#and how they exist only in memory
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(not to get personal on the main but—
thinking about how when people die, the first year of your life literally sucks and every conversation you have, you cant help but to bring them up.
“the weather, its raining”
“he loved the rain”
and year two sucks too. maybe year three is a little bit better and then four and five and six roll by
and you stop bringing them up in casual conversation.
you no longer think of them when the wind blows or when theres ice cream cake at the grocery store—instead they shift to being thought about on special occassions. birthdays, anniversarys, christmas—
theres still a seat for him at the table
light a candle for her, smile out at the sunset
seven, eight
and suddenly you have new people and youre in a new stage of your life and you havent mentioned them once.
it comes up finally and they gasp
“oh im sorry i didnt know”
and you realized you had never mentioned it.)
#and thats how people become memories#and how they exist only in memory#and i almost miss the days where your name was a punctation mark in my sentences
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acting like markhellyna and markgemma are in any way in competition with one another is so fucking funny like for one thing she is dead. and for another we literally don't know anything about her. and for a third what show do you think you're watching.
#love transcends severance and that includes love for and of gemma#but gemma is gone. gemma only exists in mark and his memory and the way he knows how to love helly#and whatever he finds inside lumon is not going to be gemma#which is a GOOD THING bc you CANNOT GO BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so why are people acting like it's one or the other like i am afraid that is not what we are doing....#and why would you want it to be#severance
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Sky and Orianna really are two sides of the same coin. Sky's a woman who's life was portrayed as completely expendable to the ones closest to her (Viktor and Jayce, don't even get me started on thag time travel stuff). Meanwhile, Orianna is the girl that her father would doom the world and all it's inhabitants to save.
And in no way are their stories actually about them in any shape or form. Their existence is a statement on the character of the men around them. Frankly you could argue that both Sky and Orianna are rendered inhuman by Viktor and Singed respectively, is an extension of how they've been objectified in the story.
#arcane#arcane meta#sky young#orianna lol#orianna reveck#corin reveck#singed#singed lol#viktor arcane#it's so depressing to think about those two sometimes#it feels so pointed that orianna was turned into a little girl just to portray her as more helpless#and i can't overstate how literally no one gives a shit that sky is dead#in life+death+2nd life she only exists to/for viktor on an emotional/narrative level#even Finn's death was acknowledged more than Sky's#the sky-orianna fusion theory is pretty cool but i can't imagine where she has her emotions or memories intact#and she DOESN'T go nuclear on the whole place#imagine if the sky in the hexzone is connected to all the other skys' that died#and then you put all those memories of pain betrayal and anguish into a little girl who was not only comatose for what seems like decades#but is in a body that is completely alien to her#this is a greater hell than claudia in iwtv#it's insane how completely unintentional this all is
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Do you ever think about how one of the most emphasized elements of Zexion's character is that he does NOT like doing things himself? Multiple journal entries and multiple moments in Chain of Memories to let us know that he can and will make someone else do things he doesn't want to deal with. And then he goes to try to take out Riku by himself.
It could have been pride, and I bet a little of it was that. Zexion is displayed with a lot of it- Riku not dying when Zexion expected sent him into an entire breakdown. He might have thought there was no way he could have failed.
But Zexion also shows that he knows when to retreat and, crucially, here's where the first point comes in- he does not like proving himself. That's Vexen (and Zexion knows it and manipulates it to get Vexen to do certain things for him).
The Chain of Memories journal entry says Zexion was forced into action thanks to the demise of Vexen and Lexaeus, but... no he wasn't. Riku didn't know he existed and everyone else was off the radar, he wasn't in active danger. It would have been so easy and the smart decision to retreat and regroup, and I think Zexion has a certain balance of obedience and self-assuredness that would have allowed him to go back to the Castle expecting Xemnas to understand why he retreated. The operation is in shambles. It's only Zexion and Axel left, Sora's disappeared, Naminé's run off, and Riku and Repliku are still fucking around upstairs. He could try to salvage what he could and take out Riku, or he could leave Oblivion in tatters like Axel was clearly going to and make someone else deal with it (tbh because of how things played out I actually think Riku would have been worse off without Zexion doing what he did. that dire moment is when Riku had his breakthrough moment). I think the latter option would have been more in character-
IF NOT FOR THE FACT THAT AS FAR AS ZEXION WAS AWARE, RIKU WAS THE ONE WHO KILLED LEXAEUS
We don't even know how Zexion "felt" about Lexaeus's death since Axel came in like immediately and Zexion refuses to let his peers know he has facial expressions and honestly an analysis of Zexion and Lexaeus's relationship would be too long but Lexaeus cares about him and in some strange way, Zexion cares back. And Lexaeus lost. And Riku was the one who did it. And... was the level of psychological torment Zexion put Riku through really necessary for killing him?
The most fucked up thing about this interpretation is that it means Zexion's final decisions were guided not just by emotion, but by emotion felt for someone else. and it killed him
#don't I even warrant a hello Lexaeus?#the organization used to be the rope that bound us together.......#zexion talks of the bond we share as an organization but how can such a thing exist?#still he remains the only one I can trust#kingdom hearts#chain of memories#zexion#lexaeus#me post#I am thinking about them very frequently#please refer to my pinned post also#yes yes I know it's all actually because he's a villain who needs to be an obstacle and then taken out within the game#and he wasn't picked for most special boy like axel was#but it's unfathomably boring to talk about organization members that way
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Chara: I'm wanting everything to end instantly
Asriel: And I'm wanting to go on unchanging forever
🔥🔥🔥THE BEEF WITH LINEAR TIME SIBLINGS🔥🔥🔥
#dreemurr siblings#undertale#Chara Dreemurr#Asriel Dreemurr#demon siblings#Chara wants oblivion and Asriel wants eternity#Chara needs a limit. They just want want to reach the ending (they are the narrator after all? isn't guiding the story to its end literally#their job?). That's why they're so impatient and care so much about efficiency#Asriel is associated with infinity the same way Chara is associated with 9999999. Even in-life the idea that there could be a limit scared#him to no end no matter how high it was he hates the idea that one day Chara won't be there anymore and he won't be able to make good#memories with them anymore. He resets over and over and over because he just can't let go. You do the same once thing once with Chara#hey look! I did a thing#and they instantly insult you over it. They are annoyed and baffled and bored out of their mind. You reached the ending did you not?#Why on earth did you erase it? And why in the angel's name are you here AGAIN?#what a strange child...#little prince#brotp: angels or demons?#Neither of them can truly get what they want. Can they? It's not how the world naturally works? Nothing lasts forever on an individual#level but at the same time... everything can't just end at once (not usually anyway...)#wanting to stay forever and wanting to escape immediately...of course it could never end well. Get me to the ending! And please don't let#this end. There's an AU somewhere in which they're almost deities and literally embody eternity and oblivion.#looks at Asriel: boy why you so Siffrin coded? ...Still can you blame him for the please don't leave me sthick Chara told him that they're#only here because they tried to erase themself from existence. It seems Chara mentions it again later.#Of course he's worried about them...''mysteriously disappearing'' or something similar. Not that I don't also understand#Chara wanting everything to end the world hadn't been kind to them so far. Plus they have a destiny don't they? They're the one from the#surface and the future of humans and monsters#They have a duty to free the monsters and complete the prophecy...one way or another
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I don't know what I love more, the fact that as rook you can make a statement in NO uncertain terms that you are NOT responsible one way or the other for the theological implications of the shit you're discovering in the 'regrets of the dread wolf' memories. not my jurisdiction. quite simply none of my business. not my chantry circus not my chantry monkeys. irrelevant to the matter at hand here we'll kill that god if we get to him he can get in line. or if the best thing about it is seeing the lone little 'lucanis approves' that pops up right after choosing it. corvid with a knife about to commit deicide keeping it real and sensibly, pragmatically, wilfully agnostic with me here in this magical lighthouse today
#we do not see it. we cannot read all of a sudden.#rye having war flashbacks to watcher conferences and firmly going 'we are *not* getting derailed by the metaphysics here folks'#rare stern moderator/dad hat moment from ingellvar lol. he's Seen Some Shit in his time (debates that raged over the multiple#and not always concurrent life times of the participants involved. ain't no academic rivalry like watcher academic rivalry#because watcher academic rivalry doesn't stop even when everyone involved is dead. and the rest of us have to live with it)#I. do not think the way I'm getting this quest is how it's meant to be experienced so I'm a bit at a loss as to how to pace it out#I've been an annoying little completionist so I have ALL the statues and could just marathon it out#but that does not feel like the best way for the story and upcoming reveals to work. hm. how to do this#I'm supposed to go fail to save weisshaupt right around now I can't be having study group with all of you rn as much of a delight as it is#rye is nominally an andrastian as mainstream nevarrans generally are but as I gather is the case with many of the watchers#what he *actually* believes in is the grand necropolis itself haha#(and the philosophy of history memory death and relationship (as well as responsibility) between the past and the present#and indeed the future that it represents. we have a duty. to what has been to what is and to what will come after us. good shit)#the nevarran/mortalitasi element just makes their lack of care or respect for chantry orthodoxy *mwha* that extra bit special#the nevarran lack of concern bordering on quiet condescending disdain for official chantry doctrine and policy my beloved#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#poor harding really is living through the most relentless 'if this is the maker testing my faith he sure be testing me' gauntlet of all tim#good news: god might be real! bad news: god might not even be a real thing but more like a magical accident or vibration or something#honestly tho. if we could get full lovecraftian incomprehensible to human conception the maker -- He is a particle and a wave style --#that's the only way I'd be cool with him or them actually answering the question of his existence. that'd be kind of sick#'yes. but no. but maybe. depends on how you define god. and exist. and he. and does.' *ingellvar sets of the METAPHYSICS!! klaxon#that's a time out folks good game but easy on the jargon and navel-gazing definition of terms next round#rye and lucanis have some slightly differing views about at what exact stage of a problem murder becomes a valid solution#('well you just kill them and then I'm the one who has to deal with the next much longer part')#but they're surprisingly kind of vibing on a lot of other stuff lol. good for them <3#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar
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Re:Initialization
So while I had joked lightly that in NxC both Volnutt and Juno are experiencing amnesia, I think I figured out how the latter ended up with it. It's implied that the Legends characters are from some point after the end of the first game, and that Meio brought back Juno somehow. Even if we were to assume some traces of Juno's data made it to Eden, his body was still destroyed. So it's possible this lead to some complications in putting him back together.
Does that sound familiar?
This all started because I wanted to do better in drawing Juno's sleeping face and it kinda spiraled from there. I won't apologize.
#now how does that explain why juno was able to regain his memories faster than volnutt? I have no idea#iirc he seemed to only be missing the last few moments of his existence so honestly there wasn't a lot that was lost#by the way no. drawing juno with his eyes open does to make anything “easier”.#in fact that feels wrong I don't think I should be looking at him in this way for that long (though they're still pretty to draw)#also I was thinking to get more full-body shots so I can draw juno's arms some more but then I realized all the dialogue ate that space#doodle-daas#comics#namco x capcom#megaman juno#rockman juno#grandmaster meio#solo#strider hien#(they in de shadows but still here so they must be tagged :) )
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Game: here are some cool new features to make ur homescreen more customisable!! Have more of that You flavour!!
Me: All i need is his smile
#i took a screenshot using the Actual InGame Function but the pic looked...TOO empty#so here u have a screenshot of my homescreen exactly as i see it every time i open this accursed game#idk. something about the way the buttons crowd into eiden's side and feetsies. comforting. nice snug basket#I'm not an elaborate decorator#u peek over at my screen in a sim game with features like the cabin minigame?#it's just bare walls and a chair. maybe 2 chairs. maybe i add and remove the same chair every other day to get the daily achievement#my homescreen used to be a rotating roster of clan members that shared stage presence with Classic Eiden#bc Classic Eiden must be on my home screen at all times. in case i need to reference his outfit#you think with how many times I've drawn him#i wouldn't need to look at him for reference#nope. he is a blue blob to me. clothing doesn't exist in my visual memory#ever since i put bunny eiden in there with him#i probably won't go back to the other chars#eiden plus eiden on home screen is perfect for me#they don't trigger a convo within seconds of idling#just silence. er-- chosen bgm. and two eidens i can stare at#i think you can only turn character interaction on/off entirely?#you can't have em on your screen AND...have them nOt talk#i want to stare at my chosen home screen characters. silently. peacefully#instrumentals only?#i COULD just turn off the sound on my phone#but then how will i groove to instrumental bgm#bright purity while 2 eidens with cute faces stare back at me#this is what peak idle enjoyment is#nu carnival eiden
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every day i think of xmen evolution wanda and everyday i wonder if- while she does have the fake happy memories with magneto- how does she actually FEEL about him when he's brought up or she thinks about him
is there just this underlying anger/rage but she cant ever place why so she ignores it ....... does she just feel numb ....
#snap chats#an idea ive wanted to try exploring for Ever but i cant be serious for more than two seconds vjLAKJLKJ#mastermind could only put illusions in her head not change how she feels no.... shrug...#like yk what i mean ... you cant control or explain feelings they just exist. you can THEORIZE why theyre existin but they just come to be#so i wonder if internally her brain knows somethings wrong but because its a feeling it cant be justified to her#she was p upset about him dying against apocalypse so ... shrug ... but is it because she loves/cares for him#or because she has those underlying questions that now she cant get the answer to... prob not but im forced to wonder#if she has all these great memories with him why does she never see him ... etc etc..#sometimes i think when pietro told her the memories were fake on the subway thats why she got mad#like it was confirming something in her she didnt want to already admit or something along those lines#idk. im still forever miffed by the potential lost with magneto and his kids#just one extra season .. an extra ep to explore them more idk .... just feels like there coulda been more done..#oh wanda my dear wanda i wanted so much more for you in evo..
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is the concept of Cubic Monsters connected to the Aigami's idea of dimensional superiority?
#hear me out here#duel monsters was initialy a 2d game that was bought into 3d by the duel disk technology#we live in 4d environment with three spatial dimensions: length breath and height & the dimension of time that we can only go forward in#cubic monsters exist in a base 3d environment with added time dimensions#we can see that with how vijam can teleport in a given space; something that we see aigami do as well#this implies that aigami is used to a dimension higher then the 4d one kaiba (and us) lives in#and aigami's threat to send kaiba to a lower dimension implies the existence of higher dimensions as well#and aigami's control over the traansportation of people to these lower dimensions implies that he might have come from a higher dimension#aigami's ability to manipulate people's memories might be related to him being from a higher dimension as well#hopefully this makes sense and i'm right#if not eh i'm not the smartest person in this anyway#cide watches yugioh#yugioh#cide watches yugioh dsod#yugioh dsod#dark side of dimensions#aigami#aigami ygo
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my name is... it's...
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#vampire akane au#zero escape#zero escape 999#zero escape spoilers#junpei 999#junpei zero escape#image id in alt text#vlr spoilers in tags ->#junpei tenmyouji#i should fully type out how thralls usually work in this au#but tldr is that junpei is considered an oddity because he's not completely mindless and can still make his own choices#while most thralls only exist to serve the vampire they're connected to#that's not to say that junpei doesn't struggle with his mind not being entirely his#there are a lot of times where he flat out cannot remember things that don't pertain to akane. he's forgotten what his own name is before#and he persistently has to deal with brainfog and the difficulties that come with it#thankfully akane will readily remind him of what he forgets when she knows it#but who knows how many gaps in his memory he has when she doesn't know something?
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#1650
what sort of a bullshite fantasy could an author write if they despise magic and think it is not real. it is absolutely real. math is real, and math is magic, as nobody is able to comprehend where has it come from or why. communication at our levels is magic. or lives are, too.
magic is how we explain the existing but inexplicable things.
this silly explanation gets our consciousness a well-deserved rest even if and when it wants to understand why are were not what are we (which it can study but still wont be able to answer, why)
understanding magic as a whoosh at the table in lieu of that, for it to appear a dinner is…
an understanding a fantasy author cannot afford really.
the author of a fantasy book must know realities of life in order to write fantasy—whilst they know whooshes aren't possible, the feel of the perception of magic definitely is present in all of us. denying that very much real, existing, lively feeling is a full equal of denying the existence of the trans folk or the intersex folk or asexual folk— any folk that cannot be comprehended by a small, isolated, poor brain.
a poor brain is prone to delusions. it wants to challenge the universe that somehow created so much forms of life on a single planet for unfathomable number of billions of years. it yells at a cloud that has seen civilisations fall and the birth of this planet for making it see incomprehensible people and to feel something it cant understand.
frankly i do not know why jкr is like this. she is a living rot of a human being: unempathetic twatwaffle who does not deserve a single cent or respect even for being another human. there are things that make people fall so low; to me, it's when they are this senile, and you might already know the next word i want to say about them: you give them a forever rest.
yet i think ignoring her is not a solution. she's a not a small figurine; she's a titan, and titans are fought to death, not left unseen in the dark; it is what i meant by the 'forever rest', however, i do not mean death as the one and only solution. i meant, 'so irrelevant that she is as good as dead'.
how does one achieve this? aggressive economic reforms, i suppose. social policies will follow suit, and as it's economically more viable to have less pointlessly gendered world, jкr and her cronies wouldn't have much of a footing any longer when that inadvertently and inevitably happens.
#днявочка#eng tag#днявочка: фандомное#*sigh* i have a Loaded Opinion of how to diss jкr which is in its short form is:#she hates mandatory education and curiosity and the history of science because it attacks her skewed and fragile beliefs#and moreso destroys them altogether and she hates that the reality does not bend to her delusions of a person who should've ->#-> or would've been long dead were we all living back in the 1800s or earlier. she's the consequence of the extended longevity ->#-> of our ever-so-suffering poor species who previously wouldn't have so much senility walking among the living ->#-> not to mention these senile people have voices on the internet and because they're celebs *some nations* prefer them to politics#aka if you treat her as the bigger devil that that it makes you feel that u must hunt internet accounts for hр you are a part of the proble#dont do that. it will achieve nothing but build her a pr point. instead focus on making hр the thing of the past not present#she is stringent about criticism too. she only acknowledges the british interpretation of the common sense as well#the best you can do now is to use her IP to explain science through its birthplace in magick and its practices without standing too far awa#as you have to use hр as your canvas. because *it is yours*. your and your friend's osmosis. your culture. your past. not hers#which is i feel is the key: she tries to present it as relevant but it is only so because it's remembered by a roughly billion#treat it as the relic from the past long gone from a world no longer existing but in memory and that's how you *might* push her#in order to fight your enemy you must understand their weaknesses unless you are able to sweep hit them in one go#but i doubt much anything can be done if the only thing you do is sit on the internet instead of entering political fields#political fields as in all of this is a non-issue almost everywhere outside of the anglophone world
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How do you find pose references for all those gorgeous and cute and aaaaaaa drawings. H o w. Where. (<-from someone struggling to draw characters interacting)
(if you don't use references, take it as a compliment to your godly anatomy and posing skills)
I don't really use references for poses that much. I'm not sure how to explain this without sounding weird but when I'm about to draw something, I visualize it in my mind, and when it's character art I sort of see them as 3D models that can be posed and rotated. And I just sort of try to replicate that on paper, sometimes it's easy and sometimes it doesn't work out at all (a good reminder that when you browse someone's art, you usually only see the pieces that the artist is at least passably proud of, not the piles of failed projects that went nowhere).
#when I use references it's usually for very specific poses and gestures that I'm not familiar with#if I were to draw someone shooting a crossbow or tap dancing or weaving on a loom#I'd have to look up references because you can only do those actions in a particular way or it doesn't look right#and I have no clear visual memory of what that action looks like#but if it's a common general casual everyday pose like a guy sitting or lying down in a way or another#you can draw that in so many different ways you can just position them however you want and it will look believable#and a lot of my poses are general everyday poses#I dunno that's how it works for me#definitely use references if you're unsure or drawing something you've never drawn before#but once you get sorta comfortable I personally feel like it's a lot more fun and interesting to draw from memory and imagination#this got rambly and I'm sorry I couldn't direct you to a pose reference databank of some kind I know they exist but I've never used them#answered#anonymous
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one of the many things that pisses me off about the talamasca website thing is that they somehow don’t have a birthday for daniel, a famous author/journalist who would absolutely have a wikipedia page at the very least, but they gave claudia, a character whose lack of biographical info is crucial to her character bc her past was essentially disregarded by lestat and louis in order to more completely slot her into the role of their daughter, a canon birthday that’s not actually her birthday and it’s so important that it’s not her birthday
#also the last names they gave claudia. how fucking stupid.#she isn’t actually their daughter! she doesn’t have a last name! she only exists in the memories of those that knew her in life!#you can’t look her up! she’s a ghost in every way that matters! and that’s the tragedy of her!#she fights to gain independence and to separate herself from her parents but has become so inextricably tied to them even in death#she doesn’t even have a corpse left behind#the only proof she ever lived is her diaries and the memories of the ppl who wronged her (and a photo in the show)#anyway i’m normal#amc iwtv
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(10/10) Epic of Salvation - LE Event Story Translation (UR Tokiya, SR Cecil)

Synopsis: ...Once upon a time, there was a war between humans and demons in the world, and the human fought them off with the "power" that was bestowed upon them by heaven. However now that time has passed, the "power" somehow begin to faded away—A royal fantasy drama passionately performed by Tokiya and Cecil is about to start!
Ch 1:

Tokiya: …~♪ Phew. I wonder if the prayer that I put into the song finally reached someone. Tokiya: (Hm? That sound just now… don't tell me an intruder? …No, the castle's security should be well-guarded) Tokiya: Who's there? Quietly show yourself. Tokiya: Wha… A woman…inside a light? You, are you okay? Tokiya: Oh, you wake up, thank goodness. …You don't seem to be injured. Here take my hand, can you get up? Tokiya: Well then… let me ask you once again. Who are you, and how did you end up lying here. Besides what exactly is those light… Tokiya: …Oi, why didn't you say anything. You could at the very least give me a name… Tokiya: You know nothing? You don't have any memory, you said? Tokiya: …Looks like you're not lying. I do want to trust you but… Tokiya: What's the matter? If you can somehow remember something, no matter how little it is… Tokiya: …You heard a song, you said? Tokiya: You were being led by a singing voice, and that's why you're here. …. Tokiya: (If what she said was the truth, then it matched up with what the legend says. It would also fill up the reason as to why she suddenly appeared too) Tokiya: (And yet that mysterious light just now… Don't tell me, she's actually…) Tokiya: (…No, it's too early to jump to conclusion. Let's wait for a while and see the situation. Besides my song is just a song after all) Tokiya: Hm? Oh… The one who sang just now was me. Tokiya: … I-I see. I'm grateful to hear a compliment from you. Tokiya: It's getting late now. I'll show you around the castle. If you have an amnesia, you probably don't have anywhere to go to, right. Tokiya: You don't need to hold back. Besides I'd feel bad leaving you out here alone in the night. ….Ah, right, I haven't introduce myself, didn't I. Tokiya: My name is Tokiya. I'm the prince of this country.
Ch 2:

-Edelduhr* Castle's Lakeside- Vassal: Prince Tokiya, so this is where you have been. I've brought the person from yesterday. Tokiya: Oh, good work. …Well then, did you sleep well yesterday? …That's good. Tokiya: Let me introduce myself once again. I'm… the prince of this country, Edelduhr Empire, Tokiya. Vassal: Tokiya-sama is the "third prince" of a noble imperial blood. Please be careful as to not be disrespectful toward him. Tokiya: …Cough. You can return now and continue with your duties. Tokiya: …Although it's only been a night, how's your condition. Did you remember something…? Tokiya: Though it's not like it'll be that easy to recover them huh. Sorry, you can forget about that just now. Tokiya: …What's with that look on your face. Is it so surprising that I'd believe in your story? Tokiya: It's true that I was a bit skeptical of it at first, but… I do have a few things in mind regarding you. Tokiya: …Or what, are you telling me that your true identity was actually an assassin targeting a royal family? Tokiya: …I was just kidding. You don't have to deny it so seriously. Tokiya: I don't sense any hostility or malice from you. I have an ability to discern whether someone is a threat or not after all. Tokiya: …It's not something to be praised for. I've just been trained like this since I was a child. Tokiya: It's a skill that you should have in order to protect yourself. …Especially, for someone like me. Tokiya: …Hm? Oh no, it's nothing. Anyway, I have a suggestion for you. Tokiya: Why don't you live here in the castle and be my caretaker for a while? Tokiya: This is the place where all kinds of information gathered here. Maybe one of them might be related to your memories. Tokiya: It might be much more efficient than just randomly searching for clues, right? So, how about it? Tokiya: …All right, well then I'm going to make an arrangements to welcome you. You don't need to thank me. Tokiya: If there's anyone who lost their way, I will lend them a hand. That's what you should do as someone who was born to lead their people.
*: I'm translating it as Edelduhr's Empire for now. The jp name was エーデルドゥール and you can read it as ēderudo~ūru in romaji.
Ch 3 :

-A few days later- Cecil: So Tokiya, where is she right now? Tokiya: Wait for a moment. She'll come soon… Oh, look there she is. We're right here. Cecil: Oh, so you're that rumoured "Messiah"! I've been wanting to meet you. Cecil: As I thought, you're such a wonderful person. She looks as if she's a goddess herself. Tokiya: Hey Cecil, look you're bothering her. …I'm sorry for surprising you. Tokiya: This person is a prince from a neighbour country called "Forsden* Kingdom", Cecil. Our country are on good terms with each other. Cecil: Nice to meet you, I'm Cecil. I'm the 3rd prince just like Tokiya, I hope we can get along well. Tokiya: Why you… This is your first time meeting her, so why don't you be a little bit more polite— Cecil: I've heard from Tokiya. You were attracted by his singing voice and that's how you came to this country, right? Cecil: To think that the legendary "Messiah" herself has appeared right before my eyes. It's very assuring to know. Cecil: Eh…you never heard of this story before? Tokiya, you didn't tell her? Tokiya: …I have no proof that she is what we're talking about. Besides I didn't think it was the time to talk about it yet. Cecil: But, she appeared right on this lakedise, didn't she? Isn't that literally matched with what the legend of Edelduhr says? Tokiya: It would be rash to judge based on the current situation alone. I can't be sure until I actually see the Messiah's "power" within my own eyes. Tokiya: And most importantly, she has lost her memory. Talking about it like this will only make her more confused. Cecil: Oh, so that's what it is. It seems like Tokiya really care about you. He may look grumpy, but deep down he's kindhearted. Tokiya: Don't you make fun of me. ….But well, I can't keep quiet about it forever, can I. Tokiya: It might be quite an ambiguous story and it may also be a burden toward you…but even so, would you like to listen to it? Tokiya: …Thank you. First, let me explain the situation of our country right from the very beginning.
*: Same with before, I've just translate this one as Forsden (the same as mtl). The jp name was フォルスデン and you can read it as forusuden in romaji.
Ch 4:

Tokiya: A long time ago, there were frequent wars that happened between humans and demons in the world. Tokiya: The demons have an overwhelming physical capabilities, and we as humans are no match for them in a proper fight. It was even impossible to communicate with them. Tokiya: However, there were some people who bravely stood up against them. Those people are the one who held special "powers" in their hands. Cecil: For example, some people could freely control the wind at will. While the others could create fire and water, or even heal an injury. Cecil: …And like this the "power" that people can use varies from one and another. Tokiya: People worshipped this "power" that exceeded human knowledge as a gift from the heaven, and those who defeated the demons became heroes. Tokiya: Eventually, they created their own countries, thus establishing the world as we know it today. Cecil: Among the several countries that were formed, Tokiya's country, Edelduhr in particular gathered a lot of people with special "powers". Cecil: As a country that was deeply influenced by the breath of God, it had become a great empire that reigned at the center of the world. Tokiya: …That was once in the past. As time passes the world will change as well. Tokiya: The "power" that was once abundant in the world a long time ago has faded with the passage of time and become a rare commodity. Tokiya: Nowadays, the only people who have "power" are the imperial family, a few members of the aristocracy, and a handful of ordinary people. Tokiya: …Me? No, I'm just a normal human with nothing in my hands. Cecil: I'm also the same as Tokiya. I'm supposed to be a member of the royal family, but I can't even use those "power". Cecil: Even though our older brothers already have impressive "power" in their hands. Tokiya: … Tokiya: …However, recently there have been incidents happened that indicate the resurrection of the demons. Tokiya: There are only faint signs for now, but it won't be long before a conflict breaks out once again. Cecil: Even if we were to try to defeat them again, there are only a few of us who can use "power". There is a huge difference in strength between now and the past. Cecil: But at that time you… the Messiah appeared.
Ch 5:

Cecil: There's a legend that has been passed down since a long time ago in Edelduhr Empire. Cecil: When the world faces the demons once again, offer a song from the bottom of your heart to the lake in front of the castle. Cecil: And the Messiah of this world shall appear and destroy those demons… Cecil: Look, it's literally the same situation as when you first showed up, right? We've been looking forward for your arrival. Tokiya: I told you before that it hasn't been decided yet, right, Cecil. And besides we don't even know whether the legend itself is true in the first place. Tokiya: It could just be a rumor that was started by someone who was worried and wanted to ease their minds, and naturally those story just grew bigger and bigger on its own. Cecil: You're as serious as always, aren't you, Tokiya. Tokiya: …It's not like I'm completely denying it. I'd be happy too to know if the Messiah herself has finally appeared. Cecil: I know. I think it's the right thing to do to be cautious about information. Cecil: But I can't help but feel hopeful when she finally appeared as if she had sensed our crisis. Cecil: Even though we keep losing our "power", we can still fight against the demons. I can't help but think that this is such a good omen. Tokiya: …Only time will tell if the legend is true or not. Tokiya: Anyway, we just have to do whatever we can for now. Cecil: …That's right. We'll definitely have to fight the demons sooner or later. We need to prepare for that time. Tokiya: …Don't you worry. We're not going to stand by without doing anything. Tokiya: Right now my country and Cecil's country are working together to strengthen the vigilance of the surrounding areas. Tokiya: We're sending out scouts to gather information in various places, so if anything happens we'll be notified right away. Cecil: Our older brothers are also leaving to a neighbouring country to gain more allies. Cecil: I'm sure they'll be back bringing good news with them. Tokiya: ….Right. ….
Ch 6:

Tokiya: … Tokiya: Who's there? Oh… it's you. What is it, you can't sleep? Tokiya: …Not really, I'm not particularly feeling down or anything. There's nothing for you to worry about. Tokiya: Don't mind me and go back inside. …I told you before it's nothing, okay. Tokiya: …You're more stubborn than I thought. Tokiya: What I'm about to say now is just a trivial monologue. If you want to listen, feel free to do so. Tokiya: Even though I'm of an imperial blood, I wasn't blessed with "power" unlike my older brothers. Tokiya: Ever since I was a child I used to think that my fate was cursed. But even if I lament on it, God won't show me mercy. Tokiya: Once I realized that, I devoted myself to improve my swordsmanship. Tokiya: Even though it may be quite an insignificant power that can't even become real, I couldn't help but do something. Tokiya: …When the signs of the demons' revival finally showed up, I actually volunteered to be a scout. But I wasn't allowed to. Tokiya: I guess the Emperor and my brothers probably don't have any expectations for someone who doesn't have "power" to begin with. Tokiya: No…they probably already aware of it. In the first place I actually prefer music rather than swordsmanship. Tokiya: It was also the same on the day you appeared too. I was actually there singing to vent all of my feelings. Tokiya: I guess it's natural to be disappointed. No matter how much you sincerely love singing, a song like that is useless. Tokiya: There's no way someone like me could summon the Messiah here… Tokiya: …. The song, was my power…you said? Tokiya: I've never thought of that before… But, if that is true…then… Vassal 1: Pardon my intrusion! A group of demons has been spotted in the east. The Emperor has ordered you to attend the meeting immediately. Tokiya: …! The time has finally come, huh.
Ch 7:

Tokiya: One of you come with me. The other will escort her to her room. Tokiya: …You don't have to worry about anything. Now, let's go. Vassal 2: —That's the end of the status report. The demons are expected to arrive near the border tomorrow. Tokiya: (They're moving faster than I thought. I'm going to plead with my father to let me fight on the front lines as well.) Tokiya: (If what she said was true, that I too have my own "power"…then I might be able to fulfill my duties as a member of the imperial family.) - Tokiya: Brave soldiers of our country and our allies! All of you are gathered here together in response to the Emperor's orders. Tokiya: As someone who has been entrusted with commanding the front lines, I would like to express my gratitude from the bottom of my heart. I'm proud of all of your courageous will for standing here. Cecil: Let's face this battle with unyielding courage. If our thoughts are becoming one, then there's no need to fear the threat of the demons. Tokiya: The only thing that lies ahead of us is victory. Let's move forward together to a bright future! Tokiya: We will now begin the ceremony before we march to the battlefield. Let's turn our vow of victory into a song and dedicate it to everyone. Tokiya: ~♪ Tokiya: … Cecil: (What is this light…? It's like power keeps coming out from inside his body) Cecil: (Somehow I feel like I won't lose to any enemy right now. …I see, so this is Tokiya's "power"…) Tokiya: Glory to our homeland "Edelduhr Empire" and also to our ally "Forsden Kingdom"! Tokiya: …I'm convinced now. It seems like my song has the power to increase our ability to fight against the demons. Tokiya: To think that I can also fulfill my duties on the battlefield. It was thanks to you to made me realize this, thank you. Tokiya: (This light…! The "power" became much more stronger from where I touched her hand…) Tokiya: (Don't tell me, this is her… the Messiah's power…!?) Tokiya: In my name, I beg of you. Would you please lend me your power to save this country?
Ch 8:

-Wilderness- Tokiya: Thank you for coming here with us. Don't you dare leave my side, okay. Tokiya: …The demons have already begun their invasion. The situation is not good, and our forces are overwhelmingly at a disadvantage. Tokiya: But there's no need to be afraid. As long as you were here, there's no way we're going to lose. Tokiya: Everyone, prepare your swords! Now it's time to attack! Tokiya: Here we go! …Haa! - Tokiya: *pant* Just how many of them are there exactly? They keep coming out one after another. Tokiya: Although everyone is trying their best, there's just no end to it. If it continues like this… Tokiya: …! You, stand behind me! Tokiya: Urgh… Such strength…! Tokiya: (At this rate, I'm going to lose. I have to at least protect her…!) Tokiya: (This light… it's from her "power"! …That's right, this is no time to be getting weak.) Tokiya: There's no way I'm going to fall down on my knees in a place like this. …Haa! Tokiya: …Even though I was supposed to be the one protecting you, I ended up getting helped instead. Even so, what a mysterious "power" that was. Tokiya: Not only just my physical strength, but I also feel like I'm getting much more stronger mentally as well. Thanks to it, I'm fully awake now. Tokiya: (I'm the prince. To all the people who are waiting for victory, the soldiers who fight alongside me, and also her… I'll make sure to definitely protect them all.) Tokiya: I won't let you lay even a finger on the people that I care about. …Haaa! Tokiya: Everyone, don't give up just yet! Look beyond the hill, the enemy numbers are definitely decreasing. Tokiya: Hold your pride in your heart and swing your sword. Protect those you love with your hands. Tokiya: I'll lead the way. Come and follow me, my dear soldiers. Tokiya: We will definitely win this war and take the first step towards peace!
Ch 9:

-Edelduhr Castle's Lakeside- Tokiya: …Thank god we made it back safely. I'm glad that I was able to report the victory to the Emperor. Cecil: We were also very grateful to you as well. You were one of the heroes who contributed to the victory without any problems after all. Tokiya: That's right. But I remember you looked like a borrowed cat* during the audience. Weren't you more nervous at that time than when you were on the battlefield? Tokiya: …What you were thinking soon appeared on your face. I'll never get bored watching it. Cecil: What is it, looks like you two seems to be getting along well just now. Getting ahead yourself is unfair y'know, Tokiya. Cecil: To think that he finally awakened a wonderful "power", leaving me, his best friend, behind all alone. Tokiya: Actually I still can't believe that as well. Tokiya: If it's not for that "power" of song, this victory might not have happened. Cecil: Yeah, that was really amazing. But that wasn't the only reason why we win, right? Cecil: Tokiya has also honed his swordsmanship. And your subordinates know as well that you work much more harder than anyone else. Cecil: It was because of Tokiya that was leading the way that everyone was able to perform beyond their capabilities. Tokiya: …I am very grateful to those who believed in me and followed me. Tokiya: But even if you say that, you also took part in the victory, aren't you? You led the reinforcements into the battle after all. Cecil: Tokiya… Tokiya: Thanks to Cecil's army's surprise attack on the back, the enemy's formation was thrown into disarray. Tokiya: It was precisely because our forces were dispersed that our army was able to attack all at once. Cecil: …That's right. If even one of them had been missing, we might have succumbed to the momentum of the demons. Cecil: This victory was achieved thanks to everyone. Of course, that also includes you too. Tokiya: Yeah. Your presence became our hope. Not only did you give us "power", but you also saved our hearts as well. Tokiya: I'm really glad that I met you. …Thank you.
*: It's a Japanese phrase 借りてきた猫 and is used to refer to situation in which someone acts all quiet and meek (in contrast of their usual behaviour) due to nervousness and/or shyness when they are in an unfamiliar environment.
Ch 10:

Cecil: Hmm, what a nice breeze. It's hard to believe that we were fighting the demons just a little while ago. Cecil: Oh, look. There are birds playing on the lake. They're so cute. Tokiya: What are you being so carefree about… You don't think the war is over yet, do you? Cecil: I know that. This time, we may have only temporarily repelled the enemy. Cecil: Although we were able to reduce the enemy's strength a little, the demons will surely attack once again. Tokiya: Yeah. There's no time to bask in the afterglow of victory. Tokiya: We need to quickly gather forces to be our allies as soon as possible…such as people who possess "power" from each country. Cecil: We should also investigate as to why the demons are being resurrected now. Cecil: If we don't remove the source of the problem, the same thing will happen all over again. Tokiya: …Looks like we need to work together with our brothers to gather information. Tokiya: They're in another country right now, but they'll be returning soon. Since you're the Messiah, I must also introduce you to them. Cecil: If it's like that, then why don't we introduce her to the whole world? Cecil: The fact that the Messiah has appeared will be a ray of hope for everyone. It will also help to unify and bring people together. Tokiya: I have no objections. …Though I'm a little bit hesitant about it. Cecil: Fufu. Don't tell me you don't like it that she'll soon become popular? Tokiya: That's not it. It's just that I thought she might be in trouble if we suddenly drew attention to her. Cecil: If you keep acting like that, someone else might take her away from you y'know? Like me, for example. Tokiya: I told you before it's not like that… You know what, this conversation is over. Tokiya: I would like to thank you once again. I am truly grateful that you were willing to fought alongside us despite the danger. Tokiya: We need your help in order to restore new peace. Please continue to be our goddess of hope.
#Live emotion#Event story#please correct me if my wording somehow not understandable as im not that fluent on both jp/en#It's funny how Tokiya usually used 私 while the role he had used 我が (when he's acting as a prince) and 俺 (casually) www#also... there's a heroine existence in the event story too?#I thought for sure it'd be boys and their jobs only...#wow this bring back memories of utapri older drama series where they also had silent heroine in it too... like MasMira for example ;;w;#also that bg... the gazebo.... :"))))
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Some 'randomized' Solas tidbits, some of these are things in DATV that I default to (though I will change as to accommodate decisions made from the Rooks I will write with within reason: example being that I'm not open to all endings), and others are just random thoughts I wanted to touch on. Ah, sometimes I get a little sad that I need to put all of this under a read more, but I don't want to spoil anything for people. Here we go!
— The ending. As a writer of Solas, I can't do anything other than default to the 'best' ending, which includes Solavellan, and the choice to use Mythal's essence. Which is not to say that I will force Solavellan onto everyone, and it actually is not even the main reason as to why I choose it (though my heart does, every time) as my default. It's simply that the inclusion of Mythal is incredibly fundamental to him being able to atone for his 'sins', that you will have to bribe me with kilograms of chocolate to have me waver from it. I can and will do it if you insist, but then it is important that you know that he can not, and will never properly 'atone'. No other ending will get Solas to that state of mind, and 'insisting' on it as you see in the 'bad' (/worst) ending will simply fetch the intense reaction you would expect from going so firmly against the embodiment of pride, rather than wisdom (I'll write a separate post on how this works in a bit, and link it here for reference.)
— Solavellan. On that note, yes, I'm an intense Solavellan shipper, and the ending that includes her is, in my opinion, most fitting to his character, and is the one that I choose as, shall we say, 'my canon'. I will not force this decision on anyone, but in threads with others where Lavellan is mentioned, unless we've decided differently in our plotting, I will default to it in the same way that Bioware has decided to do with Veilguard's release. It's simple: Solas has, does, and will always hold feelings of great love for her.
— Emotive expression. It is noted that spirits feel incredibly deeply, and we notice this from Solas as soon as the second regret memory where we hear him speak to Mythal. He speaks softly, and earnestly, he reaches out to grasp, to touch, and you hear a deep sense of something akin to defeat in his voice when she refuses his offer, and him. Of course, this is emphasized even more by the memory of him as a spirit of wisdom. It is for this reason, that it's important to note that the best way for this to manifest in mortal form, is through artistic expression, and that it wasn't only specific to the timeline of Inquisition. The music room is a treasure trove to me, and through the note that we find there, we know that it was a spot of great importance to Solas himself, and that memories held therein are precious to him. I will go into details in a separate post for it as well, but it's not just the musical instruments that are important in here, but the mural plays an equal part. Did you see it? The mural that holds the symbol of the Inquisition? Not only does this tell me rather firmly that Solas returned to the lighthouse at some point after the events of Inquisition, but it isn't just any Inquisition insignia. No, if you look closely, and remember: it's a recreation of Solas' frescoes from his rotunda in Skyhold. Not only that, but it is in the place that serves as something akin to a museum or memorial to his regrets. Go ahead, tell me what that says to you, and how much it breaks your heart. Any way, back to the... original purpose of this bullet point: Solas' way to cope, or his way of expressing his emotions, is through the stroke of a brush (Spotify decided to ruin me at the worst of moments:"If I sway my brush, will I capture thee?') a chord engulfed by silence, or writings to parchment, but is not relegated to just these things.
— His connection to Mythal. This is an incredibly complex and very nuanced topic that I will be going into on a regular basis on this blog. I will never say that Mythal should be glorified, or forgiven (I'd say the opposite), but what I think doesn't matter, for what matters on this blog is what Solas thought, and thinks. Sifting through Morrigan's reaction to being asked to talking about them and having such a deep reaction to it, to the conversation that Rook had with the potentially 'oldest' and least 'evolved' (and so the closest to what Solas once knew) fragment of Mythal, I can't say that they are not complicated. From 'What should I have done when Solas turned against me after all we had been to one another?' to 'Can you even understand what it is to battle with someone and love them even still? That is what Solas and I are to one another.' To Morrigan's 'Yet Solas was once beloved of Mythal.' And finally, the note found in the music room. And those lines? They are from the side that I think is much more complicated than the other. Regardless of how it came to be, I think that the nature of Solas' intense emotional (as I elaborated on in the previous point) perspective of Mythal is undeniable, and it served as the driving force for everything that he committed himself to doing, including going against his nature as a spirit of Wisdom over, and over, and over. And yet, with each day that passes, I think that the nuance is much deeper than I first thought on day one of finishing Veilguard. Mythal did terrible things, but it's paramount to remember what Solas, himself, was like and still is, because a lot of answers can be found in that. I'm sorry, perhaps not everyone will like my future analyses of this despite the fact that I am very far from a Mythal apologist, and never will be, but I insist on critical thought and nuance when I seek answers. And yes, I think that all of this only empowers Solavellan.
— Fade Prison. 'Regret, like all emotions, is a powerful thing. (...) Regret is even strong enough to serve as the lock on a prison built to hold gods'. It is, in fact, a prison of regret. And for it to be able to hold Rook captive instead of Solas so that the latter could escape it, Rook's regret, for that moment in time, had to outweigh Solas' own. But by that same token, I raise a different, and very important topic: Varric. 'When you disrupted my ritual, the magical energies pulled me here, into the Fade.' Focus on the words, he got 'pulled into' the Fade, unintended, not of his own accord. Now, as of the moment that the struggle between Varric and Solas comes to an end, which leaves the former stabbed, over twenty to twenty-five seconds pass during which Solas could have gotten 'pulled into the Fade' and yet was not. So I ask: why not? If it is, as he says, a prison of which the lock is held by the intensity of one's regret(s), then I think that it can only mean one thing. Now, if you let the scene play out, you notice one thing, and that's that Solas is only pulled into the prison, directly after Varric actually dies (which Solas is turned towards, and thus witnesses). To me, it's always been clear that Solas created, and fostered bonds within his time in the Inquisition, but I think that this moment is proper evidence of that. He who called him 'Chuckles' wasn't just an ally, but he was someone that Solas regarded fondly enough, that witnessing (and being ultimately responsible for) his death, was ultimately the pivotal thing that the prison needed, and used, to pull him in to it, which in turn set loose both Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain.
#dav spoilers#dragon age spoilers#datv spoilers#[ i think these are a good starting point-- ]#[ solas: meta. ] just remember; an enemy can attack but only an ally can betray you. betrayal is always worse.#[ solas. ] how small the pain of one man seems when weighed against the endless depths of memory. of feeling. of existence.
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