#absolute emotionally devastation

[oswaldthatendswald]

do you ever think about how doflamingo never knew that law was in the treasure chest? do you ever think about how he never learned that roci's "i'm sorry i lied, i just didn't want you to hate me" WASN'T actually for him? do you think he ever thought about that, in the years afterwards? do you think it ever haunted him?

So, it's taken me a few days to answer this ask, and the reason for that is the same as my answer: every time I think about Doflamingo's reaction to Roci's apology, I get so emotional I have to lie down. Because, like--

You get your brother back. More than ten years, and you thought he was probably dead, but you get him back. He's the only blood relative you have left, and you're a Donquixote, so blood matters. Your brother is back and you fold him into your life, because you trust him. Of course you trust him: he's your brother.

Then suddenly, he leaves inexplicably to save a kid he's never even liked and whatever, okay, fine, but the problem is, the moment he leaves, the Navy stops being able to find you every time you dock. And he's your brother, but you're no fool. You can put two and two together. You shouldn't have trusted him. Then you get proof that he tried to pass on information about your plans to the Navy.

You have to kill him. He's your brother. He's a traitor. He has to die.

Even when you confront him, he's unrepentant. He stole your chance at immortality to save that kid. He's kept the kid from you. He says the kid is better off without you, that he'll be better than you, that you're monstrous. He's a Marine, he's a traitor, and he hates you.

Except in the middle of all of it-- he apologizes. Not for betraying you, but for lying about it. I just didn't want you to hate me, he says.

You kill him anyway.

But as you walk away, wouldn't you think about it? Wouldn't you wonder why he'd done it all, if he didn't want you to hate him?

Do you hate him?

You have to hate him. He was a traitor. You killed him, and if you don't hate him, then how can you live with killing him?

Wouldn't those words come back to you, in quiet moments? Every time you doubt yourself, wouldn't you think about the absurdity of it? It wouldn't make sense to you, that's the thing. A paradoxical apology in the middle of all that vitriol.

I'm sorry I lied. I just didn't want you to hate me.

You'd wonder, eventually, if your brother chose to live in the same lie he fed you. Maybe your brother imagined, between selling you out to the Navy and lying to your face, that he could really be part of your family. Maybe he lied to himself, too.

You're not the sort of person to doubt yourself. But maybe you'd wonder if you could have fixed it. Maybe you'd vaciliate between hating him, hating his lies, hating that you trusted him-- and wishing it hadn't come to this. If you'd held your fire, what could have happened?

You couldn't have, of course. He was a traitor. He had to die.

But before that, he was your brother.

Yeah, I think it'd be haunting. I don't think you'd ever get out from under that ghost of your own making.

[timey-fandom-stuff]

It's Siffrin time!

hands you a Siffrin. hands you a Siffrin. hands you a Siffrin. hands you a Siffrin. hands you a Siffrin. hands you a Siffrin. hands you

[flowerbloom-arts]

The thing about being a non-american Simpsons fan is that as the show does all its reference humor it basically acts as a springboard and reason to consume/learn about the media it references, but the funny thing is that in doing so your brain recontextualizes a good chunk of American pop culture as a Simpsons reference.

Like, I was vaguely aware of 1961 horror film directed by Alfred Hitchcock "Psycho" but I didn't watch it until I read Skinner's wiki which mentions that he's an awful lot like Psycho antagonist with mommy issues Norman Bates, and therefore I watched 1961 horror film directed by Alfred Hitchcock "Psycho" to get a better understanding of his character (and in turn his relationship with Agnes), but now the film, to me, is 1961 film where Seymour Skinner's mommy issues are based on "Psycho".

Today I walked past a carnival shooting game branded with 1990 Mafia Movie "Goodfellas" (yes, I'm in that part of Europe) and all I could think was "Wowie, like the thing Louie Simpsons is based on!"

It's so funny.

[lyxchen]

Oh also I BETTER see Hyun-ju in that fucking suit cause first of all I need her to survive and second of all she's gonna look so gorgeous and hot in it!!!!!!!

[bylerist]

i can’t wait for the in-show canon byler edit. i’m talking full flashback montage with romantic music when they finally get together.

one thing about the duffers is that they LOVE a flashback. it’s one of their favourite storytelling tools. and if byler becomes canon without the gut-wrenching retrospective to recontextualize their entire relationship to the audience?? to show us it was always there?? what was the point.

they need to hit us with crazy together. with “it was the best thing i’ve ever done”. with the painting. the van. the triple takes. all the quiet intimate moments... the looks, the lip stares… all of it (okay maybe not all of it that would take up a whole episode… wait that sounds kinda nice. yeah. all of it. lol)

we need it because there can’t be a shred of doubt left. there needs to be absolutely no room for debate. no “they did it for fanservice” no “this came out of nowhere”.

just pure, indisputable, emotional truth. it’s like the duffers said: the best twists are “how did i not see that? it was right in front of me”

[hangingslothcentral]

yo remember how in Twilight's second book, New Moon, Edward decides to disappear out of Bella's life 'for her safety' despite radically altering her perspective on the world and completely changing her basis for reality in a way which is totally unresolvable and which she'll never be able to share with anyone because who the fuck would believe her boring ass mormon af boyfriend was a vampire

yeah remember how before he left and completely dismantled Bella's perceptions not just of their relationship but of the literal world, he went through her photo album and removed every image of himself and his family from it

remember that?

fucked up as shit

[v-tired-queer]

I . . . just asked if the houseplants are okay 😅🤣

[thefriendoforatioisdead]

[in an overly theatrical voice] Oh no ! Please don't put the righteous character who's moral compass has always been unwavering and who's vision of right and wrong is as deeply part of her as her lungs in front of heart-wrenching moral dilema involving the two people she loves the most in the world on opposing sides with the threat of losing one of them forever no matter the solution she picks ! It would be so terrible if she had to reconsider everything she held for true and stable in the world and even question her own perception of herself in the face of a choice which has no right answer and will leave terrible scars on everybody involved either way ! [slams my fist against my chest and falls to my knees (dramatically)]

[agentbootyreportingforduty]

hawaii five-0 and the episode 10x07 specifically is evidence that we need to start letting some actors in the writers room more because baby who else knows their character better than THEM

[haemosexuality]

most of the time my sister is kind of just an abstract idea to me. she existed for 3 years when i was 7-through-10 and spent a lot of her time in hospitals 3 hours away. that plus the blocking of my childhood memories means i barely remember her as an actual, physical person or actual, physical time of my life.

my mom tho, she was a full adult in her 30s and the one that actually took care of my sister (my dad had to be the one working, taking care of a disabled chronically ill baby is extremely expensive). she stayed with her, alone in another city. she was there when she died (not in the room- i believe my sister was in surgery or something, i don't actually remember). my mom was the one that carried her and gave birth to her. i cant even begin imagine her grief. she lost her daughter 10 years ago and no one brings it up with her. i wish i was a better daughter. not just now but in the following years after the death, she was in a horrible place i was so difficult to raise. god i wish i could erase that feeling from her

[movementsofmylife]

god that episode was sad.

bison finally saw what fadel had been trying to protect him from all along. that the real world can be just as harsh as the insular hired killing world that they're living in. bison looks so sad and angry and will probably also feel guilty for not listening to fadel, for falling too hard. how do you learn to trust someone again when they not only betrayed you but changed how safe you find the world?

i think fadel is accepting the sadness, already resigned to losing another person he loves by his own hands. (i think regardless of whether he murdered his ex himself, which he could have, he probably got hurt because of fadel.)

bison is angry and sad, his emotions have an outward trajectory, someone to claw at and fight and process through. fadel just takes all of his feelings and pushes them into himself, turns it all into deep seated sadness and disappointment and resignation that will follow him for the rest of his life.

i know that they'll both end up with kant and style respectively, but i think they'll have to take a pretty treacherous path to get there.

and while bison will probably lash out and be more violent, i think fadel will be the one that is much harder to convince, much harder to earn back the trust of. fadel takes on the responsibility of protecting not just himself but his younger brother too. so there is more at stake for him when it comes to forgiving or letting style back in.

i'm looking forward to seeing how the show does this, and crying about it for the next 6 eps.

[moe-broey]

There js. A fucking Moe Event. But I don't knoooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwww

[vyeoh]

If my coach asked me if I've ever had lovers and then called me a virgin I'd leave the continent

[pod-bird]

Words cannot adequately describe how UNPREPARED I am for the Remnants season finale tomorrow

[menlove]

deep sigh. time to pop let it be on and hammer out this fic set during the let it be/get back sessions

[mcdennis]

ha ha hehe if any of you do ever get into tumblr rping please let me know bc i'd love to write with y'all. i write brad as well as the gang from sunny (minus frank sorry danny devito)