#Tw syscourse adjacent

[mewos-laptop]

"Ugh, all these DID fakers using up all of us REAL system's resources !!!!"

Dude what fucking resources, Simply Plural ??????

[aceclipse]

still wild to me how majority of systems i meet and know have factives, yet factives themselves seem to be much less talked about and/or respected simply because they involve real people.

[strwwberry-ame]

call me ame-chan, i'm a mixed origin and multimedia fictive, going by male/neutral/neoprns. i often sign anons with "streaming angel", except when i don't. paraphile 🌼+🗣️💬💔.

ids -

trans - amoral/ agefluid🌱 / jirai / sh0ta / harmed / permadigital/online / 🇫🇷 / hateful / stalked / worshipper cis - bipolar1 / plural / angel / 🇧🇷/latine tris - bpd + vampire + time

>> asks and dms at all times (specially for hate) <<

no - contact stance / syscourse stance / dni radqueer pervert + self/proshipper anti harassment (except for me harass me as much you want/srs)

tags

#; ‟ angel streaming ⹂ ; - regular posts #; rb - you'll never guess this one #:pos - positivity or /pos #; ‟ reading comments time ! ⹂ ; - aswering asks #; ; ; hatemail - hate asks (pls send them to me antis pls interact/hj) #;; brzzlian angel ;; - speaking my native tongue #; « f×llen ×ngel » - nsft adjacent posts (mostly me horny) #<<\ ssh angel //>> - sh ajacent content, mostly as tw, i'll not use as much probbaly

[mxboxlocks]

hi there! my name is Box, or Wynslow, and i'm a fanartist! a little about me: i'm 22, audhd, engaged, and part of a system of 11 others! i'm a mixed race hispanic/white enby and i love to sing and draw :3 i've also got a sailor mouth so be warned i guess lol

my main fandoms are don't starve, friday night funkin', team fortress 2, sonic/exes and minecraft, but i tend to branch out a bit sometimes! my hyperfixes change around sometimes and last a long time, so i encourage you not to follow if you're looking for one thing in particular.

i'm also a selfshipper!! my main f/os are Wilson (DST), Barnaby (BBU), and Skye (ACNH), but i don't care about sharing ^_^

if you decide to stick around, i hope you enjoy your stay! if not, thanks for stopping by!

GENERAL LINKS: MY SHOP | COMMISSIONS | CARRD DAILY WILSON | AO3 | INSTA ARCHIVE

ART: PROJECT LIBRARY

OTHER: DAILY CLICKS | LIST OF VETTED FUNDRAISERS

DO NOT INTERACT: (pro)endo and adjacent, syscourse, proship/comship/darkship etc, shipcourse, discourse in general, anti-self ship/self insert, nsfw (i keep it separate), zionists, narc abuse believers, sexual petre/agere, dead dove do not eat, excessive gore, racists bigots transphobes etc etc

WARNINGS: i may post/reblog suggestive things/jokes from time to time as i am an adult, please block the tags #suggestive, #tw suggestive, and #cw suggestive if you don't want to see these!

i am also occasionally pretty dry in text. this doesn't mean i resent you or anything /gen, if i don't use tone tags or emoticons with you on here, it's safe to assume i'm being neutral and genuine! if i forget one, please ask and i'll clarify ^_^

. . . RELATED TAGS:

[sapphic-horror]

SÉVERIN — HY / GORE — 20

a horror beyond your understanding <3

intro !!

my main pronouns are hy / gore but the full list can be found here; mutuals are welcome to use he / she; nh terms preferred! i'm a butch xenic transmasc sapphillean aro lesboy girlboy; i use more than just these terms but these identities are all very important to me i love horror in general, stardew valley, minecraft, analog horror/args, biology, forensic science, bones, & many other things

ask game here! (link)

byi !!

i use slurs i can reclaim positively, including other historic terms containing slurs. all reclaimed slurs will be tagged as '[letter] slur/word' or '[letter] slur/word reclaimed'. queer will not be tagged as a slur, DO NOT tag my posts as 'q slur' (you may tag them as other terms, just not as a slur)

i tag other triggers as '[trigger] tw' or '[content] cw'

i am autistic, have cluster b pds (borderline/antisocial), c-ptsd, did, & some other things i am not comfortable listing; i experience paranoia, dissociative amnesia, & low empathy— no pref. for singular or plural terms, DO NOT call us sysmates or headmates, i use i/we interchangeabley

disabled, chronic pain, & photosensitive— most flags should be eyestrain friendly but i make no guarantees; if something needs to be tagged as eyestrain lmk!

i id as alterhuman/non-human; i use nh terms as a way to cope with trauma & dehumanization

this isn't a syscourse blog, i reblog posts from both pro-endo & anti-endo blogs, DO NOT ASK ME MY OPINION ON SYSCOURSE

dni !!

basic dni criteria

terfs EXPLICITLY get blocked on sight

zionists, including neutrals

uncritical about the media you enjoy. especially if it includes bigoted elements or was made by bigots

anti good faith labels; anti xenos or neos

demonize cluster b disorders (including npd & aspd), use the term 'narc abuse' (or similar terms), demonize people who experience psychosis, demonize people with osddid, or other heavily stigmatized disorders

anti-anti or proshipper

radqueer/post-radqueer/xenosatanist

pro/complex/neutral-contract harmful paraphilias (pedophilia, zoophilia, necrophilia, etc.)

heavy religious blogs (christian); personal comfort

i will. . .

good faith identities (lesboy, gaygirl, gaybian, etc.)

alt/new versions of flags

themed flags

extremely specific terms

xin (x-in-nature) terms

neurogenders

alterhuman/otherkin/therian/transspecies flags

terms relating to gore, horror, the undead, cannibalism, etc.

might do reclaimed transx/transid terms (i.e., transautistic meaning a trans person who's autistic) or harmless transids/adjacent terms (like transvoice)

if it's not on here, ask!

i won't. . .

tranx/transid terms (non-reclaimed)

nsfw/18+ or paraphilia terms

non-traumagenic terms

terms relating to slurs i don't/can't reclaim

flags for disorders I don't have or am public about having

flags exclusive to cultures I'm not apart of

some religious terms

theme flags based on/of real people

extremely bright/neon flags (i.e., extreme eyestrain)

ANYONE (REGARDLESS OF IF YOU'RE ON MY DNI OR NOT) MAY USE MY FLAGS!

PLEASE CREDIT ME SOMEWHERE IF YOU USE MY FLAGS (VIA LINK, ALT TEXT, ETC.)

[canis-constellate]

heglo. this is our plurality blog. we are a polyfragmented mediple spiritual gateway hivemind that has DID. our pronouns are it/its, hy/hym, and ze/hir exclusively (unless specified on an individual basis). we prefer being called plural, a collective, constellate, or hivemind instead of system. we use headmates, drones, or stars instead of alter or parts, and actively dislike the latter two.

[IDs in alt text]

collective identities (both ones that we're looking for coining posts of and that we've already found) our DID & polyfragmentation our origins & functioning other blogs

note: we went through OEA/RAMCOA as a young child. feel free to ask general questions, but we won't respond to anything asking about specific programs or experiences we may or may not have gone through. we have two separate programmed layers: Softspace and Dreadwood. Dreadwood is sometimes referred to as the Dark Forest. we'll talk about them sometimes, and occasionally, their respective "leaders" (and adjacent) will speak.

outside of the plurality stuff: we're intersex; we're physically disabled + a mobility aid user; we're autistic, ADHD, ASPD, NPD, AvPD, and schizophrenic. we're physically & outwardly a werecaniform and genetically/biologically a pacific white-sided dolphin. we are bodily a young adult.

[IDs in alt text]

"block on sight" list: - anti-endos and those willing to be friends with or regularly interact with them, shove off - fakeclaimer AND/OR think people faking plurality is a legitimate, significant issue. this includes "i believe [endos] are plural, i just think they don't remember their trauma" and any variant.

"but what about those people who faked being RAMCOA systems?" that was one singular occasion. a bad one, yes, but one occasion. accusing them of faking did not help anyone. least of all other RAMCOA systems. shitty people will be shitty people; this does not mean that faking is a major problem or that fakeclaiming will do any kind of good for anyone.

- "if you believe in thought crimes--in ANY fashion--shove off" [note: this means we're proship/profiction. follow your own DNI; self-identified antis get blocked on sight]. - if you're exclusionary in any way. - "systemhopping isn't real/is just introjecting another system's headmates"/"spiritual systems are actually psychological and in denial/dissociated from it". eat our fucking teeth. - if you're anti-RAMCOA systems. - if you believe in "narcissistic abuse" (or similar; eg "borderline abuse", "sociopathic abuse"/"antisocial abuse", "histrionic abuse", etc). get the fuck out. - if you are against literal physical nonhumanity.

Note: We reserve the right to block people who don't necessarily fall into this list. (If you find yourself on this list and interacting but don't get blocked, it's probably because we already blocked you on our main after seeing your posts elsewhere.)

#original post - original posts made by us

#[name].txt - posts by specific headmates who are making it known that it's from them specifically

#reblog - reblogged posts #self reblog - posts made by us that we're reblogging #id hoard - for (plural) terms that we identify with #off-topic - posts not about us being plural

#on Wolf - posts (whether original or reblogged) related specifically to Wolf #on Yhine - posts (whether original or reblogged) about Yhine and how it works/how we fit into the mix #silly goofies - fun, good things that happen within us that we'd like to share #syscourse - syscourse. sometimes also tagged #tw syscourse, although that tag is usually (note: emphasis on usually; this is not a hard and fast rule) used for posts where syscourse is talked about, but is not inviting discourse. most of our syscourse-y posts are vents of some kind, consider them accordingly; however, feel free to reblog them if they resonate with you/you otherwise agree with them.

we only make syscourse posts regarding things we personally experience; as such, do not expect us to change our minds about our own experiences (especially regarding spiritual functioning), or else prepare to be severely disappointed and also blocked.

#asks - all asks #ambiguous mail - we're very bad at tone, this is for asks who we can't tell if they're intended as hate #hate mail - hate asks (probably won't post many, if any of these unless we're proving a point) #ask games - both reblogged posts for the ask games and asks for those games!

#vent - vent posts #werebeastliness - anything regarding us being a physical werebeast (note: will not ever be tagged as unreality; it is, at the very least, real for us, and tagging it as unreality would be reality checking if not just entirely false. if this makes you uncomfortable, block the tag or block us) #queerness - anything regarding our queerness #other neurodivergencies - anything about our other neurodivergencies #physdis - anything about our physical disabilities

#intro post - this post #blog upkeep - blog upkeep

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tag list subject to change

[antiradqueer]

TW: Trans/Nazi mention

Tbh. As a "neutralqueer" (neutral or anti on most issues due to a lack of self control over opinions but generally complex transid- not openly), FUCK HYPOHARMFULS AND PRO-CS WITH A BURNING PASSION!!!

Like, the point of transharmful is that you don't transition into them. Because they're harmful! There's less harmful ways to alleviate dysphoria without becoming AN ACTUAL FUCKING NAZI HOLY FUCK!?!?!!?

And the point of acknowledging paraphilias and accepting them is BECAUSE THEY'RE DEMONIZED AND ALWAYS SEEN AS PRO-C!!! I support consent and careful, explicit planning with all parties for gray areas. BUT IF THEY CAN'T CONSENT??? FUCK NO! NO, KIDS CAN'T CONSENT, NON-SENTIENT ANIMALS CAN'T CONSENT, CORPSES CANNOT CONSENT, PEOPLE WHO LITERALLY DON'T CONSENT CAN'T CONSENT!

Sorry, just, really pissed off. I can't publicly live my stances or I'll lose everything (I deserve to tbh) but it's hard to not criticize this shit!

(P.S, Non-Disordered transplural is fucking stupid, and nobody can force entire communities to be "transid" or "radqueer" or adjacent, either. Single individuals don't get to control terms and how they are used.)

I... am not sure if you are a radqueer or not?? /genq safequeer sounds like it's under the umbrella, but I'm not sure. if it is, I strongly advice to reevaluate if you truly want to be in the community. because like you said, you are strongly against hypoharmful and pro-c. but the problem is, the radqueer community IN ITSELF and the movement IN ITSELF supports both, no matter what you personally say. I've seen multiple posts state that the coiner of radqueer explicitely said that radqueer is a pro-c term (or at least not anti-c). THAT'S the problem! saying you are against pro-c but still being radqueer is like saying, I don't know, "yeah, I'm racist but I don't think anyone should be killed for their race, in my opinion that's too much. beating someone up is where I draw the line" - it doesn't work like that, because the racist "movement", in lack of a better word, is INHERENTLY not against killing people because of their skin color. if you truly want to be against hypoharmful and pro-c, you have to stop supporting the radqueer community now. because as long as you support the movement, you support pro-c fuckers.

if you are not radqueer, ignore the paragraph above lmao - but the point stands regardless of that.

alsooooo I don't get what you mean at the end exactly, with "non-disordere transplural is fucking stupid"? I think all transids are fucking stupid* BUT if you feel like you have to "transition" into being plural, the only way that is possible AT ALL is by becoming a non-disordered system. period. [don't start syscourse here, that's not my intention either, I'm just saying that if becoming a system is possible, then it is by becoming a non-disordered one]

(*there are exceptions, like the original meanings of transrace, transage, etc. and some are more harmful than others of course, but still.)

[garalina2000]

Hey, just to broadcast our official system opinion on syscourse (we're all kind of divided on the issue, but this is the consensus we have come to) :

We'd rather not have endogenic blogs following us. I don't think we've seen any good evidence supporting systems being formed by things other than trauma (if anyone has evidence, feel free to share! I love learning new information, thinking critically and changing my mind), but even if endogenic systems could be proven to be real systems beyond a shadow of a doubt, we still wouldn't want endo interaction due to how much our trauma impacts every facet of our existence as a system, and how we would therefore rather have a community solely of people who are working on healing themselves and coping with an extreme form of PTSD than share those spaces with people who claim to be born with a fractured consciousness or willed one into existence. Those are just two groups who have different needs from their communities.

As for OSDDID supporters of endogenic systems, all opinions are welcome here, even ones we disagree with. If you take issue with any of what I posted, feel free to hop into our inbox and let us know*! I'm always open to friendly debate. Please be civil. No calling anti-endogenics t*****scum or s**med. The same goes in reverse, though, too! Anti friends, let's not treat pro-endo systems badly. If we see anyone not being civil, we will delete your comment/ask.

* - this also goes for anti-endos! If you took issue with anything I posted above, don't be shy! Please hop in our inbox and inform us!!

Xoxo,

Sophie and Elaine

[navelgazed]

How are you sure you‘re endo? /Gen

Oh lol! I'm not lmao I'm quoigenic, but nobody cares because if you're not traumagenic you're an endo

My opinion on our origins: could be trauma, could not be trauma, but due to my adhd and bad memory and propensity for mistaking dreams and insisted stories as memories there is literally no way to tell for certain. Like, I could swear I had a memory and when I brought it up, i was told it happened before I was born. I have something I thought was a memory that never happened and very little to no actual memories that feel like memories before the age of six. Most of it just feels like dreams. And frankly, I'm not super interested in trying to figure it out, because it would literally just stress me out more trying to figure out what's real and what's something I dreamt or imagined or got told happened so much I imagined it. It's not actually interfering with my life.

And like, AFAIK my system first 'happened' in 2011, involuntarily. We have theories about stuff that may have happened before that, but like. We have no way of confirming any of it due to the above. And I don't think it would enrich my life to know?

Right now, what's most important is how we're functioning, how we can help one another live our life now, how to heal from the trauma we know about--as far as I can tell, nobody really connects to trauma except maybe my repressed southern Baptist upbringing, but everyone else is just kind of There. And like I said, I don't know if they're even connected or if I made up that connection after the fact and I'm not that interested in figuring it out.

I mean, what would it help? I know about my trauma and I've been in therapy for ten years and on antidepressants. I am so much better now just being out of my parent's house. I'm not interested and I don't care to lose myself in trauma speculation when I feel more normal and mentally functional than I have basically ever. Low bar to clear, but hey.

Anyway sorry you probably didn't need this much information but like *shrug* thought I might as well put it out there

[ablednt]

Actually helpful advice for the kids on this hellsite

Once again tired of "don't make a carrd or tell people your triggers" posts going around literally telling kids it's Dangerous to set boundaries. So here's what I've learned in my teen years on how to stay safe in the hellscape that's the internet.

Identity

You don't have to link all your social media together but you can if you want to. Don't give out something that is more private (like discord account, Skype or zoom account, facebook, Snapchat etc.) publicly or to people who aren't familiar with yet though.

Use a nickname rather than your real name or birth name, an account and name change may unfortunately be necessary so if you want to keep a name safe or use it irl then don't attach it to public social media. This can be fun though! Go apeshit coming up with different aliases and names! Call yourself lizard if you want to!

The only thing you absolutely need to put somewhere on your account (or carrd) is that you're a minor. You don't have to give the exact age but I promise this is important because even if there's plenty of context clues that you're a minor if you don't indicate this somewhere clear and adults start treating you like shit you need to be able to point out that they're knowingly doing this to a minor. That has saved me from gross bullshit a lot. Yes, people should default to treating people who's ages they don't know as a minor to play it safe but the majority of people assume everyone is the same age as them so you need to make it clear you're not an adult.

Pronouns don't make you identifiable and anyone who acts like putting your pronouns in your bio is unsafe is probably transphobic lmao. You don't have to if you don't want to (and don't mind people not using/knowing your pronouns) but it's safe to put them there most of the time. (The only exception I can think of is if you're closeted and your parents may find your account but in that case you should probably stay closeted online to unless you feel safe/know they aren't likely to find your account.)

You don't have to list every privilege you have and you probably shouldn't but if you're white you probably should indicate this somewhere. This is to hold yourself accountable because yes even teenagers can be racist and underaged people of color also deserve to feel safe. If you're nonwhite and don't feel safe doing so you don't have to list your race or ethnicity.

If you're part of a system/plural or questioning you do NOT have to say your systems origins, if you have DID/OSDD, or list your headmates/alters. The system community has a lot of people in it (and singlets adjacent to parts of the community due to bullshit discourse groups welcoming them) who will target underaged systems to fakeclaim them or harass them etc. I suggest having everyone use aliases/nicknames on a system account and you only tell your origin to people you feel comfortable around and safe with. Your safety and privacy is more important than your trendy system carrd goals I promise!

You shouldn't really just list any disorders you have but it really does no harm to put marginalized identities you're proud of on a carrd or in your bio. You might get a shitty anon or two but I promise people aren't going to dox you if you say you're autistic on your carrd or something.

I personally wouldn't list any special interests that are particularly recognizable (popular media should be ok but more niche stuff may not be) or publicly share a kin list just because you never know if you'll want to switch up your identity online to feel safe and the more things are clearly tied to your current nickname and handle the harder it will be to do this. However if you feel safe doing so it's not the end of the world. Just be careful about it and don't feel pressured to give more info than you're comfortable giving.

You do NOT need to tell people your trauma in order to tell them your triggers. If you need something tagged with a tw you really should indicate this somewhere so people know to tag it (unless you intend to send every you're mutuals with an anon with what to tag which is also an option but may be difficult) but you shouldn't tell them your trauma or medical history to justify it. Your boundaries aren't up for debate and you have nothing to prove. You should only talk about your trauma if you feel safe doing so (and even then please don't give identifiable details like.names of people involved or specifics as that can cause serious problems.)

Boundaries & etiquette

DNIs are good! BYFs are good! Anyone who tells you that they're not good or useful is absolutely trying to disrespect your and other people's boundaries. You can and should make a DNI and list the people you don't want to interact with. (Generally it's better to say groups rather than specific people or names because it's easier to again not be recognized if you need to change accounts/aliases but you can do this if you have strong reasoning and absolutely have to to feel safe.)

DNIs (and also.trigger lists) don't have to all be bad things! You can put fandoms that make you uncomfortable, things that trigger you but aren't bad inherently, etc. on these lists. They're about helping you feel safe not having the hottest takes or being the most morally correct.

Some people you should put in your DNIs as a minor are proshippers/anti-antis and MAPs. Both of these groups have been proven time and time again to groom minors online so the earlier you get away from them the better.

Once you have your DNI please do be aggressive in reinforcing it! Block people who break your DNI, tell people who complain about your DNI to fuck off! Do not tolerate people trying to debate the boundaries You have set this is your corner of the internet to feel safe! They can go somewhere else! Being blocked by a kid on the internet is not the emotional blow abusers act like it is. You're not mean for having boundaries please internalize this and stand up for yourself!

If other people have a DNI you need to check that before following them this is for both your own safety and theirs. If you're unsure what something on someone's DNI means ask around to find out before following just in case.

Do NOT get involved in discourse! This doesn't mean you can't ever take part in or boost serious things. Discussing/calling out bigotry (racism, ableism, transphobia, etc.) isn't discourse. Sometimes callout posts for legitimately harmful people is necessary so that's not automatically bad. But I'm taking about the shit that's #discourse. Stay out of ace discourse. Stay away from syscourse. Don't debate with terfs or transmeds or shitty people. I know it seems like it'd be cathartic to win debates with shitty people, I know there's people who will try to bait you into the latest argument over which lgbt+ identities can say what slurs or whatever the fuck the pointless bad faith argument is, and I know you want to prove that your marginalized identity doesn't make you a bad person like bigots say it does. But as someone who's mental health was absolutely destroyed by discourse as a teen it's not worth it. By all means discuss issues as they arise, broaden your perspectives and horizons, etc. but don't engage knowingly in discourse it will save you so much trouble in the long run.

Try to avoid talking to adults 1x1 if you can avoid it! It's okay to dm with an adult you feel safe talking to sometimes and while it's certainly okay not to interact with adults at all if you don't feel.comfortable it's generally okay to do so. But if an adult is going out of their way to consistently talk to you in private needlessly that can be a red flag. If an adult tries to insinuate that they're the only adult around you can trust that's DEFINITELY a red flag. Basically talk to people in places you can easily involve others if needs be. If someone sends you a dm that makes you uncomfortable screenshot it in case you need to show someone etc.

Don't discuss NSFW things with adults, in spaces adults have easy access to (for example a discord server open to all ages), or even with other underaged people who haven't indicated they're comfortable with it. There's nothing inherently wrong with being aware of nsfw stuff or experiencing sexual attraction as a teenager but it's very important that you don't put yourself in situations that may be unsafe for you or others. Most good discord servers have rules against this for this exact reason. Now, to make it abundantly clear, if you did or do ever say something nsfw and an adult takes advantage of this or responds in a way that makes you uncomfortable this is NOT your fault! The responsibility falls on adults to act appropriately but it's still a good idea to keep youeself out of harms way.

That's basically it on a general level. Once again, posts telling you not to make DNIs or carrds or trigger lists (all used to set clear boundaries) are very suspect and either grossly misunderstand how these things work or are intentionally demonizing them in order to have more opportunity it excuse to do harm. Setting clear boundaries is good. Doing things that help you feel safe and respected is good. Just don't go and get involved in discourse or give out personal information or anything.

[mewos-laptop]

Like I'm not exaggerating when I say that I didn't seek help for or look into having a dissasociative disorder for YEARS because of the VIOLENT fakeclaiming of systems especially in this community.

Seeing the shit about "system/did fakers" from a vocal minority within mental illness communities and safe spaces made me feel guilty and awful for even QUESTIONING that I could be a system or have a dissasociative disorder. It made me feel guilty for having symptoms of SOMEONE WHO REPRESSED THEIR SYSTEMHOOD/TRAUMA (wishing I was a system, relating to systems, wishing I was more traumatized so I could BE a system, etc).

I guess just... believe folks when they say they're experiencing something. The amount of actual 'fakers' is ASTRONOMICALLY LOW, and a lot of the folks that you thought were "faking" were probably just wrong about being a system and realized it after a while. Being wrong about something doesn't mean you're faking, it just means you made a mistake.

Fakeclaiming has done irreparable damage to the mental health of the people in our community, a community of folks who are supposedly trying to destigmatize and comfort those with mental illness, and yes this includes fakeclaiming systems.

[disobedientskin]

possible TWs// fakeclaiming, system medicalization and syscourse? im not trying to fakeclaim or assert any sort of opinion i just tend to come across wrong!! im only asking questions but i know my phrasing may be poor

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so i'm trying to understand endogenic systems but i'm not good at it, especially given i thought i was a system in the past and i'm now almost certain it was symptomatic of psychosis. i've mostly seen medical information about systems and only one explanation of endogenic systems so im just sorta lost but im looking to learn 👍

basically my question is,, how do you know if you're a system if it's Median or endogenic or things like that? is that an entirely separate disorder or not a disorder at all? would it be adjacent to tulpamancy? and if i worded any of this poorly feel free to let me know about that, i don't wanna be disrespectful i just very much want to understand as much as i can and im havin trouble

thank you endogenic systems and those who are knowledgable abt them i appreciate u all :]

[mewos-laptop]

I rlly don't enjoy being separated from the CDD community just bc I'm not an exclusionist and support endos, actually

The idea that I'm somehow less of a system/disordered than other CDDs is rlly disheartening and rlly ableist, and it doesn't feel good to know that such a vocal minority of my community doesn't support me and doesn't want me in my OWN COMMUNITY because of my stance on my fellow plural folks

I genuinely love being able to connect with non disordered folks, and I feel safe in endo spaces, but I wish I felt safe in CDD spaces as well

[mewos-laptop]

Tired of seeing content abt plural suffering flood so many conversations around plurality

We're lucky enough to follow folks who usually aren't doomerposting when it comes to their plurality, but every once in a while we'll see smth from outside our circle that's rlly upsetting, and tbh it makes us feel like so many ppl who claim to "love" plural folks really just want our sob stories, and to hear abt how we hate being plural, and how we wish we were "normal," but that's just not true for so many of us, and I'm frustrated that that's all so many singlets (or hell, even plurals themselves) seem to care abt

And the thing is, I KNOW that so many folks in the plural community DESPERATELY NEED to see positive content, and love to see it, bc our posts spreading that positivity (when we tag them), end up getting a lot of notes !! It's just hard to see that sometimes when there's so little positive content outside of sarcastic "haha headmates, am I right ?" posts, sometimes even from plurals who actually DO hate being plural

I want to be able to celebrate what we have as a collection of people, and I want others to be able to do the same. Plurality and systemhood isn't a death sentence, and it shouldn't feel like one, nor be portrayed as one

[mewos-laptop]

We're consistently pissed the fuck off at the lack of research that's been done on dissociative disorders in general, bc like. Is this not something you'd kinda wanna look into ???? Is this not kind of something that's actually pretty prevalent and would therefore be important to know about ????

Just. It's so upsetting to see, esp since the lack of research has allowed so many folks online to spread HORRIBLE misinformation about the disorders, and has made it so that way fake claiming is so fucking common, and it pisses us off to see because WE KNOW SO MANY FOLKS, OURSELVES INCLUDED, WHO HAVE EXPERIENCED MULTIPLICITY FOR YEARS BEFORE ALLOWING THEMSELVES TO EVEN *CONSIDER* USING THE LABEL OF 'PLURAL/SYSTEM' BECAUSE OF THE RAMPANT MISINFORMATION AND FAKECLAIMIMG FROM THESE FUCKING ONLINE COMMUNITIES.

But yeah let's all pretend that we know everything about this extremely complicated collection of disorders, that's a GREAT course of action.

Wow, I sure do love when there's like,,, two actual academic/scientific resources on UDD, and the only things they ever say are "yeah it's like, just a placeholder diagnosis so we aren't going to list any of the possible symptoms" that's so great 😁😁😁😁😁😁 /sarcastic

[mewos-laptop]

Hihi, how are you all? :> /nf, curious

We're doing okay today, we're starting to research on P-DID (hopefully) and we found out Peridot is front repulsed! Explains why she only fronts for certain things.

I still haven't figured out if I'm Vanny (kind of forgot) and I realized we may have a headmate who's Susie Campbell but we're unsure if she's a new headmate, went dormant a bit ago, is an existing headmate, or is just very inactive.

- Yellow Pearl

We're doing okay !!! Going to a Halloween party later :3

Oooff, we wish you luck !!! We swear, all dissociative disorders have such shitty research on them, we could hardly find anything about OSDD, and found nothing abt UDD when we were doing our research. Rlly it's made us think a lot abt the arguments folks have abt the "validity" of other's plurality, bc truly we know hardly anything abt dissasociative disorders as a whole. The mind works in such strange ways, and we honestly don't think there'll ever be a concrete answer for what as a whole causes folks to split off headmates, bc truly when undergoing stress and trauma, your brain is in damage control mode, and will do anything to keep you as mentally intact as possible.

Anyways, just our tangent abt smth we've been thinking abt since being recognized by our therapist, esp since we don't know our own origins, and honestly don't think we experienced consistent and constant enough trauma as a child to have that separation of self that folks researching DID especially talk abt. It's just made us think a lot abt origins and if the ways that headmates form that psychiatrists can find an explanation for are really the only ways to form Little Guys In Your Brain Who Keep You Safe.

Two massive tangents aside, we feel that so hard lmao. It's difficult for us to tell who exactly is who at times, esp since we don't have great communication between each other, and mostly gather information on each other based on what emotions we can feel from each other.