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The Career Clarity Quest: A Workbook for Finding Your Purpose-Driven Path
The Whispers of Discontent: Are You Listening?
Have you ever found yourself staring out the window, perhaps during a particularly dull meeting, and feeling a faint, almost imperceptible ache in your chest? It’s not a physical pain, but a subtle yearning, a whisper of a question: "Is this it?" For years, I’ve heard this question echoed in the hushed tones of countless individuals sitting across from me, their eyes reflecting a quiet desperation. They've climbed the corporate ladder, secured impressive titles, and amassed considerable achievements, yet a pervasive sense of emptiness persists. This isn't just a common sentiment; it’s the profound realization that external markers of success often fail to quench the deeper human thirst for meaning.

The Career Clarity Quest: A Workbook for Finding Your Purpose-Driven Path - Interactive Exercises and Self-Reflection Prompts to Identify Your Passions, Align Your Work with Your Values, and Design a Fulfilling Career: BUY EBOOK CLICK HARE
My own journey into guiding others through career transitions wasn't born from an academic pursuit, but from a very real, very personal experience of that same ache. I had a "successful" career by all conventional measures—a stable job, good pay, and a clear path forward. Yet, each morning felt less like an opportunity and more like a sentence. The work, while intellectually stimulating at times, left my spirit untouched. It was a disconnect, a quiet hum of dissatisfaction that grew louder with each passing year. This internal dissonance finally propelled me on my own "clarity quest." I immersed myself in self-reflection, devoured every book on purpose and fulfillment I could find, and eventually, pivoted my entire professional life to help others navigate this very terrain. What I discovered, and what I now share, is that true career fulfillment isn't about fitting into a pre-defined mold; it's about excavating your authentic self and building a path that truly serves your unique purpose. It's about turning those whispers of discontent into a powerful call to action.
Beyond the Job Description: Unearthing Your True North
The traditional approach to career planning often starts with the external: what jobs are available, what skills are in demand, what pays well. While these factors are important, they often miss the vital internal compass that points us towards genuine fulfillment. I’ve learned that a truly purpose-driven path begins not with a job description, but with a profound understanding of your intrinsic self. What truly motivates you? What problems do you feel compelled to solve? What values are non-negotiable for your sense of well-being?
Consider Sarah, a brilliant marketing executive I worked with. On paper, she had it all: a high-profile role, a fantastic team, and a salary that afforded her a comfortable lifestyle. Yet, she felt drained, uninspired. Through our work together, we uncovered that one of her core values was "community impact." Her current role, while successful, offered little opportunity to directly contribute to her community in a way that resonated with her. The disconnect was stark. It wasn't about changing her entire industry, but about finding a way to integrate her value of community impact into her work. This led her to transition to a marketing role within a non-profit organization focused on local youth development. Same skills, similar industry, but a vastly different experience of work—one now infused with deep meaning and purpose.
This is the essence of understanding your "true north." It’s about moving beyond superficial desires and diving into the core of what makes you tick. It’s asking yourself:
What activities genuinely energize me, even when they’re challenging?
What causes or issues stir my soul and make me want to act?
What kind of legacy do I want to leave, however big or small?
The answers to these questions aren’t found in a LinkedIn search; they’re discovered through deep self-reflection and a willingness to be honest with yourself. This internal excavation is the bedrock of building a career that feels less like work and more like a profound expression of who you are.
The Career Clarity Quest: A Workbook for Finding Your Purpose-Driven Path - Interactive Exercises and Self-Reflection Prompts to Identify Your Passions, Align Your Work with Your Values, and Design a Fulfilling Career: BUY EBOOK CLICK HARE
The Power of Practical Exploration: Interactive Exercises for Clarity
Thinking about your purpose is one thing; actively discovering it is another. My experience has shown me that true clarity isn't granted; it's forged through active engagement and structured introspection. This is why a "workbook" approach, with its interactive exercises and self-reflection prompts, is so incredibly powerful. It transforms abstract ideas into tangible insights.
Let me share a glimpse into the kind of practical work that yields profound results:
Exercise: The "Flow State" Chronicle
One of the most illuminating exercises I guide clients through is the "Flow State" Chronicle. It’s based on the concept of "flow," where you are so completely immersed in an activity that time seems to disappear, and you feel utterly energized and alive.
Prompt: Over the next week, pay close attention to moments when you feel a deep sense of engagement, enjoyment, and effortless concentration. These don't have to be work-related; they can be hobbies, conversations, or even mundane tasks.
Action: For each instance of "flow," jot down:
What exactly were you doing?
What specific skills were you using?
What emotions were you experiencing?
Why do you think this activity generated a "flow state" for you?
As you compile this chronicle, you’ll start to see patterns emerge. You might discover that you consistently enter flow when problem-solving complex puzzles, or when engaging in creative expression, or when helping others learn and grow. These patterns are not random; they are powerful indicators of your innate strengths, your natural inclinations, and the types of activities that truly ignite your passion. For example, one client realized she consistently entered flow when organizing chaotic information and presenting it clearly. This seemingly simple insight eventually led her to a fulfilling career in data visualization, a path she’d never considered before. This exercise moves beyond mere likes and dislikes, tapping into the core activities that bring you a profound sense of purpose and vitality.
From Insight to Intentional Design: Crafting Your Path Forward
Discovering your passions and values is a monumental step, but it’s just the beginning. The next crucial phase is to translate those insights into actionable strategies for designing a fulfilling career. It’s about bridging the gap between who you are and what you do. Many people get stuck here, overwhelmed by the perceived chasm between their current reality and their desired future. But with intentional design, that chasm becomes a series of navigable steps.
This process isn't about radical, overnight shifts. Sometimes, it involves strategic adjustments within your current role—negotiating for projects that align with your newfound purpose, or seeking out opportunities to utilize your "flow state" skills. Other times, it might involve a more significant pivot. The key is to approach this with clarity and a plan. We’ll work on identifying the skills you need to develop, the knowledge gaps you need to fill, and the experiences that will build your confidence and credibility. It might involve taking online courses, volunteering, or even simply engaging in more informational interviews to learn about different industries and roles.
Ultimately, the "Career Clarity Quest" is an invitation. It’s an invitation to stop settling for a life that feels "good enough" and start building a life that truly resonates with your deepest desires. It's an opportunity to transform those subtle whispers of discontent into a powerful, unwavering sense of purpose. The path requires courage, honesty, and a willingness to explore, but the destination—a fulfilling, purpose-driven career—is immeasurably rewarding. Are you ready to embark on your quest?
The Career Clarity Quest: A Workbook for Finding Your Purpose-Driven Path - Interactive Exercises and Self-Reflection Prompts to Identify Your Passions, Align Your Work with Your Values, and Design a Fulfilling Career: BUY EBOOK CLICK HARE
#Career Clarity#Purpose-Driven Path#Self-Reflection#Interactive Exercises#Passions#Values Alignment#Fulfilling Career#Career Transformation#Self-Discovery#Career Coaching#Personal Growth#Work-Life Alignment#Intentional Design#Skill Identification#Meaningful Work#Career Workbook#Professional Fulfillment#Strengths Identification#Life Purpose#Career Navigation
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ignore my 82648837 different art styles i change brushes a lot. What’s up i missed him so bad Check tags for rambling and stuff
#ten.art.txt#trsmp#trsmp fanart#trsmp pangi#pangi fanart#pangi#the realm#the realm fanart#the realm smp#the realm smp fanart#if anyone cares i think trpangis outfits and what he wears aligns w his emotions#i think as he got more and more corrupted#and u see this with the keepers cloak legit in canon#he beomes more covered w more layers#and darker tones#but as he starts to enjoy life right before the memory loss#he goes brighter tones more color less layers freer clothing etc#lots of green for honey badgers#i think trlspangi had a good middle ground.. covered for protection and still freer clothing for movement#anddd now cured trpangi… Happy and loving life once more Hopefully#ALSOOO as much as they said that he’s fully healed and the corrupted skin is gone or whatever#there is no way this stuff doesn’t leave some lasting effects#so i think there’s some light scarring and discoloration#and that eye was like. Gone dude. gonezo so. def light sensitive#some blurry vision yknow the works#will lead to him wearing his glasses more#<- delusion person who thinks abt when pangi wears glasses too much
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The feminine way to success is to align yourself to your goals and work patiently towards them.
There's no need to hustle constantly and tirelessly or work extra hard.
Everything happens in Divine Timing.
#feminine energy#work like a woman#feminine#women#black femininity#femininity#black women#feminine journey#divine feminine#soft black women#soft life#work easy#divine timing#hustle#align#align yourself#patience#trust god#trust the universe#manifest#loa
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#tv: buffy the vampire slayer#btvsedit#buffy summers#cordelia chase#great scene#i like that you can tell cordelia does feel there's real value in what buffy does as the slayer#there's validation to be found in it#but for buffy it's so complicated#it's not something she chose#it's something that was forced on her#something that has traumatized her in many ways#that she has killed and died for#and that has in many ways stripped and replaced her identity#does it have value?#yes#is it good and necessary work?#of course#but it costs her so much#of course she wants something that she earned#something that proves her value and existence in some other way#some way more closely aligned with the life she wants#and the life that was taken from her when she became the slayer#character: buffy summers#character: cordelia chase#things i made
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what kind of hobbies does machete have, and is there any artist, musical or visual, that he likes in particular?
He's an avid reader and has an impressive personal library. Crowds and big public events aren't his thing but he enjoys going to theatre and opera occasionally. He commissions and collects art, I'd like to believe he's a patron to at least a couple of painters and sculptors. If I had to pick one artist to be his favorite, I think it might be an obvious choice but I'd have to go with Caravaggio, a contemporary of his.





#look at that chiaroscuro#moody dramatic violent religious Caravaggio#I'm not sure if Machete would be able to afford his services he was already lauded and in high demand in his lifetime#but it's fiction let me believe#fun fact he's one of those famous painters that are frequently speculated to have been gay#he showed up painted some of the most influential works in european art history lived a turbulent life murdered a guy and died young#I keep being bummed about the fact that I can't make Machete a Bernini fanboy#Bernini fits his vibes#but he's very likely already dead by the time Bernini's career kicks off their timelines don't align very well at all#answered#anonymous#Machete
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my favorite mulder moments from s6
doing his best to analyze the fragments of the x files left after the fire in episode 1, because he will never give up on anything he sets his mind to
veeeeery carefully handing the mystery beast’s claw to scully for analysis ("is that an animal?" "ain't rupaul")
accidentally traveling through a time warp in episode 3 and attempting to convince the ww2 soldiers that the war is actually over, then giggling at his own luck in tracing down the missing ship (NERD! nerd)
then finding ww2 era scully and being so confused as to why she doesn’t know him because… that’s scully!!! who knows him better than anyone in the world!
being trapped in the body of someone else in episode 4, and when he sees the photo of that guy’s wife and kids, he sadly whispers “scully” (and then when his “wife” slaps him awake, he AGAIN mumbles “scully”... yeah, she really is your family, huh?)
trying so hard to convince scully it’s really him trapped in someone else’s body: “your mother’s name is margaret, your brother’s name is bill jr. he’s in the navy and he HATES me” and the desperation in his voice when she still doesn't believe him :(
episode 5: “hey scully? i, uh, know it’s not your normal life, but thanks for coming out there with me” (there will always be bonus points for emotional communication and then even MORE bonus points for his reaction to discovering the waterbed right after. i'd frame it if i could)
maurice roasting him in episode 6 for being “prone to obsessive compulsiveness, workaholism, antisocialism- fertile fields for the descent into total wacko breakdown” <- get his ass
“you know why you think you’ve seen the things you do?” “because… i have seen them?” <- the SASS in that delivery! oh my!
finding the case file that spender shredded up in episode 7 and taping it together so he could investigate himself… lmao, that’s a man that gets results!
and then his great strategy for getting answers on that case being to annoy a demon until something happens... and it works <3
his reaction in episode 8 to scully being referred to as “the missus”; he mouths “oh!” and fidgets a bit, looking both terrible awkward and pleased, haha
and who can forget the iconic “i do not GAZE at scully”? surely not i!
finding skinner sick in his office late at night in episode 9- claiming he's just saying hello, then asking him if he’ll be okay, turning off all of the lights so he felt more comfortable, and angling a desk lamp so scully could inspect him
getting very jealous when scully gets assigned to the case of the mysterious death photographer in episode 10 without him: “i’m thinking murder by telekinesis. i’m thinking maybe a shamanistic death touch. i’m thinking about the muslim superstition that to photograph someone is to steal their soul” (and his righteous fury at the idea of them being separated 🙁)
being nosy throughout the whole episode because somehow he ended up with the files from kersh’s computer and calling her for frequent updates (and using a silly voice to say “we used to sit next to each other at the FBI” to make her smile while she's super annoyed with terrible agent ritter)
hunting through the FBI archives at 9 am to track down information for scully’s case, and when he learns that she is in danger and not picking up her phone, immediately calling trash agent ritter to go check in on her
when said trash partner SHOOTS and nearly KILLS scully, he goes to visit her in the hospital a week later, and corners him, saying only that he is a lucky man. you KNOW he wanted to get violent. amazing self-restraint on him!
grabbing scully’s hand in her hospital bed and smiling, telling her the doctor said her recovery is amazing- she’s still so sad, and he says “death only looks for you once you seek its opposite”
gym mulder in episodes 11 and 12... the basketball... yeah ❤️
trying to be kind in episode 13 and it immediately backfiring in that cringe-inducing fashion that only he is capable of achieving: “stay there, mrs. suarez. we're going to make sure your baby makes it safely into the world” “well, thank you, but i’m not in labor. and my name is not suarez, it’s villareal. he tells people i’m his wife. like he’s so macho”
the wind-up chattering teeth on the desk in episode 14 <3
how wildly excited he was to play house in episode 15- “hey, oooh wait a minute, you didn’t let me carry you over the threshold”
and then taunting all of the neighbors with his stupid basketball hoop, LMAOOO
in episode 16, he knows off the top of his head how many years ago the wanshang dhole went extinct
rare communication w for mulder in episode 17 when they get into their usual spat about his theory not being scientifically possible and he decides to instead focus them on what they both agree on: the need to find june
opening up about how important baseball is to him in episode 19: “it’s like the numbers talk to me, they comfort me, they tell me that even though lots of things can change, some things do remain the same. it’s-" "boring?” (pouty mulder face as scully teases him)
AND his recitation to arthur dales of how many home runs mickey mantle hit with each hand
chatting with arthur dales and telling on himself when it comes to his feelings: “do you believe that love can make a man shapeshift?” “i guess… women change men all the time” “i’m not talking about women” (they then share hot dogs, pizza, and chinese takeout)
AND paying that little boy to help him surprise scully with the baseball date- sharing something that is both personal to him and plain fun with her
scully asks him what more he hopes to find in episode 22, and he answers “my sister” 💔 because that is still at the heart of every single action he does after all of this time… no matter which way the plot veers, who the bad guys of the week are, or where life leads him, it's always about samantha and that guilt he harbors over her
#the last one hurts. OUCH! sorry. it was a very good moment though.#also btw guys i am not a mulder hater lmao. look at the blog title.#you can't fault me for being weirded tf out by his sudden change in character this season since i have never seen the show before!#he goes from extreme lover to extreme hater and i can't pin down exactly why yet. because it hasn't been revealed. that's how plots work.#as much as i love this show and blog i do have a job and a life and other hobbies and will not engage in discourse.#regardless of his sometimes odd behavior this season he had a lot of really great moments too and i can't wait to see what happens next <3#i want more time of him queening out with arthur dales. get all the arthurs in one room. and add him.#he is deep down a lover boy and a loser (affectionate) and a man of Ancient Guilt which are traits i LOVE in a character#also i would pay real money to chat extinct animals with him. our interests align.#(cut to that fic i'll never finish where i make him geek out over the heath hen) yeah... <3#fox mulder#the x files#txf
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Well, I've experienced some pretty rough weeks of bad news in my life, but this one's certainly up there. (Nothing health or family-related.) If anyone's inclined to say something nice or kind about my existence making the world a tiny bit better, I would be rather grateful.
#not trek#all the stars have been aligning this year toward me getting my dream job#like in the you will never have a better chance at this variety#like in the there are fewer positions in this field than there are fingers on one hand#like I was already filling in doing the job#and I. I did not get it#so that’s just. it#I have a good job don’t get me wrong#but the election and then losing the thing I’ve worked my whole life towards in less than a week#it just. it just kind of gets you down you know#anyway.#might delete later
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happy 4/13 have my hot takes /silly
#me’s stuff :]#ShadowVanilla#Classpect#413#shadow milk cookie#pure vanilla cookie#cookie run kingdom#shadmil's classpect here is more solid for me#pureval's simply depicted here for the sake of it#like any filthy homestuck I have some opinions on classpect#but I'm still working on making them solid enough to the point I can buckle down on a character's alignment on the classpect spectrum#with enough analysis. mostly of vibes#mage/life for pureval is more a placeholder until I can give him something I feel more solid on for him
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never volunteer for anything university related man. also go listen to this
#first i thought oh it would just be this one poster. why not. i can do that. i have time. so i did#they told me the general aesthetic and no further details so i thought‚ oh‚ okay‚ so i can basically freestyle this. yknow‚ like an idiot#they told me to change the color scheme‚ the font‚ the color of the font too‚ pretty much redo the entire poster#and these are notes i would be getting late at night. like around 12-2am. i had to revise that poster a shitload of times and was#tired. and then i was done and i thought Welp! at least that's over!#little did i know they were actually planning for me to do MORE WORK: design diplomas/certificates and make one for all the people needed#So here i am 12 diplomas‚ 24 certificates‚ 31 letter of thanks later#all done in one person. all done in two days (deadline was until the end of the week but i couldnt start until at least thursday)#I couldnt start because they sent me the wrong list of people first. so i had to cram(heh) a lot. of hours of work in these past 2 days#Yknow at least they liked my design the first time and i didnt have to revise anything. but ohhhh the fucking. filling out the papers for#each person. absolutely daunting. especially in something like ibispaint x that doesnt have an option to align text to the center#of the canvas. which is more my fault because i am an ibispaint x user. but anyway#They sent me the correct official document. it had incomplete information because they just didnt write patronymics or grades in the#official document. so i had to go and check the first table and figure out everyone's information myself#but the thing is that‚ that table must've been written by the students/participants because stuff like Name Of University wasn't consistent#some literally wrote their school's names wrong and i had to double-check that and fix that for the certificates. fine. whatever#but remember the official document? now imagine it even MORE incomplete because there is a list of at least 10 people and just their#SURNAMES AND INITIALS. so like a digital archeologist i had to go and dig up the names and patronymics of teachers and students i've never#heard of in my fucking life. i had to ask my older friends like Hey is there any chance you know the patronymic of your groupmate thanks???#and the cherry on top. is that the Official Document has a bunch of grammatical errors in it. the most fucking basic ones.#'анастасие' instead of 'анастасии'‚ 'преподователь' instead of 'преподаватель'#so i had to look out for those TOO‚ While Tired (i almost copied the mistakes because all of my work required referencing the doc#but they couldnt even write a fucking grammatically correct or consistent doc so that's nice)#anyways i sent all 67 files and my supervisor said she will look over them 'during the evening'#I dont know what her fucking definition of evening is considering it's already 6pm. i guess i expect to be messaged at 2am once more to fix#some inconsequential bullshit#let's just say i am just a liiiiiittle bit . just sliiightly . burnt out#Call me a vessel the way im full of void but also completely hollow#alas . at least there is fanmade threat music to listen to on loop#crammerposting
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Antibody skin is finally gettin used lmfao 💛☣💚
#könig#call of duty#feelin like that raising arizona quote " I LOVE HEUM SO MU-U-U-UCHH😭😭😭'' yeah thats the one#finally broke free from the absolute pussy grip that desidia skin had on me bc this skin just works perfectly with zombies#plus ive always thought hazmat suits were cool as all fuck all my life but it was always so far out of my orbit of ''things i could draw''#so the planets have aligned and i am Finally granted the power to draw one HA#literally so glad konig is also The Hazmat Suit Guy as if i couldnt love him enuf ⚰#konig#call of duty modern warfare 3#cod mw3#cod#zombies#cod zombies#hazmat#gas mask#konig mw2#konig cod#my art#fanart
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i know i use radfem as a shorthand for the gyns on here who Believe those Beliefs but i think radical feminism is something one does, not an identity, and i think part of our collective problem is that we're all still submerged in the deep fryer that is identity politics
#i don't think of myself as a feminist bc i don't do feminist action#i do... feminist INactions lol. not shaving. not wearing makeup. not growing my hair out. not dating men.#i try to prioritize women in my life and creatively#but to me feminism is activism#i think we need to get back to talking abt feminist ACTIONS over feminist identity#and then ppl maybe wouldn't take it so hard hearing ''this is not a feminist action'' vs hearing ''you are not a feminist''#should you try to align your life with your beliefs? of course#but also doing non-feminist things is not necessarily cancelling out every feminist thing you do lol it just doesn't work like that
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Quick piece of @luluyamofficial 's character Lucelia + a 30 second speedpaint!
#my art#digital art#gift art#artists on tumblr#i hope you dont mind being mentioned!#stretches#anyway theres something that clicks in me with these characters#It feels tricky to describe#Because these characters are so personal and symbolic to the artist and I've only recently begun looking into them#I cant claim to fully know and understand them#I feel some sort of odd way saying something like that#but I do love is seeing this way of expression through characters that align in ways that are similar to how I operate with my own#These stories and characters crafted to be reflective of the artist's life and experiences and self perception#I love to see these little pieces- the glimpses of understanding for whats being conveyed#I love understanding and there are things I believe I do understand in some ways as they pertain to mental health and the relationship#to the self#but Understanding is secondary to enjoying seeing the expression of lived experience#coughs#anywhey. i hope you like the piece!#I've been turning these guys around in my head for a few days and have felt compelled to show appreciation for what I see#the general genre and type of work isnt what I've found myself drawn to in the past so ive been enjoying the Brain Expansion#bugs#roaches#cockroaches
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not me moodboarding tryna figure out what smart casual means to me (guy, gay, extra) after my new supervisor confirmed that's the dress code at the office
#moodboarding#men's fashion#smart casual#so far we're making good progress#cause it aligns with my existing style well enough#but holy heck most of the straight man targeted ones are just like the ugliest shit you've ever seen#tryna crystalise what *doesn't* look ugly and go from there#new job starts monday I am excited and still irrationally terrified but also I've got even more confirmation meanwhile that it's good vibes#I sent supervisor a buncha questions/stuff i needed to make sure to tell him#and his answers were very reassuring re trans and mental health stuff notably#as well as like his general attitude & worth he puts on like learning and work life balance
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finally got to see that promo image w them all laying in the grass together. i haavent searched like super hard but i have looked around for it a little before and couldnt find it. its so cute. why is pomni sleeping face down im obsessed with her . why is she doing that. shes so weird i think im in love
#'i think' is of course incorrect because i know i am#i sent a close friend of mine a msg a While ago distraught bc i realized i have feelings for this weird jester#also the rest of them are so cute in the picture too 🥺im sad they got woken up. im surprised jax joined#(im constantly intrigued by jax' willingness to join in on group activities actually. i dont think he hates the others actually#hes a dick to them and he doesnt like them but i dont think he minds being around them as much as they mind being around him)#i need to go to sleep im up bc i keep going ohh ill work more on art. but im too tired for that#im just thinking about pomni sleeping in weird positions bc its a hc i already had and like#obv this img is like. they put her face down to be funny#but i am going to interpret this as 'she would actually choose to sleep face down bc shes just... like that'#which aligns w my previously held notion that she cannot sleep in a normal position to save her life#also shes laying face down . on grass. wtf#shes so....#circus discussion
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Honestly I think my corp V 'coincidentally' looking a lot like Kerry for sinister gay reasons that only serves to cause messy gay problems would. Actually just make it harder for Johnny to admit he's catching feelings for him 💀
it brings up a lot of those repressed feelings Johnny had with Kerry back then, and I'm not even talking about the 'im not gay like that, ker' repression, I already have my own opinions on that always being the default for silverdyne (summed up to: Johnny being bi was nothing new to him considering he had been fucking around w dudes since the 00s, AND both men in the band, like he might've not worn a bi flag to pride but I don't think it was actually something he was THAT resistant to) I mean literal emotional repression, of him not being able to admit he cares this much about someone and being mad and angry and resentful of himself for it, to let someone get that close and under his skin, and the ways in which he acts out to push them away and punish them for it before pulling them back in. Like he might not want them to see under the thick veneer he's crafted of his image, but he also doesn't really want to give it up either, because beneath that veneer is that still very real, very deep desire for connection he evidently has. Something he has to confront before he ever lets himself have. Which I think would make the oil fields that little bit more impactful. Not only would he be there asking for V's trust while also saying 'trust me back', but he's also openly admitting to wanting this connection in a way. So later with Kerry's questline and the closure it's meant to represent for Kerry, Kerry not only realizing he wants something more out of this life then what he's settled for and been roped into, but also burying that silver armed hatchet, while there Johnny is throughout all this also finding his own closure in not only admitting he's starting to love V, but that he had loved Kerry too. At one point, and maybe still. A hatchet Kerry just buried and a hatchet Johnny was only now starting to dig up.
#time never aligns for them huh :(#whyyy did i do this to myself actually making myself upset over scenarios im making up in my head 💀💀#and this is WORSE considering my corp v's ending is gonna be the fevil ending#so johnny went thru ALLLLL this emotional growth of admitting he loves the two most important people in his life just for V to.#prioritize his own self preservation and basically just give Johnny back up to them#once a dog always a dog 💀#and oh man. would i feel that phone call up in space with kerry going a bit differently bc of this and the fact. v broke up their throulple#by sacrificing one of them to the same ppl that already really fucked Johnny up 💀#honestly. it being simultaneously silverdyne and silvervdyne would j make. a lot of this go over differently with johnny and kerry#(its also silverv of course but. thru the lense of silverdyne too if that makes sense idkdik)#can i get an amen for the worst most gd convoluted love triangle with arrows just flowing out every which way#scrawled out in crayon from the most emotionally repressed bastards that god has ever dared to conceive 🙏#silvervdyne#johnny silverhand#kerry eurodyne#vargas 💚#(maybe? still working on a name for him tbh)#cyberpunk 2077#silverdyne
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(dox me by my) local barometric pressure graph which is an identical graph to the three day headache that had me crying myself to sleep for two hours last night. with instant relief this morning after the winter precipitation passed. AND WE DIDNT EVEN GET ANY SNOW ABOUT ITTTTTTTTT. we got a piddly showing of ice. im so mad. im so mad.
#i do still want to cry bc combination of three day headache + water heater exploded + musty carpet smell all night + loud ass carpet fan +#WFH problems + didnt have an appetite yesterday bc period and musty carpet smell so i didnt eat + period fatigue + leg pain bc i didnt eat#+ looming specter of remaining laundry room cleanup + etc etc etc. i forgot where i was going. well i cant cry anymore today bc i finally#ate and i dont want to throw it up. fbhsfg these are all survivable levels of problems but i just. am tireddddddddddddddddd.#bro im so tired of doing my life solo..................................... i wish i had help............................ im so tired#and i didnt even get snow out of it 😭😭😭 all that was keeping me going this week was forecasted snow#oh wait also the other thing making me insane is my work hours align perfectly w daylight and all the recent weekends have been#overcast and rainy so i dont think ive really gotten a good minute of sunlight for. weeks#<- AND I DIDNT EVEN GET ANY SNOW OUT OF THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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