#and ill devour it for a week and only eat it and then the cycle repeats

[youeverjustmarryabountyhunter]

Guys how are you making like...only a couple Oc's and sticking by them. Like. Like this is not judging I wanna know your secret. Because sometimes I see people will have like..only one or two OC's that have a dedicated story line and lore and that's their whole world. Thats their passion project. They only post about that specific story and I just

I WISH sometimes that I could be solely dedicated towards like..a few OC's or only a few specific story lines ya know?? Like genuinely??

But it's like my brain just can't stop making new ideas. And I have characters that have story lines and intensive lore that I love but like I have SO many and it's like I can't just choose who to focus on it fluctuates. This isn't even including the one and done characters I create on a whim that I only sorta like the concept of.

I'm not really sure where I was going with this post or how to word it??

But like sometimes I wish I could focus on *one* (or even just a FEW) Oc's. That I could just- settle down and obsess over one specific story line of characters and be satisfied.

Does anyone else ever feel like that? Like they have so many Oc's and options but they can't settle one one story line and focus on it completely?

[shachaai]

WIP Wednesday with a twist!

Tell me your 5 favorite lines that you have written

I. Couldn't pick lines. So chunks? And more than five... orz

The Lindworm's Lullaby

“Tell me about your little one,” says Lecter anyway, and Will sighs. If the good doctor is so determined… “Lenore,” says Will. She whom the angels call - as she fusses back. “Lenore Graham. She’s six months old, and looks like the cross between a princess, a pixie, and a dumpling. I had her in March.”

Commencer par La Faim

Beverly falls in step with him, leaving the rest of the food in her bag. “I know, right? Good thing too - the morgue’s all corpses and fungi at the moment, which has pretty much put us all off everything Italian until at least next week, so we’re all temporarily embracing anti-mushroom pescetarianism.” Swallowing, Will squints at his burrito. Black beans. Seasoned rice. Cheese. Onions. Shredded lettuce. Sauce. “This doesn’t contain any fish though?” “Yeah, Jimmy’s been squeamish about the cafeteria seafood ever since a tuna sandwich from there gave him the runs.” Fair enough: Will usually doesn’t touch the fish options in the cafeteria either, although his avoidance is based on the fact he has plenty of - fresher - fish at home that he had caught himself. But if the cafeteria food made Jimmy ill… “You’re really not convincing me I shouldn’t’ve bought my own lunch.” “Too late, you started eating the bribe,” Beverly says ruthlessly, and snorts when Will only sighs pointedly down at his burrito. It’s ruined now. Sort of. Food is food, but now it’s food associated with Jimmy Price’s diarrhoea. “Oh, shut up and eat your fibre.”

---

“There are more species of fungi, bacteria and protozoa in a single scoop of soil than there are species of plants and vertebrate animals in the whole of North America. And yet, animals are more closely related to fungi than any other kingdom - more than 600 million years ago we shared a common ancestry. The branch of fungi that eventually led to animals evolved to capture nutrients by surrounding their food with cellular sacs: essentially primitive stomachs.” “We had stomachs before we had souls.” Abigail’s gentians have been shifted to the windowsill, the older bouquet moved to give way to the new. Will reaches out thoughtlessly, brushing light fingertips over bruised, tired petals. “Says something.” “Hunger is and always has been a primary drive throughout nature.” “And maybe fungi developed a more... efficient means of dealing with it than we have as a species.” Will catches a flicker of movement out of the corner of his eye and glances over - Lecter, coming over to join Will at the window, step by openly curious step. “You said it yourself: fungi predates us, and it’ll probably survive us as well, devouring that which kills us and feeding that which forgets us.” “Rising from the rot,” Lecter muses, “consumed by that which will also one day rot.” “An ancient cycle of growth and decay,” Will says, and drops his eyes to the other man’s collar when Lecter looks at him directly. [...] “Fungi are the grand recyclers of our planet,” Lecter says, hands tucked almost casually into his trouser pockets like he’d pry open Will’s skull with his nails if his hands aren’t otherwise occupied, “the interface organisms between life and death.” Transgressive in Will’s mind’s eye, three bodies intertwined in the greater body of the woods, neither fully flesh nor fungi. He frowns, and Lecter takes it as prompt to go on. “Mushrooms, as you asked about them, are merely the visible above-ground protrusions of sometimes vast underground networks of mycelium. They’re quite remarkable: mycelial nets have been shown to share the same architecture as that of astrocytic brain cells, both networks creating neurological pathways for distributing information as efficiently as possible.” Will parses that. And then drops his hand from the gentians. “...Mushrooms are sentient.” “Mycelial networks are arguably sentient. Of which mushrooms are a minuscule but visible part.” Lecter’s voice turns thoughtful. “An intricate web of connections.”

---

Lecter manages to condense so much judgemental distaste for the peanut butter cup melting onto Will’s lips in one look, he might as well package up the solid product and sell it as a flavour of its own. Will very pointedly shoves the rest of the candy into the hollow of his cheek before acknowledging the other man. “Dr. Lecter.” “Is that your lunch?” asks Lecter, continuing to radiate the disapproval of genteel schoolmarms everywhere: don't talk with your mouth full. “I have three more in my bag,” says Will, who had been planning to supplement the peanut butter cups with a hot sandwich from the cafeteria but now feels almost committed to seeing if he can survive the rest of the working day fuelled only with coffee, filched Halloween candy, and spite. “Along with two giant sour gummy worms and a packet of candy corn.” “Truly,” Lecter says dryly, “a balanced meal.”

---

Price sets down his fork to carefully unwrap the poor thing. The doughnut isn’t terrible appetising after the many hands it has passed through to arrive in Price’s; it’s been battered and half-flattened by careless fingers and thumbs, and a great deal of the neon orange frosting that had been decorating the top of it has now stuck to the purple tissue that should have protected it. “You don’t want it?” Price asks - somehow without the slightest trace of sarcasm. Will grimaces. “Alpha-gift,” he explains. “Ahhh,” says Price with all the sympathetic understanding of a fellow omega, and then immediately tears off a chunk of the doughnut to pop into his mouth. Guilt-free. “Who’s the unlucky suitor?” “Professor Ericson -” “And you’ve given it away?” Beverly announces herself by slamming her lunch tray down beside Will’s mostly-forgotten baked potato, looking down at Will semi-reproachfully. Of course she knows Will’s feelings about Ericson, but she can’t help the little instinctive flash of hurt she must feel as an alpha watching an omega discard their gift. “He’ll’ve put his feelings in that.” “I wasn’t encouraging him by eating it,” Will tells her, and Beverly huffs at him as she sits down. “You hear that?” Zeller asks Price, hot on Beverly’s heels. (Will idly wonders what must’ve held them up in the lunch queue.) “You’re eating a man’s feelings.” Price, already halfway through the doughnut, doesn’t look at all bothered. “You want some?” Zeller puts his tray down beside Price’s and tears off a piece of the doughnut to chew himself. “...His feelings taste like artificial colours and preservatives.”

---

“You look put-out, doctor,” Will teases him, touching his fingers to the crease of Hannibal’s elbow for a moment to guide Hannibal around a fallen log as they turn back towards the house. “Did you get something nasty on your shiny boots?” “Strangely enough, I do not recall a warning about there being something nasty out here to step in,” Hannibal sallies back, taking the opportunity to step closer to Will and push Winston out just in front of the two of them. The dog gives him a dirty look, but Hannibal ignores him and turns his next question to a murmur close by the shell of Will’s ear. “Was I led out here under false pretences?” Will, delightfully, shivers, and tries to mask it by lifting his hand to that same ear, leaning away from Hannibal to tuck his hair back behind it. “I would think someone who is at least reasonably intelligent should already know that woods, in general, tend to contain many nasty things, and so, when planning to go for a trek in them, should be prepared accordingly.” “Putting aside the implicit remark about my reasonable intelligence -” Hannibal says, smiling when Will begins to laugh beside him, “I would remind you that physical, mental, and emotional preparedness are all separate considerations. An individual may be fully prepared in advance for anything the elements may physically throw at him, but only understand the full mental and emotional ramifications after the fact.” The white fangs of Will’s grin flash in the dark. “You need to be prepared emotionally to get coyote shit on your boots?” “If I were actually attached to this pair, I might never recover.”

---

Cold, creamy blue sludge slides against Hannibal’s tongue, heavy with cheap syrup, processed sprinkles and cream. Lemon-raspberry-marshmallow sweet and tart. “...It tastes like the Lucky Charms leprechaun just died in my mouth.” Abigail chokes whilst swallowing her milkshake.

---

“No rest for the wicked,” Price sighs as yet another grim-faced technician trundles down the Pagoda stairs and past them to convene outside, and God, if that isn’t the motto of the day. “But better this weekend than next, I suppose. I’ve got a two-day meet-up with the family.” Zeller eyes him dubiously. “You think the Chesapeake Ripper wants to keep his schedule free for the Black Friday sales?” “If it’s the Ripper,” says Will. [...] “It’s the Ripper,” Zeller insists, just as Price chimes in with: “What, you don’t think serial killers like discounts? Who doesn’t like a bargain?”

---

“Speechless as well as breathless,” Will says with a frown. His mouth still tastes sour from vomit, even after sipping some water and grabbing some mints from the nearest vending machine. “But the heart is unaffected?” “Wholly intact and in place,” says Zeller. “Seems like the Ripper doesn’t go for love.” “Struck, but not in the heart. Huh.” Price ponders for a moment. “Maybe it’s just a puppy crush?” Will’s frown deepens. “If the Ripper wanted to show us he had a crush, he’d’ve literally filled this man’s stomach with butterflies. No, this is a more ardent declaration than that.” “You’re a picky date, Graham,” Beverly says with a sigh. “Psychopaths aren’t renowned for their emotional intelligence. Maybe this is a case of delayed realisation.” “Maybe the Ripper’s aromantic,” Price says, and shrugs when the rest of them turn to look at him. “I’m just putting it out there.” [...] Beverly tilts her head. “Really don’t think the general ace community would appreciate adding the Chesapeake Ripper to their ranks, but I’m not sure if that idea is better or worse than picturing the Ripper as a lovelorn dumbass with issues of romantic self-understanding.” “I, for one, am deeply comforted by the thought that the Chesapeake Ripper’s love-life sucks more than mine,” says Zeller. “Not trying to woo people with corpses probably helps,” Price chips in. Will moves away from the body. “In some cultures and during some periods of history, it was a perfectly valid - and encouraged - courting technique. What’s a better trophy than the body of your vanquished opponent?” “Can’t say a corpse would win my approval,” Price sniffs. “What’s wrong with a bottle of tequila and a few tubs of Ben & Jerrys?” “Half Baked?” Zeller asks. “Phish Food, please.”

---

Hannibal - surprisingly - helps, sitting in a chair at Will’s side and folding Will’s hand closest to him between both of his own. His thumb running soothingly back and forth over the slight swell of Will’s scent gland. “You’d be surprised at the sheer range of items I was called upon to remove from the rectal passages of patients in my days as a surgeon.” Will’s head thumps back hard onto the bed behind him, and he turns his incredulous eyes on Hannibal. “Cucumbers were quite a popular choice,” Hannibal blithely continues, completely ignoring Will’s nails digging pointedly into the back of his hand, “but the top 10 list of rectal foreign bodies I was called upon to remove, outside of broken sexual aids, also included shampoo bottles, bottles of alcohol, carved root vegetables, beaded necklaces and barbie dolls.” “We had a gentleman in here not too long back who’d shoved three baseballs up there,” Dominic says, casual as he pleases. (This is what Will gets for actually introducing Hannibal as ‘the father’ for this ultrasound rather than just ‘the support’.) “It was worse than the one time my eldest shoved his favourite Batman lego figure up his nose. I don’t envy his surgeon.” “The worst I had of the kind on my table was a young artist who had poured Plaster of Paris up her rectum,” Hannibal says, simply squeezing back on Will’s grip on his hand at Will’s muttered oh my God. “She wanted a mould of her colon, but only succeeded in glueing her sphincter - and the rest of her lower passage - shut.” “This is supposed to be a touching moment,” Will says - perhaps a little bit louder than necessary - when it looks like Dominic is about to continue the disturbingly focused surgical conversation. The technologist clicking away on the computer beside them barely manages to mask his laugh with a cough, smile hid against his raised arm. Hannibal lowers his face to Will’s shoulder - where Will can feel the nuisance grinning against his arm. “My apologies, Will. It seemed as though you would appreciate a distraction.”

---

“In my defence,” Beverly says, looking up from where she is blatantly googling encephalitis on her phone so she can frown melodramatically at, first, the dog plushie with a bandaged head that she had brought Will as a get well soon gift and, second, Will’s own head - which is very much bandage-free -, “you just said ‘head injury’ on the phone.” “Pretty sure I said that I had a problem in my brain,” says Will, absently rubbing one of the plushie’s (extremely) soft floppy ears between forefinger and thumb as he watches Beverly tap through to wikipedia, her chair pulled up beside his hospital bed. God, Will misses his dogs. “Yeah, but you’re known for being self-deprecating and shitheads are always saying you have a problem in the brain due to Lounds and her readers,” Beverly points out - reasonably, annoyingly enough. “When have I ever taken that seriously?” “I’m touched by your support,” Will says - mostly - without sarcasm. It feels good to have someone in his corner. It feels good to see a familiar friendly face when he’s stuck in hospital, the long hours stretching out before him otherwise fairly bleak. “And the dog.” “He has your eyes,” Beverly says, cheerfully ignoring the burst capillaries in Will’s own whites from excess vomiting to nod at the machine-embroidered big blue eyes get well soon puppy is sporting. “Definitely no chance of your skull getting sawn open for a matching bandage?” “Don’t think that’s in the official autoimmune encephalitis treatment plan, sorry.” Beverly just snorts, still shamelessly browsing wikipedia for information on Will’s condition. In front of him. “...Only you could develop encephalitis just to wriggle out of a social invite. Good ol’ migraines too plebeian for you, Graham? Even your encephalopathies are rarefied. They only described your version of the disease in 2007.” “As you can see,” Will says dryly, with a gesture down the length of himself, cannula, hospital bed and machines around him all, “I am deeply committed to being on-trend.”

---

“Basics first then,” says Abigail, resigning herself to her fate. “Got it. Slicing, dicing…” “Washing up,” adds Hannibal - solely to see the expression that immediately slides across his companion’s face: disgusted teenager. “You will, I’m sure, be glad to know that I have a dishwasher to assist with most of that task.” “‘Most of that task’?” Abigail inquires - and then answers herself before Hannibal can. “Of course you’ve got a bunch of stuff that’s super old or delicate or isn’t dishwasher-safe. Who needs fancy flourishes when you can plate dinosaur-shaped chicken nuggets on Count Dracula’s own dishware?” About to pick up a potato of his own to join Abigail in peeling, Hannibal pauses. “...I’m sorry to disappoint you, but none of my china is Translyvanian.” “He probably imported.” “...A valid supposition,” Hannibal concedes, bending his head to his own task with a knife. “I shall be sure to examine my dishware for any vampiric provenance. The dinosaur-shaped chicken nuggets, however, are still out of the question.”

[REDACTED - if you recognise the fic, shhh]

"Do you take your coffee with arsenic or without?"

[Vampire/Werewolf Universe]

"You just... slept through the British Empire? Two World Wars? The atomic bomb?" "You seem to believe these are things a person would wish to be awake for?"

---

"Please put the clothes on that I brought you." "I see no reason." "Common courtesy?" When the plea seemed to fall on deaf ears - "I will sit here and make unflattering comments about your mummified dick until you oblige me."

---

"I have loved others, I think. But, for so long, did not allow myself to be in love. Love brings pain." --- "Love always means loss eventually, and I had had too much of that already."

"And Arthur changed your mind?""

"My mind. My heart. --- "You think I was happy about it either? I told you I love him, but, ai… you have met him."

"Now I believe you."

[countryshitposts]

You’re Shooting Your Bullet The Wrong Way

Chapter 1

AO3 Link

Death of a Bachelor

Trigger Warnings; murder, violence, blood

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Name Guide

Nippon Koku- Japan

Teikoku Nippon- Japan Empire

Sulian- Soviet Union

Renmin- China

Choson Inmin- North Korea

Daehan Minguk- South Korea

Daehan Imsi- Korean Provisional Government

-

"Koku, our brother's calling us!" Koku lifts his head up from where he was loathing the words he had just typed on the keyboard, a small twinge of excitement in his face. He immediately closes the bright screen of the laptop and exits his bedroom, running down the long and winding stairs that he loved playing on when he was a sweer child, along with his older brother who'd accompany him.

He lands on the floors gracefully, seeing Teikoku staring at him with a huge smile on his face.

"Teikoku!", Koku exclaims, running towards his brother, laughing a little. He feels Tokyo's grimace from far away, giving him a sense of discomfort that will plague him for sometime before deciding that his brother is simply just jealous of the affection Teikoku gives to him.

(Sometimes he'd see the desolation in his children's eyes too; a spark of hope that Teikoku would move on from Koku so he could embrace them in such a filial way, and ocassionally, Koku would wonder why he wouldn't notice his own children.)

"How are you today?" Teikoku ruffles his hair and Koku - with a smile - protests against it.

"I'm fine, onii-chan!", he replies with a small laugh. "I'm finishing the latest chapter of the book I'm writing."

Teikoku chuckles, "Well, tell me if you're finished with the whole thing; I'd love to read it. But first let's have dinner, shall we? Manchukuo!" He calls onto his butler, who scuttles out of his room, all stumbling and awkward as he fixes his glasses.

(Koku thinks that Manchukuo should - say - be more prepared and look absolutely professional and impressionable, lest many think that their bodyguard... isn't a bodyguard and more like a chaperone who would read books and a cup of coffee in his spare time.)

"Yes, sir?", he stutters, causing Teikoku to frown up at him; Manchukuo fixes his tie and hair, leading it to become more dishevelled rather than kept, like a dog with fur sticking on their ends.

"Start the car. We're going to have dinner someplace else." Teikoku's tone was crisp- like he wanted to hit Manchukuo in front of everyone to humiliate him, showing how intolerant he is of his behaviour and the way he works. Manchukuo rapidly nods as he scampers towards the exit doors, Teikoku's eyes following him in an ill-mannered and impatient face; one second and he'll be shot at.

Koku smiles a little at Teikoku, whose frown turns upside down as he looks at his half-brother, the simplest speck of light in the cloud covered sky, reaching to the dark depths of the sea to pull out the orient pearl in the murky waters.

He looks at Koku brightly with a glint in his eyes, "Where would you like to have dinner, then?"

Koku shrugs, knowing full well that he's not fond of making decisions of his own. "Where do you want to go, Teikoku?"

Teikoku thinks for a moment before clicking his tongue. "There's this new restaurant that opened at the centre of the city; you'll adore it."

Koku nods, "And I trust your judgement."

("I don't", Tokyo whispers to Hokkaido, who hums affirmation, Koku barely catching their exchange before moving on.)

"Your ride is ready, sir", Manchukuo's head protudes from the front door, and Teikoku's mood immediately sours, already strutting to the doors, Koku and the others trying to catch up with his fast pace.

Manchukuo and Teikoku were busily talking - out of earshot - as Koku, Hokkaido and Tokyo busy tehmselves in the passenger seats (Okinawa sits on Hokkaido's lap, his half-brother steadying him).

He looks out the dark lenses of the windows, giving everything a much darker and subtle tone of sadness; from the evergreen shrubs Koku had planted years ago with his tiny hands, being helped by his brother as he works, turned to a much more darker shade of what has transpired.

The car ride was not annoyingly noisy to the ears nor unbearably silent- Manchukuo and Teikoku were making small talk in hushed voices, like a buzzing bee in Koku's ear thinking the small insect has hit jackpot before being swatted away by a large force. Okinawa was getting fussy on Hokkaido's lap, gurgling and wanting to be transferred towards Tokyo, who was silently reading, glasses perched on the bridge of his nose, looking so much at peace.

Koku would sometimes envy at how... normal they seem to be around each other, like they are the best of friends who stick through even the most hardened times, and whenever they look at each other there was such understanding in their eyes, like they empathise in whatever way. And he remembers that whenever Teikoku arrives, they'd freeze up and halt their conversation, their eyes following after their own blood with fear, like he was a predator in their area full of prey. Like they were wary that Teikoku would turn his head to them with either a small smirk on his face, intent on humiliating them, or with an angry frown that'd mean it was the end of their world and he'd tear them apart until they were shreds of life.

They were awkward and wary around Koku too; a simple smile at their direction is enough to make them flinch or send them running to the other direction. Like he was Teikoku. Like he means harm and he needs harm to sustain his lifeline.

(He will never get why they are not fond of their own blood.)

So Koku sits in silence, grey eyes on the car's carpeted floors (credits to Teikoku).

-

Manchukuo parks the car in a spot where the sun never leaves them, always bothering them despite the fact it is being conquered by the moon and stars who wish to devour the light to make way for the darkness, and the dying sun forging its flames on the surface of the moon, mangled holes giving off the light the sun but weaker before it dies, and at twilight it rises back from the dead and the cycle continues.

"Ugh, the suns' reaching everywhere", Koku says as he exits the car, arm above his head and shades present underneath his eyes, the glaring light of the sun still escaping through the darkest filters of his innate boundary. "For a dying light against the sky, it's still annoyingly bright."

Teikoku laughs a little as he emerges from the car, "Don't worry, dinner's coming."

The brand new restaurant seems to be jam-packed, despite the fact that - according to Teikoku - it had just opened yesterday. Its huge windows reflect himself, his dark hair and pale complexion, striking gray eyes that looks through the reflections and into the thrums of people inside them; the people already comfortably seated on the seats around the tables, waiters and waitresses serving them their long-awaited dishes for the day, the chandelier above them glowing golden with its light bulbs looking more like waxed candles dancing with flames than inventions of electricity. It was enticing, and at the same time making Koku uncomfortable; for some reason he can never really be at peace with the notion of being in a place full of people, strangers- maybe it was because he only grew up knowing and getting used to only his family talking to him, so that talking to another person was now an act of force and a chore (although chores are much, much better than talking to a complete stranger).

Koku spent so much time admiring the place and daydreaming that he has - once again - built a glass dome, protecting himself from any disturbances that will disrupt his thought process and serenity, which can only be shattered like a vulnerable and pricey vase with one voice.

"Koku!", he feels a hand snake around his shoulders, and he jumps a little before instinctively calming down when he is faced with Teikoku's small smirk on his lips. "Daydreaming again, weren't you?"

Koku absently nods, his eyes turning back to the inside of the restaurant, its golden streaks of light looking much more realistic than it intends to be, making the whole venue all the more charming. "This place is beautiful."

Teikoku chuckles a little. "That it is- you want to go inside? I'd made a reservation a week ago."

"Of course I do!"

"Well then", Teikoku takes a step and Koku's feet follows, "let's go in, shall we?"

Once the door opens to let his family inside of the grandeur, he feels a rush of cool air collide with his warm cheeks, the scent of cooked food filling the air, jazz music playing from the speakers above them and small chatter reaching his ears. He hears the clinks of wine glasses and people laughing, trying to look and act their absolute best in the midst of formality. The sizzling of frying pans reaches Koku's ears too, as the door to the kitchen swishes back and forth like a baseball bat in a player's hands, ever so ready in a match and ever so used to the feeling of the hardened wood around his palms. The smell of the atmosphere makes him wonder if he could eat thin air; a mix of wine, roasted beef and many other specialties he can trace, lingering in the air as its smoky fingers play with their heartstrings one by one, being replaced with another, then another, then another.

Koku takes a seat right beside Teikoku, who was once again talking to Manchukuo in a hushed voice.

(Seriously, what are they talking about and why are they keeping the conversation from him? Was the question in his mind, along with others, but he swallows them down in fear of making his brother ultimately mad.)

So he keeps his eyes straight forward, eyeing every detail that catches his eye- that Okinawa is now playing with Tokyo and Hokkaido's wine glasses, making airplane noises; that the chandelier above them is swaying slightly as the air changes its course towards it; that a waiter is covering his face with a mask, hands clasped, leg bouncing impatiently, looking everywhere, turning his head left and right like he was expecting a guest- until at last, he looks right ahead at Teikoku before fast-walking to the kitchen's door...

Koku blinks, his eyes never leaving that door until he hears someone snap his fingers, and he turns his attention back to his family, now ordering their desired meals. Teikoku looks at him expectantly, fingers drumming the table and raising a brow at his direction. Koku deliberately has no time for ordering, so he tells Teikoku he wants what his brother wants.

Teikoku blinks a little, "Are you sure you want spicy food?"

Koku nods with no hesitation. "Sure."

Teikoku dismisses the waiter with a little wave, before resuming his conversation with Manchukuo.

The ignored boy decided to dream about how one day, he will become a world renowned writer. He can already imagine his books in many a shelves, waiting to be read by people who wishes to read the words he has so carefully integrated into the delicate pages that can be folded or thrown into the lake but words still readable (of course he would not accept his book being treated that way), and interpretative to the audience as their eyes roam around the words looping the page with hunger, beads of sweat dropping from the pores of their skin as their finger bends to turn the page.

(He would accept the fact that not everyone would like the way he write though; at least he would get the pleasing of a few audiences and even good compliments and reviews that will make him red for the next few months.)

He hums a small song his mother used to sing to him before she mysteriously vanished (a melody he hums everyday to remember his mother by), trying to look busy by examining the plain white napkin and tissue at his side of the table, at what is the highest tone the wine glass can go when he starts hitting it purposefully with a spoon, and basically tuning everything out until it becomes a static buzz like it is all in his head.

And then like a bomb buzzing throughout the sky to create a cataclysm of events, the whole world implodes all around him. Then the next second seems like everything was in slow motion; there was a buzzing and ringing in his ears that were like a whole garbled mess of another language that a barrier had been formed around them all. Everything was falling to bits in such a slow pace, he wonders if he really is in a movie setting but seemingly so real- the chandelier, instead of plummeting to the floors is slowly but steadily falling like the flipbook did not fully construct its drawings properly and the choppy fall of the chandelier is the result of it; he hears Teikoku shout but the rest of it is slurred and drunk, their table flipping over as glass shards fly across the restaurant, everyone else seemingly stuck in a choppy format, eyes widening in surprise, drinks being spilled, trays being thrown away by the sheer force of the explosion...

And then the spell breaks, as the chandelier plummets to the ground, light bulbs shattering and splaying all over the face. One even tries to impale him right over the eye, and he tries to dodge it, but it seems that his feet are glued to the floor, only watching it come closer, closer to his face to hit its target-

A hand yanks him back down behind a dining table, which has now been turned to a shield; nearby, he hears the sounds of guns clicking and people shrieking and screaming, the thudding of feet loud in his ears. He slowly turns to face Manchukuo, pursed lips and furrowed brows, as he readies his own gun for a battle.

"Stay here with Tokyo and Hokkaido, alright?", Manchukuo tells him, tight-lipped, "me and Teikoku will handle this mess." Koku nods absently, his gray eyes following Manchukuo's departing body from their hiding spot and into the mass of blood.

Koku is in a state of shock, unable to move nor get up from where he was hiding with his siblings. Instead of the air and wind supporting him in his every breath, they are puncturing his chest as his bones break apart to form splinters surrounding his heart but his ribs trying to shield the damned source of his life, beating the way his ears are now ringing a high melody. Koku chokes a little, feeling small particles of dust being absorbed into his throat, his lungs suffocating him whole. Koku tries to get up, but his legs feel like jelly, like they've been broken to tiny pieces. He breathes in and out, but he cannot inhale that fast and hard as his lungs start to fall apart underneath all this smoke and dust, hidden beneath gaps to conjure up a surprise attack reserved for him and only him.

So he follows his chaperone's word and stays with Hokkaido and Tokyo, both shell-shocked and trying to soothe Okinawa who is now shivering and shaking.

-

Manchukuo has been trained - blood and sweat - for this; it's pulsing in his veins, as he finally put all his hardwork for good work. He can feel a sense of relief once he can finally hold the smooth surface of a gun again, its shine rivalling the moonlight from outside, which had just risen to conquer the orange ball lighting up the entire day. He takes a look at it for a moment, admiring its handiwork, before filling it with bullets meant to target people, sinner or saint.

He sees his boss in the midst of the stampeding crowd, causing more chaos and difficulty rather than easiness. The crowd in front of him were like animals- one single event will conjure surprise, shock, panic and fear that will cause them to go hooting and making the situation even worse. Manchukuo then hears a group shouting in a spur of languages: Korean, Russian, Chinese; and he turns his head towards their direction, seeing them cock their pistols, ready to shoot at Teikoku and give themselves a well-earned pat on the back for a job well done.

Mancukuo swallows his nervousness away, his nervousness because he has grown accustomed to the ways of the mob, its deep, sick, and twisted insides that are all full of rot but he has no mind for this: Teikoku promises his children will be spared from his great wrath, if in turn he works for him.

He remembers that night clearly; there was a slight glimmer of malevolence in his eyes as he offers this deal to Manchukuo, all those years ago, but he thinks nothing of it, young and immature with nowhere to go, accepting the deal and taking Teikoku's hand, then training hard, to murder, to be a puppet, and ultimately becoming Teikoku's right-hand man in the scale of things, a blurred view of what is right and wrong.

(Every night, when he comes home to his children, barely old enough to understand the basics of the entire world and how it revolves around the sun, he thinks; thinks if he is doing the right thing, the right will, the best of the best to keep his children safely underneath his arms, to the end of his days.)

So, he takes another deep breath to make himself at peace that he is going to have to kill once again, before pulling the trigger, once, twice, thrice. All of them drop to the ground like flies once their monster pulls out a repellent that has murdered them all. Blood oozes from their bodies, but their murderer is now running towards his boss, who is shielding himself with a table, gunshots being heard and he tries his best to dodge them.

(For someone wearing glasses, he was a good shot- he'd use it to make people underestimate his prowess.)

"Sir, Soviet and his mob must have known of your plans for the day", Manchukuo pants, finally reaching Teikoku, veins in his hands pulsing, a glare set on his face as he peeks outside of their barrier before almost getting shot by a stray bullet.

"I know that", Teikoku replies, "the question is how to get rid of them."

Manchukuo looks back to dozens of men in black, holding out guns poised to shoot and kill in one motion, towards the sea of bodies surrounding him and Teikoku. The first option was to run like an idiot towards the perpetrators before getting shot or stomped to the death with heavy feet by the crowd. The second was to hide in the same spot, hoping and praying to the gods above that this entire operation will go down the ground, since they are, in this case, outnumbered, them finally becoming the prey.

"There are too many of them, sir", Manchukuo notes, "we don't have enough men to fully wipe out all of Soviet's men coming for our blood tonight."

"Are you underestimating my power?" Teikoku pulls his trigger and lets out a bullet, straight to one's head, but before he falls another bullet goes straight to his head to hit his comrade behind him, also dead. "Anata wa?"

Manchukuo blinks at the two corpses, whose lives had just been shot through the heart abruptly by Teikoku himself, the sun that even the plants wilt and dry up. He shakes his head, "Iie, Teikoku-sama."

(He learns the hard way never to cross even the slightest side-eye from him, his gray eyes showing the bespectacled boy a portal to the fiery pits of hell itself.)

Manchukuo inhales and exhales, relaxing himself as he aims the gun on two more violators and shooting them, straight through their head, their bodies falling like the plague has taken them one by one. And then he sees a spurring object, almost hurdling towards him before he sidesteps out of the way just in time. His glasses fall out to the floors, and he is overcome with panic as he drops to the floor, searching for his glasses while his vision swims like a river flowing right at him.

Then he hears the cock of a pistol, its metal clinking against its owner.

"Manchukuo", the newcomer greets, allegedly knowing his name; his voice was... familiar, except it was now in a lower tone of voice, no innocence left in him. "It's... nice to see you again."

Manchukuo feels the smooth and cold handles of his glasses, and he puts them on, blinking a little to satisfy himself of his clear vision. Then he sees him- the face on the missing posters he's hung up in his room to reminisce a time where everything was kept in their house, just a block away from where he is residing now. The old, abandoned house, grass overgrown and conquering the old white walls, untouched for decades, a ghost in time, but a ghost visible to his eyes nonetheless. The phantoms of the past loves to toy with him, as he walks by that same old house he has left all those years ago, to pursue a desperate way to get money, without his brothers by his side, and Teikoku had taken him in like a small cat stuck in the jaws of death, mangy and beaten.

"Renmin?", he asks, narrowing his eyes as he takes a step closer, but the other falls back. "Is that you?"

Renmin's eyes linger from the gun in his hand, and to Manchukuo's face, searching for a sign, with an unreadable look in his eyes. Manchukuo's lips curl to a small smile and a sad laugh resounds from deep within him, finally being released after years of anguish.

"It is you!", Manchukuo embraces the young man, Renmin struggling underneath his grip as his gun falls to the tiled floors, making a sharp sound from underneath the sounds of gunshots and the sight of crimson liquid everywhere. "How long has it been since we last saw each other? Two years? Three?"

"Ten years", Renmin deadpans, lips pursed to a thin line, eyeing the gun on the floors. "We haven't seen each other for ten years, and here we are."

Manchukuo's smile falters a little, but he keeps it glued to his face, overjoyed at the sight of his brother, obscured from the entirety of his life for a decade. "But... we finally see each other again. I would've preferred a much more decent setting", he looks at the broken and shattered glass windows, the once highly refined setting of this venue tumbling to ruins after just a day of its reign, a king succumbing to his land after just annexing the furthest of regions in his empire, "but we meet again nonetheless."

Renmin nods, breaking away from Manchukuo's arms, "So we have."

Manchukuo's mind was not on the corpses scattering to the floors, the foreign languages swirling around his head, making him dazed the longer he is with Renmin, the one that got away. Tears were forming in his eyes, a dam about to break to unleash a wave of unresolved emotions, trying to break out of the cold and frozen prison hidden behind his eyes to punish him for ever letting them dry up. He holds his brother's hand, smooth and warm underneath his rough and calloused palms, and he wonders; if his life with Soviet was smooth sailing, the seas calm in his grasps, the sky blue and the water clear. And his life was rough, always a stormy day and night, his boat rocking back and forth as the angry waves try devouring him deep into the waters like they are sirens luring their hypnotized prey only to be torn to shreds.

"We can escape this madness, you know?", Manchukuo says, voice breaking, clasping more onto his younger brother, his hands growing colder like death is overtaking him. "I can start the car. We can leave. Not without my kids though, I love them to bits, and you'll adore them. We can rent an apartment in another city, out of this shit we've dug into."

Renmin's eyes show no sign of comprehending his older brother's message, always empty, and then... it shines a little. His unreadable face turns to one of excitement (but it looks forced, for Manchukuo's part), the hands on Manchukuo's warming like its life had returned to it, hope rekindling from this life of misery. "That would be... lovely, Manchukuo. Away from everything we've ever known, and into the unknown. That's such a brilliant plan. Come here for a moment."

He pulls on Manchukuo's arm, and he follows, compliant. Before he can think clearly however, Renmin pushes him to the floors, pistol on his hand, a small smile tracing over his face, watching his brother below him widen his eyes in surprise before realizing how dire the situation is; Renmin aims the gun at Manchukuo and shoots- he misses his head, but he gets his thighs at the very least.

The bullet was like a small little button, just deadlier and thicker, his delicate skin being punctured by the cursed thing and blood comes spilling out. The pain was unbearable- a thousand needles cutting deep into his skin, trespassing to the deepest crevices of his soul as the blood gushes out towards his wool clothing, the dark hue of his pants clashing with the crimson red, pulsing in his veins, pooling into his clothes and absorbing it like a wet sponge after washing the dishes. His breathes are ragged, struggling to stabilize his condition as his heart beat increases faster, panic rising in him as he trembles and shakes; he has only ever felt the metal clad against his head whenever he speaks out too many times against Teikoku, but he has never been shot.

Until now, that is.

A thousand screams were trying to erupt from his mouth, mind and veins, pulsing too much, his fingers engraved deep into his palms, puncturing him ever so slightly, in the simplest of ways, blood dripping from his mouth due to biting too much.

"Dàgē", Renmin's voice was soft and dim, Manchukuo straining to hear his voice. "This is goodbye."

He does not lift his hand however, but Manchukuo sees it- a dot a distance away from them, growing increasingly nearer and before he has time to finally get ahold of his situation, everything goes black, the end of his act, the end of his play.

-

Renmin stares at the limp figure that used to be his brother, tuning out all sounds from anywhere else as he looks at those dark eyes- full of hope to have a new life, away from the mobs, away from Teikoku, away from this madness; now just a listless stare into the oblivion he is now falling through. He hears a cry from somewhere distant, but he pays no mind, kneeling down and closing his eyes, his face cold as death had come to him fast, the hole where the bullet went through dripping out blood, glasses askew. Renmin takes in a deep breath, sighing a little before he feels two arms wrap around him like a coat during the winter season. He feels a kiss on his cheek, and all of a sudden he grows warmer.

"Sulian...", he sighs as he kisses his lover on the lips, the larger chuckling as they deepen their kiss on enemy ground, the floors splattered with blood, all screaming in pandemonium. But Sulian was his heaven, a dream come true, and with him everything is serene. Sulian breaks their kiss however, uttering a needy whine from Renmin but he shushes him.

"Listen, lyubov". Renmin's ears stop clouding the drenches of his skull, then he hears it- blares of a police siren.

"Gāisǐ de", Renmin swears underneath his breath, already realizing how heavy their situation is right now. "Gather the men, get out of here before the goddamn police arrive." He finds another strapping young man eyeing Teikoku, eyes narrowed, hands relaxed on the gun, poised to kill. He sighs a little, "I'll take care of Inmin."

Renmin swerves and ignores the mangled bodies scattered about the floor, the gunshots never scaring nor hindering him as he makes his way towards his goal- the unhinged man by the kitchen door, his only remaining eye furious with passion and fiery vengeance on the one who ruined his life and made him plummet to where he is now. The blaring of the sirens were getting louder now, becoming a source of irritation in his ears.

"Inmin." The adolescent almost drops the pistol he was holding until he reflexively catches it with a hand. He glares at Renmin and stares back at his target. "We need to leave; the police are here."

"I don't care!", Inmin hisses, eyes still on Teikoku, murdering his way through the bodies, looking more like a deity punishing the mortals than a man himself. "I want to kill him. I want to torture him so that he can feel the pain he gave me."

"Now's not the time Inmin!", Renmin snipes, hands on Inmin's arms, pulling him back to the exit, comparable to a mother scolding and forcibly taking a child from a store of sweets. "The police are there and if they see you with a firearm they're going to handcuff you! We are not bailing you out!"

Inmin growls, trying to shake off the firm grip on his arm, "So what if I get stuck in a cold cell for the rest of my life?! At least I know what happened to my mother!"

"Your mother wouldn't like it if her dearest son sees you in a prisoner's outfit, would she?" He knows he should feel bad about threatening Inmin like this, but he'd done this to him most of the time; from doing housework chores, guilt tripping him, and to this. One word of his mother not being appreciative about his life, Inmin's whole confidence comes crashing down to a zero, just the way Soviet likes it.

Inmin's arm goes slack, and he lets Renmin drag him from the chance of finally getting the sweet vengeance he so desired ever since he was a child. Revenge was calling out to him, a voice seducing him to kill Teikoku before it is too late, trying to bribe him of a life of riches for one soul. One heartless and wretched soul, enough to rid the world of one person who doesn't deserve to breathe the same air as they do. He sees Teikoku smile, shooting as many people as he wishes, sometimes missing Inmin's comrades to shoot civilians, and sometimes he would aim perfectly at his comrades and shoot, one last drop of life disappearing from the world. And he was laughing; the bastard was laughing, enjoying what he has done, enjoying himself trampling all over the corpses.

The last thing Inmin sees before Renmin closes the door behind them was Teikoku's gray eyes on him, his lips in the form of a wide smile that sends shivers down his spine.

-

Inmin needed a peace of mind after the latest gathering from his mob. He takes a cigarette out from his coat's pocket, lighting it up, serving as the only source of light, the moon being covered by the clouds like a gray blanket hovering over the sky. His hair was flaked with sleet, and he shakes them off for the umpteenth time this night, sighing as he takes a load of the scenery outside of the cramped spaces he's been living in. Inmin sighs at how wondrous the buildings portray a scenic landscape in the night, the small glow of the stars trying to conjure and replicate the glow of the moon. The dim lights of each building shows silhouettes of family, friends, and couples doing something private, only for it to be broad casted by the lights inside of their home, and whatever they are doing.

Inmin did not get high of the feeling of a cigarette in his mouth, releasing a puff of smoke, watching it stretch across the sky like a wisp before it completely disappears. He wants the feeling of cannabis underneath his nose, enlightening him and making him feel like he has no problems at all, his sadness drowning away just from snorting the plant until he feels like he is happy enough to do his own thing, and then the spell wears out few hours later, leaving him weary and tired, cursing the effects.

(Of course, his comrades would decline him of his usual stash this night; he was thrashing about, swearing and making the newest members overwhelmed with his act.)

"Family...", then his only eye lights up, finally remembering what he has to do to finish the night off.

Repeating the address he promises never to step foot after they rejected his offer to help find their mother by looking for a mob that will aid them and their financial business. He remembers the shit he's said to them, as he steps on the dead cigarette stick as he runs from the edges of the city until he finds an apartment building.

He has seen the building change, all those years ago, becoming much refined, more appeasing to look, no more moldy walls and rotten would that is sure to make the whole place collapse with one slam of a door. Inmin walks towards it, steps light, not wanting anyone to be aware of his presence, of him going back to the home he deserted in search of someplace else. The eye underneath his eye patch was tingling, as if sensing he belongs here, to the family he has his eye on ever since leaving, ever since he has become an outlaw, a watcher in their lives leading and progressing on.

Inmin dips low as he watches Minguk through a window, book on his hands, and he focuses hard on the words on the large book his twin was holding, but all he can comprehend are words ever changing, flying out of the covers of the book and into the window, and he becomes disgruntled at the fact he can never do anything right, even read a goddamn title. Minguk's mouth was moving, perhaps reading and memorizing the passages in the book he was reading, coffee on the table.

Ah, Inmin looks at the dark circles underneath his brother's eyes, the way his fingers would twitch when he flips to another page. He's pulling an all-nighter again. Baegchi.

He looks through another window, seeing his samchon cooking something, a small smile on his lips, eyes closed as he lets his dream over take him, back to the days where everything was alright and dandy.

Inmin sighs- nothing has changed from the last week, his family still being poor ignorant souls while he is searching for their mother, their souls giving up on the probability she is alive and well.

So he runs, to the midst of the night, the sky camouflaging him as he runs back to his mob.

-

Dàgē- big brother in Chinese

lyubov'- love in Russian

Gāisǐ de- damn it in Chinese

Baegchi- idiot

Samchon- uncle

[kariachi]

Porting Pern: Part 1

WTF Is With Thread?

Okay, first off we have to make official note of what Thread is, canonically. The Pern wiki describes Thread thusly-

“Thread was the name given to a voracious, non-sentient organism that inhabited the Oort Cloud of the Rukbat system. Its appearance was as thin, silvery threads that periodically rained down on the planet (threadfall). Thread was a mycorrhizoidal spore that consumed any organic matter it could find, but was deterred by metal, plastic and rock, and killed by water, cold and fire.”

What I find interesting there is the classification of Thread as mycorrhizoidal, given that all the stuff I can find about that that isn’t, ya know, Pern sites describing Thread, is about fungi forming symbiotic bonds with plants. I find that really interesting and can use it.

Moving on, in Pern canon Thread is native to the oort cloud mentioned above and is brought into contact with the planet Pern periodically as one of Rukbat’s orbiting planets- referred to as The Red Star- passes through the oort loud in it’s rotation before swinging passed Pern. The result of this is Thread being pulled from it’s native environment to be pulled free and onto Pern for a period of time before the Red Star moves out of range. This ‘Pass’- as it’s referred to in canon- lasts 50 years, and is followed by 200 years of Threadless calm before the Red Star swings by again.

Thread falls in a spore-like pod which burns in the atmosphere releasing the organism itself to fall. Upon contact with organic material they immediately begin to feed, consuming all organic matter they can make contact with and growing ever larger. How long they do this is unknown, but as a result of their feeding and burrowing behaviors they have been known to leave large circles of dead ground where they land. Humans, of course, didn’t like this and began taking measures against them. Thread are highly flammable and very hydroscopic, making water and fire the preferred methods of disposal, and simply freeze and shatter in cold weather.

Due to it’s complete harmlessness once it makes contact with water, Thread is a popular food for aquatic creatures on Pern.

Now, this is all really interesting, but I kinda wanna take out a whole bunch of it. There’s several reasons for this-

I want to not only keep but improve on the reasons why I have Pern, when I port it to Ben 10, be an Ossy safe-haven, and part of that I feel will be done by making Threadfall a more common threat.

I want to do a bit more with Thread’s natural lifecycle, and that’ll be easier if I make it a native species

I just plain think it’s funner if this big ‘alien threat’ to Pern is an actual native critter that non-locals just really freak out about

So, for the sake of this, Thread is a native species to Pern that falls in a regular and common cycle. I’d have to put some limiters on it to make this work, but hey, I can do that, it’s my wheelhouse.

So, first off, what’s our cycle? While I do like the idea that it’s this story passed down from mother to child in warning, I really think it works better as a Thing and as a natural hazard if it’s more common. Every year or two maybe? Five at most. You lose something there, but you gain in keeping outsiders off-world and in ecological worldbuilding.

So, we know Thread is a symbiotic fungus apparently, for good or ill? I’m gonna go good because, again, it amuses me. So how’s it doing good? It’s eating up all this shit when it first lands, so, how about it gives a headstart to seeds and seedlings in it’s vicinity post it’s feeding period. Moves into a mature phase and starts giving excess energy to local Plant Smols? Okay so then what does it get out of the deal? Security from predators maybe? Critters that would dig it up and eat it can’t really get at it if it’s nice and settled around thick or heavy roots?

For ease we can have it reproduce through coming into contact with a Thread of another ‘sex’ (and that’s the great thing about fungi, it can have as many as our little black heart desire). Reproduces below the dirt, the sends up a fungal body and just loads of little spores. Just, tons of them coming off this silver mold that grows low down on all the fucking plants.

Give Pern three straight weeks of potential hayfever because there are Thread spores everywhere. They erupt in early Fall and eventually clear out as they’re eaten or float up into the upper atmosphere where they feed on little micro-critters until they’re too big to float about and come raining back down. Could happen anytime during the right season? Again, we’d need to set a time on ‘how often is Fall’ for that one... Three years? Let’s say three years. And we’ll go with yearly spore production, because the older spores are probs eating the smaller ones, so they’re basically making new babies or feeding the old ones.

So every three years you get Fall, we’ll say it lasts mid-Spring to mid-Fall in temperate regions and year-round in tropical ones. Getting wet fucks them up, getting cold fucks them up, getting burnt fucks them up, but otherwise they land and just devour everything they touch for like half an hour. Burrow into the ground and wait to enter their adult phase, at which point they jumpstart the growth of everything they didn’t already eat.

And lo, there we have, a native symbiotic fungus that also just so happens to double as death rain.

[mothergwendoline-blog]

My Kind of Healthy – Entry 1

Disclaimer: This is a staggeringly homo blog and I will not be offering definitions for the terms used because it would turn my journal entries into a dictionary. If you are unfamiliar with a term you will be able to find a definition online.

This blog contains discussion of suicide and depression. If this makes you feel unsafe, please leave.

 Fat Hides No Sins

 So I turned into a fat bitch. It happened so quickly. I used to be skinny, I used to be underweight but then depression hit me full force. A little background, I’m transgender and I went for full Facial Feminization Surgery in another country. Now, good people in the global trans community will often tell you not to pin all your hopes and dreams on surgery. Especially if you already have a mental illness, it is incredibly dangerous to your mental stability to hold expectations that things will radically improve. Things may get considerably better, they may get worse, or they may not get better at all. For me, it was the latter. As much as I tried not to hope, I had dreams that my ability to “pass” for female would miraculously improve, but they didn’t. Even in the good months after my recovery I would still be misgendered half of the time, about at the same rate as before my surgery to fix my face.

 There are a few reasons this may be the case, most significantly is that I am quite tall, flat chested and have a naturally deep voice. Even with the benefits of a natural looking feminine face, I was still mistaken for a man with considerable regularity. People noticed my femininity and assumed I was a gay man, a common phenomena for trans women. This was heartbreaking for me. Some trans folks are happy and content with not passing. You have your Alok Vaid-Menon’s and your Jacob Tobia’s, wonderful nonbinary folk who find meaning and identity in looking visibly trans. And there are even binary trans people who are content with not passing. I am not one of them, unfortunately. I wish I were but then again, the grass is always greener. But for whatever reason I am born with the condition of being trans, I am also saddled with the need to pass. I’m your stereotyped-to-shit, run of the mill, boring old binary trans woman replete with body dysphoria. I’m just a regular girl who wants to be seen as such, although unfortunately I have trans obstacles in my way. And for me, they are obstacles. There have been people who have encouraged me to embrace my obvious transness but for me it is not so simple. I don’t just want to pass, I need it to live my authentic and true self.

 Now, instead of doing the clever thing and seeing my FFS as one stepping stone in the much larger pursuit of transition happiness, I stopped caring about my body altogether. I drank heavily and regularly, took up vaping and most of all, I binge ate my way to obesity. Now I am severely overweight. My doctor has started to worry for my health, and so have I. A lot of my fat friends talk to me about internalized fatphobia, the societal shame we inherit about our fat bodies. They tell me I have this fatphobia materialized in my desire to be skinny again. After all, as they tell me, there is nothing wrong with being fat. And yes there is truth to this, there is nothing inherently immoral about anyone’s body, be you fat, skinny, average or uncommon weight. I believe this. However, fatness brings with it a form of androgyny. As I’ve gotten fatter I have been more consistently misgendered and this is something I need to remedy with fitness, exercise and weight loss. I have been told that “fat can hide a lot of sins for trans women” through providing us with bigger hips, breasts etc. Well this may be true for some trans women but not for me. Even though I have been on hormones for the better part of a decade, I still carry fat like a man. Huge stomach and arms, less added comfort for my hips, butt and breasts. So weight loss is a must for me. As far as I see it, losing fat to get back to my normal weight is as essential as going for breast augmentation and genital reconstructive surgery.

 So like too many fat bitches I’m making a blog. The key difference between me and most of my fat friends is, unlike them, I actually see fat as a bad problem and wish to remedy this. Obesity is unhealthy. Fatness is a lifestyle choice for some, sure, but not for me. My fatness is a symptom of my depression, and it is putting my wellbeing, physical and mental at serious risk. This blog is my place to post updates about my transition, specifically my journey to a fitter and healthier body. My goals are simple; I want to pass, I want to be fit and I want mental stability. I used to be skinny and fit and I’ll become that way again through hard, steady, constant work. And I can pass too, by paying the same attention to my overall physical wellbeing as I place on exercise and diet. As for mental health, I have depression, anxiety and psychosis; but through consistent medication and therapy I will manage my mental disorders and live a meaningful quality of life. Eventually my hope is to return to the sex industry as an escort. I miss escorting, it was good money and worked well with my life as a writer, allowing me to pick and choose my own hours around my creative work. But the sex industry is stuck in the 90s and you can’t make work as a fat tranny. Sure, there are some curvy cis women who make money in strip clubs or as escorts but they are an exception. I want to be skinny, to get fit and fuckable, I want to buy a pair of banging tits and have a flat stomach. And I want to make men pay to suck my tiny dick before I get rid of that too.

 I exercise six days a week, a mixture of cardio and weight training. I use the elliptical and cycle machines, and rotate my weights from day to day using a mixture of squats, leg press, reverse sit-ups and rows. This will likely change as I get fitter, but for now my main goal is to start building back the fitness I’ve lost. I also use time restricted eating, consuming food only between 11:00 am and 07:00 pm. And the food I eat is different now. No more junk food. No fast food, only dark chocolate (none of the fattier delicious milk chocolate), no candy or soda pop and all vegetarian. And no alcohol. I binge drank and ate my way to this obesity and I am now paying the price.

 My starting weight is 377.43 pounds

My original weight goal is 202.82 pounds

I have had FFS

My surgery goals are BA and GRS

 So join me, if you like, on my journey to a better trans self. The planet is hurtling at an alarming rate towards a climate change induced apocalypse. Most people my age (I am in my late twenties) cannot expect to live to an old age. As the planet dies, so too will human civilization crumble. This journal is as much a saga of my transition and fitness as it is a memoir of my final years on Earth. My plan is, once I have reached my original weight, obtained my surgeries and conquered my mental demons, to revel in my new body, enjoy the pleasures of youth and then end my life on the footsteps of our government who has so callously rejected the cry of nature in her death throes. I cannot yet say when my suicide will be, for I do not intend to be stopped, but I will make it known as the date draws closer. I have no desire to grow old and watch the end of the humanity I so love, rather I shall terminate my life at my peak and pass on with happy sentiments and an existence well spent.

 I encourage anyone reading this to consider the same. As society falls I fear we will see humans grow cruel and turn against each other. Ideally the poor will rise up and viciously devour the rich who have neglected us, but of this I cannot be certain. What I believe is that Suicide Hysteria will sweep the globe. We see it kindling in the memes of youth, gallows humor making light of suicide and depression. The next step is action. When we common people become fully aware that all is lost there will be nothing to lose. I suggested Suicide Carnivals, maddening, beautiful, loving revelry dancing the dance of death together. Direct your violence and hatred to those in power who mock and neglect us. To each other, show unconditional love and bask in the beauty of death as one people. Would you rather endure historically unprecedented suffering as the planet burns us alive, fresh water shortages, crop failure, sea level rise, war for arable land, poverty, famine and death? Or would you rather live gloriously, peacefully and embrace the end before the storm? With the global rise of right wing extremist hatred, it is certain those in power have abandoned us. Many of the masses are either too ignorant, stupid or cruel to realize the peril we face. Use what power you have to convert those around you to recognize the immediate danger threatening all life on Earth. And if this results in you joining me in suicide, so be it.

 Mother Gwendoline

[gilliescoffee]

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5 Best Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease: Change the Diet for the Better

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5 Best Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease: Change the Diet for the Better

In spite of the way that couple of individuals know it, dogs might experience the ill effects of diseases and problems, similar as people can. Quite possibly the most wide-spread illness is the autoimmune disease, and it causes a ton of risk for your pet. Yet, it's anything but a sentence with the right eating regimen. The main thing a decent vet ought to prescribe doing to forestall the deteriorating of the condition is to change the eating regimen. Picking a very much explained diet will support your pet's resistant framework and forestall further complexities. In any case, tracking down the Best Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease isn't unreasonably basic, correct?

In this article, I might want to reveal some insight into current, first rate dog food brands to change your pet's eating routine. There isn't only one best sort of food since all dogs are so unique and may have various complexities. Thus, here we go!

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5 Best Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease Reviewed

1. Rachael Ray Nutrish PEAK Dense Dry Dog Food — Best Overall Dog Food

2. Long for Grain-Free High-Protein Adult Dry Food — Best Dry Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease

3. Blue Buffalo Freedom Natural Senior Dry Food — Best Senior Dog Food for Autoimmune Diseases

4. Purina ONE SmartBlend True Instinct Canned Food — Best Wet Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease

5. Purina Beneful Adult Dry Dog Food — Best Small Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease

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It's not satisfactory when the disease comes from and, all the more significantly, how to forestall it. The main thing that stays clear is that a pet requirements to change its dietary patterns and devour food without BHA, chemicals, and other manufactured added substances. Also, healthy food is unequivocally prescribed to keep up with weight and supply the dog with cancer prevention agents.

With this being said, I have arranged two or three alternatives for your new eating regimen. Among these items, you can pick the best dog food to help the invulnerable framework and forestall the deteriorating of the condition. Peruse the accompanying audits and consider the upsides and downsides beneath to track down the one that suits you best.

1. Rachael Ray Nutrish PEAK Dense Dry Dog Food — Best Overall Dog Food

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Rachael Ray is one of the top picks with regards to a painstakingly chose dog diet. The food is totally founded on meat, which is loaded with cell reinforcements and assists a dog's body with reestablishing itself and revamp its solidarity. Also, best food for dogs with autoimmune disease there are no results or added substances, guaranteeing simple absorption and hypersensitivity counteraction, which, in any case, can just damage the creature.

The standard 23lbs sack contains bits of dried hamburger and venison pieces, which don't contain any gluten or enhancements. Guaranteeing the total immaculateness of the item, the organization utilizes no grains to build the heaviness of the pieces, nor does it incorporate some other meats. Protein levels add up to 30% of the entire Netto weight, which is extensively higher than in other comparable brands. Additionally, it's made in the U.S.A., so you don't need to stress over endorsements or quality.

Autoimmune diseases are described by an absence of energy and fairly torpid states in dogs. By including probiotics and Omega-3, which PEAK is plentiful with, in your dog's eating regimen, you can settle your dog's energy. This makes it ideal for the IMHA dog diet to forestall the improvement of irritations or pulse hops.

Up-sides:

No grain added substances;

Excellent meats;

Sans gluten because of the shortfall of grains;

Sans allergen however contains probiotics.

2. Need Grain-Free High-Protein Adult Dry Food — Best Dry Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease

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In case you are searching for considerably more protein and fiber, you should think about this one. Desire is known for its 100% natural pet food (both dry and wet), as the organization utilizes all around chose crude items. Additionally, it guarantees that there is no grain in their supplements to forestall heart confusions or any further improvement of autoimmune diseases.

Each pack incorporates 22lbs of dry food pieces, which come as a mix of meats, like sheep, deer, etc, and minerals. Up to 34% of the grain contains excellent meat proteins that assist with boosting a pet's insusceptible framework and increment the cell recovery speed. With respect to minerals, there is next to no that Crave doesn't have. Utilizing an all around explained formula, the food has Calcium, Manganese, Vitamins A, B1, B6, and numerous different components.

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With respect to the taste, dogs appear to like the smell not just on the grounds that it radiates the aroma of genuine meat yet in addition since it has a ton of spices. For example, rosemary extricate supports a dog's craving and guarantees a quick pacing sensation of fulfillment. Additionally, there is a decent 8-oz food-segment cup to assist you with ascertaining the specific segments relying upon a dog's weight and sizes.

Up-sides:

Assortment of flavors;

A huge number of great nutrients;

No absorptions issues;

Sensible cost.

Negatives:

Little guys may discover the food excessively hard.

3. Blue Buffalo Freedom Natural Senior Dry Food — Best Senior Dog Food for Autoimmune Diseases

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More established dogs and those whose medical issue is deteriorated via autoimmune diseases require more unsaturated fats that Blue Buffalo has a lot of. It's entirely protected and contains no compound flavors, which increment a pet's craving. On top of this, the food best dog food for autoimmune disease is suggested by experts if a dog has any skin or coat conditions, which decline the sparkle or show through pigmentations.

On account of the healthy pieces, the item is exceptionally saving to a dog's gastrointestinal system and lifts the creature's capacity to stomach strong best dog food for lupus particles. The 24lbs pack is adequate for bigger varieties, which brings about an extraordinary cash economy over the long haul. Strangely, the food is intended for a smooth change from some other feed. Typically, it takes around two entire weeks for a dog to become accustomed to the item totally.

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Concerning autoimmune diseases, Blue Buffalo has its hand in it as well. It balances out your pet's pulse and further develops the blood stream, which is ideal for the weak dog diet. Moreover, best food for dogs with autoimmune disease there are a few vegetable and berry enhancements to reestablish the pet's intellectual and engine capacities. Everything's upheld by a plenitude of Calcium, which goes about as a premise of the creature's bone construction and solidness.

Up-sides:

Loaded with nutrients and minerals;

Full-cycle, innocuous change period;

Sans poultry;

No additives.

Negatives:

It comes just with the chicken character.

4. Purina ONE SmartBlend True Instinct Canned Food — Best Wet Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease

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In the event that you need your pet's every day suppers to incorporate wet food too, Purina One is a wonderful alternative for the hemolytic pallor diet. It's pleasant for dogs with intestinal system issues and those that are hesitant to dry and strong foods. Utilizing a mix of poultry and venison meats, the item guarantees profoundly supplement food consumes less calories with 12 unique flavors and different mixes to suit your pet's supper schedule.

With each can containing 13 ounces of feed, you can undoubtedly conserve the consumption by joining the food with different items. The True Instinct line is made, particularly for such situations when you need to build the quantity of supplements a dog burns-through. Over 30% of proteins and a variety of miniature components make a pleasant mix, which is sound, scrumptious, and ok for meat and poultry fans.

Since the organization has practical experience in expounding different dietary designs for pets, it does exclude any added substances or additives in their formula. It takes around one month to make the most out of this dog sustenance for a solid coat and bone construction. The small pieces are exceptionally stomach related and cause no trouble in tolerating, in contrast to comparable dry food items.

Up-sides:

Totally natural;

No fillers;

Extraordinary preservation period;

An assortment of flavors.

Negatives:

There might be little bones inside.

5. Purina Beneful Adult Dry Dog Food — Best Small Dog Food for Autoimmune Disease

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Here is a decent answer for those of you whose dog is powerless to hypersensitivities and skin aggravations. The formula utilizes a bunch of dynamic fixings, similar to unrefined fats and fiber, to try not to add any additives, which might prompt absorption issues. Moreover, there is a pleasant weight-age outline incorporated that you can follow to track down the specific food adds up to guarantee a quick and simple change from some other item.

The feed is totally dry and doesn't need deceiving or seasoning. With 12.5lbs of pieces, there is no grain or even gluten except for just top notch chicken pieces. By consolidating protein (24%), fats (13%), and fiber (5%), the organization gives even partitions. This makes the item not just the best food for dogs with autoimmune disease yet in addition a wonderful wellspring of nutrients and minerals.

In contrast to different grains, this one is reasonable for little dogs too. It assists them with working on their absorption and substitute components, which so homemade dog food for dogs with autoimmune disease regularly cause hypersensitivities and rashes. Additionall

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How to control high blood pressure without any medication?

By making these changes way of life transforms, you can bring down your blood pressure and lessen your danger of heart illness.

In the event that you’ve been determined to have hypertension, you may be stressed over taking prescription to cut your numbers down.

Way of life assumes a significant job in treating your hypertension. On the off chance that you effectively control your blood pressure with a solid way of life, you may keep away from, postpone or lessen the requirement for medicine.

Here are the way of life transforms you can make to bring down your blood pressure and hold it down.

1. Lose additional weight and watch your waistline

Blood pressure frequently increments as weight increments. Being overweight likewise can cause disturbed breathing while you (rest apnea), which further raises your blood pressure.

Weight reduction is one of the best way of life changes for controlling blood pressure. Losing even a limited quantity of weight in case you’re overweight or large can help lessen your blood pressure. When all is said in done, you may lessen your blood pressure by around 1 millimeter of mercury (mm Hg) with every kilogram (about 2.2 pounds) of weight you lose.

Other than shedding pounds, you by and large ought to likewise watch out for your waistline. Bearing a lot of weight your midriff can put you at more serious danger of hypertension.

Normal ration:

Men are in danger if their abdomen estimation is more noteworthy than 40 inches (102 centimeters).

Ladies are in danger if their abdomen estimation is more noteworthy than 35 inches (89 centimeters).

These numbers differ among ethnic gatherings. Get some information about a solid midriff estimation for you.

Related: What are some proof-based weight loss tips? Related: How to make your morning to lose weight?

2. Exercise normally

Standard physical action —, for example, 150 minutes every week, or around 30 minutes most days of the week — can bring down your blood pressure by around 5 to 8 mm Hg in the event that you have hypertension. It’s essential to be reliable in such a case that you quit working out, your blood pressure can rise once more.

In the event that you have raised blood pressure, exercise can assist you with abstaining from creating hypertension. On the off chance that you as of now have hypertension, ordinary physical movement can bring your blood pressure down to more secure levels.

A few instances of high-impact practice you may attempt to bring down blood pressure incorporate strolling, running, cycling, swimming or moving. You can likewise attempt high-power interim preparing, which includes substituting short explosions of extreme action with consequent recuperation times of lighter movement. Quality preparing likewise can help decrease blood pressure. Mean to incorporate quality preparing practices in any event two days every week. Converse with your primary care physician about building up an activity program.

Related: To get fit do this 10 minute exercise before bed with images

3. Make healthy eating routine

Eating an eating routine that is wealthy in entire grains, natural products, vegetables and low-fat dairy items and hold backs on soaked fat and cholesterol can bring down your blood pressure by up to 11 mm Hg in the event that you have hypertension. This eating plan is known as the Dietary Approaches to Stop Hypertension (DASH) diet.

It is difficult to change your dietary patterns, however with these tips, you can embrace a solid eating routine:

Keep a nourishment journal. Recording what you eat, in any event, for only seven days, can reveal amazing insight into your actual dietary patterns. Screen what you eat, how much, when and why.

Consider boosting potassium. Potassium can decrease the impacts of sodium on blood pressure. The best wellspring of potassium is nourishment, for example, foods grown from the ground, instead of enhancements. Converse with your primary care physician about the potassium level that is best for you.

Be a shrewd customer. Peruse nourishment marks when you shop and adhere to your good dieting arrangement when you’re feasting out, as well.

Related: What are the best foods to eat at morning?

4. Decrease sodium in your eating regimen

Indeed, even a little decrease in the sodium in your eating routine can improve your heart wellbeing and lessen blood pressure by around 5 to 6 mm Hg in the event that you have hypertension.

The impact of sodium consumption on blood pressure changes among gatherings of individuals. When all is said in done, limit sodium to 2,300 milligrams (mg) a day or less. Be that as it may, a lower sodium admission — 1,500 mg daily or less — is perfect for most grown-ups.

To diminish sodium in your eating regimen, think about these tips:

Find foods names. In the event that conceivable, pick low-sodium choices of the foods and drinks you regularly purchase.

Eat less handled foods. Just a modest quantity of sodium happens normally in foods. Most sodium is included during preparing.

Try not to include salt. Only 1 level teaspoon of salt has 2,300 mg of sodium. Use herbs or flavors to add flavor to your nourishment.

Simplicity into it. In the event that you don’t feel you can definitely decrease the sodium in your eating routine all of a sudden, cut back steadily. Your sense of taste will change after some time.

5. Point of confinement the measure of liquor you drink

Liquor can be both great and awful for your wellbeing. By drinking liquor just with some restraint — by and large one beverage daily for ladies, or two per day for men — you can possibly bring down your blood pressure by around 4 mm Hg. One drink rises to 12 ounces of brew, five ounces of wine or 1.5 ounces of 80-proof alcohol.

In any case, that defensive impact is lost on the off chance that you drink an excessive amount of liquor.

Drinking beyond what moderate measures of liquor can really raise blood pressure by a few points. It can likewise diminish the adequacy of blood pressure drugs.

6. Stop smoking

Every cigarette you smoke expands your blood pressure for a long time after you finish. Halting smoking enables your blood to pressure come back to typical. Stopping smoking can diminish your danger of coronary illness and improve your general wellbeing. Individuals who quit smoking may live longer than individuals who never quit smoking.

Related: How can I stop smoking in an easy way? Related: What do you need to know about quit smoking?

7. Cut back on caffeine

The job caffeine plays in blood pressure is still discussed. Caffeine can raise blood pressure up to 10 mm Hg in individuals who once in a while devour it. In any case, individuals who drink espresso consistently may encounter next to zero impact on their blood pressure.

In spite of the fact that the long haul impacts of caffeine on blood pressure aren’t clear, it’s conceivable blood pressure may somewhat increment.

To check whether caffeine raises your blood pressure, check your pressure inside 30 minutes of drinking an energized refreshment. On the off chance that your blood pressure increments by 5 to 10 mm Hg, you might be delicate to the blood pressure raising impacts of caffeine. Converse with your PCP about the impacts of caffeine on your blood pressure.

8. Watch out you stress

Ceaseless stress may add to hypertension. More research is expected to decide the impacts of constant weight on blood pressure. Incidental stress additionally can add to hypertension on the off chance that you respond to worry by eating undesirable nourishment, drinking liquor or smoking.

Set aside some effort to consider what makes you feel focused, for example, work, family, funds or ailment. When you realize what’s causing your pressure, think about how you can kill or diminish pressure.

Related: What are some simple tips to manage stress? Related: How does stress affect your body?

In the event that you can’t take out the entirety of your stressors, you can at any rate adapt to them in a more beneficial manner. Attempt to:

Change your desires. For instance, plan your day and spotlight on your needs. Abstain from attempting to do excessively and figure out how to state no. Comprehend there are a few things you can’t change or control, however you can concentrate on how you respond to them.

Concentrate on issues you can control and make arrangements to settle them. In the event that you are having an issue at work, have a go at conversing with your director. On the off chance that you are having a contention with your children or companion, find a way to determine it.

Maintain a strategic distance from pressure triggers. Attempt to maintain a strategic distance from triggers when you can. For instance, if heavy traffic while in transit to work causes pressure, have a go at leaving prior in the first part of the day, or take open transportation. Keep away from individuals who cause you stress if conceivable.

Make time to unwind and to do exercises you appreciate. Require some serious energy every day to sit discreetly and inhale profoundly. Set aside a few minutes for pleasant exercises or pastimes in your timetable, for example, going for a stroll, cooking or volunteering.

Practice appreciation. Offering thanks to others can help lessen your pressure.

9. Screen your blood pressure at home and see your PCP normally

Home checking can assist you with monitoring your blood pressure, make certain your way of life changes are working, and caution you and your primary care physician to potential wellbeing difficulties. Blood pressure screens are accessible broadly and without a remedy. Converse with your PCP about home checking before you begin.

Normal visits with your PCP are additionally key to controlling your blood pressure. On the off chance that your blood pressure is well-controlled, check with your primary care physician about how regularly you have to check it. Your primary care physician may propose checking it every day or less frequently. In case you’re rolling out any improvements in your meds or different medications, your PCP may prescribe you check your blood pressure beginning two weeks after treatment changes and seven days before your next arrangement.

10. Get support always

Strong loved ones can help improve your wellbeing. They may urge you to deal with yourself, drive you to the specialist’s office or set out on an activity program with you to keep your blood pressure low.

In the event that you discover you need support past your loved ones, consider joining a care group. This may place you in contact with individuals who can give you a passionate or assurance lift and who can offer useful hints to adapt to your condition.

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Staying Healthy on Campus with No Hurdles

Staying physically, mentally, and emotionally well on campus is possible. No matter what your excuses are. Crammed schedule, lack of money, no suitable conditions, wrong surroundings, too many temptations. The only real reason is lack of desire. If you wish to stay healthy you can manage it. Discover the best tips and hacks and care about your health as a student with no hurdles. 

Get Everything Organized

The most useful thing you can do to care about your health is to get everything around you well-organized. It covers your daily schedule, environment, and life balance. Look closer at useful organizational points: 

Schedule - keep everything ordered and scheduled. This will allow you to perform well academically and socially, avoid all-nighters and preserve physical and mental health. 

Surrounding - organize your living area in a proper way. Get a durable space both for living and studying. Clean up regularly, don't leave dirty clothes and leftovers around, and air your room. This will help you to stay healthier. And getting on well with your room or flatmate will keep you mentally and emotionally stable.

Life balance - organize your life in a balanced way. Find time not only for studies but stay physically active, spend qualitative time with your friends and relatives, and get a rest from everyone and everything once in a while.

A well-organized life will grant you more possibilities to stay healthy and successful as a student and a person. Still, remember to stay flexible as well so that you don't go feral or depressed because life is going not the way you planned it. 

Sleep Well

Remember, there is nothing more important than sound sleep. As a student, you will have many temptations and urgencies, making you shorten your sleep time or decrease its quality. Upcoming tests or exams, next door party, a night out with your partner. Still, skipping your bedtime will bring harm to your health and next-day performance. You will never regain your lost neuro cell as well as it will be difficult for you to stay focused and energized the very next day. Here are some strategies to guarantee high-quality sleep and keep up with a healthy bedtime routine:

Find ways to solve all issues before bedtime (get papers writing help for your homework assignment, arrange date earlier, leave a party on time, etc.);

Stick to bedtime hygiene - change bedsheets regularly, take a shower before going to sleep, air the room or take a walk beforehand;

Eliminate distractions - sleep in a quiet and dark place, mute your phone, avoid any kind of screens for some time before sleep;

Avoid sleep killers - don’t eat, drink coffee or alcohol, or take any drugs or energy substances if you want to sleep well. 

All in all, you need to get between 6 and 8 hours every night and go to bed at the same time. This will allow you to stay stress and illness-resistance, and perform well as a student. 

Control Your Eating Habits

Sticking to healthy eating habits is another challenge for a campus student when there are more opportunities to eat unhealthily rather than the opposite. You often lack time, desire, and possibilities to cook and eat well, so there is no wonder that your health state will deteriorate eventually. To avoid that, you need to care about what you eat with the following tips:

Consume more fresh fruits and vegetables - they are full of vitamins and nutritious elements, not necessary to be cooked, and not very expensive;

Prefer homemade food - it will turn out to be a cheaper and tastier option; don’t go after some exquisite recipes; go after simple food and simple cooking and you will devour the outcomes;

Cook in advance - you may lack time to cook during the weekdays and will end up eating junk food; avoid that; cook more at the weekends and freeze spare portions to heat them up during the week;

Opt for healthy snacks - avoid junk food both for meals and for snacks; get supplied with fresh fruits and vegetables, granola bars, dried fruits, and nuts; they will keep you full, energized, and healthy between meals.

It’s not only about what you eat but what you drink as well. So add a lot of simple water to the tips above and you will feel healthier and full of energy for the whole day. 

Stay Active 

If you want to stay healthy you need to move a lot. Being a student meaning sitting over textbooks during lectures, homework, revision time which makes quite more than a half of a day. That is why it is vital for students to care about their physical activity.

No matter how you do this, just stay active as much as you can, join a sports club or campus sports program, work out in the campus gym, go jogging with your buddies, do your beloved sports, and stay outdoors at the weekends.

If you are too overwhelmed to dedicate time to physical activities directly, you can stay active on the go. Commute by walking, running, or cycling, take stairs as much as possible, walk around during your lunch breaks, do simple physical exercises in between your study sessions, and so on. Use every spare minute to do physical activities, and you will enhance your mental performance and improve your health in the long run.

Care about Mental Health 

Mental wellness is as important as your physical health. So, do everything to reduce stress and pressure levels when studying. Socialize regularly and with pleasant outcomes, meditate or practice breathing techniques, find your best suitable way to relax, and recharge your batteries regularly. And don’t be afraid to see a doctor regarding both your physical and mental wellness. It’s better to stay safe than sorry and care about your health no matter how busy your student’s life is.

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Day One

today was my day off from work for the week. i woke up in the afternoon and i laid in bed for a while. I contemplated getting out of bed or laying there for a while longer, but choose the more appealing option, to lay there for longer. My head ran with thoughts and dreams of when i’m skinny, what i would be doing when i’m skinny, how id look when i’m skinny, what id wear when i’m skinny. It was an endless thought trail of when, when i’m skinny then ill be able to do what i want, and the sad part is, its so true. 

I honestly spend everyday in so much pain, getting out of bed is a pain. I carry all this extra weight around and its like a barrier that stops me from doing anything fun. I’ll wake up, get ready, look at my face in the mirror and be like, hey i don’t look too bad, then ill go to the toilet and look at my whole body and think, “how did i ever let it get this bad”. It’s the worst feeling ever. Then ill not want to leave the house because i physically disgust myself to the point of wanting to vomit, but ill have to leave the house anyways because i have to go to work. I’ll get to work, still hating myself, but plaster on a fake smile and try to get through my shift. Yesterday i had a couple come through, they were laughing and whispering to each other while pointing at me, and you know what i probably deserve it because i look like something you would laugh at. But it really just dropped my self esteem to the lowest of lows. i was in a good mood because my co workers are the absolute (not to mention fucking gorgeous) amazing human beings i’ve ever met and they never fail to make me smile. But for the rest of my shift, i was so fucking sad, it just threw me off. At that point i decided, fuck it everyone hates how i look might as well go back to emotional eating then i got happy again because i thought after work id go and get all my favourite snacks and lay in bed and watch my favourite movie. I got all of my snacks after work and headed home, i laid in bed and devoured the whole fucking lot, the whole lot in one sitting, thats how much of a fat pig i am. Then i got super depressed because i felt guilty and like i was about to vomit. I contemplated purging but knew i wouldn’t be able to get it out so i sat there and cried, cried over something i did to myself, something i could have prevented from happening, and it was so painful.

I decided that night, something was going to change, that it would be different from all the other times, and i really hope it is going to be. I can’t live my life with this vicious cycle of bingeing then feeling depressed about not being skinny then going back to bingeing because i have no self control or will power. I really hope this time its different because if not, i’m going to give up, not just with eating but on life in general, and that’ll be my biggest regret. 

When i finally decided to get up, i opened up my tumblr and scrolled through countless photos of the epitome of perfection, small girls with ungodly thin waists and wrists the side of a dime. I looked through all the photos for about 2 hours, reposting the ones that i admired. Oh god if only i could look like them, i know it takes time but i’m so impatient. I then decided i was going to make a thinspiration wall, which took me a good two hours, and i love it. It reminds me everytime when i leave my room that the choices i make today will result in how i look, and if i make good choices then i will be on my path to looking more like the thinspiration that is hanging up on the back of my door.

I’m sure a lot of people are wondering, isin’t it easy to just not eat, like shouldn’t it be easy. To be honest, telling an obese person to stop eating is like telling an anorexic to eat. It’s not that easy, thats not how it works. 

For years, emotional eating has been my safe space, my coping mechanism for when things don’t go my way, my safe space for when i got bullied for being overweight, my go to when my friends decided they didn’t want to be my friend, my coping mechanism when me and my friend got into an argument to the point i was shaking because i didn’t want to loose her, but it was my fault obviously, everything is always my fault. 

It’s so hard, its so difficult, but one quote has always stuck with me, “don’t waste your life in a body you hate”, and to me thats such an inspiration, because yes i wake up everyday in pain, getting out of bed is a struggle because im so big, finding clothes that don’t hug every fat inch i have on my body is hard, but i really want to change that, i don’t want my life to be consumed by obesity. 

So in conclusion, i decided today, of all days, was going to be different. I’m sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself when it was my fault i ended up looking like this, so its my duty to get me out of it. I need all the help and motivation i can get. I’m sick of feeling bad about my friends and family genuinely being concerned for my health because they think i’ll die from a heart attack because im so fat and because i eat so much, i just want to make my mum happy, for her to see my progress and be happy because i did something good for once, i really hope that this time is different.

My eyes are filling with tears while im writing this because im so sick of it all, i need to change, my time is now. 

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How Long Does It Take to Have an Empty Stomach?

By Dr. Mercola The question posed in the headline is a common one learn by doctors everywhere: “How long does it take to have an empty stomach? ” It’s an important question for anyone taking prescription drugs because what the hell are you feed and sip, as well as the timing of your snacks, can affect the course certain medications work. Beyond that, there is currently appreciate in becoming aware of the health benefits associated with regularly emptying your stomach. If your first belief, when you hear the words “empty stomach, ” is a negative one, it’s time to update your thinking. Not simply are you able live on an empty stomach, you can also thrive. In my experience, emptying your stomach as a daily habit — through intermittent fasting or another safe type of fasting — can boost your health and well-being. The influences can be so radical that you actually may be able to reduce( or potentially eliminate) your use of prescription drugs as your health improves. Taking Medications? How Do You Know When Your Belly Is Empty? “Ask Well, ” a medical question and answer aspect presented in The New York Times, 1 recently fielded this investigation: “Many medications should be taken on an empty stomach. How do you know when your belly is evacuate? ” Dr. Richard Klasco, assistant prof of emergency drug at the University of Colorado School of Medicine, who provided the answer, wrote, “Two hours after eating is a petroleum rule of thumb. A more accurate answer depends on the stimulants you are taking and your medical conditions.”2 Klasco goes on to note that experiment on gastric emptying — the length of hour it takes for your stomach to return to empty after a snack — has been going on since the 1940 s. Over the years, the experimentations have changed based on scientific and medical improvements. Since 1966, nuclear medication, which involves the use of a small amount of radioactive material to eject photon vigor, has remained as the established criterion for quantifying gastric emptying. Says Klasco: 3 “Standards for such testing have been set by the American Neurogastroenterology and Motility Society and the Society of Nuclear Medicine. They state that a normal stomach should be 90 percentage evacuate after four hours.4 The difference between service standards and the earlier examine probably reflects differences in meat. Solids take longer to digest than liquids; flabs take longer to digest than protein or carbohydrates. The[ U.S .] Food and Drug Administration[ FDA] … defines an empty belly as ‘one hour before eating, or two hours after eating.'” Klasco indicates the FDA’s two-hour rule is only an estimate, which means your stomach “will probably not be completely empty” after two hours, he asserts.5 In addition, Klasco emphasizes the fact that the expectations for an empty belly vary widely from medication to medicine. It’s best, he says, to spoke the packet set that accompanies all prescription drugs dispensed in the U.S. and to clarify any uncertainties with your doctor. The insert includes, Klasco says, each drug’s FD-Aapproved prescribing datum. It is often located glued to the medicine packet in the shape of a tightly folded, fine-print flyer.”6 For easier see, you may want to review the insert details online at DailyMed, an internet site operated by the U.S. National Library of Medicine — a limb of the National Institutes of Health( NIH) — that contains more than 105,000 detailed drug listings.7 With respect to stomach emptying and drugs, Klasco mentions some medical conditions, like diabetes, can delay gastric emptying, whereas a bariatric surgery can accelerate it.8 Again, check with your doctor to find out the best evacuating guidelines for your particular situation. How Fasting Positively Affects Your Mitochondria and Your Health By far, the best and quickest itinerary to an empty belly is to stop eating, otherwise known as fasting. This simple act of forgoing meat for a certain period of time not only ensures belly emptying, but it have now been validated as a powerful lifestyle tool for combating insulin resistance and obesity, as well as chronic diseases like cancer and many other health problems. Not merely does fasting upregulate autophagy and mitophagy — two of your body’s natural cleansing procedures necessary for optimal cellular renewal and part — but it also triggers the generation of stem cells. Beyond that, cyclically abstaining from meat and then initiating refeeding also massively encourages mitochondrial biogenesis, the process by which brand-new mitochondria are created. Mitochondria are the powerhouse of your cells, producing about 90 percent of the vigour being generated in your figure. Because energy is needed to support almost every bodily process, without healthy mitochondria you will be more vulnerable to illness and illnes. Your mitochondria likewise act as the coordinator for apoptosis — programmed cell death — an important process to ensure the deaths among malfunctioning cells that might otherwise degenerate into cancer. There’s even prove showing fasting can help prevent or even overrule dementia because it helps your figure clean out toxic debris. The reason for this is because when autophagy increases, your torso starts breaking down and recycling old protein, including the beta amyloid protein in your brain that is believed to contribute to Alzheimer’s disease. While water-only fasting can be extremely beneficial for those struggling with excess load and/ or Type 2 diabetes, compliance can be difficult. Fortunately, research has confirmed that similar answers, although it is not as profound, can be achieved through intermittent fasting. This type of fasting involves following a meal-timing schedule where you’re fasting for at the least 16 hours every day and feeing all of your meals within a six- to eight-hour window. Are You Caught in a Cycle of Grazing and Snacking? Fasting Can Help In the occurrence you’ve not yet considered trying intermittent fasting, I would like to once again remind you of the enormous health benefits associated with this practice. You may be avoiding intermittent fasting because you associate “fasting” with starvation or simply because it seems too daunting and challenging to attain the necessary adjustments. As mentioned, the goals and targets with this type of fasting is to forego meat for at the least 16 hours per day. As such, you will want to hop-skip either the first or last-place snack of the working day.( I recommend the first snack .) As such, you will consolidate all of your calorie intake into the remaining cube of eight or fewer hours. I have had great success with intermittent fasting and highly recommend you take your first banquet at around lunchtime. I also admonish you avoid devouring anything at least three hours before you go to bed. The theory of intermittent fasting is still catching on in the U.S ., a country plagued by all-day grazing and the continuous accessibility of meat round the clock. While grocery stores and eateries used to close by 8 or 9 p. m ., many establishments now remain open until midnight and some 24 hours per day, seven days a few weeks. Authors of a 2017 learn published in the periodical Nutrients, reviewing 35 years of snacking demeanor by American adults, stated: 9 “Results show that snacking remains a significant component of the U.S. diet and the meat expended at these snacks — sugar-sweetened beverages, desserts and sweets and salty snacks — are not the types of meat recommended by the U.S. dietary guidelines.” If you realize constant snacking is crippling your health, please examine my “Intermittent Fasting Infographic” for detailed information about this mode of eating and the recommended period windows you are able to establish. If forgoing eating for 16 hours seems overwhelming at first, given a smaller objective and work your behavior up. If your experience is anything like excavation, the hours you set aside to give your body’s digestive and other systems a break from meat will grow health benefits beyond your imagination. In hour, as you begin to realize some of the health benefits, you will likely become more motivated to do intermittent fasting on a regular basis. The Health Benefits Available From Intermittent Fasting When done well, intermittent fasting delivers a number of impressive health benefits. You will certainly discovered others that are meaningful to you beyond what is listed below. Research demonstrates intermittent fasting: 10, 11, 12 * Increases your cognitive function — Intermittent fasting improves your cognitive purpose by providing your brain with its favor fuel: fat instead of glucose. Studies indicate intermittent fasting are contributing to the prevention of Alzheimer’s disease and Parkinson’s because of the boost in brain-derived neurotropic factor( BDNF ), a protein that is both neuroprotective and brain-stimulating. * Minimizes food cravings and thirst stabs — While you may think you’ll be depriving your figure through fasting, the truth is it is a helpful technique known to eliminate cravings and reduce hunger stabs. It does this mainly by moving your figure away from dependence on glucose for energy. * Normalizes your insulin and leptin sensitivity — Your body’s blood sugar tier is closely regulated not only by insulin, but likewise by leptin. Both hormones affect your food intake and load, as well as your risk of chronic diseases such as diabetes. As mentioned, intermittent fasting shiftings your form away from being dependent on glucose, which then curtails your carbohydrate craves, thus normalizing your insulin and leptin sensitivity. * Promotes cellular regeneration — Intermittent fasting promotes cell regeneration by triggering autophagy, a natural, “self-eating” process your torso uses to recycle damaged cells. It helps inhibit cancerous rises and the process of developing chronic disease. If you are eating throughout the day every day, your form has very little time for restore and rehabilitation. By imparting it a break from eating, your figure can alter its focus to growing brand-new cells, cleaning up cellular debris and removing poisons — activities it cannot perform otherwise. * Shifts your torso to ignite flab for fuel — Restriction your meat intake forces your figure to switch away from glucose to igniting fat as a source of energy. This change often results in weight loss and is conducive to other betterments based on the fact fat is a more efficient and longer-burning fuel. Contraindications Associated With Intermittent Fasting To be successful with intermittent fasting you will want to ensure your doctor approves and that you do not have a serious medical precondition for which it would be contraindicated. By the behavior, fasting beyond 24 hours is not recommended for children. A better style to aid a child lose weight is to restrict or remove refined grains and sugary meat from their diet. Fasting may not be recommended if you are TAGEND * Malnourished — If this is your situation, you will want to put your places great importance on eating healthier, most nutritious food and adding supplements as needed * Pregnant or breastfeeding — As a mom this is necessary a incessant render of nutrients protecting your baby’s health rise and progress; fasting could set both the health of you and your babe at risk * Taking drug — If you’re on drug, check with medical doctors before taking up fasting. That said, even if your doctor approves, you’ll need to take care with drugs that must be taken with food. Metformin, aspirin and similar medications can cause stomach upset or belly ulcers when taken on an empty belly. The danger of fus is especially high if you’re on diabetic medication. * Underweight — If you have a figure mass indicator( BMI) of eighteen. 5 or lower, fasting is not safe for you because it may increase the stress on your torso and/ or cause you to lose more weight. Tips to Ensure Your Success With Intermittent Fasting While you can simply restrict your devouring window to eight or fewer hours while continuing to eat and booze whatever you crave, you’ll get a lot more out of fasting if you TAGEND * Drink spate of sea and other health liquids — During fasting, make sure you’re getting enough liquids to keep yourself feeling full and satisfied. Boozing clean, pure water and beverages such as organic coffee and tea — in moderation — will be contributing curb meat cravings, especially as you two are begin fasting. As you might reckon, drinking booze, vigor drinks, soda and other unhealthy beverages would be counterproductive to fasting. * Eliminate processed foods from your diet — One of the advantages of fasting is detoxification. As such, you’ll recognise more health benefits by devouring whole foods such as organic vegetables, healthy flabs and grass fed meat. By eliminating processed foods from your diet, you will support your form in healing and detoxification. * Incorporate practise into your daily routine — Operating out in a fasted nation can deliver amazing outcomes. Without a ready furnish of glucose and glycogen from which to outline — because it has been depleted over the course of your fasted state and has already been to be replenished — your body is forced to adapt and pulling from the only energy informant available: fat stored in your cells. Some of those kinds of exercise I recommend include: high-intensity interval teach, extending, strolling, weight training courses and yoga. * Make sleep a high priority — Getting about eight hours of quality sleep a darknes will do wonders for your health. Most adults are chronically sleep-deprived, which has numerous negative health effects, including increasing the health risks of accidents and chronic diseases like diabetes and cancer. * Receive aid from your best friend and family — It is very important for you to have the support of your friends and family, specially the people with whom you live, as you undertake intermittent fasting. These tribes can share the travel and spur you in moments of weakness when you two are tempted to give up. With some thoughtful planning and careful consideration, you can empty your stomach and unleash a whole new level of health through intermittent fasting. For even better results and to maximize your fat-burning potential, I indicate you mix intermittent fasting with a cyclical ketogenic diet. For all the details on how to do this, please refer to my clause “Why Intermittent Fasting Is More Effective Blended With Ketogenic Diet.” Read more: articles.mercola.com http://dailybuzznetwork.com/index.php/2018/10/23/how-long-does-it-take-to-have-an-empty-stomach/

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Chandraprabha Vati – Benefits, Dosage, Ingredients And Side Effects

Chandraprabha Vati is a tablet, utilized in the Ayurvedic treatment of diabetes, maladies of the urinary tract, and numerous other ailment conditions. It is generally utilized in Ayurvedic rehearse, crosswise over India.

Chandraprabha Vati employments:

It is utilized in the Ayurvedic treatment of urinary tract disease, trouble in pee, urinary calculi.

It mitigates blockage, swelling, stomach colic torment, low back torment.

It is valuable in treating cool, hack, rhinitis, bronchitis, asthma and such other respiratory maladies.

It is utilized to treat skin inflammation, dermatitis, pruritis, and unfavorably susceptible to skin conditions.

It is valuable to treat heaps, liver, spleen ailments, weakness, and fistula.

It diminishes teeth issues like caries, eye diseases.

It is utilized to treat semen deserts and gynecological issues.

It alleviates acid reflux, enhances quality, it is a characteristic love potion and against maturing Ayurvedic pharmaceutical.

Impact on Tridosha – balances Vata, Pitta and Kapha.

Chandraprabha vati benefits measurement: (500 mg tablet) – 1 – 2 tablets 1 – 2 times each, prior day or after nourishment or as coordinated by an Ayurvedic specialist.

Chandraprabha Vati reactions:

Individuals with high BP should take this pharmaceutical just under restorative consideration since this medication contains salt as fixing.

Over-measurement may cause a slight consuming sensation in the midriff.

1. Lose additional pounds and watch your waistline

Circulatory strain frequently increments as weight increments. Being overweight likewise can cause upset breathing while you (rest apnea), which additionally raises your pulse.

Weight reduction is a standout amongst the best way of life changes in controlling circulatory strain. Losing even a little measure of weight in case you're overweight or stout can help diminish your pulse. All in all, you may diminish your circulatory strain by around 1 millimeter of mercury (mm Hg) with every kilogram (around 2.2 pounds) of weight you lose.

Other than shedding pounds, you, for the most part, ought to likewise watch out for your waistline. Bearing excessively weight your midriff can put you at more serious danger of hypertension.

All in all:

Men are in danger if their midsection estimation is more noteworthy than 40 inches (102 centimeters).

Ladies are in danger if their midriff estimation is more noteworthy than 35 inches (89 centimeters).

These numbers change among ethnic gatherings. Get some information about a solid midsection estimation for you.

2. Exercise frequently

Standard physical movement —, for example, 150 minutes per week, or around 30 minutes most days of the week — can bring down your circulatory strain by around 5 to 8 mm Hg on the off chance that you have hypertension. It's essential to be predictable in such a case that you quit working out, your pulse can rise once more.

On the off chance that you have hoisted circulatory strain, exercise can enable you to abstain from treating hypertension. In the event that you as of now have hypertension, standard physical movement can bring your pulse down to more secure levels.

A few precedents of vigorous exercise you may attempt to bring down circulatory strain incorporate strolling, running, cycling, swimming or moving. You can likewise attempt high-power interim preparing, which includes rotating short blasts of extraordinary movement with ensuing recuperation times of lighter action. Quality preparing additionally can help diminish circulatory strain. Mean to incorporate quality preparing practices no less than two days seven days. Converse with your specialist about building up an activity program.

3. Eat a solid eating routine

Eating an eating routine that is wealthy in entire grains, natural products, vegetables and low-fat dairy items and holdback,  on immersed fat and cholesterol can bring down your circulatory strain by up to 11 mm Hg on the off chance that you have hypertension. This eating plan is known as the Dietary Approaches to Stop Hypertension (DASH) diet.

It is difficult to change your dietary patterns, yet with these tips, you can receive a solid eating regimen:

Keep a sustenance journal. Recording what you eat, notwithstanding for only seven days, can reveal amazing insight into your actual dietary patterns. Screen what you eat, how much, when and why.

Consider boosting potassium. Potassium can diminish the impacts of sodium on the pulse. The best wellspring of potassium is sustenance, for example, foods grown from the ground, as opposed to supplements. Converse with your specialist about the potassium level that is best for you.

Be a savvy customer. Read nourishment marks when you shop and adhere to your smart dieting plan when you're eating out, as well.

4. Lessen sodium in your eating regimen

Indeed, even a little decrease in the sodium in your eating regimen can enhance your heart wellbeing and diminish pulse by around 5 to 6 mm Hg in the event that you have hypertension.

The impact of sodium allows on pulse shifts among gatherings of individuals. When all is said in done, restrict sodium to 2,300 milligrams (mg) multi-day or less. Notwithstanding, a lower sodium admission — 1,500 mg daily or less — is perfect for generally grown-ups.

To diminish sodium in your eating routine, think about these tips:

Read sustenance names. On the off chance that conceivable, pick low-sodium choices of the sustenances and refreshments you regularly purchase.

Eat less prepared nourishments. Just a little measure of sodium happens normally in sustenances. Most sodium is included amid handling.

Try not to include salt. Only 1 level teaspoon of salt has 2,300 mg of sodium. Utilize herbs or flavors to add flavor to your nourishment.

Slide into it. In the event that you don't feel you can radically lessen the sodium in your eating regimen all of a sudden, cut back step by step. Your sense of taste will modify after some time.

5. Farthest point the measure of liquor you drink

Liquor can be both great and terrible for your wellbeing. By drinking liquor just with some restraint — by and large one beverage daily for ladies, or two per day for men — you can possibly bring down your circulatory strain by around 4 mm Hg. One beverage squares with 12 ounces of lager, five ounces of wine or 1.5 ounces of 80-proof alcohol.

Yet, that defensive impact is lost on the off chance that you drink excessively liquor.

Drinking more than moderate measures of liquor can really raise circulatory strain by a few. It can likewise lessen the viability of pulse meds.

6. Stop smoking

Every cigarette you smoke expands your circulatory strain for a long time after you wrap up. Halting smoking enables your blood to weight come back to ordinary. Stopping smoking can lessen your danger of coronary illness and enhance your general wellbeing. Individuals who quit smoking may live longer than individuals who never quit smoking.

7. Cut back on caffeine

The job caffeine plays in circulatory strain is still discussed. Caffeine can raise pulse up to 10 mm Hg in individuals who once in a while devour it. Yet, individuals who drink espresso routinely may encounter almost no impact on their pulse.

In spite of the fact that the long haul impacts of caffeine on circulatory strain aren't clear, it's conceivable pulse may marginally increment.

To check whether caffeine raises your circulatory strain, check your weight inside 30 minutes of drinking a juiced refreshment. In the event that your circulatory strain increments by 5 to 10 mm Hg, you might be delicate to the pulse-raising impacts of caffeine. Converse with your specialist about the impacts of caffeine on your pulse.

8. Lessen your pressure

Endless pressure may add to hypertension. More research is expected to decide the impacts of constant weight on the circulatory strain. Intermittent pressure likewise can add to hypertension on the off chance that you respond to worry by eating unfortunate nourishment, drinking liquor or smoking.

Set aside some opportunity to consider what makes you feel focused, for example, work, family, accounts or ailment. When you recognize what's causing your pressure, consider how you can dispose of or decrease pressure.

In the event that you can't wipe out the majority of your stressors, you can, at any rate, adapt to them healthier. Attempt to:

Change your desires. For instance, plan your day and spotlight on your needs. Abstain from attempting to do excessively and figure out how to state no. Comprehend there are a few things you can't change or control, however, you can center around how you respond to them.

Spotlight on issues you can control and make arrangements to explain them. On the off chance that you are having an issue at work, have a go at conversing with your administrator. In the event that you are having a contention with your children or life partner, find a way to determine it.

Maintain a strategic distance from pressure triggers. Attempt to stay away from triggers when you can. For instance, if surge hour movement while in transit to work causes pressure, have a go at leaving prior early in the day, or take open transportation. Maintain a strategic distance from individuals who cause you stretch if conceivable.

Set aside a few minutes to unwind and to do exercises you appreciate. Require some serious energy every day to sit discreetly and inhale profoundly. Set aside a few minutes for pleasant exercises or pastimes in your calendar, for example, going out for a stroll, cooking or volunteering.

Practice appreciation. Offering thanks to others can help lessen your pressure.

9. Screen your pulse at home and see your specialist consistently

Home observing can enable you to watch your pulse, roll out certain your way of life improvements are working, and caution you and your specialist to potential wellbeing intricacies. Pulse screens are accessible generally and without a remedy. Converse with your specialist about home checking before you begin.

Customary visits with your specialist are additional key to controlling your circulatory strain. On the off chance that your circulatory strain is all around controlled, check with your specialist about how frequently you have to check it. Your specialist may recommend checking it every day or less frequently. In case you're rolling out any improvements in your medicines or different medications, your specialist may prescribe you check your circulatory strain beginning two weeks after treatment changes and seven days before your next arrangement.

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What Is a Taoist Diet?

To truly understand the Taoist diet you have to first understand a little bit about Taoist beliefs. Taoism comes from the core of East Asian and Chinese culture and has roots as deep as 2000 years, although it has only spread to the west in more modern times as people begin to reject materialism for deeper spiritual understanding.

Taoists are egoless humble people that emphasize compassion, humility and moderation – the latter of which is stressed through their minimalistic eating habits.

Although not known for their rule breaking because of their caring non active views, Taoism focuses on the human connection with nature and therefore they do not believe in the rigid and orderly ways of modern society, preferring to follow the natural flow of the Universe. The common Taoist term Yin and Yang refers to the positive and negative energies of the Universe.

The five colors blind eyes. The five tones deafen ears. The five tastes blur tongues. Fast horses and breathtaking hunts make minds wild and crazy. Things rare and expensive make people lose their way.

That’s why a sage tends to the belly, not the eye, always ignores that and chooses this. – Tao Te Ching, Part 12

Historically, the Taoist diet has consisted of mainly fresh fruits and vegetables, with little meat and no grain – as they thought during the digestive process demon like creatures would be released from the rotting grain and attempt to eat them from inside out. During more contemporary times, the diet has changed to be primarily based around the acceptance of whole grains, as well as the fresh fruits and vegetables of tradition.

The Taoist diet relates the five basic flavors with an element of nature: sweet (earth), salty (water), sour (wood), bitter (fire), spicy (metal). They believe that becoming greedy and putting one flavor on a pedestal above another causes you not to taste at all, so it is important to balance the flavors in order to reach internal harmony.

Taoism is all about the natural, and humans being part of nature. One of the most important beliefs is to ‘eat only food’ – meaning to avoid unnatural man made substances that the body cannot process and may contain unbalanced flavors, such as artificial additives, drugs etc. Heavily processed foods that contain little or no nutritional value, such as white flour, sugar and fast food are also considered inedible. These are not things that the body is designed to consume and do not grow from the earth, so are not really natural ‘foods’ fit for human consumption.

Historical

In much of the classic Taoist literature, a lot of mention is made of the sagacious men of old – or, people who existed in pre-history. Several of the texts talk about them existing only on breath, and not consuming food at all. They lived as they were born and only gained sustenance from the qi or Yin Yang from the Universe.

This practice, known as “Bigu” is sometimes employed within some of the Taoist hermit traditions and mythological ideas, but it’s not something that’s practical or even safe for modern people, living in normal society to try. Taoists believe that the human state has altered and the ancient state has since fallen, meaning it is perfectly acceptable to eat foods.

The earliest Taoists are believed to have had a diet that reflected this notion of sagacious and enlightened masters from before history – and also before the development of agriculture. Thus in the earliest traditions, grains were not to be consumed by Taoists.

The reasons for this could be many – from health concerns, to a reverence for some mythological, pre-agricultural past, and even other social factors. The minimalist approach is often used to explain it, stating that Taoists live off more than food alone and subconsciously gain energy from the cosmic.

However, as alluded to earlier the reason provided in many of the early texts for not eating grain is to not arouse the “Three Worms”.

-The 3 Worms

The early, mythological explanation for abstaining from grain is the 3 worms.

These are literally 3 demonic worms that were said to live in the intestines of human beings that were responsible for the decomposition of your body after death.

Of course, as their goal is to devour your body, it’s in their best interest that you die as quickly as possible.

Before death the 3 worms would live in a person’s intestines, feeding off the rotten bio-matter being digested.

Therefore, as your intestines digested the grain, the 3 worms would eat the waste that was produced. As they fed on the grains, they would grow stronger, and later be able to feed off of the rest of your body, causing you to die more quickly.

Since longevity for continued cultivation is one of the primary goals of many Taoist practices, the object of the diet was to “starve off” the 3 worms, by lowering your intake of grain, or eliminating it completely.

From a modern perspective, it could be that the earliest Daoist simply noted a correlation between caloric intake, and aging, or ill health.

Assuming that a cell has a finite number of possible divisions during it’s life cycle, it would be necessary to dramatically slow down the metabolic process in order to slow down the process of cell division.

Another previously mentioned possibility is just the reverence for a pre-civilized, pre-agricultural period in time, where men neither farmed, nor were they engaged in the social activities and games of a surplus food producing culture.

The Third Immortal King told the Emperor:

“You attain the Tao by avoiding all grains. You will never again have to follow the rhythm of the moon and plant or harvest.

“Now, the people of mysterious antiquity, they reached old age because they remained in leisure and never ate any grains.”

As the Dayou zhang (Verse of Great Existence) says:

The five grains are chisels cutting life away, Making the five organs stink and shorten our spans. Once entered into our stomach, There’s no more chance to live quite long. To strive for complete avoidance of all death Keep your intestines free of excrement!”

While many ancient Taoists practiced abstention from grain, this is not absolutely true. There are many accounts of Taoists who ate, or who literally begged for rice.

It may be that grain abstention was more of a purification process, or a sort of fast, leading up to important rituals, ceremonies or rites, like taking long medications, fasting, taking elixirs, and so on.

Modern

In more recent times, the typical diet has radically changed to focus on being PRIMARILY grain based, rather than practicing a total abstention from grain. Although there are some radical people who claim to never eat, they are often ridiculed by the media and later found out to be “starving” for attention rather than being a true ancient style Taoist.

The modern Taoist diet essentially follows the basic yin-yang and 5 elements theory, and relies heavily upon un-processed whole grains, fresh vegetables (particularly root vegetables) and very little meat.

It is important that vegetables are eaten in the right seasons and are either steamed or stir fried. Boiling takes out the natural goodness. Fruits tend to be dried or baked and eating tropical fruits is frowned upon as unbalancing the five flavors due to their strong, often citrus tastes. It is also important that they are seasonal, and free of any man made intervention.

Generally, all red and blue meats, including pork, rabbit, snails and the like, should be avoided. Poultry and game birds are OK to eat, as well as fish. However, fish and other seafood should only be eaten once a week because of their high Yin quantity. Some fish like salmon, shark, swordfish and mackerel, which are highly Yin should be completely avoided.

Consuming alcohol, caffeine and chewing/smoking tobacco is frowned upon because of their refined nature.

The Modern Taoist relies on moderation in their eating habits, and should try to avoid consuming anything too pungent (garlic, ginger, onions, etc,) and stay away from as many preservatives as possible.

Differences Between Taoist And Modern Western Diets

In the west, the life style and dietary habits have contributed to the dramatic rise in such problems as heart disease, obesity, stress, cancer, arthritis and so on.

The emphasis has moved away from the initial prevention (by eating naturally and healthily) towards drugs and surgery. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure however. Why try to fight a disease once it has taken root, when with some simple guidelines we can avoid it in the first place?

Taoists believe that what is of primary importance is natural health, not doctors and medicines, and this can best be achieved through eating natural foods. Remember that the body regenerates itself, the skin tissue and organs take about 2-3 years, even the bones are replaced after seven years, and it is all built from what goes into your mouth.

Nature can do its work but only if given the right tools. Ideally natural foods have been grown organically without the use of artificial fertilizers, chemicals or pesticides.

The Modern Taoist diet, in contrast to the modern western diet is:

Low Fat High Energy Vitamin and mineral enriched Easy for the body to digest Unrefined and processed

This means daily western items like bread and milk, which we think are perfectly healthy are considered almost toxic to strict Taoists. Instead rice and soya milk is used as a replacement and skimmed milk is generally accepted.

The “Ground Up” Approach

Qigong: refers to the set of Taoist exercises used to maintain and move with the qi (energy of the universe). Methods include meditation and focused physical movements. This helps to maintain physical and mental health.

Generally, in many types of Taoist Qigong, energy is drawn from the earth, upward. Similarly, the concept of “rooting” is the base of tai chi and many of the Chinese and Taoist martial arts, so historically, and within the Taoist context of power, from the ground upwards was thought of as the best way to get vital energy from food.

As with Taoist Qigong, Taoist diet also generally stresses a “ground up” approach to the consumption of vegetables. That is, that plants should be consumed in high percentage of total diet, especially those below ground (root vegetables) as opposed to those higher up, e.g. an apple.

The main reason for this was that the earth bound vegetables have more energy and the ability to deliver more qi to the body. Yams, all types of root crops, potatoes, carrots, turnips to name a few, were thought to deliver good earth energy, which helped the spleen (immune system) become stronger, and made jing qi more “rooted”.

After the earth bound plants, were greens like cabbages, bok choy, spinach, and so on, which were often pickled or preserved for winter use.

Next came the higher crops – peppers, tomatoes, eggplant, etc, which were used to deliver good energy, but in smaller proportions.

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3 Uncommon Reasons Why You're Not Reducing weight.

Research carried out in Israel delegated 322 moderately overweight people to some of three diet regimens to investigate the efficiency of the diet regimens on weight-loss. As a matter of fact, probably the unhealthiest point any individual can do is try to diet for weight management, since the most reliable long-term result from diet programs for weight reduction is weight re-gain. I understand many folks that have gotten on a diet regimen" for life however don't drop the body weight they would like to shed due to the fact that they do not work out. EDiets have actually done the study and have actually uncovered that those who are very most linked to the community have the highest possibility from meeting fat burning targets, and will not decrease the course. 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Since you consumed much less energy (fats) in comparison to your physical body needed for rate of metabolism and also physical activity, you have been actually able to shed body fat body weight. Resting on your back, bend at the legs and elevate your shoes off the flooring, while hiring the abdominal muscle in. Extend the arms out, supporting a body weight/ water bottle. U. of Cincinnati private detectives would like to know if a very-low-carb diet regimen would boost adiponectin levels much better than a popular low-fat weight-loss diet plan. So, if you eat 2 meals daily, simply eat between 0.5 and also 1 palm volume each food. The Globe Cancer cells Investigation Fund highly recommends people limit their once a week red meat product consumption to 700-750g (equal to a cooked weight from around 500g). What definitely produced me intend to respond to you is that you said, this is my final diet plan and also I am actually mosting likely to do it." It struck a chord. The best basic things you must find out about me are that I enjoy my family members, I love actual food, and I believe every person ought to eat true food items. This could be disadvantageous or even adequate protein is actually consumed given that muscle loss might outcome. I was ashamed of my eating, and closelipped about that yet could not conceal my body weight as well as spent many of my cash on meals. I have actually ultimately located one thing that's certainly not only a diet regimen yet that can really be a way of living adjustment! The most significant struggle Elizabeth must duke it out in obtaining a well-balanced way of living was actually a healthy and balanced diet.. The Royal Australian College from Physicians' annual appointment in Wellington (NZ) (October 2005) was told that the study from virtually 200 kids showed that body weight problems were substantially related to sleep disorders, problems, bone and joint pain, stress and anxiety, intimidation and also anxiety. 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Very-low-carb ketogenic diet regimens may have the prospective to create brittle bones (lean, brittle bone tissues), kidney rocks, reduced blood pressure, bowel problems, gout arthritis, high uric acid in the blood, extreme reduction from sodium as well as blood potassium in the pee, exacerbating of renal illness, deficiency of calcium as well as vitamins A, B, C, as well as D, among other negative impacts. Twenty-eight over weight folks with style 2 diabetics issues were positioned on the study diet regimen as well as complied with for 16 weeks. When you have actually reached your body weight you may get back to eating commonly" (and therefore get all the body weight back and then some). Our company encourage people consumeadequate healthy protein, suggesting about 4-6 ounces (tall males could possibly have up to 8 ounces) at each dish. This does not work with me. I consume regarding 1350 fats a day, get rid of between 500-700 in a HiiT course 6 times a week and also if I perform an overindulge time, I acquire in between 2-4 extra pounds and also this has much more than a week, approximately 2 weeks in order to get that weight back down. Birth control pills that created the updates the ones are those that have actually worked for the people who were disclosed on. One girl performed certainly not care if she neglected this drug examination so long as the pills were actually operating. I carry out certainly not concur that Diet regimen Medical professional is dropping focus, I assume this is actually coming to be even more broad from different individuals with other requirements. I can certainly not discover on this web site or even in TBBB specific advise on how you can still observe the essential planning yet replace the Bulletproof Coffee in the morning. The newspaper confesses little bit of is actually found out about meals addiction, which is why they have preferred to take a look at this through the lense important dependence. Concerning Weblog - Psychotherapist Georgia Ede MD provides evidence-based health and nutrition relevant information and astonishing meals truths you could make use of to strengthen your mental and bodily health. The diet plan insight is very ghastly, yet the book has lovely images done by the author's nephew.

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Just Another Dude With an Eating Disorder (And Some Other Stuff)

“You’ll probably be fat when you’re older.” I can still hear his voice in my head. I was twelve years old and at a small Christian youth camp. He was a grown man who I barely even knew but those words stayed with me.

Growing up, I was a bookworm but I was also an athlete. I ate whenever I wanted to. I ate whatever I wanted to. I ate however much I wanted to. I played soccer most of the year and was active the rest of it. Weight was not something that ever crossed my mind. I had a naturally athletic build and a ton of energy to burn. I didn’t know the first thing about “fat”. I was worried about being shy, being a preacher’s kid, having acne, being something other than friends with a girl. And, speaking of girls, eating disorders were their thing. I remember us whispering about the girl who only brought an apple and celery to lunch, or the two who would rush to the bathroom just before lunch ended. It was the nineties. Models had eating disorders. Women had eating disorders. Me? It wasn’t even a blip on my radar.

That all changed at nineteen. I’d recently started playing music and realized immediately that this was going to be my life. I also started drinking and smoking at about the same time. I continued playing soccer my freshman year of college but I also started my first band. When it came time to choose between the two paths it was obvious for me; only one of them allowed me- even encouraged me- to drink and smoke and eat to my heart’s delight. No more rigorous training and healthy living. I’ve entered the rock star phase. Alcohol made me less shy. I was away from my family and shed my “restrictive beliefs”. Acne cleared up. Alcohol and music suddenly allowed me to talk to women in a let’s-not-just-be-friends kinda way. What could possibly be wrong with this glorious new life?

And then it happened. I got my first belly. I was 5’11” and probably weighed about 170 lbs (I’d kill for that now) and I knew the end was near. The man’s voice came back to me. “You’ll probably be fat when you’re older”. Shit! My dad was a star athlete and became overweight. His brother was overweight. I started to connect the dots as I chose to see them and that was the moment that this monster of an obsession was born. One day I ate way too much at the local pizzeria in my town. A thought struck me. I knew about the people who would make themselves throw up. “Hmm… I wonder if I could do that.” It didn’t seem like that big a deal. More of a dare for myself in a time when I was experimenting with all kinds of new things and pushing more and more boundaries. I went to the bathroom, locked the door, and stuck my fingers down my throat. After a few seconds I started to gag and then all of the food came up. I looked at it in a pile in the bottom of the toilet and felt a strange contentment seeing it. “Well, that’s it. I’ve crossed another line”. It was almost exciting. I never made this connection then but this was around the time that I walked away from my faith, started drinking heavily and my nuclear family imploded. I was homeless and utterly alone and needed to feel like I was in control of something.

This became a ritual. I would walk into town and obsessively catch my reflection in every storefront and in every car window just hoping I would be good looking; hoping I would have a chiseled jaw and look like someone I was never born to look like; but I wasn’t and I didn’t. I was fat. I was disgusting and I hated myself. I had “ballooned” up to 175 lbs so I dropped out of school and moved home. I would starve myself, run for a few miles everyday and, when I couldn’t take the hunger anymore, I would binge and then purge. And it worked! I dropped down to 155 and went back to school. I was constantly complimented on my new body. I was even more confident with women and they seemed to respond to me better now that I was “alright”. Although, come to think of it, I would have been just a little happier losing another 5 or 10 pounds.

This pattern continued off and on over the next 20 years. The next time I was 180 lbs and went down to 165. Then it was 190 lbs and I got down to 170. Eventually, at it’s peak this year, I was 240 lbs and I dropped to 190. I’ve gotten myself to a 50 pound swing. I was aiming for 70. It still takes only three or four months to lose all of the weight but there is another interesting pattern that is emerging as well. The first time I lost the weight it stayed off for a couple of years. Then it was one year. Then six months. This year, I lost 50 lbs from January until sometime in April and gained it all back by June.

Over the past decade I have become a fanatic at the gym because that’s what has become necessary. I do an hour of intense cardio followed by an hour of weights 6 days a week. I go for a 3 to 4 mile walk everyday. I eat 2 eggs and a handful of vegetables when I wake up. I have a 200 calorie Weight Watchers entree for lunch and another for dinner. I give myself some leeway with fruit. Then, as the weight is dropping (up to a pound a day), I take it down to one entree. Occasionally I skip breakfast. I never skip the gym, though. Finally, I’m at a point where I hit a wall but I’m still not satisfied. I go on the master cleanse (essentially a way to justify starvation under the ruse of cleansing the body of toxins). It involves having nothing but water, lemon juice, cayenne pepper and a spoonful of maple syrup. I can have as many of these concoctions as I’d like throughout the day but even that’s not good enough for me. I’ll just stick to three or four, thank you. Every other day I chug a gallon of saltwater and let it come out the other end just as forcefully over the next few hours.

Eventually, my body can’t handle all of the stress of the starving and the working out and that voice sneaks in, saying “just go buy a bunch of delicious food. Get everything you’ve been missing out on. We can throw it up. It’ll just be this one time.” I give in. The pattern begins again only now the binging and the purging are actually on the side of the process where I gain all of the weight. I’m buying four boxes of cereal, two boxes of mac and cheese, and four boxes of hot pockets and devouring them in one sitting. I can’t stop eating until I feel physically ill. I can’t eat at all without throwing up. This begins once a day. Then it quickly climbs to four or five times a day. Often, there will be immediate back to back cycles. My grocery bill is making me broke. I am no longer going to the gym at all. I sit in a chair, read and watch movies, isolate and live in my mental disorder, sleep too much or not enough and I repeat the pattern over and over and over again.

Now, for some perspective, the eating disorder was not always the focal point of my vices over the years. As I wrote, I developed a taste for alcohol at nineteen. That escalated quickly and, after a couple of weeks, I was a daily drinker. I dabbled in drugs here and there, having a coke problem for awhile that was really annoying. Seriously, stupidest drug ever. Anyhow, That really took the spotlight over those next years. I was homeless more often than not. The only way that I got by was by playing music and having people think I was talented and charming enough to let me use them for whatever I needed to get drunk and back to my isolation. Those years are a blur of insanity. I played music throughout but every time an opportunity came along for my career I would go get drunk somewhere until it went away. In retrospect this may have been the best thing. The only thing that kept me alive in those days was being broke.

I had been living in Manhattan but, after another homeless spree, I ended up in Rockland County. It was there that I heard about this thing called Ayahuasca. I went to Peru for two weeks and sat in a hut in isolation with only a journal and a pen. Every other day we had a ceremony where we worked with the medicine of Ayahuasca. My life was forever changed. I had been spiritually blocked and incredibly bitter. Ayahuasca was like the spiritual drain-o that I was in need of. During those weeks in the jungle I had a vision of making music that would go deeper than my music previously had. No more just singing songs about getting drunk, getting my heart broken or falling for some girl. I wanted songs that embodied what I was learning there. I was learning that service is the highest form of human existence. I was learning that music is my service work and I needed to begin really surrendering my ego to something greater and more important. I’ve yet to come close to that place of enlightenment but I’ve taken a few steps in that direction on occasion. Unfortunately, I take steps in all sorts of directions.

I had my last sip of alcohol over 6 years ago. Problem solved. I’m spiritual. I’m thin. I’m a recovering alcoholic. What could be wrong with the world? I met a lovely young woman at my first show after I returned from Peru and, after only nine months, I convinced her that she was in love with me. I was certainly more than smitten. Unfortunately, underneath the alcohol and drugs, I needed to face yet another addiction that had manifested since my earliest childhood memories. I am a sex addict. And not the cool kind. Not the kind who just can’t stop having sex with super models even though he wants to stay committed. I disclosed to my girlfriend shortly after we got together and she decided to stay and help me find the help that I would need. I started going to meetings and seeing a therapist. It look promising. I popped the question and, after the third time, when I did it correctly (according to her), she said yes. I had a great run of sexual sobriety going up to the wedding. I was cured and I was on the road to eternal bliss. I was in a band that had all of the signs of “making it”. We were playing bigger venues and sold out shows. Ticket prices went up and people kept coming. People were paying attention. All of my dreams were right in front of me.

Shortly after the wedding, reality hit. I slipped sexually. My band had an incredibly tumultuous break up. My wife lost her job. I took a job in the city with a two hour commute each way. My sex addiction thrived in the city. I never slept with other women and so I justified my acting out and told myself I wasn’t really betraying my wife. She knew about it before we got married so it’s not my fault. That’s one of the biggest lies I have ever told myself. My world was crumbling. I suddenly had a wife and a five year old step daughter and I was supposed to be a grown up. Music was over and I was a commuter working in an office in Manhattan. I couldn’t breathe. I hid in my addiction. I withdrew from my wife. I realized that I would kill myself if I stayed at a job like that forever and so I decided to throw everything I had into making an album and really focusing on making a career out of it.

I was watching the movie “Nebraska” and I immediately fell in love with the score. I looked it up and found that it had been written by a man named Mark Orton. I guessed his email address at his website and sent him demos of what would become the album “Beloved”. Amazingly, he responded a few days later and helped me map out how to make the album. He set me up with an amazing producer and we were able to recruit many of my heroes to play on the album. Here it was. My one chance to save my family without killing myself. This album HAD to get finished and I HAD to make a career of this. I needed to be able to be a grown up and have a family as a musician.

Well, the marriage was finished before the album was. She moved out with my beloved step daughter less than two years after moving in. My world was rocked. I was in denial. I lost a bunch of weight and got in shape. I got spiritual. Everything was fine! I threw every ounce of myself into music. I threw myself into anything that kept me away from the pain of losing my family. I knew I couldn’t drink. I knew if I acted out sexually I would never get my wife back. Why was my life so fucked up? A blur of trouble in school, alcohol, homelessness, insomnia, not being able to get out of bed, complete recklessness, hurting myself physically. What was so wrong with me? Well, the answer was clear and it was time to peel back the next layer and see what I didn’t want to look at. I am mentally ill.

I finally got on medication for depression. Unfortunately, I’m bipolar so that sent me into a severe manic episode. I was the only one who thought that things were perfectly normal. In fact, I was amazing! I did so many destructive things and pushed my wife away even further. It wasn’t until the police arrived at my door that I thought something might be a little off. It seemed perfectly reasonable to throw traffic cones at the construction workers next door. They put them WAY too close to my driveway! It all culminated with me deciding to take 80 pills of robitussin. I knew it could be dangerous to take with my anti-depressant. I knew about serotonin syndrome but I had forgotten to take my medication for a couple of days and so it seemed an appropriate time to do it. When else would I have such a wonderful opportunity? So that episode ended with my first ever trip to the psych ward. I was put on a bunch of medications, one I had a horrible reaction to. I went stir crazy. I wanted to stay in bed all day but soon learned that you were treated better if you stayed in the halls or the only other room and talked to the other patients. Finally, we got the meds straightened out and I was deemed safe enough to take my act on the road. However, during my stay, I had disclosed my eating disorder and they just so happened to have a brand new outpatient program for exactly that. An attractive young doctor came to see me to talk about it and asked me if I thought my sexual addiction would be an issue with the other patients. I assured her that it wouldn't. The other guys were very curious about how they could get a meeting with that doctor too but I kept my secret to myself.

So now we’ve come back around to the eating, the exercising, the purging, the starving, the nightmare. Now that I wasn’t drinking or doing drugs, I wasn’t acting out sexually and I was on top of my mental illness, the eating disorder came out in all its glory. It was his turn. He had the whole show to himself. No longer a background character he was now the star. There was just one problem. It didn’t work anymore. The two things I am most self conscious about are my overall weight and my neck. Well, the bulimia was making me gain weight and it was making my throat swell up like a frog. But could I walk into a room of women and be “the dude with the eating disorder”? Could I say it out loud? Being an addict was almost sexy for a musician. The same goes for the sex addiction and the mental illness to a somewhat lesser degree. But a male with an eating disorder? Not sure how to spin that one sexy. It was humiliating. Eating disorders are for women. I mean, I don’t want to sound sexist but that’s just the way it is, right?

I remember my first day. I walked into a lovely room. There was a piano in the corner that I wanted desperately to play but I didn’t want it to seem like I was looking for attention (a dilemma I have in any room with a piano). I was the first one there. I had to be evaluated by the nurse and so I was gone when the others arrived. When I rejoined them I was introduced to two women. A cute, quirky, painfully thin blonde girl and a serious, brazen, painfully thin Asian woman. I was jealous because they got to be thin and I was legitimately overweight. For them, fat was only in their head. Lucky bastards. These were my “classmates”. Then there was the head of the program, three interns, one nurse, one nutritionist and a receptionist. So three patients, seven staff and only one guy.

It didn’t take long to get comfortable. I actually really enjoyed my time there. The head of the program was amazing and I quickly bonded with the women there. I hadn’t been social at all since my wife left so it was comforting being somewhere everyday interacting with people who soon became my friends. It didn’t seem strange anymore to be in that room talking about my eating disorder. I would have preferred if that hadn’t referred to it as E.D. but otherwise it was cool. That was just the safety of that room, though. When we would go to the cafeteria I was aware that the other people there knew that we were the eating disorder program. After a few days of it, I got used to that too. I disclosed to my family in an email. I was starting to dig out from under the stigma. Even so, it was still easier to say eating disorder than bulimia. It seemed there was always another layer to peel.

Full disclosure: the program did not allow any exercise nor did it attempt to help me lose weight even though I weighed 216 lbs. This bothered me from day one and I concocted a brilliant plan. I would get done, lose the necessary amount of weight and get back in shape and THEN I would implement the program. They didn’t understand. I’m a musician. I have a brand new album coming out that is the album I’ve been waiting all of my life to make. I’m finally taking the next step and I’ll be damned if I’m going to let my weight jeopardize my chances. This kind of shit actually makes a difference. There just aren’t a whole lot of famous, fat frontmen. Especially these days. One of my best friends is a megastar and he’s incredibly handsome and thin and works out like crazy. There’s pictures of him all over the internet and women swoon. He is unbelievably talented but would it be the same if he put on 50 lbs? How the hell could people accept me at this weight? I certainly couldn’t. I look like a regular person. So, I returned home and, after a few weeks, fell back into old patterns. However, instead of dieting and exercising, my ass went right back onto my bedroom chair and put the remaining pounds back on and an extra ten for good measure. The mere thought of the album release was causing me to do what I always have done: self-sabotage.

So now the album is out. We’re ready to do a big promotional push. They want my promo photos. Oops. I don’t have any. The last one I did was a decade ago and I was thin and perfect then. No way in hell I’m getting my picture taken now. I would rather not push the album. Okay, let’s put off the photo shoot for eight weeks. I’ll do an intense six week workout, barely eat, and then do the master cleanse at the end. I can lose 40-50 lbs and I will look gaunt at the end. Then, we take the pictures and I go back to being an outspoken advocate for healthy body image! Problem solved. After a few days of deliberation I knew I couldn’t live that level of hypocrisy. My album is about healing and acceptance and love. How can I offer that to others while feeding into the same bullshit machine that says my music doesn’t matter because I look like a regular person? I can only tell you to love yourself exactly how you are if I’m sexy enough to have the platform to say it from? Nope. Doesn’t work. I’m getting off the ride.

And then, after surrendering, a solution came to me. I could use my promo photos as a platform to bring awareness to eating disorders; especially among males who, as I’ve opened up about my issues, I have found suffer from eating disorders at an unbelievable rate but are far less likely to take about it. Suddenly, I wasn’t as afraid to be seen. I wasn’t quite as afraid to have my picture taken. I still want to look good. I’m still a little uncomfortable with the idea but I know that it’s for a greater good. I can take something that the music business uses to perpetuate an unrealistic ideal and I can use it to make a statement for the very opposite of that. It makes me a little less nervous to step in front of that camera. You have to understand, in my mind I am morbidly obese and I am disgusting. However, I know that me judging me is me judging you. Me saying I’m not good enough exactly as I am is me saying you’re not good enough exactly as you are. And I KNOW that you are worthy so I must be as well. We are all worthy. We are all loved and we are all worthy to give and to receive love. We are all worthy of speaking our truth and creating our art from our spirits regardless of how we feel about our bodies. Our spirits will shine through when we surrender to what we love. And then, as my dear friend Dina once said to me, "When we dare to dream big we give other permission to do the same."

I haven’t thrown up in a month. I am still overeating and eating unhealthy foods. I am putting on weight again because I’m stressed about all the work that has to be done to get to the promo photos. I’m becoming uncomfortable again. This is a work in progress. I’m not writing this from a place of success in order to tell you how to fix these problems. I am writing this to say that I am in it with you. Truth will take that horrible darkness that tells us we’re not worthy and it will bring it into the light where it will disappear. Let’s do this together. Let’s give better than what we were given. Let’s teach the little ones to give better than we gave. We can heal- each other and ourselves- for generations to come and even for the ones that have passed. The river runs both ways. This is our service work while we walk this planet. This is a story of redemption and it’s a story for everyone. I LOVE YOU!

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How Long Does It Take to Have an Empty Stomach?

By Dr. Mercola The question posed in the headline is a common one learn by doctors everywhere: “How long does it take to have an empty stomach? ” It’s an important question for anyone taking prescription drugs because what the hell are you feed and sip, as well as the timing of your snacks, can affect the course certain medications work. Beyond that, there is currently appreciate in becoming aware of the health benefits associated with regularly emptying your stomach. If your first belief, when you hear the words “empty stomach, ” is a negative one, it’s time to update your thinking. Not simply are you able live on an empty stomach, you can also thrive. In my experience, emptying your stomach as a daily habit — through intermittent fasting or another safe type of fasting — can boost your health and well-being. The influences can be so radical that you actually may be able to reduce( or potentially eliminate) your use of prescription drugs as your health improves. Taking Medications? How Do You Know When Your Belly Is Empty? “Ask Well, ” a medical question and answer aspect presented in The New York Times, 1 recently fielded this investigation: “Many medications should be taken on an empty stomach. How do you know when your belly is evacuate? ” Dr. Richard Klasco, assistant prof of emergency drug at the University of Colorado School of Medicine, who provided the answer, wrote, “Two hours after eating is a petroleum rule of thumb. A more accurate answer depends on the stimulants you are taking and your medical conditions.”2 Klasco goes on to note that experiment on gastric emptying — the length of hour it takes for your stomach to return to empty after a snack — has been going on since the 1940 s. Over the years, the experimentations have changed based on scientific and medical improvements. Since 1966, nuclear medication, which involves the use of a small amount of radioactive material to eject photon vigor, has remained as the established criterion for quantifying gastric emptying. Says Klasco: 3 “Standards for such testing have been set by the American Neurogastroenterology and Motility Society and the Society of Nuclear Medicine. They state that a normal stomach should be 90 percentage evacuate after four hours.4 The difference between service standards and the earlier examine probably reflects differences in meat. Solids take longer to digest than liquids; flabs take longer to digest than protein or carbohydrates. The[ U.S .] Food and Drug Administration[ FDA] … defines an empty belly as ‘one hour before eating, or two hours after eating.'” Klasco indicates the FDA’s two-hour rule is only an estimate, which means your stomach “will probably not be completely empty” after two hours, he asserts.5 In addition, Klasco emphasizes the fact that the expectations for an empty belly vary widely from medication to medicine. It’s best, he says, to spoke the packet set that accompanies all prescription drugs dispensed in the U.S. and to clarify any uncertainties with your doctor. The insert includes, Klasco says, each drug’s FD-Aapproved prescribing datum. It is often located glued to the medicine packet in the shape of a tightly folded, fine-print flyer.”6 For easier see, you may want to review the insert details online at DailyMed, an internet site operated by the U.S. National Library of Medicine — a limb of the National Institutes of Health( NIH) — that contains more than 105,000 detailed drug listings.7 With respect to stomach emptying and drugs, Klasco mentions some medical conditions, like diabetes, can delay gastric emptying, whereas a bariatric surgery can accelerate it.8 Again, check with your doctor to find out the best evacuating guidelines for your particular situation. How Fasting Positively Affects Your Mitochondria and Your Health By far, the best and quickest itinerary to an empty belly is to stop eating, otherwise known as fasting. This simple act of forgoing meat for a certain period of time not only ensures belly emptying, but it have now been validated as a powerful lifestyle tool for combating insulin resistance and obesity, as well as chronic diseases like cancer and many other health problems. Not merely does fasting upregulate autophagy and mitophagy — two of your body’s natural cleansing procedures necessary for optimal cellular renewal and part — but it also triggers the generation of stem cells. Beyond that, cyclically abstaining from meat and then initiating refeeding also massively encourages mitochondrial biogenesis, the process by which brand-new mitochondria are created. Mitochondria are the powerhouse of your cells, producing about 90 percent of the vigour being generated in your figure. Because energy is needed to support almost every bodily process, without healthy mitochondria you will be more vulnerable to illness and illnes. Your mitochondria likewise act as the coordinator for apoptosis — programmed cell death — an important process to ensure the deaths among malfunctioning cells that might otherwise degenerate into cancer. There’s even prove showing fasting can help prevent or even overrule dementia because it helps your figure clean out toxic debris. The reason for this is because when autophagy increases, your torso starts breaking down and recycling old protein, including the beta amyloid protein in your brain that is believed to contribute to Alzheimer’s disease. While water-only fasting can be extremely beneficial for those struggling with excess load and/ or Type 2 diabetes, compliance can be difficult. Fortunately, research has confirmed that similar answers, although it is not as profound, can be achieved through intermittent fasting. This type of fasting involves following a meal-timing schedule where you’re fasting for at the least 16 hours every day and feeing all of your meals within a six- to eight-hour window. Are You Caught in a Cycle of Grazing and Snacking? Fasting Can Help In the occurrence you’ve not yet considered trying intermittent fasting, I would like to once again remind you of the enormous health benefits associated with this practice. You may be avoiding intermittent fasting because you associate “fasting” with starvation or simply because it seems too daunting and challenging to attain the necessary adjustments. As mentioned, the goals and targets with this type of fasting is to forego meat for at the least 16 hours per day. As such, you will want to hop-skip either the first or last-place snack of the working day.( I recommend the first snack .) As such, you will consolidate all of your calorie intake into the remaining cube of eight or fewer hours. I have had great success with intermittent fasting and highly recommend you take your first banquet at around lunchtime. I also admonish you avoid devouring anything at least three hours before you go to bed. The theory of intermittent fasting is still catching on in the U.S ., a country plagued by all-day grazing and the continuous accessibility of meat round the clock. While grocery stores and eateries used to close by 8 or 9 p. m ., many establishments now remain open until midnight and some 24 hours per day, seven days a few weeks. Authors of a 2017 learn published in the periodical Nutrients, reviewing 35 years of snacking demeanor by American adults, stated: 9 “Results show that snacking remains a significant component of the U.S. diet and the meat expended at these snacks — sugar-sweetened beverages, desserts and sweets and salty snacks — are not the types of meat recommended by the U.S. dietary guidelines.” If you realize constant snacking is crippling your health, please examine my “Intermittent Fasting Infographic” for detailed information about this mode of eating and the recommended period windows you are able to establish. If forgoing eating for 16 hours seems overwhelming at first, given a smaller objective and work your behavior up. If your experience is anything like excavation, the hours you set aside to give your body’s digestive and other systems a break from meat will grow health benefits beyond your imagination. In hour, as you begin to realize some of the health benefits, you will likely become more motivated to do intermittent fasting on a regular basis. The Health Benefits Available From Intermittent Fasting When done well, intermittent fasting delivers a number of impressive health benefits. You will certainly discovered others that are meaningful to you beyond what is listed below. Research demonstrates intermittent fasting: 10, 11, 12 * Increases your cognitive function — Intermittent fasting improves your cognitive purpose by providing your brain with its favor fuel: fat instead of glucose. Studies indicate intermittent fasting are contributing to the prevention of Alzheimer’s disease and Parkinson’s because of the boost in brain-derived neurotropic factor( BDNF ), a protein that is both neuroprotective and brain-stimulating. * Minimizes food cravings and thirst stabs — While you may think you’ll be depriving your figure through fasting, the truth is it is a helpful technique known to eliminate cravings and reduce hunger stabs. It does this mainly by moving your figure away from dependence on glucose for energy. * Normalizes your insulin and leptin sensitivity — Your body’s blood sugar tier is closely regulated not only by insulin, but likewise by leptin. Both hormones affect your food intake and load, as well as your risk of chronic diseases such as diabetes. As mentioned, intermittent fasting shiftings your form away from being dependent on glucose, which then curtails your carbohydrate craves, thus normalizing your insulin and leptin sensitivity. * Promotes cellular regeneration — Intermittent fasting promotes cell regeneration by triggering autophagy, a natural, “self-eating” process your torso uses to recycle damaged cells. It helps inhibit cancerous rises and the process of developing chronic disease. If you are eating throughout the day every day, your form has very little time for restore and rehabilitation. By imparting it a break from eating, your figure can alter its focus to growing brand-new cells, cleaning up cellular debris and removing poisons — activities it cannot perform otherwise. * Shifts your torso to ignite flab for fuel — Restriction your meat intake forces your figure to switch away from glucose to igniting fat as a source of energy. This change often results in weight loss and is conducive to other betterments based on the fact fat is a more efficient and longer-burning fuel. Contraindications Associated With Intermittent Fasting To be successful with intermittent fasting you will want to ensure your doctor approves and that you do not have a serious medical precondition for which it would be contraindicated. By the behavior, fasting beyond 24 hours is not recommended for children. A better style to aid a child lose weight is to restrict or remove refined grains and sugary meat from their diet. Fasting may not be recommended if you are TAGEND * Malnourished — If this is your situation, you will want to put your places great importance on eating healthier, most nutritious food and adding supplements as needed * Pregnant or breastfeeding — As a mom this is necessary a incessant render of nutrients protecting your baby’s health rise and progress; fasting could set both the health of you and your babe at risk * Taking drug — If you’re on drug, check with medical doctors before taking up fasting. That said, even if your doctor approves, you’ll need to take care with drugs that must be taken with food. Metformin, aspirin and similar medications can cause stomach upset or belly ulcers when taken on an empty belly. The danger of fus is especially high if you’re on diabetic medication. * Underweight — If you have a figure mass indicator( BMI) of eighteen. 5 or lower, fasting is not safe for you because it may increase the stress on your torso and/ or cause you to lose more weight. Tips to Ensure Your Success With Intermittent Fasting While you can simply restrict your devouring window to eight or fewer hours while continuing to eat and booze whatever you crave, you’ll get a lot more out of fasting if you TAGEND * Drink spate of sea and other health liquids — During fasting, make sure you’re getting enough liquids to keep yourself feeling full and satisfied. Boozing clean, pure water and beverages such as organic coffee and tea — in moderation — will be contributing curb meat cravings, especially as you two are begin fasting. As you might reckon, drinking booze, vigor drinks, soda and other unhealthy beverages would be counterproductive to fasting. * Eliminate processed foods from your diet — One of the advantages of fasting is detoxification. As such, you’ll recognise more health benefits by devouring whole foods such as organic vegetables, healthy flabs and grass fed meat. By eliminating processed foods from your diet, you will support your form in healing and detoxification. * Incorporate practise into your daily routine — Operating out in a fasted nation can deliver amazing outcomes. Without a ready furnish of glucose and glycogen from which to outline — because it has been depleted over the course of your fasted state and has already been to be replenished — your body is forced to adapt and pulling from the only energy informant available: fat stored in your cells. Some of those kinds of exercise I recommend include: high-intensity interval teach, extending, strolling, weight training courses and yoga. * Make sleep a high priority — Getting about eight hours of quality sleep a darknes will do wonders for your health. Most adults are chronically sleep-deprived, which has numerous negative health effects, including increasing the health risks of accidents and chronic diseases like diabetes and cancer. * Receive aid from your best friend and family — It is very important for you to have the support of your friends and family, specially the people with whom you live, as you undertake intermittent fasting. These tribes can share the travel and spur you in moments of weakness when you two are tempted to give up. With some thoughtful planning and careful consideration, you can empty your stomach and unleash a whole new level of health through intermittent fasting. For even better results and to maximize your fat-burning potential, I indicate you mix intermittent fasting with a cyclical ketogenic diet. For all the details on how to do this, please refer to my clause “Why Intermittent Fasting Is More Effective Blended With Ketogenic Diet.” Read more: articles.mercola.com http://dailybuzznetwork.com/index.php/2018/10/23/how-long-does-it-take-to-have-an-empty-stomach/