#Expressing myself thru memes >>>>>

[feastingonchrist]

how it feels to be around safe people and your nervous system healing because of that:

And this is me and God fr (He makes me so childlike as well as me feeling so childlike around the other safe people bc that’s the Gospel in them! Like many days i am just smiling and giggling over the littlest things because i’m being shown love and i am able to recieve that and in turn my joy is full of love too and that’s all i have to give out as i process all of this)

[eightspringdays]

StOP OVERANALYZING everYTHING

would you still love me if i made meronia a lil deranged but mostly disgustingly in love with each other in a way it's almost so saccharine that if you read it there's an 80% chance of your blood turning into condensed milk?

[botanical-garden-system]

🌺Intro to the Garden🪷

Hey yall, we are the Botanical Garden System!

We like using this platform to basically post how our experiences with mental health impact us—whether this is ADHD, trauma, MDD, OCD, or any other issue we have fought with. Most posts will be surrounding psychological research in trauma and dissociation, experiences or symptoms I have had, and general psychology resources I have “sailed the seas” to access in my craving for knowledge

I left my asks open and made a post expressing my answers to questions [here’s the post talking about this more]. You can pretty much ask whatever!

Spam/Reblog account: @botanical-gardens-system (we will post our responses to reposts and wonderful comments you guys have added thru that now. I genuinely read every reblog and have teared up with the amount of stories, love, and comfort you guys have gotten from my posts).

Music account: @botanics-beats (It’s kinda dead rn, sorry yall)

Our spam/reblog blog is where we house all posts we reblog. Usually there isn’t much text unless I am reblogging a response someone posted that I found important. Generally everything is system-related, but it sometimes has repost of other stuff like memes or something political.

DNI Criteria/Boundaries:

There is no DNI. DNIs are kinda useless and instead I will just block you if I don’t feel like I want to interact with you, and feel free to block me if you think I am violating any of your DNI. I never check DNIs really and I’m sure not many check mine. Just please don’t be a dick.

Bodily we are 20 years of age, and we would prefer having minimal interactions with minors in any dm setting. This page is safe from NSFW posts and content, so it is safe for minors to interact with, but we would much rather private dms and conversations be with other adults.

Understand I do not care about syscourse. I think it is a useless argument and it’s very frustrating to know it encompasses a good 50-70% of all content I see on here. I do not care to entertain discourse or debates on what you think is right or not, that’s not at all what I focus on in my studies.

Regardless of beliefs, this is going to be a safe space, and I do not want anyone being rude to people who reblog or comment on my posts. If I am uncomfortable with you, then I will block you at my discretion. [More info about my “beliefs” on the “debate” shit]

While I am not enforcing it, I would kindly ask you NOT to tag my posts with syscourse. That’s not a tag I want my posts to be under because I generally do not want to be roped into arguments. I’m not gonna block you if you have/if you do, it’s just a preference! I know some people reblog my posts under the tag as awareness, so this isn’t really some hard rule or anything. This just isn’t really a debate account, and you don’t get to be a dick to me because of a fabricated discourse issue I couldn’t care less about.

Fun facts about us/More Info on us:

We are working on a bachelor’s in psychology and want a master’s in nursing!

The ultimate goal is a master’s in nursing with a focus in PMHNP and a doctorate in clinical psychology. Being able to fund myself well through being a PMHNP and enjoying my research/teaching/helping through clinical psychology would be the most fulfilling life I could ever ask for.

We are a huge advocate of sharing and distributing free educative sources, and we have entire folders full of nearly 100 different resources we will gladly share!!

Since we are so big in psychology, our entire account is more psychological-science oriented to better understand our’s and other’s personal experiences. Our approach is always going to be empathy and understanding first.

Identity wise, queer is the best way we can describe ourselves.

A lot of us are generally agender, asexual, and aromatic, but we do have some alters who are pansexual and/or are a separate gender. Generally we are transmasc-neutral and the safest pronoun would be he/him. Neopronouns and xenogenders are fucking awesome and some of us do in fact use them!!

We are currently in a happy relationship right now!

We are traumagenic and experience the higher end of the dissociation spectrum (DID).

We do know our “origin” term would be considered traumagenic concerning our personal history. Our dissociative experience is very complicated and we have often felt alienated within the community, so we try our best to share feelings we hope others find comfort in. Honestly have no idea how to keep up with headcounts because our system doesn’t fully work like that but at least 10 have fronted on numerous occasions.

If there are any other adult systems that would like to interact, I would be happy too!

We’re friendly, I promise!!! However, this account is our only social media-related connection. We do not talk outside of this blog and are not associated with anything else! That being said, we do not feel comfortable sharing our simply plural unless you are someone we know deeply.

Tagging system for organization purposes:

“ #Omg a hit tweet /silly ” (more like a personal record to keep track of my top posts so I can respond to everyone/look at them)

“ #Botanical

[beddybites]

Hiyya! I came across your account while scrolling through the demon slayer tag and fell in love with your art! So i decided to draw Ro as a gift as well as to practice on my human art, hope you like it!! ^^

(I wasnt sure if i should post this on my account or nah so im sharing thru your askbox in the meantime)

also, i dont know what her sword sheath looked like so i whipped something up myself hope thats okay!

OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!! HI!!! HI!!!! HI!!! THIS IS SO SWEET???

oh my god dude your art is absolutely incredible. im literally so crazy over how you drew Ro oh my god my baby

AND THE MEME WITH RO AND HER CROW IS TAKING ME OUTTTTT. THATS THEIR EXACT DYNAMIC. AND THE GHOSTS MIMICKING RO'S EXPRESSION BAHAHAHAHA

thank you sososoososososo much i love this!!!!!

[fuckityshitbang]

DID YOU ASK FOR A RANDOM EXPOSITION ON RONALDO FRYMAN (and also lars kind of)? NO? oh. well, um. too bad

listen. i GET what kinda character ronaldo is supposed to be (su), but i still think he was kinda failed by writing. i dont think he was meant to be or needs to be anything deeper than a meme chara but i legit feel episode rocknaldo legit contradicted a lot of his pre-existing character mechanisms... it bore resemblance to ronaldo but even his like..faults and stuff aren't really super consistent with how they were expressed prior lol

anyways this isnt about rocknaldo or the inconsistency from the writers for "unimportant" characters like the townies, it's just..about ronaldo... general thoughts etc. ok

[[MORE]]

that bein said one thing i think it does solidify thats consistent and tracks is that ronaldo definitely has a legitimate mental disorder of some kind (not to curry sympathy for a shitpost asshole character or to talk badly on those w mental disorders, myself being one of them) and that additionally he does rly struggle w empathy

but i think a lot of this is bc hes like...legitimately kind of delusional, for whatever reason. but on top of "whatever reason," i think he's delusional and has trouble comfortably existing in reality bc he finds it so understimulating and tbh bleak

he treats the fry shop like his thing he does UNTILLLLL he makes some kind of fantastic groundbreaking paranormal something something.. he definitely has a hungry, selfish ego that ultimately isolates him, but he doesn't care bc this same powerful desire to ascend beyond his tiny destiny and insignificant lot in life is more important than bonds. i legit think what happened at the lighthouse did really wound him in an emotional, social way that probably closed him off even further bc of lars.. but i think that it's likely lars was a friend second and a means to an end first. it was the first person who not just humored his hyperfixative conspiratory mind, but supported it

which like yes i get they were rly young and it COULD be he and lars only became friends bc there werent a lot of other ppl lars's age he could like...befriend... but there WERE other options prolly; i think lars legitimately had the same kind of like, self-destructive pining for something better - he kept it in reality, and still at least in what was attainable in beach city, but i think ultimately, they were probably both empathetic to the idea of grand adventure, etc... hence why lars, once he's forced into a variety of dangerous situations that forces him to finally see just HOW tiny his problems really ARE, was able to suddenly take to such insane heights of adventure/responsibility/etc bc his insecurities became like.. ridiculous

which is something i think ronaldo wants; he wants something extraordinary to happen to HIM, but funnily, i think he's more unwell than lars lol. and you can't say that ronaldo was more or less likely than to have some crazy life altering shit happen to him as it did to lars thru the series, before..shit indeed got crazy for lars

i wonder if ronaldo like..further resents lars for his sudden "ascension" or becomes obsessively curious w his adventures. or both. dangerous. lol

anyway there was no real point to this except i think ronaldo deserved a more consistent analysis and portrayal. not that there was time for such a minor chara for additional exposition but they shoulda at least kept him IC. idk. thanks for coming to my TED talk

[mithliya]

So I came across your ‘TRAs b liek, “r4pe thru deception but it’s for survival”’ post and it got me thinking to the moment I sorta peaked.

I am trans-masc dysphoric & the Super Straight meme was going around. I felt distressed by it because, to me, it was another thing denying trans people their gender identity. I didn’t care about the “these people won’t date you because you’re trans” aspect as I wouldn’t want to be with someone who wouldn’t like me back anyway. Who would, right? The meme was like a statement against perceived predatoriness, but we weren’t like that!

I thought this sentiment was sensible and widely shared among the trans community. No. It became apparent that there was a sense of entitlement and resentment specifically to these people expressing through meme that they weren’t interested in dating(read:fucking) trans people. And lot’s of trans people/groups I frequented shared that from a mild to major extent. It weighed on me heavier and heavier that, oh, this is rape rhetoric and y’all are for excusing and perpetuating it.

I can’t really opt out of my dysphoria but I did distance myself from these groups. It did me a world of good but yikes. The call is coming from inside the house.

damn, it’s tough to be trans and see the issues with the movement and community so like kudos on you for that. but i’m sure there’s reasonable trans ppl who see an issue with it but unfortunately way too many seriously push the rhetoric that people are wrong for having sexual boundaries if those sexual boundaries exclude trans ppl. and this rhetoric is thrown ESPECIALLY at gay people and even moreso as lesbians. i was a massive TRA until i came out tbh, bc when i came out i was almost immediately bombarded with “would u date a trans woman??” messages (which i didn’t get as much when i called myself bisexual briefly, or sapphic) and i gave the most TRA-approved kind of message possible. i was like “oh i’d totally date a trans woman! but only post-op, because i’m penis-repulsed and cannot deal with sexual interactions with penises”, sth like that but even more TRA-ish than that. i got soooooo many anons calling me terfy and transphobic etc, i had a decently popular blog (way more popular than this one) & i echoed all the TRA arguments until that point.. and that’s honestly what got me to even look at what terfs are saying to begin with bc i wanted to counter how it’s not the same. i would argue with “terfs” on my blog for a while but agree on the sexual boundaries stuff and a lot of the feminist stuff and anti-porn stuff and anti-kink stuff, until eventually i changed my mind on the TRA stuff rly.

sometimes i wish i could go back to being a TRA. i don’t really believe in the women in “terf” spaces anymore or have hope that they’ll get any better. but i literally cant make myself change my mind no matter how much i try 🤪 so, welcome to the club anon… and good luck bc this place isn’t the best either.

[illgetthe]

pnat rambles beware

all the new side character informatio makes me just want to see more and more and also write/analyze them for myself. but it's also a little bit of that one fanfic meme where it's like "the more mid-- but not bad- the more fanfiction there is." Like paranatural is still awesome but im getting whole character personalities and lives at once. like.

isabel's story was more slow burn, and based on character expressions n moments. Same with some of isaac's, who's character I really like too . Losing eightfold was an important moment for isabel and info dump for us. and frankly i really like it that way. Same with stephens, spenders partially, even mina/spender/BL scene... genuinely a lot of the story until the recent stuff... which did hold the story back some. Like it takes FOREVER. but now everything is too fast, which is understandable- we're getting old, gotta reveal all these points, etc. mysteries have been laid down and now need solving. Plus some reveals have to be said with words! Isabel/Isaac/Ed character arcs have been more emotional than reveal-based. Hopefully we'll get back to some of the bigger mysteries, or emotional arcs (coach oop was interesting enough. i think cody's upcoming escape will have some cool emotions. hes such an intriguing guy...I rlly like the shrike reveal.) which light cult/death cult/werewolf/vampire seems to hopefully be leading too...but for the character moments, they aren't impacting me as much bc less build up. It used to be there was always a main character leading us thru the meeting of background characters- now it's been side characters carrying everything. The pace might have to do with the new prose format, too- harder to draw things out, show expressions imo. Forced to tell us what they're feeling more point-blank. And cody's character is very constant smile person, which is part of his appeal, but also gives us less show-dont-tell moments. his whole family history is revealed in 2 pages. Not his whoole plan, tho, which im quite excited to see- expecting some twists, etc. I'm so excited to see everything connect but also if we have another character we know nothing about give us all this information at once it might make me go AAAA

[ginhawatranslations]

The Story of Unit 24-C - Chapter 14

Read the previous chapters here.

HAYAAN BY CHRSTN

I don't know what was going through Noah’s head yesterday. What made him kiss me? Was it the alcohol? I mean, he downed four bottles of Smirnoff by himself. Even the endorser on the LED billboard last night probably didn’t see that coming.

It wasn’t my first kiss, though. Back when I used to go out in El Nido, sometimes I’d end up kissing someone because of a dare, or someone would just suddenly pull me in for one. But it never led to anything scandalous. I know my limits when it comes to that sort of thing.

But this is different! Noah’s a guy! He’s the first guy who’s ever kissed me.

“Hey.” I snapped back to reality when I heard his voice. We were sitting across from each other at the table, eating the lugaw I bought. “You’ve been spacing out. Did I do something dumb yesterday?” he asked with a furrowed brow, clearly trying to remember what happened last night.

“Nothing. You stood up to walk and just collapsed. You’re such a pain when you’re drunk,” I said and took a bite. Well, it’s true. I had to drag him by myself down to Unit 24-C. I even went back up to grab all the food containers we used.

“Okay, I’m sorry. Ouch.” He winced, clutching his head.

“Chug more booze,” I said. I decided not to dwell on what happened last night, since it was probably just the booze talking.

Noah grabbed some tofu and spooned some lugaw into his mouth. “But you know, I had a weird dream last night… that felt really real.” He said, and I froze, waiting for what he’d say next. “I kissed Sarah. Weird. It felt so real.”

I let out a sigh of relief. “Then go hit her up. Seems like it’s stuck in your mind.”

“Why are you so grumpy this early in the morning?” he asked, squinting at me. “Let’s just think of it as a goodbye kiss...even if it was only in a dream.” He smiled again.

“You’re nuts,” I muttered.

“What did you say?”

“I said you’re cleaning up the table after this. I was the one who went down to buy this. And I have a 10 AM class,” I explained.

“Oh, perfect. Come with me. I also have a 10 AM class.”

“There are still jeeps outside.”

“Oh come on, Kelvs. Let me make it up to you for being a pain last night.” I didn’t argue anymore. A free ride, and it’s air-conditioned. Why would I hesitate? He was the one insisting anyway.

I quickly got ready, and so did Noah. He slung his T-square and duffle bag over his shoulder. “Your jersey’s still hanging on the veranda,” I reminded him.

“Shit. Right.” He said and headed there. “Thanks for the reminder, Kelvs.”

“Who would suffer if you forgot it? Me again,” I said.

We walked down to the basement parking to get his car. I can say Noah’s not a reckless driver. He’s actually quite considerate on the road. If he were an asshole behind the wheel, I wouldn’t ride with him as often as I do.

The only sound in the car was the band Silent Sanctuary playing on the stereo. He was humming along badly as he drives. Good thing he’s better at basketball.

“No cooking today?” he asked. “No free cupcakes? Or anything homemade tonight?”

“You love free stuff, huh? We’re not baking today. As if you’re the one paying for the ingredients. Always wanting freebies from me,” I said.

“I just don't want them to go to waste. You guys bake so good. Better than that small café near Ardano University,” he said. I couldn’t help but smile at the compliment.

“Your ears perked up.”

“Idiot. I just remembered a meme,” I said, deflecting. “A meme about small coffee shop haters.”

“Let’s hit McDo drive-thru, my treat,” he said, and I looked at him in surprise. He laughed at my expression. “What? I was such a hassle last night. Don’t go giving me the silent treatment for days again.”

“I didn’t say anything. But since it’s your treat, fine.” Free food is free food - I’m not gonna act tough.

There wasn’t much of a line. He bought a burger and a coffee float. I just got a float since I was still full from breakfast.

Good thing we left early, so we weren’t late for class. We were on the road to Ardano University.

“Don’t you find it expensive to drive to Ardano every day?” I asked while sipping coffee. “Gas is pricey. It’s not very practical since you can get there with just one jeep ride.”

“I don’t know how to commute,” he said, and I was surprised. “What? Why are you giving me that judgey look?”

I shook my head. “Wow. I only see rich kid problems like that on TV.”

“Well, growing up, my parents didn’t allow it. So it’s not really my fault I never learned,” he defended.

“How much do you spend on gas weekly?”

“Hmm... around 500 to 1000? Depends if I have other errands.”

“See? For jeeps, it’s 13 pesos one way! That’s 26 pesos roundtrip. Multiply that by five days. Look how much money you could save.” I was trying to point out the huge difference in our expenses.

“Well, I’m spending for comfort,” he said.

“Comfortness my ass. For a 10 to 15-minute trip to school?” I asked, but then paused - right, we’re not the same kind of student at Ardano. “Well, yeah. You’re a basketball player. You’ve got a rep to maintain. It’d be weird to see you riding a jeep.”

I lost that argument. Damn.

“No, actually I like that idea.” He nodded while driving. “When we have morning classes together again, let’s commute. Just to try the experience,” he said. Ugh, rich kids. They just want to experience our daily struggle, commuting.

“Can you hand me the drink?”

I grabbed his coffee from the holder and passed it to him.

“How am I supposed to drink that?” he asked, nodding toward his hands on the wheel.

“Your car’s automatic. Don’t play me for a fool,” I said.

“Oh come on, Kelvs. I can’t drive one-handed. This is for our safety,” he guilt-tripped me.

I sighed.

I grabbed the straw, poked it into the drink, and held it up to his mouth. He immediately took a few sips. I stared at his lips and suddenly remembered the kiss from last night.

What the hell, Kelvin? Why are you remembering that? It wasn’t even a real kiss.

Thankfully, we arrived at school. Noah was confused why I rushed out of the car after he parked. I just said our professor had arrived. But the truth? I suddenly felt hot just remembering what happened when I looked at his lips.

**********

The past few days, Noah and I have been spending a lot of time together. I’d say we’re definitely friends now. I also stopped overthinking the kiss - it would only mess up what we have.

We go to the gym together now, he brings me along on morning jogs, and sometimes we hang out and explore random cafés. Just typical hangouts. Sometimes we even watch series at night. Like tonight.

“Kelvs, is it done yet?” he asked, casually lounging on the couch while waiting for the series to start.

“You feeding tapeworms or something!?” I snapped while grabbing the fries off the stove. I made a sauce with ketchup and mayo, then sprinkled cheese powder onto the fries. “If you helped, we’d both be relaxing by now.”

This jerk thinks he hired a maid, huh.

“The last time I helped in the kitchen, you just yelled at me,” he defended.

Of course I did. He’s such an idiot. Instead of salt, he added sugar to the dish. Then blamed me for not labeling the containers. As if that’s my fault.

“Just accept that basketball is your only talent,” I said and placed the fries and sauces on the table. He played the series and we sat together.

We’re currently watching The Society on Netflix. So far, so good. We’re only on episode 3 but we’re already hooked because of all the issues it tackles.

We’ve discovered a lot about each other lately. Like how he doesn’t like onions in corned beef, how he loves western shows and movies, doesn’t drink milk tea, and hates pineapple on pizza. So picky and spoiled.

“Second sem’s ending soon. Got any plans?” he asked, eyes still on the screen.

“Plans? I haven’t even taken the finals yet,” I replied. “Hmm… Going home to El Nido. I’ll probably stay there for a month before heading back to Manila.”

“When are you leaving?”

“August 10.”

“Should I come with you to El Nido?” he asked, turning to look at me. “I mean, it’s break anyway and I’ve got nothing to do at home.”

“You’ll have nothing to do there either. How many days are you thinking?”

“Just a week. Then I’ll head to Nueva Ecija. I’ve never been to El Nido,” he said. I honestly don’t mind if he vacations there. But damn it, I’ll be the one taking care of everything again.

“Then have a vacation. Ask Darius too if he’s free. So you’ll have someone for the island tours.”

“You're flying CebPac? What time’s your flight?” he asked, and I nodded—it was the only one with a piso fare sale.

“6:30 AM.”

He got busy on his phone while I kept eating and watching. Damn, this series is good.

“Done.” He grinned, showing me the confirmation - he booked the same flight.

“Holy shit, you’re serious?” I asked, shocked by how impulsive he was. We just talked about it and he already booked it.

“Ah yeah? Let’s enjoy Palawan together, roommate. I won’t plan anything. You’re in charge,” he said with a smile, eyes back on the screen.

“Idiot,” I replied. “Just make sure you don’t fail any classes this sem so you don’t have to retake anything during the break.”

“Easy,” he said.

After exams, Noah really did come with me to El Nido.

Translator's Notes

Hayaan means "let (him/her/something be)".

Kelvin said Alak pa ("More booze!") to mock Noah for having an hangover. We translated it to chug more booze to match Kelvin's usual tone.

Filipinos usually shorten the name McDonalds to McDo.

The minimum fare at jeepneys is Php 13 (US$ 0.22) for trips less than four kilometers/2.5 miles.

In the original, Kelvin said "Taeng-tae ka ba?!" (You're in a rush to poop?!) but it doesn't make sense considering the context of the paragraph. We changed it by using the tapeworm as reference.

Cebu Pacific (CebPac) is a low-cost airline that's popular for its Php 1 (US$ 0.02) base fare sales.

[hexposition]

i made myself a bit ill reading lots of anti jayvik posts...

on one hand i agree that jv has taken the fandom by storm, that people now push aside a lot of sociopolitical commentary, female characters, misinterpret the narrative to fit into the shipping lens, and grossly stereotype both vik and jayce thru their disability and trauma, fitting them into easily digestible roles that can be memed, milked through AUs, and whatever else.

on the other hand, it leaves a bad taste in my mouth because the way ive approached this, and the way i see my circle approaching it, usually centers around the characters and analysis of their motivations first and shipping second. art is easy to gush over and repost, but it's always with understanding that it's not a reflection of the entire character, just an imagining ..

i suppose i cannot fault people for expressing their frustration, because im also frustrated with the lackluster media analysis and lots of character's stories being pushed aside in favor of the "jv narrative", but it would also be disingenuous to entirely ignore their narrative, dismiss it and the entirety of s2 as some kind of wish fulfillment, since... they are instrumental to the development of the story.

i love the jv dynamic, but i do think there's too much fluff around it, and not enough focus on the actual insanity of their relationship to each other (like that post i reblogged earlier).

but maybe i just haven't been exposed to mindless jv shippers and mel haters enough. if i was, maybe id also start hating the ship by proxy... (...nah)

[theysellpizza]

[ladybirde]

[irxnmaiden]

(various topics meme) 15, 18, 26, and 29. :)

rpc thoughts/opinions prompt! [✉️]

#15. icons

icons are rly fun honestly! i think they have the ability to add a lot of personality to a scene, and sometimes can assist in establishing context or helping to emphasize tone. THAT all said, i don’t find them necessary at all—i’m primarily here to read threads, so icons or no icons, the writing is where my focus remains and my interests lie!! i don’t bypass blogs just bc they go icon-less, in fact its oftentimes the opposite? i love seeing how ppl can use their words alone to paint the entire picture. whichever way someone chooses to express their muse is valid tbh, do what feels comfortable!

#18. fanon interpretations

throw a stone and hit any of my muses, and it's apparent how over-the-top and carried away i get from canon lmao... pkmn is the perf franchise for it too; not only are the settings vast and the thematic concepts plentiful, but there is often a lot of negative space to fill on these muses’ canvases (this seems esp true for most canon characters in the earlier games). i aim for my interpretations to feel realistic (to some degree) so i do keep in mind the little canon i am given... but that’s still more for reference, and not something i strictly abide by. its thrilling how ppl have fun w their muses’ exploits and interpersonal relationships, i’m so here for how muns deviate from canon in order to conceptualize something entirely new.

yes i understand in retrospect i absolutely did not understand the topic lmao

#26. your character

jasmine, jasmine... i will never forget witnessing her for the first time ;; it was after school, while watching my friend nick play gold before a crowd of like 12 of us (he was that kid that always had new games right when they came out lol his family had it made like that). he was just reaching the jasmine gym battle by the time i walked up. as you can imagine, being an elementary schooler i was not using the internet as it was back then much at all, so leaks etc were not accessible to me (what few leaks existed at the time, that is); same was true for p much everyone else in my grade, so none of us had any idea about the slayage we were in for. we all saw the two magnemite and kinda brushed them off like “lmao that’s cute”, the disappointment was kinda real ngl 💀 but that disappointment didn’t last long whatsoever, bc the second she sent steelix out... the collective gasps in that lunchroom, lemme tell you! it was quite possibly the greatest thing any of us had ever seen in our lives up to that point, so serious when i say lives were changed that day ;;

so then when i finally received the game a couple months later, i was so excited to get to her gym and battle her for myself. i fell more in love going thru the amphy plotline, and the rest was history as they’d say. she was (and still is) a v overlooked character, but writing her is tons of fun c: (as is seeing her get some exposure from pokemas!) srry this was long-winded as HELL-

#29. your first muse

for the pkmn fandom, my first ever muse was (surprise) misty! this was back on lj, in a community that prob died out in 06 lmao. she was a lot of fun to explore, and became the perf gateway muse before i decided to try exploring diff personalities within the pkmn universe. ive written her since several times, and she’s grown into a more developed muse of mine following that first incarnation for sure. always will have a soft spot in my heart for miss kasumi ♡

[askfallenroyalty]

Children these days don't have any internet safety... Do you know how much 8 year old kids I saw in costumes of Squid Games last Halloween? At least where I live, Among us is nothing compared to what they see daily in their phones (sorry, I know this is kinda unrelated lol)

// i fully agree and i don't mean to lessen your point but tbf, i believe the "meme" of squid game got so broad that i'm pretty sure the 8 year olds wouldn't have watched the actual show. there was that viral clip of an animation of the among us dude crossing over with fnf (which, shouldn't be for kids either and i'm pissed) and it was in a squid game. so i'm pretty sure (?) kids just have a cultural osmosis on that thru memes. anyone else can give some insight on this?

// anyway its so fucking bizarre. growing up for myself we didn't share our legal name, state, or age cause like, why tf would you??? the internet is forever and everywhere. you don't broadcast yourself like that.

// but now anyone can be a celebrity and everyone's online all the time. when i was a kid, you got online after school for like, 2-4 hours, you'd have to wait for the internet to load on your shitty computer at my mom's house. but now babies have it at their finger tips

// i'm not going to make this a big topic but I fear for kids growing up like they do, i know when i was in highschool tumblr 2014 really, really fucked me up to the point i was driven into a depressive spiral that took ages to recover from. and that's all BEFORE tik tok. jesus christ.

// btw kids, 1) this blog is for teenagers 13+ at the very least. if you're like, younger than that, please leave tumblr and find a children's social media that works for you. (i know club penguin isn't a thing anymore and these sites are harder to find but like, there's gotta be something that's not tumblr. this site isn't exactly child friendly.)

// like. i get it, everyone's online and to just remove the online world from you wouldn't be fair, you can't not socially fit in without it, i get that. but please limit your screentime and find hobbies (and IRL friends) when possible. doing something physical with your hands is a great way of grounding yourself offline and i cannot express how important that is for us as human beings

[waterloggedsoliloquy]

( OC Questions meme ) 1 , 10 , 33 , 40

1. Your first OC ever?

The VERY FIRST OC i can remember i woulda been 5 or 6 maybe. he was an alien named Zogmorf and came to earth as a researcher.

10. Introduce an OC with a complicated design?

OPAL SCHILLER.BIG DUMB STUPID IDIOT PEACOCK BOY. WHYD I DO THIS TO MYSELF

33. Your shyest OC?

YOU may not believe it's miranda on account of them being very expressive and even loud, but shy does not mean quiet shrinking violet, it just means reserved towards meeting new people, which they super definitely are.

40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!

heres my VERY FIRST cheems art!!! i made her during a pretty bad time: my cat was dying slowly, and i bought FFXIV to be on call with my friends during quarantine while i pulled several all-nighters for weeks to keep an eye on his palliative care. it brought me a new passion, got me closer wirh my existing friends, and i met a lot of really great people thru the game, including my two luvley partners!!

[drivingsideways]

hi! baby writer anon again :D

a few days ago i saw a post that said writing is basically committing word crimes and that made me laugh out loud! LOL

it's this one: https://jacubesilvora.tumblr.com/post/673918071165091840/writing-is-not-about-telling-an-epic-story-or

and then today i had the epiphany while bathing that i feel unable to write sometimes because of -

a. how much of me and my inner feelings i am exposing thru my writing. readers may not know about it, but i do , and my closest friends do

b. i admire other people's fic and writing styles. i love the way they've shaped the characters and told their story. i am worried my take will not live up to theirs, which is an illogical statement, but it is what it is. i am worried my writing style is not 'good enough'. again, illogical. so im going to start calling it writing style expressive style because that's exactly what it is. i am just trying to creatively express myself and my thoughts and feelings about some things.

Hahaha, " word crimes" is definitely our calling, baby-writer anon!

Hiiiiii!

Fwiw, I tend to think all the best writing is born from deep feeling; you have to be interested in the world and that's never only an intellectual engagement, is it? But I know what you're saying- writing anything is exposure- in tumblr meme terms- the mortifying ordeal of being known- and depending on what you're writing about, it can be excruciating. One of the terrifying and glorious things about writing is, I think, that you get to know yourself through the process of writing, even more than a reader might. That's always a rewarding, if difficult, journey. It doesn't really end; every new thing you write will be part of that accumulation of self-knowledge. And sometimes that knowledge sits really heavy. But this is also practice, if you know what I mean? It's just part of becoming comfortable with who you are, and not to sound like THE OLD that I am, but time will do some of the heavy lifting for you :)

Joan Didion famously wrote that she writes to find out what she thinks, wants and fears (paraphrasing badly!). I remember reading that and having this lightbulb moment about why I write- I write to find out what I feel, because that's not always clear to me. And you know what, that realization freed me up a bit. I don't want to get on a soapbox here about how sexism has devalued writers whose primary pre-occupation is with the emotional world, but you know, I had internalized those things as a reader and writer even before I put a single word down on a page, and it took some practice to un-learn those early lessons.

As for writer-envy: I feel you??? When I read some stuff by fave writers or every time I discover a new writer whose work is astonishing, I'm like, wow, I really have nothing to contribute to this world as a writer. But y'know, then the writing bug itches hard, and I write. Because despite all the evidence pointing to my mediocrity, I have to. There's nowhere else to put the story and my tiny brain needs the space, ok? *shrug hands emoji *

So let us write more, fellow baby-writer anon! Let us write anything! Everything! A limerick, a novella, a novel that no-one will read but us, a paean to our favourite star's eyebrows that our friends will dig up on our fiftieth birthday and recite back at us. It's all good! "Expressive style" is a great way of looking at it, and I'm totally borrowing this from you. My expressive style is dull prose, so what, anon? Let's carpe this diem etc.

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SLAPPA YOU. for the ask meme:

2. what's your favorite thing about your style?

8. what's the most fun and the least fun parts about your process?

WHY YOU SLAPPA ME. MEAN TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (thanks for the ask rob lol)

2. what's your favorite thing about your style

i've been pretty happy with how i depict facial expressions, and getting a specific vibe to them. or, when there is a lack thereof, still getting the subject's emotions across thru posing + posture. how they hold themself. that kind of stuff!

8. what's the most fun and the least fun parts about your process

most fun: hm. so sometimes when i'm drawing a particular expression i pull my face into the same one. and that's funny when i notice i'm doing it. (one of the more memorable times was when i was trying to draw the penis face lmao) sketching, to an extent. it's fun when i'm not doing anything too wild - though the scope for 'too wild' is. rather large. for me. due to lack of drawing. but if it's something i'm familiar with drawing, and it goes quickly, then sketching's nice.

least fun: ough. anything that's time consuming, really. things i'm not used to are /guaranteed/ to eat into time, because i have to go online to see how other people do it, and then figure out how to do it myself. and this happens /so often/ because i take large hiatuses from art, and then forget how i did anything prior. lineart takes a while for me, most of the time, and it gets frustrating to turn off the sketch layer and not like how the lines look. so i redo them often, and that's a whole deal. sketching is not immune to being unfun, when it's something i don't really know how to draw. sometimes you hold an image in your head and you're not able to get it down and that sucks.

but tbh even things that aren't /fun/ i'm willing to do, if it goes towards the finished piece, and knowing that it will look nice given enough time is enough for me to push through it. although, i haven't done clean lineart in about a month because i haven't had any large pieces tho. been nice to keep things loose.