#PhD project

[sergeant-angels-trashcan]

idk i just. i gotta say there is something so powerful about having two alpha male coded characters discussing their emotions on a rooftop while grappling with overt suicidality and having the most alpha of the two not only providing emotional support and words of affirmation but actively endorsing therapy. admitting that he goes and it helps. do you understand how insane that is. they really wrote jack abbot to be in the middle of a venn diagram of suicidal demographics and said we're not going to leave him there, we're going to make him be the one who is advocating for the mental health care of healthcare workers. Do you get this. he's a white male veteran between like 18-50 who undoubtedly has access to a firearm. he's disabled, he works in emergency medicine as an attending and we have no idea what kind of support system he has outside of work. like. that is a man i would be actively worried about in my workplace. that is a man who knows how to kill himself and make it stick. and he's talking about his therapist out in the open. the amount of stigma and internalized masculine ideals and military masculinity he has worked through. do you. do you understand. do you understand what an incredible character jack abbot is. i'm tearing up. robby is terrified someone will find out he has ptsd and panic attacks and jack is telling him it's okay. implying he has them too. it's okay because you came out and went right back in it. you were who we needed you to be, and it wasn't fair and it's okay to not be okay. it's okay to need help. jack. jack abbot said those things.

jack abbot you have my entire heart

[identitty-dickruption]

inaction is also an action and a non-decision is also a decision. there’s no completely stable bubble world where you can choose not to make a decision at all. all this to say. you might as well go ahead and do the shit you want to do because the time passes anyway. etc.

[fatehbaz]

weekly navel-gazing update: this week is most consequential event in long time. keyword search: "scared" "is it ok to be scared" "beaten and tortured by the ogre"

[theafictionado]

I would absolutely never "file the serial numbers off" and try to publish a fanfic as a novel because that goes against so many things for me. However, I do feel like if you've known me in a fandom context and know the types of characters, tropes, and themes that have sent me feral over the years, you will be able to look at my original fiction and clock my inspirations pretty successfully. Eg all my protagonists are Emiyas thematically even if they're not Emiyas literally y'know

[somewhereincairparavel]

I'm so immersed in my jason grace new rome uni fic that I'm studying ancient roman law terms using this as an excuse. help.

[astriiformes]

When I was applying for undergrad, I was fully in my "All my favorite characters are weird smart academic types" phase, because I Iike many undiagnosed twice-exceptional teens had carefully constructed a personal identity around a certain (incredibly harmful) societal idea of intelligence. It totally showed in the institutions I was applying to, too, and in particular, my motivation for choosing them.

This also lead to me making bad choices in the long run and was completely unsustainable, but I will admit that it was helpful when it came to motivating myself to complete my college applications. (Especially considering one of my top schools -- and the one with the most involved application -- happened to be a university that a beloved favorite character had attended but also, it is really, really good in retrospect that I did not get in there.)

I am happier and healthier now and have a much more sustainable image of success in my head, if an imperfect relationship with it, but this also means I have a complicated relationship with the fictional academic archetype and the type of characters I used to love, and that used to be motiviating to me. A lot of my favorite characters these days are ones who possess other traits I admire -- tenacity, kindness, a strong sense of justice, and a desire to change the world for the better. But I don't associate most of them with school or academic success at all; sometimes even the opposite.

All this to say, seeing as I have grad school apps due in exactly a month now. Save me Palamedes Sextus. Save me.

[coldilikeit]

Guys, we're supposed to make a thesis and new inventions, so far we have thought of soap, creating a new religion, going back in time to kidnap Albert Einstein and making a bomb so big it makes another big bang theory

If you guys give me ideas, I will update 3 chapters continuously, or if you want, give me an invention idea and I will write a head cannon you want 2000 words max

It's a promise.

[iamthepulta]

*stares at 30 reblogs of "deep down you want to bite someone with 100% power just once"*

*writes: "m00t is reincarnated crocodile (beloved)" on notepad*

[rubberpuckies]

everyone at my job is actually so insane and neurotic and all of them kept thanking me unprompted for being the only calm person in the house i'm cryingfndskjfsd this is going to be a long summer

[isabelleadjani]

the face of decay, truly

[himblebo]

She’s married she’s married she’s married she’s married (to a man to a man to a man to a man)

[al-mayriti]

i have to send an email today. please keep me in your thoughts & prayers

[branmer]

genuinely thinking of doing a retreat at an abbey at some point in the future

[opens-up-4-nobody]

It turns out teaching is a lot more fun when you're not violently depressed

[macdenlover]

watching this play out over the last couple of years has been incredible

[munchkinmarauder]

Magneto is the father...then his isn't....but ah ha! Suprise motherfu**ers he is yo Daddy....Pietro and Wanda this...Maximoff twins that.... Lorna Sally Dane aka "Polaris" has already been through this retcon roulette way before it was cool and lived to tell the tale (for good or for bad is subjective)