#and didnt think to change my pass

[raps-hellion]

it got me too

[corviiids]

i think ive been so enamoured with tragedy and unhappy endings recently because it's so common for us to take comfort in the idea that we're okay because we will be okay, you know, the whole "it'll be okay in the end and if it's not okay it's not the end" type thing, this desire to put our faith in things turning out eventually, and that's why people sometimes get upset if something doesn't have a happy ending that gives them closure. but i honestly think there's something equally or even more comforting in having to cope with the fact that in reality the happy ending can't always be counted on. in trying to accept that fact, you're sort of forced to find your comfort and meaning elsewhere, which is what tragedy is asking you to do. if you know a story is going to end badly, can you still invest in it? can you survive it for as long as you're asked to? because then you have to concede that the things that happen and the lessons you learn during the story still are meaningful and fulfilling even if they don't culminate. if the story is unfinished and the threads are loose and you don't get closure, can you still find a way to let this frustrating and unfinished experience mean something to you? you kind of have to. can you be okay with it if you aren't able to believe that things will be okay in the end? without looking forward, can you be okay right now

[robinson-graves]

[sits up suddenly from my coffin] anybody fuck with my super danganronpa 2 x guy who didnt like musicals au

[traaanskimkitsuragi]

ill be honest ive seen a lot of people criticize the romances in veilguard but i havent seen anywhere near as much criticism for the sex scenes which is baffling bc theyre just?? so bad???? i like some of them in a vacuum as individual scenes but the fact that they all take place at the same time because bioware Had to have a mandatory sex scene for every romance at the exact same point is so ass (not to mention that the timing is literally RIGHT after the unavoidable death of either harding or davrin like okay??? literally could not think of worse timing). like some of them just dont fit at all, bellaras is literally a confession scene that results in immediate sex (feels ooc for her but they dont even show anything that could lead to sex before the fade to black, so whats even the point?? again it just feels like they had a quota they were trying to stick to rather than making choices that fit the characters), and davrins just straight up does not work because by that point the climax of the relationship has already passed (and if youre going to put a sex scene during the climax of the story, then yes, it SHOULD serve as a climax for the relationship, pun not intended).

[snailfen]

due to fic writing im trying to wrap my head around what suitcase might think of/how she might treat mephone4 after enough time has passed post-canon and a lot of my trains of thought are boiling down to It's Complicated.

on one hand, suitcase has had it the worst out of many in the show, and she's had to learn when to not take other's shit in order to get by. mephone has also put her on the spot a few times ("judge her accordingly", "pick your favorite friend!") so i imagine she holds that against him. thats not even accounting for The Reveal and her berating mephone4 for the way she was made (whether or not she was made to have hallucinations from the beginning isn't exactly as clear as say, tissues always being sick, at least to me??? but she was undeniably made to struggle). mephone created her to suffer the way she has and i don't imagine she likes the guy all that much post-canon.

on the other hand, she's more sympathetic towards him compared to others. she recognizes the gemories as traumatic memories, attempts to extend her sympathy to him in truth or flare (of course, she gets turned down), and she recognizes when he might be afraid to face those memories, or even cobs. all of this is before the reveal, but still. after that, shes the first to support the idea that he'd better go. plus i think about this list of parallels between them quite a lot.

this is all just off the top of my head though. i think she ultimately recognizes that mephone is more troubled and thats whats caused a lot of her problems with him, but also its not necessarily her responsibility to be kinder to him because of that, or to forgive him. she still tries to offer him kindness though, because, as always she genuinely believes in being kind to others and not going through things alone. never give up on anyone, after all.

[telesodalite]

Been thinking about idw1's outliers lately, and how sort of wild the whole concept is from a worldbuilding standpoint, and it struck me that most confirmed outlier abilities tend to be really useful, or flashy, or powerfully dangerous, and few to none tend to be like, really boring, or totally impractical, or even entirely useless? Which, doesn't really make sense when considering the fact that outlier abilities are seemingly random.

Surely not everyone who's born an outlier gets something useful?

And I don't mean like, "good" useful, but any sort of useful, even if that means you can kill people with your voice, or give a power boost by exploding yourself, those are still "useful".

But surely there had to be some with abilities that were totally impractical, or nonbeneficial, or at the very least just insignificant or purely aesthetic and pointless?

[xxplastic-cubexx]

what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]

a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious

i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me

as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy

[frobby]

i love madoka magica however i dont think we as a fandom talk enough about how tragic madoka herself is. probably because the narrative itself steers you away from thinking about her personally. shes not a character shes a desire that homura has, shes a force of good, shes homura's foil. but those are all madoka's narrative roles but madoka herself as a person is not really looked at because we are viewing this world from an unreliable narrator(homura) who only sees madoka as those things. The best thing homura could have done for madoka was give up on her, to let her go. because every time we go back in time the image of madoka is distorted, she loses more of herself every regression of homura's as she tries harder and harder to save her. We don't even know what madoka originally wished for to become a magical girl in the original timeline. and she actually acts quite differently than the madoka we meet. shes a lot more honest and caring and bold. by the time homura's has reached the actual anime madoka has been reduced by the sands of time to a figment of herself. she has no wants or desires of her own beyond wanting to do good and help her friends and when all her humanity is stripped away is when she finally acends to godhood because thats all thats left of her. an ideal and a faith in her. madoka kaname died a long time ago and all that is left is her ghost.

[clumsypuppy]

Atla live action 😐

[jrueships]

guess whos not going in at all this week, actually

[kotoal1011]

she has the eyes of a wolf <3

[many-gay-magpies]

i think i have always benefited extremely from the fact that i was had by parents who decided explicitly that they wanted a child, not just because that was what they were expected to do by society but because they actually, specifically wanted to have a baby and raise it into another human being, and that they made this decision together at like 35 and raised me as a pair of well-established adults. which is why i will be holding onto my stance of not wanting kids for a VERY long time. i do not want to bring any human beings into the world or raise any under my care (through adoption or whatever) if my conviction in doing so is anything less than this.

[rapidhighway]

I want to make cookies tomorrow but will I be able to do that... some wet chocolate chip would be nice, I couldn't sleep last night I just kept looking at cookie and brownie recipes but I'm afraid I'll feel like shit and do nothing

[bell-swamp-fitzjames]

Started the audiobook Gender Euphoria by Laura Kate Dale, who also wrote one of my fav books I read last year that has helped me accept who I am, and sometimes it does blow my mind that technically I am so closeted bc also hasn't everyone clocked it yet. Like sure I'm giving my work the legal name and pronouns but I without thinking that one time confirmed my real name (like im a fairy) to my one superior at work and she was like ?? and I was like "oh fuck what if shes not cool" (she was). Anyways, this one essay from this collection already hit way too close to home I almost started crying. Oh Laura Kate Dale I feel like you always come to me when I most need you, your books I guess will help guide my hand as I continue to survive and slowly improve my situation to reach the radical joy I feel now and know how I will feel it easier in the future too.

[faunabel]

hate when i'm trying to engage with a piece of media but i can feel a Split trying to happen and it's like agh. pls don't. i guess i'll just take a step back for now and hopefully no split will happen.

[dideki]

why do i have to find an occupation is it not enough for me to indulge in my interests and maybe tell people about them if i feel like it