#Inner Programming

[sspacegodd]

Unzip your bunnysuit.

[quantum-coaching]

Cognitive Glitches: The Shadow Programs Controlling Your Mind (Until Now)

You’ve been gaslit, but by your own mind. Not because it hates you. But because it’s lazy, outdated, and still running Stone Age software on a quantum-level human. These aren’t just “biases.”They’re mental viruses, distorted filters, and emotional malware.They corrupt your decisions. Hijack your reality. And unless you know how to spot them?They’ll keep you broke, stuck, and sleeping on your own…

[basicallyanotherwitchesthing]

Keith Harary, Ph.D. and Barbara Weintraub - Mystical Experiences (in 30 days) - St. Martin Press - 1990

[alongtidesoflight]

if you love computers don't study comp science

[usernameedisa]

[10yearsofdnp]

May 27, 2015: But the real question is, did he swallow a spider to catch the fly? And then did he swallow a bird to catch the spider? And will he ever say why?? 🪰🕷🐦

[glimoon]

GLIMMER'S REPUTATION ACROSS ETHERIA AND BEYOND is something that changes drastically throughout the course of her life. as princess of the largest kingdom in etheria born during a time of war, her existence is highly political and publicized throughout the land. this only grows more true when she is crowned queen following her mother's demise. that being said, glimmer's reputation often differs from her actual personality / who she really is behind closed doors. under the cut is a more detailed exploration into how her reputation grows as she ages, going through important stages like the deaths of her parents, the heart of etheria debacle, and postwar events. it's also very good information for those who interact with her to know, as your muse's opinion of glimmer could very well be influenced by the public's perception of her!

AS PRINCESS . . . glimmer is a beacon of hope for the people of bright moon and wider etheria. her birth is used to boost morale among their people in a variety of ways. angella and micah welcome denizens to bright moon for a belated baby shower, allowing them to leave gifts for the newborn, though she is not shown to the public until she is about 18 months old. glimmer accompanies her parents to a variety of parades, presentations, etc. for the early years of her life. the people of bright moon take immediate note of her boisterous energy and angelic lineage. she is, for lack of a better word, beloved by her people as etheria's favorite daughter.

after micah dies, however, angella withdraws what remains of her family from the public eye and severely limits the number of events hosted by bright moon. the people of etheria are clued in to glimmer's wellbeing periodically through newsvids, but these are overseen by angella and rarely ever feature the princess herself speaking. glimmer is confined to the palace, where her interest in the war grows with age. her eventually befriending bow is not the norm, as most everyday citizens do not have access to the royal family.

all of this shifts when glimmer becomes a commander in bright moon's royal army (after years of begging her mother for the opportunity, but that's a different story.) glimmer makes a point of visiting bright moon-owned territories like thaymor, alwyn, and elberon to get to know her subjects there. to put it lightly, this is a huge deal, as their princess has largely been a mystery to them for quite some time. those who are old enough to remember micah immediately see the late king in glimmer, whereas others are dumbfounded by how different her approach is when compared to her mother. still, years of sequestration from the outside world leaves glimmer's people skills a bit rusty, and she often leans on bow for support when it comes to connecting with her subjects.

despite any social blunders she may exhibit, glimmer's citizens recognize her passion for them and their wellbeing and, at large, respect, appreciate, and love her. they appreciate her active role in the rebellion, and she tries to be as visible and present for them as possible . . . even if she often forgets her royal manners.

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AS QUEEN PRIOR TO THE WAR'S END . . . well, glimmer's ascension is a complete and total shock to the people of etheria. queen angella was an immortal being who sat upon the throne for centuries and most denizens never expected her to not be their ruler. etheria comes out in droves for her coronation, showcasing their support for her in any way they can during the war while also mitigating their grief regarding angella / uncertainty regarding bright moon's current operations. for many who know and love glimmer, there is hope that she will usher in a new era of more hands-on ruling different from that of her mother. it is a very tumultuous period where morale goes up and down at the drop of a hat.

initially, glimmer does a very good job at hiding her uncertainty regarding her new role from her people. if you are not a member of her inner circle, it would seem like she was practically a new person . . . like she grew up and matured five times over in the blink of an eye. she implements further initiatives to help denizens impacted by the war relocate and is not shy about stationing her soldiers in populated areas. her period of staying behind in bright moon while her friends / army fight on the front lines is short - lived, and glimmer makes an effort to communicate very frequently with the public both in-person and through broadcasts. she is blatantly honest with her people about the tide of the war no matter how it turns, which becomes a bit of an issue as the horde gains more territory.

after the horde takes salineas, glimmer has a harder time hiding her anger, frustration, and bloodlust from her people. because the etherians have had a very polished perception of her due to their limited access to her when she was young, this is quite jarring for most of them no matter how open she's been in the past about her desire to fight on the front lines. still, they largely trust her when she announces that she will be using the heart of etheria as it is not common knowledge that the heart is actually a superweapon that will destroy the elemental princesses / the planet. frankly, they are running out of options, and this is their best bet . . . is what glimmer tells them.

when glimmer is taken hostage by prime, morale across etheria absolutely tanks. not only are the people of etheria without their most influential leader, but they quickly realize that glimmer was in the wrong about using the heart, which sours many people's opinions of her. for many others, though, losing their second immortal queen (who many of them remember as their beloved, sparkly princess) is absolutely devastating and a surefire sign that they are likely doomed.

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AS QUEEN AFTER THE WAR'S END AND BEYOND . . . glimmer dedicates her entire self to atoning for her past mistakes and becoming the best possible ruler for her people. adora and bow rescuing her is a shock to many of the etherians, who thought she was long gone. glimmer is able to turn much of the public's opinion back in her favor through defending them from prime during the final weeks of the war. as demonstrated in the latter half of season 5, glimmer also makes a point of visiting citizens directly impacted by the horde and providing them with verbal and material support. one of her first acts postwar is reclaiming bright moon, which she then uses to host many of the displaced while their towns are rebuilt.

glimmer continues to communicate with etheria's denizens frequently through broadcasts and provides near - constant updates on rehabilitation efforts. with the help of her father, who has been reinstated as her number one royal advisor, glimmer is a much more effective and competent ruler, which is something that her subjects notice. she throws herself fully into learning all she can about ruling that she didn't have time to learn before due to angella's very sudden absence. bow, adora, and others often have to remind her that working herself to the bone is actually a bad thing / convince her to take breaks so she can be as effective as possible . . . especially in the first few months following prime's defeat.

as time goes on, glimmer grows much more comfortable in her role as bright moon's queen. her reputation amongst her people is mostly positive, and she becomes somewhat of a thing of legend across the galaxy for nations/people who are just learning of etheria and its place in the galaxy (as she is immortal, angelic, and a master sorceress). she is known as a fierce, but just ruler who you do not want to be enemies with. etheria and her people are her number one priority at all times. she is not hostile to outsiders, but instead very adamant about having an audience with etheria's visitors. the gates of bright moon are often open to her subjects, which is the exact opposite of how she was raised.

to those who are close to her, she is still the same stubborn, temperamental princess they know and love. but to the public and beyond, she is a heavenly creature, widely respected, sometimes feared, and often revered.

[ceruleanterrapin]

I want to be engaged so badly am I allowed to be impatient

[leonardalphachurch]

there are a lot of stories i want to write but they take a lot of effort and so they’re really hard and then others stories that would take less effort but i also want to write them way less and so they’re also really hard and all that to say i am considering if i should make some of those latter stories into visual novel…

[jtl-fics]

Brain science anon here

As an apology consider twinyards fluff...

Aaron learning about this is in class (Like I just did) and finally understanding Andrew a little better. Do you think he’d share this tidbit with Andrew? Would it be a conversation where Andrew decides to give a truth about his past to Aaron, telling him what happened? Would Aaron share it with the rest of the foxes (with Andrew’s blessing aka “do whatever you want” type answer when asked if it was okay) when someone starts to rag on Andrew about it, in defense of his brother? Just think of all the internal growth Aaron goes through when he realizes it’s not his fault. What else does he start to rethink and relearn about Andrew? How much closer do you think they get when Aaron realizes it's not out of animosity that Andrew acts the way he does.

I now only accept apologies by way of sweet Twinyard HCs.

Maybe Aaron finds this out and maybe he finds himself watching his brother more. Maybe he starts noticing how sometimes when Andrew is sat with Josten Andrew's eyes are warm and bright and content.

Maybe he listens to what Andrew says and sees what Andrew does more than the way Andrew says it.

I think Aaron would hold onto the information for a while. Maybe just a little bit because he doesn't know how Andrew will react to him going 'you're actually brain damaged not an asshole', maybe it's shame that he had thought his brother a monster, and maybe...maybe it's Aaron wanting to hold onto something only he knows about his brother (eat it Josten).

Then he hears Matt shit talking how Andrew will never make Neil feel loved with the way he talks.

Aaron's been watching, he is DEEPLY aware of his brother's feelings towards Josten, and has unfortunately seen his brother make those feelings quite clear even if his voice never gave anything more than 'phone book read' energy. Josten never needed to know about Andrew's brain damage to understand what Andrew means and realizing that makes him hoarding the information feel stupid (fuck off Josten).

He wants to say something but he did just take that whole 'patient-client confidentiality' ethics bit so he thinks twice. He stands up and goes to see Andrew.

Andrew and Josten are on the couch. Josten's asleep on Andrew's lap, it's domestic in a way that he's learning Andrew can be, and Andrew gives him a look.

Aaron knows if he wakes Josten up this conversation will go worse, "I took a course on brain injuries. I think you damaged your Broca’s area and Wernicke’s area and that's why your voice is like that." he says and Andrew blinks, "Did you ever...did any of them ever...hit your head really hard. Especially on the right side?" and Andrew's silent stare gives no clues but the way his hand curls in Josten's hair like he's the asshole is a preferred teddy bear. "When people bitch about how you can't emote in your speech can I tell them to shut the fuck up?" he asks.

"Do what you want." Andrew says with a shrug.

Aaron pauses before he leaves, "I...I don't think there's anything to fix-"

"I don't need to be fixed." Andrew returns and Aaron sees as Andrew traces his fingers along Josten's burn scar.

Aaron gets the impression that the only person Andrew needs to understand his emotions already does.

It doesn't bother him as much as it would have before he had started watching.

He shuts the door quietly and returns to his own dorm room to slam the door open. He points at Matt who is trying to to choke on the fig newton he'd been in the middle of chewing, "FIRST OF ALL-"

[takodeyalko]

I want to find friends like it's 2019

I've never done a kinlist before, which I don't think is a very common story considering I'm 22.

Alas, this one isn't done in the cool radical original sense, but a pathetic parody where I shoved a bunch of characters I was obsessed about/who left a mark on me (and about whom I'm not all that universally ashamed (though I should be (was rightly booed for The Bachelor by my friend(learned nothing)))).

I fell out of fandom culture when I was about seventeen, and now I really want to get back in there, while also not knowing know how.  I don't have the best grasp of the English language, but I do acquire a taste for plays no one's ever heard of, extremely questionable drawing and writing skills, even in my native language, ability to criticize anything and I'm frankly too old to fit in. Well, as I see it.

And yet, I'd like to find some mutuals. Or hang out with someone on discord. Or in other places, I don't really care. I want a good old-fashioned internet friendship with imaginary weirdoes and freaks from my phone.

A little about me: I live in Russia, and a queer student, studying to be a game developer.  Left-wing in words, useless in deeds. Used to be a gifted kid in STEM, but burnt out, and changed my education path after losing three years learning programming in one of the best faculties of my country. I know about programming enough to realize how much I SUCK at coding. Still, would very much appreciate finding someone to chat about it. I have a beautiful lovehate relationship to it. Unit testing is my beautiful toxic wife.

 I love animation in all its forms, obviously into indie games, roleplaying (every type there is: tabletop, text, games like SS13, foxhole and barotrauma, literal running with a sword in a forest) theater and sci-fi. Trying to finish reading Mahabharata due to finding a delightful fanfic I can't fully understand. Similar reasons, which is funny, were not enough to read homestuck.

I'm also slightly into philosophy, like Brennan Lee Mulligan and dropout, was watching Bo Burnham as a child a lot, really like Natalie Wynn. All the classics.  Favorite youtuber is CJ the X.

I dunno, I just want to yap about things with someone. The last such thing was ‘guards of Taj’, which was butchered (pun intended) by the theater in which I was seeing it. The original thing, however, feels like a good angsty fic, and I’m extremely surprised it doesn’t have…Well, anything?

So, ehm. Trans rights. God, I wish I was cool.

Bottom text.

[femme-foucault]

Me before my part time substitute teaching/glorified baby gig: I really hope I get the high schoolers and not the littles

After 1 English class on Romeo and Juliet and one general AP humanities class and being assigned a summer camp assistant counselor job for three afternoons: THANK GOD IM WATCHING FOUR-SIX YEAR OLDS!!!

[naneun-no]

✨New positive self-talk phrase unlocked! ✨

(unrelated to BTS heads up).

I hesitate to even share this 1) because it’s kind of vulnerable and 2) because it’s probably so obvious to so many of you, but I think maybe it could help someone who struggles with a harsh inner critic like I do so here goes. A couple of days ago I started using a new phrase when my inner critic comes out pointing fingers at something I (debatably) didn’t do exactly right, and here’s what it is:

“Ah, I didn’t do it perfectly this time.”

That’s it.

Lemme splain. Like most anxious, highly sensitive people (like many of you probably), I am a perfectionist. Debilitatingly so, sometimes, and it’s really silly, because I KNOW that I cannot achieve perfection. I know it consciously, at least. But subconsciously, the quick as lightning, mean little voice in my head that criticizes me every chance she gets must actually believe it’s possible. And I realized that when I say it out loud it highlights how futile and unrealistic that expectation actually is.

I was walking to my car and noticed that I parked a bit wonky. Not even that bad, I was well within my lines, but it wasn’t perfectly straight like I for some reason expect it should be every time and my little inner critic was like “wow nice parking job dumbass, didn’t your dad teach you to swing wide and cut sharp? What’s wrong with you?” And I just decided to chuckle and say, “ah yeah, I didn’t do it perfectly this time.”

And boom, it was like suddenly the voice in my head was the dumbass, not me. It made the expectation that I could park perfectly every single time sound petty, and very inconsequential in the grand scheme of things, and like something that I could try next time, since I will have countless more opportunities to park my damn car again and it’s literally a nonissue.

Last night I was consolidating expressed breast milk into one bottle, a task I commonly undertake in the dark of the night by light of a kitchen nightlight and while operating on about 2 hours of sleep in the last 24, and I spilled some. It sucked, and breast milk isn’t the easiest for me to come by, and I wanted to actually break down in tears but instead I said, “Ah, I didn’t do it perfectly this time.” And whoosh, what a sense of relief. There’s always next time.

Obviously there are times when that phrase won’t work, when there’s an actual problem and you need to take accountability and figure out how to not do it next time because it causes actual problems, but when it comes to the snarky inner critic?

Make the snarky inner critic look rude, by exposing how unrealistic its expectations really are.

Try it on your inner critic! Or outer critic, next time your mother-in-law or rude family member or friend who’s actually kind of a bully makes a snide little remark about something you didn’t do perfectly. Cause at the end of the day, you did it, and that’s a hell of a lot better than the alternatives.

[boyslit-moving]

undersketch alpha version of my spouses so i don't fucking explode trying to fix my computer so i can play dqb2 Even though it worked fine last night but my computer shits itself if i saved in the rain or next to the goddamn ocean and cries and throws up if i try to make it load the soggy save *explodes*

[usernameedisa]

[outnumberedsins]

Could you maybe talk about structures and inner worlds created by abusers in programming? What does “structures” mean to you?

And do you have any information on inner world structures like portals or screens?

Hi Anon, sorry for taking so long to reply to this. I have some posts on scripts and subsystems that may be helpful for more specific structures, but outside of that, here's what I have for structures in general.

I define structures, in this context, as parts of the innerworld such as buildings, layers, or other constructions created by the programmer. This is a wide term that can describe many things present in innerworlds, such as biomes, cities, bunkers, doors, etc.

I don't have any sources off the top of my head outside of survivor accounts with doors and portals, but heres some excerpts about programmed structures in general, all from Healing the Unimaginable. The majority of discussions on doors and portals come from survivor accounts of their personal system/programming. Let me know if you'd like to see those.