#AND! i can use this rest time to write :]]]]]]
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it’s wild to me that like every modern adaptation of Sherlock Holmes (and by modern I mean “made recently” not “set in modern times”) is like Hell Bent on coming up with a Reason™️ that Watson stays with Holmes and trots around with him on adventures all the time despite the inconvenience and the danger and all, and so it’s like “oh, Watson’s a gambling addict, he loves uncertainty and mystery” or “oh, Watson’s an adrenaline junkie, he gets off on being constantly in danger from criminals” or even like “Watson’s atoning for sins of the past of BEING IN THE WAR by solving crimes with Holmes now” or WHATEVER. And it’s like, girl, maybe he’s just in love! Did you think of that?? Maybe he’s got a crush and it’s making him do stupid things. Maybe he’s just got bad taste and his type is guys who don’t know how to refold newspapers properly but can identify different types of cigar ash by sight, smell, and taste. And wrote a monograph on the subject. Maybe he’s down bad is all. I mean, Keep is simple, stupid!!!
#this whole problem also requires the extra step of making Holmes into someone who’s like actively cruel and terrible to Watson specifically#which like he also isn’t in canon at all#he’d probably be an inconvenient roommate that not everyone would personally want to put up with#but he’s not like endangering Watson all the time and interfering in his affairs constantly#The way writers always adapt him doing#so like it’s a problem they’re inventing and then writing a silly solution for#and no one better come for me for ‘bad taste’ I was trying to be funny and also Holmes is insane#the fact that Watson took one look at him and his bonkers lifestyle and pledged his life to him is just proof that Watson is also insane#in the when harry met Sally way of ‘thank god these two found each other and spared the rest of us the trouble’#anyway this is all part and parcel with the way writers who adapt Holmes don’t understand Watson#and even people who LIKE Holmes and get his deal still rarely get what makes Watson great#BUT that’s an essay for a different time and I won’t get into it now#sherlock holmes#john watson#doctor watson#acd#acd canon#tagging this as canon is sooo silly sorry but I don’t know what else to put#also worth noting that like the idea of working with Holmes as this chronically super dangerous thing is also silly#Like a solid percentage of their cases are solved from the comfort of baker street#there’s definitely some dangerous cases (‘bring your revolver’ is a meme for a reason after all) but like not enough of them#that you can make a strong case for John Watson: Adrenaline Junkie™️#except that modern writers make every case life or death high stakes serious so like….thats where it comes from#ANYWAY
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Natsuko really took Memmln by the shoulders and said, "Girl, get you a husbando."
#zenshu#zenshu spoilers#all she really needed was a hot anime guy to fix her Depression#now she can spend eternity writing self insert fanfic like the rest of us#ig#i think it'd be hilarious if unio had a humanoid form#and it looked like Exister#plus unicorns also probably live for a long time so like#idk i'm Seeing It do you see my vision
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I offer the frankly hilarious scenario of zenos and estinien having to work together (probably because of tataru) and a little bit of headcanon-ing I have in regards to the one main issue they run in to when theyre a duo.
#ffxiv#sketch#zenos yae galvus#estinien wyrmblood#adventurer zenos#this partially has to do with the other thought I had of zenos probably having to earn rank like the rest of his family#i dont think its implied anywhere actually that the princes were ever advanced just because of of their lineage#so the thought of him having to learn how to use the money he earned reasonably had crossed my mind- before he was a legatus at least#not that I can really imagine him using it for much honestly#and im primarily going to be writing adventurer zenos mainly using it as 'scion/meteor spoiling money'#and then like maybe stuff for his own appearance but also thats probably what he'd be doing work for tataru for LOL#estinien on the flipside earned most of what he needed through service I imagine- so his concept of money has just been terribly warped#and just in case for those who dont know their height difference#estinien is being held around four inches off the ground#he is -not- having a good time#the hunting duo from hell
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If magic was real I’d obviously focus myself solely on mastering curses
Whether it’s cursed equipement, tattoos, or one time use spells, I know I’d love nothing more than to isolate myself and perfect the magic of changing someone against their will
Placing boobytrap spells around the local forest, that instantly turn you into a girl when you step on one, erasing any memories that you were ever anything else
Capturing invading “men” and drawing tattoos on them that transform them into succubi, forcing them to choose to either live in servitude, draining the life of others in an endless hunt to date their endless desires, or starve
Even giving the warrior asking for aid in a battle a balde that will give him embrace strength, but with each use will whittle away at their mind, annihilating all parts except for their more feminine desires, until all she can think about is her love for dresses and how she’d give the world to be a cute girl in a cute dress sewing cute skirts
Then rumour comes out about my activities, and inevitably when a “boy” gets obsessed with my myth, and decides to wander into my domain “just to disprove these idiotic fables”, I’ll show her happiness beyond what she considered possible
#All I’ll need is a simple spell that gives her the body and dress of a maid#she’ll handle the rest#and serve as the happiest girl in the world#.#fantasy#forcefem#i-like-talking#..#I liked writing this one out!#at any time you can just tell us what you’d like to see more of!!!#feedback is the beating heart of any content we make!#including these silly little posts!#Have a nice evening cutie!
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the way everyone has a dislike in their profile that actually says something integral about their character. lu guang doesn't like plans getting messed up, cheng xiaoshi dislikes loneliness, xia fei with owing favors, vein with lying...
and then you have liu xiao, who dislikes... cilantro. and fish mint.
(shakes fist) (putting him in a glass jar and shaking vigorously) learn to be vulnerable!! tell me something about yourself!! I guess him liking movies lines up with the theater metaphors, and there's him liking chess, but that. doesn't count methinks
#mine musings#liveblogging link click#link click#okay the metaphor thing works out a little bit in that. it's on brand#70% of what we know about liu xiao are implicitly gained from other characters#e.g. how xf and ltc relate to him. how the liu family talk about him. how he thematically juxtaposes other characters like lg and cxs#the 30% are the things we know explicitly from him e.g. he's a rich kid with a sports car. he can hear heartbeats#he wants to merge the parallel lines or whatever#the rest are inferences like. oh okay no parallel lines? he doesn't like uncertainties i guess#the way he talks about friendship with xf and ltc? he values a transactional view of relationships#(maybe because transactions imply a certain level of certainty?)#he's the current favored child of the liu family but he wasn't before#he's a “manipulator” but really that's mostly from marketing stuff and implications from canon#like. we know a lot about him but at the same time we don't#the way we just know his uncertainty -> certainty thing contrasts with lg's certainty -> uncertainty thing#we know his heartbeat hearing implies he knows everyone's level of sincerity and both xf and cxs exist as foils to that#the hunter thing with ltc. why does he believe that?#lots of “bringing the darkness” lines in three of his songs for some reason#so like. i can't say that the show hasn't told us anything. they have but in circular ways#we don't know much about him from him directly but we do. know stuff. kinda. do you get me#all i want from YE6 is veinxiao friendship being shown so i can have new dimensions on how lx views friendship#and maybe like. a hint at what his motivations are. like why is he Like That#<- again funnier if he's just Like That from the womb. even if the liu family isn't fucked up he's still Like That#but that's not this show's style so probably not#lx notes#like the INSISTENCE of writing lx as a point of comparison or through other people's perspectives and very rarely from his own#is fascinating to me
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mom we made it (got accused of being a bitter shipper instead of having legitimate concerns and criticisms about andor s2)
#not responding directly to op because their post just happened to be on my fyp and not in main tags#but incredibly wild thing to say all the same#maybe i can be both?? maybe I'm a capable adult that has nuance?? maybe!#maybe as a queer woman i'm allowed to be a little bitter that the qwoc was sidelined for her white lover's development#and told that it was 'good writing'#maybe that's a totally legitimate thing to criticize andor for and not just being a 'bitter shipper'#like sorry that i think cinta deserved more than just having her arc happen off screen and brought back#solely to die for vel's non-existent development#that's a 'my bad' situation i guess#aimee chats#anyway i'm over it i think i'll just be used to being seen as that bitter cinta kaz fan for the rest of time
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also i have learned as my kid grows up that being a parent if you are traumatized by your own parents lol it actually is so hard because you can’t hide anymore from anything that happened to you even if you think you forgot it. it will come back as you watch your kid grow up, talk back, try to assert themselves, become people. i think i forgot something and it comes back as i parent my own kid. and that means that when i was a kid my parents also had to work through something similar but instead of actually working through it they just kicked the can down the road and never looked at it and kept repressing and suppressing because it is easier than looking directly at ugly trauma and actually thinking about it. i think trying to be a good parent is more important than hiding from the things that have happened to me even though it’s really hard and i wish my own parents had felt the same
#rowan trauma dump#sorry!! it’s 7am LOL#also I’ve been ignoring my parents for like maybe a whole month now because every time i think i guess i should call them#i remember something#and then im mad#i wish I never had to talk to them again#but i think there will be a time soon when i wont have to#so maybe i can just bear this for a few more years until the lord takes care of the rest for me or whatever lol#maybe i should write a poem about this#i used to write poems in my diary when i was younger but then I had to throw it away#i think ill never stop being angry about all this#im 33 soon and i just keep getting angrier#i thought I would achieve grace when i was older but its just getting further and further away from me
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the hands situation is uhhhhh better? still crampy and cant fully extend my right hand fingers, but it's not shaky now :3
#gonna get an arm brace tho#the last episode of this was years ago and idk where my old one went LOL#stretches and warm and ice bath + lectures/scolding from my fam yep yep THE ultimate remedy#it should resolve this week hopefully#if not ehhhhhhhhuuuhhh more rest then#downloaded a few movies to watch#AND! i can use this rest time to write :]]]]]]#the one time gomz is excited about writing over drawing#nikprice week is really boosting me#and hoping to get back the courage to post my works *rubs neck*#gummmyspeaks#i fear i still have much to learn...#also wrestling grammar#rgggrggghhgrhh#would love to reach out to proof readers in the server but im so ahdkjsdhk so shy LMAO#like here...do u wanna...proof read my mess................pleas.....please...#this one sentence is really wrecking my brain cuz i wanna bring out the meaning but the WORDS ARE NOT CONNECTING#muffled grumbling
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PSSSST hello hello !!! reminder that i HAVE indeed been cooking— and i'm putting out something biiiiig for this au very soon 😳🤭!!!!
#not gonna main tag this this is just an announcement👍🏾#but im VERY excited to share this :') months upon months of work oh my god. i started writing this thing in late decemberrr#i've got a real long day ahead of me tomorrow so not sure if i can post it immediately tomorrow...BUT!#rest assured it'll be some time this coming week >:)#nebposting#superhero au#also yes. the adventures of solarflare is theeee. Official Title for this au#but superhero au is still alright i use it interchangably LOL#just wanted to give an update before i went to bed <3 YAY YIPPEE!!!!!#OH AND IM EXCITED TO SHARE THE FULL COVER ART AS WELL 🤭
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DOING MY LAST AP EXAM OF THE TESTING SEASON TMR
#I will get a 5 i will get a 5 i will get a 5#the prompts will be easy to understand and i will be able to generate scholarly evidence for the argument frq with ease🧘🏽♀️#i will get a very high score on the mcq and complete it with time left to spare. the answers will flow into my mind with minimal confusion#i will use all sources for my synthesis and write a well developed argument#my argument frq will be an easy topic. it will be related to current events and i will be able to use my knowledge of history and the news#i will even get to use an example from literature. all my evidence will come into my mind. i won't have to push myself to think of it#i will choose the best rhetorical choices for rhetorical analysis & use audience AND text effect as much as possible#rhetorical analysis will be easy—a letter or speech—and even about a topic i can provide unique insight into such as history#i will get sophistication in all three frqs#i will do amazingly and end up with a 5. everything will go well tomorrow. i will feel well rested and focused. ok
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I just wanna say, thank you for sharing your art and ocs with us. I know you've struggled with art theft and rude behavior and burnout and all kinds of things, but its been such a source of joy and inspiration all these years to see your insane creativity and talent and personal expression. So thank you--thank you for risking all that unpleasantness to share the things you love. Admittedly I do kind of miss the old days of seeing your characters and art all the time, but I absolutely understand and respect your moving on. I'm glad you're living your life, and its still a joy to see the things you make, even if its not as often. Anyway happy new year, I hope this year brings you tons of kindness, fulfillment, and happiness.
Ah gosh that means so much to me, thank you dearly!
I genuinely love sharing my stuff a lot, and I love interacting with you guys and talking about what I make :) It makes me really happy that so many of you enjoy what I do! It's honestly a huge reason as to why I keep doing it.
And don't misunderstand me, my lack of art recently isn't really due to me moving on or not wanting to share more or sharing less (though I don't share as much lore as I used to due to the theft). But mostly it's because I have much more going on irl these days. I have a much bigger demand for my time irl with my partner, friends, work, family and all of that. I draw and chill when I can, I would do a lot more if I had the time haha
I also miss when I used to draw and share a lot, but a part of why I did so much of that was because I did not have many friends or much going on at all, and I had few other hobbies than "make art" so I just did that for much more time than what was probably healthy ^^; it's less about moving on from drawing and more about being able to spend time being a proper person now. Also some of the stuff i work with on my own time are things that take a lot of time to finish so it looks like I do a lot less
Though maybe one day I can finally dedicate myself full-time to art (in a healthier way) and just let loose! I hope you will stick around for that :]
Thank you for taking the time to write this out, it genuinely means a lot to me! I hope you have a fantastic new year too, and again, definitely hope you will stick around to see all the cool stuff I have cooking >:)
#ask#anon#part of growing up is just realizing theres a lot more to do than the one thing you thought was your only talent#i adore drawing its a part of me but its no longer ALL of me! and that has freed me to explore a lot of things more#im experimenting more with art#im having so much fun with the new stuff im making#a breath of fresh air for sure#i got a little sidetracked answering you sorryyy but i really want people to understand that i dont draw less because ive lost interest#in either my art or my characters. i love all of them like you wouldnt believe. i couldnt put it into words if i tried writing for a#thousand years and then for another thousand#i just lack the time and often energy to whip out shit like i used to. just means what i do now is a lot better quality though !#and you can rest assured whatever I draw is something i REALLY wanted to draw#ARG IM GETTING SIDETRACKED AGAIN
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Honestly it annoys me that pride, ambition, and generally having a big ego are always villainous/evil-coded personality traits because personally I think if you genuinely are a prodigy at what you do you are 100% within your rights, perhaps even deserving, of flaunting your skills and being proud of the fact you can do something that only a small fraction of other people can do. Is it even ego at that point if you genuinely are as good at your field/skill as you say you are? Are people not aware that becoming a prodigy at something is something that takes lifelong sacrifice and practice sometimes to the point of giving up on having a normal life, relationships, etc even potentially destroying your own health???? God I fucking hate how pride in your own skills and ambition are so villain coded all the time. As if it's evil to want to be good at something and be recognized for what you rightfully earned
#squiggposting#this is part of why i like pharma obviously lol but it's happened to me w#other blorbos ive had in the past#bc like full offense if you're capable of doing something like partially inventing the cures to 5 different terminal diseases#in only a few months/a year of research. or if you can do an organ donation and replacement surgery#with yourself as one of the donors. you literally ARE the best doctor who has ever lived#and you DESERVE to flaunt it bc. what fucking achievement is higher than that???#some feats demand recognition in my opinion. maybe it's just bc I've always been competitive#and from a young age enjoyed a (relative) degree of fame for being really good at certain things#ive always enjoyed being an object of awe bc bitch i spent my whole life working to be this good#do i hold it over ppl or treat them badly for not being as good as me? i admit i used to but i grew out of it#but the ego? certainly not. i think if you're good at something you should own it#i think if you're a prodigy and put your skills into doing good work youve earned your fame and recognition#this expectation of false humility we have is sooooo annoying#ohhhh boo hoo pharma is a little bit of an annoying asshole about being a better doctor than ratchet#the cures he helped design will save literal thousands of lives from now until the rest of time#but somehow the way he FEELS about it is more important than the CONCRETE POSITIVE GAIN he put into the universe?#and also in general i hate it when ppl assume that pride/ego and being kind towards others are mutually exclusive#in general i feel like i could write an essay about how self vs others is treated as a dichotomy#where it's assumed that in order to uplift others you have to self efface and diminish yourself#or if you flaunt yourself it automatically means you're putting down others. it's not true.#video essay topic for later lol
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Arranged marriage au. First kiss between them. It starts of sweet and gentle and then 5 mins later they are *heavily* making out. It doesn’t really go further for now, bc Thena is still working through her fear of men I think, but yeah. Please make this so fluffy that I could use it as a pillow. I hope you enjoy your day, you are a wonderful writer and I love reading your work ❤️
Thena liked coffee. Maybe he had always just assumed she preferred tea being a Brit and all. But Thena actually preferred to start her morning with a good amount of caffeine.
She did the whole thing, too--clasped the mug with both hands and sipped it gently still in her robe. It seemed to really bring her some peace to start the day that way. It was cute.
Gil lingered in the doorway leading out to the living room, which would put him in direct sight of the kitchen. He didn't want to disturb her morning routine yet. She didn't have any classes today, so she was probably enjoying the start to a day off for her. And she just looked so pretty, morning softness in her skin, bleary eyes, blonde hair all wavy around her shoulders.
"Hm," Thena sighed aloud after getting her first deep sip. She hadn't even emerged from her room for coffee in her first weeks living here. Either she had restrained herself or she secretly had a coffee maker in her room that he didn't know about. "Gil?"
Caught. He chuckled, coming out of his hiding place and ruffling his bed head. "Why do you look like that when you first wake up and I look like I just got out of the ring?"
Thena puffed through her nose at his joke. Even her sense of humour needed to be warmed up slowly, but she didn't tell him to shut up, either. "Sleep well?"
"Not bad," he acknowledged, although it wasn't a restful sleep and more sheer exhaustion. He looked down at his hands, making sure they weren't showing too much signs of use after his late work day yesterday. "You?"
"Hm," she purred, smiling into her coffee again. "Quite."
Gil accepted the brief answer. He moved around the kitchen island. "Any left for me?"
Thena moved out of the way of her precious coffee to allow him some.
"Thanks." He had been surprised initially, assuming she would prefer a coffee pod machine, maybe a fancy espresso machine that could make cappuccinos and lattes at home.
But Thena, being Thena, didn't know how to work them. She'd had a simple, old coffee maker at home, so that was all she wanted here, too. He at least sprang for the finest beans, but if it had more than four buttons, Thena would end up asking him how to use the damn thing anyway.
She still hadn't figured out the blender.
"Work?"
"Unfortunately," he chuckled as he poured and then immediately took a swig of the steaming hot liquid. "That an invitation to stay home?"
Thena feigned a shrug. "You do whatever you want, I'll be enjoying my day off. I would have thought as a crime boss if you wanted a day off you simply...could."
Unfortunately Gil thought of it as being the other way around. Crime waited for no man, and such. And most of all, half of what he really did was putting out fire after fire. Goons could handle administration, even turf wars. But the Boss handled emergencies.
"I wish, sweetheart," he sighed a little into his cup too. He looked over at her, leaning over the island, cradling her coffee like it was part of her dragon's hoard. "You enjoy--want me to bring back something for dinner?"
Thena visibly considered it. His eyes travelled down to her bare feet on the smooth tiles of the floor (with in-floor heating so she wouldn't get cold, of course). "That could be nice."
"Done," he nodded, finishing his cup. "Text me anything you're craving, or I'll just bring home something I know you like."
Thena said nothing, tilting her head at him with this funny grin on those lips of hers. She had no idea how alluring she looked as her hair slipping off her shoulder and swayed for a second. It found a home against the slope of her cleavage.
Gil looked down into his empty cup so as not to admire his wife's beauty a little too much.
"You like all this domesticity," Thena surmised, maybe even accused, grin and all. "Is that why you purchased a wife?"
He scowled; he didn't like it when she referred to their arrangement as a transaction. But she corrected, standing up to her full height and sliding closer to him against the edge of the counter.
"You know what I mean," she allowed.
But he had to admit, she had a point. He did like someone to come home to, and someone to see him off in the mornings like this was doubly nice. "I guess it's kind of nice to not just be me and the birds in the morning."
Thena laughed gently, but all he could see was the way her hair got a little caught against her earring. He reached out and she didn't move away, allowing him to loosen it for her. This particular lock joined its comrade resting against her shoulder.
He kissed her cheek first. It was affection she had been receptive to before, and he didn't want to push her too hard. But she turned her cheek toward him, maybe even leaned into it. Call him a romantic at heart, but there was something nice about kissing his wife in the morning.
"You'll-"
Thena turned her head as he leaned in again. He managed to avoid accidental contact, but they were completely nose to nose, eyes darting around each other's faces. Her lips were faintly pursed, held open mid-sentence.
Gil closed his eyes. Whatever was about to happen, it had to be up to Thena.
Mercifully, she leaned in first. Their lips pressed together in a brief and almost innocent way. It wasn't necessarily their first kiss, but it felt like it was. Gil moved his hands to her cheeks, tilting her head just so.
Thena moved closer to him, her hands finding a home on his chest. He slept in minimal clothing but he had mustered the effort to put a shirt on before coming downstairs. Her fingers pressed into the organic cotton fabric.
He pulled back, hovering closer to her lips. "Is this okay?"
He heard her swallow, and the idea of her having some butterflies charmed him. He peeked down between them, although her breasts obstructed some of the view. He saw her toes curl faintly and smiled.
"Hm."
Thena leaned in again. Their lips moved together more and more naturally, and she really wasn't a half bad kisser, all things considered. Their lips kept meeting like waves against a shore, and soon her hands were sliding up his shoulders to lock behind his neck.
His hands slid down to her waist, leaning forward. She was so soft, and she fit against him like he had sculpted her and wished her to life. And what a work of art she was.
Thena moaned.
It was soft and quiet, like the rest of their morning so far. But the cute, sexy little sound did something to him. It made him want more. He leaned in even more, pinning her between the counter and him. He put his hand against the edge so it wouldn't dig into her back, which arched naturally.
It brought her further away and yet she pulled him with her, just as eager to keep going. Their tongues met tentatively at first, but then more and more eagerly. Soon she was taking in breath sharply between each stroke of her tongue seeking his.
Gil groaned. It wasn't quite as melodic as hers. He sounded like a desperate man finally graced with the softness of touch, in his opinion. His brain shut out the rest of his day--and everything else around them for that matter. He was just a man trying to kiss his wife.
"Gil."
Fuck, if she knew what she did to him. Well, he didn't want her to know. But her breasts pushed against his chest, letting him feel how full and soft they were. Her knee bent against his and in reply his bent, landing between her legs until he realised it was the muscle of her inner thigh against it.
Thena pulled back, eyes wide. The softness of the slow morning had left her, her eyes sharp and her breathing heavy. Her skin had an enticing flush to it, even extending into her pillar of a neck. Her hands left him as if she had been too close to putting her hands on a hot pan. "S-Sorry... "
Gil swallowed down the desire raging inside of him. He moved carefully, extracting himself from her. This wasn't for the sake of a horned up old mob boss like him finally getting some ass. "No--no, don't be sorry. I'm sorry."
Thena's jaw bobbed but no sound came out. She was rooted to the spot, although something dawned on her and she darted her eyes away. Her robe had parted, but she tugged the hem of her nightdress down over those legs of hers.
Those legs of hers would be the death of him.
Gil pushed his mug away from the edge and turned. "I'll get ready for work. Think about what you want for dinner. Just text me if you wan anything."
He just barely peeked over his shoulder at her. She was still wrapping her head around what had just happened. He would find it cute if his brain weren't so aggressively consumed with what had just happened. He didn't want to be a man desperate and howling for his wife after one kiss, and yet here he was. But he was still looking forward to coming home to her later.
#Thenamesh Marriage Contract AU#thank you so much for the ask!!!!#I'm so glad you like this au#and also I am obsessed with the expression 'so fluffy I could use it as a pillow'#that is my specialty#it's what I wanna write it's what I wanna read#I hope you like it!#I like the bit you included about Thena's fear of men#because you're right she's been through a lot in her life and she's nowhere near ready for anything too heavy right now#she and Gil are still figuring out what they are#enemies to friends to lovers I'll die on that hill#kissing? check#making out? love it#Thena is there like holy shit when was the last time I kissed someone like that?#the answer is maybe never#she let instincts guide her#and then was mortified because in her mind#she's not supposed to develop feelings for Gil he's like...her boss or something#in Gil's mind he just doesn't want her to feel pressured to do anything#and also the man lives with an ethereal beauty he can only do so much#for the rest of the day he's spacing out at work thinking about making out like teenagers#and Thena never does text him because she's embarrassed#but he comes home with sushi and bibimbap and she falls further
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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Why does watching new BLs feel like a chore, even if I'm really excited about them?
*hesitantly rewatches ToF, HsF and LFLS for Nth time*
I slightly suspect I might be on the verge of burnout but it doesn't feel like it??
#i used to have really bad burnouts so maybe i should be clever this time and don't think im not doing enough#honestly my life is not easy right now but that's expected when u just immigrated to another country#but i always rest with working on personal projects or diving into fandoms#yet nowadays drawing/writing/watching is also UHHH CAN WE.. NOT..?#:( which is sad cuz i finally have a reason to get back into thai bls#dropthediary#let's not think about that i need to learn so many new things code difficult projects and i just had battle with army of fruitflies
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being childish is okay if that's what motivates you to get things done you need to...
#said through gritted teeth#i got stickers so i can put them on my laptop each time i brush my teeth#and i think i might use it for hw too#it really does help because its Tangible success and also fun. checklists would never work for me bc then id need to write everything down#AND its boring#stickers are fun. complete a task. place a sticker. simple easy decorative#i also have the rest of the pokemon stickers too lolz so ill probably end up using peanuts for teeth and pokeom for tasks#despite the parts of my brain that remain a little embarrassed about needing these things to function. im having fun#cringe but free#and honestly not that cringe#rambles
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