#Itchy (1) 09

[sebbbongs17]

"ZOMBIELAND in 560 days," a SEVENTEEN fanfic.

Summary: A young boy realizes what has been unleashed on the world and doesn't hesitate to survive along with other boys. Oh, and with a pretty moody girl too.

Genre: Humorous horror, suggestive, angst, crack, fluff.

Warnings: Clearly blood, bites, violence, weapons, stupid deaths and some dark humor.

Pairing: ot13 x fem!reader

A/N: English is not my first language so there may be some mistakes, so please excuse me. Also, this is not going to be that descriptive, so there may be several inconsistencies and nonsensical parts, but it's all fiction. xoxo ♡

Day 1; Act I. Do you really think I would walk all the way from home to here? No way!

Chan couldn't even explain to himself the adrenaline he was feeling right now as he ran down the hill, being chased by none other than bloodied people. Yup. You hear- well, read that right.

He had thought that having read so many comics and having seen so many zombie movies and survival documentaries would help him if one day a horrible apocalypse were to break out, but now he was beginning to believe that that wasn't the case at all. Because, look at him, he was a scared boy who was still sleeping with the door open at night. And he never believed that an apocalypse could ever happen! Like ever!

But it was.

And if you're wondering how the hell he figured it out, well... It all started less than twenty minutes ago perhaps, when he went out to his yard to water his lemons before going to school, like any other day. Chan immediately felt that something was off in the air and in the environment itself. And, then his elderly neighbor climbing the fence to bite him confirmed it even more. I mean, he wouldn't have complained if it had been her hot granddaughter instead, but back to the topic..

If you're also wondering why he didn't enter his house to take shelter, the answer is simple: he stayed locked outside. So his first instinct was to run outside, like any idiot would do, isn't?

But before focusing on the running thing and talk about his wrinkled uniform, let's delay a little, yeah?

09:25 AM.

Poor Lee Chan let out a deep sigh as he walked lazily through the halls of the school, feeling like his heavy backpack would break his spinal column at any moment. Today was tuesday. A very nice and sunny tuesday indeed, but as always, none of his days weren't meant to be good.

His eyelids and damp scalp were still itchy, but he tried not to scratch too much or he was afraid of getting irritated. And all thanks to those stupid senior boys who had no better plan than to have him as a punching bag whenever they wanted, and today was no exception since they saw the option of putting his head in a toilet that had chlorine water, as fun.

And the worst thing was that in the end he was the only one sitting in the director's office, receiving absurd lectures about things he clearly didn't do. But since the man in charge of the institute was the uncle of one of Chan's main bullies, he didn't pay absolute attention to Chan but to his innocent and responsible nephew, with the excuse that they were only boy's games and that he needed to get used to it. But who in their right mind would get used to receiving flying balls on the nose on purpose during gym class or shoving against lockers or even hard slaps behind the neck every morning, among horrible insults and petnames?

What's more, who in their right mind would call that a boy's game?

Chan tried to arrange his worn uniform as best he could and opened the door of the Principal's office, not even taking 3 steps inside that the voice of the man in charge stopped him.

"Ah ah, Mr. Lee, no one comes in before knocking on the door and receiving permission," the man indicated, making a mocking gesture with his fist. Chan looked at him with some hatred before bowing slowly and subtly turning around and closing the door behind him. Knocking three times on the door loudly. "Who is?"

Chan rolled his eyes. "Lee Chan, Mister," he responded under his breath, his patience still stable.

"Oh, come in, Lee Chan." The man exclaimed in a cheerful tone which he believed was completely false, but still he entered the room, closing the door again behind him and taking a seat in front of the desk, placing his backpack on the floor. "So, Lee, what other problem is there now?"

Chan looked at him strangely and pressed his lips into a grimace.

"Ah, sir, you summoned me," he said, obvious.

"Oh yeah right, well, the reason is that I have a proposal that may interest you." Mr. Kang said, looking at him like he was some kind of gangster.

Chan nodded slowly and somewhat suspiciously since this was something new. Principal Kang never offered him anything, even if it was something bad.

"So, what do you think of being the leader of the student committee?"

The boy raised his eyebrows in surprise and disbelief. "What? Me?"

"Yeah," the man nodded.

"Why?"

"Well, ignoring the part that you are a somewhat annoying student," Chan grimaced, as that was clearly a lie. "You have good grades and according to the teachers you maintain good behavior in class and activities. So, I would like you to be leader of the committee." Mr. Kang spoke, leaning over the desk.

"What do you say?" He asked.

"Well, unless it's a joke, I'd like that very much sir!" Chan exclaimed, smiling. "But, what happened to Yeonjun?" He questioned confused.

"The boy Yeonjun has suddenly changed of school, and since it's almost the end of the year, I can't afford to leave the committee without a present leader. So, you will be some kind of temporary leader until next year," He told him, with some tiredness. "You agree?" The man looked at him exasperated.

"Yes! Of course sir!" He nodded effusively.

"Very good then! You start your position tomorrow, so come to school early. Maybe an hour or two before the usual time," he said, already indicating him with his hand to leave.

Chan stood up and grabbed his backpack, feeling his cheeks hurt a little because of the huge smile he kept.

"Oh, and Chan.." Principal Kang stopped him just before he walked through the door.

"Yes?" The boy asked.

"Try to wear a more presentable and new uniform, you will be the head of the committee, not of some street gang." He told him, making a slight face, looking at his faded clothes.

Chan furrowed his eyebrows before nodding furtively.

"I sure will, sir, thank you!" He exclaimed before running out of there, smiling happily again.

He couldn't believe that finally the opportunity to be part of the committee, in fact, LEADER of the committee, had come to him. He had wanted to be one for several years, but strangely he had never been chosen no matter how high his grades were and instead, a boy from his same year, Choi Yeonjun, was chosen.

Chan was walking so happy through the hallways that he didn't pay attention to the mocking comments of his bullies, nor so much to the tremendous slap that one of them give him in the back of the head.

The boy left just in time when the bell rang indicated the end of the classes, causing scores of students to pile up the stairs to leave. As he made his way down the sidewalk, Chan visualized a group of three boys, one of them being the famous Kim Sunwoo, who seemed to be playing with what appeared to be a poor dead or almost dead animal, presumably a deer. He unconsciously formed a grimace of disgust, as these three fools laughed while poking the deer with sticks.

Suddenly, Sunwoo noticed Chan's displeased look, and quickly gave him a dirty look. "What the hell are you looking at, Lee? Go wait for your mommy somewhere else, worm," Sunwoo said in a mocking and rude manner, causing the silly laughter of his friends.

Chan just rolled his eyes slightly and just started his way home, trying to ease his bitterness by remembering that he would now be part of the committee. And looking forward to tomorrow...

Present.

Chan felt that at any moment his lungs would give away but surprisingly they didn't. Turning back, he saw how the bloodied ones were diverted and instead, they were going to attack another neighbor, who was just collecting his mail.

Hearing the poor guy's screams of horror and pain, Chan turned onto the last street. Which, ha!, had no way out. Great.

"Shit. Shit. Shit." He muttered agitatedly, looking back several times just in case.

Where the hell he was supposed to go right now? To the city? No, he didn't know if it was safe or not at this point. The countryside? Could be a possibility, but he didn't want to go alone.

He stood still for about two seconds before his mind clicked. Chan desperately seek through his pockets and let out a sigh of relief when he felt his phone in one of them. With trembling fingers he scrolled through the contact list and hesitantly pressed one of it.

1 ring...

2 ring...

3 ring...

"Hello?" A raspy and lazy voice was heard from the other line.

"HYUNG! Thank god! Where are you? You're ok? Nobody bite you, right? Tell me that you're safe right now..." Chan muttered at the speed of light.

"Chan, what the hell are you talking about? Why would someone bite me?"

"There's no time to explain, Jeonghan-ah! Whatever you do, don't leave your house and close the windows and doors with locks and cover them as much as possible," he indicated, starting to walk around.

"Woah, woah! Calm down kiddo. What's going on? Also, I can't do any of that since I'm not at home right now," Jeonghan muttered softly, not caring at all why Chan wanted him to do that.

"Huh?! Where are you then?!" The boy groaned against the phone.

"At the supermarket," he simply responded.

"Damn it... OK. Tell me which one. You have your car with you, isn't?" Chan's knees shook and almost best towards the floor due to nervousness, but he was able to straighten himself up.

"Obviously. Do you really think I would walk all the way from home to here? No way!" Jeonghan giggle, making Chan roll his eyes. "I'm on the Sansok one..." He finally told him after.

"Alright, don't move from there hyung! And don't interact with anyone, I'm on my way!" Chan said and without waiting for the older man to respond, he hung up and turned around, seeing where he could go.

The boy's head stuttered in various directions as he barely spotted a bicycle near the porche of one of the houses. Chan carefully reached out and took it, beginning to pedal clumsily, almost falling in the process.

Briefly thinking about how he was wearing his new uniform in vain today.

[•••]

The brunette sighed heavily as he put his phone back in his pocket.

"Who was it?" The other boy questioned, without looking at him, while continuing to examine the cereal boxes. 

"It was Channie. He sounded a little... weirded out," Jeonghan responded, dropping his weight onto the shopping cart.

"You asked him what was wrong? Maybe he had another nightmare again..." The guy finally turned to look at him as he was wearing a worried frown. "Or perhaps he smoked again that strange weed Soonyoung gave him."

"Oh, don't worry, Shua. It didn't seem like that... Well, actually, he didn't give me many convenient details. But I told him to come here if he was so worried," humming, Jeonghan walked to the ice cream section, closely followed by Joshua.

[vera-deville]

Vera's Hauntober 2023

Day 1 - Pumpkin (Katsuki Bakugou)

09/13/2023

Pairing: Katsuki Bakugou x Reader

Word Count: 656

Warnings: Cursing ('cuz it's Katsuki)

Gender: AFAB

Taglist: @animusicnerd, @leonistic, @pyroxeene, @savanaclaw1996, @thequeenoffishburrito, @ellssbellss, @reshi-galaxy, @hanafubukki, @hitoshislover

"C'mon Katsuki!" Y/N yelled, pulling said blonde's arm.

It was supposed to be a quick errand. Go to the pumpkin patch, get the damn pumpkin, and come back. But unfortunately, Katsuki Bakugou did not take into account just how hyped his girlfriend would actually get when it came to it.

She was acting like one of those female leads in those horrible holiday rom coms that Y/N made him watch, who want to find "just the perfect tree." Except in this case, Y/N was trying to find the perfect pumpkin. Not the perfect evergreen. And she decided to drag her boyfriend along on her little pumpkin adventure.

Ain't life just swell?

"It's just a fucking pumpkin Y/N. They all look the same to me and they don't look infested with bugs, so just pick one and let's fucking go already." Katsuki tried cutting their errand short.

But that only seemed to make his life that much more unbearable, because all of a sudden, he'd accidentally awakened the pumpkin saint in Y/N and she wouldn't shut up about how it's "sacrilege to not see every single pumpkin and soak up each one's personality and find the perfect one that's meant to go home with them."

Bakugou honestly felt like they were looking for children to adopt, not pumpkins to decorate the house with-

But, having said that, Y/N did look like she was having the time of her life, so he figured he could let her live a little.

Not too much, though.

Thankfully, after just a little while, Y/N seemed to fall head over heels over a pumpkin (that still sounds so wrong in his head) and wanted to buy it. Great. They were finally done.

That is until Y/N spotted a corn maze and practically begged Katsuki if they could try it out.

"For fuck's sake, it's just a shit ton of corn bunched together. It's crappy and itchy as hell, why the fuck would you willingly want to go into that?" He asked the giddy girl who was practically vibrating on her feet.

"Because Katsuki..." Y/N drawled out. "Corn mazes are the epitome of Spooky Season. It is an unwritten law that one must visit a maze of some sort at least once during Autumn. And because I am your dutiful girlfriend, I will make sure you follow the said unwritten law.

Katsuki looked at Y/N's face. Those sweet eyes scrunched up, waiting for his reply, cheeks puffed out, lips glossy...

Say less.

Begrudgingly, Katsuki agreed to the corn maze. Begrudgingly.

After paying their fare to enter the maze, Y/N led the way as Katsuki followed, as though she'd been in the maze a million times. It wouldn't surprise Katsuki if she actually had. Seeing the confidence on his girlfriend's face, he let her take him wherever she wanted.

That was until he remembered that his girlfriend had shit sense of direction-

But by the time Katsuki had remembered, it was already too late. Y/N had gotten them lost. In the middle of a corn maze. Where at all sides, he's being attacked by hay fever inducing atoms.

"Y/N I swear to fucking god, I'm never doing this shit with you ever again. I thought you fucking knew where you were going dumbass!" Katsuki screeched.

"I'm sorry! I thought I knew where we were going! Here, maybe this way is the exit-" Y/N said. She could practically see the steam emitting from Bakugou, and she was trying not the push his buttons more than she already had.

Half an hour later, the pair were still somehow lost. And Katsuki Bakugou had run out of patience.

"FUCK THIS GOD DAMN CORN MAZE!" Was the last thing Y/N heard before she was surrounded by flames and embers and a very burnt down corn maze.

At least they found their exit now-

Author's Note: I'm super excited to kick off this event! You may have noticed that some of the dates in some of these fics predate October, and that's because I had been working on them well in advance and queued them for each day of October (that way I don't miss any of the days).

I'll admit, I'm not the biggest fan of how the conversation turned out in this fic, but that's alright because from now on, I've got 30 more days to work on that!

See you in the next fic!

Masterlist Hauntober 2023 Masterlist

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I wanna do it too 01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Yeah kind of 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? Idk can’t remember, probably my sister

03: Do you regret anything?

everything.

04: Are you insecure? Who isn’t

05: What is your relationship status?

sibling? Idk to who?

06: How do you want to die? Idk but I wanna at least have some control over it

07: What did you last eat? icy pole

08: Played any sports?

roller skating (that’s not a sport alone but whatever)

09: Do you bite your nails? chronically

10: When was your last physical fight?

idk 2 years ago

11: Do you like someone?

no

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? no

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? always

14: Do you miss someone?

always

15: Have any pets?

3 cats

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

idk the same as forever 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? no

18: Are you scared of spiders?

depends

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? yes

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

I haven’t

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

Get ready for my birthday

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

I don’t know but if yes like 1 or 2 idk or care

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

one on either ear on my ear lobe

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

art and French (je suis fantastique)

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

yes

26: What are you craving right now?

death. Idk, sleep?

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

I’d hope not

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

no

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

maybe? I can’t tell

30: What’s irritating you right now?

my backs itchy

31: Does somebody love you?

maybe

32: What is your favourite color?

grey blue (like #92a1aa)

33: Do you have trust issues?

yes

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

my friends, myself.

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

…I don’t know.

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

3 strikes and you’re out.

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

both are easy. 38: Is this year the best year of your life?

no, and it won’t be

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

11 (I still don’t know if I count it though)

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? no

51: Favourite food?

pizza

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

sure I guess?

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

watch arcane with my friend @ljmalone

54: Is cheating ever okay?

On a partner? No. On a test? If it’s not important.

55: Are you mean?

yes.

56: How many people have you fist fought?

0, unless it’s play fighting, then like 5+

57: Do you believe in true love? Yes/no

58: Favourite weather?

rain

59: Do you like the snow?

haven’t been in it, but yeah.

60: Do you wanna get married?

not really, that might change.

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

I hate pet names with a passion. 62: What makes you happy?

blogging/sleeping/drinking anything

63: Would you change your name? Yeah

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

probably

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

happened before, just ignored it.

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

no.

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

my friend and also my dad.

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

no idea.

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

No

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

myself, my friends (some of them, otherwise, no)

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[bronze-gamin-o]

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[theorist-influencer-untitled]

6.19.24 Wednesday

7:15 am

Still,have windblow...

It is really crazy that the wifi is cut again that they returned it yesterday aftie... Bullshit! I wanna go live... But I told them if I have a work I will pay for it...

I'm thinking of money and job and how will I pay my creditz...

I feel frustrated that I wasn't able to go up on my own, to shine as my own...

Thinking of my cousin white, I feel bullshit! I hate being flatten since 2007....Supposed to be we can be youtuber a love for a cousin... But he is already married,bullshit!!

Did Mitch give me this simple battery???

I told Garret I will meet him in New York but how? Hating my cousin white for being married!

9:37 am

Garret or my cousin white who is my lucky charm??? Anyways, Ate Eden, our neighbour in-front of us, 2 blocks away.... She told me 25 minutes ago that she is fixing our internet connection, I just smiled and say thank you!

So,that I can go live to bullshit anyone or everyone...

I washed 10 John's floormats again... No stealer!!!!

9:43 am

Still, have windblow...

Seeing this particular video of Kate & Nate but my main point see Cecelia and Kristopher's love team coz they were/ are cute. I watched one particular video of Cecelia Bloomdahl where she shared her heart's content that she didn't want to hang-out again to that particular bar in Svlabard coz there were people who insulted her indirectly about her relationship with Kristopher. LOOK HERE! CECELIA & KRISTOPHER are cute together here,when they were in "Huskies Cafe".

Let people be happy if they are happy... Age is not a hindrance as well as their height...

9:51 am

Still,have windblow...

I have bitterish feeling coz I lost my charm on love team thingy.... I used to be spoiled whenever I had a bf it was like a cute thing for everyone to see me here but these days it is really bullshit for me!

I lost my spot, I lost my position, I lost my fakers old friends... I lost a crowd angels... I need new upper friends to pull me up but I'm glad to meet good soul along the way to assist me or to bond with me as genuine friends....

11:07 am

Ate Eden is ordering Ely & Jessie to transfer the camera on our gate side or they actually attached the CCTV on our gate...

12:30 noon

Still,have windblow...

I want this hair colour...

I want my cousin-white or Garret...

How to pay my creditz.... I want vanity....I'm so happy I got my retinol today....I bought some heat rash creams to put a remedy on my skin rash...It is just creditz but still an alternative to branded like Cetaphil or Cerave....

But I know it will be effective as well...But I need to maintain creams coz my skin is itchy and having this burning sensation. I have a sensitive skin...

I need to fix myself....I feel so ugly,fat and old... Hoping my retinol can remove my "deep smile lines"...

They remove me on the "work force"!!! I'm not guilty at all...

12:41 noon

I need to do general cleaning but I need an extra fan and to fix the larger split ac coz I have a "sweat rash".... I wanna do nose perfection and carreer and love life that I want....Where is my money,angels???

1:15 pm

Still,have windblow...

Yey! I got my "Beauche Kojic Soap" and Maya... But I still need Oatmeal soap or milder soap like Dove or Tender Care...

How to pay my creditz?

1:48 pm

Still,have windblow...

Ouchie ..Ouchie... See angels my discolaration and burning sensation...

Sweat Rash...

3:09 pm

Still,have windblow...

Ate Eden fixed our wifi and our old teacher in Immaculate Conception Academy...

It was so funny John accidentally went out and he snatched the bag of the wifi personnel... Hahah...

Hmm... I got the "Waffle Maker" I'm so happy... Still,waiting for the bottle mixer for the pancake fluffy! It is difficult to put the mixed liquid pancake on the waffle maker, if I don't have the bottle mixer... Plus, waiting for the Maple Syrup Sugar Free...Yey! It is all still credit... Moca2x wanted me to pay right away that I'm still waiting for my traininģ in Teleperformance.

I don't know how to pay for everything I got and loaned...

I will go live later,thinking where? Coz my phone is I guess, loaded of loan apps... I keep my on-line journal this "tumblr.com" ,my wesing, Pinterest, and my loan apps....I don't know if I can still reinstall the "Tagged".

3:44 pm

Yey!!!

I wasn't able to open my old account using my Facebook, so I make a 2nd account having the same information as O-Hime Sama 2!

Join me later angels... This is my google account on youtube...

I also want to have a "google assistant"... So,cool it is like "Lexa"...

5:35 pm

Still,have windblow...

Burning sensation at my nape and some parts of my back... Whew! Self-pitying...

Check this out, "Luggage lost on American Airlines flight to Burbank found in Homeless Encampment in Hollywood"?? Hahah?? Found in Western Sunset something...

Life is linking on words or on circumstances...

English ABC--can be in and on, ( in there is boundaries or enclosed vicinities and on somehow an open-space)... Fun!

5:58 pm

Another fake performance of Teleperformance Molino? I did a final interview already and then this Angel will do a final interview again? Hahaha Ohkay bring it on! Fakers FilipiNOSE!

Another smashing of me here in this Island of Cavite Filipinas FilipiNOSE! BRING IT ON!

I'm done with Sir Jay and waiting for training day!

Talk to her angels...

To be continued...

[curlsbysharlene]

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[ask-a-stitch-in-time]

Ever tried to take your anger/revenge on one of them fancy manikin doll thingys I forgot the name for

Stitch: There are some guys who think they’re above it all.

Stitch: Think they’re fast enough to outrun all the consequences. 

Stitch: Those kind of guys gotta remember, 

Stitch: Don’t mess with the man that keeps the effigies. 

[feelingofcontent]

DNP Rewatch: Phil Reacts to His Old Videos

Date video was published: 06/22/2015 (X)

DNP Main Channel Rewatch: 273

It had been a while since either DNP had posted a video. In mid-June they celebrated Dan’s birthday, of course (1, 2, 3). They went to see Matilida the musical and did a puzzle/escape room with friends. DNP also hosted a live event with John Green for the Paper Towns movie (1, 2, 3).

So then we get to Phil watching his old videos! Dan had done his video like this back in January of 2015. (A somewhat rare instance where Dan does a video before Phil, rather than the other way around.)

0:00 - starting off with an itchy nose and dramatic music, lol. Also, he’s got way more stuff left on his bedside table than usual when he films a video

0:06 - and now it’s over 15 years old. wow.

0:18 - Phil is already cringing at himself and he hasn’t even started

0:23 - lol king of comedy Phil there including the other tweet

0:33 - Phil is constantly sidetracked 😂

0:36 - wow, really old YouTube (also, I never noticed that Phil had stars in the background of his channel, and when Dan started making videos, he also put stars in the background of his channel. Hmmm...)

0:37 - Phil has watched over 15,000 videos at this point! And he has 5,649 subscribers. This was his channel sometime in 2008, as he says Faintheart is upcoming, and that was released in January 2009.

0:38 - none of the videos in the screenshot are still public. (Although he does show clips of the “extreme weather” one in Reacting to my DELETED VIDEOS! in 2018.)

0:44 - awww, PJ mention! And aww at Phil being jealous of their hair.

0:49 - yikes old YouTube comments

0:56 - “not the literal birth” ...thanks for clarifying there

1:00 - have to start with his first vlog of course: Phil’s Video Blog - 27th March 2006 

1:05 - awww, he’s already got a cringe-face

1:09 - he does sound pretty different! I don’t think his face looks that much different.

1:22 - Phil, I’m not sure you can talk about bad gifts for Kath still...

1:35 - lol, Phil is bored of himself

1:41 - Phil remembering his nervousness is cute. But by the next video he talks about here (from 3 years later), his editing skills are SO GOOD.

1:50 - good advice there.

1:58 - of course Phil thinks “ghost.” Definitely couldn’t be air from the radiator that’s right there...

2:00 - yeah, Lion didn’t appear until later. Awww at Phil liking the animal noises part 🥺

2:08 - ahahaha, Phil laughing at past-him for thinking that’s long

2:24 - Phil immediately smiling when he sees Dan’s video playing next

2:27 - I will never be over him letting this play and then leaving it in the video. And the fond little smile his face as he watches. 😭

2:33 - too much 😭😭😭

2:37 - “I just wanted to see that bit” christ.

2:41 - Phil doesn’t know what to say here at the start of A Static Lullaby - Toxic

2:44 - hilarious, considering he almost forgot to make his bed a couple videos ago. His background/room was often very messy in his old videos

2:56 - he’s so embarrassed at himself but I’m sure that video was very popular for...reasons. 👀

3:06 - “I saw a bit of chest hair then.” ...reasons 

3:13 - he really is flirting with the camera in that video

3:20 - “I could be in a screamo band” help 😂😂😂

3:22 - even Phil doesn’t know why

3:44 - I would have loved an explanation for the idea for this Phillippa video. Such an embarrassed smile before it even starts

3:49 - he’s already slightly horrified

3:59 - why DID you make this video, Phil?

4:02 - “I look quite good as a girl” ...he’s not wrong. Although the makeup is something

4:06 - I love that he didn’t ask Kath to borrow stuff 😂

4:20 - jump-scared by his own editing

4:32 - love his ownership over the cat whiskers. Love that he likes the eyeliner!

4:46 - he’s so disturbed at himself

5:01 - “the weirdest video I’ve ever made” ...that is a bold claim when thinking about some of his old “experimental” videos

5:05 - that one is a choice to leave public

5:26 - PHIL what.

5:46 - he loves toast so much

5:55 - love the random creepy ending

I really love this video. Phil had way more old videos than Dan to choose from for this, but I wish he would have done Snokoplasm. I would love to see a post-coming-out version of Phil reacting to old videos!

When Phil posted this, DNP were both visiting Phil’s family for a few days (probably for Father’s Day). Dan posted a photo and commented on a slightly horrifying childhood photo of Phil they must have found. This was also the trip when they fed horses and Dan’s eyebrow was missing, lol. Also the first time in a while where they publicly acknowledged Dan going with Phil to visit his family.

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#5

3 and 6 from the sensory ask? :)

Hey there, Nonie! Thanks for asking!

3. Do you prefer tight clothing, loose clothing, or a combination of the two? I am gonna say combination, because I usually prefer loose clothing (tight stuff makes me itchy), but I do like feeling that I'm wearing clothes, if they're too light and breezy, I feel a little weird.

6. Best impromptu or unconventional fidget or stim toy? A chocolate wrapper, I've been carrying it around for months! This bad boy right here, look how pretty!

7 notes • Posted 2021-03-18 14:24:51 GMT

#4

My dash did a thing lol

22 notes • Posted 2021-07-16 12:04:55 GMT

#3

God, i fucking love rocks!!!

I bought a bunch yesterday and I've been staring at them, and lining them up, and talking about them non-stop! I really missed having rocks!

26 notes • Posted 2021-09-05 11:30:17 GMT

#2

You know, sometimes I wish I had meltdowns.

I know they suck, I know people judge them, I know they can be dangerous depending on who and where you are. I know that, truly, I don't mean to diminish the experience. It's just that the alternative doesn't really feel better.

Whenever I start getting too upset, or overwhelmed, I can feel the need to scream, and hit myself, and sob, and break things. It keeps growing, like I'm stuck in a tank filling with water and I feel like I'm gonna explode and then I just... don't. The worse I feel, the more I shutdown completely.

It's awful, because inside I am going overdrive, I just need everything to stop, and I feel like I'm gonna burst, "any second now, this is what's gonna tip me over, I'm gonna scream", but it never happens. People look at me and I seem much more calm than in any other moment. I can't speak, I can't stim, I can't relax, and there's no release. There's not a single way to get it out, so I just drown.

So here I am, saying that I want to scream.

28 notes • Posted 2021-02-17 22:34:07 GMT

#1

Honestly, this internet persona of mine is so sweet... I put on a front of someone who's so nice and kind, and I wish I was that person.

In reality, I am angry, and bitter, and petty, and jealous, and selfish, and I have no idea what to do with this person that I am, so I fabricate this different, kind human I keep pretending to be and hoping to somehow become.

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Diabolik lovers Chaos Lineage: Shin Tsukinami (Story 09)

In terms of the gameplay: The black choices lead up to a bad ending, the white choices lead up to a good ending. Please no reposting onto other sites, ask me before translating this into another language too! If you enjoy these translations, please consider supporting me on ko-fi.

2020 Christmas Tweets

Shin: What’s with that face? Do you want to complain about my present or something? If you don’t want to get punished, why don’t you be obedient and accept it then? ...Though you’re not quite satisfied, I’d choose you over this any time.

Kino: I guess I did end up enjoying your Christmas meal and gifts, but don’t think this is the end of today already, okay? After all I saved all the enjoyment for the end, y’know. That’s why you should thoroughly prepare yourself for what you’ll receive.

Monologue

Kino-kun proposed a certain strategy to collect information about this place.

Which is why we started with searching through each and every mansion in order to find any possible clues.

After all, there’s only a church and three mansions on this land.

Now that I’m looking at it again, I’m certain those are all the places here—

I cannot help but feel as if there will be some problems in investigating this space though.

Place: Scarlet mansion — Living room

Yui: (This time we came to Reiji-san’s mansion instead… but I wonder if this is really okay…)

(We weren’t able to find anything so far, even though things are working out pretty good for us…)

Kino: Now, are we going to destroy something in here?

Yui: ….. !

Shin: You… didn’t I tell you not to break anything?

Kino: Ehh, did you?

Yui: (Yes, he did! He told you breaking stuff isn’t a resolution to anything!)

Kino: Maybe I misheard that, considering that I’m “searching” for clues after all.

Shin: Is that really true!?

Kino: C’mon, we have to continue searching.

You still want to know how to regain your brother’s memories after all, right?

Shin: Nn… yes, I do.

Yui: (Why can’t I actually get the feeling off that Kino-kun is totally fooling us here…)

(I wonder if it’s really possible to find any clues to regain anyone’s memories… ?)

(But for now I can’t think of any other way than trusting him…)

(Neither can I help myself but continue to worry about it though… for the time being, I should just keep searching…)

Kino: Now, how should I scare you this time — is what I’d never say. I’ll go start looking over here instead.

*Kino drops chessboard*

Yui: (Ah… the chessboard… Kino-kun moved it out of his way just now)

Kino: That’s right. There might be something hidden in the food rack.

Come this way, Shin! Let’s search there.

*Kino leaves*

Shin: Wait a second! Don’t move around on your own!

Yui: (I can’t believe he ended up throwing the pieces down… I guess I’ll have to restore the pieces on the chessboard for now)

Speaking of the chessboard…

(It’s sort of like the one I saw yesterday—)

Shin: Hey, Kino! He might end up tearing up the kitchen this time…

*Shin leaves*

Yui: (Ah, both of them kept moving. I should probably follow them)

Place: Scarlet mansion — Kitchen

Shin: This mansion even has one of the most spacious kitchens I’ve ever seen.

Kino, isn’t this a territory where we won't find anything? I personally don’t think they would hide anything in a place like this.

Kino: Hmm, you may be right.

But Reiji is the one in charge of this place most of the time, so he could’ve enough space to hide something here—

Ah, it’s locked. Guess it can’t be helped… I’ll probably have to break it. Ngh!

*Kino breaks cupboard*

Shin: Ahh! You did it again, what for though!?

Yui: (He ended up breaking the glass from the cupboard…)

Kino: We don’t have any time, so it’s quicker to do this, right?

Shin: No! There definitely must’ve been a different way, am I right!?

Kino: Hmm, this plate looks kinda expensive. It even has a golden pattern around… —Ngh!

*Kino breaks it*

Yui: Eh, Kino-kun!? Why did you break the plate all of the sudden now!?

Kino: Ah, my hand slipped.

Shin: Is that the only “logical” answer you came up with? I don’t think one’s hand slips carelessly after they yell out, does it!?

Kino: Ah! Maybe this will do?

Shin: Hey, listen to me already will you… aghh!?

*Kino drops something*

Yui: Eek! Kino-kun what kind of flavoring was that… !?

Ahem, Ahem, Hachoo...

(I got an itchy nose because of it now… !)

Kino: Sorry, sorry. The pepper slipped too.

Ah, that plate over there also seems as if it’s really expensive. 

*Kino drops plate*

Kino: Alright! This might result in an effect of defeating the final boss.

Shin: Why would you comparatively aggressively break it then!? Furthermore, why did you choose something as expensive as that!?

Kino: Because, isn’t there a higher chance of having a certain sense of accomplishment when breaking it?

Shin: Are you dumb? You must be dumb. But are you really that dumb!?

Yui: Shin-kun, please calm down! If they end up hearing us, we'll have to run away immediately—

Reiji: What is clamorously going on here!? Is this once again Kino doing something...

...Nn! What I am seeing here, what has happened here… ?

Kino: Ah, big brother Reiji.

Shin: Ah, come on! We already really got discovered!

Reiji: When hearing the sound of a rat stepping in one’s house, it is expected to enter immediately after.

It appears as if my collection has been completely broken into pieces only, is that correct...?

Kino... why is it that you and those guys from Orange are in here to begin with… ?

Yui: Ah...

(Reiji-san… he seems to be really angry…)

Kino: Ahh, we already got caught. And here I thought I could rage a bit longer.

Shin: Why can you go on a riot, while you tell me to be all quiet though!?

Reiji: It is all messy now… and you will certainly not get away with this. You will have to pay those reparations with your life!!

Yui: W-We’re really sorry!! Shin-kun, we have to run!

Shin: Y-Yes!

Kino: It was fun destroying them. Thanks!

Shin: You, come on now!!

Place: Abandoned house — Inside

Yui: Just now Reiji-san had some really furious facial expressions...

Kino: That was such a great face though. I’m kinda disappointed I couldn’t take a picture of it.

Shin: You there...

Do you really have to make enemies each and every time like that!? You just want to do nothing but rage, don’t you!?

Kino: If you keep getting that angry, you won’t be able to get those wrinkles between your eyebrows away, y’know?

Shin: And because of whom is that… !?

Yui: Shin-kun, please calm down! And Kino-kun, stop acting so strange already too.

Kino: I guess if you get scolded by a princess, you have no choice but to follow, right?

Shin: Why is it that you can easily listen to what she says and not what I do… ?

Yui: Hey, calm down, okay? Come on, take a deep breath!

(Shin-kun seems to be absolutely overawed from Kino-kun…)

Kino: That’s right, I’ve got a classy present for the princess though.

Yui: ...Eh? For me?

Kino: Look, here. I borrowed those macarons Reiji-san made some time ago. Wanna eat them?

Yui: Those are Reiji-san’s macarons!? How and when did you steal them...

Shin: Are you okay with that though? You know that you definitely won’t be able to go back to that mansion now, right?

Kino: I think I have already told you before . I’ve got no need to go back to that mansion as long as I can stay with the two of you.

Here, Eve. Take whatever’s your favorite.

Yui: Eh, but… it’s something you brought with you as you pleased, right? I’d feel bad for Reiji-san if I did that...

Kino: It’s fine. Besides, if we don’t eat it now, it might start rotting. And that would be a waste at the end, right?

Yui: (He does have a point…)

Kino: I only brought them with me for you to begin with.

Yui: Kino-kun… thank you.

Shin: So this is just for Yui? What about me?

Kino: I know you’re not that hungry. Besides, you don’t like sweets anyway, do you?

Shin: ...Well, I guess you’re right.

Kino: It’s okay then.

Here, let’s eat them.

Yui: Eh, um...

(Ugh… guess I have to… even though I feel uncomfortable…)

Choices

1) Obey him (black)

2) Decline it (white)♡♡♡

— Obey him

Yui: ...Should I open my mouth then?

(It’s a little embarrassing, but Reiji-san’s macarons do seem quite charming, don’t they… ?)

Kino: Yes, Yes. Now, aaah.

*Shin grabs Kino’s hand*

Shin: Wait.

Yui: Eh?

Kino: Hm?

Shin: Nom

Yui: (Shin-kun took the macaron… and ate it…)

Shin: I had to eat it instead. You have no idea what might be inside there after all.

Kino: And you surely didn’t do that because you´re jealous or anything, right? You’re way too easy to understand, hehe.

Shin: Shut up.

And you shouldn’t accept someone to feed you so recklessly too.

Yui: I’m sorry.

Shin: This is the end of the foretaste. Alright, you can have the remnants.

— Decline it♡

Yui: It’s okay, I can eat it myself.

Kino: Ehh, there’s no need to restrain yourself.

Yui: I’m not restraining myself… I’m just telling you that I can eat it myself!

Kino: Hmm.

In other words, you especially want Shin to have that honour.

Yui: ...Nn

Kino: Both of you are really close after all

Then, what if I’d eat them all now though?

Yui: Ah.

Kino: Fufu, just kidding. Now, Shin.

Shin: Hah? Eh, what?

Kino: What you ask, it seems as if our princess here is trying to tell you to feed her, right?

Yui: Eh!? H-Hey, wait, Kino-kun!? I never even said a single word about that…!

Kino: Your face tells me differently though… haha. Aren’t you completely red right now?

Yui: ...Nn!

(Uhh… I’m so embarrassed, I wish I could disappear already…)

Shin: Kino, can you stop picking up on her already?

Kino: Fiiine.

Shin: Guess you should’ve said that from the beginning then.

Yui: I wasn’t able to… !

Shin: It’s okay, you can eat them now. Look, open your mouth.

Yui: (Shin-kun’s hand is getting closer…)

Shin: ...Nn, your facial expressions are really erratic!

end Choices

Yui: Nom!

(He stuck it in my mouth all of the sudden!?)

Kino: Fufu, seems as if you surprised her.

Shin isn’t the most upfront about his feelings either, hm?

Shin: You’re being so noisy each and every time!

Yui: Nn… hm! That was delicious… !

(Ruki-kun’s food was really delicious, but Reiji-san’s food is also truly amazing...)

Kino: Ahh, it’s stuck around your mouth because you suddenly were fed with it without warning, right?

Yui: Eh!

Kino: C’mon, stay still.

Yui: Ehh!?

(He wiped my mouth… and his face is so close…)

Kino: Your lips are quite soft, y’know?

Yui: ...Nn!!

Kino: Ouch.

Shin: Hey, get away!

Yui: Shin-kun…

(That really surprised me…)

Shin: Good grief, didn’t I tell you to get your behavior together already… ?

I’m not allowing you to touch Yui in any way whatsoever.

Kino: Oh no, I’m trembling already.

Shin: ...If someone else were to touch what belongs to you, you’d obviously get angry as well.

Kino: Fufu, maybe. But to me, you seem to be really nervous about something else instead, am I right?

Shin: Hah?

Kino: You should already know that yourself, but Violet is the only mansion left now. And we’ll raid that one tomorrow.

Shin: ...Nn!

Yui: (Violet’s mansion, huh? So that means…)

Kino: Yeah, that’s the mansion where your brother, Carla, is in. And because of that you’ve been acting all irritated, am I right?

Shin: That’s not particularly the case though. I only felt like that because you started touching her. That’s about it.

Kino: Hmm.

Shin: If you like, I can get you to understand my strength? Even if I forgot things at the beginning, I’m still a founder.

Kino: Yes, Yes. Cut it with the grim face already. In the meantime I’ll head outside for a moment to cool down my head then.

*Kino leaves*

Shin: Haa...

Yui: Shin-kun?

Shin: Hey, you...

Yui: Eh?

*Shin pushes Yui over*

Yui: Kyaa!?

Shin-kun? What is it?

Shin: What a mess that was. What was that about earlier?

Yui: Earlier, you say… ?

Shin: Are you pretending to not know now? Or is it just that you want to make me angry on purpose?

Yui: That’s not true… !

Shin: Hmm. —But didn’t you feel happy when being approached by Kino?

Yui: I was not happy… !

Shin: Here...

Yui: (—He’s touching my lips)

Shin: They were touched without my permission. I’ll have to disinfect them, Nn...

Yui: Eh!? Wait, hmm… !

Shin: Nn, haa… hey, don’t let any other men, except me, touch you as carelessly as that ever again.

There is no such thing as me allowing that to happen once more.

Yui: Yes... I’m really sorry ...

(—Seems as if he got jealous because of that… I feel guilty for making him feel like that… but I also feel my heart beating faster)

Shin: It’s no good if you have contact with a stingy person like that.

Yui: I know. I’ll only keep them to Shin-kun now.

(To be honest, I secretly really wish for him to embrace me closely now…)

Shin: What? Why are you suddenly clinging onto me?

Yui: Because I want you to believe in what I said.

(Ah… Shin-kun tightly hugged me back…)

Shin: You’re so fragile… I feel as if I’d hug you tightly, you’d end up dying.

Yui: That’s not true. I won’t die because of that.

Shin: Promise me you won’t. I wouldn’t want to see you dying because of me like that.

Yui: I promise.

(Was that… my anxiety talking? That might be because of the various things that happened so far...)

—Even if you’ll hug me all tightly, I promise I won’t die...

(I want you to hug me even stronger — Because like this I could feel Shin-kun’s heartbeat even closer…)

Shin: ...Perhaps just hugging you won’t stop me feeling grieved.

Yui: Eh?

Shin: I want you to give me your blood...

Yui: Ah...

(Shin-kun’s fangs are already at the edge of my neck…)

Shin: Nn… Hmm...

Yui: (Hmm… my body feels somewhat hot now… but the feeling is not too bad… I guess…)

Hmm, Ah… Nn—

(Oh god, I think I let my voice out… But—)

Shin: ...Say, did your self-control fail and led you to put out your voice?

Yui: ...T-That was… because I’m embarrassed...

Shin: If you can’t endure it, then let me hear your voice more

Yui: ...Nn

Shin: Let only me hear that seductive voice you can make.

Haa… Nn… Nn...

Yui: Ah… Ahh…

Shin: Nn… yes… like that...

Yui: Ah… Nn...

Shin: Ngh… all I can smell is that delicious blood of yours… Hmm… !

Yui: ...Nn

(All Shin-kun does right now is making my head feel all hot… and that does make me feel a little pained…)

[jungcity]

from saint. | love, eternal.

7:08 AM. 20** 

What should I call you? But hi, diary. I am Saint. Saint Jung. Son of Jung Jaehyun and Y/N Jung. Today, I am seven years old. I asked Daddy Taeyong to buy me a really, really, really old diary. I don’t know where he found you, but I am glad to write on you. 

Mom is busy, so is Dad. They said seventh birthday is important and must be grandiose (I hope I spelled that right). But to be honest, I want it to be as simple as possible. Since I am not really comfortable with parties. Dad insists I should wear suit (it’s itchy), but Mom only laughed at him and told me I should wear something casual.

Mom has been cooking all night long for my birthday. Dad said we could order food in a restaurant, or we could contact a famous chef from Seoul to cook my birthday dishes. I don’t know if this is my birthday or my parents’. I hope that doesn’t sound disrespectful. 

Yesterday, my zipper’s bag snapped open because of its content. Gladly, I am already inside the limo when it happened. My classmates had thrown me an advanced birthday party at school. Judy, Heidi, Gale, and Anika gave me tons of chocolates. I hope I could eat it all but I have to share some for my family. Mom wouldn’t be pleased if I ever get toothache. 

That’s it for today, diary. 

P.S.: I heard Mom and Dad talking about my angel blood last night. I didn’t understand one bit of their conversation. But I hope I will, someday. 

—

8:26 PM, 20** 

Hi, diary. This is Saint Jung once again. We have written letters for our moms today. Miss Rona was pleased to read mine. She said the letter does not look like it came from a seven year old. Oh, I know, you’d like to read one of the excerpts of my letter right? 

Well, here it is: Mom, thank you for shining like a star in our lives. You are the light in the darkness. I love you. And Dad. 

That’s it. Was it too cheesy? I have to give the letter to Mom. I hope she does not cringe. 

—

3:11 PM, 20** 

This is Saint Jung. I already gave the letters to my Mom. She cried. So hard. I was afraid Dad would scold me when he returned from work. But he only sat with me on the veranda.

It’s odd. Because I was wearing my pajamas and Dad was wearing his suit. Someday, I’d like to be just like him.

He wasn’t mad. In fact, he was glad. And we’ve exchanged stories until I fell asleep. 

“Mom cried,” Saint said, lips quivering. Jaehyun’s heart thudded because of his son’s face. He couldn’t believe this bundle of happiness is his own flesh and blood. 

“Because she was so happy to read your letter,” He patted Saint on his head. 

“Really?” the little boy asked, wiping his eyes off tears. Whenever he looked at his son, it was always like seeing the little version of him.

“Come here, bud.” He smiled. Saint sniffed before sitting on his lap, still wiping his eyes. 

“Did I hurt Mom?” 

Jaehyun let out a chuckle, “Of course, not. You made her so happy today. I am so proud of you, Saint.” 

Then he kissed the little boy on the cheek. Saint giggled, flashing Jaehyun his two deep dimples. 

“Will you write Daddy a letter, too?” He asked, hugging his son tighter. 

“Of course, Daddy.” 

The both of them held each other under the stars. With his arms draped around Saint, and the little hands of his son hugging his torso. They stayed like that for an hour. Exchanging little stories about Jaehyun’s work and Saint’s school. 

“One day, I hope you’ll be happy as I am, Saint.” No response. Then Jaehyun heard soft snores from the little boy. He chuckled. Then he carried his son to his bed, tucked him in, and kissed his forehead. 

—

 9:14 PM. 20** 

Summer vacation has started. And we are here in Greece. All of us. Including my other daddies and Mama Yuqi, and Mama Chaelin. Mama Yuqi brought Zion with him. 

Zion, he is my cousin. Mama Yuqi and Daddy Lucas’ son. He told me we should go explore Greece on our own. That boy. If I inherited my Dad’s silent demeanor, Zion inherited Daddy Lucas’ extroverted side. No wonder Mama Yuqi’s always on edge with him. 

But of course, I said no to his offer. You might call me a bore. And I might be a bore. I just do not want to worry Mom. Dad would never like that. Mama Yuqi said Dad is the human embodiment of petrifying when he’s angry. 

 — 

 8:56 PM. 20** 

Dad and Mom fought. Over apples. I don’t know if I should laugh, or cry. It’s their first time fighting. And it’s… because of an apple that wasn’t precisely cut. 

I stumbled upon Mom and Dad hissing at the kitchen. 

“You’ve been doing this for so long, chérie.” Dad said, frustration was clear in his voice. 

“Why are you so sensitive today?” Mom asked. 

Dad sighed of frustration, “Because—” 

“Mom? Dad? Are you fighting?” 

It was obvious that they were. But Mom quickly hugged Dad and pretended to wipe his mouth. “You are so like a child when you eat!” She pinched Dad on his cheek, and I know that hurts. 

“We’re not, baby.” Dad said through his dimpled smile. 

I shrugged and walked straight to the refrigerator and grabbed some milk. “Dad, what is ‘fuck’?”

By my words, Mom gasps. Dad choked on his apple.

“Where did you learn that word?” Mom asked, kneeling in front of me. 

“Zion said it’s a magic word,” I told her, cupping the box of milk with my little hands. 

Mom turned to Dad, “Call Lucas.” She said. Then she looked at me, “That’s a bad word, honey.” 

I blinked, “Is it Mom? But Zion said it is a holy word. Because fuck creates babies.” 

“Call. Lucas. Now!” Mom repeated, there was a warning in her voice that made Dad dashed for the telephone. 

After that, Zion didn’t talk to me for weeks. Because according to him, I ‘betrayed’ our friendship. But then came his birthday, and my gift, he could not possibly say no to that. And he ended up forgiving me. 

 —

 1:37 AM, 20** 

Hi, this is Saint Jung. You’re probably wondering why I wrote this in such late time. I am now eighteen. Eighteen means parties, girls, and trouble. I just came back from one of Zion’s party. Uncle Lucas, (it’s odd to call him Daddy) and Mama Yuqi had gone to another country to celebrate their anniversary. Leaving their house to Zion’s hands. 

Zion. Alone. Mansion. What did I expect?

It was a mess. There was trouble. Zion made out with different girls tonight. 

But I didn’t. No. I did. I did make out with one girl from my class. Her name’s Veina. (Mom will prolly scold me for this)

We made out. And I think… this is so odd. I shouldn’t be doing this. I shouldn’t be writing this on here.

But her lips, damn, it was like velvet cake against mine. She smelled like lavender with a mix of strawberry. I could not name her scent exactly. She was unique. 

 — 

 3:42 AM, 20** 

I got into a car accident. Right. The good boy Saint in an accident? A nightmare. 

Mom was angry. Dad was furious. 

I feel like shit when Mom cried at the hospital, I hate seeing her cry. And I hate myself to be the one causing her tears. All of my uncles has paid me a visit, with a lot of scolding and pinching ears. Uncle Doyoung was beyond furious, even furious than Dad. With what happened, he postponed giving me a Ferrari. Right. He promised me that car, months ago. But Saint has been a bad boy. 

Zion was laughing and rolling on the floor when he visited me. The only thing that stopped him was the shout of Mama Yuqi. 

And yes. I’d hate to say this, since I don’t want to sound so self-centered and narcissistic, but yeah, a lot of girls had been on the hospital to visit me. Of course, rudeness isn’t in my vocabulary. And I’d feel an absolute jerk if I didn’t show kindness to the girls. Mom is a girl. A woman. Call me old-school, but I believe that when you hurt a girl, it would be like hurting your own mom. 

After all the commotion, Dad sat beside me. While Mom sleeps on the sofa. He sat beside me and I swear, my breath hitched when I saw tears in his eyes. Dad never cried. Or so I thought. 

“Be careful next time,” was his words, before leaning in to me and kissing my forehead. 

I know. Don’t judge me diary. I know it’s cheesy, and unmanly-like. But that’s my Dad. He’s loved every fiber of my being ever since I was born. 

 — 

 11:23 PM, 20** 

I got into a fight. And we had to move houses because of the trouble I’d been into. Worrying Mom is on the very least of my priority. But I guess I’ve been born to worry her. 

Some dickbag in school called Dad an alien. I have to be honest, Mom looked like she’s near her forties. Yet Dad looked like a twenty-three year old man. It doesn’t make sense to me, either. But hearing my Dad being called an alien has sparked an anger inside me I didn’t know existed. 

So I threw the punch. And I hit him until he’s a bloody mess on the school hallway’s floor. Bad temper, I must admit. 

And now we are here. Far from the city. In the middle of the forest. Near Uncle Doyoung’s mansion. Right.

Yes, Zion laughed at me until his chest hurts that he needed a nebulizer to help him breathe again. 

 — 

 4:09 AM. 20**

This is Saint Jung. Twenty-one at long last. I want you to know, diary, that I am writing this entry with bloodshot eyes and alcohol drowning my lungs.

It’s my first time to drink like this. 

But what would you do if your mother and father told you that you’re half-mortal, half-angel? And that you would live a long life. Without a mother. And that your mother would be reincarnated someday? But the take is that she won’t be able to remember you. 

It’s fucked up. It’s beyond me. 

But now I understand. I understand why I seem to have this divinity inside me. Why I could run faster than Zion even in his wolf form. Damn, I should’ve known that something is up with me too, when Zion admitted that he is half-wolf, half-human to me.

I should’ve asked Dad when I felt my system convulsing with power. Of strength. Of something I did not understand then. 

Dad. Wait, diary, I have to process this one. Give me a minute to breathe.

Dad is Lucifer. Right. The banished angel from heaven. The morningstar. The Prince of hell. He is a f u c k i n g angel. And I am a f u c k i n g nephilim. I would’ve ended up not believing it, if only Dad didn’t show his wings. Fuck. Sorry for the curses Mom. I had to.

I couldn’t process this in one night. But I need to. So Mom would never cry in front of my door again. Begging me to open it. 

 — 

 2:29 AM. 20** 

Mom and I, we’ve talked. She showed me a picture of a girl with black hair and blue eyes and told me she was Aurora. Mom said it was her one hundred years ago.

Why am I only knowing all about this now? I don’t have any idea. But I am glad they deemed me worthy for this mind-boggling information. 

Aurora was Mom’s face one hundred years ago. Aurora’s reincarnation was Mom today. 

Mom said she would die one day. Her face would disappear from this world, but her soul will not. She said, with tears in her eyes, that I should wait for her to be back. I should wait for her be reincarnated again. 

She’s my mother. She’s my everything. She’s the only flower in my garden. And Dad. Of course, I will wait for her even it takes her a thousand years to be back.

It hurts. I know that sounds weak. But it hurts. I am hurt. I don’t want to wake up one day without her. I think I’d rather die than be parted away from her. 

“Saint,” Dad called out from behind my door. I stood up and laid the controller on the bed. 

“A minute?” He asked. I nodded and guided him towards the veranda. It was frightening, to see Dad. He was so like me I always thought I’m looking at the mirror every time I stand face to face with him. He could pass as my doppelgänger. No joke. 

“How are you, Saint?” He looked at the horizon of gleaming lights far away from us. 

I propped my arms on the railings before answering, “Wrecked.” There’s no point in lying. Dad could smell a shit from miles away. 

“I was like that when I knew about your mother’s real identity,” He smiled a bitter one at me. “Pushed her away. Like a douchebag in a cliché novel, said your Mama Chaelin.” Then he shook his head while sighing, “But where did all those pushing led me? Back to her.” 

“That’s romantic, Dad. But forgive me if I am too hurt to comprehend.” I admitted. 

Dad put his arms around my shoulder, pulling me closer to him. “We have to be strong for your Mom,”

Surprisingly, a hot feeling around my eyes blurred my vision. It took me a while to realized that I was crying. “I can’t lose Mom, Dad. I can’t.” was what I said between sobs.

Dad held me tighter and closer while I sob that night. 

Losing Mom would be my downfall. It is the bane of my existence. I would simply shut down once it happens. 

 — 

 That was Saint’s last entry. He never continued his diary ever again after knowing the truth.

[alostdandelion]

My covid Journey

It all started with an itchy throat that I thought would naturally go away if I eat spicy food, or to be exact, ramen. Disclaimer: it was a Saturday and we had gone to the grocery the day before where I bought around 6 pieces of chocolate cream bread from Breadtalk. Yes, I indulged myself with sweetness because yum. I ate what I wanted to, I even ordered buffalo and garlic parmesan chicken wings but that itchy feeling in my throat remained. PS: virus & bacterias love them sweets too. 😅

Sunday, after hearing that they'll put us under ECQ where even outdoor dining is prohibited made me ask my cousin out to eat with me. Yes, despite my throat being itchy. It didn't cause any alarm to me, as I wasn't feeling uncomfortable... YET.

After eating with my cousin, I went back to my place and spent the rest of the weekend watching or doing whatever.

I could still recall that Sunday night though, it was really warm I couldn't fall asleep. But then, suddenly, I shivered. I felt chills. I thought I didn't have fever, but that chilly feeling put me to sleep anyway.

Monday, March 29 - I usually get up at 5 in the morning but that day I got up at around 5:30, feeling weak which I mistook as being lazy. I thought I wasn't feeling well but decided to take a shower and go on with my day.

I did my thing as usual, but as the hours passed by, I started to feel cold despite wearing a sweatshirt. Usually when I wear that, I'd feel comfy already but at that instance, I was still shivering. I tried my best to avoid my officemate as I was afraid to infect her with my fever, if that made sense. I was totally avoiding skinship.

I was able to overcome Monday, and ended up taking Paracetamol before sleeping because at that point, I was well aware that I had fever.

Tuesday, March 30 - I still got up late, mistaking being unwell as being lazy. Damn I hate being lazy. But this time I had to take Paracetamol before going for a shower. I felt uneasy as I still had fever but I still went to work. Just wow.

I was alone this time which somehow relieved me. I was still shivering in the office despite wearing my sweatshirt, and had to take Paracetamol continuously as my fever was recurrent.

Wednesday, March 31 - I still got up late, took Paracetamol before going to the shower. This time I was worried. I had fever for 3 consecutive days already but covid didn't cross my mind, as the itchiness in my throat was gone by Monday, leaving only fever to deal with.

I still went to work because it was the end of the month but ugh, it felt really awful. I was shivering, and my nasal passages were somewhat uncomfortable. They felt dry and I had that feeling of catching a cold I decided to inhale steam from hot water. It was really awful I even decided to leave work early. I left an hour earlier because I wanted to take a rest already, to just stay in bed.

Thursday, April 1 - I got up late again. I was hesitating that time because I was really feeling unwell and uneasy. I still took a shower and got ready for work but the thought of walking to the office terrified me. I suddenly thought, "who will look after me if something happens on the way?"

I kept worrying about work, work, and my client. But... how about me? Who would worry about me?

I ended up crying. I cried real hard. It was around 6:30 already and I usually leave before 6 but at that time I was sitting on my bed, crying for myself.

"Nag-aalala ka sa work mo, kapag ba may nangyari sa'yo pananagutan ka?"

I dropped my bag and sent an email that I wouldn't be able to come to work, but instead, I'll come in on Monday. It was supposed to be a rest day but due to my condition I decided to just swap them. I thought I should really take a good rest that time because I was really sick. I even sent a voice clip to our HR manager because I really couldn't go to work that day.

I went back to sleep and stayed in bed the whole day. I thought taking a rest would result to my recovery but damn during that afternoon, I was crying again. I knew for myself that my fever was high. I couldn't measure then as I didn't have a thermometer but I knew it was because I felt really warm. I was even covered in blanket despite the sun shining brightly outside.

I was crying, I was saying whatever. Was it delirium? I was asking God and my late parents to just take me with them. I didn't like that feeling, and all I could do was cry and pray.

I was taking Paracetamol for my fever, I also didn't have the appetite to eat as I was nauseous.

Friday, April 2 - it felt the same. I still had fever, nauseous, I didn't want to eat but I needed to because I felt hungry. But this time, I was well aware that it could be covid and that I didn't want to infect other people.

I didn't want to trouble anyone, but I had no other choice but to tell our dorm's caretaker and ask for her help. She received the food deliveries in my behalf and brought them upstairs, to the 4th floor. I was really apologetic and thankful to her. The moment she knew I was sick, she helped me buy food and medicines, disinfectant, and other things I might need.

I knew I troubled her a lot. She had to go out a lot of times to buy the things I needed. I kept my door closed and wore mask when I go to the restroom. It was the least I could do. :'(

She helped me through those days of hardship. I still had fever, still nauseous, still no appetite, there was shortness of breath with little activity, and I was starting to cough. It was the weekend, when our HR manager decided to have me tested for covid. With me not getting any better, I admitted and accepted the possibility that it could be covid.

By Sunday my fever was gone but I listened to them and proceeded with the swab test.

April 6, Tuesday. I didn't have fever anymore but was coughing slightly. The med tech who did my swab test was a friend of our HR manager. She was kind enough to buy me lunch, courtesy of HR manager. The way she did the swabbing was gentle, her hands were soft and light it didn't feel painful at all. 🥺 thank you Mariane! ❤️

Right after being swabbed, I felt hungry I started to eat the burger meal she brought me. By this time I was feeling just fine I even drank the softdrinks. 😅 And throughout that day, I started to have the appetite to eat. I was hungry and craving for food. ❤️

I ate everything Jira brought me. Yes. She was bringing me food, healthy meals to be exact that was given by my landlady - her aunt. How thankful I am to have such caring and thoughtful people around me. 😭😭😭

April 7, Wednesday, my test result came out and it was positive. It was covid. Of course I had to tell them. They were all worried but I assured them that I was already feeling better, that I had passed the tough stages. 🥺

I actually hesitated to tell Jira as I was afraid that if she finds out, she wouldn't bring my food upstairs anymore but contrary to my worries... the more concerned they became. They even brought me warm lemon water, they even cooked soup and lugaw to feed me. 🥺😭

This went on, until this week, when I told them I was getting better already and that it's fine even if they didn't send food anymore. I felt shy already. 🥺 then our HR manager sent this food package because it was their birthday. Kkyaaa I was really happy while eating the lugaw because with every scoop, there's laman / meat! 🙈❤️

So as of this writing, April 15, I'm on the 8th day of my 14-day quarantine. How do I feel? I feel better, well, except for my growing wisdom tooth causing pain. 😅 But this pain is nothing compared to the pain I felt during that difficult stage of my covid journey. 🥲

I am still recovering, still eating lots of healthy food, taking vitamins, and eating sweets from time to time. 😅

My 14-day quarantine ends next week April 21 and I can't wait to return to work already as I can't stand the sight of my officemate being troubled because of me. 🥲

Always take your vitamins - twice, wash your hands, and do physical distancing. This virus is invisible, and could be just around the corner. I was complacent I forgot to wash my hands from time to time, lesson learned.

But this experience showed me the people who actually care for me. It made me realize that I'm actually loved and cared for. I cried a couple kf times because of this disease, but I also cried because I was thankful to have people look after me physically and virtaully.

How thankful I am that my case was mild, as I didn't want to further trouble the people around me. But imagine for other people if they get infected, some could get serious. 🥺

Thank You Lord for staying with me! ❤️

Stay safe and healthy! ❤️

Timeline 🥲

27 - itchy throat

28 - itchy throat / 12AM chills

29 - fever

30 - fever, mucus

31 - fever, mucus, headache, inhale uhhhh

01 April (Day 6)

4:14 - high fever

5:10 - medyo okay

6:19 - medyo okay nasusuka

7:13 - ang ginhawa :((((

02 (Day 7)

6:24 - sinat, sipon konti

8:19 - lagnat inom gamot, nausea

10:30 - gutom na gutom :((

11:21 - inom gamot. Okay lang.

4:24 - gutom

5:30 - lagnat

03 (Day 8)

5:25 - ubo, sinat?

8:14 - ubo, sinat

9:37 - antok 9:00 gamot

12:00 - ok lang

5 - 37.6

7:41 - 37.7

8:13 - 36.8

04 (Day 09)

3:36 - 36

7:21 - 35.5

7:46 - 36

10:40 - 36.1

12:36 - 35.8

2:13 - 36.7

3:07 - 36.8

4 - 37

4:53 - 37.3

8:26 - 36.6

05 (Day 10)

8:20 - 36

9:16 - 36.6

11:07 - 36.8

5:55 - 36.5

06 (Day 11)

9:10 - 35.8

10:30 - 35.2

07 (Day 12)

10:15 - 35.8

[chuckschmalzried]

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[theorist-influencer-untitled]

5.13.24 Monday

8am

Thank God for today but wishing for more... Still,have windblow...

Later, I will ask Ely if we can find an "oatmeal soap" to fully heal my sweat rash or heat rash. I still have itchy skin and some discolaration mapping at my back and still itchy that can be healed using an oatmeal soap... The next step on healing this is really "oatmeal soap"...

Still, wanting to see my white cousin or Pilot Garret...

8:14 am

Hey! Are we having the same blood or skin in a way.... Save me???

8:25 am

Love me at my worst,like these days...

8:34 am

Drinking my coffee and hoping to find an oatmeal soap later...

No,no, we will have our future together....It didn't happen... Can I be your Mama Mia??? For my white cousin or Pilot Garret?

Still me & you...

My white cousin or My Pilot Garret...♡♡♡☆

8:58 am

??? Who will be my Daddy? But my white cousin can't get a gf here but me!

9:14 am

Always take good care of our dogs coz they have these kid's soul... Good angels will not abandon us if we love our dogs like the human kids... They say if you care for your dogs, there are guardian angels who will also help you on your rough days, like us here....Dogs are lucky charm to have a good future.

There are so many dogs in the world, mine is my baby and I truly love that wishing us to have a dinosaur lives...

Still,listening on radio's... I truly like the speaking style of Pilot Garret, somehow robotic but hypnotizing...

I still wanna get my serums and my vanity...

1:03 pm

I deserve the serums....

Not just an ordinary mockingbird...

For my white cousin and Pilot Garret.

2:03 pm

Still,have windblow... I feel bad,I'm trying to be a belter singer and rap, it is hellish to learn... I really wanna sing this "mockingbird"!

I still wanna leave Cavite... I need money, will apply next month while waiting for my cousin white or Pilot Garret. Yeah! Not bad to work..

I feel bored here... I need a lift... Liking no one here....

2:15 pm

So,crazy to learn the "mockingbird" like the "kiss me more" I practiced that 100 times before I can actually sing it smoothly...

Singing is my therapy in life....

Still,have windblow... I'm self-pitying and I wanna leave Cavite. Thinking of progress, I hate being trap by someone that I don't like and I don't know...

2:52 pm

Nobody can take my first cousin white here and Pilot Garret from me, here in the Philippines...

I still have windblow...

I wanna leave Cavite!!!

4:09 pm

Hmm....I hate the "church of christ"... I wanna leave Cavite...

4:23 pm

Ely is out of budget for my oatmeal soap....They gave me pancit coz birthday of his older sister ate Eden.

No food fundings until now... Bullshit this Uncle DD...Out of dog food as well...

5:07 pm

I borrowed a water container from Kuya Erning... My 2 Uncle's are fake angels...

5:38 pm

This Uncle Jun style poorish... I feel irritated angels... Super poorish their plans here... No wifi, damage TV,can't buy a new TV...

I wanna leave Cavite angels... I need money...

6:07 pm

I hate this Uncle Jun super cheap... He said don't mind Neko ( family dog ) , if they don't have food... Style poorish and system of poorish.

He is changing my system to be his system of poorish!

I hate cheap system!!!

I hope Pilot Garret can save me or my white cousin...

6:14 pm

They just want me to be fat and ugly... My 2 Uncle's are style of poorish! I feel bitter!!!

6:24 pm

I want Uncle Jun be dead... System of poorish!

6:26 pm

They made me system of poorish angels.I hate my 2 Uncle's...

6:29 pm

The style of my 2 Uncle's they will brainwash you to love the system of poorish...

I want my breast implants and my ac... My serums and vanity! Cult of the poor!

They are not religious... I was the choir member angels!

8:08 pm

This is for you white cousin and for Pilot Garret..

Trying to remove the FUPA! I feel bitter that I can't go back to gym... I feel bitter and I lost travel...

9:16 pm

Still,have windblow... I need to get a job but I don't like anyone here...

I'm thinking of my cousin white and that Pilot Garret... I feel irritated here... I'm not gonna end up with anyone here... My deep inside is very irritated on them here, most specially I have windblow...

I feel fat and ugly... I wanna be fit for myself and my self-esteem and for my next bf... I need a lift...I wanna leave Cavite.

I'm super self-pitying... These 2 Uncle's are fakers on their assistance on me...

The right way to assist me, I supposed to have my original toiletries ( body shop lotions and some facial wash and make-ups )that they will make a way to respect my original upbringing here... For me to have and maintain my introduction on people,most specially on my target bf...

Supposed to be they will buy me lots of beauty soap that I have stocks here, supposed to be... Though, we are on thrift... They should make a way to respect my upbringing coz I know was me...

They should maintain my wifi, I'm a college graduate but we all know that there are mysteries that are happening and some people are attacking me angels here... Things that are difficult to explain...

If I don't want anyone, that guilty should respect me...

I have my complete toiletries and though for now, I'm doing a home work-out, I should have buy stuff that I need like my big punching bag and my other exercise equipment. I need to maintain my introduction most specially on men that I like... Now, they see me super cheap! A lot of judgemental people are bashing me coz we are on cheap system now...

[onegirlatelier]

Subconscious Shawl | July, 2020

A few weeks ago, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder. The doctor didn’t specify which type, but I knew it was a restrictive one. The exact name doesn’t matter.

Treatment for ED is not very accessible where I live, but I am incredibly grateful for the diagnosis as it feels so validating. Finally, someone else—my family—understood that I was ill. That I might be in need of help. That I am in a battle.

I am not going to write too much about it because I am still in the midst of it, and everything is blurred. An experience this personal may never be translated into words, though it will certainly affect the way I think and the way I create. To tell the story, I will simply have to rely on my subconscious, similar to what I have been trying hard to do—to relearn how to eat, to listen to that one true voice in my head, to trust that my body is smarter than our society’s beauty standards.

I’d been staring at the screen for the longest time, trying to write a story for this shawl, but I could not find it in me. So I decided to name the shawl Subconscious, and let the yarn carry the memory for me.

If you google images for ‘subconscious’, you will understand my choice of colours: they remind me of shores, icebergs, and precipices—the sublime landscapes described by Edmund Burke: ‘vast, empty, often dark and apparently infinite’ (in the words of Alain de Botton in his book The Art of Travel). Though I do not think of eating disorder nobler than me and worthy of respect, there is this similar feeling of awe and weakness.

 Pattern

Ewe York by Susanne Sommer. This is my first paid pattern, and it was very clear. It’s nice to let someone else do the calculations every now and then!

Yarn

White: Tukuwool Fingering, 75% Finnish wool, 25% Texel (EDIT: I checked the yarn composition), 2-ply, #01 Sake. 293m (80g).

Grey: Tukuwool Fingering, 100% Finnish wool, 2-ply, #09 Raku. 312m (78g).

Blue: Malabrigo Sock 100% merino,4-ply, #Cian. 354m (88g).

Tukuwool review:

Pro: non-superwash and rustic. I literally had to keep picking straw out of the yarn. It smells sheep-y too. It feels like a hardy yarn that can last for many years.

Con: very scratchy, especially in the knitting process. I tried wrapping it around my neck for a minute, and my neck felt itchy for an entire afternoon. It fluffed and softened a little after blocking, so I can only hope that it continues to soften.

I’d say that Tukuwool Fingering is an excellent choice for an outer garment, but I wouldn’t use on any next-to-skin garments.

Malabrigo review:

Pro: the yarn is so soft and smooth! It’s drapey but also springy, and it shapes very well. The colour is breathtaking—I can sit there for hours and just stare at it. Malabrigo produces superwash yarns responsibly so that is a plus too.

Con: just like any pure merino, it is likely to pill easily. The colour bled so much—I pre-washed and rinsed it for a few times before using the yarn, but the second I put the shawl into the basin, the blue started bleeding again and the dye kept seeping out throughout the rinses. It gave my white yarn a hint of sky blue. I will have to remember not to pair the shawl with any light-coloured clothes.

Modification

I followed the pattern exactly, though I did briefly consider adding a few rows to Section 1 as I was aiming for a large shawl. The edging is actually quite wide and the finished shawl ends up the perfect size.

Finished Measurements

160cm in width, 80cm in length. Brioche is very stretchy though, and it wraps around my shoulders very comfortably and definitely feels wider than 160cm. Or maybe it’s just that I have a tiny frame…

Wear and Tear

After washing and blocking, the Tukuwool yarn became a bit softer. However, it is still scratchy to some degree!

The Malabrigo sock yarn is holding up fine at the moment, but it continues bleeding as soon as it comes into contact with some water.

Further Considerations

I’m still not sure about pairing a rustic wool with a luxurious one—it looks fine now, but we’ll have to wait and see. I would love to try something in-between for decorative pieces, such as Eden Cottage Yarn Milburn 4-ply.

The i-cord binding is a bit too tight whilst the garter edge is a bit too loose, and you can see that especially from the bottom tip of the shawl. I underestimated my gauge for garter stitch—next time I would definitely knit tighter.