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teh-inggris · 8 months ago

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pvp civ nation...... this aint much but pls take my contribution for this series bc im going insane i love hate this man so much get him out of my head

#pvp civilization #pvp civ #I'LL MAKE A PROPER ONE I SWEARR I JUST NEED TO GET THIS OUT OF MYSYSTEM FIRST #if it turns out he gets a bad ending in ep 6 i dont think i'll be ok like #he deserves a good ending . or a villain arc at least. he deserves to go batshit crazy after how everyone treated him #ALSOO the chekovs gun video journal device thing?? The excessive 4th wall breaking?#Is it just me or does jt feel like evbo is gonna lose his memory/already lost his memory and was sent to the wood sword lvl with tabi #or like . Idk?? It feels kind of truman show ish. Well maybe not that but its just the vibe im getting w the way that everyone has their-#-own secrets. How the diamond swords seems to know who evbo n tabi is. How princezam knows about the diamond swords #and then theres also parrot whos just?? Weird overall?? Idk whats going on w him but i need to know his backstory wdym u think evbo will-#-hate you if he knows what you did??#ANYWAY BACK TO THE VIDEO JOURNAL AND POTENTIAL MEMORY LOSS.#I dont want jt to go that way (mostly bc i dont want to see evbo suffer more than he already did) but it rlly does seem like its heading to #that direction w the way that it also has become a way to narrate what he went through (ie when the ep shows his attempts to beat the-#gold sword lvl but hes narrating it from the future. from his video journal. where he already beat the lvl)#im going insane #Wait also what i meant by the truman show vibe in relation to the excessive 4th wall breaks it makes it sound like pvp civ is just a -#simulation #wait i just remembered its the matrix not that mb umm #anyways.#empty chattering #kokotehart

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chickenscribbles · 2 days ago

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Everything functions perfectly fine without you.

#undertale #deltarune #this was really experimental #i wanted to tell a bit of a story in my brain without like. actually telling it #but basically this picture is supposed to invoke the same feeling i have when playing deltarune #where i notice the lack of chara..and hwo there ISNT a gaping hole left by them #their absense doesnt effect this world at all #the drawing is meant to be a drawing done by kris i think that much is obvious #with their family. and there Isnt a big empty space where another person could go #chara really does have a world where they dont exist #and it doesnt matter.#theyre irrelevent. unknown to their family. even the fandom has mostly moved on from them #they ARENT haunting the narrative this time therye just. nothing. you dont see their putrid absense. theres nothing.#its almost so beautiful it may be intentional. everyone lumped goner kid in with the gaster followers #and it almost makes sense. but its been so clear to me the whole time that they Arent talking about gaster and it always frustrated me when #they were pushed in with them bc soething was just Off about it. bc gaster Doesnt live in a world where he doesnt exist. hes forgotten #but he did exists. the CORE exists. and he Pretty clearly exists in DR too #but chara doesnt. they are honestly the most important character in one game and then...nothing. in the next. and their family is unaffecte #there is simply a different human who gets name brand chocolates and dull knives for pie #also mild implied spoilers but the easter egg wehre you can give GK an umbrella and they note that its not raining but it makes them feel #better. listen. the idea chara lives within one world but not another and it doesnt matter. the Rain Thing in chapter four.#LISTEN TO ME LISTENNNNN TO ME #chicken scribbles

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bunnieswithknives · 20 days ago

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I love you insane, slightly obscure Wizard Of Oz lore. Everyone say thank you Frank Baum for inventing aromantic people and also the power of friendship and also insane body horror

#Found a beautiful fic where hes aro and has the worst inhumanity dysphoria in the world 💖#The fic isnt whats pictured here its just what got me back into woz lately and thinking about tin man #(the fic is called Alexithymia btw give it some love its really good)#ANYWAY I like Tin man #I need him to shake and retch and find no relief because he has no stomach to empty and for that to only make him spiral further #I havent actually gotten to the part in Tin Woodman Of Oz where he finds Nimmie but this is how I hope it happens #Maybe one day Ill make an actual chopfyt design I think itd be fun but Id probably have to make a Fyter design first and I dont feel like i #wizard of oz #oz series #oz books #tin woodman #nick chopper #nimmie amee #chopfyt #art #digital art #fanart #Munchkins like putting flowers on everything but Nimmie doesnt get to be as fashionable cause shes a servant #I actually took some inspo from Boqs servant uniform. Just a little. Mostly just the making her gray

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fjordfolk · 10 months ago

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Pretty sure if you checked my most-uttered phrase every year for the last 10 years would be "no, Sparta."

#certainly feels that way #to be fair its mostly in response to her coming over to stare at me for things like #'this treat. hide it for me.'#'food on the table. put on floor please.'#'you are in the wrong chair. please move.'#'that thing out there. i wish to take it.'#'empty your hands to pet spart.'#'the puppy. get rid of it.'#little household despot

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cent-scratchnsniff · 4 months ago

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body hates me so netz doodles go

#library of ruina #netzach #netzach lor #and because of ego the uhh #library of ruina spoilers #feeling sick recently. makes sense someone else got ill that im always near. might be allergies though i cant tell #seasonal allergies to be exact. all the other allergies exist too.... so very wobbly netz doodles #head empty. well lie head slightly empty. child of the galaxy our universe still hits. YWOCHH #bottom left was mostly bc of. singing. i love singing. and pretty things. ego but w the mic. swing it around to. thwack.#yeah okay thats a lot of brainfog i ised up all the power. bwomp.....#hopefully i can get more substantial things done soon

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habitina · 1 month ago

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no i think some of you don't get it. the nagireo and orpheus and eurydice myth parallels are basically writing themselves. and they go BOTH WAYS

nagi would look back every single time, he has looked back every single time, he has been looking nowhere else the whole time. and reo of course is terrified of watching nagi go back to his old life without him because he'll be alone but there are more important things for him to do. he has to live onn for both of them. do you guys get it . gripping your shoulders and shaking you do you get ittt

#he is going to treasure their moments for the rest of his life!!!#reo was his first friend!!!! the first person to care about him so much he'd go to such lengths for him #in the end their dynamic was completely off balance from what it should have been like in blue lock they've been doomed since the BEGINNING #filling unwell about them once more btw. like. it was their one shot out of it but now they're possibilities are so so SO trimmed #things are never going back to how they were and used to be and mostly that's alright and welcome but also. they are never recovering #how do you hold someone with both of your hands one day and feel him slip through the cracks the days after and then one day he's just g #gone like. all of him at once (it is not true you have been knowing this for some time). like how do you recover from this #how do you hold him back when you know how it feels when your hands are empty??#AM I SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THEM #nagireo #need them to be injected in my brain and join the other Voices. I NEED THAT #blue lock #i guess?#alright fun time is over i need to lock back in . ancient greek awaits me

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wings-0f-sorrow · 4 months ago

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'it feels like color only exists when you're here.'

#chronocell art #ok to rb #♡ 🕊️#digital art #clip studio paint #self ship art #self insert #self insert community #wlw self ship #//imma be fr i shat that caption out in 5 seconds bc i wanted something there but it is vaguely significant #//caelina being a very dead and empty person for the most part; struggling w/ feelings and the world feeling really bleak #//ig u can say metaphorically speaking her world is very dark and monochrome and just. sad.#//but someday there's finally something; or in this case someone; that makes things finally feel better after it being so hollow for so lon #//in the past i used to draw her very happy but that was mostly just a case of a) her being at her absolute best #//and b) pre-rewrite emotional state before i decided 'yknow with the past shes had shes way too happy. no more of that' lmao #//but she can feel a little SOMETHING. as a treat. SDGHSDGHSDGHDSHS #//anyways errrrr I LOVE POSTING AT 4AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#//edit: took this out of the character tag. no idea why. just felt like it?

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miiilowo · 2 months ago

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urrrgg. ive felt like a totally different person lately it's fuckin with my heaaaddddd

#mostly just because ive stopped feeling empty all the time and now im way oversensitive and cry about everything and sometimes for no reason #at all #when before itd be rare if i cried like once every 3 months i feel like i do at least one a day lately #guess ill take it over feeling nothing but what gives ! whats the big freakin idea pal

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so-sick-of-17 · 7 months ago

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Seriously?! There is a chat gbt Anderperry fic on ao3? Gag! Get that away from me. No one wants to see your disgusting chat gbt story. I can’t call it a work because no work was done and I can’t call it fanfic because how much of a fan could you possibly be if you don’t write it yourself!? “I wanted to see a happier ending to the movie.” There are hundreds of stories you could have picked from that a real person actually created because they care about the characters. They are all infinitely better than anything a computer could have produced because they actually have a human connection and people who actually are capable of liking the movie and the characters. That tag is my happy place and it is tainted by that monstrosity. Normally I would be incredibly annoyed no matter the fandom, but for Dead Poets Society?! Really?! The movie about how art is tied with humanity?! Did you watch the movie?! Every single character would be disgusted by the use of ai to produce art. Art doesn’t exist without humanity and some cheep to imitation is an insult to anyone that actually works to make art.

#Am I being harsh?#yes #am I being too harsh?#absolutely not!#if anything I’m not being nearly harsh enough #soulless empty things are not art #art needs a human connection #and if you want to see a rewrite of a story #write it yourself or see if someone else has!#and plenty of fix it fics exist in this fandom #chat gbt would break Keating’s heart #and if not all most of the poets would have strong feelings about how chat gbt makes art worse #it doesn’t fit at all with carpe diem #ai is not art #anti ai #anti chat gbt #Dead Poets Society #Neil is so passionate about poetry and acting and all art #and Todd is a poet for gods sake!#Anderperry would very much so not appreciate ai #Anderperry #and if you are the type of scum to post ai on ao3 then at least you should tag it so the rest of us can filter it out #no one with any brain cells wants to see that #I know I mostly lurk in this fandom but I care about it very much!#I don’t want it ruined by people who can’t use critical thinking #whoever posted this crap needs to delete it #I don’t care if anyone thinks this is mean #I’m right

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mer-se · 6 days ago

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out and about in various locations collecting pretty views. 🌾

#picking ten pics from these last outings was diabolical but #been up and down the south and north shore lately #just as many ticks up north as south too 😵‍💫#haven’t been to crane beach since 2020 drove there to see the sun come up #I have a photographer’y friend on insta who loves that area and would post snowy owl pics on that beach so I got obsessed with going #didn’t see any that time but I randomly think about that beach maybe I’ll go back this fall/winter to try again #parked outside the gate and walked in the dark through that whole road and then ran the huge parking lot #I thought about this time while driving in and l'd be so scared to do that now it's kind of a long walk helloooo #was fucking beautiful though that morning is a nice memory #saw a what looked like a full moon or close to that setting too by accident #think that's what drove the obsession to hunt down all the next ones forever actually haha #the amount of people and esp bugs on the beaches up north is abhorrent #this one time at a beach in gloucester got attacked by bugs SO badly and brought 20000 home in the car #caught an insane storm though and built sand castles #that’s summer though I got bug attacked on a beach down the cape once so bad #was literally running in slow motion in the thick ass sand and losing hp point every step felt like a horror movie scene #not happy about all the bugs and people in summer I love an empty beach and nature spot #anyways been all around lately burning miles up mostly new spots but some familiarish ones too #even saw some tourist type shit wednesday hahah #thursday was such a longggg hot day felt changed by the end of it and all the driving but tacos helped #why do I feel kinda weird posting stuff here hopefully that goes away lol #wouldn’t be able to catch up anyway I’ve taken so many pics and had much happen it’s ok to just idk not share them too #just always been a place to store photos like a diary to look back at that’s why I do it but also the break showed me it’s ok not to #gave me a lot of breathing room idk #I’m more relaxed with all that and my energy I extend on things I guess I dunno #but here’s some tidbits I guess it was rly hard to pick ten #mine #nature #new england

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irondad-defensesquad · 1 year ago

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Logically, anyone has bad days.

But they’re not obvious. Or they don’t look as bad as you might think.

Tony absolutely knows how to be in that place.

But he finds himself on the other side, too.

No matter the rain, the snow, the fog, Peter is a ray of sunshine that will always have so many things to say to Tony. Even in his quieter days, he still has a whole starry sky in his eyes.

Tony is so focused on the stars themselves that he doesn’t pay attention to the void between them.

And then some days, the stars aren’t shining much, and the darkness is taking over.

Peter often disguises it. Tony doesn’t want to invade his space, but some part of him feels bad for not doing something, either. He at least tries to reassure Peter that he doesn’t have to be all bubbly and excited, that he can just… be, y’know?

The kid apparently ignores that.

Until the storm is too much.

Literally.

And Tony gets a call in the middle of Peter’s school time.

Thankfully, Tony was already driving in town. It’s raining a lot. And Peter is trembling in the call.

He apologizes so much. Mostly for not handling school today.

“I woke up wrong,” Peter argues.

Tony is not angry, far from it.

So, quite hesitantly, Peter asks him if he can pick him up. Which Tony already planned by tracking down the kid’s GPS (either from the suit or the phone).

The thing is, Peter isn’t even in the suit to warm himself up.

Tony finds him outside of a flower shop. The poor thing is completely drenched. He looks like an abandoned puppy.

Peter sighs in relief when he gets in the warm, fancy car. Then he’s rambling about the car and school like it’s just a normal day, like he hasn’t run away from class crying.

“Peter.”

The boy gulps, expecting to get yelled at.

Tony sighs and… wraps his blazer around Peter.

“You hungry, kid?” He asks.

“Y-Yeah… I didn’t eat lunch, so…”

As the man imagined.

“Thought of getting burgers for you. But we’re going home, okay? We’ll get it in the drive-thru and you eat just until we get upstate.”

“S-Sounds good.”

Peter doesn’t talk as much. He does eat fast. Besides his metabolism, of course, it seems like Peter hasn’t even eaten breakfast. Tony leaves the lecture for another day, the kid is too miserable.

He doesn’t know how to approach it.

“... You wanna talk about it?”

Tony isn’t stupid.

That flower shop was near the cemetery. Nowhere near Peter’s school.

His smile, even the pretend one, fades away.

Right now, not a single star lights Peter’s eyes.

Tony wishes he could give him all the stars, his own even, to give him hope.

That’s not possible.

And he needs to pay attention to the void, too. Embrace it. Because it’s still part of Peter.

“Kid.”

Peter doesn’t look scared this time.

“... I really appreciate you calling me,” Tony smiles. “I’ll always be here to pick you up, okay?”

“Okay.”

Peter’s eyes grow deep the more his mentor gazes at him.

Tony swears he’ll wrap Peter in three blankets, give him all the hot cocoas in the world, let him pick the movie, and above all… Tony will smother him in hugs.

In days when the void prevails, it might be hard to believe someone could love you like that.

But they do. They will.