#i fear i still have much to learn...

[gomzdrawfr]

the hands situation is uhhhhh better? still crampy and cant fully extend my right hand fingers, but it's not shaky now :3

[an-na-ko]

Saw it was make a terrible comic day today (June 24 2025) so meet my cats

[leqclerc]

Charles Leclerc in Formula 1: Drive to Survive, Season 7 (2025)

[bacchuschucklefuck]

doing chibi is a good design exercise bc it forces u to think on shapes n essential details, essentially thumbnailing ur designs. its also a terrible design exercise bc it ends up looking cute no matter what

[idontmindifuforgetme]

The whole “be responsible not for other people’s feelings but to them” distinction is so so true… at some point you need to realize that other people’s insecurities really are their responsibility & dimming or contorting yourself to make them feel better helps neither you nor them. Firstly, bc they need to realize what they’re doing and grow up. And secondly, bc you’re not just compromising on a one-time thing. You’re comprising on who you are as a person. I don’t want to look back when I’m older and stay stuck wishing I held my ground despite people’s projections or asserted my presence more or didn’t apologize so much for who I am. I really just want to own everything (the good and bad) & continue doing what makes me happy

[cozymochi]

hihi ❤️i hope this isn’t too weird a request but since I can’t really draw fanart, would you be okay if somebody wrote “x reader” fics about your ocs? 👉👈 (especially nyoka he’s 😳) 

This is a strangely popular request 😭😭 Even got one last night! Again- I wouldn’t mind it and I would absolutely wanna see it if somebody did. I think it’d be fun.

A friend jumpscared me with a Nyoka one though. Commission @celesomnis for art (or @/thesilverlock) <- more utilized main.

And I’ll be honest, as far as I’m concerned the floodgates have already opened thanks to the above. I’d like to see it. I think they’d be entertaining. I kinda see that genre of stuff as it’s own lil’ niche as it is, and there’s fun in it even if i don’t project myself whenever i see em. I welcome the chaos.

[shikai-the-storyteller]

It's taking me ages to write this chapter because every time I look through old VODs / notes to check something, I come across moments like this that make me want to lie down face-first on the floor:

[Context: Pac commits to the idea of taking the Happy Pills so he can create a cure. He's about to write a note to Cellbit to explain his plan.]

Pac: If Cellbit puts himself in this position, it's worse for everyone, because Cellbit is smarter when it comes to coming up with strategic plans, so he is the thinking mind of the Favela Five group, so if he no longer has the mind, he’s not capable of solving this whole problem, you know? But if I put myself in this position to help Cellbit so he can get the cure... You understand? It's better if I'm the bait. Right? I can't- I can't carry things alone guys, I've already lost Mike [...] if I lose Cellbit and I alone had to carry things, I won't be able to. But I think Cellbit can manage better. He is more independent, and he has Roier. He has a husband. I'm trying to– to be lucid here, understand? That's all.

Date: September 11, 2023 || Timestamp: 03:10:10

[deoidesign]

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[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

Hi friends, time for my once-a-semester-ish update on my college lifeTM:

Last semester was Rough. Extremely so. I didn't know how I was going to make it through some of the weeks that I managed to get through, and it all culminated in me deleting my final paper for a really big (really difficult) class that was very important for my major just as I was trying to turn it in a little after midnight the night it was due. That was certainly an experience 😅 Thankfully the profs here are (for the most part) so gracious and kind, so I was able to rewrite the entire paper after I got home for Christmas break. That was pretty miserable, but I got through it, and I passed the class!! (barely, but I *did* pass!) I was really afraid for a while there that I would lose my scholarships, but I managed to just squeak through.

My roommate has had so many scary health situations this year, including an emergency trip to the hospital and an overnight stay there this week. I'm still processing a lot of this, so not a whole lot to say here yet.

This semester is definitely better than last semester, although my classes are difficult. I'm in two different philosophy(ish) classes, and they're definitely pushing me hard. I want to understand these concepts, and I came into the semester with the belief that it would help me a lot if I could learn to think this way... but I'm mostly just really exhausted right now and not sure if that will prove true or not.

And yet, even as tired and stressed as I am right now, I must say that God has been really kind. It's hard for me to admit lately, because I've been struggling with some old fears and questions. But as I type this out, it's the thing that is echoing around in my head -- God has been so good in certain ways, especially in providing friends and classmates who have proven themselves to be good, trustworthy, and kind. I'm so thankful for the communities that I've found here, especially this semester. I have come to love these people very much. I'm especially thankful for the community that surrounds the honors college here, and for the reading group I'm in. Both have proven to be true blessings.

Pray for me when you think of it -- especially for a specific situation that I'm trying to figure out how to handle right now, and want to grow wisely through. more in the tags.

much love - gurt

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

wanna ask how you feel about the eridan bpd headcanon/theory(?? not sure what to call it!) you're so good at your character analysis and i'd love to see your outlook on it

Since I don't have a degree or any formal training in psychology, I feel deeply uncomfortable diagnosing characters. I've made an autism joke before but only because I'm on the spectrum. He's definitely traumatized and anxious, but I mean those as descriptors of his behavior rather than capital-D Diagnoses. I try to focus on those when I can - the cause and effect of cognition, self-image, and behavior - and those factors may very well match up with DSM criteria, but I try not to touch an actual diagnosis with a ten foot pole unless the author has explicitly stated that X character has Y condition.

[bizlybebo]

theres something in me that wants to write the exact same au shifted slightly to the left 48269484 billion times

[moregraceful]

many things i have been keeping under wraps at work, such as pronouns, but also, very critically, age. bc i got that ageless mixed race asian swag where i am very clearly not an undergrad but also??? they just don't know. and it WHIPS and it is so funny to ME because all the managers and shift supervisors are like damn this girl in her mid-twenties is so easy to talk to, it's like talking to a peer. surprise bitch i'm older than you. and maybe this means i'm performing psychological experiments on cis men, but i am ngl if i hand you a two page resume that you don't read, it is simply none of MY business if you think i am in my mid-20s. they are going to be so mad when they find out lmao

[0246h]

misophonia + sensory issues are torture. i'm so tired of all of this.

[spw-art]

Wonder when he made the connection that Kars is just kind of shit socially

[bat-connoisseur]

I've never gotten being made uncomfortable or being freaked out by an animal as a basis for disliking them.

Irrational phobias aside, what's it matter? Does that stop them from being cool? interesting? Having unique traits and biology? I find the more an animal freaks me out the more interesting it is! The deep sea and many of its inhabitants freak me the fuck out but I love them. I'm scared of baleen whales but why should that mean I hate them? Should we bring whaling back into vogue because I felt scared when I googled 'blue whale'? No! So why would this not apply to things like wasps? Or leeches? Sure, they aren't mammals like a whale is, but they're still fascinating creatures with their place in the ecosystem, and they want to hurt you just as much as a whale does.

[iron-sides]

idle thought: is the entire plan with the bedrock prison just. too noble to ever work on ls. like, even in a perfect world where zam was into it or not on the team at all and they went through with it-- and even if they found a way to make it not like. forever solitary confinement (or like even if its not solitary i mean like-- a box with nothing in it that MAYBE periodically feeds you even if other ppl were there youd all start loosing it sooner or later i feel like). like even if the prison was ethical and noble and just and the plan worked perfectly: would that even be lifesteal.

like idk i just got here yk like i feel like i dont know enough to be making broad sweeping statements about what lifesteals Like but also like. its all about Trying. its all about Caring and Trying and Trying Shit Out and Doing Shit and for anything to matter at all you NEED a villain or theres nothing to push against.

like, in grendel by john gardener the dragon tells grendel that he Exists to torment herot, that he was born to be that which the men push against. it's a core theme of the book: grendel is predestined for hell. even if he wanted to be friends with hrothgars ppl he COULDNT be, he is very literally and TEXTUALLY trapped by the narrative.

if grendel disappears, or goes away or gives up his war before beowulf kills him, thats it. theres no grendel. theres no BEOWULF. there are, essentially, three core parts of beowulf the epic poem: the fight against grendel, the fight against grendel's mother, and the fight against the dragon. without the first the second and third cant happen. without grendel to push against, the danes are nothing.

if vitalasy's prison worked, and no one ever did anything evil or tyrannical ever again and no one thought he was evil because they all read his intentions perfectly and Got It. what would happen on lifesteal with no one to push against.

a few months ago, before he lost the mace, before subz dropped his wardens, in like late february-early march, there was a mapicc clip i saw where he said something along the lines of, at least if zam were on the server he'd give me an opp. server activity was low, everyone was doomposting about the season needing to end, and mapicc needed someone to push against.

i think even if vitalasys prison worked, it goal would not have been achieved. server activity would not be up. conflict ending means no more reason to play on the server-- mcrp NEEDS player-vs-player conflict to function or it stops being lore and becomes a mod video. i dont know what phases 3-5 were, i'm not there yet, but i'm really really interested-- i think vitalasy has a video on it and ill have to check that out probably today. idk. its just interesting to think about esp since im trying to figure out howd id fix this if i were to hypothetically write a fix-it au. i think the prison would fail.