#I FINALLY GOT WHAT I WANTED FOR HER....

[raviollies]

Wanted to organize my thoughts on Lorelai

I wanted to explore multiple things with Lorelai - namely Responsibility, and Body.

Lorelai is a character haunted by responsibility - or rather her desire to not face it, with the main conflict being the murder of her father. It was an accident, there was no pre-meditated intent, however, it had happened, and Lorelai ran from it rather than facing it. Which bleeds into the next point.

Did the murder actually happen? I used the phrase 'Schrödinger's murder' because Lorelai never saw the conclusion. While she assumes he was dead, and for all intents and purposes, as she is the only witness, it is true, but there is the slightest possibility that he did not die that night. As long as Lorelai does not face the consequence, the responsibility of what she did - her father is both alive and dead. The crime happened, and never did. It is her fear of acknowledging and taking responsibility for her actions that halts her from ever opening that door, from ever seeing the actual conclusion - if the 'cat' really is alive or dead.

But that doesn't change whatever has transpired within the room - just because Lorelai does not acknowledge it, does not change the 'cat's real fate, only Lorelai's perception of it, only her own healing and closure.

For her to be able to get closure, to move on, she must face responsibility for what she did rather than running away from it. She 'accepts' it, saying the 'cat' is dead but still refuses to open the door - the final step necessary to bury the 'cat' once for all. Only then can she find peace from the yoke of the past.

Secondly is body- this one is a little more nuanced. Lorelai is a lesbian, which interacts with gender in a particular way ; I highly recommend taking a look at My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness

Lorelai has faced a lot of issues over her presentation - she had her own style and her sexuality put her at odds with her rather conservative and old fashioned parents. Her struggles with being accepted as a vampire, is a metaphor for interactions as a queer person with others, unknowing if they will accept you, or consider you dangerous simply for existing.

Though while I needed to mention this as it's an important facet, there is more to this then her sexuality. The way I write vampirism, Lorelai would have developed Analgesia ever since becoming undead. She has decreased sensitivity to all physical stimuli (with the exception of light magic and daylight), thus her ability to feel warm, cold, pain, and pleasure is significantly reduced (It's due to this she prefers to be in her bat form when seeking warmth, it is a much smaller surface area to warm, thus making it easier to experience any temperature change).

This impacts her libido, as Lorelai has really no drive to participate in sex. She very much is interested in women, and has no issues with concept of sex, however due to her decreased feeling, it ends up impacting her sense of self. It is not an inherent part of her, like asexuality, but rather a symptom of her own tumultuous relationship with her body.

This all in combination causes Lorelai to experience dissociation and depersonalization. Her general physical numbness makes her feel as though her body is not her own, but rather she is akin to a hermit crab, finding sanctuary in this shell, but it was not hers. Especially in situations of high stress, she struggles with connecting her mind and her body, with the barely feeling shell feeling too big. It is static of her extremities, something far away - a phantom limb but it is physically there, she just feels it and doesn't at the same time.

TLDR : this little bat needs a long hug.

[nabexis]

So like. Did anyone else notice that Jayce doesn't immediately shoot Viktor? He only powers his hammer on AFTER Viktor has opened his eyes. Below is Jayce's reaction to seeing Viktor (his Viktor, from his universe, not the future version of him) for the first time after walking into the dome. For the first time in months. That's like. A look of wonder. Almost reverence.

Assuming the Jinx/Rictus/Vander fight is cut to real-time after Jayce has gone into the dome, he's staring at Viktor for like. 5 minutes.

My interpretation here, of Jayce's expression just before Viktor finally opens his eyes to see Jayce in the room with him, he's committing Viktor to memory, before he has to kill him.

Edit: I almost missed it but like. HE IS SMILING For like 2 frames it's an outright smile. He leans in towards him, too. I cannot handle this.

[burningcheese-merchant]

It honestly feels like they're getting more and more blatant every beast update

Silent Salt might as well just propose to White Lily in the next one the way things are going

Mystic Flour: I want that cookie so fucking bad

Burning Spice: I WANT THAT COOKIE SO FUCKING BAD!!!

Shadow Milk: I want that cookie so fucking bad HAHAHA I GOT HIM I GOT THE COOKIE I GOT HIM HE'S MINE I WIN I WIN!!! who said I want that cookie? Huh? Who said that? WHO SAID THAT???? FUCK YOU I DON'T WANT THAT COOKIE!!! KYS!!!!!!!!!

Eternal Sugar:

I want that cookie so fucking bad~~~

Silent Salt: 😶🤟 -> 💐😶💍 -> 😶💜⚜️💚❓

Mark this shit on y'all's calendars watch me become Nostradamus in real time

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FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 61-64)

* I-I don't think we were talking about the same thing...

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[licorishh]

no way she's alive ?? yea those mental health breaks because social media makes people suck are wild huh

[methoughtsphantom]

Jason “my family doesn’t know im alive” Todd and Danny “my family doesn’t know I’m dead” Fenton going alongside each of their plans my beloved. like Danny will absolutely go head-to-head with all of Gotham to support his new best friend on all his crime lord endeavors while he drags Jason to also attend collage with him. They are roommates and there never seems to a mention of family from either side. It’s an unspoken understanding they have. They met because Crime alley as a ghost lair thrummed with so much loneliness, it was at first the perfect place for Danny to hide his ecto signature in. But then he saw the dumbass whose lair it was lean his motorcycle just a tad too much when making a sharp turn to an alley, he sweeped the floor through a lifted chain link that passed his body but not his helmet. Yep that’s right the red thing got stuck. Danny who at the moment happened to be watching through his window snorted. Much to his horror because if not a ghost that dude could’ve gotten his head flung off.

Still, the scene was ridiculous.

On a whim he irrationally sees the police closing in on the guy and panicked at the thought of the guy using intangibility to free himself so Danny phased them both through his apartment wall and left the guy sprawled in his couch. Jason didn’t freak out but that’s normal when one’s got a concussion, one the guy immediately denied having as Danny laid out the medical supplies. The idiot proceeded to almost flatten four steps to the door with his stubbornness. He also said “I’m asexual” in the most deadpan voice as Danny dropped him back in the couch.

Danny sighed. Clearly though, he’d done so too early in the night because the guy kept trying to go, kept trying to knock Danny out, kept trying to slash him with knifes Danny didn’t know he had stashed. He’d only disarmed the guy from his guns. The visible ones apparently, cause at one point the guy did take out a gun and shoot until the ammo ran out and then teetered the thing like it was an art prop and hit his moon lamp.

Danny "yeah you aren’t officially my friend until you’ve tried to kill me" fenton my guys.

Anyways both keep having the same argument over if Danny technically kidnapped Jason or not. Danny holds the fact that the police at least didn’t see the guy make the ridicule. Jason argued that happened cause he was sporting a concussion. Danny argued he got that after.

Jason at first thinks the guy's a meta, but no. Danny introduces himself, sheepily now that he recognizes this is who the lair he invaded is from. He bandages him and tries to cook for him. If Danny didn’t have ice powers he most certainly would’ve burned the apartment. Jason then proceeds to kick him out of his own kitchen and make them both enchiladas. It’s the most normal both had in a while with another person and the air seems oddly settled. From then on, Jason constantly invited himself over, under the pretense that this was his territory and therefore he could drop in unannounced. Danny who has actual powers says he only allows this because Jason cooks very well.

Danny stays away from the crime fighting business unless his buddy is in deep shit he can’t get himself out. Also it’s Danny’s turn to cover for his vigilante friend which Sam and Tucker give him so much shit for. (but also advice)

And they were roommates. (omg) Danny effectively derails Jason’s big comeback plans by casually dropping ghost lore every two days. Like,

Jason, talking about how he doesn’t want Bats snooping on his territory:

Danny: Just don’t let them in

Jason: ??

Danny: yeah!! Hasn’t Batman died and got revived??? You can totally kick out death touched people you don’t want entering on your lair.

Jason: …I can?

Danny: Yep dude, your lair’s supposed to feel safe.

Jason: wait does that mean I can kick you out?

Danny: First this is my apartment. Second, im dead, not dead touched. Third, it’s too late to get rid of me. bitch.

Anyways Jason is super excited. You mean to tell him he can actually deny people over to his territory haunt?? (Yes it’s only to people who have died and came back but still!! The sample size is exactly the type of people he doesn’t want to see—!)

Joker my beloathed can’t step foot in Crime Alley.

(Jason’d feel a lot safer if the clown was dead but the possibility of his murderer turning into a ghost and their little loophole not applying on the clown is too scary to contemplate.)

Anyways, Jason loves experimenting with the power. It can go from simply making people shudder and not want to enter crime Alley to straight up not letting them enter like there’s an invisible wall blocking the way.

Jason because he’s hurt that Bruce never even patrols Crime Alley and also because he’s petty put B under the category of “invisible wall” blacklist. His reasoning is that the man doesn’t even attempt to enter Crime Alley. To him it’s surely just a place shadowed in tragedy. (anyways that’s it’s the place he met Jason)

Ironically, Jason totally forgets that Batman does venture into Crime Alley one day in the whole year. The day he met Jason.

Okay. He didn’t forget at first. The first year Jason remembers cause it was only a few months till then but then the next— Jason forgets that today’s the anniversary of the day’s Bruce’s parents died. He forgets to allow B in when he feels a slight tug and dismiss the feeling that prompts Bruce to investigate because he literally can’t enter Crime Alley. He starts the trialsTM, he scouts on the very edge and sees people the whole day enter and get out and cross with no problem but Bruce can’t.

It’s literally just Bruce.

Time to call Constantine, i guess.

[lilybug-02]

Eimmet High...temmiE high. OMG!

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[alondrathegiraffe]

have some soft bree + sel

commissions open

[right-on-therocks]

had this thought ages ago and then then just remembered it again. happy finale everyone!

[ghostvibesonly]

the siren confusing penelope’s instrument with polites’s is NOT helping the odysseus/polites brainrot

[cake-emu]

romance is dead? not if Lisa Swain has something to do about it!

Coronation Street | Carla Connor + Lisa Swain

[michelle-jwhssp2719]

Try these out!

[boarloved-art]

when the cashier says "whos that ghost girl poster in the back".... that would be meee 🖐🖐🖐

[whaliiwatching]

a rendezvous beyond

and a halfway closeup just bc im rlly happy with how the bg turned out lol

[reineyday]

why do they keep making bucky a government-manipulated pawn 😭 from the american military to hydra to whatever weirdass public relations campaign valentina is pushing the thunderbolts through (see: end credit graphics & the cereal campaign), like he had his brief time on the run and his goats in wakanda but he's sucked back into a sketchy institution once again like what are they doing with him. sure the movie was fun, but every time i think about it i just end up head in hands.

[foreverppl]

Orla’s liberation comes at the price of the merc’s. The further they entrench themself into being used as an implement for her to use to her ends, the more divorced they become to themself (though, even that’s a bit complicated. Who is the merc without Orla? Her guiding hand. Her crook shepherding. Her word governing.) She’s building her empire; the merc’s shoveling their grave. But at the same time, her empire doesn’t necessarily guarantee her own (true) freedom and is, in fact, a kind of gilded cage in its own right. You painstakingly build yourself a palace behind enemy lines, with all the luxuries you can scrounge together. Give yourself every comfort, loud music to drown out whatever ghosts you’re still trying to outrun, good sex, good food, people who will jump to murder for you without blinking an eye… yet it’s difficult to truly allow yourself to relish in any of it for more than a couple fleeting moments when you know there are serpents slithering just right outside the gates. Doesn’t matter how much you fortify your house of cards, it can still all come crumbling down with a gust of wind. And what then? One king (queen) deposes another, Vapolis continues on. No one will mourn. Orla knows this. Orla is terrified by this.

Anyway.. @vapolis sending you my therapy bill as I type this.