if you wanted, she would tell you the truth

She's bad with names, Rose was the only name she could think of but you're a boy. Yor's parents loved that Yuri and her had matching names, therefore you would be the sweet addition to it

The only name I could think of is Yuu because it's gender neutral and means "you" sorry

During the first year of your life she didn't try to hide the blood of her clothes from you. Yuri never suspected either and you wouldn't remember it when you grow up

Your lack of childhood amnesia was something she didn't have in count. Not that she knows you know anyway

Yor has been training you since you were able to walk, if she wasn't there when you needed at least you would be ready to defend yourself. Proud to say you're her strong boy

That said, if the assassins that tried to killed you found were you lived it's something you ignore. Being the protective mother Yor is they could be dead by now

Six years later, it was still Yor and you against the world, with Yuri being the only paternal figure you had. Before one day she met a man and everything changed

She said he will help her by accompanying her to a party so Yuri stopped worrying about her. She said it would be one night, and the next morning you woke up with Yor waiting to talk with you

In part she accepted because of you; you passed the Eden exam before knowing you needed a dad for it. That requisite seemed stupid for you, as you reassured her you could go to any other school; now you would be accepted into the best school!

You agreed and started packing. What else you could do? The decision was made before you were asked anyway, and you didn't want to argue with your mom because she was doing it for your future too

Of course it affected you. No matter how nice they were it was a huge change; in one day you had to move to a new place which didn't feel like home and live with strangers who you'll have to share mom with isn't easy

Anya was nervous too, but for different reasons. She was so excited to meet her soon-to-be sibling! For her, who was an orphan last week, having a pa, a ma and a friend to play with was great

Her expectations went down when she read your mind. You didn't think bad of them, but excited wasn't the word to describe your emotional state either

Loid may not be good at understanding children, but it was clear for him you wasn't comfortable. For him would be weirder if you didn't seem affected at all

On the contrary, Yor seemed cool with all of this to you. Even without any idea of how to be a wife or mother for Anya she enjoyed her time as Forger, which confused you a bit

Yor is happier, not only because she didn't have to worry about the SSS or Yuri anymore. They make her happier, it's just matter of time she could fall for Loid and have a baby that was her own, real kid

Being sure Yor loves you and your new family want you to feel welcomed doesn't make disappear the feelings you carry with. Still, if mom is happy you prefer to keep it to yourself and try to maker her smile too

If it wasn't because Yuri hates the idea of her sister hiding her marriage for a year and sympathized your situation he would have laughed at the irony when you told him during your uncle-nephew walk the next day of his meeting with "Loiloi"

He doesn't know they got married before you attended school so he assumed you had been holding it for a long time. He passed his fingers through your hair

"I understand it's difficult, but I'll be for you whenever you need me"

+ Honorable mention to compensate you for the mild ansgt without warning

Daybreak

We don't know much about him but I included this dork for fun

Thinking about "Daybreak" and "parenthood" makes anyone's mind stopped working

Mainly because it's difficult to say which one would be the child

Not "How you met headcanons" because he wouldn't be able to adopt to begin with

From what we saw in chapter 27 he seems to live alone, depending on his amazing spy career to afford pork steak for dinner. So he must not live too good given that after his first mission he was fired

If he had a child, it would be likely because of a previous relationship he had and didn't end well

He didn't adopt you. You're his biological kid, the only not adopted of this gang

Sorry we can't choose our family good luck ig

Not necessarily ended bad, even remaining as friends, your mother took a different path and is happily married with another man

If she knew he wanted to be a spy either thought "it's a joke" or *sigh*

She was who brought money in the relationship, now you live with her and your step-dad but at the beginning you didn't want to

Daybreak talked with you and promised you could visit each other and even live with him when he could afford it

They don't get it

Who would take care of him? The idea of living on his own was frightening to you

Imagine being father and is your kid who worries about whether pops know how to pay taxes without mom

You took after him in terms of appearance. Any signal of intelligence was from your mother

Average smart but surely smarter than him

Probably he thanked God that you were a boy. He will love whatever you are but he was relieved of saving himself of buying female products when you were on that time of the month and guide you through puberty

As much as he says to be a charming man he's not good with women either so

Your name is Sunny. Guess who chose it

Probably you see him more on weekends than during the week

Until you showed him Spy Wars he didn't have no idea that existed such good series

Of course not cooler than the legend he is but Daybreak jokes about how reading that and seeing your cool pops in action would make you half as good spy as he is someday

Quite sad is that your common sense along with the things you see on TV are enough to be better spy material

You try to watch it with him to see if he learns something

Unsure of what you'll be in the future but in the mean time you had fun watching cartoons and liking kids stuff like dinosaurs and skateboard

Current status: Busy with your first year at school and getting him out of trouble

[sohotthateveryonedied]

Hiii!! I really love your tumblr posts and I'm pretty new to the Batfam (meaning I have only read fics and textposts about them, no comics) and I wanted to ask about the year Bruce/Batman gets "lost in time". I know general things of what the kids have been doing–Dick became batman and fired Tim from robin, giving it to Damian, everyone thinking Tim was crazy for believing Bruce was alive, (don't really know what Jason was up to though, was he still murderous towards Tim? Does the pit still affect him? Also I have no idea about Cass and Duke, were they introduced at this point??) Anyways, my real question was why was Bruce lost in time, what villain put him there? And how did he get out? And how long was he "dead"? Was Bruce in another reality or like just asleep the whole time? Oh! And how soon did this happen after Damian got introduced to the family–a couple months?

I'm so sorry this is so long, but I hope you answer and thank you!!

(I’m going to try and cover all my bases here by going into how exactly Bruce “died,” what went down during the Battle For the Cowl, what the Batkids did while Bruce was gone, and how Bruce came back. Hopefully it all makes sense?? We’ll see how it goes lmao.)

Part 1 - What Happened to Bruce:

So there was this event called Final Crisis (which I won’t go completely into since it would make this post a million times longer than it already is), but the bottom line is that Darkseid wants to overthrow reality and release his Anti-Life Equation, which would overthrow the whole planet and turn everyone into slaves. (If you’re interested in knowing more about the storyline, here’s a Reddit thread that explains it WAY better than I could.) 

What I CAN tell you is that during his final confrontation with Darkseid, Bruce is hit by an Omega Beam and turned into a burnt chicken nugget killed. Poor guy.

Final Crisis #6

Clark and Diana bring the body back to the Batcave and break the news to the Batfamily. Batman #687 covers a good portion of the aftermath such as Bruce’s funeral, the Batfamily grieving, and Dick coming to terms with his new responsibility of becoming Batman.

Batman #687

Part 2 - Battle For the Cowl: 

Musical chairs time, fellas! After word gets out that Batman is gone, Gotham erupts into chaos. Dick doesn’t want to take over the mantle, Tim needs Dick to take over the mantle, and Jason says “fuck it” and takes over the mantle himself because somebody around here has to. He becomes this murderous psychopathic Batman and starts taking out criminals with deadly force because someone’s gotta do the job, so it might as well be him.

Batman: Battle For the Cowl #1

(Okay honestly, this series had some pretty bad characterization overall, which sucks since it’s such an important storyline. Jason is portrayed as this violent psychopath, which...okay, he was kind of insane after the Pit and all, but not to this degree. Personally, I choose to owe the bad characterization to Bruce’s death because as much as Jason resents Bruce for all he’s done, he does still love him and losing him would be devastating, which would exacerbate his already fragile mental health. As for Damian, this happens roughly three years after his first appearance, so we can assume it’s been a few months since he first joined the family. He’s still relatively new at this point, so nobody knows how to write him yet. He ends up being depicted as if his main two personality traits are Bratty and Assassin-Child and that’s it. It’s all just a mess.)

Anyway, Tim tells Dick to become Batman and stop Jason’s reign of terror. Dick says no, so Tim follows Jason’s lead by saying “fuck it” and putting on the cowl himself. He goes to confront Jason, which ends in Jason beating the crap out of him (again) and leaving him for dead after Tim declines his offer to become Jason’s Robin. Dick goes to save Tim and ends up fighting Jason. 

Battle For the Cowl #3

Dick wins, Jason disappears, Tim is fine, and Dick finally gets his head out of his ass and becomes Batman. 

Part 3 - What Happens to Each Batkid While Bruce is “Dead”?:

Dick: 

As I said, Dick becomes the new Batman a month after Bruce’s death. He’s got big shoes to fill, and it takes some time for him to get used to his new role. He and Damian end up flipping around the classic Batman and Robin dynamic, with Batman now as the fun counterpart to Robin’s edginess. Dick, Damian, and Alfred relocate to the penthouse above the Wayne Foundation building, operating out of a secret Bat-Bunker in the basement.

Batman #688

Jason: 

After Battle For the Cowl, Jason is still batshit insane and determined to make Dick’s already stressful life even harder by becoming a supervillain with an ugly costume and an even uglier hairstyle. (I know it’s just because the artist sucked, but still. Jason is horrifying to look at during this time.) He mostly just gets on Dick’s nerves by running around Gotham with his new sidekick Scarlet and killing criminals as Batman and Robin wannabes. Eventually, Dick has Jason committed to Arkham Asylum and he hangs out there until Bruce returns.

Batman and Robin (2009) #5

Tim: 

Tim...doesn’t do great after Bruce’s death, mentally. Dick makes Damian Robin, his reasoning being that Robin is more of a sidekick and he sees Tim as his equal. By making Damian Robin, Dick hopes that it will give him the stability he needs to keep him from straying back toward the “bad” side. (It’s the right move ultimately, although his execution was pretty messed up since he didn’t discuss it with Tim beforehand, but he’s allowed to make mistakes. Dick’s father just died and now he’s in charge of picking up the pieces of their broken family. It’s a lot to handle.) 

Long story short, Tim has a breakdown, realizes that Bruce is alive, dons the Red Robin identity, and cuts ties with his family to travel the world in search of proof. It’s a rough time. 

Red Robin #1

Damian: 

Our little guy becomes Robin! So proud of him! As I explained earlier, Dick makes Damian his Robin with the assumption that it will keep him out of trouble, and he’s right on that account. He mentors Damian, teaching him how to channel his violent instincts into something productive, and it works! Slowly but surely, Damian makes the transition from bratty assassin to actual hero!

Batman and Robin (2009) #22

Cass:

Duke sadly was not introduced at this point in time, so he missed out on all the pandemonium. Cass, however, has been Batgirl for years by now, but she got kind of pushed aside by the writers after Bruce’s death. Bruce disappears shortly after adopting Cass, but once he was “dead,” the writers sort of moved Cass around for a while, not quite knowing what to do with her. First she was with the Outsiders. Then they got disbanded and Cass tried forming a new network of heroes to take over for Batman if needed. Then she helped out in said network during Battle for the Cowl, taking care of a newly ravaged Gotham. Then Cass gave the Batgirl mantle to Stephanie Brown after she became disillusioned with the role, thanks to the loss of her father and mentor. Then Cass picked up and moved to Hong Kong to “follow Bruce’s plans” by continuing whatever work he had set up for her there. It was all very vague and confusing, and Cass more or less got swept under the rug during this time. Thanks, writers.

Batgirl (2009) #1

Part 4 - How Bruce Came Back: 

When the Blackest Night storyline happens, the Justice League realizes that the corpse buried under Bruce’s grave is apparently not the real one and that he’s actually alive out there somewhere! How wild is that! This is further proven by Dick after he places Bruce’s body in a Lazarus Pit to revive, which has the same result because it’s very clearly Not Bruce and they should have listened to Tim from the start.

Batman and Robin (2009) #9

Anyway, what actually happened is that the Omega Beams that Darkseid shot at Bruce didn’t kill him, but rather blasted him back through time to the prehistoric era with his memories wiped. The Omega Energy inside of Bruce ends up catapulting him through various time periods, which is all part of Darkseid’s plan. With each time-hop, Bruce builds up more Omega Energy in his body which, when he gets back to his original time period, will be unleashed and destroy everything.

Batman: The Return of Bruce Wayne #5

It’s been a little under two years since Final Crisis, though in-universe it’s uncertain exactly how long Bruce has been “dead.” We can assume it’s been a year, give or take. The way he comes back is too scientific and complicated for me to understand, so uhhhh the bottom line is that Tim and a few Leaguers save Bruce at the Vanishing Point and the day is saved! Hooray! 

Batman: The Return of Bruce Wayne #6

(If you want to read about how it actually goes down, then I seriously recommend reading Batman: The Return of Bruce Wayne. It’s only six issues, so it’s a quick read and it explains the situation far better than I ever could.)

Bruce eventually reunites with his family after spying on them for a period of time as Insider to see what has changed in his absence:

Bruce Wayne: The Road Home

After that, things quickly settle back into their new normal. Dick and Damian stay on as Batman and Robin. Bruce goes back to being Batman as well, with him handling Batman Incorporated business and Dick continuing as Gotham’s defender. Tim keeps the Red Robin outfit, Steph stays on as Batgirl, and Cass becomes Black Bat. Jason stays in Arkham for a while before filing an appeal to be moved to a regular prison. He kills 82 inmates in less than a week and gets transferred back to Arkham, which he promptly escapes from. It’s a ride, I tell ya.

Aaaaand that’s about it! I hope this answered all of your questions!

[thebreakfastgenie]

☕️ the west wing!

I don't really know if there are words to encompass how I feel about The West Wing. I got into The West Wing around the same time I started studying government and politics, it was my first year of college and it just... rewired my brain. I've never experienced anything quite like that before or since (yes, M*A*S*H is similar, but it's not the same). All I wanted for a solid two or three years was to be Josh Lyman.

I think some people are a little weird about The West Wing but that it is genuinely a very good show. I think the backlash against it is goofy. All the attitudes people try to pin on it existed before the show, in fact most of them were put in the show by the former Clinton staffers who worked on it. Democratic staffers like The West Wing because it says the coolest, sexiest thing you can be is a Democratic White House staffer.

I'm bored by both lionization and vilification of Aaron Sorkin. In my opinion he's treated too much like an auteur and a lot of his signature style on Sports Night and The West Wing is a product of the Sorkin-Schlamme collaboration. (For example: Schlamme came up with the walk-and-talk). What I think Sorkin managed to do with The West Wing, and something I've never really seen done as successfully in any other show, is give day-to-day White House operations the appropriate emotional stakes. The characters live and die by whether a bill gets passed, so the audience does too. There is very little over-the-top TV drama. I'm sure someone other than Sorkin could do this, it's just that as far as I can tell nobody has. John Wells certainly did not; my biggest criticism of the last three seasons (other than sloppy characterization) is that extra drama is added unnecessarily. I felt the same way about several episodes of E.R., so I think this is probably a John Wells thing.

I don't dislike the last three seasons, but they feel like a different show to me, and one I like a lot less. A lot of my favorite things about the first four seasons change in the later seasons and that doesn't make them objectively bad but it does impact my personal enjoyment. I think the election arc gave season 7 in particular something of its own to do and was for the most part very good (there is some sloppiness and artificial drama but considering they also lost an actor mid season, they did okay).

The West Wing is also functionally a workplace drama set at the White House, which in my opinion is the best way to do a political drama. One of the things I find the most fascinating about politics is that our government bodies are all workplaces. These people are coworkers, with all the interpersonal drama that entails. The juxtaposition of how relatable those experiences are with the grandeur of the White House is delicious to me.

I don't really buy into the importance of The West Wing. It got some people interested in politics and that's a good thing, but I don't think it's impact is all that large. It's a TV show. It's also not super useful as an educational tool at this point in my opinion, unless you're teaching late 90s/early 2000s politics, because it's incredibly dated. It still works to watch as a period piece but things have changed a lot.

I also find the cultural perception of The West Wing really amusingly misleading. I don't think people who haven't watched it realize how funny it is. There is a lot of comedy and the show thrives on it. Also, while I don't think it's a flawless show by any means, a lot of the criticisms just... aren't accurate. A central conflict of the show is reconciling progressive beliefs with a need to compromise in order to govern and sometimes the characters feel like shit about it. Sometimes they're called out. I saw someone post screencaps of the scene in season 1 where Justice Crouch calls Bartlet out on moving to the middle saying "but this justice is right," apparently missing that you're supposed to agree with him. Most of the liberal wish fulfillment stuff that gets pinned on Sorkin happened after he left the show. Ultimately where the show fails the most is its repeated insistence that there are good people on both sides, but I understand why people believed that in the early 2000s.

I also think it's really funny how much the Bartlet 1998 campaign mirrors how people wanted the Bernie 2016 campaign to go, but a lot of Bernie Bros hate The West Wing. It vindicates their view of politics a lot!

I think season 2 is the best season, which everyone does because it's incredibly good, but more controversially I think season 1 is a close second. Season 1 of The West Wing feels like it's in its own universe because it was made completely during the Clinton administration and it has a season long arc that I honestly think is stronger than any of the arcs in later seasons, climaxing in Let Bartlet Be Bartlet.

Finally, I know the standard line is Democrats use The West Wing as a coping mechanism, but I had the opposite experience. I basically could not watch it while Trump was in office. Biden got elected and I almost immediately felt like watching it again.

[hesbuckcompton-baby]

Old Money, New World - Eugene Roe x OFC - Chapter 4

Chapter 1 / Chapter 2 / Chapter 3

Summary: As Easy Company heads into Holland, Camille finds herself posted at a nearby hospital, which proves to be far more eventful than expected.

Warnings: Smoking, wound/blood description, language

Word Count: 4k

Tags: @honey-im-emotional

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Eugene sat at their old familiar table in that old familiar pub in Aldbourne, a glass of beer in each hand as he watched Camille fail miserably at darts with some of the other boys. They were enjoying their leave prior to their return to mainland Europe, and she had only just caught up with the Company after hurrying off to visit Elaine and Ruth - the two young women she'd stayed with the first time they were in town.

Gene himself was rather hopeless at darts, he always had been, but upon confessing that she'd never played, Camille had been roped in by Buck and Luz, although all their efforts to teach her to throw had thus far failed. She let out another dismayed cry as her dart missed the board completely, and he laughed as she approached the table, hands covering her face in embarrassment.

"I don't know how they do it!" She confessed, sitting down opposite him with a huff. Her face was flushed bright pink, hair frizzed in the heat of the packed pub. For a moment Eugene froze.

She was beautiful.

This wasn't a new realisation. Hell, he'd been stuck thinking she was beautiful every time he'd seen her for over a year at this point. But every now and then, the light would be just right or she'd smile in a certain way, and the air would be sucked from his lungs with all the elation and adrenaline he'd felt in his very first practice jump.

He passed her a drink, having kept a close eye on her glass whilst she wasn't around. Gene trusted the boys in his company, but he also knew that large supplies of alcohol and men deprived of female attention didn't always go well together. He was just looking out for Camille. He always did.

She took a long sip, white foam lining the top of her lip and making him chuckle. "My re-entry into Europe's been postponed again," She said.

"Oh?" Eugene frowned, but really he was quite relieved. Keeping her off the front line wasn't exactly a bad thing in his mind, although he couldn't help feel guilty about it, as he knew it was where she most wanted to be.

Camille nodded. "Mhm. Found out this morning, Captain Nixon stopped by to let me know. I'm heading over to Holland the day after you, but they're sending me to do hospital work until you finish the upcoming Operation." She sounded slightly bitter. "Still, I suppose hospital work is better than the time they left me in Upottery for a week."

He shrugged, his frown sympathetic. "They know you're skilled, I suppose they just want to keep you safe where they can. From what you've told me, I think your uncle would be at Sink's throat if you got hit."

She supposed he was right. Although she'd never thought him fond of her, her uncle Charles had seemingly become quite attached to Camille in recent months. He'd never married, nor had children of his own, and she reckoned he must've taken pride in helping any of the Whitney family join the war effort, even if it was just the daughter of his estranged half-sister.

Eugene spoke up again. "Have you heard from your family lately?" He asked.

Camille shook her head. "Not since the letter I got from Arthur last month, but I think they were planning something big, so he and Julien are probably all tied up these days."

Gene asked about her family a lot, always making sure they were writing to her and that she was replying in due course. As far as he was concerned, she was the youngest of her siblings. Camille had never spoken of Peter to him, nor to anyone else. Her dead baby brother was something she kept entirely to herself, it was easier to live without him that way - if she created a world in which he'd never existed, she didn't have to miss him.

She inhaled sharply. "I suppose I should call it a night and go pack my stuff," Camille said, standing up from her seat, glass still in hand. She finished her beer - far too quickly if you asked Eugene - and put it back on the table. For a moment, he thought that she was going to leave without another word, but she stepped over to him, leaning down to plant a kiss on his cheek.

"You take care of yourself, Doc," Camille spoke softly, inches away from his face as she smiled, before straightening back up and walking away. Gene's cheeks were burning red, and he grinned to himself a moment before he noticed Babe Heffron wiggling his eyebrows at him from across the room and he cleared his throat roughly, awkwardly trying to avoid eye contact with any of the other boys as he finished off his drink.

-

Camille hadn't been so scared to let the men go without her this time - they'd seen themselves through D-Day, and whilst Operation Market Garden was a big deal, it didn't sound nearly as dangerous. She'd seen them pull through tougher scrapes than this, and she trusted them to get through this one as well.

Within a few days, she herself had arrived in Holland, driven by jeep through the city of Eindhoven. Easy Company must've only been a day or so ahead, as she'd received a letter from George that morning describing the parade they'd encountered, and the city streets were still littered with dutch flags and flowers.

There was comfort in her new position, she found. She was going to be set up at a relatively crude little army hospital, just a mile or two outside Nuenen. If any of the boys were to get seriously hurt upon entering the town, she'd be the one they came to - although frankly, she hoped she wouldn't have to see them if it could only be in dire circumstances.

The hospital turned out not to really be a hospital at all. Camille's brow furrowed as the jeep turned down a narrow lane, pulling to a stop outside a small farm. There was something of a courtyard in the middle, dry mud inlaid with tyre tracks and stacked with crates and boxes around the edges. On one side of the courtyard stood a little brick farmhouse, smoke piping from the chimney, and paint chipping slightly off the open shutters. Next to it was a stable, although the horses themselves had been moved out into the nearby field to make room for more storage. The 'hospital' itself was set up in a long barn, boards laid down on the ground, fresh sheets hung out to dry on the washing line outside. It wasn't exactly the sanitary refuge she'd envisioned, but there was something surprisingly charming about the place, and Camille supposed that must supply some comfort to the men who ended up here.

Upon arrival, she was supplied with her uniform - a light blue button-up dress with a red cross on the breast pocket. It was exactly the kind of uniform she'd always envisioned herself getting to wear in all those years at med school, but now that she was wearing it, it didn't quite feel like it fit.

Camille had worked into the evening - cleaning sheets, re-dressing wounds - and by the time it started to grow dark, she was grateful for a break.

She'd managed to build a rapport with one of the other nurses there by the name of Karoline - she was a few years older than Camille, with caramel skin and hair all pinned up in curlers, which she'd hurriedly put in upon finishing her shift for the night. The two women leant up against a stack of crates outside the barn as Karoline passed her a cigarette, lighting them both with a match before stomping it out with her heel.

"So," She spoke, breathing out a cloud of smoke. "You're a medic, huh? How'd you manage that?"

Camille shrugged, watching the end of her cigarette burn away. "My uncle pulled some strings with the Colonel."

"Ah. Nepotism." Karoline nodded. Upon noticing Camille's frown she chuckled, waving her hand dismissively. "I'm just kidding, doll. You seem a damn good doc, you've got talent."

A smile graced her face, but was quickly stifled as they were interrupted by terrible wailing noises from the end of the drive. Resting her cigarette between her lips, Camille hurried across the courtyard, eyes narrowed as she tried to watch down the unlit lane in the dark.

There was a figure approaching - barely more than a silhouette - wrapped in a coat several sizes too large and letting out choked, painful sobs.

"Careful, Whitney," Karoline warned.

She stepped slightly closer, and as the figure came into the light, Camille's eyes widened.

It was a woman, thin and pale, dried tear lines from where her mascara had run covering her face. She was clutching a little girl to her chest, wrapped up under her coat, and her scalp had been messily shaven, scabbed and bleeding through tufts of light hair.

Camille was frozen for a moment, but quickly broke into action, stomping out her cigarette and calling to Karoline. "Go get the doctor! We're gonna need to clean and dress her wounds."

The nurse hesitated for a moment, brow drawn in distress as she stepped closer to Camille, their faces only inches apart as she spoke in a hushed tone. "The doctor isn't letting these women into the hospital, Whitney."

"What? Why?"

"Those cuts on her head? They're punishment from the Dutch... she slept with a Nazi."

Camille paused. She hated the Nazis. She despised them without an ounce of compassion or sympathy. But the woman standing before her looked so frightened, in so much pain, and even if she was a sympathiser, the shivering toddler in her arms was most certainly an innocent.

"She's got a baby, Karoline," She whispered. "I'm not sending them away. If they can't go to the hospital we'll take them to the stable."

Karoline looked uncertain, but she agreed nonetheless, and hurried off towards the water pump.

Camille extended a hand to the woman. "Come with me," She smiled. "You speak English?"

The woman made to follow her, but shook her head weakly. "Geen Engels," She sniffed.

She nodded, guiding the pair into the stables, and gesturing for her to sit down atop one of the wooden supply crates. The little girl crawled out from inside her mother's coat, fiddling with her chubby little fingers. It was clear that the woman was exhausted, and Camille suspected she must've walked here all the way from Eindhoven.

Karoline returned minutes later with a bowl of water, and set it down as they both scrounged the supply crates for bandages and gauze. Camille's hand wrapped around a little green bottle of disinfectant and she smiled, pulling it out and turning back to the woman.

Her cuts were messy and uneven - some shallow grazes, some deep gauges where chunks of flesh had been lost. The little girl sat quiet and polite beside her, wispy blonde hair tied with ribbons in two short plaits, and wide blue eyes that seemed to shine even in the dim light of the stables. If Camille had to guess, she suspected that this child was probably a result of the woman's fraternization, as she couldn't be much more than two or three years old. Still, she was sweet, and both Camille and the child's mother couldn't help but smile at her gibberish babbling.

She dressed the cuts as best she could, but even once the woman's head was cleaned and bandaged, she couldn't help but feel that it was wrong to send her on her way. Of course, they couldn't offer her a bed, the doctor would surely find out, and that would end badly for all of them. Camille looked down at the woman's feet, her shoes threadbare and breaking at the soles.

"Here," She spoke. Crouching down, she began to unlace her nurse's shoes, a pair of practically unworn Oxfords. "Take these,"

The woman seemed to understand what she was offering, and began to shake her head.

"Please, take them." Camille insisted.

She smiled, teary-eyed as she put on the new shoes, which clearly provided relief to her sore feet. Karoline approached then, gently handing over some tinned peaches and a packet of biscuits. It wasn't much, but it was realistically all they could steal without anyone noticing. Besides, Camille still had her field boots with the uniform in her bag.

They'd snuck the woman and her daughter back down towards the road under the shadows of some nearby trees, and she had hugged them both, thanking them profusely in what little English she could muster, which was strained and accented on her tongue. Camille had gone to bed that night beaming, confident that, although she may not have realised it, this was the help she'd wanted to give her whole life.

-

It had taken longer than was probably reasonable for her to explain away her mysteriously vanishing nurse's shoes to the doctor the next morning, but he'd given up arguing with an irritated sigh when Karoline butted in with some wild story about them getting carried away by some farm animals in the night, which she swore was true, and had been exactly as strange as it sounded. The hospital was busier today, and she grew more anxious as the morning went on when she realised it was the day that Easy Company was set to enter Nuenen.

Unfortunately, she hadn't had to wait long before wounded men began to pile in, taking up every bed and bench they could spare. Camille darted about, administering help and trying to keep track of who exactly they had bleeding under the barn's thatched roof, when a familiar shout from outside shattered her focus.

"Doctor!" A Cajun accent yelled from the courtyard, and despite the chaos, she couldn't help but smile.

This smile, however, quickly subsided when a pair of men carried in Buck Compton, who was lying uncomfortably on his stomach atop a piece of wood, blood seeping through dressings on his ass.

"Aw, Buck, not you too," Camille teased, almost breathless as she hurried to gather bandages.

"Just carryin' on the Easy tradition," He grunted as he was positioned on a bed. "Good to see you, Doc,"

"Good to see you too, although I wish it was under circumstances where I didn't have to take your pants off,"

Buck laughed at this, wheezing a little from the pressure of lying on his chest. Eugene had come in too by now, and he sent Camille a brief, warm smile of greeting before they both got to work.

Within the hour, they'd patched Buck up nicely, and all that was left to do was wait for a transport to take him somewhere to rest and recuperate properly.

Gene finished washing his hands, sighing as he dried them on a nearby towel. "Well, I'd better be going."

Camille frowned. "What? No, stay for a little while, you need to rest too, I'll make coffee,"

He looked sad to leave, but he shook his head nonetheless. "I can't, Camille. I'm sorry. Randleman's MIA, I wanna be there when he gets back in case he's hurt."

Her breath caught for a moment. No one had told her Bull was missing, and she certainly hadn't missed Gene's pause, as if he'd almost said 'if he gets back'. Hell, if she could she'd have gone out looking for him herself, but someone needed to keep Buck company, and she was the last person to abandon her post.

"Alright," Camille nodded. "Alright, yeah, you should go. I'll see you in a couple days, ok?"

Eugene didn't say anything, but he pulled her close into a tight hug, squeezing her shoulders as his breath ruffled her hair slightly. She had no way of knowing what had happened in Nuenen, but she figured it must've been bad from the way he clung to her.

Once he'd left, she headed back inside, crossing the room towards Buck's bed and noting the untouched plate of food beside him.

"Not hungry?" Camille asked.

He shook his head, propping himself up on his elbows with a grunt. "Nah, I hate hospital food, won't touch the stuff."

She frowned slightly, taking a seat beside him. "Well I skipped lunch, so if you won't eat it, I will."

Camille picked up the plate, shovelling some of the beans into her mouth as Buck watched on. When her face began to contort, he let out a cackle, grinning at her distaste.

"Holy God, what is this?" She spoke through a full mouth, lips puckered in a disgusted grimace. "Even Malarkey cooks better than this,"

"I think you remember Malarkey's cooking better than I do," He smiled.

"Maybe so," Camille admitted, spitting the food into the bin when no one was looking.

It was quiet for a moment before Buck spoke. "I think it did Roe some good, seeing you today. He's been quiet lately."

"He's always quiet," She pointed out.

"True. But I mean real quiet. He gets like that when you ain't around, y'know."

Camille didn't quite know what to say to that. She supposed she'd always wondered what Eugene was like around the boys, but if anything she'd expected him to be less quiet. Still, she'd be dammed if she let Buck be privy to her feelings towards the medic, that would be way too much ammo for the other men to use, even if it was all in harmless fun.

"How'd the attack go?" She asked. She was changing the subject on purpose, and judging by Buck's face, he could tell.

"You're in love with him aren't you?" He asked, refusing to take her bait.

"Jesus, Buck, no! I am not in love with Eugene," Camille cried.

"You like him though,"

"I like him because he's my friend," She chuckled, shaking her head slightly.

"You're friends with Luz and me too, but you don't light up like a Christmas tree whenever we enter a room," Buck teased.

"Yeah, well, that's because you're fucking annoying," Camille said, grinning as he let out a laugh at that. Standing up, she made to clear away his disgusting dinner, when she paused.

"D'you think Bull will be ok?" She asked.

Buck shrugged, his expression clouded and somewhat bleak. "He's a tough son of a bitch. He'll pull through, I wouldn't worry too much."

She nodded slowly, considering his response, and then walked away.

-

A week had passed since then. Buck had gone away to rest up and heal, and Randleman had returned safe and sound, a fact which had certainly risen the men's spirits. Camille had rejoined Easy Company as soon as Compton had shipped out, and was now sat with Babe and Guarnere on the front steps of some village hall, which they'd all set up around in various billets.

She chuckled as Bill went on and on with his story about some incident from his childhood in Philadelphia, taking a sip from the bottle of beer they were sharing before passing it to Babe.

"Aw, no way!" Babe cried. "There's no way in hell you got away with that!"

"I'm tellin' ya, I'm tellin' ya," Bill stressed. "He had no idea I was ever even there,"

Heffron shook his head with a disbelieving scoff, looking to Camille. "Can you believe this crap?"

"Hey, I'm not judging," She laughed. "Gonorrhoea's tyre slashing days are none of my business,"

Bill let out an exasperated sigh at her use of his nickname, slapping his hands on his knees before snatching the beer from Babe's hand. He opened his mouth to protest, but his attention was caught by an approaching figure.

"Heya, Doc!" He chirped.

"Afternoon," Gene greeted with a small smile, strolling up to Camille and handing her a letter. "This just came for you,"

She took it with a grateful nod, frowning at the handwriting on the envelope. It was her mother's. Camille tore into it, eyes scanning over the eccentric scrawl as she processed the words put before her. Without a word, she leapt to her feet, hurrying off inside, evidently upset.

"You should go after her," Bill told Eugene, all three of the men watching her go with concerned frowns.

"Me?"

Heffron nodded in agreement. "C'mon Doc, everyone knows you're her favourite, even Luz has had to admit it."

Gene didn't quite know what to say to that, but with gentle eyes and cautious sympathy he went after her. Camille had scurried back up to her room, and was stood by the window, chewing on her lip as she read the letter over and over again. In the light breaching the thin curtains, he could see her eyes watering, threatening to spill.

He paused in the doorway, hoping not to interrupt or startle, but she noticed him anyway. She sniffed loudly, holding up the paper before letting her hand go limp and fall against her thigh.

"It's from my mother," Camille said, struggling to mask the distressed inflexion in her voice. "She's just going on and on about the taxidermy fox she keeps on the mantle, says it's lost an eye," She joked, but as she forced a chuckle, a tear rolled down her cheek.

He stepped into the room, frowning with concern. "You ok?"

"Yeah, yeah," Camille nodded.

Eugene reached out to touch her arm, fingers barely grazing her sleeve, but she could still feel the warmth of his palm. "Are you sure?"

She looked up at him, lip quivering slightly as she shook her head. "Julien sent her a letter... Albert's been shot."

He inhaled sharply, letting out a sympathetic sigh. "How's he holding up?"

Camille shrugged. "I dunno, I- Julien says he's been taken off to a proper hospital,"

"So he's getting proper care," Eugene assured her.

"Or it's really serious."

He was silent then. Of all his training, of all the countless men he'd had to comfort and help, why was it so hard for him to reassure her? They were still for what felt like an eternity, quiet hanging in the air like cobwebs in an abandoned cellar.

"C'mere," Eugene muttered, finally finding his ability to act. He pulled Camille into his chest, his cheek resting on her head, as he wasn't all that much taller than her. With one hand holding her back, he let the other rest in her hair, stroking it gently as she squeezed him tight.

They stood there for a while, and he could feel her heartbeat gradually slow against him as she calmed down. Camille had begun to fiddle slightly with the creases on the back of Eugene's shirt, making him smile.

"Thank you," She sniffed again, voice barely more than a whisper as they broke the hug. Some colour had returned to her cheeks, and her eyes were far less watery.

"Always," He smiled, hand still resting on her side. "D'you want me to go see what I can find out about your brother? I can try to track down which hospital he's in."

Camille nodded hurriedly. "Yeah. Thank you, Eugene,"

For a moment, she thought he would simply leave quietly, but he turned back at the last second, gently placing a kiss on her forehead. She wanted to beam then - she wanted to smile and hug him again and kiss him right back - but really she was far too upset to do much of anything. She reached up to touch the hand he'd placed to her cheek, brushing her thumb over the back of his palm, and then she let him go.

Camille let Eugene walk out, even when everything in her wanted to hold him again. Because she knew that he'd always walk back in again when she needed him. Always.

[rose-tinted-juls]

juliana's fav tv shows updated: 26.07.2021.

la casa de papel / money heist (2017-) nationality: spanish created by: álex pina main actors: úrsula corberó, álvaro morte, itziar ituño, pedro alonso, miguel herrán, jaime lorente, esther acebo, alba flores short summary (imdb): "an unusual group of robbers attempt to carry out the most perfect robbery in spanish history - stealing 2.4 billion euros from the royal mint of spain." seasons: 4 - (season 5 is coming in september + december 2021) why i love it (in a few words): it's thrilling, all the characters are perfectly written, i love listening to spanish speech, the actors are awesome, SO INCREDIBLE PLOT, uncountable twists, i got attached so fast, i binge watched it, it never feels forced

band of brothers (2001) nationality: american created by: tom hanks, steven spielberg main actors: damian lewis, ron livingston, ross mccall, rick gomez, james madio, kirk acevedo, neal mcdonough, scott grimes, dexter fletcher, donnie wahlberg short summary (imdb): "the story of easy company of the u.s. army 101st airborne division, and their mission in world war ii europe, from operation overlord, through v-j day." - based on the book band of brothers by stephen e. ambrose seasons: 1 why i love it (in a few words): it's ww2 and i'm a huge ww2 enthusiast, i love hbo war, it shows the good and the bad, we follow the whole journey of these soldiers and it's amazing, the actors are absolutely incredible, their friendships are 100/10, the cinematography is beautiful, it's based on a true story

downton abbey (2010-) nationality: english created by: julian fellowes main actors: hugh bonneville, maggie smith, michelle dockery, dan stevens, robert james-collier, allen leech, penelope wilton, matthew goode, lily james short summary (imdb): "a chronicle of the lives of the british aristocratic crawley family and their servants in the early twentieth century." seasons: 6 + 1 movie (the second movie comes in december 2021) why i love it (in a few words): it has phenomenal actors, the plot is exciting-thrilling, there are twists you don't expect, so many love stories and i love them, fantastic characters, it's often so funny i can't stop laughing, dame maggie smith and her performance as the dowager is just incredible and i love her, costumes on point, tom branson o.o

broadchurch (2013-2017) nationality: british created by: chris chibnall main actors: david tennant, olivia colman, jodie whittaker, arthur darvill short summary (imdb): "the murder of a young boy in a small coastal town brings a media frenzy, which threatens to tear the community apart." seasons: 3 why i love it (in a few words): david tennant, his scottish accent i can't-, olivia colman, their duo oh my god these two together are something extraordinary, it's such a thrilling show wow, SO MANY PLOT TWISTS, cinematography is phenomenal and gorgeous, it's so funny at times oh lord (especially david), it's impossible to stop watching

the pacific (2010) nationality: american created by: tom hanks, steven spielberg main actors: joe mazzello, jon seda, james badge dale, rami malek, ashton holmes short summary (imdb): "the pacific theatre of world war ii, as seen through the eyes of several young marines." seasons: 1 why i love it (in a few words): hbo war, it's ww2 and i'm such an enthusiast of it, joe mazzello is incredible oh my, it's a bit graphic (for some people it's too graphic and i can see why) but i love it, it makes you feel you're there fighting and like wow, actually all the actors are amazing in it, we see three different story lines so we get to know different aspects of the whole thing

the crown (2016-) nationality: british created by: peter morgan main actors: claire foy, matt smith, olivia colman, tobias menzies, vanessa kirby, helena bonham carter, josh o'connor, emma corrin short summary (imdb): "follows the political rivalries and romance of queen elizabeth ii's reign and the events that shaped the second half of the twentieth century." seasons: 4 - (season 5 and 6 are in the making) why i love it (in a few words): i've always been interested in queen elizabeth's life, this is a look inside the royal family that you don't often have, the actors are SO AMAZING, honestly sometimes it's so funny and then the next minute it's heartbreaking, it teaches me more about them than anything else, i guess it gives you their point of view so you can understand them a lil bit better, as a child i loved the british royal family so baby me is happy inside when i watch it

the falcon and the winter soldier (2021) nationality: american created by: malcolm spellman - stan lee main actors: anthony mackie, sebastian stan, wyatt russell, daniel brühl short summary (imdb): "following the events of 'avengers: endgame', sam wilson / falcon and bucky barnes / winter soldier team up in a global adventure that tests their abilities - and their patience." seasons: 1 why i love it (in a few words): i'm a huge marvel fan, my fav characters are sam and bucky, SEBASTIAN STAN, it's funny (honestly which marvel movie/series isn't?), the cinematography is gorgeous, the plot is great, fight scenes on point

biohackers (2020-) nationality: german created by: christian ditter main actors: luna wedler, jessica schwarz, adrian julius tillmann short summary (imdb): "a fast-paced thriller following medical student mia akerlund who discovers the use of highly advanced biohacking technology in her university town." seasons: 2 why i love it (in a few words): exciting, plays in a city i know, plot twists, the cinematography is amazing, a beautiful show honestly, the plot is interesting and one of a kind imo, the actors are pretty great

the mandalorian (2019-) nationality: american created by: jon favreau main actors: pedro pascal short summary (imdb): "the travels of a lone bounty hunter in the outer reaches of the galaxy, far from the authority of the new republic." seasons: 2 - (season 3 is coming) why i love it (in a few words): i love star wars and the star wars universe, pedro pascal is amazing, honestly i fell in love with pedro just by his voice literally without even knowing his face, BABY YODA, the character development, exciting plot, pretty awesome fight scenes, great actors

the queen's gambit (2020) nationality: american created by: scott frank, allan scott main actors: anya taylor joy, thomas brodie-sangster, harry melling, jacob fortune-lloyd short summary (imdb): "orphaned at the tender age of nine, prodigious introvert beth harmon discovers and masters the game of chess in 1960s usa. but child stardom comes at a price." seasons: 1 why i love it (in a few words): cinematography is beautiful, anya taylor joy is gorgeous, and she's such a talent oh my, i love chess, the plot, TBS is in it, it's a show you can't not binge watch it just pulls you in

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peaky blinders (2013-) nationality: british created by: steven knight main actors: cillian murphy, paul anderson, helen mccrory, joe cole, finn cole short summary (imdb): "a gangster family epic set in 1900s england, centering on a gang who sew razor blades in the peaks of their caps, and their fierce boss tommy shelby." seasons: 5 - (season 6 is coming) why i love it (in a few words): i love mob stuff in general, so amazing actors oh my, cillian murphy, helen mccrory, it's so dark i love it, plot plot plot, the soundtrack is phenomenal (especially when it's arctic monkeys shhh), it's british (yay)

[creambunnie]

First Love

ONEWE - Jin Yonghoon // angst , fluff

a/n : this fic was inspired by ONEWE's song IF. you can listen to it while you read this long imagine! enjoy~

.

you were swinging your keys with your finger as you stepped out of a bookstore. your clumsy self accidentally dropped the keys which slid and hit a lady's feet.

your eyes widened as you quickly jogged to the lady to collect your keys and also apologise.

the lady bent down to pick them up and quickly stood back up before scanning the area for the owner.

you waved slightly at her and bowed a little.

"ah sorry, that's mine.". you told shyly.

the lady smiled and passed them back to you.

"be careful~" she chirped as she walked away from you.

you gave an embarrassed smile and watched her back moving further away from you. she was a beautiful lady...

you were about to go back to your spot earlier when you saw a familiar figure. a face too familiar to ignore.

the lady gave the guy a peck on his cheek before wrapping her arm around his.

the guy almost turned around to look at you but you quickly pulled up your hood and backfaced the couple.

.

.

Jin Yonghoon. your first love .

you tried taking calm breaths. you turned back around only to see the empty streets. you chuckled at yourself .

no matter how much you've moved on. your first love will always have a special place in your heart.

~

you wiped the last set of windows before quickly sitting at the counter.

you were a florist at a small shop owned by your mother. she trusted you to operate it on your own. she would come down sometimes too. your mother mostly did her admin works at home, while you monitor the shop.

you checked the clock on the wall.

2 minutes before he passes by your flower shop .

yeah, you had a crush on this guy, he would pass by your shop every morning at exactly 10am to go to the music academy he worked at.

1 minute.

.

you took a deep breath when you saw his handsome face.

how can someone be so ethereal ? he's not human. he's an angel.

your silent admiration was interrupted as you panicked .

he suddenly turned to walk towards your shop. yes , YOUR SMALL FLOWER SHOP.

*wait wait wait what is happeninggggg* you screamed in your mind as your crush entered your shop.

"we--welcome~ how may I help you?". you stuttered.

your crush flashed an attractive smile and scanned the shop.

"i'm looking for flowers that are suitable for a birthday gift!". he explained.

you quickly thought of some flowers combination and suggested them to him.

"ah this is beautiful! i hope she likes it!". your crush exclaimed as he agreed with your suggestion right away.

you felt your heart tugged. ahh he has someone already. of course. he is this attractive, wouldn't make sense if he wasn't dating anyone.

you cleared your throat and straightened up .

"would you like to write a card for your girlfriend?". you asked as you prepared some cards choices.

you looked up quickly when you heard him laugh.

shit. even his laugh is beautiful.

but why was he laughing ?

he calmed down after a few seconds and shook his head.

"this is not for my girlfriend. uhm i don't have one ? this is actually for my teacher. she used to teach me at the academy when i was still a student there.". he explained.

you felt your face warmed up from embarrassment. you slowly nodded and slid some cards to him.

"ahh, sorry. you can choose any cards . they're all the same price. ".

your crush smirked before picking out a card .

.

"i'm Yonghoon by the way. Jin Yonghoon.". your crush introduced himself as he paid for the flowers.

your eyes widened at his bold move and cleared your throat for the nth time.

"uhm i--i'm y/n . y/s/n y/n. thank you for buying flowers from here.". you awkwardly stammered.

Yonghoon gave a cute smile and nodded.

"no problem! i've always been curious about this shop. this shop is as beautiful as its owner.". Yonghoon teased with a wink.

you bit your lips, refraining yourself from smiling too widely.

Yonghoon chuckled at your reaction.

"i hope we get to see each other more in the future, y/n . thank you!". Yonghoon said one last time before exiting the shop.

you stood there for a few moments, trying to process what just happened.

.

of course you knew his name. in this small neighbourhood, Yonghoon was like a celebrity.

he was not only good-looking. he was also talented. Yonghoon's voice is so beautiful, you would feel all sorts of emotions listening to him sing.

Yonghoon was also kind-hearted. he would help the neighbourhood kids when they need any . he was just the guy in the neighbourhood.

Yonghoon was famous among the aunties. they would always try to matchmake Yonghoon with their daughters. but Yonghoon would always turn them down politely.

and that was your wonderful first ever face to face encounter with Jin Yonghoon.

~

a year later , after getting to know more about each other , Yonghoon confessed his feelings for you.

you too told him about your feelings and the two of you started being a couple.

your routine after being a couple wasn't that different than when you became close friends.

you would still visit him from time to time at the academy to have lunch together.

Yonghoon would also drop by the flower shop every morning to greet you .

the only difference was , you would hang out at Yonghoon's place more and even sleep over at his house.

your houses were only about 20 minutes away from each other but Yonghoon said his house was always open for you.

Yonghoon was that clingy boyfriend, and truthfully, he wanted you to just move in with him. he loved it when he has someone to accompany him at home because he lived alone.

but you didn't want to move out of your parents' house just like that. besides, you still had to help your mother with the flower shop stuffs.

although lowkey the amount of time you stayed at Yonghoon's house was way more than you staying at your own. 😆

.

you enjoyed every single time you've spent with Yonghoon.

he was just the sweetest boyfriend ever.

everytime you had free time together, Yonghoon would always suggest for you two to cuddle .

he just loved admiring you silently as he held you close to him.

Yonghoon would always whisper sweet words to you when you two hang out together .

.

it was a weekend, as usual, you were at Yonghoon's house.

an activity the both of you would sometimes do together was watching a movie .

you were sat in between Yonghoon's legs, back against his chest. Yonghoon had his arms around your waist .

something you loved about your movie sessions was Yonghoon's cute habits.

he would play with your hair and massage your head gently. or he would leave soft pecks on your clothed shoulders.

Yonghoon just won't waste any time to show his love to you.

you would giggle when it tickled and Yonghoon would leave double pecks to tease you.

"hmmm babe ? i'm kind of hungry... i feel like eating some jjapaghetti...". you pouted as you turned to your boyfriend.

Yonghoon chuckled at your cuteness and booped your nose with his.

"shall we go to the convenience store together then?". Yonghoon suggested cutely.

you immediately nodded your head. Yonghoon ruffled your hair lovingly before the two of you went out for food.

convenience store dates was also a common thing in your relationship.

the two of you didn't really care about where you eat, as long as the two of you could eat together.

you loved experimenting new food combinations with Yonghoon.

if it was good, the both of you would get super excited and continue eating the same combination of food again and again until you're sick of it.

if it was bad , the two of you would play rock paper scissors where the loser had to finish up the gross combination.

but Yonghoon was a softie. he would either let you win easily or eat some for you when you really lost after a few rounds.

"cheese , ramyeon , egg , collaboration!". Yonghoon exclaimed as he mixed all those ingredients together.

he saw a video of this combination and he thought it looked good so he wanted to try it.

you settled with your favourite jjapaghetti and some spicy sausages.

.

aside from your cuddle and convenience store dates , you also spend time together at the music academy which Yonghoon worked at.

Yonghoon was specifically a vocal teacher but he could also play some instruments including the piano and guitar.

you two would hang out at his studio when he had no classes.

during this dates , Yonghoon would either show you some works that he was working on as a producer or sing you songs.

sometimes it would be cute spontaneous songs. sometimes it would be your favourite songs.

either way, you loved it when Yonghoon sings. his voice was just out of this world . he was your favourite singer.

.

all those good times confused you when one day Yonghoon suddenly came back home and acted differently .

his usual warm greetings were short and cold.

it had been about 2 months since the both of you had spent time together like usual.

you had been a bit busy with the flower shop. your mother finally had the opportunity to extend her brand and open up another branch for her flower shop at another neighbourhood.

of course you had to help her with lots of things. but those were settled and you finally had the time to visit Yonghoon again.

Yonghoon knew about this achievement and even bought a gift for your mother to congratulate her.

maybe the 2 months of not seeing each other properly made you both a bit distant. but your feelings for Yonghoon was still as strong as ever.

you thought maybe he was just tired from work and wanted to rest.

but your usual fun dinner was dull. Yonghoon ate quickly before staying in his room for the whole night.

you wanted to ask him about his day. you were worried. you were scared at his sudden change in behaviour.

but you thought to yourself to only think of good things and act normal.

you cleaned up the living room before joining Yonghoon on his bed.

you gently slid onto your side of the bed . Yonghoon's back was facing you. you pouted before scooting closer to your boyfriend and backhugging him.

Yonghoon stayed still and let you hold him.

"i missed you....". you gently whispered as you buried your face against his warm back.

Yonghoon didn't respond . you supposed he was already asleep.

~

the next few days, Yonghoon was a bit better . maybe he was just tired with work the other day.

"babe,, do you want to go to the convenienve store together ?". you asked softly.

Yonghoon sighed before nodding.

you interwined your fingers together like usual on your way to the store.

you didn't know if it was just you but his hand felt ....cold.

his entire presence felt cold.

you shook your head and tried your best to act normally.

your usual chaotic store date was silent. you tried swallowing your food down together with the tears that were threatening to fall.

why ? why was Yonghoon suddenly acting like this ?

you felt like he was forcing himself to spend time with you. you felt like he didn't feel the special spark between the both of you anymore.

you felt like... he didn't love you anymore. no maybe that was too far..

you didn't know. you wanted to know. but you're sure if you were to ask him about it now, you couldn't handle it. your emotions were too unstable.

you cleared your throat and reached out for his cold hand gently..

"babe, i don't think i'm sleeping over at your house tonight. and don't worry you don't need to walk me home... i know you're tired.". you said carefully.

Yonghoon only looked at you with a raised eyebrow. "really ? ahh we should get going then before it gets darker.". he replied.

you thought your normal stubborn clingy boyfriend would still insist on walking you home.

but at the junction where you usually separate, he really bid you goodbye and walked away quickly before you could hug or greet him back properly.

you blinked in confusion at his actions. Yonghoon didn't even turn back to look at you.

you were frozen on your spot. was this really happening to you ?

unnoticingly, tears flowed down your cheeks. soon, you started sobbing in the middle of the empty streets.

you covered your face with your palms as your cries got louder.

the usual Yonghoon would whine when you say you weren't staying over. the usual Yonghoon would still walk you home no matter how hard you try to convince him that it was okay.

maybe the usual Yonghoon wasn't feeling the same as before. maybe the usual Yonghoon was tired of loving you.

maybe the usual Yonghoon was gone. you didn't even know who he was anymore.

~

Yonghoon noticed how in the span of only 3 days, your part of the wardrobe was becoming emptier.

he thought you were just reorganising things, but soon even your toiletries and other little things usually in his house was nowhere to be seen.

Yonghoon felt that his house was a bit emptier with most of your things gone.

he was confused. he wanted to ask you. why ?

but he was confused with himself too...

.

Yonghoon was in the shower while you were preparing some breakfast. just for him .

you scanned the house again. absorbing all the memories that you've spent together with Yonghoon.

you walked towards the coffee table and reached for his phone.

you scrolled through his contacts and stopped when you reached yours .

♡ My Love 🌸 ♡

you bit your lips and sighed before pressing the delete button.

you placed Yonghoon's phone back carefully before carrying all your remaining things.

*i guess this will be the last* you thought as you walked slowly to the entrance.

you were about to unlock the front door when you heard his cold voice calling out your name.

"y/n ...".

you mustered all your courage before turning around to look at Yonghoon.

there he was, standing at his spacious living room. looking as handsome as ever. looking as soft as ever. but he looked cold , like never.

"why are you doing all of this ? ". Yonghoon asked with a slight frown.

you looked at Yonghoon in disbelief before approaching him slowly.

you tried your best to hold in your tears.

"are you, seriously asking that Jin Yonghoon?". you asked in a hushed tone.

Yonghoon's frown dipped deeper. he still didn't understand what was wrong.

"why are you doing this ? why are you cleaning up your stuffs ? why did you ,, why did you delete your number from my phone ? what's happening ?".

Yonghoon bombarded you with questions, in a tone as if he was the victim now. as if he was the one who was being hurt.

your palms curled into fists as you neared him . your tears were now trickling down your cheeks freely.

"you really have the heart to ask those questions ? why am i doing this ? i am doing this because i feel like i don't know you anymore. i feel like you're forced to spend time with me. you started acting cold towards me since those 2 months.". you sniffed and wiped your face harshly with your sleeve.

"i tried thinking of only good things, i thought you just needed some rest. but it lasted for a month. a month Yonghoon ! i'm hurt. it feels like you don't love me anymore....". you continued before pausing for a while as your cries echoed in the living room.

Yonghoon only stood there, his face a bit shocked. but even after a few moments, he didn't reply nor deny your words.

you looked at him with a sad smile and chuckled before shaking your head.

" i cleared my stuffs bit by bit , to help you forget about me slowly. so you won't get hurt. so you don't have to go through what i had to... i deleted my contact, so that you won't be hurt if you accidentally see my name. im just , trying to delete my life out of yours, so that you won't be in pain.". .

you swallowed your saliva forcefully as you reached your hands out to hold his cold ones for the last time.

"thank you for loving me these past 3 years , Yonghoon. thank you for all the great memories. thank you for everything. but i think it is finally time for us to separate. goodbye love. goodbye my first love..".

you squeezed his hands before leaving him alone as you walked out of his house. not once turning back.

Yonghoon stared at your back walking away. his voice stuck in his throat. he wanted to call your name out again, but instead , he only managed a sad sob.

Yonghoon slowly sat down and pulled his knees to his chest as loud sobs started filling his now empty house.

it hurt him.

in those 2 months of not seeing each other as much, Yonghoon suddenly started doubting his feelings for you .

he didn't know how it started. Yonghoon just started feeling empty everytime you texted. everytime you called.

Yonghoon thought loving you for these 3 years will lead him to love you forever... but his heart just didn't beat as fast as the first time he talked to you.

he thought it was just his mind playing tricks on him.

Yonghoon tried figuring out himself this past month. he tried to treat you as usual, but he felt fake.

Yonghoon didn't want to lie to himself. he didn't want to give you high hopes .

the day he thought he finally understood himself , you decided to leave him for good.

it hurt him that he hurt you.

Yonghoon didn't realise how selfish he was . he wanted to figure himself out but he was hurting you.

all these while, he thought you were just going to think of the good memories. but he didn't realise , he was actually giving you painful memories too.

it was scary. love .

just when you think you'll love someone forever , just when you think someone will love you forever,

the love fades.

after leaving him , you didn't even try to get updates about Yonghoon or his life.

your parents knew about what happened and respected your decision to move away from that small yet precious neighbourhood.

you ultimately decided that it was best for you to leave that place to clear your mind.

you planned to take care of the new branch of your mother's flower shop at the other neighbourhood.

you asked your parents to never tell Yonghoon about your whereabouts if he ever asks. you doubt it though. he didn't care about you anymore, right ?

~

your long train of thoughts was interrupted with a gentle pat on your head.

"hey babe, i'm done buying my books! oh--- why are you crying ?". your fiance, Jongin, cut his own sentence when he saw your face covered with tears.

you jumped in surprise and quickly wiped your face with the sleeves of your hoodie.

"ahh i just thought of some things... don't worry...". you replied softly.

Jongin gave a cute smile and ruffled your hair.

"you know you can always tell me your troubles. hmm what do you want to eat for dinner?".

you grinned at Jongin's words and hummed before answering, " i feel like eating jjapaghetti and spicy sausages tonight.".

Jongin raised eyebrow and chuckled before wrapping an arm around your shoulder as the two of you walked to the nearest convenience store.

"i thought you didn't like jjapaghetti?". Jongin asked in a confused tone.

you scrunched up your nose at his cuteness.

"it's not that i don't like it... i just don't feel like eating it most of time. but this time i really crave for some good jjapaghetti!". you replied cutely.

Jongin giggled at your response and pinched your cheeks . "alright,, we'll eat some jjapaghetti then!".

~

you were glad Yonghoon was living his life happily with his new love.

you didn't want to be selfish , but you hoped he still remembered your happy memories together after all these while.

.

indeed , no matter how much you've moved on, despite the fact that you're already in love with someone else ,

your first love will always have a special place in your heart.

.

.

a/n : hope you guys liked this fic for our angel Yonghoon💕 ngl , i cried ¾ of the time while writing this 🤡

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LIGHT OF LIFE 215

John 1:4

SATAN’S STRUCTURE 22: FASHION 4

1Pe 3:3-4 LET YOUR TRUE BEAUTY COME FROM YOUR INNER PERSONALITY, not a focus on the external. For LASTING BEAUTY COMES FROM A GENTLE AND PEACEFUL SPIRIT, WHICH IS PRECIOUS IN GOD’S SIGHT and is much more important than the outward adornment of elaborate hair, jewelry, and fine clothes. TPT

We spoke last time about Mordecai and Haman and we will get back to their story in a while but let’s discuss another response of a Self-Conscious Man after eating the fruit: SELFISHNESS.

Gen 3:11-12 "How did you know you were naked?" God asked. "Did you eat any fruit from that tree in the middle of the garden?" "IT WAS THE WOMAN YOU PUT HERE WITH ME," THE MAN SAID. "SHE GAVE ME SOME OF THE FRUIT, AND I ATE IT." CEV

It is not so bad if you try to look good and not face reprimand in certain issues, but when you don’t care about putting other people down just to gain more approval for yourself, that’s bad, beloved.

Now, how pathetic that instead of defending or taking the blame on behalf of his wife (family), the man readily denounces her on judgment day, as though she doesn’t really mean that much to him.

Deut 28:56 THE MOST TENDER AND DELICATE WOMAN AMONG YOU – so delicate that she would not so much as touch the ground with her foot – will be SELFISH toward the husband that’s she loves and toward her son or daughter NLT

Read the above [and other associated verses] carefully and see that this was one of the Curses uttered against anyone who “carelessly” disobeyed God’s divine Laws and Commandments.

Deu 28:15 “But IF YOU IGNORE the LORD your God and are NOT CAREFUL to keep ALL His COMMANDMENTS AND STATUTES I am giving you today, THEN ALL THESE CURSES will come upon you IN FULL FORCE: NET

Let’s digress a little here: was this curse not written by Moses to the people, well over 2000 years after Adam?

Then why did it seem to TAKE EFFECT with the first man and woman in the beginning?

Heb 13:8 JESUS CHRIST NEVER CHANGES! HE IS THE SAME YESTERDAY, TODAY, AND FOREVER. CEV

In heaven, we will see the Laws written there and realize that they were never really the laws of Moses but of God and have always been from eternity to eternity.

Jesus attests to this truth.

Mat 5:17-18 "DON'T EVER THINK that I came to set aside Moses' Teachings or the Prophets. I DIDN'T COME TO SET THEM ASIDE BUT TO MAKE THEM COME TRUE. I CAN GUARANTEE THIS TRUTH: Until the earth and the heavens disappear, NEITHER A PERIOD NOR A COMMA WILL DISAPPEAR FROM MOSES' TEACHINGS BEFORE EVERYTHING HAS COME TRUE. GW

So, as soon as Adam and Eve [carelessly] disobeyed God’s Commandment, the Curse of SELFISHNESS takes effect immediately, even without saying it, as said above in Deut. 28:56.

Deu 28:53-54 Because of the hardships your enemies will make you suffer during the blockade, YOU WILL EAT THE FLESH OF YOUR OWN CHILDREN, the sons and daughters, whom the LORD your God has given you. EVEN THE MOST TENDER AND SENSITIVE MAN AMONG YOU WILL BECOME STINGY toward his brother, the wife he loves, and the children he still has left. GW

There are cults today where Cannibal (flesh eating) members are regular men in our societies who have common, selfish goals in mind: to rule, be stinky rich, control others and live “forever”.

So, when Murder began right with the second generation of men, with Cain killing his brother, after [carelessly] disregarding God’s Word, you should know that a Curse has taken effect immediately.

1Jn 3:15 Anyone who has hate for his brother is a taker of life, and you may be certain that no taker of life has eternal life in him. BBE

Many don’t realize that when you are so jealous and hating even a fellow brother, silently wishing him dead, probably just because he’s better than or offended you, you are operating under a curse.

Jas 4:1-2 DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOUR FIGHTS AND ARGUMENTS COME FROM? They come FROM THE SELFISH DESIRES THAT MAKE WAR INSIDE YOU. You want things, but you don't get them. SO YOU KILL AND ARE JEALOUS OF OTHERS. But you still cannot get what you want. So you argue and fight. You don't get what you want because you don't ask God. ERV

We know that Paul was talking to the Church, and so we know that it means these attributes are seen operating right inside Church: competition with serious fighting, backbiting and quarreling.

Sisters will seriously and publicly war to get personal attention and gratification, caring nothing over what people say about them or about God’s Holy House.

All they see is themselves alone.

Php 2:3-4 BE FREE FROM PRIDE-FILLED OPINIONS, FOR THEY WILL ONLY HARM YOUR CHERISHED UNITY. Don’t allow SELF-PROMOTION to hide in your hearts, but in authentic humility PUT OTHERS FIRST AND VIEW OTHERS AS MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOURSELVES. Abandon every DISPLAY OF SELFISHNESS. Possess a greater concern for what matters to others instead of your own interests. TPT

The moment we are living in disobedience beloved, the above scriptures “pale out” and brethren become satan-incarnate, hateful, bitter, jealous, selfish, scheming and only fighting for themselves.

One sister is “shining” in Church and others want to “stamp” her out and stand in her place instead.

May God deliver us from every curse causing madness of folly in His house, in Jesus name, Amen.

Come back on Wednesday for more digging into this subtopic.

Keep Shinning!

Brother Prince

Monday, June 27, 2022

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Below is an array of effective strategies as you begin your journey toward personal development, greater happiness, decreased stress and increased motivation. Here, you will find a discussion of personal development and some of the pitfalls that accompany it. By following the tips, you can learn the best path to a better you.

  Try keeping your task manager with you at all times. This can be in the form of a list on a piece of paper, a memo on a phone, or even a list you have online. Wherever you are working, try to keep it within sight or within reach to help you get your tasks done.

    Take time to think about what you want from life. Too often we get rushed into a path that we are really not interested in taking. For some people this might involve a parent pushing them into the family business. For others it might be peer pressure to drop out of school. Only you know what you really want.

  If things get to a place where you cannot handle them, seek help from someone like a therapist. They can help you to cope with your issues by talking them out and coming up with some solutions. It can do you a lot of good to talk to somebody who is not directly involved in your life; it can provide you with a clear perspective.

Everything Works Until It Doesn’t: How to Flow with Change

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"You're reading Everything Works Until It Doesn’t: How to Flow with Change, originally posted on Pick the Brain | Motivation and Self Improvement. If you're enjoying this, please visit our site for more inspirational articles.

There comes a time in everyone's lives when things that you once used to rely on don't become as effective anymore.

You sort of outgrow the training wheels. The job you started out fresh and new doesn't challenge you anymore. The friends you had in college don't vibe with you any longer. The books you read don't give you any more new knowledge. You and your girlfriend have grown apart and you don't “click” like you should. This is what I call “things work…until they don't”. Everything's peachy until it isn't. The Myth of Forever Many years ago in the Western World (or America at least), people used to work for one employer their entire lives and live in one place their entire lives. You could expect to retire with a nice employer matched pension and for things to “just make sense”. This was the “American Dream”. This stability was a glossy sheen over the inherent chaos and turbulence that is life and nature. Nothing in nature stands still, everything is constant change. You, as a creation of nature are the same way. Things will (and must) change in your life. Dealing with this change is the key to unlocking new levels of meaning and nuance in your life. When people aren't able to accept change, they get tossed around like a leaf in the wind – unable to deal with calamity and chaos. Then, fear sets in. Then, hesitation. Then no action. Knowing When It's Time to Move On What are the consequences of not being able to “go with the flow”? Well, you get stuck. You specifically get stuck in situations you absolutely do not want to be in. I know this because this happened to me. I got hired for a job right after college. The job paid a nice salary for someone just out of college and I was learning lots of new things. About a year in, I stopped learning as much. I didn't get a raise because the company wasn't doing too well. It became unnecessarily monotonous. I had outgrown the position. I justified sticking it out because I was optimistic that things were going to get better, but I stayed another year. At the end of the day, I was getting paid, right? Well, came to an abrupt close. I got laid off 2 years after I started. Everything worked out in the end, but I could have prevented this by being willing to jump off an obviously sinking ship. The consequences of not moving on could be even more drastic in certain situations. You need the willingness, the discernment, the decisiveness to cut your losses and just move on. Moving on From Certain Ideas You not only have to move on from certain situations, but you also have to leave old modes of thought behind. Things you once cherished as absolute truth are now seen as half-truths or downright lies. These may be beliefs you have about yourself, about others, about the world, etc, that are holding you back from achievement in a certain area. You will only rise to the height of your belief system, also known as your paradigm. If you want to achieve success and especially earth-shattering, skyscraper type success, you have to leave old patterns and ideas behind. What are some examples?:

Believing you don't have the skills to change into a new line of work Believing that you don't have what it takes to attract the partner of your dreams Believing that the world is absolutes and black and white Believing that you need to work a 9-5 salaried job to make it in this world Believing that college is necessary.

The list goes on and on. These beliefs served you well at one time by helping keep you comfortable, but now those same beliefs have become very uncomfortable. Pulling the Plug Even When You're Scared There are times when you just know in your deepest heart of hearts that it's time for you to move on, but you just can't. You feel paralyzed with doubt, fear, and indecision. Here's some tips on how you can move on with your life and get past analysis paralysis. 1. Think of the Worst-Case Scenario Things are worse in our mind than they are or will be in reality. This creates fear which paralyzes action, meaning you'll never find out what will actually happen if you can take action. The worst-case of every action is that you will die. We're all going to die anyway, so the worst-case scenario really isn't that bad. In the interim, you may experience some degree of pain, but you still have a chance to achieve whatever it is you want to achieve and get out of situations that simply aren't working. 2. Think of the Best-Case Scenario Imagine what will happen when you have the courage to move out of a certain situation into a better one. Imagine yourself in a better job, a better relationship, a better way of life — if you took action. What would happen? Like before, you will experience some degree of discomfort, but it's in the pursuit of a greater good. 3. Be Flexible and Accepting When you move out of situations that aren't helping you, there will be a rough adjustment period. Accept it as part of the process. Once you do, the better off you'll be in adopting the changes to your new lifestyle. 4. Understand it's necessary The final crux to everything is changing your worldview and how you view things is absolutely necessary at some point in time. You cannot stay the same forever. Having the willingness to change makes everything 10x easier.

Sim Campbell has made it his mission to examine what it means to live an expansive and fulfilling life in the modern world as an emerging young man. He talks about this on Unstoppable Rise, a site dedicated to relentless personal development with a strong philosophical slant. You've read Everything Works Until It Doesn’t: How to Flow with Change, originally posted on Pick the Brain | Motivation and Self Improvement. If you've enjoyed this, please visit our site for more inspirational articles." https://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/everything-works-until-it-doesnt-how-to-flow-with-change/

Don't be afraid to teach! Teaching others, whether it is teaching a child to tie their shoe or teaching a colleague at work to operate a new piece of complex machinery, is empowering. We don't have to be experts ourselves to be ready to lend a helping hand when someone needs it.

  You should get plenty of exercise. Over the years, studies have shown that exercise increases serotonin in the brain. This can make you a happier and more energetic person overall. It's also great for your body image and can make you think more positively about yourself, which is great for depression.

  Help others! Learn CPR and basic first aid skills through your local Fire Station or community center. By helping someone who is in danger or injured, you are also helping yourself. Helping someone will else give you a sense of pride, purpose, and inspiration. There's a chance you could even save another person's life, contributing to the fullness of your own life.

  If you are having difficulty coping with the effects of depression, you may find peace and guidance from joining a depression support group. Sometimes our friends and family members do not understand how depression can affect us; reaching out to a support group allows you to gain the support of people who are undergoing the same things that you are.

5 Simple Ways To Knock Out Stress

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"Stress. One of the most commonly used words in our everyday vocabulary. It almost feels natural to say, “I’m so stressed!” or “This is stressing me out!” since every one of us experiences varying levels of stress at different points in our lives. If you’re not sure how stressed you are, check out the 7 signs that …" http://yourdost.com/blog/2019/08/5-simple-ways-to-knock-out-stress.html

Keep a journal. When you embark on a journey towards personal development, make sure you record all of your thoughts, feelings, and ideas. Not only will it be a joy to look back on when you reach your goals, but it can be a useful tool if you find yourself going astray. You can look over your journal and find what led you to where you are and see exactly how to get back on track.

  To access your subconscious mind and find hidden solutions to your problems and questions, write in your journal each night before bed. Write about your day and ask yourself, in writing, how you might have improved problematic situations. Once you have written your questions, let them go. Your subconscious mind will unravel them overnight and may present you with an answer in the morning!

  For many people, retreating from a conflict is the standard response. Unfortunately, this habit does nothing to resolve the problem or prevent similar issues in the future. Try to practice keeping yourself in the conflict while continuing to engage the other party with questions that can help to resolve the problem. Unlike simply retreating and giving someone the famous "cold shoulder", this approach forces you to work through your concerns and avoid creating further resentment.

  Take half an hour and write out every good quality you feel you have. It's important to understand who you are as a person. What are your key characteristics that you feel you exude? You will want to increase the level at which you offer those good qualities to the world. By writing them out, you are essentially beginning an action plan for personal development.

Find Your Ideal Job and Build Your Dream Business

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"IS IT POSSIBLE  to have your cake and eat it too? If there was a way to find your ideal job and build your dream business, would you consider both? Most people see this dichotomy and feel that they need to choose one dream over the other. The reality is that you can have both dreams so long as each doesn’t harm the other and enhances your lifestyle. Having worked with more than 10,000 entrepreneurs, innovators, inventors, hobbyists and side hustlers, they often struggle with when it is appropriate to leap from the job environment into the entrepreneurship maze. The presumption is that one has to sacrifice entrepreneurial dreams in order to be successful at a specific career choice. The truth is that you can have both and I strongly encourage aspiring employee-preneurs to review the following five reasons to consider maintaining your job in the first few years of building your business. 1. Learning from Both Work Environments: When you work as an employee and have a side entrepreneurial business, you can learn from both environments and both environments can benefit from each other. Often the entrepreneurial pathway is a lonely pathway and sole-preneurs in particular find themselves trying to navigate, learn and network to gain knowledge while building their business. Realizing that you can gain education from both environments allows an opportunity for you to thrive as an employee and manage a successful side hustle. 2. Business Ownership Strengthens Your Employee Net Worth: In most positions you rarely get the opportunity to experience the functions associated with the roles of a Chief Executive Officer, Chief Financial Officer, and Chief Marketing Officer, as well as manage the day-to-day requirements for customer engagement and retention. As a result of limited job functions in a large corporate environment, it doesn’t give you the full breadth of work involved in successfully managing an enterprise. By exploring the entrepreneurship maze you will quickly immerse yourself in all these functions, which will give you a better picture of the business itself, as well as an appreciation for the company that employees you. 3. Position Yourself with a Better Financial Portfolio: Quitting your job and then applying for a small business loan is a recipe for disaster. Often lenders expect borrowers to be fully collateralized. Having a successful employment position strengthens your probability of obtaining a loan or line of credit. While there are a lot of targeted small business funds that don’t require full collateralization, obtaining funds from your financial institution will be challenging if your debt to equity ratio does not meet their criteria and you don’t have a secondary source of income they can secure against the loan. In addition, being employed allows you the flexibility of investing in your small business without the stress of adding more debt into your current financial portfolio. Having the availability to set aside a few hundred dollars each month towards your business is significant when you have to consider paying for licensing, website development, social media support, etc. 4. Don’t Put Your Financial Eggs in One Basket: Diversifying your income allows you to mitigate financial risk and maximize your ability to make more money. Most people rely on their employment position for sole source income and if that position is compromised they may have a difficult time replacing those funds in a short period of time. Creating other opportunities to generate more money provides an additional financial cushion for investments or as an emergency fund program.  The key is to target business concepts that don’t impose too much time on your part but produce a sizable financial return on your investment. Examples may include selling products online, starting a consulting business, or purchasing a semi-absentee franchise opportunity. 5. There Is No Need to Rush the Process: Most entrepreneurs believe they have to rush things to launch a company because they may lose out on the business opportunity. This may actually be a recipe for disaster. Rushing into a business concept without a proper feasibility review including competitive research, market analysis, and customer input is rushing to an unproven plan. Spending time building the foundation of the business allows for validation and a chance to identify the strengths, weakness, opportunities and threats of the proposed concept. Once the business has reached a certain consistent income you can decide whether to leap into the business full-time or hire others to manage the business. Ironically many of the Fortune 500 companies today began with entrepreneurs that started their business concept while working for an employer and then transitioned to their business slowly. Skin in the game does not mean you have to quit a job to explore a business. It means you have to be willing to invest time, money, or both in order to build your side hustle into a fledging small business operation. The great news is you don’t have to sacrifice either opportunity to benefit from both opportunities. You can have your cake and eat it too. * * * Kedma Ough is the author of Target Funding: A Proven System to Get the Money and Resources You Need to Start or Grow Your Business. One of today’s most respected authorities on small business funding and entrepreneurship, she is a nationally renowned business coach and funding expert and winner of the Small Business Administration (SBA) Small Business Champion of the Year Award.  As a small business consultant and educator, she has guided more than 10,000 individuals through a wide range of business advising and is a past contributing writer for Entrepreneur Magazine. When she is not running around as a live superhero, she enjoys time with her family and traveling the world. 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Look at the changes you will need to make on a daily basis and actions you need to take daily in order to reach your goals. Turn those actions into daily habits. Once you get used to doing the same action daily it will make your goals easier to reach over time.

  To healthily administer self help in regards to bipolar disorder, make sure that you establish a daily schedule and stick to it. This is important because it removes any stress that is caused by uncertainty in your life. Having a schedule will help to put your overall life in order.

  Do not dwell on your problems. Think about the solutions for them. If you are constantly thinking about all of the things that are wrong in your life you will not find any happiness. If you take the time to think about how to resolve those problems you will eliminate them altogether.

  You must be able to concentrate and focus if you plan on being successful in this life. No one can make it in this world by just talking and offering opinions all the time. You must be able to listen, and you must be able to take time to learn about new things in a concentrated manner.

  As you seek for a better tomorrow, the information here can assist you in making your dreams a reality. Holding onto your education, motivation and essential strategies help you make a concrete plan and stick to it; without such structure, moving forward may be more difficult than you can manage. By holding onto these strategies–and most importantly, to hope–you are setting your path toward a better, happier outlook.

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Below is an array of effective strategies as you begin your journey toward personal development, greater happiness, decreased stress and increased motivation. Here, you will find a discussion of personal development and some of the pitfalls that accompany it. By following the tips, you can learn the best path to a better you.

  Try keeping your task manager with you at all times. This can be in the form of a list on a piece of paper, a memo on a phone, or even a list you have online. Wherever you are working, try to keep it within sight or within reach to help you get your tasks done.

    Take time to think about what you want from life. Too often we get rushed into a path that we are really not interested in taking. For some people this might involve a parent pushing them into the family business. For others it might be peer pressure to drop out of school. Only you know what you really want.

  If things get to a place where you cannot handle them, seek help from someone like a therapist. They can help you to cope with your issues by talking them out and coming up with some solutions. It can do you a lot of good to talk to somebody who is not directly involved in your life; it can provide you with a clear perspective.

Everything Works Until It Doesn’t: How to Flow with Change

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There comes a time in everyone's lives when things that you once used to rely on don't become as effective anymore.

You sort of outgrow the training wheels. The job you started out fresh and new doesn't challenge you anymore. The friends you had in college don't vibe with you any longer. The books you read don't give you any more new knowledge. You and your girlfriend have grown apart and you don't “click” like you should. This is what I call “things work…until they don't”. Everything's peachy until it isn't. The Myth of Forever Many years ago in the Western World (or America at least), people used to work for one employer their entire lives and live in one place their entire lives. You could expect to retire with a nice employer matched pension and for things to “just make sense”. This was the “American Dream”. This stability was a glossy sheen over the inherent chaos and turbulence that is life and nature. Nothing in nature stands still, everything is constant change. You, as a creation of nature are the same way. Things will (and must) change in your life. Dealing with this change is the key to unlocking new levels of meaning and nuance in your life. When people aren't able to accept change, they get tossed around like a leaf in the wind – unable to deal with calamity and chaos. Then, fear sets in. Then, hesitation. Then no action. Knowing When It's Time to Move On What are the consequences of not being able to “go with the flow”? Well, you get stuck. You specifically get stuck in situations you absolutely do not want to be in. I know this because this happened to me. I got hired for a job right after college. The job paid a nice salary for someone just out of college and I was learning lots of new things. About a year in, I stopped learning as much. I didn't get a raise because the company wasn't doing too well. It became unnecessarily monotonous. I had outgrown the position. I justified sticking it out because I was optimistic that things were going to get better, but I stayed another year. At the end of the day, I was getting paid, right? Well, came to an abrupt close. I got laid off 2 years after I started. Everything worked out in the end, but I could have prevented this by being willing to jump off an obviously sinking ship. The consequences of not moving on could be even more drastic in certain situations. You need the willingness, the discernment, the decisiveness to cut your losses and just move on. Moving on From Certain Ideas You not only have to move on from certain situations, but you also have to leave old modes of thought behind. Things you once cherished as absolute truth are now seen as half-truths or downright lies. These may be beliefs you have about yourself, about others, about the world, etc, that are holding you back from achievement in a certain area. You will only rise to the height of your belief system, also known as your paradigm. If you want to achieve success and especially earth-shattering, skyscraper type success, you have to leave old patterns and ideas behind. What are some examples?:

Believing you don't have the skills to change into a new line of work Believing that you don't have what it takes to attract the partner of your dreams Believing that the world is absolutes and black and white Believing that you need to work a 9-5 salaried job to make it in this world Believing that college is necessary.

The list goes on and on. These beliefs served you well at one time by helping keep you comfortable, but now those same beliefs have become very uncomfortable. Pulling the Plug Even When You're Scared There are times when you just know in your deepest heart of hearts that it's time for you to move on, but you just can't. You feel paralyzed with doubt, fear, and indecision. Here's some tips on how you can move on with your life and get past analysis paralysis. 1. Think of the Worst-Case Scenario Things are worse in our mind than they are or will be in reality. This creates fear which paralyzes action, meaning you'll never find out what will actually happen if you can take action. The worst-case of every action is that you will die. We're all going to die anyway, so the worst-case scenario really isn't that bad. In the interim, you may experience some degree of pain, but you still have a chance to achieve whatever it is you want to achieve and get out of situations that simply aren't working. 2. Think of the Best-Case Scenario Imagine what will happen when you have the courage to move out of a certain situation into a better one. Imagine yourself in a better job, a better relationship, a better way of life — if you took action. What would happen? Like before, you will experience some degree of discomfort, but it's in the pursuit of a greater good. 3. Be Flexible and Accepting When you move out of situations that aren't helping you, there will be a rough adjustment period. Accept it as part of the process. Once you do, the better off you'll be in adopting the changes to your new lifestyle. 4. Understand it's necessary The final crux to everything is changing your worldview and how you view things is absolutely necessary at some point in time. You cannot stay the same forever. Having the willingness to change makes everything 10x easier.

Sim Campbell has made it his mission to examine what it means to live an expansive and fulfilling life in the modern world as an emerging young man. He talks about this on Unstoppable Rise, a site dedicated to relentless personal development with a strong philosophical slant. You've read Everything Works Until It Doesn’t: How to Flow with Change, originally posted on Pick the Brain | Motivation and Self Improvement. If you've enjoyed this, please visit our site for more inspirational articles." https://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/everything-works-until-it-doesnt-how-to-flow-with-change/

Don't be afraid to teach! Teaching others, whether it is teaching a child to tie their shoe or teaching a colleague at work to operate a new piece of complex machinery, is empowering. We don't have to be experts ourselves to be ready to lend a helping hand when someone needs it.

  You should get plenty of exercise. Over the years, studies have shown that exercise increases serotonin in the brain. This can make you a happier and more energetic person overall. It's also great for your body image and can make you think more positively about yourself, which is great for depression.

  Help others! Learn CPR and basic first aid skills through your local Fire Station or community center. By helping someone who is in danger or injured, you are also helping yourself. Helping someone will else give you a sense of pride, purpose, and inspiration. There's a chance you could even save another person's life, contributing to the fullness of your own life.

  If you are having difficulty coping with the effects of depression, you may find peace and guidance from joining a depression support group. Sometimes our friends and family members do not understand how depression can affect us; reaching out to a support group allows you to gain the support of people who are undergoing the same things that you are.

5 Simple Ways To Knock Out Stress

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"Stress. One of the most commonly used words in our everyday vocabulary. It almost feels natural to say, “I’m so stressed!” or “This is stressing me out!” since every one of us experiences varying levels of stress at different points in our lives. If you’re not sure how stressed you are, check out the 7 signs that …" http://yourdost.com/blog/2019/08/5-simple-ways-to-knock-out-stress.html

Keep a journal. When you embark on a journey towards personal development, make sure you record all of your thoughts, feelings, and ideas. Not only will it be a joy to look back on when you reach your goals, but it can be a useful tool if you find yourself going astray. You can look over your journal and find what led you to where you are and see exactly how to get back on track.

  To access your subconscious mind and find hidden solutions to your problems and questions, write in your journal each night before bed. Write about your day and ask yourself, in writing, how you might have improved problematic situations. Once you have written your questions, let them go. Your subconscious mind will unravel them overnight and may present you with an answer in the morning!

  For many people, retreating from a conflict is the standard response. Unfortunately, this habit does nothing to resolve the problem or prevent similar issues in the future. Try to practice keeping yourself in the conflict while continuing to engage the other party with questions that can help to resolve the problem. Unlike simply retreating and giving someone the famous "cold shoulder", this approach forces you to work through your concerns and avoid creating further resentment.

  Take half an hour and write out every good quality you feel you have. It's important to understand who you are as a person. What are your key characteristics that you feel you exude? You will want to increase the level at which you offer those good qualities to the world. By writing them out, you are essentially beginning an action plan for personal development.

Find Your Ideal Job and Build Your Dream Business

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"IS IT POSSIBLE  to have your cake and eat it too? If there was a way to find your ideal job and build your dream business, would you consider both? Most people see this dichotomy and feel that they need to choose one dream over the other. The reality is that you can have both dreams so long as each doesn’t harm the other and enhances your lifestyle. Having worked with more than 10,000 entrepreneurs, innovators, inventors, hobbyists and side hustlers, they often struggle with when it is appropriate to leap from the job environment into the entrepreneurship maze. The presumption is that one has to sacrifice entrepreneurial dreams in order to be successful at a specific career choice. The truth is that you can have both and I strongly encourage aspiring employee-preneurs to review the following five reasons to consider maintaining your job in the first few years of building your business. 1. Learning from Both Work Environments: When you work as an employee and have a side entrepreneurial business, you can learn from both environments and both environments can benefit from each other. Often the entrepreneurial pathway is a lonely pathway and sole-preneurs in particular find themselves trying to navigate, learn and network to gain knowledge while building their business. Realizing that you can gain education from both environments allows an opportunity for you to thrive as an employee and manage a successful side hustle. 2. Business Ownership Strengthens Your Employee Net Worth: In most positions you rarely get the opportunity to experience the functions associated with the roles of a Chief Executive Officer, Chief Financial Officer, and Chief Marketing Officer, as well as manage the day-to-day requirements for customer engagement and retention. As a result of limited job functions in a large corporate environment, it doesn’t give you the full breadth of work involved in successfully managing an enterprise. By exploring the entrepreneurship maze you will quickly immerse yourself in all these functions, which will give you a better picture of the business itself, as well as an appreciation for the company that employees you. 3. Position Yourself with a Better Financial Portfolio: Quitting your job and then applying for a small business loan is a recipe for disaster. Often lenders expect borrowers to be fully collateralized. Having a successful employment position strengthens your probability of obtaining a loan or line of credit. While there are a lot of targeted small business funds that don’t require full collateralization, obtaining funds from your financial institution will be challenging if your debt to equity ratio does not meet their criteria and you don’t have a secondary source of income they can secure against the loan. In addition, being employed allows you the flexibility of investing in your small business without the stress of adding more debt into your current financial portfolio. Having the availability to set aside a few hundred dollars each month towards your business is significant when you have to consider paying for licensing, website development, social media support, etc. 4. Don’t Put Your Financial Eggs in One Basket: Diversifying your income allows you to mitigate financial risk and maximize your ability to make more money. Most people rely on their employment position for sole source income and if that position is compromised they may have a difficult time replacing those funds in a short period of time. Creating other opportunities to generate more money provides an additional financial cushion for investments or as an emergency fund program.  The key is to target business concepts that don’t impose too much time on your part but produce a sizable financial return on your investment. Examples may include selling products online, starting a consulting business, or purchasing a semi-absentee franchise opportunity. 5. There Is No Need to Rush the Process: Most entrepreneurs believe they have to rush things to launch a company because they may lose out on the business opportunity. This may actually be a recipe for disaster. Rushing into a business concept without a proper feasibility review including competitive research, market analysis, and customer input is rushing to an unproven plan. Spending time building the foundation of the business allows for validation and a chance to identify the strengths, weakness, opportunities and threats of the proposed concept. Once the business has reached a certain consistent income you can decide whether to leap into the business full-time or hire others to manage the business. Ironically many of the Fortune 500 companies today began with entrepreneurs that started their business concept while working for an employer and then transitioned to their business slowly. Skin in the game does not mean you have to quit a job to explore a business. It means you have to be willing to invest time, money, or both in order to build your side hustle into a fledging small business operation. The great news is you don’t have to sacrifice either opportunity to benefit from both opportunities. You can have your cake and eat it too. * * * Kedma Ough is the author of Target Funding: A Proven System to Get the Money and Resources You Need to Start or Grow Your Business. One of today’s most respected authorities on small business funding and entrepreneurship, she is a nationally renowned business coach and funding expert and winner of the Small Business Administration (SBA) Small Business Champion of the Year Award.  As a small business consultant and educator, she has guided more than 10,000 individuals through a wide range of business advising and is a past contributing writer for Entrepreneur Magazine. When she is not running around as a live superhero, she enjoys time with her family and traveling the world. Ough is a proud fifth-generation entrepreneur. * * *   Like us on Instagram and Facebook for additional leadership and personal development ideas. * * *" https://www.leadershipnow.com/leadingblog/2019/08/find_your_ideal_job_and_build.htmlhttp://www.leadershipnow.com/cgi-bin/mt/mt-atom.cgi/weblog/blog_id=1/entry_id=1751

Look at the changes you will need to make on a daily basis and actions you need to take daily in order to reach your goals. Turn those actions into daily habits. Once you get used to doing the same action daily it will make your goals easier to reach over time.

  To healthily administer self help in regards to bipolar disorder, make sure that you establish a daily schedule and stick to it. This is important because it removes any stress that is caused by uncertainty in your life. Having a schedule will help to put your overall life in order.

  Do not dwell on your problems. Think about the solutions for them. If you are constantly thinking about all of the things that are wrong in your life you will not find any happiness. If you take the time to think about how to resolve those problems you will eliminate them altogether.

  You must be able to concentrate and focus if you plan on being successful in this life. No one can make it in this world by just talking and offering opinions all the time. You must be able to listen, and you must be able to take time to learn about new things in a concentrated manner.

  As you seek for a better tomorrow, the information here can assist you in making your dreams a reality. Holding onto your education, motivation and essential strategies help you make a concrete plan and stick to it; without such structure, moving forward may be more difficult than you can manage. By holding onto these strategies–and most importantly, to hope–you are setting your path toward a better, happier outlook.