#and he never even apologised for being really weird and rude about it but ok

[pharawee]

"You complete me. You make me happy. I promise. I will be with you forever."

—BE MINE, SUPERSTAR Episode 12 (fin)

[castlebyersafterdark]

these are some takes on will from people who don't much like him, and the logic always confuses me because... is it disguised homophobia or denial of byler? or is it just that people misunderstand how the show has framed will as sympathetic? look at this nonsense:

I think people feel sorry for Will and think nothing good ever happens to him and he never has anything, which is not true. He has a very loving mother and brother, and friends, who went to the ends of the earth to find him. He has a lot, he just doesn't have Mike, and that's also where I think a lot of this discrepancy comes from. Will doesn't get everything he wants. It's more complicated than I'm willing to go into, but I agree with you. And I do think it also has to do with Will's writing. He's pretty quiet and more emotional compared to his friends, which makes him look like more of a punching bag. But he is not the only person in his friend group that is bullied (I think El actually takes the cake in that regard), and there comes a time when him wincing and moping in the background needs to start maturing and changing into taking action. Maybe we'll see that in season 5. I like to think we already see a hint of it when he supports Mike in pouring his whole heart out to Eleven in season 4.

what they want is for will's coming of age to come around sooner than it has, which is definitely a storytelling and pacing issue, not an issue of Will's character himself... and they mention that themselves, so what's even the point of this complaint?? they're basically saying they don't like the writing choices of the show and don't agree that this darling of the show is likeable. like... ok? who cares though?

and this one, too, is odd because the 'he doesn't have to apologise' is again a comment on the writing of the show itself, but this person has misguidedly blamed will himself the character for his own writing (fucking LOL) and also blames Will fans for enjoying the writing of his character wtf:

Everyone knows Will has flaws, he apparently doesn't have to face them or work on them or get called out for them. To start with and ruminate: he’s jealous; he called El stupid; he forced his friends to do something they obviously didn’t want to do, and after they repeatedly refused interest in doing it, and then he had the audacity to throw a fit about it, making MIKE say the apology and not him. He doesn’t do anything unless someone’s with him, especially Mike or his family. He’s rude to El for no reason except that he’s jealous. He gets mad at Mike for sending a pile of letters to El and not him, then further blames him for their disintegrated contact. Even after El is bullied and then whacks Angela, he doesn’t help her or defend her or comfort her, even when Mike is mad at her for lying to him. He watches El get seriously bullied constantly, a girl ten times more vulnerable than he is, and never even tries to stand up for her. The list continues.

Like... bro. Will can't force Mike or Lucas to do shit. They didn't refuse interest, they participated and mocked him while doing so... Will was not in the wrong here and more importantly THE SHOW ITSELF was making him the more sympathetic one! Some of it is also just blatant bullshit, doesn't do anything by himself wtf??? So irrelevant

The disconnect is so odd, how does it happen that people connect to a character in a way completely different than what the show is telling them to feel? Like, I can understand mildly not gelling with a certain character - for example, I don't love Eddie nearly as much as the fanbase, but I still really like him - but actively hating someone the show is trying to get you to love is so fucking weird. How does this happen unless people are inventing a version of the show they want to see as they watch? It's pure ignorance and what enjoyment do they even get from being a fan at this point? Babe, you don't like the show, find something else.

Vinny it's time to whip out that Taffin clip hahah MAYBE YOU SHOULDNT BE LIVING HEREEEEEEEE

The Will mistreatment and lack of sympathy and sorely lacking an understanding of his character bothers me immensely. No empathy!! "Will has so much" - do yall not watch the show?? Some have everything in the world and still lack for confidence, for self-worth, etc. etc. And Will has been through SO MUCH this child has faced immeasurable trauma. And what he wants he thinks he can't have! Because of a societal problem he cannot solve! For thinking he's fundamentally a mistake, for thinking the hatred he's faced is justified. He's more than allowed a little whining. He's being denied so much and had so much taken and his childhood was strained and the lingering remnants for him were snatched away as well, and he gets so little sympathy from too many people. He doesn't have to be everyone's favorite, but the whole point of the core of the show is caring about this boy. I think there's an unkindness in someone if they don't feel that for this character.

Don't get me started on the El points - fundamentally misconstrued and unfair and Will isn't in the wrong for so much of that. What the hell is he supposed to do about so much of that? Ughhhh. Pure ignorance is putting it mildly.

I think way too many people who devote an incredddddddible amount of time into the fandom and spend all this time deconstructing and criticizing the show to this level - how are they actually having a good time??? Doubt it. See clip.

[hongjonghosblog]

When your best friend doesn't like him (Ateez reaction)

Genre: Reaction

Word count: Unknown

Gifs are not mine. Credits to their incredible owners.

Hongjoong:

~he would not be so ok with the idea of your best friend not liking him, but he would have to accept it anyway

~he would try his best not to cause any arguments or anything else with her and he would manage it... the most of the times

~he would not prefer to meet her, but he would have to, because he is your best friend

~he would always wonder why your friend does not like him, he gets worried and thinks that it is his fault

Seonghwa:

~you had never seen his savage self before he realised that your best friend doesn't like him. So, you are very stunned and you also feel weird

~they fight a lot for stupid reasons and you are the one who tries to prevent them from doing that every time

~but, of course, you fail every freaking time

~you hate it, but the worst thing is that you are not able to stop this. They both make you feel really sad and they don't respect you, something that is shown via their actions

Yunho:

~he feels really bad about it, like he is the one who is responsible for it, but he isn't

~you try to persuade your friend that Yunho is ok, but she does not change her opinion

~Yunho also gives it some tries to be friends with her, but he does not manage this and he gets really disappointed

~he finally makes the decision to give up, because he can't do anything to change this situation, and he feels really sad about it

Yeosang:

~when he realises that something goes wrong with your friend, he tries to be as cool as he can be

~your friend is really ironical with him and he can't handle it, so he does the same, starting a war between the two of them

~you hate it when you are in the same place with these two. It is a nightmare for you

~you try to avoid every fight of them, by not going out with both of them, but only with one of them

San:

~like Yeosang, he would be really bad with your friend, if she is too

~he doesn't like people who are annoying and with your friend interrupting you every time you kiss or hug each other, he becomes really mad at her

~so much that he wants to hit her. But, he does not because he knows the consequences

~as a result, he tries to be as calm as he can. But, it's not that easy for him, as he loses his temper easily

Mingi:

~very emotional boy, he feels really sad that your friend doesn't like him

~he always tries to be good with her, but she keeps being rude, even if you try to stop her

~Mingi hates hanging out with her, because he knows how a bad person she is

~you think that her behaviour is unacceptable and you make the decision to discuss with her about it

Wooyoung:

~your best friend is just really jealous of you for having such a perfect boyfriend, so she tries to bring him down

~Wooyoung noticed that and he tries to tease her, something that you consider as a very bad idea

~she gets really annoyed and she stops being bad and so rude against him

~he feels really proud of himself and you compliment him, while apologising for believing that it was a bad idea

Jongho:

~he feels extremely sad and he tries to fix it, by discussing with your best friend about it

~but, there's no result, as she keeps being rude with him and telling him nasty comments about himself

~you know what happens when Jongho gets angry... He becomes really dangerous. Your friend should better hide

~after a few times that Jongho behaves in the same way as her, she apologises and then everything is fine

The end

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[perksofhs]

‘You know what that does to me’

The missus goes to a show and backstage shenanigans ensue!  (Content warning: smut, but also some fluff! Enjoy! xx) 

Watching him perform was undoubtedly one of your favourite things. Whenever you could you’d be out in the crowd, the energy of the room never failing to lift you up. Harry also fed off the crowd, the buzz he got was addictive, and if you were there he’d always kick it up a notch, looking for you whenever he could just to make sure you were enjoying yourself. He’d catch a glimpse of you swaying your hips to the music and it sent him crazy. 

“Hmm you look good in that suit baby” you hummed, appearing from behind him, wrapping your arms around his torso as he adjusted tonights suit in the mirror. “You should leave a couple buttons undone, I mean I’m sure the fans would love it, as would I” you said, pressing a kiss just below his ear, causing him to close his eyes, leaning further into your touch. You smiled, walking around to face him, unbuttoning the top two buttons of his shirt, exposing the tattoo covered skin beneath. You stood aside to let him take a look in mirror and decide whether to keep it that way, although you pretty much knew he’d do whatever you told him turned you on. “See, much better” you smirked, pecking his lips quickly. At that moment Jeff poked his head in the door “Harry can you quickly come with me and greet some of our guests?” Harry nodded “Be there in a sec” Jeff nodded, going back out into the hallway. Harry turned to you again, before pulling you in for a rather passionate kiss, your hands momentarily finding themselves in his hair. It lasted a few seconds before he reluctantly pulled away “I’ll be back soon ok?” you nodded “Go before Jeff gets annoyed” you chided, giving him a light smack on the bum, sending him towards the door. You laughed a little, shaking your head before walking back out into the green room, taking a seat beside Adam and Clare happily joining into their conversation which mostly revolved around Adam’s kids. It wasn’t long until Harry waltzed back in, walking over to the three of you and sitting himself down next to you on the already pretty cramped couch. 

“I’m squished” you joked, “Come ‘ere” Harry said, grabbing you around the waist and lifting you onto his laps, his arms eventually resting around your hips with his chin on your shoulder. You leant back into him, “hmmm this is nice” you hummed, “I was thinking, after the show, hows about we don’t go out for drinks like usual but we just stay in the hotel room and cuddle and watch a sappy rom-com like usual? I’m feeling pretty tired” you suggested, Harry smiled “That sounds like a great idea babe, haven’t had a movie night in a while, been missing The Notebook a little bit” he smirked as you rolled your eyes “Look I love that movie as much as the next person but i’m pretty sure you’ve made me watch it at least 57 times and I need a break!” you laughed, Harry pouted, trying but failing to guilt you into it, “Stop it, we’re watching The Proposal and that’s that” you pecked his still pouty lips “Ok I guess I can deal with that” he sighed, pinching your hip hard enough to make you flinch. “10 minutes to showtime guys, lets go!” the tour manager announced and everyone clambered to their feet, Harry picking you up and setting you down in the process. He grabbed your hand leading you out the door towards the backstage area, stopping right at the stairs behind the stage. You could hear the crowd humming with excitement, the energy in the room electrified. “You better rock the shit out of this place tonight” you said, unbuttoning one more button “For good luck” you winked, Harry smirked, leaning down to place a kiss on your lips, this kiss was a little deeper than the usual pre-show kiss and you knew it would be one of those shows, one where he’d show off just for you. “Have fun out there, I’ll be watching” you said, giving him one last peck before walking out into arena. 

You made your way to your usual seat next to the sound and lighting crew beside B stage, the crowd cheering for you, which is something that you still barely comprehended even though you’ve been with Harry for 4 years. The lights went down and the crowd went wild, ear piercing screams filled the space as the opening notes of Only Angel rang through the arena. A minute later Harry strutted his way onto the stage, the screams intensifying as he confidently walked from one side of the stage to the other, waving and blowing kisses before the beat dropped and he got into the music. You watched him dance across the stage, enjoying every minute of it. You swayed your hips to the music, screaming the lyrics along with the crowd, earning you a few weird glances from the crew who thought it was hilarious. A group of fans to your right waved you over a few songs into the set wanting a picture and a chat. You honestly loved talking to the fans, almost all of them were incredibly friendly and supportive of your husband which is all you really cared about. You ended up standing near them for a couple of songs until there was a chatty break in the music “Lovely meeting you guys, I’m gonna go back over to my usual spot otherwise he’ll get mad” you joked “But hey how about during the encore break you three follow me backstage to say hi quickly?” the three girls squealed with glee, nodded and thanking you profusely, “Are you serious? Omg thank you so much!” one of them screamed “I’ll come back over and you can follow me back ok? See you soon!” you said, the girls nodding frantically, before giving them a wave and wandering back to your usual spot. 

“Have we got any birthdays in the house tonight?” Harry said, searching the crowd for anyone with a hand up landing on one girl a few rows behind the pit having a quick conversation with her before getting the crowd to sing happy birthday at the top of their lungs. “So my wife’s here tonight, she flew in yesterday to surprise me, what a gem hey?” he said, his accent getting thicker at the end, you smiled, blowing him a kiss which he pretended to catch and put in his pocket causing the crowd to ‘aww’ and you to laugh. “God I’m romantic” he proclaimed, narcissistic Harry making an appearance, you rolled your eyes and smiled “Hey I saw that” he laughed “She’s back there rolling her eyes, how rude! First you won’t let me watch The Notebook now this?!” the crowd laughed, a few joking boos mixed in “Hey hey hey we don’t boo people in this room! It’s only love in this room! Spread the love people!” he yelled and the crowd cheered. You could’t help but smile, the room really was filled with only love and it was all because of him. 

The show continued, you watched him perform to the entirely enamoured crowd that couldn't focus on anything but him, his movements and his voice. Soon enough Sign of The Times started following Harrys usual spiel about how the encore works then getting everyone to bring out their torches and light the arena up, it had to be on of his favourite moments from every show. You walked over to the group of fans from before, “Hey girls you ready? We’ll make our way backstage now and you can say hello when he comes back!” you laughed as they squealed before collecting their things and following you around to the front of the arena, a few fans giving you a wave along the way. Security let you through and you stood just near the bottom of the stairs behind the stage chatting as SOTT came to an end and the lights went out before your husband came bounding down the stairs, locking eyes with you immediately before engulfing you in a rather sweaty hug. “Ew you’re sweaty!” you jokingly tried to escape the hug, a pout on his lips as you wriggled free. “I met a few people who’d like to say hello” you said, introducing the girls to Harry, watching as he gave each of them a hug, apologising for being a little gross but of course they didn’t care. He took a quick group photo with the three of them before security led them back out into the arena, leaving just you and him alone. You wrapped your arms around his neck “You look so good tonight baby” you whispered into his ear, his hands lowering to just above your bum, causing you to move a little closer, entangling your hands in his hair, tugging ever so slightly. “Baby, stop it, you know what that does to me” he moaned, biting his lip, trying to hold himself together knowing that in just about 30 seconds he’d be back on stage and he didn’t want to give anything away. “Sorry babe, I can’t help it, watching you on stage gets me all riled up and you know it so really it’s your fault” you said, hands still not leaving his sweaty hair. “20 seconds Harry!” one of stage hands called, he nodded in response, pressing a quick kiss to your lips, pulling away with a “See you soon babe” before running back up the steps and back onto the stage, another roar from the crowd filling the arena. He knew how to keep you going even if he wasn’t touching you and you both loved and hated it. 

You wandered back out, choosing to watch the last 3 songs from the back of the left GA. The Chain was always one of your favourite songs, part of the reason Harry had added it to the setlist, and if you were at a show he’d use the song to tease you, and boy did it. Tonights performance riled you up more than usual, you were growing more and more impatient with ever thrust of his hips towards the mic stand, the subtle smirks directed at only you scattered throughout the performance and by the time Kiwi came on you were hot and flustered, and Harry could tell. ‘I hate you’ you mouthed, Harry’s brow furrowing in mock confusion, he was completely aware of what he was doing and he loved it. During Kiwi you watched on, trying not to show how you were feeling because you new he was enjoying watching you squirm. You decided to leave towards the end of Kiwi, making sure he saw you walk out, looking back with a smirk on your face. You could hear Kiwi end as you walked down the hallway towards the dressing room, and the final roar of the crowd as Harry exited the stage. 

Within a matter of seconds Harry ran up behind you, grabbing your hand pulling you into a small empty dressing room and locking the door behind him. “Someones impatient” you teased, wrapping your arms around his neck, crashing your lips onto his, his arms tightly around your waist, lifting you off the ground, carrying you towards the couch. You pulled away, lying back on the small couch, your fingers fumbling with the buttons on his shirt “See I told you keeping it unbuttoned would have been much better, and easier” you joked, pecking his lips before removing the sweaty shirt, throwing it somewhere across the room. “Didn’t want to make you too flustered” and with that, his hands were puling your t-shirt over your head before trying to unclasp your bra, as your own needy hands unbuttoned his trousers. You struggle just a bit to get his pants down his sweaty thighs just far enough to allow you the access you so desperately crave. Harry groans as you play with the hem of his underwear, your lips never leaving each others during this whole process. “Stop teasing.. me..” Harry pants, finally getting the your bra off and flinging it somewhere behind him and hastily freeing you of your jeans and panties in one swift movement. You smirk into the kiss, you loved teasing him just a little. You relish for one last second in the tease before pushing his boxer briefs all the way down every so slowly. He moaned under your touch as you grazed your fingers back up his thigh before giving him an agonising slow pump that sent him fucking wild. “I told you to stop teasing” he growls, grabbing both yoru wrists and placing them above your head. He’s now in full control. 

“Now keep your hands there ok?” He instructs, staring deep into your eyes, sweat dripping down his cheeks. You bite your lip and nod your head, knowing that simple bite of the lip would send him even further. “Fuck you are beautiful” he says, before trailing his hands down your torso, your breathing getting heavier, before he reaches the spot where you need him the most. He delicately rubs the bundle of nerves as you bite your lip even hard trying to stifle a moan but failing miserably. “You like that huh?” he says, knowing exactly what he is doing. He lifts his fingers up to his mouth, taking two of his fingers in one by one before tracing them along your inner thigh, find their way to where you needed them. You were squirming, the craving almost unbearable. “Please Harry, I need y-ugh” before you could finish he slipped two fingers in. Pumping at a fast pace, your walls tightening around his fingers to exntend the pleasure, an endless string of moans coming from your mouth as you got closer and closer. He went deeper and deeper before hitting the spot. you writhed under his touch, bucking your hips up to get him to go even deeper. Your moans became more desperate as you tipped over the edge, reaching your high. “Good baby, I wanna see you let go, fuck you’re so beautiful” he encourages you to finish and you obey, your body tingling as you hit the orgasm you had been so desperately craving. “Good girl, good girl” he pulls his fingers out, now dripping in you. 

“I love you Harry” you pant, still coming down off the first high. Although you were satisfied, all you wanted to do was keep going. You grabbed his hand, putting his fingers in your mouth, sucking on them ever so gently. Yet another thing you knew sends him fucking crazy. You released his fingers, reaching up to grab his face, you crash your lips back on his, enjoying the taste of each other, as you kissed you reahed down to stroke him, he was stiff and ready. “You’re eager tonight aren’t you baby” he says, you can only hum in response, already coming back up to another high. “I need you Harry, all of you” and with that, he pumps himself twice before pushing himself in. You stretch around him, his length filling you, going impossibly deep. He thrusts hard and fast, desperately trying to hit his peak. Your lips separate, the movement too much as your head falls back, both of you moaning in absolute pleasure. “Fuck! Fuck Harry.. ughhh” you’re almost screaming as he continues to push deeper. You can tell he’s getting there, and he can tell you are too. Your moans get louder and louder, both of you panting as you reach your climaxes simultaneously. there is no doubt that anyone walking past could hear you, but both of you were so lost in the moment that neither of you cared. You buck your hips, desperately trying to hit your peak as he speeds up trying to do the same, you both hit your highs, releasing together. The euphoria of the orgasm washing over both of you. His thrusts slow and become sloppy, his eyes closed, a grin now adorning is lips. 

As you both come down, you relax into each other. As he slows, Harry’s body becomes heavy on top of yours, and you both sink into the couch. Your breaths steadying as he rests his head on your bare chest, his hand lazily rubbing at your exposed breast. “That was.. incredible” he says, and it was true. Post show sex was always the most fun. “Worth the wait?” you tease, a smirk on your lips and a cheesy grin on his, “definitely worth the wait. Although you really are a tease sometimes”. You chuckle “You actually love it though, I know you do”. You both remain there, satisfied, happy and more than a little bit sweaty. 

“I suppose we should go back out and see people huh? I have a feeling someone may be looking for us” Harry says, even though he would rather just stay in this moment. “Harry I’m pretty sure they know where we are, we weren;t very subtle, or quiet!” you giggle at the thought of everyone hearing what has just occurred but you honestly couldnt care less. “Thats true, but either way we should probably get up” he says, pushing himself up from the small couch, pulling you up with him as he goes. You two really were a sight to behold. Both of you naked, hair dishevled, sweat glistening on both of your skins. Even if they hadn’t have heard you, they’ll for sure be able to tell.

You both relcutantly get dressed, albiet with Harry’s suit looked more than a little messy, sneaking one last kiss before you unlock the door and head back to his dressing room. You pass a few people in the hallway, a pleasant smile and a few hellos before you both walk into the fairly busy dressing room. As you both enter, a few knowing glances are sent your way, your cheeks flush red while Harry smirks, relishing in what you;re sure he see;s as an accomplishment. You giggle and hide your face in his side as you both take a seat on the yet again crowded couch. “You two look a bit.. flustered” Jeff says, your cheeks glowing red again in embarassment before the group all start laughing, you and Harry chuckling along with them. Oh what a night it has been!

Hey lovelies! Two in one night! This is yet another installment of “The Words You Speak” series. I rarely write raucnhy content, I think this is only the second one I’ve ever properly written! It;s been sat in my drafts for quite a while but I though I may as well post it! As usual, requests are open so let me know what you want to read! Enjoy xxx 

[hubz88]

So Aaron asking Ben to move in and this plot about his dad seemed to be more about the parallels with Liv’s drinking problem then any real character development for Ben or their relationship.  Surprise, surprise. 

I had a few people jumping on a twitter response of mine last week, don't really do twitter much and wasn’t hoping to invite a conversation from Ben fans, Ben/Aaron fans, but anyway I was completely baffled, fascinated and mad and had to get my thoughts down.

Firstly my comment was about how weird I find it that on top of having this abusive father his whole life, Ben was so happy to forgive and forget the bullying that Aaron put him through, that made him want to die, within a day and a vague apology wanted to date him and it was brushed under the carpet.  I got two different responses from the fans that I want to look into because it has been on my mind all weekend.

1) About 2 or 3 people commented that I have clearly missed some episodes

This is hilarious to me, not only have I never missed an episode, but I have over analysed all Ben and Aaron scenes a thousand times over, without ever watching back I remember a great detail of what was said, weird dialog, acting/directing choices and facial expressions.

But mainly on this I am just hugely confused by what scenes they actually think I missed? There have been very little actually story about this bullying backstory full stop, no real content and no real resolution or explanation as to how come Ben got over it so quickly.  Given that I was referring to the first week or so on screen, it literally went like this.  Ben having no words in the Hop whilst Liv was acting like Aaron goes their all the time to see Ben at the Hop.  Ben orders a jacket potato and chilli whilst Chas awkwardly tries to suggest that Aaron gets back on the dating horse, hint hint hint to this random man who we know nothing about at this point and if he is even gay/into men.  Ben with Al and Kayak’s getting introduced to Aaron.  Aaron going back on his own to ask about Kayak lesson when Ben flips with the you don’t remember me, now I can hit back and you made me want to die etc. Ben’s car breaks down, Aaron says he can help, gets his number to text about parts or something.  They go for a drink as you do with your school bully.  Aaron explains vaguely about having a tough up-bringing and struggling with sexuality.  Ben has no reason to really trust him at this point or take his word for it but decides to awkwardly start trying to flirt and talks about the bullying he suffered as “reminiscing”, (weirdest line to use in context, I certainly don't reminisce about the kid that used to call me names at school let alone actually kick my head in on the daily). Then Aaron goes to the Hop and asks about a lesson, clear indication of a date.  This was all over a few days episodes, but one actual date time-wise.  That is is, whole story wrapped up.  No Ben talking to other people in the village that tell him to give Aaron a chance, no forced to work together, share friendship group, locked in a room together or whatever contrived plots soaps like to use to get people talking.  No longer story of getting to know each other, Aaron proving he had changed.  Just one conversation and it was all fine. Like what was the point?

Then from that point on we got a couple of episodes were Ben turned up out of nowhere, no build up, no aftermath, again no discussions with other people in the village, friends, co-workers, so we never saw his motivations or reasons for wanting to be with Aaron he just showed up apologizing for their disaster pint or Aaron apologised.  So much so that Ben was only in 11 episodes from September to January and many of those were like one or a couple of scenes, which is so poor when you compare to the other new characters introduction, interactions and multiple mini stories that played out.

The 4.5 months Ben was off screen was also used as a reason some how to explain how the lack of actual relationship discussion makes sense, like they talked again when he came back, (about his sister being an alcoholic), as if that suddenly makes it ok that they haven’t address the bullying or that argument again before Ben became a literal cardboard cut out glued to Aaron’s side. 

2) There was one person who replied saying it wasn’t a date at that point with the first lot of pints, which those terrible pint plots arguably were meant to be a date, but in any case they were still planning to meet up just the two of them, Ben kicked off after Ben didn’t turn up after divorce papers and Kayak lesson etc. So it still doesn’t make sense to want to get so pally with your ex bully. Through-out this point Aaron was pretty hot and cold and damn right rude at times.  Yet Ben kept following him around and showing up wanting to talk and try again and they suggest a pint several times.  One person did not like my response about him following Aaron around as if it was Aaron following Ben around because Aaron was the one that suggested the Kayak lesson to begin with.  But this person clearly hadn’t seen the scenes where Ben kept showing up out of nowhere wanting to get in Aaron’s orbit, Aaron largely seemed uninterested and said about them being friends beginning of December, (I think), which was never shown on screen and apparently didn’t happen according to January scenes at Aaron’s birthday when Ben said the friendship thing hadn’t worked out. 

3) There were the comments of the conversations on his return in May and the scene in the Hop discussing the bullying over some table football, you know do completely casual.  Again ignoring this does not change the facts of how this story started and how poorly it was executed regarding the bullying. Also in my opinion that chat was way little too late, they were official at this point and had only really been seen discussing Liv, her drinking problem, Liv being missing, Ben’s alcoholic dad and oh the mystery guy Ben put in a taxi.  Therefore no actual relationship or feelings chat anyway at this point, other than I’m miserable and we apparently have a laugh despite the fact we haven’t seen that onscreen. So why would I expect any in depth relationship story.  Even the Aaron Ben fan said they “try” with the Hop chat.  And like fair play, if you are happy with such shit a story and effort, then go live your best life hun.  But wow really, what are you liking here?

In actual fact Aaron still seemed quite offish on many occasions with Ben and snappy upon Ben’s initial return once again and yeah he was worried about his sister but why would Ben want to be around this permeantly, with someone he barely knows still, and would have possibly been triggering for him but yet he is promising to support him no matter what, you aren’t on your own Aaron, you have me, we and us etc. .

On the point of proving Aaron had changed the show has made a point this last year of many characters talking about how aggressive Aaron is, Liv about how he pushed her instead of Luke that whole time and calling him a control freak and lots of nasty names.  Mandy calling him a bully when Paul first died before she found out the truth.  Luke calling him a violent thug or something whilst Ben was there and talking about bad boys and stuff moments later, Ethan and Charles talking about him being scary and the same from Vinny at as well.  On top of the Pollard nonsense plot with the brooch and Ben was well aware that he was up for a bulgary/assault charge of which Ben had no real reason to believe he was innocent again he didn’t really know. He had only just re-connected with him after months off screen following the toxic argument, which also never got resolved, no sorry I didn’t realise Liv had a drink problem, I get your concern now, sorry for what I said, sorry for how I treated you, which as much as I don’t like Ben I feel he sort of would have deserved after how Aaron spoke to him.

Finally, and I realise no one is going to read this haha.  In one of my responses to these people before I gave up and said we are never going to agree, let’s leave it. I said content wise the story has been poor, there has been such little effort with the writing and Ben isn’t really a character right now, still only serving for other Aaron related plot and after 10 months on the show has only one small chat about gay marriage with Charles and the weird gay app conversation with Vic, Ethan and Luke outside of Aaron which is just not a proper character on a soap that it is 6 times a week.  Funnily enough, I got no response on that, no comeback or pathetic or disillusioned excuse. So do they all know how bad the story is and choosing to fight on the missing episodes I haven’t seen, whether those pints were dates or the fact they spoke after Ben’s disappearing act, which does nothing but really prove what a nothing of a character he actually is more than anything as there is no way I really believe it was all just down to COVID when other plots didn’t suffer the same way.

I will shut up now!

[elias-code]

My OC's relationships on the Dream SMP

These are all characters, not the actual streamers! <3 It's also not all of them since I don't watch a few of them :) I harbour no hate towards the people behind the characters that I have issues with lmao

Awesamdude - Negative relationship - basically, he let Quackity get away with putting Techno away, let Tommy die and get revived by Dream and then never apologised, and then let ghostbur die and... wtf - Yeah we aren't friends. In another universe, if he weren't the warden, we might get along.

BadBoyHalo - He kinda gives me bad vibes - After the egg stuff I just don't really like to be around him... he killed Foolish and tried to kill everyone at the banquet which I just don't vibe with - I kinda understand why he joined the egg. I mean he was there for Skeppy which I think is ok, but he really went off the deep end. If he redeems himself, I'll be the first to befriend him (cautiously)

Callahan - Alright I taught him some American Sign Language for basic communication - I go and hang out with him whenever I feel like there's too much angst on the server, he's so neutral it's honestly relaxing.

Captain Puffy - We don't know each other very well - I mean I agree with her when it comes to the egg and she seems nice but it's hard to be friends with her when her son is Dream... poor Foolish, though.

Connor - I don't know how to feel about him - I don't have anything against him but... he just seems like someone I wouldn't get along with so I don't hang out with him. He is kinda funny tho

Dream - Ok, ok, he's just an ass - I'm not even gonna list why, you know why... I'm just saying. - I do feel bad for him since Quackity just beats the living shit out of him and he's already in prison so why...?

Dream XD - I fear no man... but that thing... it scares me. - Why his voice do that?? - I avoid him but if he approached me, I would be ok with being his friend, I mean he's a god. If I don't then I might die. Might as well use it to the fullest extent I can.

Eret - I don't really understand why he joined the opposing side during the L'Manburg war - I mean she's cool! I like their outfits and it's nice to have another queer person on the DSMP - I think we'd be good friends in another life, but our friend groups don't overlap very much, so it's hard to hang with them.

Foolish - Little bit scary ngl - Lightning go brrrrrr - I feel really bad for him since he's gotta be related to Dream and he died during the egg shit. That's just cruel. - also I don't really vibe with his personality but I do like to talk to him about his building ventures since I also love to build

Fundy - I feel sooooo bad for him - He's super cute, super sweet, and he just deserves more love - I plant sweet berries around his house to brighten his day whenever I can and I also feed his fox - I love to talk to him and he teaches me dutch sometimes because it's an interesting language. Also, he just deserves a good role model in his life... Like Will kinda sucked as his dad, Schlatt was not a good role model, and his friends don't really care about him. :( - Um also (IRL) he's the reason I started watching the DSMP, I love coding and Dutch so it was a very good mix for me

George - I sleep the opposite amount that he does. - I love his mushroom aesthetic but I stay away from him in fear of Dream XD. - I don't have a lot to say about him since he's not on the dsmp much

Jack Manifold - Yo he's lowkey annoying??? - Give Tommy his hotel back??? He died??? - If he were nicer to Tommy I'd be his friend but he's gotta get his shit together lmao

Jschlatt - Fuck that guy - bruh, he ruined L'Manburg?? - He drinks too much, not surprised he had a heart attack oof

Glatt - Ghost Schlatt gives me such chaotic evil vibes - I enjoy his presence much more than I enjoy his living presence. - I like the fact that he's kinda useless and can't do anything. It's like going to a zoo to see a creature you wouldn't want to see in the wild

Karl Jacobs - I feel bad that he's losing his memory, he's such a fun character. - I like to hang out with him but he makes me sad and also our friend groups do not vibe with each other oof

Niki Nihachu - She's super sweet and absolutely terrifying. - I love to help her bake and its super fun to try out new recipes with her - People really underestimate her and in return for her help with the baking, I help her train her fighting skills.

Philza - DADZA - I get in trouble with him a lot oof, I like to troll people so it happens quite a bit. Also, I take the blame for a lot of the stuff Techno and I get up to as well as with the bench trio. - He taught me how to sew and crochet so I can make my own clothes. I also build with him whenever he asks for help

Quackity - Scared. - He's rude and evil and I dislike him... gambling bad - I like Charlie and I think he's a good influence on Quackity but tbh I feel the same as Techno in this scenario. I am not a Quackity apologist!

Ranboo - I have the same vibe as him. We are one and the same. - I keep an eye on him during his enderwalks, he worries me sometimes. - Out of everyone in the bench trio, we get along the best. I take care of Michael sometimes when he's out doing Snowchester stuff with Tubbo.

Sapnap - I mean I dislike him a little, he throws off my vibe. - He's on the wrong side of everything imo, just stop being weird, big man... - Also I mean I don't understand why he threatened Dream with torture if he ever escaped. Like you don't have to tell him that, just do it? - We have very similar voices (IRL oh no) and so I'll mess with people by doing my best impression of him

Skeppy - One of the many victims of my trolling (with techno usually) - He's fun to hang out with for a while but I can't handle being around him for too long, he gives me a headache - Sometimes I wonder if he's actually made out of diamonds... should I kill him and see what happens?

Charlie (Slimecicle) - BEST BOY I LOVE HIM - HE'S SO CUTE DAP ME UP - Honestly, we get along soooo well, he reminds me of a slime for some reason, hmmmmmmmm - I try to teach him human-ness because if he doesn't want to look like a slime then there's no reason for me to say no

Technoblade - Ah yes the best one on the SMP - He did not like me at first, I can be a bit annoying oh no - Eventually, he got a soft spot for me since we have the same sense of humour and I love to mess with people - I sympathise with him, he deserves so much more than he's getting. - I wish he didn't express his emotions as anger all the time since it really affects everyone. He's got some anger issues and I try to deal with them with him.

TommyInnit - Omg I still find him annoying but I love to hang out with him like Wilbur does. - He needs to learn some boundaries but he is still a kid, so it doesn't really matter. I think people have to stop being little shits to him since his brain hasn't fully formed, like all adolescents. - He's very sweet sometimes and I appreciate his assistance in a lot of random tasks

Tubbo - I am allergic to bees so we can't hang too much - I like to chill with him and Ranboo and sometimes him and Tommy, but I'm always telling Tommy off for being a little shit to Tubbo. - I do not approve of his governmental ways, but his heart is in the right place. Also, why do you have nukes?

Wilbur Soot - Too much government, I do not approve - not a good father - Eventually, he stopped governmenting so whatever, no more animosity from me, eh?

Ghostbur - Awww he gave me blue - how dare he die twice - I love friend, I walked him sometimes. So glad he has infinite canon lives - I wish he had more time on the SMP, he's super sweet and his vibe is amazing

Revivebur - Alright he's kinda cool, I like his hair. - He doesn't have any governmental plans thank god - He's a bit worrying but he hasn't done anything yet. I'll just keep my eyes on him.

That's it, just doing this for fun! I have a lot of things in the works, don't worry! If you're curious as to what I'm working on, take a look at my masterlist (it's on my page at the top where my asks are) If you do have any asks please give 'em to me, I love to write for you guys :)

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[calypsoff2]

Fifteen.

I smiled a little, I smiled because Robyn is still here. She hasn’t left or even attempted to go; she hasn’t said about going. She’s been working from home but also worked ever so hard that she got her mother to go home, I remember rightly she did say that would be the first thing she would do and she did it, she got her mother to go home and it’s kind of funny that she did it, kind of sly though. She collaborated with her brothers, and they got her to go home but I’m happy, it’s nice to have her in bed with me but there is something missing with me and her, and I can feel it. She’s giving off those vibes, so I am trying to figure that out while trying to make her happy, but she isn’t happy. Also I ain’t happy because little miss Fenty won’t give me sex, not that she won’t but she goes to bed early, like she puts the kids to bed and she goes to bed and then like today, she will take the kids to school and then go home to work. Putting the car engine on, she is making her way back now. She told me to wait in the car while she dropped the kids off inside, I don’t mind it because it saves me from making that journey inside. I am actually so blessed; like my wife is so damn beautiful. Without makeup is my fave because I fell for that, I literally fell in love with the fresh faced Robyn, and to this day it’s my favourite to see “is she ok?” I asked Robyn, Imani wanted to go school and the school said they will cater to her. We asked and she wanted too “yeah, her class is so cute. They are so happy to see her, she’s explaining to them what happened, the teacher will keep a close eye on her. She will do the bare minimum, but I am proud of her” Robyn said as she closed the car door “she’s got your inner strength huh” I said smiling “I suppose” Robyn chuckled “let’s go and have breakfast, my treat” Robyn smiled at me a little, that means yes then I am guessing “yes or no? I mean you have work?” Robyn shrugged, this is what I mean, she’s very off with me “you’re paying, I’m not complaining” she’s right, I guess we going to eat some breakfast.

The breakfast is very quiet, we just ate in silence without even speaking but I am going to eat this up because this is some good food, besides Robyn’ of course, she cooks the best “I spoke to their teachers, I have to go to Paris for a meeting and they are coming with me” near choked on my egg “what?” I said in a shocked state “taking the girls Paris with me, this way I won’t have you or my mother on me, it will be a few days I’ve sought out a tutor that will be with me” I just froze staring at Robyn, she did this all behind my back “wow” I breathed out “what about me? Why wasn’t I consulted? Or better yet counted in this?” Robyn sniggered “you ain’t a baby Chris, you can do what you like, you can do whatever work you need to do here. I will take the girls, no worries at all, I am not having either you or my mother come to me so I will take them” taking in a deep breath placing my fork down, now she has put me off my breakfast “it’s a little fucked up that you ain’t tell me? They my kids too” Robyn shook her head “this is why I am talking to you now; I have had enough of being put down like I am a shit mother, enough. I am taking them with me, nothing will change that” she’s so fucking stubborn “right, fine. You do that so I just sit here? Just do what?” Robyn is annoyed with me “wipe your ass?” She said, sitting back in my seat “don’t be rude” I pointed “then don’t ask stupid questions, speak to Jen Chris. Ask her what needs doing, but I’m taking them. I can work and have them with me” frowning at her, this has actually annoyed me “like without me?” Robyn groaned out “like you said you would be there for me when I needed, yes Chris. You ain’t doing shit so let’s do it” this is really fucking wild for Robyn to do this to me, she is taking the kids when they could stay here with me “you’re being stubborn, just let them stay” shaking my head “no, so you can do what? Tell my mother I am useless. I’m just not getting what you want from me? You want me to baby you too?” She questioned “can we have sex before you go?” Robyn tilted her head “see how I feel” she mumbled; that means no “so you’re taking the kids to Paris and I’m here? Just to verify” Robyn chuckled “yes Chris, home alone. I don’t know, play with yourself or something” she’s being spiteful because I didn’t support like I was meant too “but I want time with you?” She shrugged “my time is precious; I need to get back now” this is wack.

I mean I’m not scared of Robyn, but she is angry with me, and she isn’t hearing me with anything I say, but I’m going to go into the office I guess. Pushing the door open “you tell me Tina, what you think? Don’t come to me and ask me these things when I told you, and no he hasn’t. I said I wanted him for it but they are pushing the agenda that they don’t now, but we shall see” sitting down on the chair across from her, I feel I am in the teachers office “ok, ok, I’m bye” she put the phone down “hey” she looks flustered “can I speak to you? I feel I am in the teacher’s office” I laughed, Robyn has given me a first genuine smile, she actually laughed clasping her hands together bringing herself forward “well you entered” she said, “what’s up?” god I love this woman “erm I don’t get why I wasn’t consulted in the Paris thing?” I just don’t get that “Chris I was going anyways, I am just taking the girls, I assumed my husband could be capable to take of them, I could leave them here but clearly not which isn’t a problem at all, I am taking them whether you say to leave them or not, I just think it’s been a hurtful time for me, to be made out a shit mother. The things you said and how you said it to me, you cornered me at the hospital. I will take them all seeing as I can’t rely on you, which is no biggie to me Chris, I will be leaving in two days” I need to be calm “what about me? Why aren’t you thinking of me?” Robyn eyeballed me “for what? You’re a grown ass man Chris, are you serious. I told you, you need to ask Jen, what needs doing” I huffed out “but I want you Robyn, I don’t want to do that! I want you” Robyn shrugged “I can’t help you with that, just like you can’t help me. I feel lied too, yet you are disappointing me, when will it end” so Robyn is leaving me here and taking the girls, this is some bullshit.

I just stayed in the office with Robyn, I personally don’t think she wanted that, but she got it. I am just thinking on what she wants from me, this is bullshit with how she is treating me. She is just working while I stare at her “make yourself useful, pick the kids up for me. I need to have a meeting during that time” I rolled my eyes “who else is going to pick them up Robyn? A little stupid you know” rubbing my hands together, I just hate this “I want to move to New York” I said, I haven’t really manage to say it to her “so?” she said, she didn’t even look at me but just said so “I think New York is best for us, we get more of you too” Robyn looked down at her paperwork “and how you going to do that?” she looked at me finally “I don’t know” Robyn sighed out “Chris” she dragged my name out, oh she is going to say some shit. I can tell with the deep sigh “I don’t know who to blame honestly, it’s not even a bad thing. You are really accustomed to being at home with the kids, you just rather be told what to do then just doing it and I am not sure if that is my fault because of how long you have been at home with he girls, and the fact you have deep down” she paused “deep down you have let your ego go, I was always worried you wouldn’t let me ever lead, at home you are boss but out there, you just. You just have left it to me and I see it” she pointed at me “and I can’t be angry with that, if you didn’t let that go then I wouldn’t be where I am now, sorry” she apologised “I see it, I do now” putting my head down “you come up with bright ideas at home, you are here mainly but like just out there, you haven’t spread your wings or taken lead in that and you have taken a step back, I never saw it but I do now. I just got angered at you” clearing my throat, she can stop now “right” shaking my head.

This is stupid “you calling me a bitch nigga, that is what it is now?” I mean what the hell “no, never. You are being a good husband and father; you did that because you love us. You never been a bitch nigga because you are an asshole when you want to be, trust me we have had arguments. We always said you would be that at home, but I just never realised it, everything really makes sense, I was sat here being annoyed for you not just taking the lead, for just doing something but it’s what I have done, you are a good man Chris. Being at home with the girls is hard work and when they aren’t here there is always something to do, I am working and you was?” she said “cleaning and making their bed” I mumbled “yeah” she breathed out “you did that for me” nodding my head “but you also doing this for us” I pointed “that’s why we are a team” Robyn nodded her head “we are Chris, and this is what I want but you came for me like that, you need to understand my mom is backwards, she rather you be out of the house then me, she believes in that but we move on. So you want to move to New York like deadass? You not going to back off like you did last time, yes Cali has the weather, I can agree on that. New York is just off with that shit but it’s the main point in the business, it’s too much hassle bringing it here, it’s like weird because the warehouse where we make these items is based in California, I don’t know but anyways, you really want to move this time? Like full steam ahead” nodding my head “I know you are unsure because I backed off before, I was wanting to stay close to TJ and Camron, you know. It was one of those things where it would have cost him, but I think together, we should move. Fresh start in everything, even Mel. Just go” I really want this now “then we need to speak to the kids, I just wish we did it before we put them in school, they are very settled in there but we can change that before they start high school but we need to consider their feelings even though we will do it anyways, we need to make them feel that their opinion matters, I don’t want them to ever feel like that doesn’t matter when it does” Robyn has a point “so even if they say they don’t want to move we are anyways?” Robyn laughed “pretty much” that made me laugh “least we considered their feelings I guess” I shrugged.

I am glad we are getting along; Robyn did a slow clap. It is very sarcastic “what?” I said a little confused “it took you a while to bring this up, I was losing hope Chris. You said you was going to bring it up and that you were going to move but you finally doing it?” letting out an oh “is that why you were being funny with me all this time?” she laughed “correctly so but I think we will keep this home, because we can come back with he kids for school holidays and at times there will be times where we will be back, of course. Majority is New York, I mean that is where is all happens but California is the next place but not as bad as the demand so I think we will keep this, it also saves us packing up everything and taking it with us, we can buy new things more then taking all this with us, also Rorrey is always in and out of California so he can come here and stay, we can get a house sitter actually. Just as long as it’s lived in and then we can come and go, so we always have a place but yeah. Why don’t you go to New York, when I go Paris. Go to New York and start looking, I think it will be a good start” she is right it will be “it is something I need to do Robyn, I think it will get me out there, you know. But we got a budget? I mean what we playing with?” Robyn laughed out “I have a realtor actually; he is a good guy. I can get him to start this off and then you can view a few, it will be more helpful because I can’t be bothered to look. I just want it to be private as possible, good schools. Secure” nodding my head “I want that too” I said in agreement.

Stood behind Robyn, she is taking the lead with this. She can tell the girls that we are moving, it’s funny how she is considering their feelings but also she isn’t, because either way we are “are we in trouble?” Rylee asked straight away “unless you done some shit?” I said, she shook her head “mom is not having another baby?” I frowned “what is wrong with you goofy?” I said, Rylee laughed “you always sit us here for news dad” she is so goofy this girl “are we in trouble mom?” Rylee asked again “no, not at all. Just that” she locked her phone and finally put it away “so” Robyn stood to the side, oh I was hiding behind her “so you know I am always away, like I am always going away, and having to be away for a very long time sometimes I don’t come back when I should, it’s hard because my work is there. So dad and I have been talking on how to make things better so that we can be together more, no more travelling for a long time and just sticking closer, which we all want. So we have decided to move away from here” Imani doesn’t give a shit, she is sat there because she is tired, I know when my fatty is tired, she is about to fall asleep “can we come to work with you!?” Rylee said “well that could happen sometimes, but it means we leave here, that means you go to a new school, new friends, new everything but it means I can be closer to you girls, which I have failed to be because of work. You girls are old enough to understand that mom is always away, but I want you to both understand it means leaving school and starting new” Robyn wants them to understand that “I don’t care for school anyways, can I leave school?” Rylee is just a smart ass “you damn right that won’t happen, but I want you all to be comfortable with this decision?” Robyn is impressive, she cares but she really doesn’t because we are either way “Titi has no friends there anyways” Rylee said, Tianna gasped “I do! You only got friends because you use mom name!” oh the drama “girls! Stop it, apologise now. Both of you and then go upstairs and do your homework, that don’t stop. You both know now” Imani has fallen asleep, that is how much she cares. Robyn turned to me “these girls” she walked by me “come, you heard your mother. Say sorry and upstairs” I guess I can usher them upstairs so I can have a nap with Imani.

[tsukkis7th-hoesblog]

It was a misunderstanding.

Warning : nothing to bad , swearing

Tsukkishima ×reader , kuroo x reader ,akaashi x reader ,bokuto x reader .

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The boys were still all practising even though the coaches had called it a night. And you just finished cleaning the gym with kiyoko and were heading to the kitchen to prepare dinner .

As you were walking past the gyms a ball flys out and hits your head . You fall back from the impact ,which leaves ur butt on the concrete . You look up to see kiyoko. She has a worried look on her face . Then from the corner of your eye u see a tall white figure rushing towards you , it was tsukki .

He bent down towards you , you were about to tell him that u were alright but he just grabs the ball and stand back up . He just looks at kiyoko once "is she ok?" You nod and he just turns around and started walking toward the entrance of gym 3 .

"Hey! Tsukki who the hell do you think u are ?" You scream as u quickly get on your feet and move towards him . He swiftly turns around and you hit your face in his chest . "What?" He says wiping his shirt . "Your not even going to apologise to me " you say putting my hand on my hip . "You said you were fine so nothing even happend , stop over-reacting " with that he just turns around and walk into the gym .

You were used to his bitchy side , but u wanted to piss him off the way he always does to you . So like a dumbass you walk into the gym forgetting that other people are also practising ."tsukki !!! You son of a bitch , I'm gonna shove that ball up ur big white a-" you stop ,seeing kuroo with the ball in his hands . He just looks up with a disgusted look on his face "wait , this ball ?" And throws it to bokuto .

You quickly palm ur face and grab the ball from bokuto and hit a serve towards the tall blonde head that belonged to tsukki . His back was facing you so saw his glasses hit the floor . But by Akaashi's reaction you realized you might have over-reacted a little .

He slowly turns around , his glasses still on the floor. He just grabs the ball and walks towards me . You were terrified , u put ur hands behind ur back and looked at ur feet . Now he was right in front if you , towering over u . You try to say something but is cut off by tsukki putting a finger below ur chin ,making you look into his eyes. And for a few seconds u were speechless . You have never actually seen him without glasses , and he actually looked hot when he was so angry like this .

"I didnt throw the ball out of the gym so I didnt think I needed to say sorry to you , but either way I dont think u needed to throw that ball at me ?" He says with a raspy voice . He just puts the ball in my hands . I look at him confused "wait , u arnt gonna scold me ?" You say confused .

"It was a misunderstanding, beside I dont have the time " he says with a straight face , then turns around to walk towards the benches and drink some water . You were still in shock and only now realized that three of the gym 3 squad were staring at u and tsukki. Kuroo was wearing tsukki's glasses and bokuto had his elbow rested on kuroo's shoulder . Even akaashi stood close to them not saying a thing but just watching the commotion.

"What are u idiots looking at ? " you say as you ran to kuroo and grab tsukki's glasses off of him . "Hey! I look hot with those on " he whines as I clean the lens with my shirt .

Y/n pov .

"Damn y/n , that jump serve was really good . Who would have known you become a pro when u get angry " bokuto says as he towers behind me . "Oh shush, "

"can I have my glasses back ?" Tsukki asks with his hand extended .

I hand it to him and he simply just walks away . I felt a little sad and move towards akaashi and softly said "that's too bad , he actually looked really hot without those glasses" akaashi looks a little surprised but then smirks and leaves me to go practise . And I couldn't help to think of tsukki in that way , he usually just annoys me and I annoy him . It's how it's always been , but I find his rudeness kind of amusing .

Idk what pov this is :

you thanked ur bad taste in men and began cleaning up the gym . You only then realized that kiyoko had left and u were left to clean the entire gym .

You were wearing a sweatshirt but you were getting kinda sweaty after cleaning around and decided to take it off. You only had a light purple crop top with short white shorts . You didnt really think much if it and tied ur hair and began doing the heavy lifting .

Third pov .

Bokuto was just about to hit a strike but the ball stopped a few meters in front of him . He froze in confusion to why the ball was too short, he turns to akaashi .

To see ,akaashi standing still and was staring at y/n . Her hair was tied up and she was practically wearing nothing . Now all the boys realized .

Bokuto felt his heart drop as he saw how short ur shorts were, and they were practically invisible because they were so tight .

Akaashi wanted to grab ur waist and slide his hands up ur shirt .

kuroo wanted to grab ur hair and rip ur shirt off and take you right there in the gym , he then felt his shorts get a little tighter .

If u think these boys were starstruck , tsukki had a much different idea in his head .

He didnt even realized anything until he saw the players attention elsewhere. He noticed how u look when u tied your hair , as u almost never had ur hair in a high ponytail. And he knew he'd already seen you wear that shirt before, but with those shorts he felt like he had seen u for the first time .

You were still oblivious to the situation the boys were in ,until you realized that they were too quite for too long. You turned ur head to see all eyes on you . "What" you say with a bench in your hand .

The boys looked around all shy until kuroo came rushing towards u " you shouldn't be doing all this by yourself, here let me help " he said as he took the weight of the bench . Now you were even more shocked ,"its my job but thanks " you say as you smile at yourself like a idiot .

"What are you smiling about?" Tsukki says as he grabs the empty water bottles that were laying on the floor . You turn around to see bokuto grabbing the towels from akaashi's bunch . You were really confused now . But you let it be , after the boys where done with ur job they just stood in front of u with their hands behind their backs .

"Ok you guys are acting really weird ,what happened?" No one said anything. So you quickly thought of something .

"Ok if you guys are done I'm going to hang out with daichi and asahi, he was calling me a while a- "

"NO !" All the boys scream and stretch their hands out .

"Why are u guys acting so weird? Bokuto tell me now !" I say knowing bokuto too well .

He gives me puppy eyes and takes one look at akaashi , who was giving bokuto a death glare . "Sorry y/n "

" You just look so hot in those clothes today " kuroo blurted.

"What " I say , my eyes almost popping out of my head by the change in character and situation . The other boys groan in annoyance and tsukki just tskk.

You raise ur eyebrow at the boys " ok thanks for the ego boost I was feeling a bit insecure today but like what the fuck , u guys are so weird " I say laughing. "Why are you guys making such a big deal out of this ? " akaashi was the colour of a tomato , and his eyes not daring to look you in the eyes .

"We just couldn't focus on the game with you doing.. well the things you were doing .We are only men can u blame us ." Bokuto says with smirk on him face .

" you are still boys but you guys are the real ones to talk " I say bending down to grab my sweatshirt as akaashi and tsukki sit down on the ground. "Whats that suppose to mean ?" Tsukki asks drinking from his bottle .

"Are you guys that dumb ?" I say as they all give me confused looks. "You guys are 6 feet something boys wearing booty shorts and tight shirts while jumping, screaming and sliding on the floor . Theres a reason I became manager without even knowing it was a volleyball club. To be honest you guys are probably the hottest boys I've ever seen "you said too much . As if these boys weren't cocky before , you knew u had actually killed them . "I mean only when u guys play in a proper match "

"That's why you used to come to every practise first and then leave the last " tsukki said .

"No I'm a just the best manager in the world "I try to defend myself.

"I always knew u had a thing for me y/n " kuroo says as he grabs his bag ,

"no thats not what I said , I said u guys are hotter when you play , and I dont like you guys in that way " you were obviously lying but you had to keep cool .

"Whatver u say y/n , but just know I'm only one floor away . If you need more help with any matter just call me anytime u like " he said with a wink .

"Shut up , besides I gotta go now to make you guys dinner , please dont be late to dinner again . There wont be any more food left " you say as you blush at bokuto remark . "Ur lucky I like being bossed around from time to time " kuroo said pushing a stand of my hair behind my ear and then I practically run out of the gym .

Third pov .

"Damn shes hot when she's shy " kuroo says . "Yea too bad she is into me more " bokuto says in kuroos face .

"What!! she never said that ? Did she ?"

"I actually thinks she likes tsukki " this was the first time akaashi opened his mouth about this topic . "What!?!? " the boys said at the same time .

"A few minutes ago she said that tsukki looked good without his glasses , so I'm guessing she likes tsukki more "

tsukki gets all shy and defensive and says . " she doesn't like me , today she told me how much she loves your hands , and some weird shit "

"What " akaashi says as he looks down at his hands . "Yea she told me that too , I think she has a hand fetish " kuroo said .

"Well whatever she told me she loves bokuto's cake , I didnt even know you baked cake " akaashi asks bokuto. "I dont bake cake , and I haven't even seen her eat cake . "

Kuroo starts laughing " you know cake mean ass, right ?"

Bokuto in shock now " she said I have a good ass , omg she does like me "

"What about kuroo? What did she tell you guys about him ?" Tsukki asks a little too eager . But the boys just look at each other .

"Relax , whatever she likes about me she has already told me face to face , she even called me her captain once "

"What , that's not fair ,I'm a captain too!!" bokuto sulked as kuroo stuck his tongue out .

They were laughing as akaashi's phone rang . He answered the call " ok ok we are coming , relax y/n !" He said as he quickly cut the line .

"You have y/n's number !?!?that's not fair , she said she would give it to me but she forgot . " bokuto said grabbing his shoes .

And the boys then made their way to their rooms to get ready for dinner .

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[calypsoff]

Ninety.

With the prospect of my daughter being able to come out of hospital, to know her tubes will be taken out I also wanted to be free, I don’t want no cast on my leg anymore, I want to be free from that so I booked my doctor’s appointment and are awaiting for the results, I want this off. I feel like this is my chance at a fresh start for us both, my daughter comes first in this and my wife of course but it’s been a long process for me, for my family because I was having fun but my family was slowly breaking apart, that hurt me. So I got my dad to drive my car and bring me here, my dad is the worst. Talking about it drives too fast, he was driving so slow too like nigga hurry up. But we got here and we are just waiting around “so your main goal is?” My dad keeps saying this “be a better father and husband, listen dad. To have that fear of knowing I could have lost Rylee, that killed me. I want to be better for her, I want to do better for them both. I just want this cast off so I can be on my way, to know Rylee will be let out is a blessing. I just want them both home, that is my goal. I think Robyn wants that too, fingers crossed anyways” clasping my hands together as I sat forward “speaking to her she is wanting that too, she seems very much much on wanting her family back but you need to be a better person, you do not speak to your daughter’ mother like that, your wife in that manner. You praise her; you be there for her and support her. I have bought you up with respect Chris, I have never bought you up to disrespect a woman, I think this has come from when you got locked up. Because the boy I know, she knows, and your mother knows wouldn’t. I saw firsthand how rude you can be, you talk about belittling, but you are doing that to your wife because you feel that way, what makes it worse is that you’re doing it in front of us. We raised a respectful boy, so you need to work on that. What you going to do when some man is being that way to your daughter?” Looking at my dad “she has me; I would knock a nigga out. Robyn ain’t got that in her life” my dad pointed at me “this is what I mean, stop. She is someone’s daughter, Robyn is like a daughter to me so you got to answer to me little nigga” I sniggered, it sounded funny “I got it” I said, my dad isn’t seeing the funny so I will just say that “but I spoke to Robyn, she wants her family back together, she just doesn’t like how she gets spoken too, so that needs to stop. What if she divorces you?” I shrugged “we will be back together, we are twins, and she loves me a lot” my dad sighed out “don’t ever think she doesn’t have people, I don’t like that Chris. That was not nice at all” my dad pointed “Mr Brown I have good news” my smile grew, this is good.

The freedom I feel, I am free from the cast so now I am going to get a haircut and shower and go to the hospital, my dad is driving me around still. Just so I can get used to walking again “Chris have you thought of moving to somewhere like maybe back to VA? Somewhere close to us?” Pulling a face “now why would I do that? That’s weird” why is he even saying that “I just think California is no good, for you anyways” that’s a little offensive “dad, don’t be like that. California is fine, I have shit to do here. I am back, better than ever dad. Trust me, niggas ain’t gonna see me, I have the baddest bitch in the game. Shit is going to be different, on god. I ain’t going to trust any nigga like that again, my circle small. TJ and I going to rise in this bitch, I told him he need to move here. I’m gonna help him, I’m gonna run this shit. I’ve been plotting, my team going to be stronger than ever” I have been plotting, getting my family back and owning this shit, I will do it “like a simple life Chris” I chuckled “simple life don’t get you shit dad but a nine to five, even when I came out of jail I was plotting. Who the fuck wants to just work like that, I want to make money while I sleep and live good. You know I been waiting that good life” my dad sighed out “you don’t want to be fancy, but you are living fancy, are you not” my dad can’t say shit, he can’t deny that shit because he is living good now. He doesn’t even work full time anymore, he works for the fun of it now “we can go and get a Rolex right now dad, you want that” my dad chuckled “no thank you son, I just want you to think of your wife and daughter first” nodding my head “on god they are first, I promise” they will always come first, but I need to make movements too.

I feel so good about me, like I am smiling from ear to ear right now “be good” my dad said “good? I am in hospital, I want my daughter to be ok before anything dad, come on now I ain’t that bad” I chuckled, walking into the room “ayeee my man has his leg back” I laughed as I went into the room “I’m me again, me again with a six pack. Look at it” lifting my tee up “nigga was doing summersaults to get upstairs, up and down. I’m not surprised” Rorrey hit my stomach and then hugged me “good to see you happy” patting his back moving back from the hug, taking my shades off “Monica” leaning down and kissing her cheek “nice to see so much joy in you” I grinned, moving to my mother “I like your haircut baby” kissing my mother’ cheek “thank you ma, hey everyone” making my way to Robyn, she is just staring at me “new found confidence” crouching down to her “my leg is back” resting my arm on her thigh “who said you can do that?” She said in a whisper “since you have used my thigh to sleep on for the past few days” she is rude, Robyn is acting sheepish “you fancy me again” she giggled “not really” rolling her eyes playfully “how is Rylee?” I asked, Robyn pointed “they took her tubes out, she is ok. They are monitoring her breathing now without oxygen, she was awake but is asleep. She sounds so chesty still, don’t like it but we will see” looking back over at Robyn “I am glad to hear, thank you for letting me go and get this dealt with. I didn’t think they would, but they said it’s ok” she nodded her head “yeah yeah, showing your fat pack off. Whatever” she plays too much “where is my kiss?” I chuckled “really?” I said “I thought we was divorcing” getting up from my position and kissing her cheek “we will be soon if you don’t quit” licking my top lip laughing “good news isn’t it” Mel is just staring at me, seems a little judgmental but she is. My phone started ringing, getting my phone out, Barry again.

Answering the call as I stepped out “I don’t to hear it Barry, I am with my daughter, and I just want to spend time with her. Thanks for caring though” I don’t really want to hear what he has to say “I’m sorry” he said down the phone, I said silent not saying a word at all “I’m sorry, I really fucked up something good with you. You are a good friend and I fucked that up, I am so sorry Chris. You needed me and I wasn’t there for you at all. I was on some hard stuff; I think you knew that. But I’m sorry, and I fucked that up with Mel. I just want to say sorry, I always thought you had my number blocked, hope your daughter is ok though” I am shocked he is apologising actually “I’ll leave you to it, you’re busy I know” he disconnected the call, staring down at my phone a little taken aback but I can’t think about him right now, it’s about Rylee. Turning back to go into the room, it was like all eyes on me. Robyn waved me over, she was quick to call me over. Dragging my feet as I did “who was that?” Crouching down to Robyn, she looked down at my arm once again that is resting on her thigh “what’s up?” I questioned “who was that?” licking my bottom lip laughing, I was going to say don’t you trust me but I didn’t “just Barry, again” Robyn pulled a face “you going to do me a favour?” nodding my head “of course” she shifted in the seat “take me to Mel’ Apartment” nodding my head “you want to change your clothes?” I don’t mind I can do that for her “no, to get my stuff” my eyebrows rose “huh?” is she being real right now “I want my daughter in her own bed, her own home. She needs that and deserves it. We can work on us during that so if you can help to gather my stuff before Rylee wakes up, she is down for a nap, but it won’t take long. It’s only Mel’ we can go back later” I am happy “yeah, of course, let’s go” moving up from my position, this is what I want “oh shit” I said and froze “what?” Robyn looks like she is panicking “erm I never changed the bed sheets” Robyn pulled a face “what, for a few weeks?” I laughed awkwardly “please don’t say what I think you are going to stay” she said “Robyn, you need to sort him out” Monica said, she is not pleased “I have been cleaning but the bedroom is on Chris” Robyn gagged “I could say the same about you-” Robyn shushed me before I even said it, she knew I was going too but she wasn’t brushing her teeth.

It feels so good to be back driving, I can be me, I can be a man and just take care of my family “let’s not be too long now, I want to get back” Robyn is telling me but I am just sat here admiring my beautiful car, it’s been so long “we will” putting my car in reverse “what does Barry want? Like seriously, he called you for your daughter and again? Why?” I knew Robyn was going to bring it up “erm” putting the car in drive “he apologised, he said the drugs got him hard. He lost a best friend, he lost Mel. He lost good people, very apologetic but I didn’t accept or deny the apology, I was just shocked then he said I will leave you to it, you’re busy with your daughter. But enough about him, what did they say about Rylee? She seems a little chesty with breathing?” it’s like she is still not well “but she looks herself, when she woke up this time she was very alert. They said when she wakes up again, they want me to feed her. I just can’t wait to hold her, they said her breathing is well again and that she doesn’t need to be on oxygen, they want her body to wake on this so yeah, hopefully we will have our daughter back home with us and then I was like I want her to be home, this is why I made this decision to be in the car with you but how the hell did you sleep in such nasty covers? That is a long time Chris, what the hell” I paused thinking what to say, “then again, you were with your Jewish boyfriend” my head snapped in her direction “hey!” reaching my hand over but she caught my hand “that is rude!” such an ass for that.

Sitting on the edge of the bed looking around the bedroom, sitting back on my hands “we could Christen the room? I will be quick, two minutes?” Robyn side eyed me “that is on a regular basis, you’re a minute man actually. Lousy” Robyn be playing on my mind “mhmm, you fronting now” I jumped a little catching whatever Robyn threw at me “those were taken off the night at Getty Museum, never washed” seeing the thong in my hand “oh wow, ok” bringing it up to my nose “stop that!” Robyn tried to grab it from me “hey that’s snatching, what is wrong? I am sniffing, the booty part though” she hit my arm “have it back” I laughed falling back on the bed “get the hell up, help me. The hell” she hit my leg as she walked off “with that, you want to be an independent woman, you left independently so you can pack like one too” it’s been a while laying on a bed “I can’t wait for you to hear my album, nigga I drag you so bad” rolling onto my side “oh yeah, you for real with that?” I don’t know if she is teasing me “get the fuck up, and help me” I grinned “tell me the worst lyric in a song then I will?” Robyn tilted her head to the side “that I am divorcing you, that was it” I don’t believe her “was there a slight croakiness to it?” I rolled away from her “ok I am getting up” she is so demanding, pulling my jeans up “damn rabbit, you are being really spicy today” she really is but let me help her.

I am really scared for Robyn to see the bedroom; she is looking at every inch of the house “welcome home?” I said behind her walking up the steps like a naughty school boy “not feeling it” of course she doesn’t, she has been home for so long “you want your booty ate? Toes sucked? I am open to services, an apologetic toe sucking session” she isn’t responding back at all, she is getting ready to tell me how bad the room is “I am being straight with you Robyn, but the bedroom is going to be a mess, I think it might have left over stuff around, I mean it will have that. I saw the room earlier” Robyn pushed open the doors, both doors she opened so she may be annoyed already “wow” is all she said “I had a cast on” I need to defend myself “you made your bed when you lived alone, you self-taught that shit when you was in jail Chris but you decided not to do it, why?! Just being spiteful to not do it, like it gives me a break. You can make a fucking bed Chris, I did assume you was joking but you really didn’t change those sheets, that is bad. And I can literally see dust, filth!” She spat; she is going to scream when she sees the bathroom then.

I cringed, I mean I expected the noise from the bathroom “I am not happy, if you can hear me!” rubbing my chin cringing, she made her way out of the bathroom and stared at me “I cannot confirm or deny that my pee went on the floor, I was struggling. I had hurt my leg, and there may be clothes on the floor in a bag that need washing because you kind of stopped and the closet may be a little messier then usual, but I didn’t think you would be back this quick” she is angry “you make me sick, only a pig would live like this. I am not sleeping in this room; you will clean this. You will take you clothes to the laundry room; you will change those sheets; you will scrub the bathroom. I am not your slave; I am not your fucking mother either. You will do it; I am not sleeping in this room Chris! You are so capable of doing these things and this is what upsets me the most, I have visited your places and they have been clean. So it’s like you did this for what? I want you to make an effort Chris, I will be coming home just staying away from this room. I know what this is, you have been busy having fun rather care to be in this room, you haven’t really been sleeping here. You have been downstairs sleeping, but I don’t care. You clean this room, make an effort” nodding my head “I understand” I do not blame her “sorry” I apologised “deal with it” she hates the mess of the room, I mean I have neglected it.

[naturaldisasterfanfiction]

32. Part 4

The fact is I barely drank, Robyn is being overly dramatic. Maybe she is feeling scared that we will fight, shit is just wack, and I feel like maybe I am overreacting but maybe I’m not “aye” I said to Zeus, he out there being loud and shit barking “don’t go out, it’s dark out there. It’s too late, we can go for the morning walk which will be better. It’s cold and dark. Don’t go out” Robyn pleaded with me “this is why this is wack, I can’t go out because it’s cold and dark now. You said I can’t talk to him and now I can’t go out, he’s talking shit in my face what is supposed to be my own home and you’re letting that happen. If you let me deal with it then I will beat his ass but if you want to deal with it then I am telling you now Robyn you’re deciding, you’re married to me. I am your husband, you shouldn’t have even told me about this, you should have spoken on it but you sprung it on me that they are coming when you know the deal. We are barely stable and trying to work on me, but now we got that. No disrespect to the women in your family, they are a pleasure. Your father is just, he’s no harm but likes to leak information but you say you’re there for me but what made you think I wanted them here? I don’t even want my own family here; I am trying to work on me. I am not functioning myself barely, do you know how hard it is to make this place work for me, and now it’s too cold to go out. If someone wants to beat my ass then so be it. But you, you need to make some decision, if I can’t speak to him because you’re protecting him then you do it, but I am your husband and you wanted me, I’m feeling a shift. I tried to make it work Robyn, I did but he’s come here like he owns this home, he’s laughing in my face” I know Robyn don’t want to hear it but she is going to hear it, it’s the truth “I think you just hate him now that you don’t see he’s just joking” I had to laugh “about my chin missing because of Drake? Calling me a maid!? You didn’t even correct him; I am your husband. You are not even proud of that shit, say it with your chest. You’re literally stood here in my face and acting like this; you know my emotions. If I am upset then this upset will be extreme with me, you allowed him to rule you and now you’re just mute because you want him and me” Robyn looks stressed and I didn’t want that for her “a joke huh, you was ok to tell me that you had my back but now your family is here, I wouldn’t bring my family here when I know my mom does not like you, I am not a dumb nigga. I may be mentally crazy but I ain’t dumb” Robyn put her head down “I know what you want and he won’t change, if you don’t want to do it then I will” a sob left her lips, she’s crying and I didn’t want that for her “I want both” she admitted to something I knew “but yet your brother wants you to choose” I sighed out.

Robyn crying is stressing me out, I hate that “stop crying, you’re going to make me look the bad guy. Just stop” rubbing my temples “I’m going out, Zeus come. Let’s go out!” I half shouted and then whistled for him; I feel really bad that she is crying “tell me why are you crying? Why did you marry me knowing you wanted your brother, he’s the same guy that would rather you be with Drake that belittles you” hearing Zeus whimper, he’s staring at Robyn crying. She looked up at me, her eyes all sore “I will look like the bad guy now, this shit is not fair on me. I can never just be upset because then I look bad” slowly walking over to Robyn “I just want to make everyone happy; I hate this. I get what what you mean, and I’m just sat there praying it will all just stop and you both will get on because you’re not a bad guy, he’s not either but he won’t let it go” I feel bad “you want me to go or him? I can go if you want” make it easier for her but also testing her “no, I don’t want you to go. I want you to stay. This is your home” nodding my head “then be for me with open doors Robyn, because I need you more then anything” Robyn nodded her head, pressing a kiss to the top of her head as I hugged her “I know what I need to do, you just go and do what you need to do ok?” Robyn needs to gather herself; he doesn’t deserve to see her tears like that “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you cry” I apologised “you spoke the truth, and I was hoping for different. You know, but you go and please be safe” I guess I will leave her to it “sad part is, if I’m here and your family will make me the bad guy, I mean I guess I’m always the bad guy when I am trying to do good, I’m gonna go anyways” I just need some air and new friends, maybe a new life.

It’s terribly cold, Robyn ain’t lie about that shit anyways but it’s late and I refuse to walk any further, I like to keep around this neighbourhood because I don’t know anything out of that. I just don’t want to stress Robyn out, but I feel like I am, I don’t want that for her. And I did want to stay behind but if I did then they would always come back at me, fingers will be pointed, and tempers will be high. I rather not be there. Now I don’t even know if I go back yet or just stay away from that place but either way I can smoke my blunts in peace. Grabbing my phone from my pocket, I am trying to get myself some contacts over here in England and start venturing out rather then being all up and under Robyn. I need to find new friends, it’s hard but like I need to do it. But interestingly enough, I have had some UK artists contact me, they have been connecting with Ant, but I am just like send them to me personally, and I have a few on my radar on what I want and get a feel for. I think I like the sound of the Stephan dude, he sounds good and he has actually text me back, he is the same guy that messaged me, he contacted Ant and then I just gave my number and his first message was you need a dealer which was jokes, but he’s coming down to London, oh I think he is already here. I don’t know how these UK people move, it’s going to be weird to be alone in this and just try and fit in, I want to be normal, but we will see.

I went upstairs when Chris left, I cleaned myself up. I really cried out, it’s not even the fact I am having to do this but it’s just that I wanted better for him, I wanted a more welcoming time and I wanted my brother to not do this after I begged him on the phone, say sorry and be mutual. It wasn’t hard and every time he kept on speaking it was killing me inside, yes I should have spoken up, but I thought it would have been a one off, not it wasn’t. I for one do not want my husband to feel that way about living here, that is not happening. I have had my little cry and now I will be going down there, I do adore my brothers. It’s always been that way; he has been my support and everything. I just hate he thinks he has to do this because he dislikes Chris. I am just worried Chris is out there too, I didn’t want him to go but he did and he is right, I wouldn’t let him speak to him alone because it would have been a fight, I know for a face that would have been a big fight and even then I would be on Chris’ side but I don’t want him to be alone in this, the women in my family love him but the makes seem to have an issue. My brother is an alpha male, so is Chris and I can only have one in my life and my brother won’t be the person.

I cooed out “mommy, why did you do this? I can clean it up” what is my family like, Noella, my mother and Majesty cleaning up “oh no, Chris made the food we will clean up” that is so sweet of them “thank you” I really expected a mess in the kitchen “where is that boy?” Noella asked “Chris has gone for a walk; I know it’s late but he’s out there. What can I say, men” I laughed “husband huh” Noella retorted “ain’t no husband here” I lied “you trying to pull the wool over my eye’s girl, it’s not happening. That is your husband, why you lying to me? I am your cousin” Noella is here all in my space “what makes you think I am married; he is here for Fenty. I mean clearly” Noealla side eyed me “you lie to me one more time, you no cousin of mine” she means that “I am his wife” I admitted, Noella’ eyes widened “oh my god, cousin! You a married woman!” she half shouted, I shushed her “be quiet, it’s just some know. I want to keep it lowkey until my documentary comes out, but yes. I am a married woman, I feel weird. I don’t know” Noella wrapped her arms around me squealing “I am so happy for you and him, wow! My girl is a wife, now I see why you are moving different, girl. I love you both” Noella is so sweet “Chris is not happy Robyn?” my mom said, Noella moved back from the hug “he is very upset” looking at my mom, she nodded her head “the boy has nobody” my mom just blurted out “don’t say it like that” she is rude “let me finish Robyn, the boy has nobody. His family don’t want to know, I told that boy of mine to be nice. You have started your own life and we aren’t your problem, he comes first” my mom said to me “I would say the same to Noella, any of my nieces. It’s no way to start a marriage either. It’s also not my place to set him right when you’re his wife, he would expect you to do it” nodding my head understanding what my mom is asking of me.

Clasping my hands together, I better hurry up and do this before Chris comes back “can I speak to you Rorrey?” he is playing Chris’ games console, I swear to god they do it on purpose “for sure, he has all this weed just here?” nodding my head “it’s his games room or whatever he does, uhm yes so upstairs yeah?” Rorrey got up from the couch “shit is dope, so like you let him just do whatever?” walking ahead of Rorrey “I do, I mean I don’t tell him he can’t have part of the house. He enjoys having his own space and playing games, he sometimes just spends his day with me or he’s down here and I come here with him” placing my arm around Rajad “you still my baby, you can get married. You can have babies and you will still be just that” kissing his cheek” Rajad moved from me laughing “you about to kick Rorrey out? I know it” I sighed out “I didn’t say anything, I would jut like to talk to him. Moving my arm away from Rajad “has Chris really just moved here for you?” Rajad asked as we walked by a framed portrait of Chris as we left his games room “I suppose so” I mean they need to just their brain on this, it’s clear as hell that he does live here and he is my husband but they are not seeing it.

My dad has been so quiet since being here and I am wondering why “so” I breathed out laughing, I am emotional but it’s me I am always emotional when it comes to my loved ones “I do so much for my family, I love you all so much. I have worked so hard to make sure you are all well-kept, I bought that home for my mother, for my family. I have worked, nobody can deny that. I have had failed relationships, missed years to be a mother because I worked. I have made sure my family are kept and it’s my time, and I won’t let anyone ruin this. I have played everyone’s happiness; I have been the one to watch on while I had nothing. I asked Rorrey. I asked of you to be nice to Chris, to say sorry to him. To be a man about it, you didn’t do that. You came into our home, you disrespected him. You held his daughter, you sat on his couch, you ate his food, you touched his things and have the nerve to disrespect him like he won’t beat your ass, me Rorrey. He does it for me, not you and not anybody else, it’s me. You have a fucking nerve, he went out, not for you because of me. You are the stranger in this home and have the nerve to treat him like an outsider, I wanted you to make it work. I sat there” touching my forehead sighing out “I sat there thinking my brother heard me on the phone, he will do it for me. But he didn’t, you literally just treated him like shit” Rorrey finds it funny “I am laughing, it’s nothing serious. We are having a joke and a laugh” is he being real “no, you’re trying to belittle him in front of everyone, you sat there like you are boss. Who are you!?” I spat “I am in my sisters home Robyn! That is what, I am in my sisters’ home, he is a guest” Rorrey is getting angry at me “no! the fuck he ain’t, you are the guest in my house!” I shouted “just like you are guest at the house I gave! I gave my mother! Not you! You ain’t no fucking man, don’t you fucking come at me when I did it!” I shouted “sit down now” my dad said “teach your daughter manners” Rorrey said.

He is sulking, I am mad I shouted. He came back with a drink, he is still not getting it “you check your attitude, I don’t play that” Zeus came running into the room, I am glad to see Chris is back “house guest is back” Rorrey sniggered saying “stop” my mom finally said something “house guest is you, not Chris” I said, I can see Chris is angry “you keep saying his house, but I see your name on the deeds. I won’t speak to him then, it’s not hard” shaking my head “that is my husband! This is his home; he won’t be going California because he has moved here with me! So the guest is you and on top of that your stay has ended, I have done enough for you” Rorrey’ face dropped “my husband comes first, he is no baby daddy, he not just a partner. He is my husband; I share his name and I made that decision to want to be with him. Even after hearing that song you came up in my home and spoke shit! If you so wanted to beat Drake you could have! But you didn’t, I married a real ass man that would kill for me, and that’s on period! Welcome to the Robyn Brown home” the look on Rorrey’ face you would have thought I killed his girlfriend, it’s like I hurt him “you married him?” his tone has changed, it’s like a little bit of his ego left “yes, and when you see him respecting my wishes that is because he is doing it for his wife, unlike you. So go, I am done Rorrey I wanted you to be involved in my life and for you to actually respect family, you speak on family, but Chris is that, he is family. When you see Chris in the home I gave my mother you look the other way or better yet leave the home because he has more rights over it then you ever will, so leave” I haven’t heard Rorrey this quiet, I haven’t seen him look so little. He is at a loss for words just staring at me “you’re married?” his voice broke “I am, without any of you there. Just some of my team, I am happy. He made me a mother, and he made me a wife” Rorrey put his head down, he is very much at a loss for words.

I am just relieved to see Chris, I am so happy to see he is home. It’s so late at night that I didn’t really want him to go “you good?” Chris asked, wrapping my arms around Chris’ neck pecking his lips before hugging him close “I am ok” feeling Chris press a kiss to my neck “I don’t want you to think that ever, you’re my husband and you come first you know this” I said in his ear, Chris nodded his head as he moved back “I want you to be good though, I love you” nodding my head smiling at him, placing my hands on his chest. From the corner of my eye I see Rorrey with his stuff, I am shocked Rorrey is going silently but I think he is in shock and I think he may feel stupid that he is my husband and he’s been acting dumb, looking away from him and I jumped at Zeus barking, that damn dog be scaring me “let me know where you go” overhearing my mom say to him, things could have been ok if he just apologised and not be that way. I removed his crown, he feels small and he deserves it “I love you” Chris wrapped his arms around me.

[waonderers-of-the-storyversum]

Chapter 1

There once lived a young lass with eyes of chartreuse green.

Her head full of studies, her heart full of dreams.

One night she slept, but her life wasn’t over jet when a truck slammed into her room.

For her neighbour it came but it was a pain meeting him in the streets.

So, find him it shall, even in dark depths of hell, found him in his sheets.

In dark blue of night, as it’s surely right, a new world opened up for them,

no matter of where, no matter of when the truck-chan still inevitably came.

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 “Shiz!” a young girl uttered when she opened her eyes and didn’t see a ceiling above her, “I thought people can’t get isekaid in quarantine.”

“Jaja [yaya]?

“…why is my voice so high…?”

“Jaja? Is that you?” She finally noticed a stranger’s voice calling out for her. As Jaja franticly looked around she noticed a boy in his preteens. She didn’t know the face or the voice but she knew that hair colour.

“Hibiki, that’s you right?”

“Yeah, it’s me.”

“I knew you were a fricking MC with that hair colour!”

“It looks like we are in someone else’s bodies but I still have this gold blue hair, bit weird, ey?”

“Well, at least you don’t sound like an eight-year-old…”

“Jaromíra Šafránová [Yaromeera Shafraanovaa], I’m afraid that you are an eight-years-old.”

Jaja looks at herself in panic. She has the body of a child. Dirty scrawny arms, long fingers. She quickly gets up. Oily black hair falls over her eyes.

Hibiki starts laughing at his friend’s expression of sheer surprise.

“Shut it! You’re like what? Twelve?”

“Still better than eight!” He also gets up and dusts his clothes. They don’t look good but they aren’t the rags of homeless orphans.

‘Aren’t his hands much cleaner than mine? Like they never worked in their life…’

“Wait!” Hibiki screams.

“What?!” Jarka screams back as she nearly falls from being torn out of her thoughts.

“Are we sexed correctly?”

They look at each other in silence. They quickly cheque their surroundings and looked under their clothes.

“You correct?”

“Yeah,” Hibiki lets out a sigh of relief, “and you?”

“I’m correct.”

“I’m really happy that I don’t have to be trans in ancient Asia.”

“Ancient Asia…?” Jaja looks around more carefully and realises that yes, yes, they indeed are in ancient East Asia. She lets out a heart-rending screech. This finally attracts the attention of other people.

They woke up behind the houses of a small village that has just one main street and that’s it. Small wooden houses. Thick straw roofs. They looked familiar to both of them.

From a narrow alleyway between the cottages, a scrawny boy came running.

“Xiang (響echo)! An (安calm)! I finally found you guys!” said the boy as he was catching his breath. “What are you even doing here. Looking for you was a pain!”

“Brother, who is this? I don’t remember him!” Jaja asked frightened, trying to act her age. She ran towards Hibiki and clung to his sleeve.

“We are really sorry, something happened and we don’t remember anything. Are you our friend?”

“Oh! That’s horrendous! Can you at least remember who you are?”

They both shook their heads with an apologetic look in their eyes.

“So, I will tell you!” This boy was too energetic. “You are Xiang,” he pointed on Hibiki, “and you are An! My name is He (荷lotus but as that is too feminine, he writes it as 河river). We all are orphans from the streets but the people of this village take good care of us. As nobody knows to which family we belong, we decided to take the village’s name as our own. This village is called Zhuquan Yu (竹泉峪bamboo spring valley), so my name is Zhuquan He!”

“So… I am Zhuquan Xiang…”

“Yes!”

“And she is… Zhuquan An…?”

“Uhm!”

Jaja hesitantly walks up to Zhuquan He: “So you are our older brother?”

“Well yes. Yes, that’s exactly who I am!” exclaimed Zhuquan He with a wide smile on his face and petted Jaja’s head. “Let’s come now, today we are helping uncle Yu with rafting bamboo down to Zhuqiexiao Cun (竹切削村bamboo cutting village).”

As they walked, they both couldn’t take their eyes off the sights around. Zhuquan Yu stood on a side of a slowly slopping hill. Everywhere where the eye could see there were colonnades of bamboo, their stems lightly dusted, giving them a silvery glow. When the warm spring breeze that was singing in the bamboo leaves parted them enough, high light-grey rocky peaks could be seen. Their tops still powdered with glistening snow.

They went over a shimmering river coiled around the village. Its joyful burble flowing from under the bamboo bridge. The path of flat boulders they were following was still wet from morning dew. They heard the river all the way while walking through the bamboo forest. It was always near. After a while, the bamboo stems started to stand more apart from each other. Cold wind from the rocky peaks blew on the faces of the three children. It played with their hair, passed them by and disappeared in the calm forest. Now they could hear the muffled sound of axes chopping down bamboo stems.

“Wow…” Jaja verbally marvelled at the scene that opened up in front of them. They stood at the foot of one of the rocky peaks. In its side, a gaping mouth of a cavern was showing its deep lightless depths. From this cavern, a lake was flowing out. Crystal-clear waters from the cave system flowing to the sunlight. The mountain wind rippling its surface.

“So, this is where the river comes from.”

“Exactly. We use it to transport the bamboo to Zhuqiexiao Cun where it can be processed.” As Zhuquan He was saying this, they noticed a man maybe in his twenties waving at them from a bamboo raft. “That’s uncle Yu. He is in charge of transporting the bamboo.”

 Zhuquan He started running. “Let’s hurry a bit, we’re late as it is.”

“Little He, what took you so long?” uncle Yu asked playfully.

“Sorry uncle Yu, it took me a while to find those two. And I’m sorry but today will be a bit longer than usual.”

“And why would that be?”

“You see, something happened. An and Xiang, they… they lost their memories…”

“It’s that so,” uncle Yu raised his gaze, “you two can’t remember anything?”

“Yes, we are sorry uncle Yu…”

“Why’re you apologising, boy? I doubt that it’s your fault.”

“But maybe we offended someone!”

“There is no one you could have offended,” uncle Yu shook his head, “not many cultivators with that kind of power come here. I haven’t seen one in years.”

Hibiki and Jaja looked at each other. ‘So, this is a xianxia world, how interesting.’

“Come now, kids. You don’t remember how to raft bamboo so we’ll have to teach you, right He?”

“Yes, uncle Yu!” a shadow from He’s face disappeared, “Come on guys, it’ll be fun!”

All kids ran toward Yu Shun. Two other men came out of the forest carrying another batch of bamboo stems. They carefully put them in the lake and left.

“I’ll get them!” Zhuquan He ran up to the new bamboo. He confidently stepped on one of the stems took another slightly narrower from the water and started floating back to them, pushing the other stems on his way.

“Xiang, come here and get the rope,” uncle Yu called on Hibiki. Hibiki carefully stepped on the bamboo raft. He thought that it would sway as boats do but it didn’t. He took the rope that was on one end of the raft and copying uncle Yu fastened the next stem to the rest.

“An,” Zhuquan He waved at Jaja, “you’ll help me to push the bamboo that is brought from the forest to the raft. So, uncle Yu and Xiang can tie them together. And I will teach you how to float on a single bamboo!”

“Ok. But I’m a bit scared brother He. What if I fall?!”

“Don’t worry! I’ll catch you if anything happens!” he said with a smile and floated to the edge and stepped on the ground. “You just have to stay balanced. It’s not that hard!”

He took Jaja’s hand and she tried to get on the bamboo but failed miserably. She expected that the water will be ice cold but to her surprise, it was quite warm. ‘There must be a thermal spring in the cavern.’ Zhuquan He pulled her out.

“Well, I shouldn’t be surprised but still…” he sighed, “An was always so good at single-bamboo drifting.”

“Sorry…”

“Eh? Don’t worry about it. You will get the hang of it eventually.” He looked over to the bamboo raft. “You know what? Go help uncle Yu with the tying and Xiang can try the single-bamboo!”

Jaja smiled and shook her head in agreement. “Hi-Xiang! Older brother wants to teach you how to float on just one bamboo stem!” She stepped on the raft and nearly fell again. ‘Hibiki made it look so easy.’ She really carefully switched places with Hibiki.

“Could uncle Yu show me what knot is he using?”

“Of course. Here, take a look…”

While Yu Shun was teaching Jaja how to tie the correct knot, Hibiki walked to Zhuquan He. He cupped his hands and said jokingly while bowing: “Master, show me your arts.” As he looked up with a silly grin, he saw Zhuquan He stroking his chin like if he had a beard of an old wise master.

“Yes, come disciple. I shall teach you my ultra-secret technique!” he announced in an important voice. “Firstly, you have to feel the bamboo, create a connection. Then you have to walk upon it!” He graciously stepped on the stem. “And now you stand on the boundary between the water and the air. You have to be balanced as all thing should be.”

He got fully immersed in the role of the great master. Hibiki took this opportunity to poke him. As expected, Zhuquan He lost his balance for a moment and nearly fell.

“Hey! That was rude of my first disciple!” complained He, dropping the accent.

“I apologise my master. I just wanted to touch your greatness!”

Trying to withhold laughter Hibiki ran to the next batch of bamboo and stepped on one of the stems. Jaja was watching him carefully from the raft. Hibiki didn’t falter, the bamboo didn’t sway. He floated there with an elegance of a heavenly fairy. ‘How the frick?!’

Jaja wasn’t the only one that was surprised. To be honest it couldn’t be clearly decided who was the most surprised one. Hibiki was like: ‘This happened twice. There must be something amiss.’ Zhuquan He was pondering if he should always act like an old wise master when teaching single-bamboo drifting, is it more effective? And uncle Yu was trying to remember where he saw such natural talent for balancing and elegance.

“Maybe muscle memory?” Hibiki tried to cover his own surprise.

Hibiki and Zhuquan He were pushing the bamboo and uncle Yu with Jaja were tying the stems together to form rafts. They were working relentlessly until the sun swung to the other half of the day. When they finished, nine rafts were floating on the lake. They joined them one after another to form a chain of bamboo rafts.

“Ok, now to float them to Zhuqiexiao Cun,” said Yu Shun while waving on the bamboo cutters as they were leaving after their work. “The river is calm today; it won’t be hard.”

“Uncle Yu, can we go on ahead then?”

“Yes, He. I won’t need your help for now.”

“Come on Xiang! I’ll race you to Zhuqiexiao Cun!” announced Zhuquan He with a wide smile. Well, Hibiki didn’t want to say no and he also wanted to test this newfound way of transport.

“I’ll be right before you!”

“Cocky, are we? You shall not beat this great master!”

“Every great master has to be outgrown by their apprentice! Prepare for your defeat!”

“Want to die, disciple?!”

“First, you’ll have to catch me, great master!” and with smiles on their faces and laughter in the air, the race of master and disciple began.

“There they go… Little An, why such a long face?” uncle Yu turned toward Jaja who stayed on the raft with him.

“It’s nothing uncle Yu. I was just thinking.”

“Is it about the single-bamboo drifting?”

“He just stepped on it!!! For the first time that he can remember and he is perfect at it!!! Whyyy???!!!” Jaja gestured wildly.

“Well, some people are just natural, I guess.” Yu Shun untied one of the stems and tied it back but with rope between the raft and now separated stem. Jaja looked on a bit puzzled.

“Come, now you can train your balance while we raft.”

‘Such fatherly eyes. Such an encouraging smile. I hope he doesn’t do something immoral by my standards. Well, we are in ancient Asia, who knows if he beats his wife or gets blackout drunk with wild fits when on the border of consciousness. I hope not.’ Jaja slowly walked to Yu Shun.

“Uncle Yu are you sure that this is a good idea? I have a hard time to walk even on the raft itself.”

“Don’t worry so much or I’ll think that you are an old woman,” uncle Yu extended his hand. “Practise is always a good idea and we are going slowly enough. I can hold your hand and if you fall, the water here is calm, nothing bad will happen.”

“Ok, I trust you, uncle Yu.” Jaja took his hand and carefully placed her foot on the bamboo stem. It went as well as you can imagine. She slipped, she fell, she was wet from head to toe again. The water was still warm, so that wasn’t a problem, but the bamboo was getting more and more slippery every time she tried to step on it again. After a while, she was even more wet, sweaty, with few bruises and a hurting ankle.

“Why is it, that everything that looks so pretty is so hard to learn!”

“Maybe you are just tired now. But you could stand on it for a bit.”

“Yes, but only when uncle Yu was holding me tight. When uncle Yu loosened his grip, I immediately fell.”

“But it’s still progress,” uncle Yu lovingly put his hand on her head. “You must look on what you can do, not on what you can’t or you’ll become frustrated by the amount of things you want to do and you’ll never come around to actually doing any of them.”

"Uncle Yu is so wise.”

“Well, it’s just what my moms told me…”

“Either way, it’s wise to remember what parents teach us.”

“Yes, that is true…”

Meanwhile, Zhuquan He and Hibiki drifted as quickly as one can drift on a calm river without a rushing stream. Their taunting calls carrying across the water. Twisting and turning on the coils of the river. Its’s rippled surface shimmering in the afternoon sun. It didn’t take long for them to reach the bamboo bridge. Few moments after and they were floating by Zhuquan Yu.

“Brother He!!! Brother Xiang!!!” joyful calls were coming from the riverbank. Few little children were sitting on the soft green grass encircled by a flock of chickens. Few of the hens were even sitting in the children’s laps.

‘Jaja will be ecstatic when she sees those chickens.’ A fond memory of her seeing chickens popped into Hibiki’s mind. ‘She always says ‘chickens’ in that silly voice when she sees some.’

“Xiang! I don’t think you can afford to be zoning out!” Hibiki was swiftly overtaken by Zhuquan He.

“Well, at least I’m not the one who needs their opponent to be distracted for them to win!”

They were drifting further. Walls of bamboo on both sides of the river gave it a cosy vibe and the warm glow of the Sun extenuated it even more. They could hear the songs of many birds that were nesting in the bamboo forest. In one meander they startled a small herd of musk deer that came there for a drink.

Now they could see the buildings of the Zhuqiexiao Cun in the crevices between the bamboo. Grins on the boys faces widen and their hearts started to beat ever faster. Even the taunts that were flying back-and-forth between them came to a stop. Droplets of the shattered river surface shimmering on their faces. Trills of the songbirds were nowhere to be heard. And in this silence of suspense, Hibiki heard a tone. And then another. Music, quieter than the breath resonated in his ears. With no instrument and with no source. The music was fast, exciting. Short notes with high energy. Not that different from the sounds of shamisen but still somehow off.

They turn around the final corner. Welcomed by the first houses of the Zhuqiexiao Cun. Drifting by them Zhuquan He calls on Hibiki: “See the stone bridge? Who touches it first wins!”

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So I made an undertale fanfic, with my own characters, and my own story. There will be other characters and AUs that I didn’t make, but this is completely original. And I am SO nervous. I am definitely not a professional, and I’m probably really bad, but I wrote 3 chapters and I’m extremely nervous but also exited to show them. Also I’m sorry but I don’t know when to stop a chapter so I’m sorry in advance because the chapters are really short.

Thank you @zu-is-here for saying I shouldn’t be scared to post them on my own blog, and giving me the courage to do so! Thanks!

Anyway let’s get to it! Welcome to the story of wormhole!

P.S: this is 13+, and even tho tumblr is also 13+ please don’t be mad at me if it’s too heavy for you, because I’m not responsible for exposing kids to things they shouldn’t be exposed to. Thank you and I hope you enjoy this!

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prologue



Once a hundred million timelines a glitch appears, a being will be born with no soul. It’s a forgotten one, and usually it doesn’t even affect the timeline at all. But this time, THIS time, it did more then affect the timeline.

It created a wormhole.

Chapter 1: it’s a life I swear

Before you read this, remember, these things can happen to you too, and thoughts like these are common! I’m just living my life, like a normal person, and I’m normal! I do have some problems, but everyone has problems, so it’s normal and I’m normal. oh also don’t tell anyone you read this. Thank you!

I’ve been dreaming.

It’s kind of new, because dreams are something I don’t really like so I never do it.

I hear it’s very uncomfortable too. People wake up from them and can’t go back to sleep, they can be scary, or weird and only on special occasions they can be nice.

So I never do it. If it hurts so many people, nobody should do it, and I shouldn’t either. so why people do it anyway? But I think it’s rude to ask.

I started dreaming. And I can’t stop. I thought I would be scared but I wasn’t. It wasn’t what I expected too. It’s all white. And voices. SO MANY VOICES. It’s horrifying. But I don’t feel horrified. Why is that? I should shouldn’t I?

it started to really affect me, I think. I’ve started to hear the voices even when I’m not sleeping. At first it was just before I fell asleep, so I thought I was dreaming that I’m hearing them awake. But then i started to hear them when I was alone and completely awake.

at first it was distant, but then became louder. It was more like people yelling then whispering. No, more like loud whispers.

I told this to my brother, and he was surprised, saying “you never had dreams before! Maybe you’re getting better!”

...He didn’t tell me everything he felt. The way he acted, his movements and facial expressions reveals everything. He thinks that I never talk about myself, and he’s happy I’m talking about what’s going on with me. He’s also worried about my condition so “me getting better” is an improvement at every way.

But he’s right. I think? It sounds right. No, I heard that’s wrong. Still, is it wrong? what am I thinking? it’s wrong, he’s wrong, I’m wrong, I should just listen.

.....

Maybe I shouldn’t talk about this with other people. I won’t inform the doctor. yeah. Sounds right.

I want a job. My brother works, other people work, and I’m old enough to work as well. But I’d like a workplace that I can be alone in. Maybe I can be a sentry. My brother works at the royal guard, so with this job he can keep an eye on me so I won’t get into trouble. Is that wrong? No that’s right. I’m right. I’ll ask him the next time I get the chance.

I’m a sentry? Is that right? Yes that’s right. The leader of the royal guard told me “if a human comes here, kill it and do it like you’re life depends on it.” Is that right? It sounds... bad. What am I thinking? I’m overthinking everything too much lately. it sounds completely right. Why wouldn’t it? It IS right.

I heard the royal guards fight for many different reasons. I think- no, I know my reason is I need human souls. I.... know why? I have more reasons, I just don’t know what they are yet.

Anyways, what she said is completely right. All humans should die. And it doesn’t matter what it takes, I’ll kill every human that comes down here. Even if I die in the process.

... I think I’ll keep these thoughts to myself. And the voices of course, don’t yell!

I’m starting my first shift tomorrow. Everything is falling into place.

Chapter 2: WHAT IS HAPPENING?!

My dreams are always so happy. It’s weird that everyone I know dreams of bad things but everything I dream about is always so beautiful. But how can you not like the silence? How can anyone dislike the blank never ending white? How can you not adore the voices that whisper so loud? How can people wake up from a dream like that? It’s always so interesting. And everyone is so kind. Maybe I’m just the only one that likes these kind of things. No, wait my brother said thinking about me being different from others is bad- WHO CARES ABOUT WHAT MY “BROTHER” SAYS?! I’LL THINK WHAT I WANT! I HAVE A MIND OF MY OWN!

.....

I apologise, WE have a mind of our own.

I don’t like people. They can be loud, annoying and they all smile, all the time. Why can’t everyone just whisper? It’s way better. Actually, they can do what they want. Just don’t do it with me.

...does that make me different?

.....

In some way, I hope so.

Now that I have all of this time to ourselves, I like to look around. I found out there is a door at the end of town. And if I’m correct, it’s probably the end of the underground as well. Will a human come through here?

I should guard it with my life. no human will survive.

I need magic. My brother always told me to start small, but I don’t care what he says because everything he says is wrong. to kill a human I have to be the strongest. I have to learn to summon a weapon. One that will succeed. I’ll train near the door from now on.

I did it. It took 2 weeks of training but I finally made my very own weapon. it’s beautiful. It’s long, sharp, and perfect for a good stab between the ribs. Also it has the most accuracy. I like holding it. Throwing it. Swinging it. Spinning it. Cutting with it. Cutting trees, cutting the snow, cutting the ground, cutting stone, cutting wood, and sometimes myself. It hurts, but seeing it cutting things is enough pleasure to endure the pain. i can’t wait to see it cut through human bodys. Just imagining the experience is making me smile.

..... what’s wrong with me? I hope that a human comes quickly so this feeling will go

Away. I like it too much.

The door opened. Too much yelling. STOP.

I killed it. I have a soul. The sound of the knife.... it was VERY satisfying.

I think, I’m supposed to absorb it. I didn’t think about it that much. I just took it and-

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO! ITS BURNING! EVERYTHING BURNING! I HAVE TO GET TO THE WHITE-

Oh. That’s better. So calm. Quiet. Alone. It’s ok. I’m ok. We’re ok.

Chapter 3: nothing.

I don’t see anything. I don’t hear anything. I can’t taste, or smell. Except myself. Now that I think about it, the only real thing here is me.

Even my shadow hates the voices. that’s probably why it left us. How low did I get? Did the pain do this? Did I do this? Did the voices do this? Did the soul do this? Was it the human or myself? How did I get here and why? Why am I here? Why am I in the middle of nowhere? Aren’t I supposed to be everywhere? And how did I get to the middle? Is there even sides or ends?

I don’t think I like the white anymore. It hurts. It’s so loud I can’t get up. It’s so loud my body screams back. I feel my eye sockets exploded. Everything hurts. It hurts so much, even the voices scream in agony. It hurts so much, this place is in pain too.

I feel like every part of my body is breaking itself and fixing itself together, just to break again. It’s endless. I’m just cutting myself, the pain will go away eventually right? but it doesn’t. It never does. It’s endless. It’s repeating. It’s a circle. It’s burning. It hurts.

Why does the white hurt me? I’ve done nothing but love it with all my heart. I’ve been only good to you. Why are you treating me this way? I’ve adored your silence, your hunger, your emptiness. Every minute I’ve known you I only loved you, and I never forget you. Yet you hurt me with no mercy. Have you no feeling for me? No love? No friendship? Not even trust? I ran to you when I needed help. Why are you pushing me away? I trusted you. As beautiful as you are, I’ll never trust you again. Goodbye.

Let. Me. OUT. Do not play games with me. If you hate me that much then you might as well let me leave. I’ll kill you. I’ll destroy you for hurting me. I’ll destroy you for hurting the voices.

...

BE SCARED!! REACT! DO ANYTHING!! LET ME OUT! Please... let this pain go away....

Why are you torturing me like this? Do you like seeing me get hurt? Is that why you brought me here? To trap me and see me go insane from pain? Well let me tell you. I’m already insane. I doesn’t even matter. There was already something wrong with me. So you can let me free. You can stop the pain.

No.... stop... you’re killing them.... no no no no no.... please....

It’s getting quieter. I’ve never hated the quiet more in my life. I’ve never hated something like you more in my life. You killed every single one of them. The last told me to run somewhere safe. They cared for me. They told me right and wrong. They helped me in difficult times. When I was hurting. When I was scared. When I needed help they came. You. You stood and watched. You said nothing. You did nothing. You just look pretty. I don’t know why I even liked you in the first place. You just hurt. You monster. Imposter. Traitor. Heartless creature. Killer. You’re horrible. Every part. Even your beauty is pure evil. I hate you. When I escape I hope I never see you again.

I feel sick. I’m going to throw up. I can’t. My head hurts. More then usual. Everything is spinning. I just want so sleep..... to stop the pain..... sleep.... I shouldn’t.... I... sleepy....

I woke up. How long was I sleeping? Ugh. I don’t feel real anymore. I think I changed. Did YOU change me? Wait. There is something- No, someone here. With me. Who are you? Wait, you were here the whole time? you didn’t realize.... you are actually here.... did you sleep? Did the pain awaken you? Who are you? What are you?-

Stop it with the questions. I’ll answer them all. Slow down first.

...

You’re the human aren’t you.

You’re real. You’re here. I killed you. But you’re still alive. Thank you. I was so alone. I don’t care what brought you here anymore. You came. I’ll be forever grateful for this. I’ll do whatever you want! If you don’t leave again. I’ll give you my life. My power. By body to control. My mind. You can have it all! Just don’t leave me alone. Please. It’s all I’m asking for. I’m begging you. Plea-

I said stop.

...

I’m sorry. It’s too quiet. I don’t like it.

Honestly, me either. Let get out of here.

I can’t, we’re trapped-

Didn’t you just told me you’ll do anything for me? Then I say we leave this awful place. come on! Let’s go!

Ok. I’ll try. But only for you. One, too-

It’s spinning! THIS WAS A BAD IDEA- ugh.

Let’s never try this again. I feel sick.

I’m.... I’m free. I can hear. I can see. I can smell. I can taste. IM OUT! YES! THANK YOU, THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Ok ok I get it, stop yelling, we don’t know where we are!

I doesn’t matter! I’m free! I’m alive! And I’ve never been happier! Anywhere is the best place in the world as long as it’s not there! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!

But you!... I... ugh. your welcome. I hope you feel better.

Better! BETTER! This is the best day of my life! I can’t even explain this feeling! It’s freedom! Real! Not broken, not a dream, no pain! My soul is breathing in relief! My body isn’t burning endlessly! My pain is healed! And colors! Black! Blue! Green! Gray! Brown! Red! It’s beautiful! It’s hugging me, saying how they missed me! I’ll never leave them again! So warm! So cold! So much of everything!

Wait. Did you say red? Where?

Oh red! So bold! So loud! Such a pretty color!

Yes, but where did you see it last?

Oh, but it’s right here! See, behind that tree! Oh trees! I’ve missed you! So insignificant! So useless! But so colorful! Green! Brown! Gold!

Hey! Don’t lose focus! you... what IS your name?

Right! the red! Where was it again?

answer my question!

But it doesn’t matter. My name has no meaning to the world, and I have no need for one.

You don’t have a name?

People called me “sans”. I don’t like that name. It doesn’t fit me at all.

Then what SHOULD I call you then?

.....

Wormhole. I take all the happiness around me without mercy. Usually I never even intend it.

It does fit better then “sans”. Well done.

..... thank you.

Oh. Blood.

Yes. As you mentioned red, I suspected it was blood. gross.

It is gross.

Yes- huh?

What wrong?

You change your mind completely! You thought blood was beautiful, and the moment I said it was gross you agreed! Like you thought that from the very start! Why?

Well it’s just right. You said it. You think that way. You think it’s right. Then it is isn’t it? I was wrong, and now I’m right.

Wormhole, that’s not- huh. Then, what if I told you all humans are evil and will try to kill you the moment they see you?

Then it’s true. Do you think that way? Is it right?

I see. First of all, yes it is true. Also I’m not a human. second of all, I’m your best friend. You will trust no one else except me and the ones I trust. You will do as I say no matter what. I love you and you love me. Do not forget that, no matter what I do. Got it?

Sure best friend. Also, what is YOUR name?

It’s cha- I mean, my name is... um..... real. I’m real. Nice to meet you, um, new best friend.

Of course real! It is very nice to meet you!

Wormhole, listen to me. You feel tired, not physically. You want me to take over your body for an hour. You CAN do this. This will not affect our soul and mind in any way. You just give me the control for an hour.

Right. Let’s do this.

...

It worked. Heh. This will surely be amusing. Welcome to my world little puppet.

*********

There you have it! I know it’s very short.... but I prefer story’s with less detail and a lot more happening. I already in the middle of chapter 4, so you’ll have it as soon as I finish it. Thank you so much for reading!

[mochilici0us]

One New Message | jjk (4)

➳ 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲: angst, thriller, stalker au

➳ 𝘀𝘆𝗻𝗼𝗽𝘀𝗶𝘀: Skye realizes she has to deal with a ruthless stalker when the messages she’s constantly receiving are getting more and more threatening. A stalker that makes her recall memories of the past she swore she would never rake up again

➳ 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁: 2,5k

prologue, part one, part two, part three, part four

April 2013

''Skye can you pass me the milk please?'' my father kindly requests while we enjoy our breakfast. They enjoy to be exact. I can hardly take part in their conversation, my mind is away.

My eyes can't stop following her skinnier, exhausted figure moving from the kitchen to the dining haul and serving breakfast.

Something's up these days, she avoids eye contact with me at all costs, we haven't even talked properly. She's acting cold towards me just muttering a few weak goodmornings and goodnights. Yeah, those are the only words I've exchanged with my ''best friend'', not even a little talk to catch up with each other's news.

''Ruby can you fetch me some honey?'' my mother yells so that Ruby listens from the kitchen. A few seconds after she appears holding a jar of honey. Even her walk is stiff, I'm genuinely concerned about her health.

''Here you are'' I'm sure she can feel my burning gaze as she leaves the honey on the table and finally after a week our eyes meet.

Shit, she looks so pale, dark circles under her red eyes, chipped lips, I can even practically see her facial bones. To my surprise she doesn't look annoyed or angry. She just glances at me tiredly, as if she had quit living.

My piercing gaze on the other hand is anything but calm and sympathetic. She's clearly sick, something's eating her alive and instead of sharing her concerns with me she stays away?

Our eye contact lasts only for a few seconds but it's strong enough to show my restrained rage.

She realizes it immediately, averts her gaze and leaves like the coward she is.

''This weekend I'm leaving on an unexpected business trip'' my father announces and takes a sip of his coffee right after

''Again? You were on a business trip last week'' my mother fires back

''Do you think it's up to me? For your information I'd rather stay home and relax with my family''

''I don't mean it's your fault I just...''

''You make me feel terrible every time I have to tell you about a businesstrip. I can't talk to my family without restrictions anymore Christen''

''Ok I'm sorry don't get mad'' my mother lowers her eyes and apologises quickly before my father gets more angry.

Sometimes I admire my dad. He's so manipulative but not in a bossy way, he always prevails upon my mother with sensible arguments, voice laced with sweetness.

He's so diplomatic, no doubt he has built such a great career

''Darling why are you not eating?'' my mother remarks as I fiddle with the spoon. The bowl of granola cereals is untouched.

''I have no appetite. I have to go to school anyway, I'm late'' I pretendto study my watch and stand up

''Do you want me to come with you?'' my father suggests

''Nο it's ok I can walk''

''Skye are you sure everything's ok?'' I hear my mother's voice as I head towards the living room to grab my backpack.

''I'm fine mum I just didn't sleep well. See you later''

As I'm about to exit alone Ruby appears out of nowhere. Her body posture screams nervousness.

''You didn't eat your breakfast'' she speaks quietly biting her already chopped lips

She's been avoiding me for a week and now she pretends to be a thoughtful friend. She made me feel depressed, cry myself to sleep thinking what the hell I did wrong and now she plays dumb?

I just stay still without answering, my intense eyes glued to her wandering ones. She doesn't even dare to look at my eyes.

She clears her throat ''Here''she takes a fresh hand-made sandwich out of her pocket and extends her hand. I eye her hand without moving an inch.

''You can eat it instead. You look like a sceleton'' I spit my venom and walk out of my house without sparing her a glance.

It was too late when I realized what I had said.

''I love spaghetti but my mother never cooks. My dad says she cooks terrible but that's a secret'' Grace's friend Lisa whispers and pretends to seal her lips. She's so cute.

''Don't worry your secret is safe''

She nods and digs into her food again. Under other circumstances I wouldn't have cooked but today Susan picked up both Grace and Lisa so I couldn't disoblige her. Her puppy eyes gave me enough courage to get up and cook even though I'm still in a cast.

The three of us are sitting in the dining table and enjoying my home-made bolognese spaghetti. I was never good at cooking, I couldn't cook to save my life to be exact but I had to learn how for Grace. So I practiced and practiced till I reached my goal, I didn't want to become the new master chef, just learn how to cook some basic things so that Grace eats home-made food. In the beginning I would constantly fail but practice makes perfect.

''Eat your veggies as well girls'' I gesture at the bowl of salad.

They both nod like good girls and do as I say. They're so freaking adorable. Lisa has short black hair with bangs and chocolate brown eyes. She's small but taller than Grace. She comes by often, most of the times I pick her up from school as well since Grace and her are classmates.

Her favorite foods are spaghetti, steak with baby potatoes and vegetable fried rice. Let's not forget my signature fruit smoothie which I always serve with vanilla frosting cupcakes.

We always sit and eat together, exchanging news, telling jokes. I really enjoy their interactions, they look like two tiny dumplings.

"What did you do in school today?" I ask intertwining my fingers

"We drew our dream gardens, mine has a huge swimming pool" Lisa hurries to answer

"Mine has a plenty of colorful flowers and a big telescope on the center to admire the stars. And the Sky. Sky as we say Skye" Grace jokes shyly, puffing her flushed cheeks. Lisa bursts into a laughter once she gets the joke.

"Good one Grace" I wink at my little sister who resembles a puppy waiting for a praise.

After a while we're finally done with the food. I really missed cooking and eating my own food, Susan cooks pretty decently as well but I was craving so bad for some of my spaghetti.

''Did you enjoy your meal girls?'' I eye the empty plates

''Yeah!''they both cheer

''Go to play now while I prepare your fruits''

The two small kitties obey and walk towards the room wiggling their small butts. I can't help but chuckle at them.

My eyes land on the dirty dining table as I sigh disappointed, washing the dishes is definitely the worst part of cooking and eating. No matter how much I enjoy preparing food and trying new recipes, the process of cleaning after is terrible. I'm going to wash the dishes later I think and slowly proceed to my big kitchen to cut fruits for the girls, my hands holding the crutches tight.

Being on my feet isn't the best idea whatsoever but tomorrow I'm having my cast removed so my ankle is pretty much healed.

I go for strawberries, bananas and pears and also pick two colorful bowls.

As I already mentioned tomorrow I'm having my cast removed. My stomach twitches in anticipation. Will he be there? Two weeks have passed but I still find myself thinking of him before sleeping even though the picture of him is blurry and distant. Just a memory, a distant picture of him is enough to keep me up at night...

I brush away these thoughts and throw the fruits into the bowls, adding some honey on top and voila! A quick and healthy sweet fruit salad.

"Girls come on" I yell and wait for the two little ones to arrive, trying to distract my mind from unwanted thoughts.

What I know for sure is that tomorrow is a big day....

"You're finally able to walk again, I'm so happy'' Susan cheers and hugs me tight as we exit the hospital. Unfortunately I didn't have my cast removed by the pretty doctor, he didn't even appear to be exact.

Disappointed but not suprised

The young cute nurse was there though, she recognized me and even greeted me, I was THIS close to ask about him but my pride didn't allow me.

''How are you feeling?'' Her hand strokes my back

''Weird'' I respond eyeing my healed ankle ''I was used to walking on crutches''

Indeed last 2 weeks I would only walk using my crutches, they had become a part of my routine. I certainly feel better now though, well-rested,healthy, ready to return to reality.

''Let's go, I'm treating you to brunch.. There are so many things we have to catch up on after''

''W-what do you mean?'' I stutter scared because I have a feeling that I already know her answer

''Shopping therapy of course''

Oh no...

''Susan are you kidding I just removed my cast''

''Sweetheart you know I wouldn't drag you along unless I had a reason. Next Tuesday is Yoongi's birthday party, we have to get our outfits''

''Yoongi's birthday...'' I scratch my sculpt looking at her sheepishly''I totally forgot, I'm sorry''

''It's ok, you're coming anyway''

''What about-''

''Taehyung's gonna take care of your sister don't worry'' she cuts me off as if she had read my thoughts

I nod, it's rude to deny the invitation

''Yoongi's friends are really handsome and some of them are single so don't think you're getting off. We have to find a cute outfit for you as well... now let's eat'' I roll my eyes but agree rubbing my stomach that hasn't stopped rumbling and finally get in her car .

''It's stunning'' I examine the purple midi dress Susan's holding. The material is silk, it appears glamorous, expensive and the embellished straps detail completes the look.

''Should I try it on?'' she hesitates

''Of course, purple looks amazing on you'' That's true, the contrast between her ginger hair, green eyes and the purple colour is definitely unique. Purple flatters every single of her characteristics.

''Let's find something for you'' her eyes wander around the store

''I gained weight these days so I should go for something baggy''

''No Skye, you should go for something sexy yet sick that emphasizes your cleavage. Your boobs got bigger, thankfully'' she whispers the last word and rolls her eyes

''Susan'' I whisper yell covering my breasts with my hands ''Did they?'' I rethink my friend's comment. Indeed I've noticed a slight development. This whole weight gaining story had a positive result at least.

Once I realise where my hands are and how the rest of the customers look at me probably thinking I'm a horny pervert I instantly lower them and grab the first dress I lay my eyes on.

''This one is perfect yes'' Susan practically runs towards me ''It's very elegant and the lace detail makes it sensual. You're definitely trying it on''

I take a closer look at the dress I picked out on random. It's certainly cute, off shoulder, midi, black with lace but tight as hell

''Isn't it way too tight? I think it's gonna accentuate every single bloated part of my body''

''Try it out you have nothing to lose. Besides the party is in 5 days, you have plenty of time to search for a dress''

''There's no way I'm going through this again. It's either today or I'm coming wearing my Pjs'' I announce and make my way to the fitting rooms determined. I can hear Susan mumbling a few curses, probably blaming me for being grumpy and stubborn.

''Excuse me'' an assistant approaches us

''There's only one fitting room available. I'm afraid you have to wait for a while''

''No problem, Susan you go first''

''Are you sure?''

I nod and sit in the comfortable blue chair that matches the rest of the decoration and furnishings of the store.

This showroom is excellently designed, the minimal yet eccentric blue décor casts an air of originality as the majority of stores follow a consistent pattern. No wonder it's Susan's favorite showroom, modern decor, excellent service and the clothing here is feminine, figure-friendly just like the dress I'm holding.

I'm so absorbed in gaping at the interior decoration that I don't notice my friend standing in front of me.

''Hey, earth to Skye'' she wiggles her fingers in front of my face

''Sorry'' I take my time studying her figure. ''I really like it. It's ideal for your body type and the colour is gorgeous''

The violet silk dress looks perfect on her, the semi tight fit shows up her toned silhouette, the swarovski embellished spaghetti straps together with the V neck flaunt her beautiful collarbones.

''I think it looks lovely too'' the cheerful, helpful assistant comments

''Yeah I like it'' she stares at the mirror

''You can use that fitting room'' the girl gestures at an empty room smiling. How are they always so kind and happy?''It's free now''

''Thank you'' I smile back and give a long sigh standing up from the soft chair.

Reluctantly I undress myself and wear the cute midi dress. It's tight but not as much as I expected. Well it's not that bad after all, I still need Susan's opinion though and a closer look in the big mirror. A few seconds later I'm out and heading for the mirror.

''Wow'' Susan talks ''It looks... stunning''

The dress hugs my body flawlessly, emphazising my curves. The off-shoulder design is very cute but sexy at the same time because my cleavage is shown off perfectly and I'm not even wearing a push up bra. I never thought I'd look that attractive in a dress.

''It fits you like a dream. You're definitely buying it'' Susan insistsand the assistant agrees

It's elegant yet sexy. Sexy in a non provocative way since it shows off only the right places.

''I think I'm getting this one'' I finally decide and Susan winks excitedly

''Hurry up we have to go for heels as well''

''Heels? Ha''  A humorless laugh leaves my lips

''You're laughing? What are you planning to wear with this dress then?'' she crosses her arms.

Her question catches me off guard but I act cool ''Flats? I don't care, anything but heels''

She laughs sarcastic lifting a shaped eyebrow ''Flats? If you plan to wear flat shoes on my husband's party I inform you that you're not invited''

I simply pout, my eyes pleading for mercy

''Come on Skye it's a party, a bussines kinda party you don't have to walk or dance. You can deal with heels under these circumstances I'm sure''

''Okay'' I sigh defeated meeting her gaze. There's no point in agruing, she's right I need heels with the apparel I chose.

''Hurry up then'' she scolds and enters the fitting room.

Have I mentioned how much I hate shopping with my best friend?

[toastie-the-know]

The canon bases of RudeAggro!Felix and Apologetic!Dimitri

(Since I actually spent an entire evening doing this, I’m posting it because I don’t want to feel I “lost” all that time haha! I sort of do this kind of stuff for work sometimes, so this is clearly the sad fate of a person who can’t leave their work at work and brings it into their hobbies 😂 )

I’ve read a lot of Dmlx fic (in English), and have seen a lot of art, and there’s a trend I’ve noticed in the characterisations of both Felix and Dimitri that stands out to me: Rude and aggressive Felix, and Apologetic Dimitri. More specifically, Felix being rude/aggressive to Dimitri, and Dimitri apologising to Felix. The characterisations stand out to me only because my hc characterisations are more like “tsundere” Felix, and polite Dimitri. There’s obviously an overlap between “rude/aggressive” and “tsundere”, as well as “apologising” and “polite”, but they are not the same thing, at least from the part of the world I come from (I played with the JP audio on English text). I wanted to figure out if I was missing something from canon, so decided to take a short dive and check out the source material.

This meta isn’t an attack on people’s preferences. Creators of fan works depict characters in a variety of ways for personal reasons, and it’s no one’s business to pass judgement on that. I’m not trying to legitimise my hc, or delegitimise othere people’s hc. All I want to know is whether there is  strong canon basis for the characterisations, which I might have missed. I’m also not saying that “unless a characterisation is based off canon 100% it’s not legit”.  I don’t believe in that statement. Looking at canon is one way for me to see whether the “RudeAggro Felix”, “Apologetic Dimitri” is more a case of creator extrapolation, or based off something very clearly there in the canon.

So I’m gonna look at three bits of text. 1) The words and expressions used in the support conversations, both JP and EN 2) The tone in the voice acting, both JP and EN in the support conversations, and 3) Dimitri and Felix’s lines in Azure Moon route chapters + in the monastery, but only in the JP (it was easier for me to search the JP text quickly, more effort required for the EN). Of course there’s more you can glean about their characters from other supports etc, but I don’t have that much free time… 

Heads up I’m a bilingual and bicultural Japanese/Aussie (have lived in both countries), so I’m pretty confident in my interpretations of the JP text and audio.

Rude and Aggressive Felix

There’s a lot of canon for this characterisation to be based on. Listing the words and expressions Felix uses when talking to Dimitri is pretty aggressive, and is meant to be demeaning if we take it at face value.

Felix insults/expressions of aggression 

Support C

その気味の悪い笑顔で話しかけるな。/ Go away. (I would add “Don’t talk to me with that creepy/spooky/grotesque smile of yours.”)

見ているだけで胸糞悪くなる。/ Just looking at your face makes me wanna retch 黙れ。獣は獣らしくしていろ。/ Shut up. And stop walking around on your hind legs. 獣 / beast 猪 / wild boar ならばさっさと失せろ、邪魔だ。話しかけるな、この化け物が。/ Hurry up and get out of my sight.  I don’t make a habit of talking to beasts.

Support B

猪 / wild boar 貴様 / an aggressive form of addressing “you” in Japanese, although in this sentence it’s not used aggressively 阿呆が。/ Do you take me for a fool?  (I took the Japanese more along the lines of “Are you stupid?”) 腹立たしい……。/Looking at your face is making me angry (No JP equivalent) / Farewell, Your Beastliness.

Support A

獣 / beast (but used in the context of the “the face of a beast vs the face of a man” line) 手が滑って斬りつけないうちに、答えろ。Answer quickly before my hand slips and I cut you in half お前の辛気臭い顔が、癇に障って仕方なかっただけだ / I couldn’t stand the pathetic look on your face.

Stepping out of the Dimitri/Felix support conversations for a bit, we know from Felix’s other interaction he is also rude and aggressive. Calling Dedue “dog” is probably the rudest and most demeaning example we have. Telling Ingrid to go and get married is also pretty rude. So overall we have a lot of evidence that Felix is ok with being abrasive, at best. Intentionally hurtful and malicious at the worst.

So Felix is rude to Dimitri in their support conversations, but the rudeness lessens as the support levels increase.  As you can see from the list above, the number of expressions of aggression go down between conversations C and A. Felix doesn’t call Dimitri “boar” once in the A support conversation. The last line “癇に障って仕方なかっただけだ / I couldn’t stand the pathetic look on your face” is a bit tricky, since I think there’s a bit of a divergence between the JP acting and EN acting. The JP is very clearly a "tsundere" intonation, meaning there’s a vibe of “I care but am too embarrassed to admit it”. The EN was a lot less obviously for me, so if you only got the EN there’s a chance that Felix’s  “I couldn’t stand the pathetic look on your face” comes across at face value - an actual insult.

Outside the support conversations, Felix uses the words “boar/beast” to describe Dimitri specifically quite often. But the intention behind the use seems to change (from an attack on one’s character to a nickname). Looking at the AM route, lines within each chapter + in the monastery phase, we find he uses the words ten times in total. That’s a descent amount, considering the number of lines he probably has overall (I’m not that dedicated to count all his lines… proper methodology would want me to do that though…). The last two times he uses “boar” it seems more of a nickname rather than as a way to attack Dimitri’s person.

A surprise find was that Dimitri uses “beast” five times overall , in the same contexts that I checked for Felix’s use (AM route, lines within each chapter + in the monastery phase in JP). In all cases he is describing either Imperial soldiers, or the baddies at Remier village. Never in reference to himself (which I thought might come up, but didn’t).So 

TLDR; There is canon basis of Felix being rude to Dimitri, but it looks like he mellows out a lot by the end of the game.  The JP flags the “tsundere” vibes a lot more than the English.

Apologetic Dimitri

I’m gonna start with the numbers from the chapters + monastery sections first, because these are the bits that clearly form the canon basis of “apologising Dimitri”. But with some interesting twists!

As a quick and dirty measure, I searched for the characters 謝 (to catch 謝る、謝罪 etc), 悪 (to catch 悪いな、悪かった), and すまない. I didn’t search for ごめん/ごめんなさい (gomen/gomennasai) bc I bet you three cups of coffee that you won’t find Dimitri using this expression.  ごめん/ごめんなさい is more typical of children and women, or super casual. So Edelgard and Claude might use these, but not Dimitri.  

Dimitri apologise a ton in the chapters and monastery sections. For all three words, we have 16 expressions of “sorry” from Dimitri. For comparison, I just checked the first five chapters for Claude. Chapters 1-5 Dimitri apologises 7 times, while Claude apologises once. So yeah, canonically, we find good grounds for Dimitri being a person who apologises often. We’ll see later that in his other supports with Blue Lions characters, he apologies to them also.

Dimitri apologises 6 times after Rodrigue dies in chapter 18. And 4 of these apologies are concerning his behaviour while he was disengaged with the war effort/unwell. These kind of feel a bit different to the “sorry to inconvenience you” type apologies that are more typical of his sorries (see list below)

To Byleth: 4, for being boring (1), for making a weird request (1), for Byleth helping out (2) To Edelgard: 2, once about making Edelgard feel bad bc she thought he was underestimating her, and once about the poor choice of gift he gave her during their childhood. To Lonato: 2, for the general badness of the situation To Claude: 1, (but unclear to me what exactly he’s apologising about) To Dedue: 1, for surprising him To Mercedes: 1 (need to check again To a Kingdom soldier: 1, because the soldier was looking for him To Lonato’s soldier: 1, for the general badness of the situation

Most of these apologies are of the “sorry for being an inconvenience” type. This could be interpreted in a variety of ways ranging from just being polite right through to low self-esteem. Whatever the construal, it does seem objectively that Dimitri says “sorry” a lot more than other male characters who might have as many lines.

Dimitri and apologising to Felix

Dimitri apologising to Felix, we have exactly one example in the chapter conversations. In chapter 18, Dimitri says to Felix “I have no words to apologise adequately” or something along those lines, regarding Rodrigue’s death. (And shortly after, Felix addressed Dimitri by name).

We have zero cases of Dimitri apologising to Felix in the support conversations. For a quick comparison in his other support conversations, Dimitri apologises to Ashe once, Sylvain once, Ingrid once, Annette twice, Mercedes three times (but the expressions he uses are different to the three I mention earlier). Interestingly, Dimitri also doesn’t apologise to Dedue.

These numbers might just be reflecting the fact that Dimitri and Felix’s support conversations aren’t really topics where apologies would be made. Dimitri and Felix’s support conversations aren’t about burdening each other, being a nuisance, or supporting each other. Their support conversations are actually about Felix coming to terms with Dimitri’s dual nature, while Dimitri himself seems seems unbothered by it.  (The only place in canon we really see Dimitri using his words to express remorse and discomfort over his dual nature seems to  be his A+ support with Mercedes).

Dimitri’s responses to Felix’s rudeness in support C are more like indirect affirmations of Felix’s characterisations of him (“A beast craving blood, am I? I assume you’re speaking of the events two years ago”, “I deny nothing, Felix.”, “Perhaps you’re right.”). Maybe a little bit resigned. There are a handful of sad-faces. It actually seems to me that Dimitri is in general agreement with Felix.

In support B, Dimitri is unbothered by Felix’s abrasiveness. When Felix gives him a hard time, Dimitri tends to push back (“As though I would be careless with something so valuable.”, “Come now, that was so long ago!”).  In this entire exchange it’s only Felix who is bothered by something, while Dimitri seems quite oblivious to Felix’s turmoil. The final line in this support is Dimitri saying “What is going on with him…”

Support A Dimitri is quite assertive of himself  (“ Do not waste your breath on questions with such obvious answers / 当たり前のことを聞くな”, “ You are wrong/ ……違う”), still a it resigned (“Always so ominous / お前はいつも物騒だな。”), but unlike supports A and B, showing awareness of Felix’s internal state, and thanks Felix.

Dimitri seems generally unbothered by Felix giving him a hard time, and Dimitri does not apologise for his character. Dimitri seemed ok with his dual nature, while it was Felix who was more bothered by it. But by the end of the game, if support A is reached, Felix also comes around to accept the dual nature. Dimitri and Felix aren’t really in an “apologise to each other” relationship, because it seems from Dimitri’s POV, there is nothing about himself that he needs to apologise to Felix for.

So TLDR

There is good canon basis for rude/aggro Felix. There is good canon basis for apologetic Dimitri. Dimitri apologises a lot in canon, but not really Felix. The one time he apologises is concerning Rodrigue’s death. But given that Dimitri does apologise to people often for inconveniencing them, it’s not hard to imagine how Dimitri would apologise to Felix for inconveniencing him in some way.

So I don’t think I missed anything in canon, but fan creators extrapolate these canon bases into various directions. Which is cool! Because isn’t that the fun of doing fan works!

The end.

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[girlwiththeblueblood]

[..are these even Spoilers anymore..?]

I’ve definitely gone on a weird tangent, sorry, not sorry.  

After defeating the Masked Stranger, Melaina found a written order for her head. Ignoring Levi’s questions she disappeared once more.

- - - One week later, on the school’s rooftop - - -

Melaina: (bursts through the doors, slams them shut and puts her weight against them. Is now wearing a completely different set of armour. It’s more lighter and it hugs her body.)

???: (was right behind her and helps keep the doors closed. In strange robes) What is the plain now, my Knight?

Melaina: I don’t know! I’m still processing this! (The doors are being bashed from the other side) Why would my Queen betray me like this? I made an oath!

(Bang bang go the doors)

???: (gives a concerned look) I am sorry, truly I am, my father should have gone about things differently.

(The Banging continues)

Melaina: Nah, I get where he was coming from... sorry for your loss, your grace.

Princess (?): We will grieve properly later.

(Bang)

Melaina: Agreed.

Lucifer: (was taking a nap on a bench) What trouble have you gotten yourself into now?

Melaina: Luci! (She beams, she seems happy to see him)

Princess (?): (looks over) A friend of yours? How dare he speak to you like that!?

(Bang)

Melaina: (smirks) Your Grace, you don’t know the half of it!

(Bang)

Lucifer: (crosses his arms, eyes narrowed. No he’s not blushing.) Melaina, you will tell me what in the realms is going on and where you’ve been! Princess (?): You will address my Lady Knight with the proper due respect!  Melaina: My Grace, please! ...Oh.. so this is how it feels to be you, Luci.. (The door starts to splinter) Melaina: Ok, I’ve thought of something. Your Grace, when I say now, move away from the door! Princess (?): Are you sure? Melaina: Yep! Lucifer: (shaking his head sighing) ...Only you can cause this much trouble in a such simple game. Melaina: (smiles at him) Would you have me any other way? (After another bang) NOW! (Quickly they move from the doors, she hold out her hands casting a powerful ice spell. When she’s done all the creatures on the other side of the doors are frozen solid.)

Princess (?): Your magic never ceases to amaze me, my knight. Melaina: (seems out of breath, falls to her knees, red static runs down her body) Lucifer: (before he can stop himself, calls out to her) Melaina?! 

Princess (?): Wait! Don’t get to close to her!

Lucifer: (getting close to loses his patience) Explain. Now. Melaina: (manages to stand the red static dissipating) It’s a long story.

Lucifer: (steps closer, so their face to face) Now, Melaina. (speaks surprisingly soft)  Melaina: (Looks him in the eyes) Did Levi give you updates? Lucifer: Yes. He claimed you returned in a suit of armour, after being Knighted by a Queen. Then you were both attacked by a stranger in a mask. (Places his hand on his chest) Apparently there was a bounty on your head?

Melaina: Yeah. (Sighs, looks away slightly, looks a little upset) I’ll just some it up, ok? Lucifer: (concern flashes across his face, his expression soften) If you want. 

Melaina: (crosses her arms, holding herself) The Queen I was knighted by, she’s a traitor. Her brother is.. was.. the rightful King, and since I made an oath to his traitor sister, he saw me a a huge threat to his plans to take back the throne. (She looks back up at him) With me so far? Lucifer: (Nods) I believe so. Princess (?): (Is off to the side. Shipping them) Melaina: (nods back) Well, somehow the Queen found out I had met her brother and put a curse on me, I can’t cast spells without being in pain. (Looks away again) That’s what you saw. (Looks back, both their eyes meet)   Lucifer: (he isn’t worried.) And would I be right to guess that this woman is the King’s daughter? Melaina: Yep! Oh, introductions~ (Steps between them, smiling) Luci, this is Princess Olivia. Your Grace, this is Lucifer, don’t worry, he’s a friend of mine.

Princess Olivia: (gives him a curtsy) The pleasure is mine. Lucifer: (gives a small bow back in return) Apologise for my rudeness, Melaina always seems to push her luck with me. Melaina: (chuckles nervously)  Princess Olivia: (Slight smirk) Really? I find her rather endearing myself. Melaina: (Looks back to the ice at a noise she’d heard. Her eyes narrow) ...Shit. Your grace, we need to get moving. The ice is breaking! Princess Olivia: (Worried and shocked) Already?! That curse is effecting your magic more than I thought.  Lucifer: (sighs, shaking his head) Never a dull moment with you around. Melaina: I don’t think I have it in me for another spell.. But I’ve got an ace up my sleeve. (smirks, walks to the railings at the edge of the roof.)  Princess Olivia: (Follows) What do you have in mind? Lucifer: (frowning, doesn’t seem to like where he thinks this is going, follow slightly behind) Melaina: (turns around, the sun behind her, shining through her raven hair. Offers her hand out) Your grace, do you trust me? Princess Olivia: (a little star struck. Takes her hand) Always. (Is pulled up to her Knight and held close.) Oh! (Blushes)  Lucifer: (Not sure what he’s feeling, but knows he’s not a fan. He be jealous bro.) 

Melaina: (with her free hand, takes a whistle out from one of many pockets. Raises it to her lips, and blows the whistle. Waits for a moment, then smirks) Hey, Luci, can you give Levi a message for me? Lucifer: (slight smirk) We’ll see. What’s the message? Melaina: (looks off into the distance, puts the whistle back in it pocket and holds the Princess closer to her) Tell him, this is better than VR~ (throws herself and Princess Olivia off the roof.) Lucifer: (Practically has a heart attack) Melaina! (runs to look over the railings)

(A honest to Diavolo dragon flies up, has Princess Olivia and Melaina tops of it’s head.) Melaina: (holding her dragon’s horns to control where he goes. Has the dragon circle around and breath fire at the creature who were frozen within the ice.) Princess Olivia: (Holding onto Melaina by her waist. Blushing)  Lucifer: (That feeling he doesn’t like has returned)

(The dragon then flies off and towards the sunset.) Lucifer: (sighs, leans against the railings) Melaina..  You’re either the most amazing human I’ve ever met, or the most foolish and annoying one. 

(A message pops up beside him, it says that his intimacy level has levelled up.)

Lucifer: (face reddened, he swings his fist at the message and it poofs away.)

...

[finderskeepersff]

61. Part 2

Amira is trying to suppress her smile “what is funny?” I asked, I mean none of this is funny and he’s just taking things to heart “just the way he said they have been rude to me, he seems so sad about it. I’m sorry, it’s just cute Cassius. Just stood there making a cute ass point that people are being mean to him on Insta. Nigga, don’t let them get to you. She is with you, that is so funny. What they saying about you Cass?” It was cute the way he said it, he’s adorable “that I look ugly, I ain’t ugly. I know I’m not” ok Amira is right, he is being way too cute “you’re not, you’re my handsome baby. They just jealous of us, don’t mind them” walking over to him “I don’t want to be mean, like I ain’t playing that. I am trying to rebuild myself, now I’m not good enough for you. It’s not fair that I can’t just be happy” I shushed Cassius “stop” placing my hand over his mouth “you are happy, you are ok. Baby you got me, I am with you. I sleep with you at night nobody else. Stop it” placing my arms around his neck “I know, I will be that tough nigga again. Watch” I just laughed, placing my hand on his chest “I just want you happy ok? I don’t care for what they said or what they look like” Cassius pressed a kiss to my forehead “you will never leave me will you?” Furrowing my eyebrows “why would I do that, Cassius I love you, trust me. I love you and only you” Cassius nodded his head “Cass, let’s go out” Kyle said, Cassius looked behind him “I will stay with Sofia” moving back from Cassius “go with him, I will be here” it will get him out of my hair for while, he is so clingy.

Taking in a deep breath turning to Amira “girl, he is so clingy to you. Even when he was sitting at the table, he was resting his head on your shoulder. It’s cute” licking my top lip smiling “he’s aight” I shrugged “he’s aight, girl who you fooling. But I ain’t going to lie to you, Kyle been saying that word on the street is that Cassius has ran off after kicking his family out, people are saying he ain’t shit for doing that. People think he hiding from someone because like in this game, there is always someone waiting to take you down. It’s like if that top boss do happens to go, there is someone there to take it, now Kyle has been to Brooklyn. There is some new guy in town, he’s been taking some patches here and there, now Kyle thinks people are assuming Cassius is running from that but he ain’t. I think it’s difficult for Cassius because at the end of the day, there is always someone watching him, watching us and that will never stop. Kyle deep down needs him back, he feels Cassius is being too free recently. Doesn’t use the French brothers at all, he’s going out alone and walking alone. He’s either asking to be killed purposely or he thinks he’s free, hand on my heart. I don’t think he’s ready to go to Brooklyn, he’s very much on you and wants to be near you. I said to Kyle, do what you need to do so he did but he’s fucked up, ok what I am trying to say. The warehouse in Atlanta has got raided by people and all the money and drugs they had there has gone. And Kyle doesn’t know what to do, I don’t know how to advise him and he’s like a lot of money has gone and he doesn’t want to tell Cassius but it’s showing they are weak by not getting back at them. It’s a mess, we have lied to him to make it seem ok” the only thing I could do was release a deep sigh, a very deep sigh that this is not good “I don’t know what you want to do, you’re his prime carer” now I feel obliged to say something.

“You been quiet for a while now?” Amira said, I mean what does she want me to say “so Cassius goes out the game for what, a few months and it’s all collapsing around him? If I tell him this he will up and go, I don’t want that. Yes Cassius does go outside, he’s outside our home! The fuck do they want him to do? Why can’t they just leave him alone” Shaking my head as I logged onto my Insta to see what is popping off, I mean whatever was said has upset my little bald headed baby “he’s the brains behind it that is why Sofia, he’s so clever. Kyle ain’t him and I have told him that, people are scared of Cassius. Kyle is nothing” my cousins from Barbados are the cutest, I miss them so much “what you smiling at girl?” Amira jumped down from the counter “my cousins from Barbados, I kind of announced I’m having my second child and well. They are just so happy, I miss them. Also I got a weird text, someone sent me happy thanksgiving and I don’t know that number” changing the picture to Cassius and I so I can read the comments “did you not reply? Reply to it, it’s got to be someone you know” taking in a deep breath I mean the comments ain’t bad “I will, Cassius is just fussing for nothing. It’s because someone put just beautiful and you can do better, and someone put here he ugly” Amira snorted laughing “ok that was rude, fuck them. Cassius is a goodlooking man. Kyle even said how many women wanted him” I shuddered at the throught, I mean it figures on why Cassius clung onto Celine. Someone his age “yeah” I drifted off “but back to this situation, I think Kyle should tell him and then I will pick up the pieces. He’s going back to that life, I need to know how he will be so tell him that” it’s a big test for him I know.

You know when you’re watching something but you’re not taking it in, that is me right now. Kyle and his father in law are shouting at the TV, they are desperate for them to win whatever team they have chosen but I sit here mute. I didn’t get the chance to do such a thing, to have fun and watch this. I was glad to get some leftovers, even then that was nothing. I like these events but it’s also bad memories for me, I never got to be normal and I feel weird now that I am. I just feel pointless, I don’t know “you see that bro” Kyle hit my shoulder, I smiled “yeah” I laughed it off, I mean I got to play it off I know what is happening. This is what men do, drink and watch football “you remember when you bought me those basketball game tickets” I looked over at Sofia “I do yes, it was a good day. You had fun” nodding my head “I did” I drifted off, all the money in the world and I never treated myself to that. Brooklyn Nets, I am a fan but only because it’s Brooklyn, when did I get time to support them. Rubbing my head, I don’t need bad thoughts like I wish they would leave me alone. Looking up as they all shouted, I can’t do this, no wait I can “I can do this” I said to myself “what?” Sofia said at the side of me, this whole notmaility thing outside of rehab is daunting to me. Henry said things will feel it, I will feel different because I am me and I don’t like me so how can I just live, it doesn’t make sense at all “come, get up” Sofia said as she got up from the couch “Amira you ok with holding Cartier? I will be back, come on Cassius” where the hell we going.

Kyle and Amira do not look after their garden, it’s a mess and the flowers are dying and that is bad “you come here to show me flowers?” Sofia smiled shaking her head “I come outside to talk to you, you seem very stressed in there” nodding my head “I suppose” I said in a whisper “talk to me” she said talk to her but I feel bad in saying things “just feels different, you know. To be normal in there, to feel things. How do you do normal, I’ve always been high or somewhat numb to it. I just want to be in your world” Sofia cooed out “I want to be in your world too, that is fine Cassius. To experience new feelings is good, something you didn’t get to do or have. My heart aches for you Cassius because” Sofia sighed out “no matter what you do, your name sticks. You have this stuck to you, you’re a dealer. Well the boss but this will be always stuck with you and no matter what you do you can’t escape that” putting my head down “I know I’m being watched, I was in the barbers and the guy was sat waiting to have his hair done but he was there watching me, I’ve been getting watched since I come back, when I’m out there. I know I can’t escape it, this is why reality is not good to me. It’s only good in your world and to get into your world I have to be with you and to be with you I need to be home. I knew I was being watched and I still left on my own” I have known for a while “you’re really hurting me” Sofia said “I didn’t say because why would I, I’m a grown man I can handle myself” I really knew but never said “it proves that mentally Cassius you’re there. You know what you’re doing, I look into your eyes and I see you’re lost, hurting. Talk to me” nodding my head “being normal sucks, my reality sucks. That is it” Sofia’ face softened “but with you I’m ok, I just want to be with you” Sofia walked towards me “come here” Sofia opened her arms “reality does suck but baby” resting by head on her shoulder “but baby you got me, Cartier, Kyle and Amira and all my friends. We all love you, I get that you have been drugged up to be this machine but even the strongest people break, I know you Cassius and I know you are a very clever man. Just that the world doesn’t deserve you” closing my eyes, just to be in Sofia’ embrace.

We have been here for so long, I just want to go home “Cassius, it’s Raphael. He needs to speak to you” Kyle said “you speak to him” I said “I don’t want to speak to him! I want to speak to the boss!” Kyle has him on speaker phone, the room is so eerily quiet now but luckily everyone is asleep besides Amira and Sofia and also Kyle “I couldn’t talk to him Cassius, I’m sorry” why is he apologising “Cassius my friend, you stop hiding” licking my top “I’m sorry bro” taking the phone from him, taking it off speaker phone “yes” I answered “what the fuck!” He shouted in my ear “you had me dealing with amateurs! He is not you, he doesn’t know how to move anything! What the fuck!! You motherfucker, playing games?” I really can’t care less “I needed time away” I can only say the truth “oh brother, time costs money. And money that we losing, you have idiots! When have you decided to replace the drugs we lost huh? My money, where is it. Why are we down Cassius, why is Atlanta not been running right because you wanted a break? You think drug business waits? You my son, you have been one piece of shit I been dealing with. I thought you died and then my friend says he’s here, a picture of you playing with flowers? You ok? The brains! That is what you are and you ran away and left us with Kyle, he is not you. Our drugs got hit twice! You hear that? Twice?” What is he on about “how can that be unless we have another snake?” That is bullshit “no, no snake just pure stupidity from your side, people think you ran away and now think they can run riot but no, Cassius is hiding like a pussy!” Taking in a sharp breath “Raphael, if I wanted I can come there and break your neck. You come correct when you speak to me, I am your fucking boss! You sold me your business. You needed me here. In France you may be shit but here you ain’t shit! I will come there and beat you” Raphael laughed “welcome back, see you soon then to beat my ass” he disconnected the call, the phone line went dead and I moved the phone away from ear. It’s a waste of time, being this is a waste. My hand tightened around the phone “fuck!” I shouted and threw Kyle’ phone “Cassius” Sofia said but I snatched my arm away.

So many thoughts are running through my mind right now, I don’t know what the fuck to think about or do. You know when you feel the pressure building on you, you feel the weight of everything on you, this is me. I feel like everyone is staring at me, and they are. I mean I knew that, I knew this would happen. I do have idiots here, I mean Kyle is just an idiot overall, it was Mylen that was good. Turning around as I continued to play with my bottom lip with my fingers, looking over at Kyle “he tried Cassius, I mean I can tell you the truth. He has tried his best, he did this for you Cassius. Nobody else, he didn’t want to ruin your bubble” I sniggered “that burst, so would you like to explain. I am being really calm right now, I mean I am getting followed everywhere, which is fine. I don’t care but how bad is it? Because you got to remember, Raphael’ business is mine now, we run his part and I am failing on this” Kyle put his head down “we lost the warehouse” Kyle said in a whisper “huh?” I said, I didn’t hear that really “we lost the warehouse, I was seeing to other things. Cassius you go to understand this!” Kyle spat as I got closer to him “you meaning to tell me a whole warehouse of my drugs is gone? How is the club operating? On air, I ain’t going to kill you so don’t look at me like that” Kyle swallowed hard “so what was you doing? Tell me the truth? Let me guess, you had issues in Miami so you ran off there to be with Anira and left my shit wide open like some pussy, you did that and I know you. You fucked up my shit, you being real. And you right Sofia I don’t want to hear it, I don’t want to fucking hear it!” I spat, I know her ass will start speaking on shit I don’t want to hear it “you know what, all of y’all fuck yourselves because it’s the lies that get on my nerves” I am bored of them all, hiding shit away from me when my shit is on the ground.

I don’t want to be with anyone, I don’t want too see or hear anyone. I am just going to sit on my own and think, think so much my brain explodes. This is big, this is not small. You know how hard I work, how much bloodshed goes into doing this and he did this. So now there will be more bloodshed for what, being he’s an idiot. I just needed him to oversee, for him to show people we are good and he can’t do this “you have been quiet Cassius, it’s late I don’t mind listening. You got me on the phone for something” Henry said on speakerphone “it’s dumb, this whole process is dumb. I just wanted to let you know that” he needs to know “Cassius, what is it? Don’t call me spitting your pacifier out, something happened and now you’re upset” what does he know “you and I both know I work with drugs, something failed” I ain’t going into detail “then let it fail, this is a blessing you needed. That life is your past Cassius. Step outside it” looking in my rear view mirror “I will be stepping outside, I will call you tomorrow. Night” disconnecting the call, getting out of the car. I might as well just see to the dickhead following me, slamming the car door shut “Cassius” and here I was going to beat their asses “not like you to follow me now” she got a new nigga with her too “missed you too Cassius” she still likes me.

Lighting my blunt, moving the blunt back away from my lips “you here to arrest me Kalia, I know you like me handcuffs a lot” blowing the smoke out “where is Anne? Fired?” them two lesbian lovers are never apart “we know who your informant is Cassius, how was Rehab?” see this is why I hate that bitch “can’t I go rehab? Trying to change for my family you see” she laughed “right, just like you burned your family home, change you say? Laying low now? You know what Cassius, I know everything but I can’t prove it, you’re playing by the book. That girl of yours has you at bay I guess” she is funny “you fucked her yet? She tends to like fucking her suspects and colleagues too, look I am just sat here minding my business. What do you want? You ain’t even from here, so what is it?” this blunt has worked wonders, for me anyways “investigating the warehouse that was on fire here, it seems to be linked to Brooklyn. You know anything?” I am sure that was my warehouse “what warehouse? I will never understand why you chase me around, it’s weird” Kalia smirked at me “just checking on you, remember Cassius. We will always be behind you, Connor can you wait in the car for me” the guy is called Connor, leaning on my car as he walked away, I wonder what she wants “Anne got killed, by one your people and I know they are yours. You and that little French man, you think I am stupid Cassius. I know it all but I need proof. I am just here because of things going on, we are passing on information to one another about, connecting you to thing and yes your informant is gone” taking in a deep breath “that’s cute for you, if you wasn’t such a dickhead we could have been best friends” if I was single, I would dick her down and let her be on my side “sure Cassius” flicking my blunt “what do you want? A kiss?” she just laughed “I’ll be in touch” she walked off.

Throwing my car key to the side, I had time to think I guess “you’re back, I couldn’t sleep” Sofia came out of nowhere “I am back, I just needed time to think” Sofia stood in front of me, searching my eyes while Cartier also stared at me like he is searching for something in me “I ain’t high, I didn’t do anything if you thinking that. I just had a blunt” if she don’t quit staring at me like I am lying “I get worried, we can talk about it” shaking my head “I just want to sleep, I ain’t going to fuck up. Not the both of you” I need to let this idea marinate in my mind first but I am still thinking why that Kalia let information slip, what does she want “we go to sleep? Look, I don’t want you and Kyle fighting, I want you to just talk to me, I want you to take a step back and think about what you are doing?” hugging Sofia “I know, I think I needed a slap to the face” I needed to wake up “but you need to look after you” Sofia hugged me “I got you for that” I will punch Raphael when I see him, I need to get my business back in line and I will be even more powerful then I was and I am clear minded this time. Moving back from the hug “let me hold” I said as I took Cartier from Sofia “you was waiting for me too” pressing a kiss to his cheek “we good Sofia, it’s fine” I am going to be calm about this and I ain’t fucking up, I got too much to lose.