#I FUCKING LOVE NONOGRAMS

[kaysdenofchaos]

Autism unmatched

[boxheadpaint]

just found out that my favorite picross/Nonograms app actually has like, an entire settlement building and adventure mode that as far as I know is EXCLUSIVE to android. Once again points off for iphone, pathetic

[blmpff]

~ Get To Know Me Tag ~

Tagged by: @lurkingshan @my-rose-tinted-glasses @troubled-mind and @colourme-feral thanks beloveds xo

Do you make your bed?

Sometimes yes, sometimes no, I'm currently in the yes phase.

What's your favorite number?

I don't have The favorite number, I just generally prefer even numbers.

What's your current job?

I had to quit my job and am currently taking care of my post covid fucked up health and don't have a day job. Just one side thing I go to when they call for me, that I'm otw to right now.

If you could go back to school would you?

If my brian was working properly then I'd love to give it a shot, but with the way things are right now no thank you.

Can you parallel park?

I can't and don't want to drive at all so no.

A job you had that would surprise people?

I haven't done anything out of the ordinary, just food service and office job.

Do you think aliens are real?

There probably is something out there, but I spend no time thinking about it, idc.

Can you drive a manual car?

Refer to the "parallel park" question

What's your guilty pleasure?

I don't think of anything I enjoy as guilty pleasures.

Tattoos?

19 and counting. I've gotten tattoed every year since I started getting them, the fact that I haven't gotten anything new this year yet is really weighing on me, I want to get something new soon.

Favorite color?

Black, burgundy, bottle green, baby pink.

Favorite music?

Loud and fast (sorry @troubled-mind ). Metal, rock, k-rap/hh/pop. English, german, japanese, korean.

Do you like puzzles?

I like sudoku, nonogram and rummikub if that counts.

Any phobias?

If interacting with people counts. But I'm working on it.

Favorite childhood sport?

I remember enjoying archery while I was good at it, biking was fine too.

Do you talk to yourself?

Not out loud other than occasional exclamations, but I do have a 24/7 internal monologue that I'd kill to shut up.

What movies do you adore?

I can't think of any I adore right now, but off the top of my head some of my favorites are: The Old Guard and His 2020.

Coffee or tea?

I like both but drink tea more often. Current favorite is jasmine green tea.

First thing you wanted to be when you grow up?

I never thought about who I wanted to be in the future.

Tagging whoever made it this far and would like to share these things about themselves xo

[chuuuvi]

Alright I’ve avoided saying anything about the new Taylor album but I think I’ve spent enough time thinking about it now to give my opinion. As a lifelong fan of her music TTPD has been the weirdest experience of any album of hers for me.

First listen was just basic front to back while doing some nonograms and my immediate thought was that this is the worst thing she’s ever released. Like I for real had to take a break to go listen to some 1989 to double check that I don’t just dislike her music as a whole now. (False alarm 1989 is still one of my favorite albums of all time). I spent some time trying to figure out what wasn’t working for me. Most obvious was that the songs feel really dull and samey? They aren’t fun pop songs but they also aren’t the beautiful folksy ballads of folklore/evermore. They felt like they went on forever but also didn’t go anywhere.

All that to say that I was really fucking bored. Thats not enough to make me give up on an album though. I made that mistake with folklore and I wasn’t about to do it again. (I found folklore kind of dull at first listen and just wrote it off as “not for me” before coming back months later and finding a real appreciation for it) What was more concerning is the writing though. I had already seen people joking about the lyrics on this album before I listened and yeah it’s not great. It feels at times like someone doing a parody of Taylor Swift’s writing style. Some of these lyrics are undeniably cringe and thats coming from someone who can withstand a lot of cringe. It’s truly bizarre to listen to because I do think she’s a talented songwriter and she has proved that in past projects but it rarely shines through here.

I was feeling really negative about this album and overall just kind of bummed out that we got a new album from literally my most listened to artist of all time and I didn’t enjoy it with the exception of like 3 songs: Down Bad, Clara Bow, and, the immediate standout for me, I Look In People’s Windows. Heres where things take a turn though. I get a call from my dad (shout out to him! He’s the best ever and I love him) and he was telling me that he listened to the album and wanted to share our thoughts. In case you’re interested his favorites are Fortnight and So High School. I felt kind of bad because I wanted to be excited but I couldn’t give him more than lukewarm opinions on anything.

He then asked me if I could explain to him what certain songs were about with my swiftie knowledge and that kind of perked me up because I realized that I hadn’t done an in depth look into the lyrics yet. I had only listened to it very passively. I basically told him that and said I’d get on it and I could answer any questions he had the next time he called. So with that I went headfirst into listen number 2! I was ready to go with genius lyrics open, taking notes, checking twitter and tumblr and googling stuff. I built a case for my interpretation of every song to present to my dad. And the thing is I was having an absolute blast. It was a complete turnaround from my depressing first listen. I felt like a detective and I spent almost all night on this. I went to work the next day on like 4 hours of sleep but I felt nothing but pure joy and excitement.

I had to ask myself though.. is this a good way to engage with music? Is it possible to say you enjoyed a piece of art if you can only find that enjoyment through picking apart the personal life of the artist? The fun I’m getting from this isn’t the fun I feel when listening to good music it’s the fun I feel from watching reality tv. I mean yes I also have felt the same satisfaction from other Taylor Swift albums but it’s a secondary feeling. Like for example my favorite song of hers is All Too Well 10 Minute Version. I think that song being autobiographical gives it a lot of power but I think it would still be a masterpiece if the whole story was entirely unrelated to Taylor’s real personal life. On the other hand I think most of the songs The Tortured Poets Department would be entirely uninteresting to me if it wasn’t for the clues into her personal life and feelings.

And that brings us to my subsequent listens. This has just been me listening to it in my regular life. In the car, at work when I was away from the counter doing some pricing, at home doing laundry, etc. I haven’t been able to feel the joy I felt during my deep dive into the lyrics again but I also haven’t felt the misery of my first listen either. Theres still more skips than the average TS album but a lot of the songs have grown on me especially after going in depth into the lyrics. The cringe lyrics are immediately obvious but after going line by line like I did I realized that theres still plenty of lyrics that feel like the old Taylor Swift I’ve loved for so long. After all the emotional ups and downs I’ve landed at a fairly neutral position. It’s not a very good album as a whole but I’ve made my peace with that. It’s not as bad as some people are saying it is either. In the end I’m moving my favorites to a playlist and the rest I will not be going out of my way to listen to again. If you are considering listening to TTPD and haven’t yet.. you would probably have a better time with one of her other albums instead. I’d recommend 1989!

[nonogram-hell]

THEY WERE TRYING TO WARN ME!! ONLY NOW THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH NONOGRAM HELL DID I REALIZE THAT PLANTS VS ZOMBIES: BATTLE FOR NEIGHBORVILLE HAD A NONOGRAM PUZZLE IN IT. OHHH HOW NAIVE I WAS... I SIMPLY LOOKED UP THE ANSWERS....

BUT I HAVE COME BACK WITH FORBIDDEN KNOWLEDGE!!!!!!!!!! don't ask why I'm playing 80s action hero I know he is not. Ideal. For shooting the gems. I just like how I look ingame

hehe. I love the customization in this game a lot, even if some characters REALLY don't have much to work with... such a pain... it's a shame BFN doesn't have nearly as much accessory's and stuff as the prior games, though with the costume and set stuff I guess it's a bit understandable? I will still be sad about it!!!!

erm. sorry for my pvz tangent. anyways jammers check out these "gnomographs"

Both are 3x3... pretty tame, not too bad.... a good introduction to these things!

A 4x4! again, tame! this is like. 1x1 smaller than size used for the "Easy" difficulty in Treasure Hunter.

the Fuck You. 8x8 baby... 1x1 bigger than "Medium" difficulty.

it's pretty intimidating if you don't know how to solve nonograms, ESPECIALLY compared to the previous ones! Well, I mean... these are supposed to be somewhat difficult to provide a challenge to players- I mean, heck, have you seen the Trials of Gnomus stuff? I struggled with those a LOT... the trials themselves, that is!

But there's also the other Diamond gnome shenanigans, and a small platforming challenge is a lot easier than a logic puzzle!! Or something. Good thing that the answer for this stays the same for everyone! I. I think.

Rather do this than the torch one in Mount Steep, though... yeesh!!!!!!!!!! (guess you could say that one is.., torch-ure shot dead)

why did I write any of this again?

[darkmoonkestrel]

daily kestrel 278:

I was in bed till 10ish and had a supremely non productive day, instead wallowing in the "being sick" of it all. I did help Paige in the kitchen by emptying the dishwasher this morning, which she allowed on the condition that it was my one productive thing of the day. she however had a very productive day in the kitchen, making both banana pudding and banana bread. I slightly broke the non-productive clause by going through the mail and then later watching her banana bread for her while she took a shower, but at least I wasnt totally useless

I feasted on mainly desserts today, having a chocolate banana milkshake for breakfast, banana pudding for lunch, and peach cobbler and ice cream for an evening snack. I finally ate something warm and substantial when I made quesadillas around 10:45ish for me and Peyton. I spent most of the day alternating between working on the Loss nonogram (even though I know what it is now I am determined to finish it) and playing Princess Peach Showtime, which I completed like 9 new levels of - it is a very good and fun game. Peyton spent the majority of the day on Destiny, both alone and with the boys. we also watched the new ep of drag race all stars this morning (fuck Mistress she sucks) and caught up to current in the dubbed EPs of Apothecary Diaries

Paige began her grandma transformation with her floral mumu and her hair in curlers, which was incredibly cute, and Peyton and I goofed off in the kitchen while I made the quesadillas. I have been an accidental punching bag (scratching bag?) for the cats today, all of which have minorly injured me in some way - Cheese stepped on my tum and left a scratch, Panther leaped off of me and marked my thigh with her back claw, and Peggy latched on to my hip when she was in the middle of a failed attempt to cross to the pampasan chair from the ottoman. idk if they all love the chair or want to spend time with me, but either way, it did come at a slight cost. we are going to bed in the opposite order in which we woke, with Peyton clocking in at just shy of 12 hours conscious, me at around 14, and tbh idk when Paige got up, I know she got back from the grocery store around 10 but she is still downstairs watching a video essay about books and playing something (probably BG3) so more power to her

[greenjokwe-blog]

Monthly Greejily Media (January 2024) - The First of Who Knows

God I hate Twitter. I mean I still use it way more than any other social media, but I'm so tired of it man. From all the recent mistakes, to how posts get popular, to how it and TikTok's business decisions have infected the entire tech industry at large. All that and more is good enough reason to move my media threads away from that platform, but truth be told I'm only so moved by these things in that regard. Nah, more than anything, the format for media threads on that site just got tiring for me. Feeling the need to fit in everything into a single tweet, the want to put every single media I've consumed in one place even if I'm not particularly moved or interested in the updating process. So, I thought this'd be much nicer. Having a little section on my Tumblr dedicated to the stuff that's interested me the most, on a monthly basis. A lot more appealing! And that way I can talk about whatever I want for as long as I want. Fantastic. This probably won't stop my full reviews (there are still a few I want to write, but writer's block is getting to me right now), but this is definitely a more flexible format for me at least for now. Let's start shall we?

I might as well start with video games, as it's the thing I tend to talk about most on this blog, but truth be told I haven't actually beaten a single game this year yet. There's one game I'm currently working on beating, but because I'll be taking a more casual approach to that one (as well as gaming in general this year I imagine), I'm not comfortable talking about that one yet. Two games I'll talk about for now though, and will definitely probably come up again I will discuss though, one of those being Picross 3D.

I've never been invested in Picross but I've always found it a good time. I love all kinds of old puzzle solvers and Picross/nonograms in general have been a great, shockingly modern version of that that fit amazingly for video games. Picross 3D has felt like the perfect culmination of what Picross has achieved for years, and seeing the praise for it I knew this would be a great step for me getting into more of Picross in general, and I was right.

There's not much I can really add here, I feel no need to explain what Picross is and not much to add to it's actual gameflow other than its so addicting and there's so much of it here. I'm approaching halfway through right now and this game has nearly 400 puzzles. Each puzzle is like a trance, they all have logical and sensical solutions, and the satisfaction of finding a discrepancy, deleting/saving blocks as needed, and realizing you've just opened a whole new set of options for yourself feels amazing.

I only have two issues with it as of right now, one of them being because this game was made with a DS in mind, and because there are no zoom-in options for the game, trying to get the correct block to delete can often feel very finicky. The other issue being, well I can't play too much of it! I start seeing Picross when I close my eyes and it comes up with unsolvable puzzles! I'll talk about my future adventures with Picross no doubt in the future though, so get ready.

Another game I've been into, and you should expect to see again in these posts, is Burnout 3: Takedown. Again, probably not gonna say much on this for now, but I already have over one hundred gold medals for the courses in this game. This game has such good variety, despite having a fairly limited number of tracks it makes real good use of it, and it's technical ability for a PS2 game can only been the work of gods. Also it feels amazing to play holy shit. I get why there's never been a new one of these, but the worlds been worse without it.

One thing I will say though, don't be surprised if I write a full review on this game where I inevitably tear the latter Gran Prix to shreds, cuz holy shit the last one I did was so fucking hard. The game has great feel, design and good tells for a PS2 game, but it's still a PS2 game. You can be a god at this game and still get fucked over. But the fact that the game is so tantilizing and the amount of fuckups that can happen with you having a smile on your face... yeah I'll have to make a full review on this game when I 100% it, watch this space.

All right, next up films and television!!!

This is the section I was really excited for. I haven't talked about film at all on this blog, and I wanna make up for it. There's still a TON of films I watched last year that I want to talk about, so don't be surprised if I start making tangent posts about those at some point. More than anything, I want this year to be my film and book year, so expect it to take over all these upcoming posts from now on.

To start with, the show I finally finished, Gundam 00! This was the Gundam series I always wanted to watch even before I knew what the UC was, and now being a huge Gundam fan it's made watching the full series an... interesting reflection. I did post my opinions on the first season after finishing it last year, and I'll stick by those. Despite its problem with plotlines and characters, this show is a great response and reflection of what led to the Iraq war, as well as the war on terrorism in general. Season 1 also ended extremely strong, so Season 2 had a lot to live up to. A lot that I knew, based on a general sense and public opinion that it wouldn't. It ended up with me dropping the show for a few months until I eventually picked it back up after watching Wing rightfully thinking "it can't be any worse".

Thankfully it wasn't! The show picked up a fair bit after the second half, and included a lot of interesting arcs and stories (mainly, the stuff regarding the ALAWS) to consistently keep the show fairly solid. However, there was still a ton of problems. Plots were even messier here than they were during the first season, a huge portion of motivations just got cut in half, the characters are even less likeable here (aside from the worst ones, which are nicer now by comparison), and the main issue of the villains being a LOT less compelling here than they were in season 1, to the point of both detriment of the show and making it feel a lot more standard-Gundam faire, compared to S1's striking originality. However, there's still a lot to like! Again, a lot of the plotlines I liked such as the ALAWS and everything with Marina, the Gundam designs and effects are still solid, animation is nice (even if at points I'd prefer more clearer and concise boarding and battles), and it still carries over a lot of the themes that made Gundam 00 so solid to begin with. So despite it's weakness I'd still say that season 2 is worth the watch, if anything else for more of Setsuna and Graham.

Oh yeah and I uh, watched the movie as well.

OK, slight spoilers ahead, but I'm just gonna get through this very quickly here. This film is dumb. All of the political intrigue of the show is basically gone to make a James Cameron-inspired dumb anime blockbuster. The main villains are a cross between Xenomorphs and Terminators. It's got quip dialogue. There is a scene where they somehow make the comical approach to Allelujah's mental illnesses even more comical by giving him this Hulk-style action switch sequence. The film largely focuses on characters that get no payoff, with Setsuna being the only strong focus throughout. It's dumb. It's shallow. It's a mess. It's also kind of fun??? I can't say it looks visually much better than the show, but what it does have is a fairly simple but strong premise that fits the world fairly well. And whenever something cool happens it manages to make it REALLY cool. So that's always nice. Somehow, still a very satisfying conclusion to the series despite everything that it is, and probably up there somewhere in the middle of the Gundam films I've seen so far.

That was the first of the three films I saw this month, with the other two being not quite as schlocky. In fact, on the complete opposite of the "war is bad" scale, we have the 1957 Soviet film "The Cranes are Flying".

While a much-beloved classic by prestigious classic by many, I knew essentially nothing about this film an hour before I decided to start watching it. When I started watching the film, I was fairly disappointed in how, premise-wise, this film doesn't really have much different from what I wasn't already used to from a variety of war history, poetry, and sad mid-2000s webcomics. As stunning as this film could be with its technical prowess for the 50s, I was worried that this film wouldn't really do much for me. That was until I reached about the halfway point.

The small little trick this film plays with you (that's not really much of a trick, mind you), is extremely potent and gives this film relevancy to this day. Not being just a film about war-torn lovers, this film focuses well and truly on it's main character, Veronika, and all of her strifes and problems that arise either as caused by the war, or by her family. This film goes in to a lot of issues of women's suffrage and plight that you would not expect a film from this era to discuss, and does it with great decorum and respect (although, this came out the same year as Nights of Cabiria, which, wow, what a year for feminist film). There are some scenes in this film that are filled with harrowing emotion that I can definitely see why it's considered such an underground classic, at least as far as the west is concerned.

I think because of the general content of the film there's only so much I can enjoy though, if that makes sense? But that's just an issue for me and old movies in general, nothing against the film itself. I would still absolutely recommend this film to anyone who is interested, as relevant and ever-present now as it ever was. Man, I hate war. And warlord fascists.

Any way, final film that I watched this month, and this one's one for the BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Uh, spoilers for this one too, by the way.

One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest is a weird one for me to talk about, because if it wasn't for the (admittedly few) caveats that I have with this film I could easily see it being one of my all-time favourites. Had I watched it a few years back it probably would be! The acting is fantastic, portraying each character and their differences wonderfully. The characters themselves are all extremely likeable and each has their own interesting quirks and interests that keep them apart despite the amount that there are onscreen. The technical ability in this film's phenomenal, loads of wonderful shots here, and the way the more compact scenes here move in-and-out of focus is absolutely wonderful. Pace, soundtrack, general story and motivations, all solid stuff.

But... at the same time... I mean, it's not that big of a deal, but like... I was only half-kidding when I called this film a "boys movie" earlier. Not that it's an innate issue! But let's say, I wanted to make a really dumb and unfavourable view on the film, you could definitely theoretically make a Letterboxd review complaining how this film is a contrived story about an evil matriarch trying to destroy "the boys" fun at all opportunities, the evil bitch! This, in and of itself I don't think would be a real issue for me with this films plot alone, but the film constructs itself with this plausible deniability aspect to it, the possibility that these men are just here to chill or self-improve! It puts some of the films accolades and themes and misunderstandings (mostly from guys) into a different context.

This, along with some other issues I have including a couple of character arcs like the Chief, and general ambivalence to certain topics as a whole, apparently don't exist in the book (from what I've been told). It's definitely something I want to read at some point! HOWEVER, all that being said, I don't hold much of this too much against the film, mostly because one, the story is still pretty damn good, and two, god there aren't many other movies out there that treat those with problems and mental illnesses with the humanity and respect quite like this film does. The way the film manages to make sure that each character deserves their own urgency and respect, and makes sure to put blame and point at the terrible ablest structures that demonise and trap them...

I think the best example of this in the film is during the beginning of the film, where the first group therapy meeting is held. The scene manages to perfectly represent the circle the main cast surrounds themselves in, where the previous good mood and vibes of the previous 10 minutes starts dimming. When Mrs. Fletcher asks Mr. Harding about his wife, with the set implication that she was being unfaithful. Harding tries to avoid the question, particularly when the topic of abuse comes up, leading to deflection, however, as the conversation goes on, the emotion from great late actor William Redfield becomes more and more potent. It starts to become more clear that even if he is deflecting, he is truly looking for redemption and self-improvement, and, truth be told, the fact of him being abusive, or even her cheating both start becoming irrelevant (the film never states if they were or not). This is lost on the other patients though, who see this session as just another time of him yapping about his wife, strictly against Harding's wishes. This turns into a shouting match, all the while Mrs. Fletcher and the other doctors do nothing but watch. Despite how this has clearly happened before, despite the fact that it's strictly not working, they let it continue not necessarily because they personally believe it helps, but because they believe it's best to follow the systems and rules set in place by the hospital, even if it only hurts and victimizes the patients who are there just to get help.

So yeah I like this film a lot, I think it's fantastic. I know I kinda went on about it for a bit for a film that's been talked about to death, but whatever. Definitely would recommend, good film good film.

And laaaastt uppp uuhhhh albums I guess? Truth is, I'm gonna have a similar issue with this section that I did last time where I'm not gonna know what to write that much, so I came up with a solution. Most of the reason I did what I did last year on Twitter with my relistens was to make up for lastfm mostly being irrelevant for me now. So, I decided instead I'd make my own lastfm 5x5 charts based on what I listened to that month, either being new albums or relistens. So, here it is:

There'll be times where I probably go on tangents here. For example I FINALLY got around to hearing Quaranta and I of course ended up really liking it. Same with Genesis' Trespass, Far East Suite, and that Funkadelic album. And there's still issues with this format like I might have to differentiate what was new for me and what was a relisten. But I imagine the format will end up changing a lot as the months go on and it might not even be the same next month so, we'll what I do next I suppose, if I scrap this idea don't be surprised, it's probably cuz I didn't listen to that month or something I dunno.

Anyway, that's the update done! God knows if when I do this next month it'll be even remotely as close to as long as this one was. There might be months when I decide to dedicate an entire section to one single piece of art I enjoyed. Maybe there won't be one some months and I just try to put out a review or something instead, or I just choose to shitpost a whole month cuz I REALLY have nothing to say. We'll see. I imagine this'll be a fun format to experiment with, either way. Thanks for reading!

[numberonechesterfan]

NONOGRAMS RAAAAAAAHHHHH I FUCKING LOVE NONOGRAMS

Everyone on this site loves puzzles now. Sudoku, picross, wordle, crosswords...

[brutal-nemesis]

Happy that we’re watching a slasher movie but all the victims are going to be women :/ where are my men getting viciously and brutally slaughtered, huh

Where are they

[violentdevotion]

i fucking love nonograms man

[solar93-osc]

ignored normal Pattern Recognition to solve like an actual nonogram (where is it called fucking picross???) and did this :] was very fun I love nonograms

occasionally coinpin 365

solve my evil picross

[saprosappho]

FUCK i’m making a nonogram for my mommy for mother’s day bc she loves em but my laptop is being fixed so i have to do it on my ipad and when the page refreshes all progress is lost. and it’s 70x70 bc i didn’t want it to be rlly basic but like. i’m comically bad at grids and stuff like minecraft building is impossible for me so i’m having so much trouble 😭

[mapsofnonexistentplacesremade]

I don't know any of your OCs well enough to ask specific questions but I want to say I love your character designs they're really neat and nicely detailed!! Who would you say are respectively your "nicest" and "meanest" OCs are??

SMILING thank you.... let me think

honestly ive intentionally written a lot of the trainstory cast to be very fucking mean whether intentionally or not. evil autism forever HOWEVER to pick an actual answer meanest is probably mazin (evil old man who has killed people) and nicest is probably ulises (nice doctor guy who likes chess and nonograms and has not killed people except one almost on accident. its fine)

[hallow-moons]

If the LL characters had a phone, this would be their favorite apps

Sage

Any game that involves fighting. I feel like he'd love PUBG and those harem games where you collect the girls to fight.

Fucking TikTok

Twitter

Facebook just so he can post boomer offensive memes

Venmo/CashApp in the hopes that giving out his handle will get him money

YouTube

Anisa

Animal Crossimg Pocket Camp and other like games.

Instagram

Starbucks/Dunkin

Spotify/podcast apps

Abyssrium

Pinterest

Felix

Puzzle games like nonogram

Facebook for some reason?

Twitter

Spotify/apple music

Amazon. He'd buy all the books and weird things.

Harry Potter games

Lol I have no idea

[proteus-no]

oh fuck yeah i love nonograms hold on im going to download and try to solve these

thinks about that time i made a bunch of DE themed puzzles. Why'd I Do All That. what the fuck

[stimmingandshifting]

streamer dr :)

im a smaller variety streamer, mowothman. i stream primarily story based games (i infodump about undertale), minecraft, and nonograms (in which i listen to something or just ramble or sometimes it’s just quiet). my fanbase is primarily other trans autistics. we have stim breaks. i pride myself on a personal connection with my audience, and often have very small streams where i just talk with chat and hang.

my closest friends are the four other people on the azalea smp, a wholesome smp with a little plot (might be more lore in the future thanks to trax) based around the cottagecore aesthetic and connection with nature and each other. all the creators are trans and most of us are autistic.

so the people who basically became my best friends and family:

Me: mothmanvibes, called moth. They/he, transmasc. I know my own personality writing it down makes me feel like a character instead of just another me. But I’ve been streaming for around a year now, got popular over minecraft tiktok where i just made dumb memes about how being a miner and a flower picker is wild because i just keep collecting things and then fucking dying. Newest member of asmp. Chill fanbase

AzaleaFlowers: he/him, trans man. Azalea, Az for short. Natural leader, calm, collected. flower crown with a blank expression. Fairly quiet, much better with a plan than not, posts on YouTube more than streaming because of that. Has a kill button on his desk for when things get too much and he has to end stream. Sort of underground but everyone that knows him LOVES him. Super chill fanbase, almost entirely trans and autistic, lots of fan interaction over tumblr. Met me through TikTok, commented “trans autistic miners” and we quickly bonded over shared passions and started streaming together. Az much prefers being on others streams than his own, so he’s on mine quite a bit. Dude I can’t express how much I love this guy he’s so chill the kind of person you could sit in silence with and not feel awkward. organizes everything

Shaber: she/her, nonbinary transfemme. Shae. The builder to my miner, platonic wife. My first friend besides az on the server, always helped me feel included and not lost. Small fanbase that would commit so many murders for her. She’s so nice she’s like “im going to make houses for my friends :)” and everyone even people who have never seen her content before swear their lives to her. I want to kiss her /p. yt is mostly build tutorials and vids of the asmp. i have not accurately explained how much i love shae she is the light of my life my best friend my favorite person. we’re both arospec and bad at differentiating attraction so like. are we dating? not to my knowledge but i don’t really care i love her very much

BeaBoi: they/he, transmasc. Bea. motherfucker /lh we have a sort of joking rivalry because we’re both the smartass they/he math gay but I would kill for them. sibling energy honestly this shit is a dumb bitch and i love him. makes fun of me for mining tons of shit and never using it but they rely on my redstone to make funky music contraptions so suck on that you fuck. Feral cottagecore. Only really got into the smp originally bc he’s long time friends with az, but genuinely loves it and brings an element of humor and lightheartedness.

abandonedtraintrax: they/xe, agender, trax. cryptid. knows fuckign everything about everyone. no stream schedule, they disappear for a month and then boom 10 hour stream. The adventurer. Online for 23 hours but no one sees xem but then there’s just one message in chat saying “i found another totem”. genuinely a very nice person, very quiet. Very dry humor, quiet in vc and then suddenly makes a comment that has everyone wheezing. the one making some vague sort of lore- living up to xir name, they’ve been making abandoned monuments and leaving little codes. Xe won’t even tell us. Their yt channel is mostly a series of videos of recounting the “history” of abandoned monuments and temples in one mc world. there are entire tumblr blogs dedicated to figuring that out