#I’m going to bite and kill
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it’s really fucking funny my mom points fingers and diagnoses the people I grew up with but as soon as it’s about me she goes fucking silent
#camera talks#I’m going to bite and kill#‘so and so is so close in they’re definitely nd#and that other person definitely has and ed’#but god forbid I imply I grew up impaired bc I Am neurodivergent#she gets all tense and talks about something else#and she keeps putting off scheduling me to get therapy and hopefully medicated#like god wtf is wrong with her !!!#I’m sorry to be blunt but I’m so fucking mentally ill girl#it’s actively killing me sometimes !!!#you do not want to know the extent of the coping mechanisms I’d had to teach myself just to get here#it’s a fucking struggle#and she knows that she just cannot admit it
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Back at it again with another theory: What if Lucanis’ betrayal wasn’t a betrayal at all?
(obviously, spoilers below the cut)
During The Wigmaker Job, we have some dialogue between Illario and Lucanis about their position within both the Crows and the Dellamorte family. Illario wants Caterina to step down so he can take the coveted First Talon spot. Lucanis reassures him that his time is coming, to which Illario makes a snide comment about whether his cousin would ever go against their grandmother’s wishes. When they continue the conversation after the job, Illario states that Lucanis is the potential heir, that he’s her favorite, and that he’s unlikely to say no to her. Lucanis doesn’t argue, only insists that he doesn’t want to be First Talon, and that he hopes she’ll see reason before that. It’s mentioned again in Eight Little Talons - Caterina favors Lucanis. It’s well-known enough among the Crows that Viago and Teia discuss it in front of her (not on purpose, but she doesn’t deny it). He’s her prodigy through and through.
In the opening scene for the Lucanis quest in Veilguard, Caterina is poised, as you’d expect of the First Talon. She’s certain that the body they buried wasn’t her grandson, that it had been altered with blood magic. She doesn’t pose it as a theory, though: she poses it as a fact. It could, of course, merely be her confidence, but there’s another very unusual aspect to the scene – everyone else discusses how Lucanis was clearly betrayed, that someone must have sold him out in order for the Venatori to capture him. Caterina is the only one in that room who never speaks on it. She doesn’t ask for justice, doesn’t mention vengeance, never acknowledges that her grandson was sold out by someone he trusted – perhaps because he wasn’t.
What if, when Caterina comes to him with a plan, with an impossible request, he’s still her favorite prodigal grandchild, and he still does whatever she asks? She’s had him tortured before as a child, has tortured and starved and beaten him herself before, because it makes him stronger and more resistant to it in the future. He says in The Wigmaker Job that he used to hate her for it, but now he understands. He justifies it. All Crows justify it, because they have to - if they don’t, then the cruelty wasn’t for survival’s sake, and their suffering meant nothing. Perhaps he doesn’t even question it. When Caterina tells him that she has a job for him, he takes it.
What if the contract has a caveat? Sure, Calivan must die by his hand by the end of it, a little treat for a job well done, but what if his primary mission is reconnaissance, is discovery? The Venatori are using blood magic to torture and corrupt prisoners. It would behoove the Crows to find out what it entails and how to resist it, before it’s turned back on them. It would have to be someone so deeply, unabashedly loyal to her that when she asked them to infiltrate a Venatori prison, expecting torture at best, their own death at worst, they’d take the job anyway, no questions asked - someone Caterina can trust, certainly, but also someone who has never once said no to her.
And Lucanis has always been a loyal grandson.
#lucanis dellamorte#dragon age: the veilguard#datv#datv spoilers#veilguard spoilers#da posting#maybe it’s also just because she thinks it would make him stronger and that’s how she always justifies it to herself because she’s evil!!!!#she’s MICRODOSING her GRANDSON with BLOOD TORTURE and DEMONS to fashion him into A BETTER WEAPON#I keep hearing people be like ‘oh there’s a moment in the lucanis storyline where I GASPED’#and other than like ‘he was dead the entire time’ I’m like…… what would be that shocking#and you know what would be that shocking??#if he put himself through it on purpose#envisioning a line where he’s like ‘when Caterina told me to go I didn’t ask questions because I’m a good crow!!!!!’#(also I think that would REALLY give a good bite to his demon being SPITE of all things)#also also I still think that Illario kills caterina (if she’s actually dead) but y’know what?#if he does GOOD FOR HIM#also lucanis just happening to be bursting out of his cell when you get there…. SUSPECT#was he just ready to break out at any time? if so why did he stay and get tortured for a YEAR?#why were the guards so afraid of him?? what was he capable of???#‘you’re a crow’ or ‘but you’re not a crow’ ohhhh so you were expecting a rescue?#oh I am CONNECTING the DOTS (I haven’t connected shit) I’VE CONNECTED THEM#voelene#your caterina + illario post started these wheels turning and I am eternally grateful#also tho did update this slightly because I forgot about their conversation at the end of TWJ#also got so wrapped up in my hatred of caterina that I failed to consider another emotionally devastating option:#that lucanis was the one who wanted to go and caterina covered for him#now THAT’S got some bite to it too#and maybe Lucanis volunteering to take on a demon is why it doesn’t possess him fully#it’s like a wynne/anders thing it’s symbiotic
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Oh my god. I’m going to be sick. SICK I say.


They are so vile for these parallels. I hate. Everything about this is—
Do you see this shit? What is taking place here?
THE KILLING KIND IS ABOUT THE GRIEF AND MADNESS THAT COMES WITH DEATH AND LOSS AND IN WORLDS COLLIDE THE LOVE HE WANTED FOR SO LONG FINALLY FOUND HIM
CAN YOU FUCKING HEAR ME
#please tell me I’m not the only one who made this connection. I am going to BITE MY NAILS OFF#GNAWING AT THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE#marianas trench#Haven#the killing kind#worlds collide
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On god why am I experiencing a world ending period the MORNING of my big day of exams
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trying so hard not to split right now and it feels like scrabbling my way down a cliffside, desperate to grab onto a branch or ANYTHING
#i’m crashing out over nothing. i know i’m being illogical but the 19 yr old version of me wants to light shit on fire#and block my fp and snarl and bite and tear and rip#istg going unheard makes me feel like killing myself#bpd#actually bpd#actually borderline#personal#borderline personality disorder#cluster b#disorganized attachment#cluster b safe#bpd fp#favourite person#vent#bpd vent
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“Carry-on bags must be checked before security for a fee starting at $35. If you bring a carry-on bag to the gate that won't fit under the seat, you need to pay a $65 fee to check it." united airlines count your fucking days
#you have somehow described both a personal item AND a checked bag but not a carry on#i’m going to kill you bite you killing you biting you#.txt
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*starts violently sobbing*
#so i went to this thing tonight.#it was like. a family night thing at this summer camp my brother’s at#and one of the counselors.#HRHRFGGGHHJ BITING MAIMING KILLING HE WAS SO.#HE HAD FLUFFY BLACK HAIR AND HE KEPT FLIPPING IT AND ISTG I ALMOST DIED.#and he was SO LAME#HE WAS WEARING MIS-MATCHED SOCKS#AND WHEN THEY DID DANCES HE DID EVERYTHING LIKE A MOMENT TOO LATE#AND HE FELL OVER AT LEAST TWICE#he was so fucking pathetic i desire him carnally.#AND I AM NEVER GONNA FUCKING SEE HIM AGAIN.#BECAUSE HE WAS JUST. SOME RANDOM FUCKING GUY AT MY BROTHER’S SUMMER CAMP#dude and i looked so good today 😭😭#and i swear i caught him looking at me a few times (i’m delulu)#whatever#i’m fine#(i’m not fine)#crying sobbing going to sedate myself#meredith talks
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Me, six-ish hours ago: Yeah, I had the idea for an Avatar Suiren AU pretty much as long as Suiren herself existed, but idk if I'm ever gonna develop it, it's really hard to upkeep interest for it on my own...
Me, as soon as the concept of Suiren and Vaatu bullying Raava together popped into my head while I was typing out that long ass post: Fuck it, new strain of brain fungus acquired–

(Also yeah traditional art being posted for the first time since... 2020, probably. Don't have the spoons to transfer this to digital rn, maybe I will at some point and I'll do a fuckass Spirit World background or smth. We'll see)
First time drawing Vaatu so don't make fun of me, but honestly he's such a funky little guy and rather fun to draw. You just get that main shape down and then go nuts with the frills :) But also, credit where credit is due, scrolling through the Vaatu tag on @shadelorde’s blog really helped, so thank you for that 😊 And I really had no idea what to do with Suiren’s design here, I think I’ve used up all my character design juices on the nine previous iterations of her that exist, so for now she’s in a random dress with her hair down. I’ll probably alter it if I ever do a proper design for her in this verse
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#original character#sotrl suiren#vaatu#avatar suiren au#I spent so long typing out tags for this post and tumblr fucking deleted them…#I’m going to go bite into a wall istg#I don’t have the energy to rewrite all of them so… quick summary#this takes place immediately after Suiren frees Vaatu during harmonic convergence#he briefly went all big and then shrunk so he could get a better look at her#while all this is going on Raava is screaming very loudly inside Suiren#Suiren is beyond caring. either Raava shuts up or she gets out. no other option#the avatar becomes balanced by fusing with Vaatu too or the avatar ceases to exist and suiren gets to live a normal life#spoiler alert: Raava does shut up but not for long#Suiren begins regretting her life decisions as soon as the two start arguing inside her#I’m pretty much stealing all the lore Kat came up with in bonded and adumbration lmao. hi Kat#oh also like 10 minutes before this Suiren killed Unalaq#his spiritfucker ass wouldn’t let her get to Vaatu that easily. but let’s be real he stood no chance against her#it’s fine though no one liked him anyway#honestly she did everyone a huge favour#anyway. yes Vaatu does have a tendril wrapped around her shoulders. bc it’s cute okay#damn Suiren how come Nia lets you be the weird lesbian daughter to TWO evil dads??#(yes I’m aware neither Vaatu nor Ghazan are evil. I’m trying to joke here but it’s almost 10 a.m and I can’t think anymore#simply everything is hilarious now)#what else did this used to say…#oh right. nia stop making LoK antagonists obsessed with your OC challenge#the Red Lotus are her parents. Kuvira is in love with her. now she’s being all buddy buddy with Vaatu#only one that’s missing is Amon bc I genuinely do not care for him lmao
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Everyday I wake up. And have to write another paper
#I’m going to bite and kill and maim#the point of PRACTICUM was to not have to be in classrooms as much why am I writing PAPERS#Mooky talks
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having to stand firm in the decision not to spend money when high is perhaps more torturous than what that guy Jesus went through
#timothy's txts.#bursts into tears. MY GUYS…. 😔😖😭#and on top of this i’m going to throw up thinking about red valley s4 finale because it makes me too excited and anxious and upset. in a#Good Way……….#i need to bite all of these men to death. i need to kill them#and i haven’t even listened to the finale yet because i have to do it sober so i don’t miss anything the first time i listen to it
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I am so mad
#why is this shit color do fuckign lumpy I’m going to kill someone I a:actually so unngliejvnwbek mad oh my god#biting killing maiming#no fr I am SO mad#og
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Who up and wanna take me out back and shoot me rn
#anybody else having like the worst fucking night of all time or just me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m at the end of my rope !!!#I can’t take this shit anymore!!! (continues to take it)#first I go to help someone give her cat it’s FIP treatment and got bit like 14 times and then I went to the ER#and then it was super crowded and I felt like I was overreacting so I left#even tho I know I wasn’t lol I have enough experience with this shit to know this is bad#and then coming home I almost got in a fucking head on collision#and then got a message about a dead cat someone had hit and left on the side of the road#so I had to go get it and take it 20 minutes away to the emergency vet to be cremated#and the cat had clearly been recently pregnant which means there are kittens somewhere dying without her#so I’m gonna have to go back tomorrow and try to find them if they’re still alive#which means I’m gonna have to deal with the homeowners#fuck!!!!!!!#and that’s IF I’m not back in the ER in the morning if these bites get infected#like her teeth hit the bone in my finger lol#I might um. kill myself. idk#personal
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Why are groceries so expensiiiiiiiiive
#killing biting maiming#every time i walk into a coop i come out 100 francs pooree#*poorer#and like. I’m not even buying meat#i just spent over 100.- for this week’s meals and i put everything away and the fridge is still half empty#like where did all that money go??? 😭#(sure i could eat pasta with tomato sauce everyday and then it’d be cheaper but do I want to live like that? absolutely not)#also i wanted to buy the microwave fondue for the laughs but it was 5 francs????#and i also forgot that i don’t own a microwave anymore lmfao#aber hey. 100 superpünkt und 5 märkli 😭
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can you say hi to me it's me xolotl

xolotl
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guys my bunny is so cute i might start crying over her. again.
#she’s so cute and so sweet and adorable and i’d kill for her#next person who tells me i should make soup when i tell them i have a rabbit shall meet my blade#sidetracked now. can we acknowledge how fucked up it is to say you’d eat someone’s pet.#one time i had a warrior cats fan tell me in graphic detail how she was going to kill my dog. i was 11.#and countless people have told me that rabbit tastes really good.#like. can. can we not?#spiders are like my worst fear but i’d never tell someone with one as a pet that i’m gonna kill it#that’s so fucked up#like. you should be able to deck someone over this w no consequences#anyways. she’s evil but no matter how many times she bites me i’ll still love her#she’s so cuddly rn it is SO CUTE#also i started a playlist of songs she’s come up to me during and they are all hard rock#coincidence? i think not
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yeah I’m sorry I know I’m not so much about comics at the minute but I just saw the most flop take re jayson and d!ck I’m about read every issue they badly referenced in that shitty post so I can insert panels when I call them an idiot
#‘oh no poor jayson and Brooce the other guy is ruining their relationship by not adding vital context’ I’m sorry was the batarang to the#throat not vital context? did that not address your concern? ooh he doesn’t know the lengths he went for him#why does someone else need to tell him when he can see the response his presence is having#show your care and concern and love and grief to its subject stood in front of you#which is possible without listening to him and killing chuckles but maybe not by acting unaffected and then walloping him maybe#whatever I was gonna go to bed why did I see that now I’m pissed#what a fucking clown honestly if jokes retires tumblr user ********** can take over for him#zh.txt#comics#batstans interact and I start biting
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