#Torn in two (2)

[holylulusworld]

Torn in two (2)

Summary: It should’ve been the happiest day of your life.

Pairing: Mobster!Steve Rogers x fem!Reader, Mobster!Bucky Barnes x fem!Reader (platonic for now)

Warnings: heavy angst, Steve being the worst, cheating, lies, deception, sadness, arranged marriage, unrequited love, hurt & comfort, love-struck Bucky, a hint of possessive Bucky, virgin reader (mentioned)

Catch up here: Torn in two

“We should call someone and tell them that you’re still alive,” Bucky murmurs. He’s seated on the floor, next to the old armchair you are sitting in. “Do you want me to make the call?”

“No one cares for me,” you reply, too tired and emotionally drained to face Steve, your father, or anyone else right now. “Why would I want them to know that I’m still alive? They’d only try to dictate my life again.”

“Y/N, we can’t sit here forever. If you do not return, your father and Steve will go rampant, believing one of our enemies kidnapped or hurt you.”

You snort. “None of our enemies could hurt me deeper than my father and Steve did. Steve lied to me all this time. He knew about my feelings and used them against me. He’s worse than any enemy.”

“Doll, I know you’re hurting, but we cannot stay here for much longer. I swore loyalty to Steve’s family,” Bucky scoots closer to you to touch your hand. “How about we get you something else to wear first? I’ll bring you to my apartment; you can get cleaned up, and I’ll call your father in the meantime.”

You shake your head. All you want to do is curl into a ball and stay here forever. There’s nothing outside these walls waiting for you. No loving husband. No future. No supporting father. Nothing but hurting and betrayal.

Bucky sighs. He was more patient with you than any other man in your life. You feel sorry for him. He came all the way to find you for his friend.

“I’m sorry he sent you to find me,” you sniff. “Steve has this influence on people. He wraps them around his finger, and you don’t even realize he fucked you over.”

“Language, young lady,” Bucky imitates your father’s voice. “A lady doesn’t cuss.”

“I cuss as much as I want to, Barnes.” You stick your tongue out before bursting into laughter, followed by a crying fit.

Bucky gets up from the floor. He suddenly grabs you and sits back down to hold you in his lap. You’re too shocked to stop him from wrapping you in a warm hug.

“Everything is going to be alright, doll. Don’t worry. We can fix this,” he murmurs into your neck while running one warm hand up and down your back.

“How?” You sniffle. “How can we fix this mess? I—I don’t want to stay married to a man despising and lying to me. I don’t want to have sex with him and give him an heir. Likewise, I’d rather stay a virgin than let him touch me. Not only that, but I’d vomit in his face if he tried to get his hands on me.”

Bucky stiffens at your admission. He knew your father was a strict man and held you in a golden cage, protecting you even from your friends.

“Doll, I won’t let him touch you.” His hold on you turns possessive. You can feel him tense as you bury your face in Bucky’s neck. “He cannot touch you! Not after he ruined your trust in him.”

“What can I do now? I was so confident when you arrived, but I have nothing if I refuse to stay married to Steve. I’m fairly sure my father will not allow me to live the life I want.”

“What life do you want?” Bucky is the first man to ask you about your wishes. “It’s only the two of us. You can tell me, Y/N. I won’t judge you.”

“How about a cabin in the middle of nowhere? It’s nestled in the woods, and there’s a nice lake,” you dreamily run your hand over Bucky’s back as you go lax in his arms. ”I know it’s not a big dream, but I find it romantic to live there. I’d be unbothered by Steve, my father, and their business.”

“It’s a nice dream,” he nuzzles your neck and inhales your scent deeply. Bucky never got the chance to get closer to you. Only when Steve and your father were around. “You could go skinny-dipping.”

You giggle against him. “Don’t make fun of me, Bucky.”

“I wouldn’t dare make fun of you, baby. That’s the last thing I want to do is to make fun of you or hurt you. I’d never hurt you. I swear.” Bucky sounds honest, but you trusted Steve too, and everything he told you were lies. “You need some sleep. Let me take you home.”

“I don’t want to go to Steve,” you start to cry again. “Please don’t bring me home to him. He’ll hurt me! I can’t…I don’t want to.”

“Doll, Y/N,” Bucky coos. “I meant my home. No one is going to hurt you at my home. We should hurry, though. It won’t take them long to find us here.”

“Still nothing?” Steve huffs as his men return, empty-handed. “What am I paying you for?” Your husband is furious. He throws a tantrum like the man child he is. Deep down inside, he knows it’s his fault you ran, though he’d never admit his mistake.

“Rogers, calm down,” your father grunts. “Y/N is not going to run away from this marriage. Maybe she got a little scared, just like her mother. She will return soon and behave like the good girl I raised her to be.”

Steve wrinkles his nose. If it were up to him, he’d call things off and marry Peggy.

Bucky’s home looks different than you expected. It’s spartan but cozy in its own way. He has warm blankets and soft pillows. The most unexpected thing you discover lies on his couch. A white cat, with blue eyes, matching Bucky’s.

“That’s Alpine, my cat,” he nervously says. “Don’t worry. Alpine is a nice cat. Her presence is calming in a hectic life. Go ahead. You can pet her.”

“Hi,” you sniffle as you sit down. “You’re a pretty girl, huh?” You coo as the cat jumps onto your lap. Alpine meows before sniffing at your wedding dress.

“I’ll get you fresh clothes, and you can take a shower. Maybe I can buy you some time by leading Steve and his men on the wrong track. Relax. You’re safe here, with me.”

You nod and start patting Alpine. He’s right. Her presence is calming.

“I’ll take a shower,” you murmur. “Maybe tomorrow, I will see things clearer.”

Watching Bucky pace around the living room, you wonder if he’ll keep his word. For now, all you can do is trust Bucky.

Part 3

Tags in reblog.

[mesukohi]

Two goldfish are in a tank...

Reference: American Satan

[nullapophenia]

Kissing Lucifer

{You're okay, you're alive, you-- You're so happy you could just-- Sif--!}

{Sif pushes you away}

[stylesgotthesun]

"Anything you need to take with you?"

"No, nothing I can think of"

*delivers the line with the most pained and sad look in his eyes, the most devastating stare out of the window at crowley*

[sleepyslepe]

I AM SORRY!!?!??! K!!!!! EVEN KELMP! WHAT!?!??! HUH!!!!??!?!! EXCUSE ME??????

[faerieprincessfemme]

why would @dashcon-two make @strange-aeons and @the-muppet-joker ‘s panels at the exact same time how am i (a theatre kid and religious studies major) supposed to choose between my favorite youtuber whose videos have inspired multiple academic essays of mine and getting a chance to act in the greatest biblical retelling of all time?

[allsparkpower]

[best-bff-brawl]

Best BFF Brawl: Round 2| Match 6

Propaganda Beneath the Cut

Phineas and ferb

You can tell how much Phineas and Ferb care about each other. Phineas understands that Ferb doesn't really prefer to talk around others and is completely able to read his mind and know exactly what he is thinking and communicate that for them. The boys care so deeply for each other it's beautiful

Phineas understands that Ferb doesn't really prefer to talk around others and is completely able to read his mind and know exactly what he is thinking and communicate that for them.

"We got two big suns countin' one and two. And there's two Flynn-Fletcher bois. Me and you! Yeah we're brothers, we're step, no we don't share a gene but we'll always be together here on Tatooine" - Ferb in the Star Wars special

Look they have that perfect "siblings who are also best friends" vibe okay? They're each other's Person. They're an amazing team. They do everything together. They make each other better. I rotate them back and forth in my head every day. Please vote for them they deserve it

Flynn and Julie

Literally ride or die besties. Flynn cares about Julie so much and is literally on a text basis with Julie’s dad to report to him that she’s worried about Julie after her mothers death.

[therestofmyfandoms]

good omens did exactly as it was meant to. made me laugh, made me love, and most especially, made me cry. never in a million years was i expecting what happened in the last episode, and goddamnit my heart is broken and i am genuinely collapsed on the floor.

cheers, neil. and lets all pray to god for a season 3 because i refuse to let their story end there

[gravityslingshot]

when am i gonna write charmed leo >:)

[jamiethebeeart]

Sketches

[feralgodmothers]

You can have any two of these characters under your tree. Who do you pick?

Dean Forester

Sam Winchester

Jack Sparrow

Benjamin Barker

Austin!Elvis Presley

Fayd

Renfield

Tsar Peter

Tenth Doctor

Alec Hardy

Tyler Galpin

2016 Danny Zuko.

Choose wisely. You can only have two. The other ten will be left out in the cold looking sadly at you like you took their puppies and kitten away. Can you make a decision?

I think I finally did:

Sam Winchester

Austin!Elvis

Renfield

I didn’t really choose based on who I would be most horny over (although…

)

I mainly just chose who I wanted to take in so they could have some much needed emotional respite.

[landinrris]

I have like a fullblown whole conspiracy theory in my head around the interlocking ring necklace that Lando only seems to remove for races. Any thoughts? Do you think it really is as simple as it was a birthday present from Zedd like seems to be the popular theory?

Occam's Razor says it's from Zedd since there are pictures of Lando getting the bag from him in the garage in Vegas. I would say it wouldn't be too outlandish to get as a gift from a casual friend if it weren't for the design of the necklace itself (imo).

The crack theory that I share with a few people (that I'm not even sure is crack anymore) is that the necklace is actually from Martin, and Zedd was the intermediary gift-giver because of how chaotic the weekend was. Lando was inundated with extra media things all week/weekend leading up to the race. He left the Netflix golf event early even to make a Tumi event. Added to the fact that the bag was handed to Lando in the garage, a place Martin doesn't go, whether by choice or by sponsor obligation (my thought is the latter based on other people who have been there). The design feels much more appropriate for what we know their relationship to be, even on the surface, and that's one of the reasons why it's still front and center four months later.

[oplishin]

finally seeking out the rolleigns 2022 match in its entirety (by which i mean. including their full entrances/introductions

i just really appreciate how shitty both of them are. they're the worst. especially to each other.

[girl4music]

I’ve started Arcane and finished Act 1. Talk about gripping and on the edge of your seat storytelling!

I am impressed with the way they utilise the characters. I love the way the character representation and development seamlessly intertwines with the main storyline and drives the narrative emotionally and thematically. I don’t quite understand everything that’s going on but that doesn’t matter - that will come with continuing and maybe even rewatching Act 1.

I have no words finishing episode 3 except by the gods that was powerful. Or maybe I should say “powderful”.

I did not expect that at all. So she’s turned on her sister then. Silco will condition and corrupt her in her rage and resentment because of what happened between him and his brother, Vander. Feeding the belly of the beast within. Constantly grooming and twisting her inside out until she becomes the monster that she wanted to defeat along with her heroine of a sister.

Wow. Now that’s a sister story worth telling. My guess is that Powder is going to fashion herself a whole new persona. One that derives from the derogatory nickname that she was given by Milo and Clanger and now Vi - which would have hurt the most, of course.

Jinx.

It’s sibling rivalry all around then, isn’t it?

On to Act 2, I’m absolutely loving what I’ve seen so far.