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âDon't you hate her?â
Furina turned, eyebrows raised in confusion. âHuh?â
âYour creator. Don't you hate her?â
The girl pondered a moment, looking unsure. âI..don't know.â
âYou should,â he asserted. âAll this time you had to suffer alone, for what?? People who didn't even care about the real you?? People who were ungrateful and selfish and only cared about themselves, at the end of the day??â
âNot everyone is like that,â Furina protested, shaking her head slowly. âI ..did suffer, but it all worked out in the end. Besides, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her-â
âThe same could be said for my mother,â Wanderer interrupted, eyes flashing. âI came into being because of her, but that doesn't make her a good person, or a good parent. She hurt me. These two facts can coexist. Focalors created you, yes, but she also subjected you to 500 years of suffering where you couldn't confide in ANYONE or risk losing everything. Wasn't that awful?? Wasn't it a horrible time? You were all alone living on a hope and a prayer, and if it went wrong, it would have been all for nothing. You were a means to an end, and what do you have to show for it? Sure, everybody was saved and all was well, but now you're just - a person, and people hate you for what you did, people hate you for what you DIDN'T do. Was it worth it?? Are you satisfied?â
âI am,â she nodded, after a beat. âBecause, this is what I was created to do. And, I'm free now. I don't know what I'm going to do, but at least my life is mine. I can do whatever I want. I can live.â Wanderer's jaw clenched, and Furina frowned, nervously. â..why are you so angry?â
âBecause SOMEONE has to be!â he shouted, voice cracking. âI mean- I heard about the trial, they were gonna kill you- they lured you there because you wouldn't talk, right? And then after everything, did anyone apologize to you or- praise you, for all the hell you went through? Anything??â
â.. Neuvillette is taking care of me.â
The pain on Wanderer's face was almost palpable, at that.
â..anything else?â
â.. it's fine," she tried to appease. "It's not like I serve any purpose anymore. Like I said, I did what I was created to, so I'm not of any use and-â
âStop.â
â..what?â
âSTOP- talking like that,â Wanderer snapped, eyes suspiciously glossy. She sounded so much like him, who he used to be, and it hurt so badly.
A blank sheet of paper has infinite potential, but it is nothing as long as it is empty, he'd said, a good while ago. He'd been wrong about himself, and Furina was wrong now.
âYou're not just - what you were made for. You don't - what happened to you is wrong. You're not DISPOSABLE now that everything is over.â
âIt- it was for everyone's sake, compared to my suffering, it's obvious what's more important! I had to save them! Itâs what I was born for! It doesn't matter -â
âIt DOES,â he yelled, eyes glowing an almost neon icy blue, and she startled. âStop acting like your suffering was something that was necessary. Stop acting like it was just for the greater good. That doesn't matter! The fact of the matter is that you suffered, and you were hurt, and you're STILL hurting! And- barely anybody is there for you..your creator, she should have been there for you, she should have protected you, but she didn't. She didn't. And you - you have every right to be angry with her, for not being there for you. For you being unable to live, until now. It was wrong, even if it was, as she claimed, for the greater good. Don't defend her.â
"She loved me-"
"And she left you, so not enough."
Just like my mother ..
â...Wanderer,â Furina ventured, worry all over her face.
âWhat?â
âYou're cryingâŚâ
..oh. He hadn't even noticed, but his cheeks WERE wet, and he put a hand to one with a start, quickly scrubbing at his face. âAh-â and he pulled his hat over his face, to hide it.
â..it was a lot. I often wondered when everything would end. I wanted, to tell someone so badly what was going on,â Furina admitted, and Wanderer looked up, eyes red from weeping. âThere were a lot of times I didn't think I was going to make it, but. But I did, and, and everything was okay.â
âBut are you?â
There was a long pause, and the two of them stared at each other until Furina slowly shook her head no, hot tears streaming down her cheeks.
âSee? You're - we're both so messed up, from everything, and no one was there,â Wanderer almost whispered, looking out the window. "No one was there to help. ..You're strong as hell, I'll give you that. If I was in your shoes, I don't know if I would have made it. It seems people are stronger than I've given them credit for..â
It was something that surprised him, again and again.
âI just don't understand why you care..â
â.. I don't know why I do,â he shrugged. âMaybe because you remind me of myself, and. It hurts, looking at you and feeling like I'm looking in the mirror. But someone has to be in your corner and -â
âAnd you want to do that?â
A pause.
â..Well, if you don't stand up for you, no telling who will.â
âYou don't have to cry over me. I'm -â
âIf you say you're not worth it, I am going to bodyslam you,â Wanderer growled, eyes flashing, and Furina put up her hands.
âI wasn't going to! I was going to say that I will be okay. Not now, but. Eventually. I'm healing. I promise. There's people who care, like you.â
Wanderer fell silent then, looking away, and she reached out and squeezed his hand. âThank you. I'm still wrestling with - with what I want to do and where I'll go but. It's nice to know that I'm valued just for existing.â
âThat's all you need to be valued,â he muttered, looking to the floor. âYou don't have to prove the worth of your existence. It's fine to just be.â
â..are you talking to yourself, or me?â
He looked to her then, expression unreadable, and she smiled sadly, in understanding. âBoth is good. It's okay to just be. We're here, and we'll be okay.â
âYeah,â Wanderer whispered, giving a shaky breath. â..we will."
#screaming crying#i will probably go back and clean this up later but i just wanted to get it out there and start yelling#i think wanderer would be so so angry about what happened to furina and it just. weighs heavy on his heart and he's like god. GOD!!!#his heart is way squishier than he would like to admit he's ready to square up so quickly and had it not been for focalors being dead#oh BABY he'd have Some Words For Her#genshin impact#wanderer#furina#please god i am going to explode i am thinking so hard im in pain#ue ue ue ue ue#loved but left behind.....#a means to an end..you feel me...#im dyin scoob
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(also feel free in the tags to clarify Why you made the choice you made!! :0c)
#polls#tumblr polls#For me I think the top ones would be the House. The Money. or the Friend Group. But I ultimately might would go for the house#JUST becuase it would be my Dream House which means it would already meet mostly all of my specifications#and what I might be looking for. which would save a lot of time searching or customizing/rennovating.#Also because I could use that as a way to leave the US lol.. like .. if I get to choose my dream location.. couldnt I just choose some othe#country?? But I wonder how that works. Can you legally 100% have full ownership of a property in a country yet not be a citizen of that#country?? Would you show up and be like 'erm.. i own this house.. so i shall now live in it' and theyd be like 'uh no. you cant live here#despite owning the house. leave.' ??#So I think the initial process of 1. scraping together funds to actually MOVE myself and my most valuable belongings physically#TO another country. and 2. figuring out how to STAY in that country . might end up being difficult.. BUT. if I could just work that#part of things out then.. dream house?? security for once in my life?? stability?? :0#Though the $1mil is enticing it's also like.. I feel .. with the way housing prices are now... that's not much???#it's a lot I guess if you plan on like.. investing half the money and staying in an apartment for 5 years while you grow your wealth#or something. but if you're a 'I Need Stability NOW' ready to settle down person who would be most interested in owning a property rather#than nice clothes or a car or whatever other investments you could make then.. eh..?? It seems like unless you're okay with living in#a small town or kind of far away from the city - even some SMALL houses in majorly populated areas in the US will be like#$600.000 - $900.000 or something. like that would be MOST of my money. Which I know you could just pay partially and make#payments on it but idk.. in the option of just outright owning the house it seems like it'd end up being cheaper.#Plus I would want to own it fully asap because I'd be afraid of losing it somehow otherwise. like it being taken for medical bills or#something. which I thought was supposed to be - not IMPOSSIBLE - slightly more complicated legally if you actually have#paid off the house in full. I guess the issue then would be utilities and property tax and such. But I feel like thats overcome-able??#Like I could just stipulate that my Dream House has a little furnished addition or something and then find someone#with money and be like 'Look you can live in this extremely nice area with amazing ameneties and updated everything and ALL you have#to do is give me money to cover the utilities and property tax.'' or something like that. Like the little furnished addition is nicer#than the actual house. they have their own pool and spa and movie room or something and Ill also cook all their meals for them#or whatever (how luxurious it would be depeneds on how high the property tax actually is/how much I would need to entice them into#why it's a good deal for them to pay it for me lol). idk... something like that.. ANYWAY#I asked a few people I know though and one of them answered they'd rather have a romantic partner. the other one said they'd like#to be able to choose someone to die lol.. So I'm curious what people value the most
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Finally now that the comic is fully public on comicfury, I get to share it with all of you here, too <3
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#I'd rather not clutter the caption so I'll ramble a little in the tags#HitW is short but special to me as it represents and encapsulates some hard life experiences I was going through at the time of its creatio#Ofc in a more metaphorical manner! but. I have been very much enjoying reading people's comments and speculation as its been posting#the interpretations are so meaningful and varied and i love that and really want to encourage anyone to reflect on what it means to them#for me making this comic was a way to process and move past trauma. i feel like it ends anti-climactically but i wanted to be true to#where i thought things were actually going in my life moreso than to veer towards impact. ultimately im glad i managed to finish it#and for it to finish going public right before the new year? maybe i can see this as shedding that old pain in time to become something new#so thank you for reading for supporting and for still being here. lets wake up to 2025 with wind in our sails#Home in the Woods#my art#my comics#original comic#cw guns#cw blood#cw body horror
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your design of me
#marcia#digital art#illustration#original art#yay its doneeee#oh garret#im sorry its always the same#its always about being a means to an end#and its doesnt matter if its a cold and calculating eye or a warm naive vision#they dont want you for you. they only want what you can do for them#and feeling needed and irreplaceable stopped feeling nice 3 lifetimes ago#all that is left are frustration and anger#dont you get it? dont you get it? the contours of what makes me me are not in the shape of your needs and wants#orion lavont#rosie lavont#garret#tcm#the clockmaster#oc#MARCIA CONTINUING HER MISSION TO SHIT COLOUR MAXIMALIST STYLE!#you know when youre trying something for the first time and youre like uh oh im having a feeling im not excellent at it from the get go#looowkey how im feeling#as you know ive been trying to incorporate more colours into my works#but i am yet to truly understand what im doing#i dont want to stumble into results with adjustment layers anymore#i wish to do things on purpose#I want to be in control! I want to make conscious choices!!!#anyway the purpose of these was to do something new and quirky#something other than faithful rendering#the most challenging part of this pic was probably all the papers. adjusting the perspective and all
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isabeau's confession at the end of ISAT is constantly living rent-free in my head it's so fucking good. right now i'm obsessed with the way he responds to siffrin saying "i love you too" because just. imagine you're siffrin and for so long now you've believed that you were horrible disgusting manipulative unloved and unworthy of love and yet. your best friend is telling you he loves you. and you feel that you love him too (in what way? the same way that he loves you? you're not quite sure yet, but stars, you feel like your heart is going to burst out of your chest, he means so much to you) so you tell him so.
and he responds by telling you he already knew that because he has eyes.
you're siffrin and you are kind passionate protective and so loved and full of love for your friends, your family, and yet you hate yourself so, so deeply that you don't see any of that but isabeau does. according to him it's written all over your face, apparently--the face you're always trying so hard to hide with your hat, which as the universe would have it, you don't have anymore!! and he sees you and he loves you and he knows you love him back, even after you said and did such horrible, cruel things to him and the rest of your family that you know they didn't deserve, after you almost broke the world trying to keep them by your side, somehow isa understands you and still loves every single part of you. and you love him, you love him, you love him because how could you not?
especially since he also got so excited when you told him you loved him that he shouted "CRAB YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" in your face.
#star.txt#in stars and time#isat#siffrin#isabeau#isafrin#<- i mean it doesn't HAVE to be but i do ship them. so.#i actually love that their relationship was left more up to interpretation with siffrin saying they need time to figure things out though#i think it would've felt wrong if they jumped into a romantic relationship immediately after All Of That#esp since as someone who's only played through the game once sif did come off as demiromantic/gray-aro/something along those lines to me#so imo a lot of his dialogue makes me think he already has romantic feelings for isa but it'll take him a bit to come to terms with that#and even that's just my own take. leaving it so open ended means if you want you can decide they DON'T love him romantically#and that's okay because their love for him as a friend is just as important and just as beautiful!#THIS IS NOT THE POINT OF THE POST THOUGH the point is that isabeau loves siffrin so much it makes me insane#their dynamic is so special to me... oh to be loved by someone as fully and unconditionally as sif is loved by isa...#and also isabeau is just so so so damn funny i'm never gonna get over the CRAB YEAH!!!!! thing#this has been in my drafts for a few days but i wrote most of it not even two (2) days after finishing the game. just btw.#ISAT may have done something to my brain chemistry#isat spoilers
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Did you think I was done? Ahahahaha no, I have more.
Because chapter 70 of MOMU gave me the very dynamic between them that I missed so much, I just blacked out and started drawing uncontrollably lmao
Also. ALSO. I noticed a while ago that Prowl has the habit of..likeâŚconstantly frowning. So. I did a bit of research and made this graph.
In 70 chapters, Prowl frowns rougly 104 times. And the intensity of this gesture is very clearly correlated with the development of his relationship with Jazz, as you can see ahahahahah It might be wrong tho donât take me seriously Iâm not good with graphs

#maccadam#transformers#prowl#jazz#jazzprowl#fic fanart#momu fanart#I just#mmmmm#For the whole fic Prowl had to think twice about everything Jazz says#every information could end up being wrong#sometimes even without Jazz realising it#so when Prowl says#heâs trusting Jazz. itâs.#also it totally wasnât me googling âbelieving and trusting nuance difference in englishâ#the moment I realised the difference I think my brain started rollercoaster loops#he canât believe him but he found enough faith to trust him#while. YES. For the whole story Jazz couldnât fucking be believed#list e n#Jazz did a lot of things for Prowl#fucktons of big and small gestures to show that yes he likes loves and appreciates Prowl#Iâm so happy Prowl is returning this energy#like#remember that scene a while back when Jazz kissed Prowl? Cool cool okay. Did Prowl kiss him? nope. It was one sided gestures#*gesture. That kiss didnât make me feel like itâs truly something precious because Jazz started it but Prowl didnât do quite the same#but thisđ. This feels so much more important for me. Because Prowl#who is for the whole story was mister I calculate every chance of possible betrayal. Prowl whos entire personality is to trust nobody#Prowl goes. Fuck that I trust you. You feel me?#it wouldnât be the same if he said I love you. Because love is very much something you donât have a lot of control over.#but to trust someone? Itâs a choice Prowl had to consciously make. You see what I mean? I love it. oh fuck I ran out of tags..
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the strength it must have taken for illario to not immediately go full 'lmao since when have you even had a kiss hello lucanis' sibling violence mode during the cafĂŠ talk. inspirational. rook and lucanis really were doing all that right in front of his salad huh
#lucanis is being SO cringe with that line right out there in public and I would die for him. it's just such a weird thing to say#tbf if anyone in the world is used to the insane things lucanis says and would go 'yes yes lucanis waxing poetic about coffee#in ways normal people reserve for trying to get in someone's pants (the roast won't fuck you lucanis)#we've all heard it' like it's all normal I suppose it would be illario. and also he's too busy with the 'shit fuck shit he's not dead#he's not dead of the family members 'supposed' to be dead we're at two definite failures out of two and woe me if the twain should meet#if that IS a demon in there it sure talks exactly in the same bizarre way only my cousin does#does that mean anything what the fuck do I do who do I kill about this' internal monologue I guess#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#illario dellamorte#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#I mean he does very much say that to a non-romancing rook too which only makes it all the more delightfully odd#is it a very lucaniscore way of testing the waters. is it just how he always talks about coffee. many plausible approaches here#no one forced him to bring up kisses and 'you should try it' out of the blue like that is all I'm saying. he could have acted normal#(theoretically)#i feel there are reasons to read some stuff into it lol#lucanis when rye says he prefers tea: it's so over cautious overture I don't quite understand myself yet gently rebuffed#lucanis when rye takes him up on the 'so what should a first kiss be' theme: oh we're so back!!!! wait. what. what do I do now#what is this#it's kind of really sweet that rook answers with their own playfully florid beverage based barely hidden metaphor at the end too#matching freaks and having fun with it#as far as lucanis is concerned rye's only true flaws are 1) prefers tea to coffee (oh well. no one can be perfect. cross-cultural love#can conquer all even in this) and 2) weird taste in interior design (did we really HAVE to bring your 15 foot tall corpse statues#with us home rook. I can understand a tasteful skull here and there but this seems excessive. well if it makes you happy I guess)
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yeah so this was insane
#i feel like too many people reduce this interaction to jason being like âlol sameâ#but idk :/#this chapter is from jasonâs pov#and leading up to it heâs like âpeople keep walking on eggshells around me bc of the the michael varus stab woundâ#and he hates it so when he goes on deck to help out with the storm#everyoneâs like wtf except for percy#and jason states how much he appreciated percy not treating him like a sick kid#and i feel like itâs echoed in this sentiment where jason could say so many things like#âyou should never feel that wayâ âim here if you need anythingâ#but he doesnât make percy feel alone in his desire to justâŚ. end it all#which ik for some people that doesnât work but youâre not a character in hoo and percy is dealing with so much guilt#and he canât tell annabeth bc sheâs a main aspect of that guilt#and he doesnât wanna guilt her more and he feels ashamed and when he describes this he feels weird for feeling it#so having jason this tough guy be like âyo i understand it bc i felt the same way#thatâs gotta mean a lot to percy#also insane how jason who also struggles to display vulnerability#allows it in one of few times in this moment just so percy this guy heâs supposed to be jealous about#feels comforted and not alone in his guilt and shame#and also itâs just insane how jasonâs wanting to kay em ess does not get talked about AT ALL#and just seeing his mom and the pressure of new rome getting to him#like this scene is insane and iâll never shut up about it#also ignore me iâm just finishing my reread of hoo that took all summer#jason grace#percy jackson#pjo#ashla.txt
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âDain is just an imperfect 21-year-old kid who trusted his dad, and is a little over-protective telling his chronically ill friend to sit the fuck down.â
#Rebecca Yarros#Dain Aetos#pro Dain Aetos#REBECCA SAID SO#The Empyrean#Onyx Storm#Fourth Wing#Iron Flame#Rebecca Yarros quotes#The Empyrean series#canât wait for Empyrean 4#look I get it I had my phase too#but by the end of IF Iâm just sad for him#OS was cruel to all#and re-reads are just painful#and yes I love him with Sloane#but I never hated him (I liked him in FW & wanted to LOVE him but it wasnât right in the pov lens at the time⌠heâs learning too & TRYING).#and IF he picks Violet & goes to kill Varrish. He leaves EVERYTHING for the right thing. Hell in OS he translated for the nightgown lmao.#and then you reread and I just feel for (well all of them) but him too#He got his slap the fandom had their feels as did Violet now letâs move on and see them as full characters; cause heâs a great one.#and now Iâm full pro Dain#As the interviewer said: âWe all have some Dain in us.â#And yes (being a chronically ill person) there are people we love that say âsit the fuck downâ and were like âstop it!â#but it doesnât mean we donât love them anymore.#â& yes he invaded her privacy but so did Xaden & yall donât seem to mind thatâ IS IT BECAUSE HEâS HOT?! Cause thatâs a double standard!â#Also lmao whoever said Dain wasnât hot; did you forget the almost friends to lovers hook? More importantly ENEMIES TO LOVERS#âGods donât I know itâ?! ⌠We sure the man isnât a dragon cause that line is fiređ¤Ł#the only thing he did wrong was invading her privacy (and yes on rereads that hurts) but it was his dad; he didnt know; he carries enough OK#I love Dain! Rebecca said she LOVES DAIN!! âI LOVE DAIN!â#this post better age well & not betray me
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Silver is finally here...he just took the title for the most beautiful card in TWST's history...
me five years ago: wow I really hope we get to see dragon Malleus someday! that'll be so nice and wonderful. I bet he's a big silly! :)
twst: :)
GOD. it occurred to me literally three hours before the anniversary stream that they might've been saving the reveal for then to just explode us all at once. this timing was EXTREMELY deliberate. thank you Twst. I can't even focus on all the Blazing Jewel stuff because Silver wielding the physical manifestation of his Complicated Dad Issues is busy eating my entire brain. and -- oh what's that? he duos with Lilia? I'M RUINED THANK YOU á( á )á
this is your warning that I'm going to be the most annoying person on the planet come Monday morning, thank you everybody and goodniiiiiiight
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers#i say this with every card but the groovy might actually murder me this time fellas#silver in his biodad's armor with his adopted dad's sword#on his way to fight his adopted brother who both dads tried to save but who's also the son of the woman his biodad killed#because due to extremely complicated circumstances this is the only way to actually save him#and also this is all a parallel to what happened 400 years ago except hopefully it'll go less horribly this time#and also sebek is there!#this really is the story of poor sebek's life isn't it (jk jk sebs you know i love you)#but now it is silver's time to SHINE (a stray beam of light hits silver's armor and my eyes fall out of my head)#i say it again: episode 7 is about two things and two things only#it's dads and significant hair moments all the way down#don't worry! i haven't even reached my final form of being annoying yet!#gosh. this was SO deliberately timed to the anniversary that it HAS to be the wrapup to the episode 7 plot. right?!#like i still think there might be an epilogue chapter or something with the dorm reruns (yes i am fixated on the dorm reruns)#but we're definitely going into 7 endgame here huh folks#genuinely feeling a little bittersweet there! we've spent literally over two years in the episode 7 gauntlet and now the end is in sight#oh media. you can't last forever but why you gotta end.#(malleus in the background: i can fix that } :) fae of --)#at least we have whatever cliffhanger they throw at us for episode 8 to look forward to!#can't wait for it to turn out that grim was raverne this whole time or something#also. just. love that mal's horns look fine in the blazing jewels art#i mean obviously if something happens they wouldn't just put an enormous spoiler on there. but the potential implications are hilarious#malleus having a great time in his little idol outfit like. the weekend before lilia goes 'guess i'll die! đ¤ˇââď¸'#ugggh and now i have to actually think about what pulls i'm gonna do. this is awful. how dare you do this to me twst
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âHow dare you use his faceâ
The Infinite Realms and the Faerie Lands are closely interlinked. Not quite identical, but overlapping and intermingling with each other far more than they do with the mundane world. The haunts of ghosts and the distant lands of Fantasy are all but indistinguishable to most outsiders.
The denizens, too, sometimes bear many similarities. It can be difficult to tell at a glance which category an entity falls underâespecially if theyâre a more liminal case.
So when Damian saw one such entity wearing the guise of his missing twin, he came to a reasonable but incorrect conclusion. One that made him very, very angry at the thing standing before him.
He assumed that he was seeing a Faerie that had stolen Danyalâs face and name.
#(btw when I said âliminalâ I meant the normal meaning of the word (âin-betweenâ) rather than the DP fanon version)#(âŚthough i guess that other meaning could kinda work too; someone in between ghosts and humans might resemble a human touched by the fae)#(which would then still work for what i mean)#anyway#the Faerie stuff in this is vaguely based on actual DC stuff from the comic miniseries âThe Books of Magicâ#though tbh you could probably ignore that fact pretty easily; this prompt doesnât go into much detail about stuff#and one comic issue is hardly a deep look into DCâs faerie lore so i may very well be missing info that was established elsewhere#dp x dc#dpxdc#dc x dp#dcxdp#danny phantom x dc#danny phantom x dc crossover#misunderstandings#misunderstandings (for angst/drama)#demon twins au#danny and damian are twins#danny and damian are brothers#danyal al ghul au#âŚhonestly the whole opening bit about haunts ended up feeling a bit pointless for the âmainâ part of the prompt#but it was too evocative an idea for me to just delete it so take it as fancy set dressing i guess
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sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go
#the locked tomb#harrowhark nonagesimus#john gaius#harrow the ninth#this is why I don't buy john as misunderstood and initially well-meaning AT ALL#this is a pattern you see with him again and again and again -- right down to his interpersonal relationships#(and indeed it's in the more grounded interpersonal relationships you can most clearly see him as he is I think#the fantasy death empire of a thousand years doesn't register quite as viscerally because it's like. heightened; not quite real#but the emotional violence and manipulation that surrounds him? oh boy that is EXTREMELY real and scarily well-observed)#there's a premeditation to so much of what he does (contracts with planets that only end 'in the event of the emperor's death' anyone?#yeah john we get it you're hilarious and I wish you weren't)#the greatest trick john ever pulled was making anyone think he's just a lil guy. what does he know he's only god#when you first read the book the complete callousness of the other adults is so horrible that john seems like an oasis of care#(though you start to get this uneasy feeling when that care never seems to translate to like... relief or soothing or resolution)#and it makes it feel almost obscene when you find out what's actually going on#it's the mercy & augustine enabler hour but at least they're completely honest in their cruelty there#while john is -- well he sure is being john huh#this is just me being angry with him btw philosophically I don't think this is how the story will or should end#(with john slam dunked right into hell that is)#it's just... harrow is so vulnerable. and what he does to her is so insidious and fucked up#john is very deeply human. unfortunately the capacity to quite simply suck so much is deeply human too
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request from @hanaybuns to translate these pages from i believe "Matsuno Family Dependents Gallery"? sorry i didnt know how to approach the typesetting for this lol
all the quotes the boys are saying are from s1 episodes (right -> left):
oso 1 2 3
karamatsu 1 2 3
choromatsu 1 2 3
ichimatsu 1 2 3 (warning: ichimatsu incident)
jyushimatsu 1 2 3
todomatsu 1 2 3
#osomatsu san#translation#thank you for the request <3#knowing the sources for most of these quotes almost immediately made me feel insane LOL#i will now list all of them out in the tags for anyone who doesnt feel like clicking the links/dont have access to the yt upload of ososan#oso 1: ep12 year end special at the very end#oso 2: ep14 'we caught a cold'#oso 3: ep1 'meloncholy of osomatsu' when he first sees ichi in the alleyway#kara 1: ep14 'we caught a cold#kara 2: ep23 'kerosene'#kara 3: ep10 during the intro fishing scene w oso#choro 1: ep19 'choromatsu rising' when he first walks into the room w beni#choro 2: also ep19#choro 3: ep10 'iyami and chibita rental girlfriend' when he first sees iyayo#ichi 1: ep5 'esper nyanko' defending himself to dekapan#ichi 2: ep16 'ichimatsu incident'#ichi 3: also ep16 when he fake confesses to oso#jyushi 1: ep9 'jyushimatsu falls in love' talking about kanojo to his brothres#jyushi 2: ep14 'we caught a cold'#jyushi 3: ep17 'jyushimatsu festival' during the jyushi and concepts bit#totty 1: ep19 'choromatsu rising'#totty 2: ep14 'we caught a cold'#totty 3: ep18 'iyami's counter attack' schmoozing the girls in his car#i stuck to the official localizations but it's clear these are meant to be read in a way where you insinuate that You are the subject#i.e. jyushi 1 is probably meant to be read like âYou laughed a lot!â#classic japanese subject through context = double meanings trick. c'est la vie
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huge ginormous fucking pet peeve of mine in hannigram fics is hannibal not liking will's dogs. FUCK OFF. i dare you to say to my face that hannibal could not bring himself to love anything and everything that will feels love or fondness for. anything that is touched by him or breathed by his voice. will is an extension of him and they are one in the same. his whole control obsession and ritualistic behaviors would not apply to will because his love for him both stems from and is exacerbated by his inability to control himself around him. he cannot keep up his routines and patterns with will, because his desire to be seen and understood overpowers his reason. he wouldn't care about being covered in dog hair or caked in mud or bleeding out if it was in will's namesake. will is his own personal god. he loves those fucking dogs so much, not because it comes natural to him, but because they are part of will, and therefore loved inherently
#i think he obviously has his own preferences#and i do think he would be a little... nitpicky and moody about things#in his own personal time#and mostly playfully#he'd get a little irked at something#and will would be like hey if you dont want to do this its okay btw. you dont have to#and he would stare at him and just . no will i do not mind anything so long as it is in your company#and will is flattered because holy shit hes not a burden for once#IDK WHATEVER FUCK YOU GUYS#he would never feel real contempt for anything will loves ever. EVER#and i really genuinely dont think he'd take pleasure in controlling will or his desires in any way#thats like. the whole point#loving will means giving up control#letting someone else in and letting them see him with no restraint#he takes IMMENSE pleasure in seeing will take his desires into his own hands#to act on his wants and be honest with himself#because he loves will. and because the closer will is to his real self the closer he is to hannibal's#im losing the plot#i hate fandom control freak dom manipulative hannibal#is he like that. most of the time#YES#BUT NOT WITH WILL THATS THE WHOLE POINT FALLS TO MY KNESS#IF HE WERE TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM FINALLY HE WOULD NOT DO THAT. BECXAUSE THE WHOLE REASON HE WAS WAS TO GET MEANS TO AN END#TO COERCE WILL INTO BEING HIS TRUE SELF AND ACCEPTING HIS OWN DARKNESS AND WITHIN THAT HANNIBALS#CAN ANYONE HEAR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#hannibal#hannigram#hannibal lecter#will graham#charlieog
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mildly entertaining pjo fandom curse (mostly in that you can make games out of it):
everybody draws Piper showing skin. half the time Shel as well. literally almost EVERYBODY. go look at Piper fanart. is she wearing a crop top? i bet she is. or if she's wearing a dress hers is gonna be one of the most revealing. bonus points if they gave her a belly button piercing. and it's almost always only Piper and/or Shel. i thought we had a whole discussion about sexualizing young indigenous girls back in like 2021 but i guess nobody processed that part cause pjo fandom acts like if they dont have Piper show her stomach or have her shirt ride up they'll die.
the curse is that you will never unsee this. have fun with that.
#pjo#riordanverse#piper mclean#my friend inflicted this curse onto me and now i must inflict it unto you#like obviously just drawing Piper wearing a croptop by itself is not egregious on it's own but its EVERYBODY *ONLY* draws her in a croptop#as like her default outfit. constantly.#and *ONLY* her. this is not done for any other characters - including other Aphrodite kids. Only Piper (and maybe Shel)#anyways this is what i have to deal with every time i look at piper fanart#its like same 4 things: crop top. bad skin tones and/or stereotyped nose. feathers. and/or beaded earrings#thats it thats all Piper fanart in a nutshell#(the last one like nine times out of ten ends up just feeling like exoticization)#(cause if pjo fandom doesnt have a visual indicator of her being native american or cant ''make her look 'more native''' they die or smth)#btw if you ever say the phrase ''make her look 'more native''' about Piper or Shel or etc i'll eat your kneecaps#saying those words gives me legal permission to hunt you for sport. btw. it also means you owe me 20 dollars.#anyways fun drinking game or etc: take a shot every time piper has a crop top or her shirt up somehow in fanart#warning: my friend and i played this game with water and we both finished like two full bottles of water in like an hour#its REALLY BAD#we literally have a game of every time we share piper fanart in the gc one of us will call out ''her stomach is showing'' and we all scream
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in the least âI want to argueâ way I find it realllyyy funny how people refuse to acknowledge that langdon was definitely santos on his first day of work.
there is no way you can tell me frank langdon, the guy who calls garcia edwina scissorhands, the guy who cherry picks his cases, the guy who said âdana can come back though canât she?â after hearing she got punched in the face, the guy who guy who couldnât sit still for a moment of silence despite probably having to do it on a regular basis, who isnât that Great on his bedside manners, the guy who is extremely confident and maybe even cocky in his abilitiesâŚTHAT guy wasnât absolutely hated on his first day as an intern.
like letâs be honest. One of the main differences between santos and langdon is that langdon has seniority. heâs been there for like what 4 years? he knows the ed staff. theyâve accepted his assholery as apart of him and know when to humble/shame him. theyâve stopped gaf abt his sarcasm like ages ago because itâs just turned into banter now. they definitely do side eye him (especially for that Dana comment) and he is still regarded as somewhat of a jerk. but dude is great at what he does and has been there so long that itâs almost like itâs just a side effect of who he is lol.
theyâre used to him now but trust on that first day? I just know they were annoyed asfk
heâs also extremely confident and does risky shit if it means he can save a patient. if you told me he did some risky procedure he had no business doing as an intern I would believe you.
But I guarantee you, give santos those 4 years and everyone would most likely regard her the same. a lot of people fail to understand that this is One day. Literally one day. She doesnât know these people nor do they know her. Sheâs made a bad impression but I believe by the end of the rotations or something long the lines of that sheâll have made friends with Javadi, Whittaker and Mel. Or at least one of them lol. Under all the meanness and ambition santos is really empathetic and trying. they all just have to get to know each other and apologies should be in place but itâs not like any one of them hate each other. Theyâll side eye her and call her a douche when she acts like one but thatâs called friendship baby! oh and mark my words those nicknames will eventually turn from derogatory to affectionate trust (plz pitt writers)
#the pitt#frank langdon#trinity santos#they are twin sisters#if you have a sister who is like Evil you know what im talking abt lol#i donât actually know if langdon called garcia Edward or edwina but im going with edwina#speculation or is it the truth đ¤#i just feel like langdon and collins had wicked beef on their first day of work assuming they were interns together#i feel this is a controversial take but nobody be mean to me if you disagree Iâll cry#also horrible grammar and usage of commas sorry if that bothers u lol#lost the plot and started talking abt santos at the end lol mb
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