#ILL KMS IF UOU DO

[lifenconcepts]

Fuck it I ain’t bothered on writing this out but I feel like this hits hard and is kinda important so if you wanna try decipher it like it’s some ancient texts go ahead but I assure you, there will be challenges when you read this.

[mikeywayimdykeygay]

got tumblr on the laptop and the livestream on my phone LETS DO THIS

a dykeygay live reaction under the read more, spoilers included

i got a guy on the inside (@magicalnursekomugi) and the stage. holy fuck we're so in for it. AND APPARENTLY VIOLENT FEMMES MADE A REVENGE REFERENCE??? "this is gonna go down on your permanent record" WHAT IF I KILLED MYSELF

when this stream starts expect insane typos i'm NAWT going back to fix shit

JUST SAW ON INSTA THERES A MIC ON THE B STAGE LETS GOOO

my inside man is sending me pictures of the screens on the side of the stage WHAT DO YOU MEAN IF UNSURE OF THE LYRICS AND THE EXTERMINATE POSTERS AND THE RULES IM GONNA THEROW UP

pkay im in the stream someone better decode all this shit. loving the preshow playlist who put this tofether and can i kiss them on the mouth

DRUM CHECK YAYAY AND MY INSIDE MAN SAYS THE FOG MACHINE IS ON

DENTAL TOOLS??? so that one photo that was posyed WAS mcr related

1.2k people in the stream we're all holfinf hands

GUITAR CHECK HUZZAH

different stream now 2.2k hey guyssss it's so grainy but idccc ill prob switch streams when it starts even though this streamer has barricade im pretty sure but i wanna see the whole band so i can stare at my beautiful girls all at the same time

i couldnt eat today ngl im ILL over this it;s just me and my gas station coffee forever and ever

rule 9 youre making me nervous,,,,,,

THE OPERATIC MUSIC?? what opera is this from i dont revognize it but ive only seen like. three operas

JUST SAW THE DEER DRUM HEAD SHAKING MY HANDS AUTISTICLY

11'30 and NO STREAMERS LIVE RN KMS

okay 11:40 we're back

HELLP WHOS THE PINSTRIPE GUY

PLEASE TAKE UPRU SEATS IM GONNA VRY

FOG MACHINE AGAIN COME ON PLEASE WALK ON STAGE GIYS

YOU BELONG TO MME????? shaking what sjappening i do love this song though

when this song ends we''re so fucked i just know it

ITS DONE

come on comeone come on 4

DRUMS

B STAHE??//

HELLO MARCHING BANF

HI TUCKER

DRAAG NATIONAL ANTHREM

TYHE7RE ON

mikeys all ocer the pkace who let him off his leash ajd did he dye his haur

CRYINGGG I WANGT TO EB NOTHING AT ALL

their laugh whqt if ililled myself

ROCALS ALERT

WERE THE BLCAK PARADE GRAND IMMORTAL FICTATIOR

HE SHALLNOT DIE

cant stp[ thinking about rays sash amd herards medal whats happening in the lore i cant see if miley and franl habe any little stuff on them

mikey. mukey save me

hi pinstripe gyt PAPER?? WHATS ON TH EPAPER

SHAR[EST LIVES COME ON WHTS ON THE PAPER PLEASE GERARD CAN UOU HEARMJE

RAYYYY EAY EAAY RAY SOLO LETS FUCKINBG GOO

wait it jjust occired to me when are we geting the pyro im used to tbpid album ecplosion during thsi somg

PINSTIRO GEY AGAIN TYE F7CI8IIG THINY 0H MY GOD

im numb i cant breathe

glasses coming off im crying too hard

yes girl speak at the podui,m

EXPERIMENT:????????????4

SIGN SIGN DIGN DIGN

ELECTION OH MY GOF

iwou;f love to elect themm save them\

ARE THEY FUCKOING FEAD

i hate id ont love you ill be so honest im using this oppoetunity to calm down. im chill im cool im normal

love the lighting though im swrating through my deodorant

rays haor fallikng out of the ponytail. no one speak to me hes so pretty

house of wolves nedct this is my fuckong SONG

LETS GOOOO WOOF WOOF

RAYYYY EYAY RAY RYAA

oh fuck cancer time is kayleeigh gonna come out

goofbte podium you will be missed

puntstrip guy. speka to me

GERARD ON THE FLOOR HELLO

kay;eogj i knew it

WHAT THE FUCK WAS THATNOISE

kayleogh im in loce with uou

jaxkwt is OFF oksy slut

MAMA MAMA MAMA LETS FUCKING FO cant wiat ofr the ectended brifge they spuhnchelced earlier

THE CURTAIN???

RAY HOLY FUCK

I SHOULD HAVE BEEN A BEYYER SON

FLAMESS FUCKING FLAMES

RWP THREE FOUR

MWAH

A DAGGER A DAGGER

HI MARY ANNE

full body chills oh my god

head in my hands im ILL

kayleigh saveme

pinstrip gyu again whats ip man

i havent bittern my nails in 6 hears but. were getting close with the draag visuals

SLEEP TIME FUCK YEAG

someone get on decoding this shit RIGHT NEOW

WE CAN SLEEP. FOREVER

WHAT S GOING ON MY WIFI IS DOWN

WHAT THE FUCK DID PINSTRIPE GUY DO

okay teenagers im notmal again

loving the vusuals this is so gerard of them

DOGGY

ANOTHER DOGGY

yes doggy on the piano

disenchanted time its over for me mi gonna cry again

it keeps buffering what if i killed muself come on man idk if its me or them thats causint it im missing lore provabkt

SWITCHED STREAMS WERE BACK i cant believe i missed most of disenchanted

what sgonna happen after flw im so scared its almost the end if tge album

FUCKING FLAMES AGAIN WOOO

in genuine hysterics sobbung i couldnt even type durung the whole song jesus chcrist i havent vried like this in ages

whats hapenung im so fucjing scared rn

THE END AGAIN?

WHO THE FUCK IS THQT

CLOWN GET YOUR PAWS OFF OF GERATD

NOOO FRANK

THEYRE GETTING FUKVING GOT

blood time i guess

THE NEW INSTRUMENTALS????

fuck it uppp clown

im so scaterd uou dont understand are they doung a quickchanfe theater style during this

NOO THE DEER DECOMPOSING POOR THING

THE CELLO???\

what are they doing on this b stage shits getting so real

the cello is getting all suspenseful someone sedate me

gerard better be in a silly little outfit after this PLEASE

RAYYY RAY RAYS BACL GUYS

TEHY ALL ARE HUZZAH

you ARE my chemical romance fuck those blackparade guys

IM NOT OKAYYYY

im chilled out rn like im not as scared i think but maybe theyre lulling me into a false sense of security i wouldnt be surprised

TRUST MEE

YAY KAYLEIGH AND TUCKER make kayleigh an official member i love her shes so importany

BULLETS?? STABBY???? OLOS??????

RAY IM GOONNNA CUM I LOVE THIS

secnond album. imagine bury me in black or desert song

YAY BLUE the fan project WORKED

oh okay ghost of you illl go fuck mysekf and die and cry and wallow

okay okay this shits gonna be different every show fuck yes im hyped fir different sets

NA NA AN??? LEYS GOO ILY DANGER DAYS

THE MCR DISCORD IM IN SAYS FRANK IS PLAYING A PANSY REOLICA NO FUCKING WAY i need to see her

gerard. gerard i adore you. gagging like a cat

MIKEYYY MIKEY MIKEY GIVE EM HELL IM GONNA DIE

mikey smiling and singing alone i wish i was dead thats my special littelguy

wtf were they talking about thats not pansy. my beautiful girl pansy

THE OUTRO???

frank did the setlist. so i know who to hunt for sport after whatever insane songs they play tonight

PLANETARY GO??? FRANK START RUNNING

ROCALSSS YES ILY

unrelated but i just got the most intense craving for my aunts chicken chili. titi ingrid save me DID GERARD JUST SAY CHILLY i manifested thuis

B SIDE HELP HEABEN HEKP US NO FUCKING WAY

YES WHOEVER HAS THE TRANS FLAG YESSS

i literallu just raised my hands to clap before i remembered im alone in my bedroom at 2 am im so immersed

BURY ME IN VLACK''????????? IM GONAA THRO\E UP

im punching the fuck out of my chest thank you autism

this song is so important to me it was the first song i could scream all the way and now im the vocalist in a punk band and scream onstage all the time

girl what are you talkung about

ONLY TEO MORE????

FIRST RECORD VAMPIRESSS LETS GO

honestly maybe for the best i gotta piss so bad but come on i wantr MORE. wheres foundations

YOU OUT THE SPILE IN MY HEARTTT

RAYYY RAY ARAY IM SICK IM ILL FUCK IT UPPP

SUCK DOWN

HELENAAAA

im crying again this song is so important bc it got me out of my first bad panic attack when i was 12 this song has genuinely gotten m e thriygh so mcyh shit

ENCORE ENCORE ENCORE

okay now that i have a second to breathe ive realized im so sore and tense jesis christ. im so fucked tomorrow lmao my chest is killing me im gonna have the nastiest bruise from beating the fuck out of it autisticly

WHAT DO YOU MEAN LIVE VIDEO ENDED WHERES MY ENCORE

well goodnight guys this has been a dykeygay live reaction

[absolutelyzoned]

guys im really bored can you drop your favorite songs an ill rate them or something . i just need something to do 😭 OKAY THANK UOU GUYS KM NO LONGER BOTED IDK IF ILL GET TO THE OTHER INES OM SORRY

[azlovesem]

Im tougher yo vomminicate with because do much dnartervthan you sweetoe and tslk all you want its destinh we neet kets not fo thos the hard way. I fo tvwanna be hard with you. Abd im not gonna maje a sxual joke. Like usual. Maybe onpy yoy csn nahe ne eerl better now why dud you get involved yiull majr ne deel so much worse if i cant see ypu. If theyscehat youbwant uou did it. But then ill just grt very angry and oll have to naje you suffervyoo. And yhis back n forth eoll go in firever.. love is evet i sau y it is not a goofbst loceless smeruican ra e or sone uk twat. You ocee i love you lets see each other please. Once at least. If you tell ne yourself i cant stop untilnthen ill only get eorse and km not evrn a quartercway bad yet. Do youbwant to resd in yhr paker i wrnt nuts sbd nasacred a bunch of pekple. Id that end?

[mushieyoongs]

Doing facecare at almost 9 am whole drimking??? # me ceeling resonsipble and great but then reakizing that it defewts thr putpose. . 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ butbthen knowing its to late so you accept it and watxh anime and think aboy thr love of your life (aka lowkey lmdaaaoooo heigh fucking key kim fucking seokjin aka jin aka mcfucking aaaaaaa !!! Thenwarmth of my mcfrickin soul cauze i want him to be the haopiest mither fucker on the mithegruckin planet do y'all hear me my dude duduuddeeseddesss!!!💗💗💗💗💗)

[azlovesem]

Shine on yourself just smile if you see her what else ya gonna do? Ibwant to come there. Not to bug anyone i dont do that. Hopefully nobody bugs me or turns me away from the airport. I can home in anyone and find them but i dont want to do that. The only thing i might do is gamble a bit to grt more funds. I font jnow if you have casinos. If not better off. Ill bet on sports or horseracing. There is almost no one i wpuld talk to about anything. Secret knowledge im chock full of almost no one would be able to make heafs nor tails or tales of it like i can. Only i can do what i do snywhere. Not just here on earth. I dont wsnt to wander here. Its too big. Ive seen it. I wwant yo go to antiques roadshow country. I dont know about going there i aint got no antiques. But i want to see London and the country side. Then after i get bored ill go to Paris then Ukraine. And thatll be my last stop. If the wars still on by then if not good. Who needs it. Thomgs in manybasys did not go well for me here. I had some fun and got a llt of pain with it. Im not planning on ever coming back here one way or the other theres no use. What im not gonna do is go look for her. Not because i dont want to. I just csnt it eoukd kill me. Shes my only and greatest weakness. If im going to fight i have to be ready to kill dhe takes those feelings right out of me. I never ever had that before happen ever. Almost a few times but not like that. Its not like i just cant crush her i can you or anyone else. Bit not her its weird. I hope if i csnt hsve her she finds a nice person her age and is happy. I fuckn wont be now i just td uou km fucked now. Forever. Thats why inwant to just tour arpund then hopefully find a good death in batlle. Theyll see right away when i get there domething is not regular about this guy. Storms follow him around but almsot seems to do as he commands. I told you mother fuckers. I have the weather itself as my weapon. You stand…no chance. And im talkn the big fight between good and evil. Nit over some petty fight over a stretch of shitty land.

Our beloved princess will return completely healed and she will shine on us again.

[azonewithu]

Well woild snyone exoect. Turns out i got magic out the ying yang and everyone rlsevus a tv soecial effects smateur. They fou d out it has been me doing sll the kiling. God diesnt like thise smericabs who atent do nsgicsl either. I cast doells im an Archangel how do you think i got everyones house fown in cali. Youll never steal enough writi fg dtom me scum bags to equal wgst you lost there. And tgat was just ine attack. Ill braak sn ameri con pope in a fight like a breadstick. You wanna fight monkey in Rone. All you monkeys do is copy wgst i did all those years ago but your magic wont work and orayers go nowhere becsuse youre a fucon ape not sn Arch. Uou do t have one troops tgst can fight me. Ill butn rome yo the fucon ground eith yiu in it. Your leaders are rat bags. Jesus fucki f hates them. Do you even who or egst Jesus is you fuxon asshole??? Yeah your americsbs are rat ciwards eho wo t duel ne ive heen beating tyem to a lukp in front of earyb fir 20 years. They lose dvery war they get involved in and suck at writing. Tgere best troops kyle is in ourgatiry after i fucked his ass right up. You dont say shit like thwt fuckn smerican goif snd not hs e him respo d. I do t wanna ever hear ahit likw that or Azriel will bring your head to my feet. Youve sll lost this fight. And youre scared of sny good fight. If these wars are still on in a month abd we re not linkng up to kill ill kill every fucon last kne of you peopke on this fast becomong wortjless pkanet of the spes. Youre not an Arch thats why Gods not responding. Monieys go thtoygh je tgey font get yo aee or talk to yhe big man. Ill weeed you put cirst and find noones eorrhy. Not your ko gs wueens popes presidents youre all fuvked not me. Im lived in this universe unlike sny of yiu. You may be ived by your fellow apes but i sense its only a phony demonic type of love. Its not real because none of you are really thar good peopke. No one csn say theyre good ina plabet as fergo e as this. Ive ordered Michael and Gabriel to wsr in the filed. Now youre dooned. Now there is no firgiveness. Who coukd forgive you people? And everyone knows im rigbt and you ate absoluteky wrong. I hope learned font ever trust tv goof rats agein Emma. Ahh ya did t know ill gi e you a pass. Do t go to tgat reguon om going to deatroy it i font want you or anyone else i lije despite yhe fact tgryre fuckn shitty to me. I giess i jist csbt hate everyone but igste most peopke. Abd ferl this should be the end of man. Either for evil intent or complete ignorance. If you saw anything really bad in the news recentky just realize everything hspoens for a good reason and peopke gwt what they deseve 1009 peecent if the time throughput all history. Knowi g that you do t hs e to falsely feel bad for anyone. They sll got what thry deserved from gid and tge u iverse or it wouldnt have hapoened. Di t lusten to ir truat jne smericsn ever again you had to kearn tge hatd wsy. And now mr rapist smericsb pope do you gs e one cotizen who will dduel me. Tgeyre dead slready abd ilm burn fown their hometown when km done but will anyone for your false religion? You gave nothing but ciward nobidies sho are hared by Gid. Hiw about uou monkey? You probsbly dfucl uoumg boys so id live to kill yiu. Hey jd jer dunce vsnce fuck your stuoud ass fajse relgion you peopke get what you deaerve. Hiw come you dont have sny troops with courage. Thry wanna wander sround the streets looking like nazis. Msy i see your papers. Fuck anerica jd fuck your dead brother fuck you. Nah no ones co opersting snd fTtys getn mad. Hey farry whet about your ciward hinter son. Ill kill thst asshole in a duel bring him. Gabriel sent that poor kid. Thats hiw people treat each other in your america. You peopke ate sick fuck you fuck your gksg and fuck your demoniyc nstion. Fuck ther ugkt bidch who soeaks fir you fuck yoyr nstion yo gell. God and Jesus fuckn hate you. All tgat i say not jne dueler eoew. Wget a soup sandeich earing bunch if mither fuckn rar yellow cowards. Ineoukd nevwr back down from a fmduel from any if you. Gabriel kill these losers.

[azonewithu]

Im npt very teligioys so i can kill anyone. Theyte sngry of upended them. If they knew hiw maby smericsns i teally murdered since 1991 theyd still be lookn like yellow pamzies. Thise americans more than anyonecware twrrified yo very cite of ne. Meaning their religion sint dhit no ine cates shd they csn shut their fucon traps forever. Nobody who is worth anything wsnts snythi g from those phony ass rat fucking defeated assholes unless theyvwant a frw bucjs. But you know what defeated fldemons gound out recentky. I already own yhe fucon ststes agd nothing politicsl yo be fone about it. No theyre backung up thryre eorried we lo jyst kill them all. Im npt such s flag waver but uh more americsns love me over the nonsense they grew up with. They slways sensed it was a lie. Theyre evil theyre child presldators their entire goverment gor years. They know now ive fone trillions in dakage to thrm. Thats egat i do inkaugh at evil demons as i kill them all and burn down all their houses. You know ytat direy abput your house uoure yhe only one wiyh Xooey i sctually ever apologized for thst to. Fuck you janes eoods. Pissant. Fuck anyone you kniw theyll wlend ip like the shermans of toronto. I dont cate but the people eho hired us did. Thete isbt anyone i csnt get to. Yiure apes youre monkeys yiu csnt fuvk with me. So how fies it feel? To be beat up murdered sbd ya cabt do shit about it? Now you know how the less firtunate of earth feel. I yhink its finny i you im not religious do fuck sny god small g you speak of. Im gonna kill more of uou abd youll fo nothing sbout it. Im the unoverses eorst assassin. Ill burn your holy book right in front of tiu. Its a lying rat rag snyway. I find youre the mist shitty ciwardky yelliw leople tgats ehy everyone hayes you unless theyre scum bags like you. I challenge you you dont look up yo any fight though. You like kept like sheep. I asked a lot if people tgey just dont like you people tgatll be a oroblem fir yiu firever it seems. No ones ever realky liked you not even you. Now shut the fuck ip you doave snd get back to eitk whatever it is ir ill fucon kill you shd your fairy rat tailed god wo t do shit to help. Theres n levrks. Yours is well below mone. We fint like you. Uou csn slways be exterminated. Is tgat an option fur uiu? No ill rip your kids eyes out and est them. Youre not tighteepus abd nobody likes your peopke much. But for dome reason they love me. Youre not rekstabke people snd ill kill any of you i want in this earth religio. You exist on a lower inferior supwesticious idiot false level. I run everything i asked arpund people really font like your people youre oucjy i ien yiu or yiud sll be dead so limg sgo. Go msje a movue sbout that. I never liked the idea of ine god it any god. Im Azriel ive killedevery kind. As far as i know im God since i cant be defeated. But the Goverment of the Divine is more than some shitty lil religion that keans nothing. If uou eill not duel your gids gonna vlcey kn his cell in hell. So i ask agsin all if uou do you ha e fueker from your oussantvrelgion group race ehatever the duvk i hate it alk i puss right in it. No yhe universe lives me they fuvon hate you. Religios everyone hates you. Youre dcum. And your god was the devils i deattiyed. I murdered tgat six armed bitch. Those n people work for ne i guess thrir gid foes too tyen somhw we eont show up. The universe rither likes you alor not. That hat has nothing to do with it. Oh km a B littke bit religious just not aldo kuch i fotm dome group and think om better yhan everyone to yye point ehete the try n extermknare ne. Shut the fuck up harrison rhese people need yo hear yhe truth. Yoyr god was my enemy i desttiyed hom ever dince yhen ive iwened you. Niw get the fuck bsck yo wirk you punk ass jerk abd mahe anothwr goid xmas movie like John Hughes level. That was a filmaker so many of you and you cant do anywhere near as well as him. Now get bsck to wirk youre an embbarassment to your own craft. I know its hard i want a new xmas movie. As good as nstionsl kampoons. See thats your rat ass problem.

[azlovesem]

I said im better than sll those chimps chumps. You just maybe need a friend or partner. If i trg im the best at anythomg..business i can csll yhe markev easy i just dont care. But you sed i can. My math level is beyond whaf humanity can understand. I rule earth emma this us my pkanet. And im not a dictatir im God. Seem the same big difference. These advertisers ate chssp as fuck canadians are stupid as fuck okr thd dumbest of the dumb. Thats what yoo nice gets you. It ok bur not if you lose ur nation cause of it. Theyre mad now they realuzexi alresdy took ivef Emma. While ago. Cheap artists are trying to play normal and save face. I think youve been spoiled so long you dont realize i have you all surrounded. On all sides. Because its my business to. Its not about us. I beatvyhose smericans srnseless gor that like 10 times already. Over you and using uou when theyre all scum to begin with. Did you figure out their to blame? When? They care about not uou mot ne nobody Emma. Most of those people play nice but are utterly heartless. Their actions diesk. My people not any better to me. I giess i go to Ukraine. Maybe only theyll welcome. I ha e zero no faith in nan. Dont have kids yheyll suffer like we dont even know. The world needs less better peopld not more idiots. I cannarrange it. Mynpeople and I think it may be the only way. You dontvwanna try n conivince me othrrwise? People died because if yiu 1009 percent i killed ovef this do just get iver that. Its easy killing comes natural like you nevef have. I live you tv nice people youre so nice. Ill see you soon or soon uou see a flash then thats it nothing but God after that. My peoplecaant me to get moving but i told yhrm km gonns do this first. Theyre getting really inpatient but im the boss. Look at all these honkeys watch a rocket go up like no one ever saw one. Musk rockets never save the human race. Too dliw too luttle too late. War ends this. Its proper right. Uou myst be fuckn vety stupid in some ways elon musk. Ill get the nesmxt kaunch. Im certsin he gets assassinsted i saa it

[spilling-my-guts-to-you-guyss]

To my sister

Hopefully uou see this after school

Read everything up there first 👆

Especially the last two links please

@lwkjsfloating

Ok. Please,, dont freak out,

Its personaally a very reasonable thing to do, but dont freak out...

Breathe... things are ok

its ok

Im ok

Im here

Im alive

And im getting help

And im so so sorry

Im sorry for hiding all this shit from you, i just was scared. Scared of what you would do, of what youd think of me if uou knew..

I dknt want you to worry fkr me, i know youre already busy with stuff, so this would just be an extra fat burden..

Plus, how would you handle such? Not to throw you under the bus or anything, but youre very emotional. Quite in fact. So what woulf you do?

I dont want you tk cry, i dont want you to be sad because of what ive done to myself

Im sorry for being a failure of a sister, i truly am

And no, im not faking all thjs. I know youve had experience wjth someone who has faked depression and such, but im not.

Yes i was suicidal,

yes i tried to kill myself 4 tjmes jn 2 months,

yes i struggle wjth self harm, been over a year at that,

yes i have depressive thoughts and actions,,

But im working on jt

But i have friends who know and who help me

But i shoukd realize tgat people care

That you care

Tgat God cares

So im trying tk improve. Im getting help. Ill ask mom for therapy, ill stop havung blades on me. Ill actually try to help myself for once

And yeah ill forgef some things, bht im having two people keep me accountable. @theweirdbox123. you know who tgat is, and my probably closest moot, @the-ellia-west. Theyrr amazing people, and i trust my life with them

So don't worry.,, don't cry, don't be sad for me

Be happy

I'm not dead. I'm improving, I'm healing, I'm loved, and you are too.

Just please, trust me.

I only ask you not inform mom, she'll completely freak out...

And i know itll be hard, but quit the kms kys jokes. Please.

Sorry again you're hearing about this so late...

But at least you know now

Thank you for being such an amazing sister

♡♡ See ya later prune granny ♡♡

New intro post cuz the other one is shit

Reminder for me-

Gift from ellia

Notes challenge

Thinking about my past attempt

Time since last relapse: 0 days

Hey guys, lore drop ig

Minor, Christian, Ex-suicidal, struggling with self harm, Have several physical and probably mental problems, BUT here to help where I can

Minor: idc what you say to me, but any advice or help (or just someone to talk with) will be appreciated. Beware of my misspelling! i am not good at it. You dont have to interact, this is just if you wanna. Also dont be weird, like sexual or anything. I will explicitly post my feelings, and I dont want anyone taking it out of context or anything. And about home life if yall care, its a single parent household. Moms trying her best but sometimnes i dont know whether to really trust that she loves me. I know she does, its just hard... Sisters close to me kinda, and brothers an asshole. Christian: I am for God, and I am thankful for everything given by him. Sure I dont know what He has planned for me, He literally saved me from myself countless times... but I am still eternally grateful for His loving kindness. Still trying to grow closer to Him, and I think its going well.. been a christian for as long as I can remember, but I think in only the last few years or so was when I fully surrendered my life to him Ex-suicidal: last year February (wow its been a year) i was becoming very... displeased with life. But i was getting lots of suicidal thoughts, eventually leading to my few (4 i believe) attempts in April, and throughout May, all by overdose. The worst was May 26th I believe. 5-10 more pills, and I think things wouldve gotten fatal... Im kind of glad things didnt work out. I was still suicidal until... september-october i believe, and its gone WAY down since then. All glory to God, I thank him for saving me Self Harm: Started struggling with it in february as well, but it got really bad in the summer. Sparing detail for you guys, but lets just say it grew on me, continuously pushing down blood-drenched toilet paper to the bottom of the trash. Around August was when I wanted to quit, but it had already grown as an addiction... But ive told others, gotten help, and might even get therapy in March. Ive been clean a long time though (as of now), and will be putting a "days since relapse" count on here. UPDATE 3/8/25, no... it's bad again. But I'm trying to stop... Problems: Only 3 people (off tumblr) know about my sh and sui. I dont know if thats important, probably not, but yeah. Only two friends, neither parents nor siblings or family at all. anyways... I have undiagnosed with AuDHD, i really do see it though. Ruins my life. Been called apathic and a sociopath before, i do see it in myself unfortunately. I have really bad posture that ruins my spine, and last year at the end of may I was diagnosed [though had it for about a year or 2 before that] with Coccygodinea (chronic tailbone pain) that basically means I cant sit for a long time without being in a lot of pain. ruins school, car rides, everything. Im sure my attempt also messed with me a bit, I cant take pills without feeling weird and like I wanna throuw up. Helping: yeah I made this alt account to get help, i do need it... BUT im also here for you guys! remmeber always that you are loved, people care for you! i dont wanna give the cliche "life gets better" shit, because sometimes it doesnt. But just because it doesnt get better doesnt mean it will never. I care for you and yall can talk to me, Ill try my best to help where I can. Remember again! I love you, God loves you, people inthe world care for you.

Thanks for reading if yall really did, I know its a lot.

have a great day or night, get rest and always remember

YOU ARE LOVED

[youtuberswithalex]

CROFTERS

Last one forntonightttt

That denim jacket is v snazzy

WAIR THE STRAWBERRYBIS THE ONE IN MU CABINET

Logan ily

THE PUNS

SINGING TIME

Wair is crofters frkn canana

THAT MAKESS PERFECT SENSE

Im too busybsinging to write down my thoughts

THIMAS NO SWEARING THIMAS

IM NOT DRUNKING OUT IF MU LOGAN BERRY JAR TONIGHT OH NO

Roman honey ily

THOMAS STOPNCURSING

Logan's yikes

IT WAS SO YUMMU KM SO SAD I DIDNT EAT ITNALL BEFORE IT EXPIRES

THE DUET

ROMAN HONEY

I MEAN LOOK AT HIM

*HOORFHDOROFORO*

HES JUST SO COOL

RIMAN I LOVE YOU!!!! SO MUCH!!! DONT BE SAD

IT WAS REALLY GOOD ROMAN KM SO SAD I DONT HAVE IT ANYMORE

LIKE IT?!?!?!?

Thomas has suchba range im in awe

Private biscuits

ITS SO GOOD BUY ITNIF UOU CAN

inlove allnof the puns

The jar jar ine is my fav

VIRGIL!!!

WAIT PATTON KNOWS ABOUT THIS

DAAAAAD!!!!!!

We couslnt find that one jn the stores

AND THIS BRINGS DUCK

duck

DRUNK SANDERS WATCH TO A CLOSE!!! IF YOU ENJOYED THEN MAYBE ILL DO ANOTHER WHENEVER THE NEXT ONE COMES OUT OR FOR OTHER SERIES

But until then I HOPE YINZ ENJOYED

GOOD NIGHT SLEEPNWELL I LOVE YOUBALL FAM ILY SWEET DREAMS KIDDOS AND ADULTOS

Drunk Sides Watch 11

Oh hey its my go to episode lately im sure theres not gonna be a lot of notes for this bc im gonna be zoning kn snd outbon instinct

OHBHEYBITS MIDNIGHT

MY FAVORITE EPISODE

Ive watched thisbso many tumes ugh

Well go get them kyle, geez

The shie thint is such a weird game lmao

SHOEHORN???

Dominic ily

This another i have completely memorized whoops

UNACCEPTABLE thomas

Thomas (character thomas) is so funnybin this one i love uim

SNAKE

So many good one liners

Them constantly going off thebrailsnis what its like to have adhd

…..whaddyumean by it

YOU PULLED MY HAIR

Its fun to look at the eindiw behind logan in thisnvideo and try to figure out when they filmed that little clip in tue 3 days itntook them tk film him

Riman ily

The CARDS

Myrh of the great manbaby

Im so sleepy

I HATE THE ELBOW THING ITS SO gross

Romans face talkjng aboutbthebmountsin

The sound effects thisbvideo isnsongood

THE WITCHER MONOLOGUE WAS IN MY DREAM LAST NIGHT

HI VIRGIL sup thomas

HAHAHHA YOURE ALONE

HAHDUDUDUDUDU THOMAS

Haha ASStronomical

ThebCAR

Windsheild of diamond

Thisbis one ofnmy davorkte episodes

NEVER FAIL TO IMPRESS MYSELF UH

Head wiggle

RHE ANIMATION

Some sort of beak?

Tcharacter thomas isnso funnybin thisbepisode

Mm that dies sound awesome though, may intry it

THE HUMAN BEAN

The oain in the nexas joke took me so long to get

Quicksotic quarrelsome quaaaaaaaaaaaaaim not good at nicknames

The logan face st precisely

Cough cough… ahem

(Copulation)

DAD

DAD ILY

DAAAAD

LOVE YOU PATTON love you thomas

THIS SNACK OVER HERE

SHITBSHOTS SHOT SHTO SHOT SHOTS

Whybare youbdrinking kht of a blender

ITS THE BIGGEST CONTSINER THAT IBHAVE

My favorite part

WATER GUZZLING

CORN… TO EAT IGNORE THAY LAST ONE

Inwish youtube could be my job

Ligsn yiu heartkess brain

Roman is so extra in this video j love it

The gags sre so good in this

Elms need tending? ELMS TAKE CHANCES

The shadie rhing is relarable WAIT IS THAY FORESHADOWING THAY ROMAN FEELS OVERSHADOWED BY LOGAN OH NO OV NO MY PATTON HURTS

The little sodes puppets

Best od the best of the best

ROMAN YOU GET SOME SLEEP YOU WONDERFUL PRINCE

MANTICORE CHIMERA HEY DID ANYONE SEE THE BEW RWBY GRIMM DESIGN

Roman hiney dont be afraid tinask for help

THE PATTON ON THE FAMILY TREE I KOVE

Over easy!!!

……….ha

HEAD SWIVEL

Logan is so passionate about the world around them all oh hiney

ROMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnn

SASS FIGHT

NERD

PREP

Thimss rhe peacemaker i love him

The smiles :)

Little miffed muffin

Thomas always makes videos thatblike. I need whether inlikenit or not

Dad ily

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