#I’ve got a thing or two to say

[mushiemellows]

I don’t know how to explain the emotion I feel maybe I should update a fic or two to try and put it into words

[yourdeepestfathoms]

Anya Mouthwashing Headcanons

TW FOR MENTIONS OF SA AND MISCARRIAGE

Aroace (not that it matters now)

However, she was still in the closet to most people, as she never really knew how to explain it (some people just don’t get it) or never had a good time to bring it up

21-23 in my head

Likes cute things

Has a really cheesy sense of humor

Also has a bad sense of humor

The dumbest things will make her laugh

Covers her mouth when she laughs

She would unironically enjoy those “hang in there” kitten posters

Sees Daisuke like a brother, and she wishes she had known him before this all happened

Has anxiety, and it just got worse After

Once got so mad at Daisuke during a board game that she considered sabotaging his psych evaluation out of spite

Constantly crashing out during said board games

She gets SO angry

“Anya, please, it’s just a game—” “IT’S NOT JUST A GAME, HE CHEATED”

Feels safest around Swansea

Sorts the medical stock when stressed (both before and after the crash)

Fidgets with the buttons on her jumpsuit

Sings well but too shy to do so in front of other people (unless it’s to do purposefully bad karaoke with Daisuke)

Absolutely drowning in student debt, lord help her

Can’t swim

Doesn’t drink (or, well, she DIDN’T)

Bites her nails down to the quick

Cold hands

Sunburns SO easily

Wanted a pet cat

after the cut are the heavier hcs with the above TW, so proceed with caution!

Aborted by inducing her own miscarriage around three months after the crash. She never intended on having the baby, and even though she held a grudge against the fetus, she wasn’t about to bring a child into the situation on the ship, where it would most certainly suffer and probably die anyway without proper resources.

In similar vein, she never wanted children.

Blockaded her bedroom door with pretty much every piece of movable furniture after It Happened, and she curses herself for not doing that beforehand.

Refused to shower for a good two weeks after It Happened because she didn’t want to see her own body. (And maybe if she’s so disgusting, he won’t touch her again)

She was a bit wary when she first heard that she would be the only woman on the ship, but she rationalized that surely nothing would happen.

For that, she hates herself for being so naive. And she wonders if it’s her fault for letting her guard down.

After the assault, she cried for her mother. Her mom was the only thing she wanted in that moment (because somehow, wanting and getting her skin back seemed less probable than her mother showing up in the ship)

[usedtobethelegendcreator]

So let me get this straight. When Husk says, “You may own my soul, but I ain’t your fuckin pet”, it’s Alastor being a slave-owner. But when Rosie sings a whole musical number calling Alastor her pet, and making him sing along, no one’s mad on Alastor’s behalf, it’s just Vivzie being racist. Where’s the consistency?

Is it because you were already mad at Alastor, and Husk’s line gave you another reason to hate him, but you refuse to have the same reaction when Alastor’s on the receiving end because it’d mean you misjudged him? Is it because it goes against your headcanons, aka the pilot vs S1 treatment? Is it because you don’t like letting a story have twists because you need everything explained to you?

Or is it more of the white knighting I’ve seen around Alastor recently? You know, all those claims that Alastor was retconned to be mixed-race, despite the fact that we’ve known that since before the show even came out? And even don’t get me started on the skin color debate. It pisses me off every time I see it.

I mostly kept my mouth shut about the Husk thing, since I’m not Black, but I am mixed-race Creole, so now I’ve got room to talk. Alastor isn’t even the only one with a different skin color in death—what, did you think Carmilla had gray skin in life?

What really gets me is that everyone (except me) liked the fan-made human Alastor design. You know, the baby-faced, arguably-white-passing one that appeared in “Daisies” (and all contemporary fan art)? But the moment it turns out that Alastor wasn’t white-passing (and had facial hair in his thirties, oh the utter tragedy), everyone started throwing a hissy fit. Guys, you brought this on yourselves by getting so attached to your headcanons. Accepted fanon is not canon. Didn’t you learn this lesson from the jump from the pilot to the show, or did it fly over your head then, too?

And maybe I’d actually have something nice to say about this fandom for once if you weren’t so embarrassing to be associated with. God, let a story tell itself without whining about it, for fuck’s sake.

[dykedvonte]

omg hi if it wouldn't be a bother i'd love if you could expand on your perspective on curly's character representing how patriarchy, rape culture, etc, negatively effect men?

I think Curly is there to represent the idealic person for the scenerior but in a lot of wrong place wrong time and a sort of deconstruction.

Curly’s enabling is never just the “He wouldn’t do that, he’s my friend, I know him.” type. Yes, he is not nearly as concerned as he should be with Jimmy’s behavior but he’s not completely blind to how he can be and is aware that Jimmy is just a guy who had it rough. He clearly is very keen on keeping Jimmy calm for the trip, very accommodating to all of them in a way that he honestly should be but can be used to explain away favoritism. If everyone can get away with a little something than it can then be extended to Jimmy. A big problem of Curly’s is he extends to much curtesy to everyone which a lot of people ignore to just focus on Jimmy and his relationship.

In specifics of rape culture, he’s the sad truth of people don’t immediately cut off the abuser. There is a lot of this in irl cases that can range from the inability to open the selfish not wanting to but here it’s because his relationship with the abuser is also not healthy/abusive, falling into the former with how confined they are despite how it can be seen as bros protecting bros due to how underplayed emotionally unhealthy relationships between men can be. His relationship with Jimmy is not just one of wanting to protect him from himself but keeping him docile, safe to bring around others. There is a tension in almost all of their private scenes where Curly is trying hard to make sure his words are understood and don’t set him off. It’s subtle but real and an aspect of RC that gets overlooked when it’s comes to men coming forward themselves or on behalf of others. The way they can’t directly oppose each other because their safety may be the least of their concerns. They know men and in this case he knows this man won’t target him but the others, especially Anya, case point: not wanting her to tell Jimmy alone.

There is an inherent intimidation that can also happen in male spaces we see Jimmy use due to the specific social condemnation effect he has with Curly. Even if he is a bad friend to Curly, he is a dear friend and a lot of apprehension with men on the side of Curly in RC comes from that social anxiety, that fear and the very real idea you or the person you were trying to help will be further retaliated against/isolated just like we see happen to an extreme in canon. We don’t know how much Curly and Jimmy interacted between the party and the crash. We can assume they didn’t at all or perhaps went on as normal, but we know something changed after the conversation with Anya both at night and in the cockpit.

I think the card being in the locker shows he was gonna make the complaint, taking her ID to get her numbers for the report as it isn’t there before hand. With the recent reblog of how complaints have to be filed, he was likely storing it, possibly it was close to a time he could send something if it was even possible. Though everything was inevitably too late.

Curly is the ideal man on paper in terms of a patriarchal system. In shape, handsome, the top of the pecking order, competent or otherwise on top of his perineal duties. The issue is he is deeply unhappy just as someone like Jimmy who reflects all the negatives. This should be what he wants but he’s realized it’s unfulfilling, boring and he’s given up too much of himself to get up a ladder he doesn’t even remember why he climbed in the first place. He is not keen on keeping that status, I am a contrarian in thinking he honestly didn’t care if the report when on his record, more so he was in shock it happened at all. Didn’t want to believe his friend actually did it and he of all people would have to be the one to turn him in for it. It’s selfish and it’s a personal thought but it’s real. It’s denial because even if you know it’s for justices sake, you grieve the friendship you had and the perceptions that were shattered. It’s not supposed to sound good or noble or kind because it isn’t, it’s human.

All together I think Curly represents a big way these systems negatively affect the men that everyone assume benefits. He’s unhappy with the power he has because it ties him to responsibilities that bring him no fulfillment, he also gets retaliated against by Jimmy because he was never immune and in a way was aware of it. He’s unequipped and nervous to handle such a delicate situation because it isn’t protocol, there’s no protocol. He followed the rules of all the concepts mentioned, trying to do the right and normal thing and it either left him with nothing to show for it or damned him and others in the end.

This is a shorter post than I would write but I just feel like I’ve tackled these aspects so much individually or in lumped together posts that unless it’s something specific I will just create run on tangents.

[pearlsdiamondsandvodka]

people who’ve watched both trigun animes; is the new one good? this is the second time I’ve been trying to get into it but I just can’t seem to do it!

[the-meme-monarch]

i have one more commission to do and then it’s all over for you people (making art for myself that I’m not rushing to get done)(for maybe a week or two before i open commissions again)

[onyxstrm]

so does a duchess and a likely main person of interest still get to graduate from war college or

[perplexingly]

I’m so damn tired

[egregiousderp]

We’re on day six straight of “wake up in the middle of the night/morning hypervigilant and struggle to sleep again” which means we’re reaching the season of Perma Tension and Overthink.

Can’t wait to get through the next two days of work so I can start my week of suspension.

[secondpersonpoetry]

you’ve probably already read it before, but the poem Party by Kim Addonizio really got me tonight. first thought was “oh man. yeah” and then my second thought was “how can i make this about my hockey guys somehow………..”anyway! have a good one! 

oh. oh.

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[arolesbianism]

I caved and made them real. Obverse me losing more and more motivation to draw as I made each of these back to back lol

[crossbackpoke-check]

it’s all the rest of what i want with you

connor dewar/brandon duhaime :: 8k

Summary:

“Brandon,” Connor says with a sigh. “There’s no baby in there.”

“Not yet,” Brandon says. Connor feels his stomach twist, almost like what he would imagine a baby kicking to feel like.

in these trying times of dewvorce, may i offer you 8k of pwp inspired by @stillfertile’s wonderful art which i had. several breakdowns about 🫶 anyway please enjoy!!!

[cuteniaarts]

Digitalised + coloured + redesigned version of my Suiren and Vaatu sketch from two days ago, as promised!!

Coming up with Suiren’s design was a very long process of trying and failing because after you’ve drawn 9+ different versions of one character, the creativity starts to run a little dry, but I’m actually really proud of this one, she looks absolutely adorable <3

(Also yeah I did mostly just scribble Vaatu’s pattern because who has the energy to draw the all out accurately. Not me, that’s who, I’m chronically tired. People who draw him on the regular have my utmost respect. He’s still a funky little guy though :D)

Bonus, Raava incessantly screaming inside Suiren (and being completely ignored because Suiren is tired of her) while all this is happening:

[bradassholemajors]

The Rocky Horror anniversary show was INCREDIBLE. I don’t have the spoons to post any pics or notes however bc I’m exhausted bc — you’re not gonna fuckin believe this— me and my friend (WHILE DRESSED AS BRAD AND JANET) got a flat tire and got stranded in the middle of nowhere last night. And it was exhausting and surreal and all my insane Brad Majors kinnie ass could think the entire time was “woagh… I’m literally him”

[steampunk-raven]

Marjolein for the bingo, perhaps 👀

Blorbo from my spice cabinet <3

pw3!marjo would fall for an mlm scheme but only if sarah was the one running said scheme. Let’s pretend that counts as a bingo for me lol, even if I didn’t color in the square

[plaintext: but only if sarah was the one running said scheme]

[purplebutwarhammer]

I hate having an interest that inspires me, I’m here trying to avoid eye contact with the three wips in my drafts