#Consuming Existence

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

𝔐𝔬𝔯𝔱𝔞 𝔖𝔨𝔲𝔩𝔡  -  ℭ𝔬𝔫𝔰𝔲𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔈𝔵𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔫𝔠𝔢

[cedric-k-rossignol]

I'm not worth protecting. I wouldn't be here without you.

[dooanuh]

stay.

[azfellandco]

It's about Crowley bearing witness to Aziraphale's desire, about the way that desire is animal and visceral and enormous and terrifying*. And about how Crowley sees that and wants it. Crowley offers the ox rib and watches Aziraphale eat because eating provides them no sustenance, it's purely for pleasure, sensual, selfish. And Crowley introduces Aziraphale to this, and thousands of years later still takes obvious pleasure in feeding Aziraphale, in watching him eat. In watching Aziraphale's pleasure.

And I think it's significant the things we see Crowley put into his body in s2, and why: six shots of espresso, as something bracing before seeing what it is that made Aziraphale call him in his "something's wrong" tone; whiskey, because he has to give Aziraphale some bad news; wine, because they "might as well get comfortable" during the storm coming down on Job, after Aziraphale learns that Crowley is actually pretty unhappy with Job's suffering; and poison, to dispose of it so Elspeth (or Wee Morag, I've fogotten which is which) doesn't die. Crowley doesn't take Aziraphale's "something that calms you down", only consumes things that not only don't bring him pleasure but are an attempt to prevent pain. Crowley, who introduced Aziraphale to this important physical, sensual, selfish pleasure, denies it to himself. He denies himself the eccles cakes, he denies himself partaking in food, and he denies himself Aziraphale.

And we see throughout the rest of the season other things he's denying himself: the comfort and safety of a home in the bookshop in favor of the mobility and ready-made escape of living in the Bentley, the surety of saying what he really means during the confession. He cannot bring himself to admit what he wants, that he wants. Gabriel and Beelzebub "going off together" is not what he wants. He wants Aziraphale, but he doesn't say that, because he's never, in the years and years and years we've seen this season, let himself want or be seen wanting. "Going off together" is as close as he can get to speaking it. "A group of the two of us" is as close as he can get. So he has to watch as Aziraphale leaves and takes his pleasure in the world with him.

[scourgebff]

starclan’s discerning eyes

[vellichorom]

you sick little animal, even death itself pities you.

[meowdei]

This is a “pro ship” friendly space btw. Not bc I ship the pro ships myself, but bc I am anti censorship. Aka idc how problematic the ship is — I may not like the ship but I don’t censor people’s ability to depict wtv they want in fiction. Bc it’s literally Not Real

[prezs]

hi im thoroughly obsessed w the little manga adaptation for au beast and belle from disney mirrorverse

[momonokopan]

nine sols meme compilation i never posted

[once-more-with-anxiety]

me, gaining a new hyperfixation:

me, gaining a new hyperfixation:

me, gaining a new hyperfixation:

me, gaining a new hyperfixation:

me, gaining a new hyperfixation:

me, gaining a new

[consultingfujoshi]

absolutely certain that helly is in fact helena is in disguise by this point and it was not a difficult thing to work out frankly but what absolutely knocks me on my ass is the REASON she's down there. after 2x01 we all assumed she was trojan horseing herself to spy on the rest of MDR and dissuade them from causing any more trouble. makes perfect sense right the fate of this company is in her hands. but NO!!! helena with her incredibly privileged spoiled brat outlook on everything, who has been told she's part of the most important lineage that's gonna save the world her whole life, sees a version of herself she heretofore did not even see as HUMAN forging the kinds of connections she has never had once in her life, and you think she's just gonna keep sending her down there and letting her have that? when she, the heiress of lumon and great granddaughter of kier, doesn't? she wants to experience what it's like to have no one expect anything of you, where you can express yourself however you want and kiss people just because you feel like it!! she views her innie as so far beneath her and yet she's so desperate for a taste of what it's like to be her! so much she's willing to KILL HER!! she's down there because she's fucking jealous of her innie!!! girl oh my god!!!!

[g-raec]

2b

[hangingslothcentral]

I swear, every time there is news about trans rights in the UK a chorus of people start crowing about a certain wizard school franchise as though a decent response to trans people having their freedoms limited is 'don't engage with wizard school content'

to be clear: the problem isn't that we shouldn't talk about that content in the context of trans rights. it's that whenever a conversation about trans rights starts happening, everyone starts talking about that content. not only does that suck out all the air from the room and reduce a conversation about people's freedoms into one about whether you should engage with a specific media franchise, but it keeps that content in the centre of the public's attention.

advocating for trans rights is not the same thing as encouraging people not to engage with specific pieces of media. of course, discourage people from engaging with it if you want, but too often I'm seeing people see a conversation happening about trans rights in the UK and IMMEDIATELY starting to talk about this other issue instead. it's not that it's not relevant, it's that it's not the point.

*stop feeding the fire.*

[blookywooky]

I blacked out and now I have these two doodles on my canvas please help m-

[tsub1t]

suddenly got fixated on a loud banana looking head ass. I haven't watched a single episode of bnha. I'm going insane

my first drawing of mic is him doing the hand thing™ for some reason

[tagarilaghost]

I saw @softstarryblanket 's art, tripped really hard, fell face forward on the ground and somehow woke up to this.

This was originally meant to be a doodle-

Looking a little more like this: