#IM venting

[teaboot]

Theoretically I enjoy living with people but unfortunately when you tell people you're a neuroatypical raccoon with twelve ongoing hobbies, completely random work hours, and a series of admittedly unusual lifelong compulsions they tend to hear that and go "oh haha you're trying to be Quirky okay" and then save their ten million questions and concerns for when you can't run away

[annymaght]

Hate Kenji this, hate Darius that, hate Brooklynn over there...

A protagonist who does morally grey shit is a well written and compelling character!!

They'd be boring and shallow as fuck otherwise.

[rottenrottweiler]

What.... the...fuck... Dean said some unforgivable shit. It almost feels like him getting back at sam for ever saying he wouldn't do the same if the roles were reversed (gadreel).

But telling Sam that he can't even apologize to Charlie for getting her killed and that it should be him dead instead is completely insane and I dont believe he means that... i know the running gag that deans a piece of shit hypocrite but he got Kevin killed AND violated Sams autonomy in the most horrific way and Sam... is just doing the same shit Deans always done. I know the mark is just affecting him and I know Sam knows this too but jesus

[reallycoolsoup]

Let me get this straight

The current dem platform seems to have moved fully right on immigration, wants to increase police spending and budgets, continue to support israel in it's genocide campaign against the Palestinians, does not push for universal healthcare, did not stop the overturning of roe v wade, doesn't seem to care about raising the minimum wage, doesn't listen to it's constituents who want to stop genocide, and seems to only platform themselves as being better than the Republicans?

Why am I supposed to vote for them? If they ignore what people actually want then why is it important to vote for them?

The material conditions of my life aren't going to improve under either main party, so I'm going to vote third party and if Dems lose it's on them, not the leftists who refuses to support genocide

[colesabi]

So I had some time between patients today and reread the scene I had written and completed yesterday and guys… I hate it.

[almightyramtha]

I've bitched to my friends but I'm going to vent here too because you know what, I'm not over it!

My house has really poor energy efficency, had bad windows which I'm in the throws of replacing, and I've had to be on this energy plan that evens out the bill over the year, and yet it's still averaging about 200 a month. Got a pretty inefficient furnace on top of it (i can only assume), but I keep the temp like 65 max a few hours in the morning and and few in the evening just to warm up the house upon waking and before bed. Not even for me. For my roommates. Otherwise like 20 hours of the day it's at 63 and the windows bring in more heat from the sun. House was like 75 yesterday when it was about 65 outside as an example.

So what do I find this month?

I get my new bill, and it's 300 dollars. This is the new averaged bill.

The energy usable DOUBLED from this time last year for April.

Turns out the roommates have been running a space heater non stop for the last month because both of them have been off work for the last 6 weeks "because they needed it."

They've been walking around in shorts and tank tops.

They've had the sun facing window in their room blocked off for months by a tall headboard and blackout curtains. And just never open the blinds.

They apparently just REFUSE to wear sweats, sweaters, socks or anything of the like (not that I've brought this up specifically but I never see them wearing them at all)

And now my bill is 300 dollars a month for the foreseeable future. Because again. It's evened out from a longer period.

I was aware that they're were apparently needing to run this heater at night. I had to get them to switch from an open faced heater with coils to an oil heater I had because they're slobs with a beginners level hoarder messy room and I was afraid of them catching the house on fire. But apparently that old heater had a temp dial on it and they kept their room 70 degrees all night.

Do they not have blankets????? Do they not have socks????

Why do I have to life coach two arrested development ass funko pop millennial losers like this!! One of them is significantly older than me!!!!

Before you say "kick them out" brother if I could have afforded to kick them out I would have ages ago.

But it's going to take some time. It's going to take me paying off some debt and replacing these windows and it's a pain enough trying to get anyone in here bc my landlord is an insane borderline slumlord who says I'm "not allowed to sublet" and thinks any roommate contributing to any bill is subletting (my house is a mobile I bought right before covid that i thought fixing up would be a good investment and starter home when things were unaffordable otherwise, I wanted to fix this place up, sell it, and use the profit as a down payment for a real foundationed home.... now house prices are double what they were when I started....) (also I'm trying to talk to the city about this idea of no roommates. Hell, she apparently told a neighbor she couldn't have a home health aid (excuse me???) And some other guy wasn't allowed to have his wife move in (no idea if that got resolved but regardless) landlord is insane? Even if i say "yup this is my... cousin nope they wont pay a cent to anything" she's still impossible to get ahold of in a timely manner and actually work out her required bg checks and all that. She will just ignore you sometime.)

Back to the roommates though as they're my immediate woe.

I asked about the registers and if they were covered. "Idk" was the answer. Hell i was sitting there nearly in tears and the one roommate goes "idk what i can even dooooo. I GUESSSSSSsss i could stop using the heater😒🙄😩"

GOD, YOU THINK????? YOU THINK MAYBE TRYING A SWEATER OR OPENING YOUT BLINDS MIGHT HELP???? BLANKETS?!?!?

I've not had a heater in my room since last fall. I work from home! I'm still alive! The window did a number on the heat retention! It's why I'm focusing on them so heavily now.

I had to tell them later that they needed to clean their room (it's been years of me saying this and they barely get anywhere with it) because it was the only way I'll be able to replace the two windows in their room that I can't get to otherwise.

Like, I can't even make THEIR STUPID COMFORT a priority at any point because they make it fucking impossible to work towards.

And I HATE THEM. I CATER TO THEIR NEEDS SO FUCKING MUCH AND NOW I HAD A 300 POWER BILL BECAUSE OF IT.

Yes. They are going to pay the difference. It's 100% their fault. I've made them agree to this.

But this whole situation just pisses me off so much. They don't clean, they hoard, they're disgusting, leave food out, leave little space for me to do anything, are adult children, blare v tubers in the living room, pay rent late, never wipe the counters or sweep up their messes, leave spills on the floor, do you know how many washers and dryers I've had to buy or repair because they can't remove chains and shit from their garments! Oh it's more than two!! THEY HAVE THREE CATS IN THEIR ROOM THEY NEVER LET OUT (I can't even get started on that) AND HAVE REPEATEDLY LIED ABOUT LETTING THEM OUT REGULALRY.

BITCH I WORK FROM HOME. NO YOU DON'T. AND THEY MAKE IT OUT LIKE ITS SOMEHOW MY FAULT WHEN I WAS THE ONLY ONE QUESTIONING WHY THEY ARE ABUSING THEIR PETS LIKE THIS.

But no. It's my fault. Everything is my fault because the two of them have absolutely no ability to hold themselves accountable for anything and im the only other person in the house. They ruin my things, spike my bills, don't say anything when something is broke and then IF they finally do, I have no ability to fix it because of the messes they refuse to clean. I literally have to keep my dishes in my closet bc if i dont store them here they will use them and i'll not see them for over a year. "We only like to use plastic dishes bc theyre easier 😌" THEN WHY DO YOU TAKE MY GLASS AND CERAMIC AT THE FIRST OPPORTUNITY OVER YOUR ADULT TODDLER DISHES EVERY TIME????

"Oohh ohh we're so embarrassed by our messsss! WE'RE SO SOWWY" BLOW ME!!

You're not! Simply saying sorry for you is like a complete absolvement of all responsibility and guilt and I'm left to pick up the fucking mess. Fuck you both!!!! I look forward to the day I can afford to kick you out!!!

[louisjude]

how i wish i could fucking delete tags random ppl add to my posts who apparently “don’t even go here” especially when they keep spouting the same rhetoric of buck only choosing tommy because he reciprocated first…??? stop it. keep that to yourself. i didn’t want to read that.

[fangbangerghoul]

vent post tw

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whispers of my old ED are popping up

have only been able to tolerate tuna fish sandwiches

forgetting to eat/just not realizing im hungry

now brain seems to want to find ways why the only thing i can eat is Bad/spoiled/rotten so it makes it difficult to eat

i have had more stress lately externally and now internally as my semester is soon to be over (i tend to struggle a lot during breaks)

not thrilled and its not helping with the additional stress ive been receiving from my family

[apfsds]

I want to vent but I cant find the words. I keep stumbling in my drafts, the words are close but wrong still. I dont want to hurt you with what I want to say, Im stressed and angry with myself for not being able to help. I need to help, I need to be a pillar but I just cant. I just cant and its torture. I want to be stalwart. I want to fix all your problems. Instead I curl into bed and go quiet, I run away. I hate it.

I guess I found a few of the words

[messy-does-cosmology]

They should invent a dad who doesn't absolutely fucking suck in multiple, measurable ways.

[captain-k8kat]

I'm genuinely very glad that I rarely have anyone ask me out or try to get with me because I don't like explaining that I'm aroace and I don't want to date them and flirting makes me uncomfortable, but also there is this nagging at the back of my mind that's just like "am I really that unapproachable and unappealing that no one would want me?"

[virtuheaux]

What about me makes everyone fucking ghost me? What kind of energy do I ooze to make everyone keep disappearing like this? What am I doing so wrong?? I don't get it. Is it me?

[gayspacesprinkles]

My work keeps getting my check wrong and AHHHHHHH I wasn't paid for 5 hours and I'm patient because they are small business but fuck man. it's fine it's getting fixed, but why can't we just get a clocking in system instead of old school punch in/out. My last job had it too but I've only ever had one fuck up.

[nasiens-father]

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[ghoul-bunny]

hm

wanting to express how I've been avoiding something because at the time I felt like I was placed into an unsafe environment and felt like I couldn't be myself and was forced back into hiding myself but not being able to bring it up because the last time I tried to I was in the middle of a paranoia induced breakdown but I still feel like I'm not in the right position to say anything even though it makes me mad

[rafeandonlyrafe]

well 🧍‍♀️ as a reminder this blog is NOT a safe space for trump supporters but it IS a safe place for women, queers, trans ppl, people of color, undocumented people, and any marginalized group.