#EPISODE TWO COME ON

[egophiliac]

don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12

[froopa-coopa]

i mean that could have gone worse

[madootles]

"The Lonely's really got you, hasn't it?"

[pinkantihistamine]

OUAT is found family in that they keep finding out everyone is in the same damn family tree

[realrosielol]

Vixens

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Thanks for listening to my sad backstory. Anyway, here's Wonderwall.

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[stark-lord]

Dead Boy Detectives (2024)

1.02 — The Case of the Dandelion Shrine

1.04 — The Case of the Lighthouse Leapers

[centaurianthropology]

I love how much the show has leaned into the two-sides-of-the-same-traumatized-coin with Murderbot and Gurathin. They are both part human and part machine, both a product of an end-stage capitalist hellscape that treats bots and humans and augmented humans as just different flavors of the same object. Both made to be cogs in the system for so long, until both of them broke free.

And neither of them have come out clean. MB is filled with anger and resentment, its main comfort is in escapism and silly tv shows. Gurathin is paranoid and self-sabotaging, forcing the world into an order around him that he clings to by his fingernails. They are both attached to Mensah, the first person who treated them as a person, and they don’t want to have to share her with the other. They both have this group of people they will both love, but both forever feel slightly outside of. They are both almost certainly drowning in loneliness, but far too cagey to actually express that loneliness or reach out to those around them for validation (who would gladly provide it!). Their senses of self-worth are through the floor, covered up with avoidance on MB’s part and arrogance on Gurathin’s.

It’s just really fun to see each scene with them, to see how much their mutual trauma makes them oil and water with one another. They can’t stand to look into that mirror.

[dreamweave01]

*Patting Leo’s back*

Honey…please….you are gay to the Marvel Cinemaric Universe and back….we all know this, yes?

But I beg of you MEET USAGI SO YOU CAN FALL IN LOVE ALREADY.

If it makes you feel any better, they do eventually get together :)

There's just a few things that need to happen first. . .

One of those things being for Leo to stop being a coward, put on his big boy pants, and allow himself to fall in love again. Though in his defense, establishing intimate relationships during the apocalypse wasn't exactly Paris.

[burningcheese-merchant]

I

[drolta]

ANNETTE & RICHTER CASTLEVANIA NOCTURNE SEASON 2

“You smell of burning.” “Yeah. That would be you. You’re like holding burning coals.”

[egophiliac]

crossing my fingers and wishing upon every star that chapter 10 finally brings us the tweel cards 🤞🤞

[sentientunconsciousness]

We, the jury, find LOTR guilty of being a horse girl movie in the second degree 🐎👩‍⚖️

[kriphantom]

I miss them oughhhh…..

[greypistacchio]

how is supernatural so unapologetically queer like. cOME ON

it's 9.10 ("Road Trip") and Crowley is using Sam's head as a pin cushion so they can talk to Sam without Gadreel listening in. which is obviously not something that Dean can bear for more than a few minutes, so he walks away on the very visible verge of having a breakdown about this whole mess!! and Castiel follows him, and Dean who is infamous for never reaching out when he's in pain does not push him away or pretend he's not in agony!!

there is a generous amount of eye-fucking, but there's also Dean being completely honest about how guilt is eating him alive, which isn't something he tells anyone about! usually he shoves it down for later, because he feels even worse about burdening others with his own pain and regret. after all, doesn't he deserve it!! didn't he do this to himself every time he fell short!! he's not going to give himself the mercy of leaning on someone else, because he doesn't get to. not after failing. he doesn't get to tell someone else about how painfully inadequate and guilty and exhausted he feels, because he doesn't get to share the burden or be understood.

but then,

DEAN.- Cas, I'm sorry (...). Kicking you out of the bunker. That's uh... You know, not telling you about Sam. CASTIEL.- You thought his life was at stake. DEAN.- Yeah, I got played. CASTIEL.- I thought I was saving Heaven. I got played too. DEAN.- So you're saying we're both a couple of dumbasses? CASTIEL.- I prefer the word "trusting". Less dumb, less ass.

in waltzes Castiel with his own mistakes and crushing guilt, and two sentences are all he needs to do to comfort Dean. why does he get through to Dean when Sam has been unable to for 9 seasons now? what is it about this Angel of the Lord in a trenchcoat?

see, Dean thinks himself inferior to Sam in many ways. he couldn't follow his heart like Sam did, he couldn't stand up to their father like Sam did, he isn't fundamentally good at his core like Sam is—or so he tells himself. but Castiel. oh, Castiel, angel of Tuesday, he who fell from grace. he whose good intentions unleashed the Leviathan on Earth, he who thought he did not deserve to be saved and let go of Dean's hand.

what sets Castiel apart, time and time again, is the extent to which Dean trusts him as an equal. sure, he's an angel whereas Dean is a human hunter, but that's the least important thing about who they are in each other's eyes. the exchange above makes me feral because it shows, once more, just how deeply Dean trusts Castiel and values his angel's opinion of him. Sam would have never made Dean snap out of it in just two sentences, let alone make him smile, but Castiel? Castiel pulls it off like it's as easy as breathing. like he was born to ease Dean's pain.

they see themselves in each other's suffering, they are each other's mirror, they are their father's little soldiers who could never be enough, they keep trying oh so desperately to save the world and their kind, they both refuse to give up on protecting others even when it tears their heart apart.

only Dean can get through to Castiel with an "I need you"

only Castiel can get through to Dean with an "I got played too"

(...see, you are not fundamentally bad, I trusted the wrong people in my desperation to save the world too)

only Castiel is Dean's equal in every way that matters. only Dean is Castiel's mirror as he stumbles through the vastness of human nature. only Dean and Castiel are each other's tether in a world that keeps tugging at them in the hopes that it'll rip them to shreds, and the CW might be queerblind but I am sure as fuck not.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Sublime Equine.

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