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[savage-rhi]

I'm very much a, "fuck yeah and fuck you, I don't need validation! I'm me, cunts!" kinda fella, but sometimes I could use support.

[muttsona]

i hope i die, you broke my heart

[maplesyrupsainz]

˖⁺｡˚⋆˙you want me to? | LS2˖⁺｡˚⋆˙

pairing: logan sargeant x james vowles assistant!reader y/n (she/her)

genre: social media au

warnings: just fluff!!!! i loveee this plot hehe

summary: in which your new job facilitates you in finding new love

a/n: i love this request & i luv writing for logan !!! not sure if i executed it super well tho let me know what you think 💘 my recent emojie now is just: 🇺🇸🦅

request!!!: May I suggest a Logan Sargeant x James Vowles assistant! Reader? Like her job is to get the boys stuff they might need and to like help out around the paddock and Logan keeps asking her to get him stuff as an excuse to talk to her. And people start to notice when Alex and James start lightly making fun of them in interviews and stuff. Just think it would be funny

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[ladykyriaa]

can i rant to you 😔

just came back from the trenches (reddit) and am baffled that people still think jinshi was manipulative for forcefully trapping maomao in a relationship with him in the events of LN 8... i am tired man.... do people read the novels with their brains deactivated or perhaps activated too much they're interpreting it completely wrong...

and get this... as a backup evidence, they're using his underhanded tactics against Lakan in the Go tournament to prove their point... i'm at a loss for words 🥲

ofc!! and my dms are open (in case me know each other) in case you ever want to rant some more anon!!

honestly Reddit could sometimes provide some very good, I wanna say theories and metas, but half of the time its like a bunch of rabid dogs reside there just waiting for someone to pass by before they start barking nonsense.

Though reddit aside this fandom's treatment toward my boy JInshi has been overly hostile lets be real, Im in no way surprised that somehow some fucking way one of his most desperate-devastating action would still be interpreted as him being manipulative. This man has been wanting to get out of the imperial line since day 1, he's just know desperate enough to finally do it. And heck if he can hit two birds with one stone (Complicate the lineage situation AND get maomao to be the only one attending to him) then why fucking not.

There's a difference between wanting to keep maomao beside him and wanting her to be the only woman who's able to see him.

By doing this he's ensuring that no one other than Maomao would be able to see him in all his naked glory; meaning no consorts for him for the time being. That doesn't automatically means he gets the girl lmao how did people even come up with that (though i am convinced that by this point Maomao has warmed up to his regardless. She was more pissed at him for willingly hurting himself from a foolish action than anything else.) lets wear our thinking caps guys.

also no fucking way are people shaming Jinshi for using "underhanded tactics" against LAKAN, of all people. shrewd strategist with a million underhanded tactics under his belt to expose those against him, the same person who had also use those tactics on his daughter to expose Jinshi of his true Position.

Jinshi is a politician, first and foremost. He's gonna use exactly what he's handed to get what he wants and if y'all have a problem with that, in a story that tells exactly about fictional ancient china's MYSTERY and POLITICS then. frankly idk why youre even reading this.

The whole Go tournament was merely so he'd get in Lakan's favour. It won't get him to immediately like him duh, but at the very least Lakan would have respected him a tad bit more if Jinshi had indeed defeated him in the Go tournament. Maomao did the same thing so I dont even understand why this is suddenly becoming a problem

dont piss me off. people really will say anything just to justify the dumbassery hatred they have for Jinshi seriously

[ganondoodle]

saw a few posts talking about ganondorf and while i dont want to uh .. risk having to argue with strangers ... i cant shut up entirely (you know me)

(in my opinion that is probably missing alot or just not as well read as a lot of others since i really just say what i feel instead of knowing what im talking about-)

its kinda hard to really talk about him bc hes so .... steeped into tired old stereotypes and harmful tropes with intentionally so little else, if anything, that you almost always end up playing into them if you just take what canon tells you (and alot of people love defending it too :/ )

to what degree is it really his character and what is literally just some things that were decided he does to make it clear hes the one note evil guy, to justify whatever horror is done to him and overshadow/bury what anyone else has done, to not think about maybe he had a point bc look how much bad stuff he does! if you made him fight for the freedom/sovereignity of his own people against an oppressive hyrule he would be in the right- so ACTUALLY he opresses them violently and selfishly even WORSE and then wants to murder everyone tm that dont bow to him bc thats what evil people do! and hyrule is justified in taking them over in turn bc their rule wont opress them :)

its like a game of trying to one up whatever hyrule did with something more bad tm bc otherwise it gets hard to justify killing him over and over

im not saying hes not allowed to be prideful, selfish or violent of whatever, but you gotta know that all of that IS one of those ways that is supposed to make it clear how evil tm the desert guy is; it doesnt matter what hyrule has done bc look! ganondorf is so much worse! and im sure hyrule had their reasons :)

hes never actually allowed to interact with his own people, hes isolated/alienated from them and their culture constantly, hes their king yet he .... violently takes over "free" gerudo villages (what? what for?? what does "free" even mean? they werent following him? their king?? were they .. allied with hyrule, who are good tm, which means they were living in paradise aka "free"? (bc they are good ones tm bc they rejected their evil one in a hundred year man king ruling violently over only women .. *cough*)), yet hes never seen fighting alongside his own people (the most is them .. silently serving him in what, one scene??) and then he drops them the second he has evil MONSTERS to fight for him instead and orders them to kill every living thing or something bc thats obviously evil, he doesnt even care about his own people! how evil! why would he do that? idk, hes the sole, selfish violent evil man opressing his own people, who are all women! that what they do! and WE need to free them from HIM (and they should be thankful to us for it and try to attone for ever having birthed him in the first place) (or he is the reason tm why they suffered/were wiped out and he is literally the sole survivor of his people, bc he doesnt care about ANYONE but himself)

i dont mean he has to be a goody two shoes character (you can be an ass and still do good/be in the right btw) bc more often than not what that actually means is being allied with hyrule bc those are the designated good guys and being on their side makes you automatically good (eugh) but do you rly want to just ... play along with all the propaganda?

imo, aside from being obviously racist, thats also so boring? does selfish, violent evil man king with no people (bc hes not part of them or fighting for them, hes always presented as the worse oppressor) and nothing else to him that only wants to murder bc ... idk evil? sound interesting to you? (to the point that the ONLY time we were shown literally any sort of vunerabillity, end of ww, that theres people trying to argue he was trying to to manipulate you even there?? what for? why? are you trying to reject literally the one glimpse we are allowed into his perspective qoq)

why do alot of people reject the idea so much to consider he actually cared about them, how maybe that prideful and selfish look is just a facade, or even a fabrication? violence that had to be met with violence, not for any sort of selfish reasons, but for his people and was met with a fight he could not win yet kept fighting on, perhaps losing himself more and more in the process, or a lie told so often that it became reality, if someone has nothign left to lose, if all was taken from them, maybe even blamed on them, why not play into what you where made out to be, you cant convince them otherwise anyway its the reason hes never shown to have done a single nice thing, never seen non angry/smug smiling, how he has no one at his side unless he forced them, how he is not allowed to be human even a little bit, never shown being anything but a boring ass trope personified, hes less a character and more a big bundle of racist tropes that fights you at the end (sorry) while looking epic so trying to meaningfully analyze him just by what we are told and shown in canon will always fall kinda flat or end up playing righ into every shitty trope

that is my opinion :I

[lordsukunas]

“i think forever would be nice with you.”

synop. kunigami wants to be with you for life.

tags. fem!reader (called ma’am once), fluff fluff fluff, uh a bit of angst if u really really really squint, reader is a tease and kind of a pessimist (or maybe a realistic idk up to u), kunigami is head over heels, dont ask when this would happen in canon bc idk, not proofread

note. ngl im tired asf... if this is incoherent, im sorry. the ending is vv awkward, mb. uhhhh man idk what else to say kunigami is the sweetest boy alive. this is inspired by one of those timtok slideshows, the one thing that app has done good forme

you flop back on the sand, chest heaving up and down from trying (and failing) to race kunigami. sweat rolls down the side of your face and neck, and you can feel the gritty sand clinging to your bare feet and legs.

“tired?” he plops down on the sand beside you and reaches for your hand. his larger, thicker fingers intertwine with yours, and he gives your hand a gentle squeeze, as if to comfort you after your shameful loss.

“very,” you huff out. your lungs burn as you gulp down air. “how do you— how do you do this every week?”

he shrugs. “habit. started when i was kid, found it fun, so i kept doing it. helps me stay in shape whenever i don’t wanna go to the gym or just need some time alone.”

his free finger doodles the face of a polar bear in the sand. you smile — it’s cute how he knows how to draw that from memory.

your eyes roll to look at him. his face is shiny with sweat, and the pale moonlight softens his features, giving kunigami almost a boyish look.

there’s no one else here. just you, kunigami, and the sounds of the waves lapping against each other and the shore. the beach is clean, too. not a crumpled beer can or a plastic wrapper in sight.

“does anyone else even know this place exists?” there’s that familiar teasing lilt in your voice, but he knows you’re serious.

he scratches the back of his head. “nah. i mean, there’s the occasional fisherman or maybe some elderly couple, but i don’t think anyone our age knows about this.”

“huh.”

a pause, and the warm breeze blows across your skin, dusting the sand away.

you grin. “so you’re just gonna gatekeep this for eternity, huh?”

“what? no!” you can practically feel his cheeks heating up from here. “i didn’t wanna ruin it by bringing the wrong people here, y’know? they might trash it or somethin’.”

“and what if i trash it?”

“you won’t.” kunigami’s reply is instant, the words shooting out of his mouth and into the night’s atmosphere. “you’re special.”

whatever goofy reply you had on your tongue instantly melts, and you’re pretty sure your heart skips a beat or two. how can he say such romantic things so... so casually?

“i, uh...” he sighs and goes back to tracing shapes in the sand, his hand still holding on tightly to yours. “you wouldn’t do something like that. even if you did, i’ll be right there to clean it up.”

you push yourself up so that you’re sitting criss-cross. your entire body is facing him now. “but what if we break up? or you move away?”

“i won’t. we won’t.”

your brows knit together. “rensuke, you don’t know that.”

something is bound to happen. something always happens. nothing good lasts forever, right? he’s in blue lock, dedicating weeks at a time to train and play in tournaments to be the world’s best striker — at some point, he’s going to have to choose. you or his football career.

even to yourself, you sound pessimistic. but you just have to be honest with yourself. life isn’t a fairytale, despite kunigami being your knight in shining armor.

“i want forever with you.”

his gaze meets yours, determination burning in auburn irises. “i’m not gonna sit here and lie to you or be embarrassed about it, ‘cause it’s true.”

you blink, and it feels like all the air has been sucked out of your lungs.

kunigami, your boyfriend of two years, wants forever with you.

it’s ridiculous, fantastical, a hundred other synonymous terms. both of you are seventeen — you have decades and decades ahead of you to decide when you want and who you’re going to spend forever with.

and he chose you.

his adam’s apple bobs, but his gaze doesn’t waver. “do you want forever with me?” his grip on your hand tightens.

“yeah.”

you don’t have to think about it. there’s nothing to think about it. it’s dumb and unrealistic, sure, but when has kunigami ever broken a promise? when has he ever lied to you?

it doesn’t take decades of being together to know that kunigami loves you with all of his heart, and you love him just the same.

your lips curl into a smile, and you can’t tell whether your vision is getting blurry from happy or sad tears. “i want forever with you.”

“okay.” he adjusts himself so that, now, both of you are facing each other. his shins touch yours, and his other hand grabs yours.

“‘okay’? that’s it? after you basically just proposed to me?” you raise an eyebrow. “with no ring, either! you could’ve gotten me a ring pop.”

kunigami chuckles, the tension seeping out of his bulky form. “sorry. i’ll get you a ring pop on the way back.”

“two ring pops, actually, and they better be the right flavor.”

“yes, ma’am.”

[xxlady-lunaxx]

your writing either puts a smile on my face or makes me want to sob but either way it’s really good <3 if it’s not too much trouble, could I request a Gentan piece where Genya is stressing out over a lot of work he has to do (can be schoolwork, idk) and Tanjiro gets him to calm down and think straight? This definitely isn’t me projecting after my own hellish weekend of schoolwork

Thank you so much!! ^^

SORRY I TOOK SO LONG i got mad at myself bc i dont know how to write tanjiro so i didn’t finish it ,, and its super short now which is mean fro u and im sorry

genya’s brother was a teacher. a math teacher, to be specific. therefore, by proxy, genya was school-dedicated. he didn’t really have a choice, and though he knew sanemi meant well, that didn’t change how stressed it made genya. studying took up most of his days, until he grew cross-eyed, trying to figure out what his notes said because he’d written them too quickly to read. he’d acquired a few more paper cuts with his frantic searching for the paper he’d lost (it was on his desk the entire time), and he wondered how nobody had mistaken him for a panda with how dark his eye bags had gotten in the past week. he realized what he needed was a de-stressor. so, of course, he invited his boyfriend over. only to end up buried in his homework once again when he realized he’d forgotten to finish one and it was due tomorrow.

tanjiro, ever the sweet boy, waited patiently. he wasn’t as pressured about his grades, or he just didn’t care enough at this point (considering how much worse his grades were compared to genya’s), so he was just idly on his phone, or making tea, or cutting some fruit for them to eat. but when genya rejected the watermelon offered, tanjiro paused with a frown.

too preoccupied with what the fuck the vertex of the equation could possibly be, genya didn’t notice the concern until tanjiro was peeking over his shoulder and saying, “maybe take a break after this worksheet’s done?”

genya jolted, not expecting the voice, then turned with the shake of his head. “i can’t, i still have to—“

“but they’re not due that soon, right? you shouldn’t keep overworking yourself, you already look so tired,” tanjiro fretted, and scooted over to sit beside genya on the floor.

“are you bored? sorry, you can go home and we’ll figure out another time—“ genya started, but was cut off again but a quick kiss to his cheek.

“it’s not that,” tanjiro sighed, brow furrowed in concern. “when was the last time you took a break?”

“uhm.”

handing him a plate with the previously rejected watermelon slices, tanjiro smiled gently. “so take a little time off. it doesn’t have to be the rest of the day, just an hour or two, to rest your mind and let you relax a bit. it’s not good to do work stressed, anyway,” he reasoned.

genya hesitated, struggling with that for a moment. then his shoulders slumped down in easy defeat. tanjiro looked pleased.

taking some watermelon, genya nibbled at it. “after this paper,” he gave in, evidently in need of a break.

then he yelped, when juice dribbled down onto his desk, marking the paper with light pink splatters.

tanjiro stayed by his side as he finished up, only getting up to get more watermelon. when genya scribbled down the final words, he dropped the pencil dramatically on the table and sighed loudly, flopping backwards onto the floor.

“done,” he said, with a tone that suggested he was very aware of all he would have to finish tomorrow. nevertheless, he smiled when tanjiro leaned down and kissed him gently. he sat up, retreating from the desk to engulf his boyfriend in a hug.

tanjiro laughed as he was squished, eyes shutting as he squirmed. “genya!” he protested, but made no move to leave. when he was released, he tackled genya in turn, sending them tumbling in a clutter of limbs onto the floor. they burst into a fit of giggles, until they were telling each other to stop laughing else they would never stop—and even when they managed to calm down, wide smiles graced their faces.

they lay there for a few long moments, quietly coming to a stop. genya buried his face in tanjiro’s shoulder, and tanjiro tightened the embrace.

“why don’t we watch something short, then have dinner?” tanjiro suggested, after several minutes of silence. he lifted his head, pressing his cheek against genya’s in question.

genya hummed and sat up, helping tanjiro up, too. “‘kay,” he agreed, but didn’t make any other movements, resting his weight onto tanjiro, visibly relaxing into the hug.

dinner came late, the movie an hour longer than agreed to watch (they forgot to check the length beforehand), and sleep was put to bed after a cup of hot chocolate topped with minty toothpaste and the struggle to find the pillows in the dark.

sometime before they fell asleep, sanemi came home and peeked into genya’s room, scowling when he saw him with tanjiro. but he sighed instead of coming at him, seemingly sensing that this was not the time for scolding. so he let them be, and genya let out his breath, snuggling into the blankets and sharing a smile with tanjiro.

“can you come over tomorrow, too?” he whispered.

“of course.”

[straycalamities]

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story of my life but i am not doing too hot yet again. verge of breaking point etc etc weve been here so many times i might as well pay rent

things that i actually had good strategies for are rearing their head and kicking my ass bc my strategies no longer work for some Fucking raisin

and rhis is on top of all the same old shit thats been kicking my ass for over a decade and i tried to get medicaid to get back in therapy but the process is being a pain in the ASS

and i just dont know how much longer i can upkeep my chill and silly guy persona before i jist shatter bc to keep myself from being the downer, the needy guy, “oh stray is going through it get again whats new” its all turned inside as self-punishment and self-rending bc i DONT know what else to do at this point because where im at i really need

an entire multi person demolition team to dig me out i am so serious i dont think i can do it myself but idk where to go bc everyone around me is in the same boat or bad Enough or even better but still struggling so i dont wanna be The Guy to drag them down when im inevitably hard to deal with

or it costs money i dont have

and this is all making it even more impossible to Make the money. it feels like ive fell into an impossible situation bc the bad keeps feeding the bad

i dont know

(heavy af sui shit sorry)

every day i get more and more understanding of why when ppl finally go through with it they dont say anything and nobody can tell its coming

(end heavy)

ive been trying to do this by myself for ten years and i just feel exactly the same the problems are just different or evolving or idk im sincerely at a loss

i thought it was just seasonal depression doing its thing more than its had a chance to bc the past two winters id been distracted by my retail job but no i think this is just. me being back in the fucking building again which the end of my job made WORSE so it could be even more bad but its still pretty fkn bad lmao

im fighting the isolation and bedrotting urges but thats abt all ive got in me rn

i manage to feed myself and i even made sweet tea? but those feel like herculean efforts these days and then thats like it. thats all i can do. too tired after

[xo3ll1e]

Little!Reader x Billy Hargrove

˙˚ ᕱ⑅ᕱ ɞ˚˙ how regressing in front of him goes ˙˚ ᕱ⑅ᕱ ɞ˚˙

I was looking through my docs and found this! Isn't that neat? I'm not into Stranger Things as much as I used to be but I still wanted to post this. Sorry if there's misspellings or grammatical errors, never proofread as usual.

“You have fun tonight sweetheart?” My boyfriend Billy had asked me. Tonight we had went on a date to a drive-in movie theater. The movie was scary and due to that I had the mind to regress a bit. He knows about my little side, with him finding out by complete accident. Although I had fessed up and told him at that point, I never really regressed near him. Yeah he said he was fine with it but was he really? That’s what always ran through my mind when I wanted to regress near him so I never did. 

“mhm” i said with a small smile and nod, he looked at me with his usual smirk

“You sure? i saw you jump quite a bit” he chuckled out

i huffed, looking away embarrassed and mumbled out a whatever as he continued to drive out of the movie and into the road. he looked turned his head towards me 

“y’know the night is still young, we could still stay out, if you want” he said looking at me hopefully, i gave him a smile and nodded

“Can we just drive around then? i dont really feel like doing anything else” i say reaching my hand over to grab his hand to play with his fingers. 

“Anything you want sweetheart,” he says, turning his head back to the road and suddenly moving his hand to my stomach, tickling me, I let out a yelp and giggle and grab his hand to hold it away from me. I put our hands back to my lap and turn my whole body towards him, my back towards the window. I admire all his features, from his hair, to his eyes, that perfectly sculpted jawline. he looks at me with his eyebrow raised

“What sweetpea? Can't get enough of me?” he asks, i sigh and close my eyes, snuggling into the seat, hugging his hand as if it was a stuffie. 

“ Tired honey? you can always go in the back to laydown there, got a blanket back there too” he says not taking his eyes off the road, i shake my head 

“nuh uh” I say, I feel myself regressing but I'm sure if I just gradually get more non verbal he shouldn't be able to tell, right? He glances at me and takes the hand I'm holding back, I let out a whine and in my head even I regretted it, keeping my eyes closed out of embarrassment, I couldn't see but I could just imagine his surprised face. 

“alright sweetgirl, let me pull over and i’ll situate you alright?” he says finding a spot to pull over, he turns on the heater as well as the radio (think if some 80’s rock song that would play idk) putting it on the lowest setting and volume. he gets out of the car and i start tearing up, feeling that i had really just regressed in front of him, i should've known he would've found it weird. i try not to let the tears fall or let my sniffles get out but he rounds towards my side of the car and pulls me out, holding me bridal style, close to his chest

“c’mere honey,” he pulled the passenger seat down to reveal the back seats that he puts me in. he climbs in after, i open my eyes to look at him

“shh shh, its alright, go back to sleep, im just tucking you in, i’ll bring you back home in a jiff” he says quickly, climbing back out, putting the passenger seat back, closing the door and going back over to the drivers side. he fixes the rear view mirror to get a good look at me 

“you okay back there sweetheart?” He asked. I mumble a “mhm”, still feeling unwanted. as he starts the car and continues to drive, now heading to my place. My parents were out for vacation so I had the house alone. The tears I had pushed back had decided to resurface now but i didnt have the strength to hold them back, as well as my sniffles. Obviously Billy had heard and glanced at me through the mirror, he sighs and i open my mouth

“m sorries” i say he looks at me confused

“sorry for what?” turning his focus back to the road

“for being wike this, i-i know you must not wanna deaw wif me” i say slipping in and out of baby words. he sighs and pulls over, no cars in sight for miles, due to it being very late into the night at this point. he gets out and that's when all my tears fall, sobbing and whining. He does the whole process with the passenger seat again and climbs in. He looks at me with a soft look and brings me into his arms. He starts rocking us back and forth in hopes to soothe me but all i do is regress more and cry more. 

“sh sh shhhhh, dont ever think like that, dont ever think i dont want you or dont want to “deal with you” as you say it,” he says “i’ll do anything for you sweetgirl, even if i dont understand, im willing to learn. I want to learn, just to make you feel comfortable” he says sincerely, kissing my forehead tenderly. 

i look up at him with big wide eyes, “weally? Are you sure this isn’t pressuring?” i ask

“Well, learning anything is pressuring but I don't mind if it's for you” Billy says, bringing me into his chest, I grab onto his shirt and cling there. We stayed like that for a while, me almost being on the brink of falling asleep. until he started to move. i immediately whine but he shushes me and somehow shimmies the both of us out of the back. he pushes the seat back and goes to the front, bringing me with him. he gets in, tucking my head underneath his chin so I don't hit my head on the roof of the car and situates us to where im straddling his lap, cuddling him. I snuggle deeper into his chest as he tugs the blanket tightly to me, almost in a swaddle. I sigh in delight and the feeling of sleeping overcomes me once more. He rubs his hand on my back, keeping one of the steering, as he taps his hand along the steering wheel to the beat of the song. 

I fully fall asleep but every so minutes I feel a kiss on my head. 

[pumpkinsy0]

hcs or thoughts on tim defending or protecting darry from getting jumped?

while darry can hold his own and most people respect him i still think people are way more scared of tim

U R NOT WRONG AT ALL TO THINK THAT, ITS NOT RIDICULOUS ITS NOT RIDICULOUS TO SAY THAT

while i do see ppl being on alert when darrys around bc hes tall AND buff, most likely they still see him as the golden boy he used to b if they even remember him at all. darry graduated like 2 (or 1 idk) years ago, the ppl who REALLY knew him r either dead, longggg out of tulsa, or too busy in their lives to talk to him again, to everyone elses eyes, he peaked in high school. he was untouchable then, but nowwww nottt so much, the ppl who r jumping now downplay his accomplishments

tim on the other hand, hes like an enigma!!! they dont know jack about tims personal life, all they know is hes a gang leader, they know good and well what his gang can do and r involved in, and thats enough to scare em. they dont know him personally so they cant exactly dehumanize him like they do w anyone else

what im saying here is, in the public eye, darry went from untouchable to vulnerable while tim is reversed

NOW FOR DARRY GETTING JUMPED!!!! like i said, darry is tall and buff, hes not on the ground weak and taking it (pause on that woah😭😭😭), hes doing what he can but thats totally not enough bc hes never had to fight more than TWO at once. if its after hes got off work hes especially tired and its just game over for him, his body hurts man💔💔

tim for whatever reason found his way onto curtis territory and saw it happening and very obviously jumps in which changes da game fr. fighting two ppl at once is somethin tim is nooooo stranger to he dgaf if theyre some kids younger than him, hes knocking at least one of them out, he gotta. see darry though, he fights back a tad harder but he just cant show his full strength bc he still sees them as kids, no matter how bad they physically hurt him

after all is said and done, would darry feel bad for doing it?? absolutely not, he still understands he was defending himself and while tim is mad darry “let himself get jumped” hes glad darry isnt moping around. hes still shaken up cause he hasnt been jumped in a good long while

[theelmoarchive]

Sanders Sides theory (rant). I know im mainly a mh acc here but I have thoughts i need to get out there

(just fyi this theory is Roman centric, I know most TSS people nowadays are talking ab Orange and Logan so if Roman's not interesting then continue on 🔥🔥)

(Also slight TW, talking ab the sides "ducking out" and depression themes, so yeah👍👍)

Okay so. I was scrolling through Sanders Sides theories and found that no one seems to have this theory, even though I thought the Roman angst enjoyers like me would be writing this all over the place but. Ig that means I need to talk about it.

I've had this theory for years now, since the day I first watched SVS Redux.

I think Roman is going to duck out.

I dont know if I have to explain why but. I mean, just looking at the explosive end SVS Redux had will tell you a lot.

He doesn't belive Patton when he tells him they love him. He thinks Thomas has lost all faith in him in favor of the person Roman views as the epitome of evil. He's been switching views left and right to stay on Patton's side (because Thomas prides himself on his morals), but he always ends up doing something wrong - he always ends up as an antagonist. He no longer believes that he is the one thing that being has kept him stable since "Am I Original?" - Thomas' hero. The only side he has a stable and positive relationship with is VIRGIL of all people. And tbh that could quickly be ruined too. Logan is second, though, but that's EXTREMELY fragile, as we've seen.

Roman always does something wrong and it will and has sent him over the edge. From Roman's perspective, with a very flawed view of everyone around him, he is inherently the thing that flaws Thomas.

+ Roman is really dramatic obviously, so ofc he would do this.

When you look at Virgil's reasonings for ducking out, it seems plausible after everything Roman has gone through recently, too. I mean like:

"I quit. Decided it wasn't worth it anymore"

Why would Roman keep fighting a battle he knows he will never win?

"Well, It didn’t seemed like I was wanted. You all made that pretty clear any time I showed up."

Again, from Roman's perspective, he is constantly and consistently antagonized.

"If I wanted to stand around being insulted, I would've shown up I would've shown up in person like I usually do."

[same thing]

"I actually think you were right to not want me around."

Roman fears that he is becoming the villain (as we see in SVS, SVS Redux and DWIT).

(In fact, Roman has already said something quite similar to that last one in sentiment.

In SVS Redux, Roman says this, which is pretty funny because of the dramatics and the stupidity, and does get shot down quickly, but I am begging you to listen to him.

"The blame falls to me. If you're missing that do-gooder drive... I think It's because I'm in the driver seat... And I'm an awful driver... Perhaps... Perhaps I should let Patton take the wheel.")

(2nd sidenote to the Virgil quotes, can we talk ab Thomas' acting again I just love how tired Virgil is in AA. He's so. Troubled. I love him.)

WAIT ALSO I FORGOT TO ADD THIS UNTIL I WAS AB TO POST IT-

"I've always aimed to protect you,"

THIS!! First of all his face makes me so sad BUT SECOND OF ALL yeah. Roman core idk what else to say, you get it right.

"I thought I was your hero."

So yeah.

Anyway, I think the episode where Roman does this will be centered around depression. Without Roman, Thomas is depressed. Let me explain this further.

Roman is Thomas' creativity, imagination, ego, passion, love, wills and wants, hopes and dreams, aspirations and enthusiasm.

Without any of that, what is left? A guy who can't even will himself out of bed, but can still feel the nagging voice of reason and logic telling him how unreasonable he's being. A guy who cant will himself to talk to friends, family and loved ones, but can still feel sorrow for letting them down and worrying them. A guy who can't will himself to pursue creative content that he relies on for a living but can still feel anxious about letting millions of people down and never being able to create again. A guy who cant even make food for himself or brush his teeth, but still knows he NEEDS to take care of himself. A guy whose only creativity is activly trying to disturb and scare him.

So yeah thats really awesome idk.

Furthermore, I think the sides might be SEVERELY impacted.

It has been said many times over the series that the sides are purely figments of Thomas' IMAGINATION. so. Without Roman, I doubt anything would be left. Obviously, if Roman does duck out, I don’t think they'd all immediately just cease to exist because an episode still needs to occur, but I find it likely that they'd all start slowly fading or maybe even "malfunctioning", glitching, putting them on a timer to get back Roman and making it far more tense.

Is this theory weird?????? I feel like it's the natural progression TO ME but I've seen no one even getting near this and im just confused ghfhfhfh. Maybe it is kind of weird and im just too much of a Roman enthusiast. SORRY I LOVE ANNOYING WEIRDO FREAKS!!!! AND IF I WAS HIM ID DUCK OUT TOO BECAUSE NO ONE IS APPRECIATING HIM ☹️☹️☹️ EVEN THOUGH HE'S LITERALLY WHAT MAKES THOMAS DO THINGS. 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Anyway.

I also think it fits really well because of Prinxiety's parallels, such as:

(using the ship name just as a duo name because that's what I usually do I am not trying to push the prinxiety agenda although I am a fan of it ghfyfgfh)

"Thanks everyone... Well, almost everyone."

And

"I mean, it's cool to see you all trying to be helpful. Well most if you, but-"

The only difference in these two is obviously that Virgil just silently ducks out, while Roman has the entire "You make us better" speech, probably effectivly saving Virgil and Thomas, because it seems like Virgil was going to insist.

(Also another sidenote that I think everyone will agree with: WE NEED A "YOU MAKE US BETTER" SPEECH BY VIRGIL FOR ROMAN that is all)

Also. Who can forget.

Virgil saying that he tried to "duck out" and then

"That's a thing you can do?"

😐

Do you understand what I'm saying. Do you. Huh.

Okay anyway.

Idk how to end this I feel like theres still more I wanna say but i forgot. In conclusion: prin up that xiety. Reminder that FWSA was real and not a fever dream. I lied this is actually prinxiety propaganda.

But Hey That's Just A Theory. A really quite depressing and sad theory. Thanks for tumbling down a hill with me 🫶

[bulbabutt]

Thank you for being a bastion of sanity amidst the growing "but proshippers! But incest! But RPF!" purity culture's nonsense.

I'm so tired of being afraid to admit that I've even read a fanfic/fancomic because that same person might have a DIFFERENT ACCOUNT where they indulge in a problematic ship. And therefore they are "bad" and by association, I could be labeled "bad" for having looked at something completely unrelated and tossed on a block list.

It's asinine. Yet I'm too afraid to even get off anon because I know I don't have the mental fortitude to survive a potential online witch hunt.

So thank you, I wish you all the strength to keep screaming the words I cannot.

honestly youre not the first person to send me an anon about this, i just tend to feel just as afraid of responding to them as much as you are afraid of coming off anon. i think because while ill post things in vague context, it becomes another thing when someone says it out loud, yknow? but i appreciate it, knowing im not just screaming into a void where no one likes what i have to say.

i think what i will say is im not the only one who THINKS like i do, but i am just dumb enough to be loud and annoying about it. its kind of a thing where i'd never say anything specific because like... some people are so vicious and will demand blood if they get a whiff if i mention anything vaguely. the fact i have to be afraid to say 'people dont mind' for their own safety is crazy, huh?

i think that thing youre saying about being worried by association from association was the same first time i had this thought. i was reading something so good so deep something that effected me so deeply from how well it was talking about the realistic effects of incestuous abuse, and then i went to see what else the author had written and i was like. oh. theres just regular incest in here too. and that was kind of a moment of hm.. perhaps i need to think more about what really matters here. the fact i can engage with what i want and just say 'oh i see what else you do, thats not for me so i will just not engage with that'

so it hurts worse when theres the idea of someone engaging with art they like that has nothing 'weird' going on, then suddenly getting hit with screaming that that artist has a side account theyre not advertising where they make weird art that they are keeping FULLY separate from the account in question. like i do not see how that helps anybody in that situation.

then theres the generalization of it. the idea that maybe all you did was draw like. 19 yr old versions of two 15 yr olds kissing, and suddenly that gets you put on a list of people who will draw literal children in sexual situations, gets you put in that same boat without question. that shit is so cruel to me, that these things all get painted with the same brush. equally as bad, equally as deserving of being ostracized. or the idea that you get put on that list for not caring about if strangers ship things on the internet, makes you just as bad as someone who makes it. i really just hate this entire culture.

idk im... old school i guess? back in my day youd watch a shitty cartoon that had over 20 characters in it so you could smash them together in whatever ship suited you. crack ships were the bread and butter of me and my friends, shit that made no sense but in your own head. the idea of being anti... shipping at all is so... thats very weird. shipping as a thing is very much what fandom was ever made for in the first place? like. im not kidding, learn your history if you dont know that (middle age women shipping kirk and spock)

back when i was a kid i watched this tv show called kim possible, and i was a kid who didnt know shit about themselves seeing a pretty villain lady for the first time who called the main character who was a girl princess. i didnt know what to make of that, i didnt know the age difference between them i was a dumbass child, they were both drawn the same way! then im like 12 years old on the internet, i see theres a ship of the teenage girl and this like 30 yr old villain woman. do you think my 12 year old self saw the problematic nature and thought deeply about the morals of said ship? no. i was like 'holy shit i wish i was the teenage girl dating shego. why do i like this? oh god im a lesbian'

again. i was a child. what are you gonna do, go back in time and arrest my 12 year old ass for looking at pg rated fanart of women kissing on the internet? we didnt HAVE real representation yet! there was no korrasami, no rupphire, no bubbline, no lumity! shipping was the only place you could see stuff that was gay! and it being GAY would get you in more trouble than it having an age gap!

the fact is people WOULD cancel me now for that, wouldnt you?! thats where we're at. that IS a problematic ship, id be put on a blocklist in todays internet for being a child who crushed on villains. i didnt make it, i didnt create for it, i just looked at it and that would get you in trouble now!!! thats crazy.

i know thats a random tangent to go off on, but like..... hhhhh i dont know man. sometimes it seems like people want the internet to pass by broadcasting standards and practices and thats!!! bad!!! let people experiment with their weird shit as they figure themselves out, its so fucking normal. youre not a bad person for looking at things on the internet, youre not a bad person for engaging with things, youre not a bad person for being horny online! especially if you make your own fucking space for it?? a space easily blacklistable, with trigger warnings and EVERYTHING... we didnt have those when i was a kid, so some things are better, but culture is just worse.

i dunno. i just think i would not have thrived in this environment as a teenager. im glad im old and know better, but i worry about the lessons kids are learning from this. to feel ashamed, to bottle shit up, its not good for you. be kind to yourself, be kind to others. we're all working through shit in our own ways.

sorry for another long annoying post

[quodekash]

FUUUUUUUUUUUCKing hell theyre gonna kiss today????

hes so grumpy already I love this so much

the silent conversations chain and toey are having with their eyes oml I cant

pls this is so funny

theyre both deeply in love with someone else so it's jsut so unnatural to them

BUT ALSO id like to mention that the first thing chain did when he had to pretend to be hitting on toey was put his arm around his shoulders and rest his hand there. which is what he's literally ALWAYS doing with pun, no matter when it is, he's always standing next to pun with his hand resting on one of his shoulders

its like he associates his time with pun as being in a romantic relationship 👀

THESE FUCKIN BASTARDS 😭

JUST KISS IM BEGGING YOU

theyre lost in their own little world 🥺

kiIIIIIS

this is too funny, the cuts from "chain. chain what happened next." to ✨soulful dramatic guitar music✨

im sad they didnt actually kiss but also im not surprised

LOOK AT THEM, DUDE

THEYRE SO NATURAL WITH EACH OTHER

I FUCKIN LOVE FRIENDS TO LOVERS SO SO MUCH

half convinced theyre already dating, they just cant be bothered saying anything so theyre waiting for others to ask them about it

PUN IS SO CUTE DUDE I ADORE HIM HES FUCKING ADORABLE

I LOVE THEM SO FUCKING MUCH THEYRE SOIMPORTANT TO ME

if I ever have a romantic partner, this is what I want

I cant explain it, I just wanna run up to them with pure joy and excitement, and for them to hold me back by just pushing against my skull

it just seems perfect, idk why

GB4JHERGB

THE FRIENDSHIP OF ALL TIME

genuinely think I might be more invested in their friendship than all the romantic relationships in this show

im fucking CRYING

my king matt, this was so unnecessary and I love everything about it

why does it suit him so well tho

they should kiss again I think

I feel everything about this image on a spiritual level

THIS ENTIRE AMUSEMENT PARK SEQUENCE BRINGS ME SO MUCH JOY AND DOPAMINE IM IN LOVE WITH THSI EPUSODE

NEW COMFORT EPISODE UNLOCKED

look its really funny but I do feel bad cos this day is not even a little bit fun for him

like q is having a complete shit time

poor chain doesn't love amusement parks but he has to go on the rides with toey to keep up the facade cos toey loves these rides 😭

and its even worse realising Q also seems to love amusement parks, so he would be having a fucking amazing time if he could just go on all the rides next to Q cos they both love it so much 😭😭

fuckin FINALLY

LMAO WHAT

THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY I JUST SCREECHED WITH LAUGHTER SO LOUD AND ITS MIDNIGHT

THE PURE COMICAL SHOCK AS HE REALISDE WHAT HE SAID, THE EXCITEMENT FROM EVERYONE ELSE AS THEYR EALISE WHAT HE SAID

I mean to be fair it was REALLY obvious

im surprised no one noticed earlier but also its a bl so im not at all surprised to find out theyre all fuckin dumbasses

SERIOUSLY THO TANFANG IS WHAT I WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP HOLY SHIT

a lot of the time watching bls ill be like "I want that" but its usually as a joke

but THIS?? the fucking adhd bastard (me) who just wants to be near their partner and compliment and always stimming and just having a swell fucking time while the other one loves them but is mildly tired but also in adoration? FUCKIN GIMME

also how the fuck has Q not realised, theyre all so fucking obvious

also also I cant explain it it just feels deeply as though pun and chain are for real dating they just havent told anyone yet

ill make a post about it all at some point maybe (I definitely wont)

PHYSICAL TOUCH IS HIS LOVE LANGUAGE 😭😭😭

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH HE DOESNT HAVE TO HOLD HIM SECRETLY ANYMORE THEY CAN JUST WALK HAND IN ARM NATURALLY NOW

hear me out tho, this gets even funnier if he's actually already in a committed relationship that no one knows about yet

I dont think it's secret dating, it's just 'not super obvious dating to try and see JUST how oblivious all our friends are. its been three years at this point and still no one's said anything. we're starting to lose all hope.'

I love tan so much, the little wave

what the FUCK

what the FUCK FUCK???

THE SOUNDWIN LINE????

HERE IT IS ITS FUCKIN COMIN GUYS

HE SAID IT

HE FUCKIN SAID IT

[insert that gif of the crowd of people in the bar going insane]

holy fucking shit dude holy fucking shit

my legs are literally shaking idk if I can do this

FUCK TO THE YES, FUCKING EXPLICIT ASK FOR CONSENT HOLY FUCKING SHIT

WHAT THE FUCK

AND THE FUCKING SONG IN THE BACKGROUND !!!!

HOLY FUCKING SHIT DUDE

im gonna be here all day

I dont even need to watch the rest of the episode now

I can just go to bed if I want and watch the rest later or smth

dude I cant wait for q to realise that toey is milk frappe guy

HOLY FUCKING SHIT IT JUST PROCESSED IN MY MIND THAT THEY KISSED

WHAT THE FUCK

omg making out in a haunted house, what a dream

the workers watching on the security cameras probably had a blast that day

how funny would it be if there'd been a scare actor in the shadows in that room with them and they'd been about to scare them but they were too shocked with that tender kiss to remember they have a job

he needs to lie on his bed and just stare at his roof and think about that for a while

tbh same

look at him 🥺 he's so lost in that memory

thEY FUCKIN MADE OUT HOLY FUCK

welp on that note I think im done for now

I might finish the ep with my silly thoughts+screenshots later but for now tis the time for sleep

[tamorax]

This is a bit of a rant about the title "rex lapis" and english localizers. It's not well written. It's a rant and i do get angry and mildly personal. Also sorry this is what i post after so long of nothing.

Idk about anyone else but i have always felt weird about say "rex lapis" , it always felt like it didnt fit right and in a way ive grown to tolerate it more and even be comfortable with it.

However

Can we fucking talk about genshins english localizers butchering liyue characters.

For a long while now ive learned that "rex lapis" is not his title. Its "Yanwang Dijun" and ive slowly been replacing his localized title with his real one ever since.

Honestly? Im sick and tired of targeted prejudice against chinese people, their cultures and their languages.

They didn't need to replace his title. It's not hard to pronounce. It's easier than the correct pronunciation of the name "zhongli". They kept "Raiden Shogun" and "Musou no Hitotachi" and just about every other name i believe thats in another language. Even in sumeru and natlan. I can't even begin to understand how to pronounce the names and stuff from natlan. Not that I don't try ofc but I don't think I've seen words like that before natlan in my life.

To be honest at first i thought "rex lapis" was a deliberate choice on hoyos side. Nope it was literally just the localizers being racist and sinophobic.

Its not just with zhongli either

Gaming or "Jiaming" which is his real name (literally no reason to change it to gaming. Especially when its going to be seen as a different word in english)

Speaking of Jiaming theres his fucked voicelines where he goes "alley-oop" in the localization. Not even close to what he actually says.

Or or or Xianyuns "Fiddlesticks" now granted that one is a hard one to translate because as far as im aware it doesnt have a direct translation, there is no word in english that matches it. But they seriously could have done better here.

I could go on and on (dont even get me started on that one npc outside wanmin restaurant) but i think you get my point.

The localizers are terrible in general especially with trying to add weird and cringey slang and i honestly wish they would learn to do their jobs properly

And maybe I'm biased because I'm Chinese myself and am more perceptive of prejudice towards anything chinese related, but i honestly dont know where else, what other nation has this many of this kind of fuck ups.

I mean there was that one thing in sumeru, the um, black cake things idr what they are, and paimon hating them and i know people got upset about that, and personally i think thats a pretty fair reaction, i also felt hesitant about them, but also i could list dozens of real chinese foods that i would react the same way to so....

Anyway they didnt change the name for the mechanism in fontaine (you know the one im not gonna try to spell it from memory)

Or ventis/barbatos lyre, or any of fischls nonsense.

So why are the liyue characters, and especially liyues title for their archon that they call him OUT OF RESPECT and not even difficult to say, replaced and butchered so damn much. Even the fan wiki tries to justify it by saying it is "thematically tied".

And its even more weird because on xiaohongshu (rednote) nearly all his fans over there call him by his title. Of "Yanwang Dijun" and you can tell even if its translated that they are doing that. Even real people from china call him by his title, like you would think they'd keep it instead of using a fucking latin replacement.

Sorry if im a bit angry, i am angry. I try not to talk about such things too much because i hate getting into drama

But this infuriates me the more i learn and think about it. All the time and effort people put into researching the other nations, but dont even bat an eye at the lies they are being given about liyue. Lies fed to them from the fucking english localizers. But no one cares because its liyue and liyue is "based on china and china is bad". I can't stand it. I cant stand the hypocrisy and double standards. And zhonglis title is not the first thing to make me reach a boiling point over sinophobia, but for some reason it hurts even more because its over him.

Growing up in america i never really had much of an opinion of china, and didnt know much about it. i even lied to people and said i was japanese a few times, believed the american propaganda about china. But a couple years before genshin came out i started watching cdramas out of boredom . That piqued my interest more. Then i got into genshin and liyue and zhongli were such a huge push for me to learn and discover and appreciate the cultures and people i should have grown up in and around. Helped me accept being chinese and is a huge influence on why and what i chose to be my new name.

So seeing the way people purposefully replace the chinese aspects of things and knowing why when they do it just hurts so fucking much now that ive come to embrace these things more.

Theres so much i could say about this stuff but honestly im tired, and it would simply take too long...

So I'll end it here. If youve made it this far all i can really do is ask that you try to double check and fact check what you think you know about chinese culture and liyue. Please use the correct original versions of things when you can. I know most people won't since the english localization is treated as canon, and its not as if im going to get mad at each individual fan for not knowing, but if you do at least know that you have my sincere appreciation every time you do. Im not religious (unless you count zhongli and my shrine for him) but may blessings and good fortune find you every time you say "Yanwang Dijun" or "Yanwang Ye" instead of "Rex Lapis".

Thank you.

[elainsgirl]

tbh i think elriels have every right to be meaner at this point. we’ve been the fandom punching bag for years, have been doxxed, harassed, had racism and sexism and every other type of mistreatment thrown our way, all over a fictional ship that canonically has feelings for each other; the fact we are always expected to take the high road is insane tbh.

they always point the finger at us and call us mean and toxic and 99% of the time it’s just us providing canon context to the stupid shit they say to us, when in reality i just want to tell them they’re fucking stupid and move on.

even when we ARE overtly nice (like when an elriel wanted to make a friendly bet with chocolate on which ship would win) they threatened to doxx us and made fun of us?? gwynriels literally stalked an elriel and went to her college over a SHIP. just a few weeks ago a gwynriel doxxed an elriel because she was upset they drew her in the taylor swift dress. why are we pretending both sides are the same here?

but alas, we’ll continue to be the bigger person even though they absolutely do not deserve it. apologies for the rant, and fingers crossed we’ll be put out of our misery soon 🤞

There’s always bad eggs in every part of the fandom, on every side but you are so right with elriels being made the punching bag of the fandom constantly. We’re mocked, made fun off etc all for our takes and theories that come from the books themselves. You’re most likely to come across elriel hate then anti hate.

They want us to consistently call out the toxicity on our side yet when it comes to them doing the same for their side - they remain silent and tight-lipped. Its ridiculous.

The chocolate fiasco was so unnecessary and brushed under the rug by gwynriels. Idk what it is w antis and doxxing people online, its scary and pathetic. I I feel like most of them take these shipwars to seriously. They dont see elriels as real people who have a life.

9/10 it’s always antis starting something. In my experience- elriels usually just stick to the elriel tag unless its to call someone out or talk about something everyone needs to read.

Its hard being the bigger person and atp I just give up. Apparently I have a reputation of being “unbearable” to people I have never even met or interacted with prior, so im just vibing, no longer gaf about how I come across. I also know many other elriels that are also fed up and no longer care about how they come across to antis. It is what it is.

no need to apologise for ranting anon. honestly thats what I’m here for. I want my blog to be a place where any frustrated, tired elriel can come too and just let it out. Whether thats ranting, sharing their opinions on takes/theories or wanting clarification/someone else’s opinion on anti takes.

Lets all just manifest an announcement in the next 3 upcoming months…preferably next month.